The Bully Project
As some of you may know, bullying has been a huge part of my life. I have decided to share part of my story with you hoping to bring some awareness to this awful epidemic. for me, bullying started at a very young age. I was constantly teased about my appearence. In elementary school it was comments about being too thin or about my acne. Once I entered middle school I got diagnosed with scoliosis. I had to wear a back brace for the next year. One of the boys in my class would push me into lockers, knowing it was a struggle for me to get up cause of my brace. He would punch me in the back where my brace didn’t cover my skin. He called me awful names & carved slut into my desk. The school did nothing. They put tape over my desk & ignored the abuse, I even got blamed for half of it. He lied, said I had kicked him & pranked called him. Eventually the school caught on to his shit & he was expelled. My bullying didn’t end there.
Entering high school I still didn’t have a group of friends, I was always the outsider, I felt alone. Still getting teased for having bad skin killed me, I wanted to rip my face off. Once 10th grade started I returned to school with a mohawk. I should of known my strict uniform wearing Catholic school wouldn’t approve, but I didn’t really care at that point. Kids would write things on my locker about how I was a poser, a fake, a loser. They would yell at me in the halls. I got called a Nazi. I had no friends. After a month of this abuse I started ditching class & developed a stronger relationship with self harm. Once my parents caught on I was removed from the school & put into treatment for self harm, depression & anxiety. Once I finished treatment I was able to start at a new school. This school was more excepting but I still had a hard time fitting in. School was never my thing. Once I graduated I finally started to feel like I belong. I made real friends & was able to make a career out of my writing. I wanted to be open about my life so people could relate & know they are not alone. It took me a long time to be able to feel comfortable in my own skin. I have turned to drugs, alcohol, self harm & eating disorders, trying to cope with my pain. In the end, the only thing that could help me was myself. I am now sober & living a healthy life. Yes, I have my ups & downs, but don’t we all? Bullying is always around us. I am 23 and I still get harrassed online. The internet has made bullying so easy. They can just hide behind their computer and never deal with consequences.