tommylee Blog and Journals

[Tommy's POV]

 By the time we were having dessert Ruby was sat in my lap curling my hair around her fingers. Looking at her she gently pressed her lips against mine. Kissing back I feel her hand run down the side of my body down to my crotch and gently rubs me. Biting my lip all I can think of is my genitals. Getting off my lap she grabs my hand and leads me towards the exit. Quickly I pay for the meal and follow her to my car. Grabbing my belt she pulls me towards her and starts making out with me. Rubbing myself against her I hear her moan slightly. Putting my hand up her dress I feel her push at my shoulders.

[Ruby's POV]

 After pushing at his shoulders I see him look at me with a look of confusion. I know that some of it is the wine that's talking but I want him so bad and it's not every day you get to sleep with a rock star, but I'm not going to do it in a parking lot, you never know who's watching now-a-days.

 "Let's go back to yours." I say gently rubbing his chest. Nodding he quickly gets in the car and the same with me. Speeding back to his, I can't help myself but keep teasing him.

 Falling onto his bed I quickly take of his clothes and vice versa. Kissing my neck he makes his way down my body and starts teasing me. The lust in me rising each second, all I can think about is him inside me. Coming back up he slips his tongue in my mouth and enters me causing me to moan loud. Soon he picks up his speed making me scream his name in pleasure and scratching his back sexually which in turn makes him moan loud in my ear. Rolling he ends up under me and I start to ride him, slowly at first then gradually picking up the pace. It didn't take long until we both climaxed. Collapsing next to him I was panting, I couldn't believe how amazing he was. Looking at him I can see his chest rising and falling pretty fast.

 "Wow." I say still out of breath. Chuckling he agrees. Feeling tired I cuddle up to him and close my eyes while rubbing my thumb on his shoulder. Thinking that I'm never going to see him again I reluctantly go to sleep.

[Tommy's POV]

 Looking at her I see that she's fallen asleep on me. Pulling the covers over us I sigh heavily. I hate the fact I fall in love with women so easily I always end up hurt. Closing my eyes I soon fall asleep.

[Ruby's POV]

 Feeling the sun light warming my face my eyes flutter open, looking up at Tommy I see that he's still asleep. Getting up I make sure I don't wake him, and get dressed. Making my way to the door I hear Tommy move in the bed.

 "Where you going?" He asks me sleepily, I look back at him.

 "Home." I simply say and then make my way to the door. As I do so I feel him wrap his arms round me. "Don't go" he says. Turning around I look up at him and smile.

 "Okay then, I won't, but I can only stay for an hour I have to help my brother decorate."

 "Can't you tell him you're not going?"

 "No sorry, he'll only bug me until I go."

 "Oh okay then." He said while leaning down to kiss me. Kissing back I wrap my arms round his waist. There was a long silence between us until Tommy spoke. "I love you." He simply said I couldn't believe what I just heard. Looking up at him I just blinked.

[Tommy's POV]

 After Ruby looked up at me after I told her that I loved her I felt as though she was going to tell me that all she wanted was a one night stand, the same old story.

 "Really?" I just nodded in reply. "I love you too." Smiling I kiss her again as she rests her head against me. After a while of us both just standing there I hear a sigh come from her.

 "What's wrong?"

 "Nothing, it's just that if my brother finds out I'm with you. He'll flip."

 "Well it has nothing to do with him and if he says anything just tell him to fuck off." In response Ruby just giggled.

 An hour passed pretty quickly. Before she left she said that she'll come and see me at band practise which to be honest I'm not really looking forward to it because I know that Nikki and Vince will try their luck with her.

[Ruby's POV]

 Before going to my brother's house I quickly get changed and drive to his. Arriving there half an hour late I know I'm going to receive the Spanish inquisition from him. Opening the door I see him read me like a book, taking no notice of the expression on his face I brush past him and stand in the hall way and look at his house which right now looks like a garbage deposal site.

 "I'm guessing you were out all night."

 "You're not Sherlock Holmes you know."

 "So where were you?"

 "Out with friends. I do have a social life unlike you."  Immediately I turn back into acting like a teenager with him. He's brought me up ever since I was five but he does get way too over protective a lot of the time but I can't really blame him. I'm the only family he's got.

 "I know your lying. So come on tell me, who was he?" 

 "Let's get on with the decorating I haven't got all day." I say trying to change the topic...unsuccessfully.

