violence Blog and Journals

Whats this about? Ray asked.

Im not going anywhere, Brendon said holding me tightly.

Let go of her! Ray said protectfully.

No I wont! Brendon said back.

Guys! Shut the fuck up and let me talk! I screamed.

They all looked at me.

Ray, I dont think its working out. Im going to break up with you.

When i said those words my heart broke and i felt my eyes become watery. Did i make a big mistake? Was i really in love with Ray more then with Brendon?

Tears poured from my eyes while Ray looked at me with pity.

Whats your reason? He asked.

I couldnt let myself say that i didnt love him because the truth is, I trully did love him.

I...I..

He put you up to this didnt he! Ray said.

No She loves me more then she loves you! Brendon screamed.

Ray pushed me out of the way.

That didnt come out of her mouth, Ray said while shoving Brendon.

Yes it did! Brendon said shoving Ray back.

Ray made a face and jumpped on Brendon. Ray threw punches at Brendon while Brendon tried covering his face. Then Brendon flipped him over and started punching him back. I couldnt take it. They were seriously doing damage to eachother.

STOP! I screamed.

They kept fighting.

STOP! I screamed.

They wouldnt stop fighting.

I SAID STOP! I screamed louder.

They stoped fighting. Brendon had a busted lip and blood was pouring from his head. Ray had a black eye and his nose was crooked.

Look at you guys! Your fighting over me? Theres nothing special about me! I knew that i was going to cost trouble.

I took the knife from the cover and pointed it at my neck.

Is this what i should do? To keep the peace around here? I asked.

Danny! Put that knife down! Dont do something your going to regret! Ray told me.

All i want to do is make everyone smile. Everyone be stress free and im bringing this to all of you. I think its time to end ma life, I said while slightly pushing the knife on my neck.

NO! Brendon screamed.

We will stop! Please dont!! Brendon cried.

He had tears in his eyes. Real tears. Ray was just looking at me in fear.

Does that mean.... Brendon really loves me more?

I pushed the life atlittle in on accident and then i couldnt breath. I cut something i shouldnt have. I dropped the knife and started gasping for air.

CALL 911! Brendon screamed while running toward me.

He put me on his lap and started stroking my hair.

Shush, Its going to be all right, He said trying to calm me down.

They are on there way! Ray said with fear.

Brendon held me in his arms. I felt his tear fall on my neck. I just felt Ray stare burn the side of my head.

My heart grew for Brendon. I finally opened my eyes. Ray will always just be my bestfriend. He will never actually love me like the way Brendon does. Brendon wants to protect me and wants me his. I took the last breath i had and managed to say.

I love You Brendon.

Before i faded to black.