William Control Blog and Journals

Chapter 16:

 

      You Are My Sunshine...

        I find my mom and I are growing farther and farther apart. I mean, I know we weren't all that close to begin with. After the one night stand I had at that party Adam brought my to, I've never been the same. i've been avoiding mirrors, avoiding people, and am trying so hard to erase any and every incident that has happened, good or bad, within the few months that have passed.

 

 In the kitchen...

       My mom is on the phone, as always. I don't bother looking her in the eye, saying 'Good Morning', or anything, I just walk by. Walk by and head for the fridge. My mom removes the phone from her ear and plaecs her right hand mouth piece. "William, honey, please, please, please don't do anything to worry me---". "Mom", I cut her off, "please, please, please STOP worrying." She stared at me long and hard, "fine", she sighed, "but be careful." By then I was heading out the kitchen and out the front door. I didn't really have anywhere to go.      

       While walking around the corner, I stuck my hands in my pocket and felt what seemed to be paper cruppled at the bottom. I pulled it out and unfolded it. It was the number I had written down from my dad's work. I pull out my cellphone and dialthe number. It begins to ring.

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Hello?

"Um, can I speak with David please?"

And which David would that be?

"Oh, sorry, um David Philson, please."

One moment please....

...Hello?

"Dave, it's me."

Oh, hello wiL.

"Can I come and see you?"

You mean, at my job?

"Duh."

That'll be fine, yes.

"Thanks, bye."

See you then.

               

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 Minutes later...

         I enter the building and go up to the 12th floor. I walk up to the front desk. The lady was a little on the heavy side, she was filing her long, red-painted finger nails. "Excuse me, I'm here to meet with David...Philson." She looks me up and down and then down at the clipboard in front of her. "I'm sorry, you're name isn't anywhere on here. Please have a set over there, sir." She points over to the several chairs lined up against the wall by the door. I didn't have time to sit and wait. "Look, I need to see him!", I said, bagging my fist against the desk.

"Well, you can wait." She started an attitude.

I was losing this fight, so I jus thad to say it. "I'm his son." It sickend me.

"Oh. He said something about his son coming to visit. Please, go ahead in." That worked out just fine. Even though loath saying those three words, they help in many situation. You can just say that I like to take advantage of the whole "David being my father" situation.

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In the office:

      I knocked twice and heard no answer so I let myself in. I walk in and saw David lying on the lounge couch with headphones on. I walk up to him and tap his shoulder. He jumped, took off the headphones and turned around. "Oh, I thought you wouldn't be here until an hour later." No "Hi wiL" or "Hey, I wasn't expecting you." Nothing of the sort. "Hello to you too, David.", I said and for some reason I felt like a complete idiot.

"Please", he got up off the lounge chair, "have a seat."

I sat down and sighed. "So, what is it that you what to tell me?", he asked.

"Well, I'm not feeling like myself lately. I feel...different." My eyes shifted to the corner of the room by the bookshelf. Why can't I ever look him in the eye? I must be intimidated by him.

He cocked his head to the side, "In what way? Please, explain."

"I don't know. I guess after what happened I feel all paranoid and shit." I was rubbing the palms of my hands against the legs of my Jeans to wipe the sweat away. I kept getting nervous due to each question David asked me. He took a dep breathe...exhaled and placed his hand on his forhead, as if he had a headache or something. He stared me dead straight in the eyes. I had to look away. "wiL, look at me." I could feel his eyes burning through me like fire. "Look at me!" I jumped and turned to him, staring in his eyes.

"wiL", he said, "if you keep letting this haunt youfor the rest of your life then you will NEVER feelthe same, of course." He had a point, but I didn't really quite get where he was going with this conversation, more like therapy session.

I sighed, took a minute to gather my thoughts, "So what are you saying? Turn myself in?" God, I could only imagine what my momwould think or sayif she found out I stabbed my ex-girlfriend to death. "David, you can't be fucking serious. Look, I can't do that."

"And why not?" He looked at me over the frame of his glasses.

I had to say it, the truth, "It would KILL my mother if she found out! Please, I'm not asking for you to tell me to turn myself in, I'm asking for your help. Fuck, David, just tell me how to fix this!" I felt it again, that pain in my chest just kept tightening and twisting. I felt like I was going to break down.