 "Tell me Ruby." Sighing I come clean about what happened and he literally hit the roof, shouting about how immature and stupid I was. Instantly I just shut off and take no notice of what he's saying, I've heard this a million times from him.

[Tommy's POV]

 Sitting at home flicking through the latest magazine I've bought I come across a picture of a one of the upcoming models. I suddenly stop and stare at the photo. I can't believe my eyes, she's amazing and not like other models that I've come across, she actually has a little meat on her bones. Reaching for my phone I dial the number for my manager.

 "Hello?" He answers.

 "Hey dude, its Tommy."

 "What do you want?" He asks with a sigh as though I'm disturbing him from something.

 "For you to contact Ruby Stoker's manager to get her number."

 "You do know I have better things to do than contact women's managers just because you fancy your chances with them."

 "Come one dude." I plead. "I have to meet her."

 "Fine, but this is the last time I do this for you, you hear me?"

 "Yeah I do. Thanks dude. Bye." Sometimes I feel as though our management can't be bothered with us and only care about how many records we sell so we can line their pockets full of cash. Shrugging my thoughts off I go back to looking at the picture of Ruby. She has long curled blonde hair, with bright blue eyes that shine like sapphires. I have never seen anyone as gorgeous as her in my life.

 An hour later I get a call from my manager telling me the number for Ruby, I scribble it down with excitement. After hanging up I instantly call her.

[Ruby's POV]

 Hearing the phone ring, I groan thinking that it'll be my manager calling me and telling me about another photo shoot he's arranged for me to do.

 "Hello?"

 "Hey, is that Ruby?" A man's voice asks.

 "Yes, why?" I ask with curiosity in my voice.

 "Cool, I'm Tommy Lee from Mötley Crüe and I was wondering if you'd like to go out sometime." My jaw nearly drops seen as I've always fancied him but never had the courage to get my manager to contact him.

 "Sure I would." I say pretending to be casual seen as I don't want to scare him off.

 "Awesome, I'll pick you up tomorrow at 7:00 PM, if that's ok?"

 "Yeah it is."

 "Ok, what's your address?" I tell him and I can hear him write it down. Afterwards we talk for a bit longer and then he hangs up because he as to go to band rehearsal.  Even though I know the reputation of the band, I really don't care it seems like some fun to me, which would be nice seen as I do absolutely nothing apart from photo shoots. Glamour and fortune really isn't as cracked up as I thought it first was.

Suddenly the realization of it all hits me. The drummer of one of the biggest bands has just asked me to go out with him. I couldn't help but let a grin spread across my face.

[Tommy's POV]

 The next day I quickly rush out of band rehearsal to pick Ruby up, all day long I've been thinking of her and of course I've been getting teased by the guys about it all apart from Mick he's just been his normal quiet self. First of all I speed back home to get a shower and get dressed. I don't know if she likes the "bad boy" look so I thought I'd wear something more suitable. I slip on black pants with a white shirt that covers all of my tattoos. Looking in the mirror I think I don't look that bad. Brushing my hair I look at the time. "Shit!" I exclaim as I see its drawing closer to 7:00 PM, being late would not look good.

 Exceeding all speed limits I arrive at hers on time and knock on the door. Opening the door I see a different woman standing there, I figure it must be one of her friends. Stepping aside she lets me in. As I walk in I see her look me up and down, I take no notice and just stand there in the hallway in silence. After waiting for what seemed like forever I see her walk down the stair case in a long purple dress. Instantly my jaw drops. She looks even more amazing in the flesh than in her photos I thought to myself. When she stands next to me I gently kiss her on her cheek, trying to be as polite as possible.

 "You look amazing." I whisper not wanting her mate who has already decided that she hates my guys hearing me.

 "You don't look too bad yourself." She says with a smile. Putting my arm round her waist I take her to my car. As we approach my car I feel her shiver.

 "Br right back, I best get my shawl." She said pulling away from me and running back into her house. Leaning against my car I watch her run into the house and wait for her to return.

[Ruby's POV]

 Running back into the house I quickly run upstairs and grab my shawl. As I arrive downstairs I see my friend standing there with a look of disappointment on her face, she hates Mötley Crüe and everything they portray but she won't believe me in that fact that Tommy isn't as bad as Nikki and Vince.

 "Don't even start." I say before she has a chance to open her mouth and give me another lecture about it all.

