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Today was probably one of thee worst days ever!

But when i had gathered myself together i realised what someone had said to me, they had made it out to me that i was a bit vain, stuck up, self absorbed but really, i'm not.

People always tell us to treat others as you would like to be treated, repsects everyone else yeah? Well, i do treat other people nicely. I'm not trying to big myself up but i have manners. I hold doors open for people, i always say please and thank you, if i sleep out at a friend's house i thank their parents for "letting me stay the night". It's common courtesy! WHICH IS SOMETHING PEOPLE LACK. I mean c'mon, it's not hard to do. I'm not asking for anything big, just have some respect for others. If you respect yourself as a person and you like to believe you have a level of dignity, show it.

I'm sick to death of walking the streets being slagged off when i do nothing to these people. I'm not up myself, but if you don't have any manners, why should i have manners for you? You're not gunna open the door for me, then i'm not gunna give you a 2nd look am i?

Answer me this?

 

AdamSmith

x

hey guys

 

i just had a thought, your probs all gonna disagree and shit on me

but i thought it would be a nice idea if we actually saw what everyone actually looked like

you know. no photoshopping, make up free photos? cus when you talk to someone you wanna see what they look like not what they look like with 100tonnes of make up on or what they wanna look like thanks to photo shop.

i just think it would be a nice idea, so everyone wasnt stressing over how nice their hair looks or how much eyeliner they've got on

 

tell me what you think, if you like the idea ill go ahead first

write back

kxkx

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ha, bad times.
i just realised i have no blogs on here yet ;O
but to be fair i rarely use buzznet much. argh so yes today i felt horrible i'm really ill ):
and it was freezing outsitde but i still wore shorts ;) i hate jeans haha.
i missed my bus and had to wait like half an hour in the freezing cold for next bus ,
then when i got on some man in a wheelchair sat opposite me and his brakes weren't working so
everytime the bus turned he came swerving into me. i felt like laughing so bad.
mhm when i finally got in town went to go see quantum of solace i'm not a fan of bond films or action films
in general but i actually enjoyed this.
ah i hate feeling ill i have no energy whatsoever and i need it to get some college work done.

i love winter, sitting in starbucks drinking hot chocolate , wrapping up warm, christmas lights, its really cosey but i hate the cold and the illness' that come with winter ):
but christmas isn't far away  ;D

i can't stop messing with my septum ring , and its still sore even though i've had it since halloween.

anyway i'm gonna go now i'm tired, just felt the need to write a first blog haha
byeee xxxx

;)

i havent had an ounce of sleep tonight (or should i just 'past tense' that whole sentence since its morning?) anyway, i am going up to monticello in a couple of hours for gavin degraw's homecoming show, wtf. im not from there, what do i even care about his 'homecoming'? but whatever, my friend asked me to go with her so why not. its a saturday away + great music...so it should be all good! i will let you guys know, haha.

also i am still not at home! my aunt was supposed to come back yesterday but she wont be home til monday! party time!

currently listening: waves and the both of us - charlotte sometimes. (charlotte is so going to pwn cute is what we aim for on my lastfm charts this week! haha. but i haven't been scrobbling for the past two days *sad*)

love
erica

okay Sunday night when I went to work, April was helping me with the kids clothes, and we was talking about our lifes and such. We had that we both live with our grandparentsd and mom in common. Then I was like I went to Brentwood Middle and she was asking do I know this person do I know that person. Than she asked me did I know Princess and Andrea Johnson I was like yep. Than somehow I dont know but she was like its 2 Jalisa, and one went to a private school and I was like I went to a private school and I was like S.L. Jones, I went in 7th grade. (I'm going to be a senior now) and she was like omg I cant believe its you.

Than she said do you know how much I HATE you. I was lik what what for. Then she was like because of you me and my boyfriend broke up. She said Lil Ron was like April Quell is cheating on you with this girl name Jalisa. She is sitting on his lap and sucking his dick and such. - I couldnnt believe what she was telling me. I told her I didnt do a thing with Quell. I was like Quell flirted alot and not once did he mention he had a girl.

