Kristen Stewart Talks About Her Mistakes, Shares Original Poetry & More

In the new issue of Marie Claire, Kristen Stewart is her usual refreshingly candid self. The actress, 23, talks about being judged for her mistakes, her relationship with fashion, and her views on family and life. Check out some of the highlights.

On fashion designer Nicolas Ghesquiere, of Louis Vuitton: “Fashion has the best and worst people. The gems stick out. He was a designer I wanted to be around. He was so creative. If I have to walk red carpets, if I have to be in fashion, then I want to be with him.”

On starting a family: “I had it too good to not have that, too. If I were to put money on it, definitely, yeah. But you earn that, like, that’s so not here yet… I mean, at this point, I can’t tell you if I want to hang out on Saturday.”

Her original poem, My Heart Is A Wiffle Ball/Freedom Pole:

I reared digital moonlightYou read its clock, scrawled neon across that blackKismetly … ubiquitously crest fallenThrown down to strafe your foothills…I’ll suck the bones pretty.Your nature perforated the abrasive organ pumpsSpray painted everything known to man,Stream rushed through and all out intoSomething Whilst the crackling stare down sun snuckThrough our windows boarded upHe hit your flint face and it sparked.

And I bellowed and you parkedWe reached Marfa.One honest day up on this freedom poleDevils not done diggingHe’s speaking in tongues all along the pan handleAnd this pining erosion is getting dust inMy eyesAnd I’m drunk on your morselsAnd so I look down the lineYour every twitch hand drum saluteSalutes mine …

On her public persona: “I have an embarrassing incapability, seriously, of summoning fake energy… I’m just not very good on TV, and it’s not my main goal in life to get good at it. People are like, ‘She just can’t handle’-for lack of a better word-‘the spotlight.’ No, actually, I can’t, and that is totally who I am. I love being an actor, but I’m the last person to want to have a birthday party. I don’t try to force it or turn it into something else or fabricate this personality … so I totally agree when people say I’m, like, the most awkward person.”

On her mistakes: “I stand by every mistake I’ve ever made, so judge away.”

On drugs: “I’m such a control freak. I’m glad I grew up in this era because I think if I grew up in my parents’ age of drugs and discovery and crazy shit, I don’t think I would do drugs well.”