 "Fine I won't but don't expect any sympathy from me if anything happens tonight." Rolling my eyes I don't bother with a response and walk out of the house and back over to Tommy who is leaning against his car. For the first time I see what model his car is, my favourite car in the world, a Ford Mustang. Smiling I step up to him with my shawl wrapped around my shoulders. Reaching out he gently puts my hair behind my shoulder.

"You ready to go then?"

 "Yeah." I say getting into the passenger's seat.

 It didn't seem long 'till he pulled up in front of one of the most expensive restaurants in Los Angeles. Getting out of the car I quickly rush up to his side and walk in with him. Instantly all eyes turn our way and mouths start talking.

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(Five years Later) *Nikki’s Pov*

Christiana and Jayme are turning 5 today. How the time flies god I can still remember holding her. She is my little girl and she will always be. I roll over and Monica is still in bed. The sun is shineing through our bedroom window. I pull her close to me.

“Good Morning”

“Damn”

“What?”

“Nikki, we have two girls. One is five, and one is 2 ears old”

“I know and I’m happy”

“Really? You wouldn’t change anything?”

“No, i have my three girls that i love and I couldn’t ask for more”

“Not even a boy?”
“We are going to have another?”

“No, I’m just scaring you”

“Damn you”

“Mommy Daddy”

“Yes sweetie”

I reached down and picked her up and put her between me and Monica.

“What’s wrong Chrissy?”

“Is Jad and Jay coming?”

“Yeah, so is Auntie and Uncle”

“YAY.”

She sat up and looked at the both of us and gave us a kiss and hug. Monica got up and Chrissy followed.

*Monica’s POV*

Chrissy went to her room to pick out what she was going to wear, I went to the bathroom and started to get ready. I took my shower and got dressed I was done in time to her Ari crying.

I walked into her room to find Nikki picking her up, he turned around and smiled

“I got Ari”

“I’ll check on Chrissy, she’s to quite”

“Yeah, she is never this quite”

I walked down the hall and stopped at Chrissy’s room. She was getting dressed.

“Sweetie, you need help?”

“A little Mommy, would you help me?”

“Sure.”

I helped her get dressed and we went down stairs. I called Shane to let her know we were on our way to the park. She said they were on there way too. 

*Shane’s POV*

When we got there, they pulled up. God Jaden is 10 now and Jayme is 5 wow. Ari is 2 years old and Chrissy is 5 how time flies by. I can still remember when Monica and I was pregnant with Chris and Jay. Damn monica was 9 months and Nikki wouldn’t let her   go anywhere with out him. For Ari he was a little laid back. Christiana looks lik Monica, she has her Dad’s eyes, but her mother’s face. Ari she has her Dads hair, she looks like the two of them and well even starting to act like them. Chrissy act’s like them but not as bad.

Everyone started to show up, Monica’s Mom we all started to talk.

“Nik, are you guys going to have a boy?”

“Don’t know, we aren’t trying.”

“Is two enough?”

“Yes, for me it is. For him NO”

“Hey, I don’t went them to grow up alone”

“Oh, what about Jaden and Jayme”

‘Yeah what about me uncle Nikki?”

“what is this a tag team?”

“No”

“Auntie Monica?”

“Yes Jayme?”

‘Mommy is going to have another baby”

“Oh really.”

“Yeah, she told us yesterday”

“Is it going to be a boy”

“NO! I have brother’s already.”

“You have a sister”

“It’s going to be a sister.”

“Hey go over and tell Mommy she is going to have twins”

“Nikki, why would you say that?”

“Have you looked at how big Shane is on this one?”

“She is not, Shane sweetie you look good and you aren’t having twins.”

“That’s ok, Nikki I’ll kill you if I go back and my doctor say’s I’m having twins”

Just then Monica’s mom sat down.

“Wow, those kids”

“What mom are they tiring you out?”

“No just need to set with audlts and have a smoke.”

“Hey Mom Ari, repeats everything she hears Christiana didn’t, how can I get Ari not to?”

“She will grow out of it, she is still learning how to talk, so give her time.”

“Jayme, wasn’t that bad, but she liked to repeat what she heard.”

“Chrissy, wasn’t that bad with it. Plus Nikki and I didn’t say anything bad around her. But with Ari, she act’s like both of us and well she just loves to hide and repeat later on what we said.”

“Oh”

“yeah”

“I told you they both act like you and Nikki.”

“I know you did.”

The guys left and went over by Tommy and helped him.

