A letter to you.

hi you.

i wanted to appologize. i’ve been a bad blogger lately. I used to be a girl sitting alone at the nerd table in the cafeteria writing out her soul everyday over on Highkicksandhighhopes, and then when my dance career sort of ended, I moved over here to Buzznet and suddenly all these flashy things like makeup and fashion and bands mde me feel like, I needed to talk about those things.

I am afraid of two things.

#1- I think being happy and in love has made me totally boring. I am willing to accept never writing another good heartbreak blog because my heart is in a good place. Totally worth it. But still scary.

#2- That you are all going away. That my little army is pissed off at me for betraying my inner soul writer, and posting silly videos for The Insider and on Buzz, and now are finding your soul pancakes somewhere else.

I wanted to formally appologize to all of you for being a weirdo, and slightly off course lately. It’s been very hard to inspire all of you, when I haven’t been able to inspire myself. It’s been really hard to let you guys into the inner workings of my heart, for a few reasons. Everytime I talk about anything, someone harrasses me about it being about Ryan. That i am not over it, I cannot dish out advice, talk about my heart, past or present, any one of my relationships without it being ALL about Ryan. It’s exausting to have to defend myself, so i just stoped talking about love, or losing love, or gaining love. Veto’d love.

Also, I am just not sure where you all are at, or what is happening in your lives. I have no idea what you guys wants to see or hear and I’m sort of uninspired for ideas of what to write about. I am so busy doing all these things that I don’t have time to take class, see a movie, read a book and talk about why I loved it, or a least have some sort of fire build in my heart.

So, I would ask this. Comment me below and tell me whats going on in your life. What you want me to talk about, and go through my buzznet profile today and find some of your favorite blogs on here and tell a friend, @keltiecolleen me about it, or tell 5 friends on facebook to come read my blog. The more people coming, and the more we talk the better our lives inspiring eachother and growing will be.

I love you all!

xKC