   David took off his glasses. I had a feeling that what he was going to say wasn't what I wanted tohear him say, "You really want to fix this?" I nodded my head, I was too overwhelmed to speak. "Well, the best choice; Turn Youself In."

 

 

 

 

 

Hey Guys!

It's me, Haleigh.

And I just thought I'd let all you William Control/Aiden Fans

about this new site on myspace called DeathClub™

It's a brand new site, that just opened two days ago.

And I'm the co-owner. ^-^

It'd be really great if you added us!

and tell all your friends about it, too.

We're defiantly going to try and make this a very fxxking amazing

site for all of you.

myspace.com/deathclub666

see you guys there.

xo

 

William Control is the side project of wiL Francis of Aiden.

He is a Seattle native, and was influenced greatly by (yes you guessed it) Nirvana. William Control helps him deal with his daily struggle of addiction. wiL is an ex-drug addict and has been struggling to stay clean.

The album, 'Hate Culture' has been considered dark and perverse in the eyes of some people, while the faithful fans really don't give a rat's ass and just listens to it no matter who tries to force their opinions on them.

The more noted songs from this album has been 'Beautiful Loser' and 'London Town'. London Town end with a very controversial bit of an emergency call, which has caused many rumors, the truth of it is that the call was real, so if someone laughs you may want to smack them.

wiL Francis now has a poetry/picture book coming out soon that he is putting out with Lisa Johnson (photographer).

i suggest you definitely listen to William Control.

put this in your little bar up there and look William Control up!! : http://www.myspace.com/williamcontrol

wiL Francis, otherwise known as William Control in his solo endeavor,  frontman of Aiden, is a deep guy and he wants you to know it.  What do lyricists write other than music?

So yesterday i wokes up and im gunna skip this part coz it was just me getting ready and shiz, then we got the train up to london, went to camden, OHAI BETH!

then i went to get some food, came back, made a twat out of myself lmao, cuntttttt. Then i met Leigh, then some guys and yeah blah blah blah we had Lolz in the que (:

then this girl said that wiL Francis was round the corner, i had a bagel in my hand, so i shoved it in my bag and begged Leigh to come with me, but she wouldnt. BITCH (love you really :D) so i went off to talk to him. DIGHHEIGNJEOFHJWEMFIKW /dies. i was so embarased and nervous and scared and eurgh, just like freaking out, i didnt even think to get a photo, but i gave him my letter :D :D :D :D

Then i went back to Leigh crying LOLOL, and i was talking about Nick, and eurgh, he turned the corner and i seriously like pointed at him and went OH. MY. GOD.
it was so embarasing, and Leigh wont let it go, but MWAHAHA she fell over infront of Aiden and angel laughed at her. LOL that was the highlight of the night :D

But yeah,
they played good songs of course, lots of new stuff, wiL was funny as ever, i made out with some guy i hardly knew.
LOL Leigh i didnt tell you, you know the guy you thought was older then 15? Yeah i made out with him lmao.


i hope you had a good pizza/sexy time :D

xxx

i will talk more later (:

IM GOING TO AIDEN ON THE 7TH OF JUNE.

im freaking out, i last saw them in november 2007, and i saw william control in november 2008,  (met Nick Wiggins, oh yeeeeh). My friend Leigh is goingggg and im gunna hang out with her and shes gunna help me meet the guys, specially wiL coz she knows what he means to me, and omg. i shake everytime i think of it. I gotta write him another letter ahaa. Im so nervous, i just know im gunna cry lmao. Leigh said its okay if i do though lol.

 

The new albums awesome (:

 

Holy shit, i havent updated stories in ages, i have the chapters i just need to write them up. I MAY stop with my Ryden one, its not that good and im having troubles with it, whatcha think? But i got a new story im writing, its a vampires one again, but its not gunna be in chapters, gunna be a straight story, but i dont want it to be too similar to my other vampire ones. Coz that would be boring. But meh, Gina likes what ive wrote so far (:

 

xo

I have learned something very greatly this past early morning, DO NOT listen to London Town by William Control at 2 am. if you want to be paranoid the rest of the night go ahead.... so violent.... how stupid was the lady? she should have been quieter....

         So far wiL has told his father about the Julia incident and his father has tried to convice him to alert the authoritized, but wiL has refused and would rather live in guilt than telling the truth. wiL does tell someone else about his deep dark devilish secret.To whom it may be? You'll have to wait 'til the next chapter of The Last Sunrise.

 

Thank You