Monica’s Mom was playing with Jayme and Chrissy. Ari came over. Monica didn’t see her. We have to watch what we say around her she will repeat everything. Monica didn’t know she was sitting next to her. until she heard Ari repeat something.

“Fuck”

“Ari, where did you hear that?”

“Uncle”

“which one?”

“Uncle Vince”

“Well that’s not a good word to say. So don’t say it any more”

“Ok”

“AWWW sissy said a bad word, she owes the jar a dollar”

“i don’t have any money”

“ask daddy”

“Chrissy and Ari. Chrissy, Ari isn’t going to pay a dollar uncle Vince said it frist. Now Ari I will give you a dollar when we get home.”

“Ok”

We ate and then they opened the gifts and then we had cake. We started picking up so we can have more time to talk and hang out with everyone. Mick and Ashely was going to have a kid, Oh dear. that is one kid I don’t wish to watch anytime soon.

Monica and Nikki, have talked to Bret we all are pkanning on going to his brithday praty this year. For Once he did change and it was for the better.

*Nikki’s Pov*

As I sat back by the tree smoking, i watched as my wife played with our girls, yes I wouldn’t mind haveing a son. But right now these two little girls I would give everything for. I’m 51 and I have a beautiful wife and 2 beautiful girls, who I love so much. tommy is so happy that Shane is pregnant again, I joke with them about having twins; but they aren’t. I’m so glad we are all together, It’s a funky Motley Crue family but I wouldn’t change anything. 

“Hey man”

“We are getting old”

“No, we are just dad’s”

“Man Tom we have girls? What kind of shit is that?”

“I know after having my two boys with Pam, I thought Shane and I would have boys too. but they are girls.”

“Yeah and Jaden is 10”

“Shut up! Don’t need you to remind me”

“It scares me to think about it myself, that one day Chrissy isn’t going to be so little and My Ari isn’t going to want me to hug or kiss her.”

“Dude, it happens they grow up”

“Yeah way to fast.”

As we all sarted to leave I sen monica standing there, she looked like she wanted to cry.   I walked over to her and put my arms around her.

“What is it?”

“I wished my dad was here.”

“He is, just looking down”

“I know, but Chrissy is 5 and Ari is 2. I show them photos of my dad. But every once in a while I wish they could actually see him and meet him. He would’ve loved them”

‘He dose love them. Sweetie, it’s not going to be easy. But trust me it takes time.”

“I know, and I have you here with me”

We kissed

“Eww Daddy”

“Chrissy, get in the car”

“AWW Mommy kissed daddy”

“Ari go with your sister”

“then we have moments like this.”

“And many more”

On the drive home we listened to our cd. Ari fell asleep, Chrissy was looking out the window. I looked in the rear veiw mirror and I had to smile. those are mine, I looked over at Monica who looked at me and put her hand in mine and smiled.

“We are living the rock star life!’

“I wouldn’t have it any other way”

(Three Months later) *Monica’s Pov*

Nikki and the guys are working on a new cd, plus they are going to start touring again, this summer. Christmas was great we all went to Chicago. My Mom told Tommy and Shane they were welcome and they better bring Jaden. Oh My God that girl is getting bigger and bigger every day. She is starting to walk and she said her first word Mama....I thought it woud be something else as much as the guys have her around them.

Shane is comeing over so she and I can go to the doctor. I don’t want to do this myself, I’m scared that my metabolism isn’t where it should be. 

“You ready?”

“Not really, what if this didn’t work?”

“Then she will have you try something else”

“I want to be normal”

“You are”

“Thanks”

*Shane’s Pov*

We got into my car and headed for the doctor’s, I had to see her too. So she said to come in with Monica and she’ll look at the two of us. I don’t know but I have had this cold and it just won’t go away, plus throwing up here and there. 

We get to the doctor’s and when they finish we wait in the room. Both of us look nervous, like we did something wrong. It felt like hours have pasted when the doctor came in to see us.

“Ok, Monica you are fine, the diet worked and everything is normal. Now you have to keep it there.  As for you Mrs. Lee, you are Pregnant.”

“What?”

“Yes, about a month.”

“Damn you Monica”

“What, I was joking”

Just then there was a knock on the door.

“Sorry doctor, but these are the rest of Monica’s test’s”

“Ok, Mrs. Sixx, let’s see how your other test’s went”

“Ok”

“Well, your Blood Pressure is a little high but we can work on that if it’s high next month. Well I see.”

