David Bowie Knows Best

I was watching a documentry tonight about artists and their inspirations. David Bowie’s advice was “Never compromise your work to please someone else. That is when every artist fails.” I thought that was the most amazing advice and what i really needed to hear.

I don’t give up, I don’t quit & I don’t fail…. I just get tired. Im tired of people thinking they do so much for me, when in reality they only give me false advice and beat me down. Im tired of people pretending to be my friend and then ripping me off right in front of my face… but done in such a tasteless desperate fashion. Im tired of people giving me advice that they think is in my best intrest, only to go behind my back, steal money to push their own horrific excuse of a clothing line instead of mine. Im tired of people thinking I will work for free and watch them pocket money at my expense. Im tired of being of being told to act a certain way. Im tired of being told to work harder. Im tired of always having to be the professional one and keep my mouth shut while letting people get away with industry murder infront of my face. Im tired of lies and money hungry people who think they can walk all over everyone and treat them with disrespect. Just yesterday I had to walk out of a meeting because a multimillion dollar company expected me to do HUGE amounts of promotion and work for free! This industry is so nasty.

Im just tired and as far as im concerned thats the best thing a person can be. You have to reach that tipping point before you choose to make drastic changes your life needs. It took me about five years to reach my limit with friends, my carrer and life. Its time to wake up, take control, stand up, say no and get back what I have lost. In the past month of putting my foot down my life has taken a turn for the best in more ways then you can imagine.

Tokyolux has been 100% my creation. My manager/business partner trusts me and gives me 120% full creative control on everything and im so greatful for that. Coco De Coeur is getting a makeover and facelift do to horrible business decisions. I would like to publicly apologize to anyone who has had bad customer service in the recent months, trust me when I say the measures are being taken to make sure that never happends again. So many times in the past I was turned into a puppet at other peoples expense. Those days are more then far gone. I use to put up with unwavering abuse in this industry because I felt like I had to. No one has too. I always am worried about hurting people feelings or being rude, so I would allow myself to get treated a certain way because I don’t believe in lying, using and beating people down to get what you want. Never have never will. I believe in honesty, trust and hard work… which believe it or not the majority of people on this earth know nothing about.

I had to get this off my chest… its something that has been bothering me for such a long time. I know some of my readers can relate to this. Don’t let yourself get to the tipping point like I did, stand up now. Stop living at other peoples expense. We could get hit by a car, not wake up or die tomorrow. Start living for yourself today because if you don’t, no else will.

Sorry if this came off negative at all. If anything its ment to be a positive wakeup call to anyone stuck in a current situation they’re not happy with!

Im standing in my kitchen in a lavender nightgown eating blueberries and its almost 3am…i think its time I get some rest. When in doubt look to your idols.