I was like I was Juan girl, Juan girl. Than she was like I know Juan. Me and Juan went out from Aug. to Feb. Than she was like in Dec. he cheated on me with Vanity Newman, She was like it was nothing serious though.. I couldnt believe it but Its been so many years I was like whatever. Plus I was messing with other fellows, But not really till he left in Feb. Me and Juan wasnt even serious I was like 13.

But yeah it was wierd she was like I cant believe I'm meeting the girl that broke me and Quell up. It was so akward cause we work together and we was friends. I was suppose to pick her up fro work today at 12. She was like I'll call you to tell you if you need to but she hasnt call. She said she was going to let by gones be by gones so I hope she does. I was 13 back than and I did alot of things but that was 5 years ago. I kow this is long.

Like I never been confronted like that. I never beeen called the other woman. I hope she can forgive me with whatever she thought I did, Cause thats a long time to hate someone. But thats a day in the life of Jalisasoscandalous.

I am Alxander Walter. I am one of the most vain betches you will ever know of, but besides that, you should probably know about me.
When i graduate from high school i already am scheduled to move to california with Andrea(my lovely main betch) Isn't she pretty? She's gorgeous and just as vain as me. I am a fashion whore and somedays wear makeup and other days not.

I have my own plastic identity. I am myself. I'm not one of those fakes that think, "What will make me look cool" or "Scene." I just do because I think it would look good or I like it. I end up making a lot of friends that way, I also make a lot of enemies at the same time.  I'm not afraid of what you think.  

Ok so here is my post for the group Project beauty. I thought I'd post it on my own page considering the personal subject matter. It might be a good thing to go back and read at a later date as I have no idea how it's going to tur out at this point. I'm just writing for the sake of spilling out words. Here I go...

 

Kirsty May Lennox

21 years 11 months and 27 days old

Turning 22 in 3 days... but I want to stay 21 forever.

That's not to say I have qualms about growing old. I think I shall do that quite gracefully, allow my hair to go grey whe I reach a certain age, embrace the wrinkles and age spots that will come out when I can't hold them back with anti-aging cream any more. No my insecurities bout my age are surprisingly not about appearance. But that's probably because I've never been happy with myself at a young age, so I don't feel like I'm losing anything.

Ok so now I have to look at myself under a microscope right? Well there will be minimal pictures for you here as I'm not quite prepared to bare myself visually online. But I'm going to get emotionally naked with you all, so I hope you're comfortable with nudity!

Heads, Shoulders, Knees & Toes

Frome the top down...

Hair: Possibly my best feature, but only when it's behaving. I've always had thick, long, dark chocolate hair from when I was little. It was so long I could sit on it. But then my Mum died. She was the one who would sit there and comb out all of the knots, and tie it up in a ponytail in the hopes that it wouldn't get knotted as bad (it never worked!). So with her gone it left my Dad... not the best person to go to for grooming advice. He made me get it chopped off, all of it. Ever since then it's never been as thick or as long. It's still pretty long and thick now, but I can't help but wish I'd never gotten it cut so much. I also wish I hadn't dyed it so much really. When I was in school, people used to say I had black hair, and fr some reason that bothered me. I don't know why but I was adament that my hair was BROWN not black. So I dyed it lighter... not blonde, just a lighter brown. But as home kits have a tendancy to do, it went kinda wrong. It went gingerish seeing as I have red tones in my hair. It wasn't so bad, but it didn't suit my face. Then irony had its turn and I went through my gothic phase... meaning I dyed my hair black. Which is hilarious considering I was so self conscious about people thinking it was black in the first place.