“Now what is it?”

“Well Mrs.Sixx, this might be the reason your Blood pressure might be high, you are Pregnant too.”

“What?”

“You are pregnant”

“Damn you Shane!”

“Well we are pregnant together”

“Cool”

“Well I’ll see the both of you in here next month”

We both left and got into my car, and then looked at each other and laughed.

“How are we going to tell the guys?”

“Sweetie, I don’t know. But Tommy and I haven’t talked about having another”

“To late to talk about it.”

“And you and Nikki weren’t trying”

“No we weren’t, he said he wanted to start this summer on tour. He wanted to wait because of my dad.”

“Sweetie, God just told us who is in charge of when!”

“I Know.”

“Well now we have to tell the guys”

“Ok Tommy has had kids, Nikki and I we haven’t. I wont be able to live with him these next few months. God help Me!”

“I’m here”

*Monica’s POV*

We got back to my house and we started cooking. The guys will be home in an hour and  we have that long to wait to tell them. We thought we would tell them at the same time. I’m not scared about it, just worried on how Nikki was going to take it.

We went out back and Monica sat there.

“How is Nikki going to act?”

“Monica, you guys love each other very much, he will be so happy”

“Yeah and then two months later he wont let me do shit”

“I want to see that, it will be funny”

“Funny for you, not for me”

‘At lest we are together, you have someone to talk to about it. Your Mom and Me”

“Yeah and you also have my mom”

“I know, I love her”

We went back inside just in time to see the guys come into the kitchen. Tommy had Jaden. For a moment i seen Nikki holding our baby in his arms.

“Monica, you ok?”

“Yeah just thinking.”

“About?”

“Us.”

“Well we are hungry, so let’s eat.”

*Nikki’s POV*

We ate and Monica and Shane took Jaden out back, We did the dishes. I looked out the window and Monica sitting by the pool they were talking. monica didn’t light up. I guess what ever they are talking about is better then smokeing. 

When we got done we went out there to join them. They smiled as we sat down. They are acting funny.

“Ok what did we do?”

“What are you talking about?”

“Yeah Nikki is right, you girls are different”

“Oh Shit, Babe what did the doctor say?”

‘I’m fine, just my blood pressure is a little high.”

“Oh but your fine”

“Yeah we are fine”

“We?”

“Shane and I!”

“Oh.”

“Nikki, what would you say if there would be more people around?”

“I wouldn’t mind our house is big enough, your family can come anytime.”

“Tommy, I’m pregnant.”

“What!”

“Yeah Jaden is going to have a little brother or sister to play with.”

“Yeah and she will have a friend to play with too”

“Monica what are you talking about?”

“Nikki baby, I’m pregnant too”

I looked at Monica and she smiled and I pulled her into my arms and kissed her. With everything that has happened this was something that made us both happy.

*Shane’s Pov*

It’s been 2 months since Monica has come back home. I’ve noticed she hasn’t been herself. But I’m not going to push her, each person grieves in their own way. But she hasn’t yet, that is what I’m worried about. She is holding everything in, plus she has been losing weight fast.

I pulled up to her house, she said that she had to go to the doctors, she wanted to see her about how her weight is doing. Tommy and the guys had Jaden for the day. I get out of the car and walk up to the door. Just then Monica opens the door.

“Hey”

She looked fine, and she gave me a hug, she grabbed her keys and we left.

We got to the doctor’s office and they did the normal shit, then I went with her into the room to wait for the doctor. I didn’t want her to do this alone, I want her to feel like I’m here for her no matter what happened.

*Monica’s POV*

I know my Metabolism has always been funky, but this is something else. I have had it under control until now. 

“Mrs.Sixx”

“Yes”

“Are you under any type of Stress?”

“Well a little”

“I’m asking because sometimes stress can do different things to people.”

“Some stress, my dad passed away 2 months ago”

“That can also do it, let’s do this; in 3 months come back, keep eating the same foods. Just Mrs.Sixx, try and not stress over thing’s to much. Don’t worry so much. take a few days off from work.”

“Thanks, I will and I’ll see you in tree months.”

“Ok, have a great day and I’m sorry for your loss”

*Shane’s POV*

We went out and ate lunch, we went out shopping and then headed home. She talked about how she was worried about her mom. She said her brother Del and his wife was going to move in upstairs on the second floor, so they could help her with bills and stuff. 

