All that Glitters is Paper Magazine and Gold!
This week had been full of ups and strange downs. I was going to shoot for cover of Rolling Stone with david lachapelle and Lady Gaga. I got there and was in the makeup chair and they changed the concept and wanted me nude and body painted. After talking with my agent, we both knew was no way I was going to do this. So I had walked out and had them cast someone else. Yesterday Bravo called me to be on a show. I went down to meet with the casting and had to be up and at the studio by 7am today. After talking with the producers and seeing what they would have me be doing ..I chose to leave again. Im not kidding! I was really down and confused for a minute…then i snaped back into reality. I am not here to please people, i am not here for fame and attention. I am here doing what I do because I have a message. NOT ONE person I have met through my entire carrer thought I could accomplish anything. I was even told by my own companies I worked for that I would NEVER be in a mainstream magazine, NEVER be on t.v, NEVER be a personality or style icon and I was told I would NEVER succed at anything I wanted to do. Now I am the one turing these jobs down because they are not me. I don’t want 15 min of fame on tv or in a magazine. The only person I have to please is myself. I will do it my way and the right way. I do not need to sacrafice my own beliefs to be on a silver screen or in a glossy paperback…leave those jobs for the weak. Alot of people told me I was crazy this week… No im not crazy, im just not desperate.
On a happier plus note Me and Anna attended the paper magazine party! She is such an amazing person and deserves the world!
I was flipping through the channels this morning and i came across MTV MADE. Nothing gets me more upset and pissed off then people who pick on other kids in school. They hate everything about themselve, there so insecure they have to bring down other people so make up for it. I was always the person in school who tryed to befriend the ones being made fun of. I always went out of my way to be nice and hang out with them. Everyone I went to high school with who was “the cool kids, prom queen, cheer leaders,” who treated everyone else like they were nobody… guess what there doing now? Living in the same town, same friends, working at a local store, and having babies. THOSE PEOPLES OPPINIONS MEAN NOTHING!! Please do not let anything those kids say to you at school bother you… do it for me if not yourself. I wish i had the confidence and knowledge I have now when I was 16. Nothing is glamerous and cool about being mean and rich. Im sorry it’s just not.
Drama sorry It just has to be said and it has been bothering me a lot latley.
Oh hi breakfest you are so cute. I have been cutting all my food out with heart cookie cutters.. I can not help it!
The Vivienne Westwood Melissa shoes are seriously my new obssession. Chic Little Devil has them in a bunch of colors! I am wearing a pair to the Pixar Up preimere tomorrow afternoon..along with a white leather dress!
Since I was going to be at a studio for 12 hours today and now im not, im going to sushi with friends and stoping by Marc Jacobs to check out there new summer line. Today is my relax day and man do I need it!
What is the one Movie comming out you can not wait to see!??
Love and Glitter,
Audrey xoxo