So my hair now... its been dyed black a whole bunch of times. Which I don't mind as I like it glossy and black. But I've not had the money to do it, so it's faded and grown out. There are ginger bits coming through near the roots, which I surprisingly like. I hated my "ginger" hair before but now I like it. I'm constantly striving for more length: my hair can never be too long. I think it's the obsession I had with mermaids as a kid coming through again haha! But with length comes split ends, and my aversion to hairdressers scissors means I don't get it cut often. I just hate that hairdressers always take so much off! I straighten my hair too much, even though it's straight anyway. It always goes kinky and bleh. I wouldn't mind if it was actually curly. I adore shampooing and blow-drying my hair; its really theraputic. I've recently had a fringe cut (bangs)... well I did it myself. Its not my fault, the hairdresser didn't do it how I wanted. I love it, but its made my hair much more high maintainence. I have to straighten my fringe every day as it sticks out in weird places. And I sometimes miss not having a fringe. Oh and I cut it too short when I trimmed it up last month, but its grown now. So despite the split-ends and dye jobs and short home-made fringe my hair is good. I'm glad I started on a positive note as it's about to get gloomy!

(the length is tied back, but I like my fringe here)

Face: Well... it's not too tragic. I mean I'm not disfigure or anything. But sometimes that's how I feel. I have two words for you; Adult Acne. I never suffered really bad with spots before... you know, I just had the average pimples. But it seems that now I've got older, I keep getting massive red lumps, which are sore, persistant and ugly. They tend to like my chin most of all, and will hang around there for months. They don't even to into something I can squeeze. Just a hard, red lump, staring at me, mocking my otherwise clear complextion. My cheeks are clear and milky. I have pale skin, kinda a peaches and cream deal. But that only makes the redness of the spots look worse. Then theres the scarring they leave behind. I got them quite bad on my rigt cheek before, and it's still scarred. Sure I can cover it all up with make-up, but I still know whats under the cover-up. I constantly worry "has my make-up worn off over my spots?" and I check the mirror a lot. As my best mate says to me, "it's not vanity, its insecurity". I've tried all the spot treatments on the market, but I think its something internal. I'm half considering going to the doctors about it, but I've just started a herbal treatment so I'll see how that goes. I sometimes feel like my face is the only good thing I have going for me, as I hate my body so much, so my spots get me down more than they should.

(the only pic I have with no make-up. Its not aweful)

Nose: I used to like my nose. It's quite little, it's pierced and it's cute. But now I seem to have developed this hang up about it. I think it's bigger than it is, and it's a weird shape. I've got my Mum's nose but a smaller version. Hers was a big conk LOL! I'd never have a nose job though, I couldn't. I'm just being irrational about hating it. I love my nose ring lots so I focus on that.

(ignore the sunnies, it's all about the nose ring!)

Eyes: This really IS my best feature. There isn't a thing I would change about them, and it's the only thing I ever get vain about. They're big, brown and perfectly almond shaped. I love doing my eye make-up to enhance them even more. The lashes are long and black, and they take so well to mascara. I don't have many bottom lashes, but I dont care. My eyes are the window to my soul, so I hope my soul is as beautiful as they are ;) Ok maybe they do have a flaw though.... they don't work very well. I'm blind as a bat and wear contact lenses or glasses all the time. But I wouldn't have laser surgery on them.. I just couldn't. I love wearing glasses sometimes, even if they do annoy me on occation.

Mouth: My teeth... well they're perfectly straight, something I'm proud of. But they're discoloured. Yellowish and bleh. I want them whitened so bad. It's from not cleaning them enough as a child, and my parents were slack at making me do them. I clean them now all the time, but they're still a not a nice white. I want a hollywood smile... just not as white as Ross from that episode of Friends LOL! Onto my lips. I love my bottome lip. Its full, juicy and plump, it it looks good in gloss. But my top lip lets the team down. Its a lot thinner and is an odd shape. It not symmetrical and it anoys me when I'm putting lipliner on as I have to go over the line. But then again, they kiss just as well, mwah! xxx