“But I’mworried about, her.”

“She will be fine, she is a strong woman.”

“She lost the only man she loved.’

“Sweetie, she has her family and grand kids to love her.”

“I know...It’s just she’s my mom and I love her. I don’t want her to feel alone and not loved”

“Sweetie, that will never happen.”

On our way back we stopped and picked up Jaden from her uncles and we went back to the house. Jaden was so tired she fell asleep on the couch. Monica and I got bored so we started danceing. 

“I have to stop and start dinner”

“Ok, I’ll be right in there let me see if Jaden is still alseep.”

“You guys can stay for dinner”

“Thanks, I think we will.”

I went and checked on Jaden, she was wet, so I had to change her. Monica had the radio going still. They played Mariah Carey’s song Bye Bye, I like it and how she talks about her dad passing away and what he missed and what she misses from him. it’s great if you lost someone close. I finished changing Jaden and she fell back to sleep, what did the guys do with her? She has never slept like this. Just then I heard someone say something on the radio.

“Well the frist song was Britney’s new one 3 and Lady Gaga’s new one Bad Romance. We are going to play Beyonce’s new one Halo after this brake.”

I went to the bathroom and came back out, I headed to the kitchen, The song from Beyonce just finished when I walked into the kitchen. I looked around and I couldn’t see Monica, I guess she went out back to have a smoke. I walked around the Island in the middle of the room and headed for the slideing door, when I looked back I seen her sitting on the floor with her head in her hands and her knees to her chest.

I sat down next to her and held her in my arms, she was just crying.

“I miss him Shane, It’s hard my kids are not going to grow knowing him. He was a great grandfather to Joey, Matt and Chris. Mine aren’t going to have him around. When I was little we were close, I got older and we weren’t so close, I always told him I loved him...But I never told him how much he meant to me. Losing my grandma at 16 was hard..But losing my dad is harder.”

“Sweetie, it’s ok we are all here for you.You have your family...Both of them here to help you through everything..Just call and I’ll be right there. Hell I’ll be right over.”

“I’m scared....Losing my dad made me think...I can lose my Mom at anytime. If I lose her Shane I don’t know what i’ll do. “

“Sweetie, she isn’t going any where just yet.”

“But I want her close to me.”

“Sweetie you can go see her, call her.”

“Thanks”

I helped her up and she washed her face, and we started cooking. We started laughing thinking about what the guys did with Jaden to make her so tired. After dinner was done, she went out back and had a smoke and called her Mom....just to say she loved her.

Seeing Monica like this made me think about when I lost my mom. It was hard for me to go through old photo’s and letter’s. I stood in the door away, before going to sit down next to her, I wiped my eyes and joined her.

We went back in Monica went up front and I stayed in the kitchen. Monica came back into the kitchen.

“Guess who woke up?”

“Hey that’s my girl, did auntie wake you?”

‘Hey, I wouldn’t do that...ok she was waking up a so I picked her up”

“Monica Sixx!”

“What? I want to spend time with her before her Daddy and Uncle get in.”

“Fine, you look good standing there with a kid in your arms”

“Thanks but she is yours, my god she’s getting big.”

“She will be One soon”

“damn I’m getting old”

“Don’t let Nikki hear you say that.”

‘I know”

The guys came in and we all ate and went out back, Monica told Nikki how her day went and then she told him that I found her crying

“I’m glad, feel better?”

“yeah, scared and still upset. But I’m truely fine... he is in a better place and I’ll see him again.”

“I love you so much”

“I love you too”

“Get a room!”

“Tommy!”

“We have a room you guys are just here”

“Dirty girl.”

“That’s my wife”

We stayed another hour and then we left I know she will be fine. She has Nikki and her family. I just hope she will losen up a little more, I have to work on that to get Monica back. It will take a while, but she will be herself again I know she will.

*Shane’s POV*

The week went off with out anything happening. Ashley hasn’t tried or did anything. I’m worried about Nikki with Monica not being here, he’s been off. I think it’s because he’s worried about her. Tommy told me that I should keep my nose off of it, but it’s Nikki and Monica they are family, How could I just pass it off like it’s nothing. 

Jaden is getting big, she is starting to act like her dad more and more everyday. It scares me to think that one day she is going to really act like Tommy.  I had free time during the day Jaden took a nap and I was alone, I called Monica.

“Hey, girl!”

“Hey, how are you guys?”

