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Sometimes I wonder why people just can't get over things. I know that I am one of those people but when I get over something and I say I'm over it I usually mean it. I used to be best friends with this kid until I moved back to my old school. Come to find out he had said a lot of things after I left, and had done a lot of disrespectful things as well. Basically the end result was that we aren't friends anymore. I don't talk to him and he doesn't talk to me. Yet he manages to talk shit about me to my mother, and to continue to request I add him as a friend on facebook. It's been over a year since I've even talked to him. He's almost 19 and in my opinion should grow the fuck up. I think it's pretty sad that I can be a little more mature than him at 17 years old. He's an adult living in some fantasy land. The sad part is for a very long time I did blame myself for us not being friends. I never really verbalized it because I was ashamed. I was really angry and upset and a lot of things were said that shouldn't have been. I still don't regret being his friend, despite my lack of judgement during that time period. I don't think he realizes I was going through a lot during that time, and I'm sure I didn't understand whatever he was going through either. It was a very dark point in my life and I can honestly say I was at my lowest. Needless to say that until this day I remain sorry for everything. I've finally come to terms with the fact that we aren't going to be friends, and he's probably always going to hate me. I'm finally over it and I just don't understand why he can't be over it. Maybe I'm being selfish, maybe I am heartless, maybe we never should have been friends in the first place. It's whatever I guess. The only reason I write things on here is because nobody I personally know will see them.

why?

why are you still here?

why do you act like there's hope for us when there's not?

Why say you love me when you never did?

why lie to me?

i'm not weak like you, i can handle the truth

why do i still love you ?

why do i dream of you?

all those nights i can't sleep, i lie awake thinking of you

and when i sleep, you haunt my dreams

why?

I lie awake and try so hard not to dream of you, but who can decide what they dream. And dream I do

   - Evanescence

The Orange County Register ran a sports column from Mark Whicker this Monday, which imagined that Jaycee Dugard, who was kidnapped, raped, and imprisoned in a tent in Phillip Garrido's backyard, had missed out on 18 years of sports in Southern California. (She's from Northern California, for the record.) The article quickly spread across Twitter and Facebook and Whicker posted an apology for the piece last night. I'm here to inform you, if it wasn't obvious already, that Whicker's apology is a lie.

Find out more about Mark Whicker's apology inside...

The Cincinnati-based, psych-folk band, WHY?, has a new album out September 22nd.  Find out more about WHY?

Why? WHY? Buzznet's band of photographers came forth to answer this question with their cameras. This week, as with every week, we're left surprised and in awe of this community's creative talents. Come on in to see how your fellow peers responded to this week's assignment, "Why?"

Full results inside...

Why do they call these   wife beaters? If anyone knows please tell me !!

-ChristyVampireAbscission

Why did I create a new buzznet account? I haven't even logged onto this in over two weeks I think.  Just one more site to add onto my internet addiction.  I mean really now, I have an account with myspace (multiples at this point), facebook (which I don't even like), twitter (so effin addicting), livejournal (multiples at this point too), tumblr (which makes me feel inadequate with it's tumblarity), last.fm (which I only sometimes scrobble on), and now this one again too.  Probably others that I am forgetting at this point in time, but I don't even know why I have them?  It's not like I talk to that many people on any of them that I need it.  I think it is just our culture's way of communicating with everyone and no one all at the same time; trying to make us feel like we all mean something.  I play into all of it too because, I, just like everyone else, want to mean something, to be someone. 

Not that these are all bad sites to say the least or that I don't actually talk to people on them, I do; it's just so inconsequential that sometimes that I have to ask myself why.  Why am I even typing this?  I guess that's my human logic working at it's best.

Just like the description I have up on my tumblr says, "There is more to me than this blog, but there is less to me than you might think. I'm not putting myself down. I'm just saying we're all just people looking for a voice and someone to listen. Are you listening?".

Take from this what you want, it is not meant to be life changing, but I just wanted to throw my voice into the sea of voices, my little inconquestial drop of water.

=]

-Laura 

                                 I am going back 2 school 2morrow...WHY=(...i wanna stay on break...i wanna know who came up with the idea of SCHOOL...so i can stick a knife up their ass=)hehe....seriously...when we go back i know we  are gonna have projects and stupid research papers due....the only reason i luv going to my school is to hang out with my friends in class, lunch, and go to the movies later on....sometimes we text each other in class but me and Jake do that mostly...he is my bestfriend n' SECRET crush....dont get me wrong...i'm very EXCELLENT in school...have a 4.0 GPA and everything(not showing off; not my personality)....i'm also into anime=) and like to EAT BABY FOOD...yeah now u know my MOST DEEPIEST AND DARKEST SECRET...haha....and one more thing before i get off the computer....the teachers at my school need to know that us students are HUMAN...all they do is give us work and classroom discussions...BORING...but i guess thats what i get for been in all advance classes and AP classes....i should have probably FAILED the PSSA/BENCHMARK/PSAT....HAHA...too late=)

cant say not now sorry