Torso: Ok so I could go on forever about this, making myself feel shitty and not getting any positivity out of it. Basically I've got weight to shift and I don't seem to be able to right now. I have lost some weight in my time, but not enough. I hate my flabby belly, my bulbous bum and my thunder thighs. (But I don't think there's many people who don't feel like that.) I am denied the right to a belly button because of the bulges of fat on my belly. Two of them with a neat line seperating them. My cellulite has taken control and there's no saving me from its advances. My boobs are going south way too early. But again, I'd never have surgery, because I'd hate the thought of something that doesn't belong to me being under my skin. They're not so bad, and look good in a bra. Just don't take the bar off EVER! Maybe I would have lipo though, but only after Id tried my damnedest to shift the fat myself. I do eat healthily... most of the time, but I don't work out enough. I do exercise though, that's the important thing. I don't sit around all day on the couch, and I am motivated to change. I just need to find the drive from somewhere. I hate the way my thighs rub together. I can't wear a skirt without tights as it hurts. Attractive no? But I like wearing tights and there's many colourful patterns to keep me entertained.

Feet: Ew! they're big, with short toes and lots of hard skin. I worked retail for a while so I was on my feet all day. That caused all of the hard bits. I've tried moisturisers but they're taking a while to shift. But they are getting better.... until I work retail again then they'll go back to crappy! Oh and I hate my big toe. No reason, I just do. Its... Big.

 

To conclude...

Ok so I've not gone into it as much as I could have. I'm PMSing and feeling insecure, so I think the best thing for me right now was to consentrate on the good and gloss over the bad. It's constantly going through my head anyway, so I don't want to dwell on it more than I have to. At the ed of the day, only I can change what I don't like about myself. Theres no miracle cure, I'm not going to wake up a leggy size 0 model one day. Besides, do I really want to look that way? I like having curves of some description, just not as big as they are now LOL!

Well this is just a quick version of this and I'm going to come back to it at a later date. My thoughts change daily, so I shall update soon. I have to go put my mask on for work now, to cover up some of the little blemishes. If it's what I need to feel good about myself then you can't deny that.

lates
xoxo

Hey ya'll just doing a little update on everything since the last thing i wrote was really more about another person...

anywho the last week of schoolw as quite an interesting one,a nd possibly one that i will never forget. It all began with a bathroom, and ended with portable porn.


The bathroom incedent i really cant discuss unfortunatley without
the permission of the two others involved, but it was fun. the incident however did get me and another student 2 days worth of in school suspension X).


AND IT WAS SOOOO WORTH IT LIKE TOTALLY BETCHES.


of course all conversation turned to something to do with sex, as most conversations do in our math class. with the technology of cell phones advancing, especially those with smartphones, a few friends and i decided that we should go to xtube. it was quite fun, the friend watching it got mad or fustrated if you will with the fact that he couldnt watch the videos because the file was too large.


and then along the way we came across a video with involving a strap on, rotflmfaopipal!!!


lets see what else occured... tons of pics were taken and here i share with you a few.










my my my there were so many people i could barley find myself in these pics X)
on a more serious note eventually we approached the topic of haterz. And my friend frances [ see picture below ] gave a good point, why do gangsters, or cholos, or wateva complain about haterz when they go around hatin on people.You get what you give, and if you give hate you recieve hate. but i already know that you have made it to a level of fame when people who have never talked to you or even know you hate you, so ya keep hatin and ill keep doing my thang.



i also want to name drop my bffaeae marissa, gurl youre the shizz and you know it.


gosh im sooo happy i have really pretty friends.

also my grandmother brought up the point of how family is not suitable for children under 14, but they have an infant in it.
i was so lmfao when she told me that.


p.s. i apologize for having everything centered because i dont know how to reverse the codes or sumthing.

p.p.s. my current obssesions are scotty vanity and johnny boy
myspace.com/scottyvanity
myspace.com/omhjohnnyboy