“Tommy and I are fine, Jaden is taking a nap.”

“Cool”

“How are you?”

“I’m good, everyone here is fine.”

“Are you ok?”

“Yeah just thinking, every once in a while my dad has to go to the hospital, because something get’s stuck in his Trach that is in his throat.”

“Oh, but he’s ok though?”

“yeah, it only happened once while I was here.”

“Oh, good”

“They said that even with the stuff at home that they gave my mom, that he will still have this problem, just not all the time.”

“Well, at lest he’s ok. can he go on a trip?”

“Yeah, if he has the oxygen, and has enough in the tank”

“Well they can come and vist?!”

“true they are thinking about that for thanksgiving”

“Sounds good.”

“How’s the show”

“well last week, sold out at every show, tonight they said it was sold out”

“Sounds great, well I hate to cut this short but I have to take a shower so I can take my mom to the bank and then shopping.”

“Ok, well we all love you and miss you very much, Jaden misses you too”

“I love and miss all of you too, see you guys sometime next week”

I hug up with her, and she sounds fine. Just worried about her dad which is normal. Maybe Nikki is upset that he can’t do anything for her or her dad. That he feels powerless, to help. He knows there isn’t anything either of them can do, and it’s killing them both. She knows her dad is fine and he will be fine. Nikki is just worried about how his wife is holding up.

(20 mins Later)

*Monica’s POV*

I took my shower and got dressed, I was brushing my hair. I what into what use to be my parents room, before they had to sleep down stairs. I heard a truck, so I looked out the window and see an Ambulance out front; I went downstairs and my sister told me that dad couldn’t breath cause something was stuck. 

I went out front with two cigarettes, handed one to my mom and I kept the other. We stood there as they worked on him in the back so my mom could get in and go with them. 

“What is taking them so long?”

“I don’t”

finally a guy came out and talked to my mom.

“We have to take him”

‘Can I go?”

‘No, do you have a way to get there?”

“yeah”

She turned and looked at me, they left, my nephew came back from the pool and he droped her off. I stayed at home with my sister, she has sizgures and could go into one cause what’s going on. It was about 15 mins later when my mom called

“Hello”

“Hey, is Joey back?”

“Not yet, he said that his boss called and has a check for him.”

“Ok, well can you call him and tell him that I need him to come and get me”

“Ok, I’ll call him and tell him. Are you ok?”

“Yeah, I’ll tell you when i get back.”

I hung up and called Joey, he said he will come by the house and get me and we could go together. I went out front.

It was 5:00 on a beatiful June day, the sun was still out it was warm, I smoked another cigarette waiting for my nephew. I went back into the hose when the phone rang again.

“Hello”

“Yeah where is Joe?”

“He said he is on his way to get you.”

“Where are you?”

“Downstairs”

“Go upstairs, and make sure your sister, dosen’t follow”

I made my way upstairs, I get to the top and light up another cigarette, I haven’t somked this much in one day let alone an hour.

“Ok, I’m alone... What’s wrong?’

‘It’s your dad”

“He has to stay the night?”

“No, he passed away”

“I heard that and the time felt like it just stoped. I couldn’t cry I tried but nothing.

“Are you sure?”

“yes, they did everything they could.”

“You want me to tell sis?”

“No, I will when I get back”

“Ok”

“Just you can’t let her know something is wrong. i don’t want her upset just yet. She dosen’t need to go into one not now.”

“Ok, I’ll see you soon”

It was about 3 mins later when Del and Betsy came, I told them Sis doesn’t know, and Bro said he was ther to tell her. I stayed outside with Bets, we heard her crying. 

Me and Del got into the car and went to the hospital, when we got there we went to a room just on the other side of the ER. to find Joe and James there with Mom. the caps came in to ask us questions. We got to see him. He wasn’t yet cold, but he had no color. We told him goodbye and that we loved him.

Me and Joe drove home and waited for James, Del and Mom. Walking into the house was different, it felt like soemthing was gone that something left. There was sadness, but i didn’t feel like crying, I wasn’t mad. I wasn’t upset....i couldn’t feel anything.

Mom came home and started making phone calls, her two sister’s said they would be here the next day. I left the room and seen the time. I knew i had to call him and let him know.

“Honey what’s up?”

“Are you sitting?”

“Yes why?”

“My Dad passed away today”

“What?”

“Yeah... that is how we feel”

“I’ll be there I’m on my way.”

*Nikki’s POV*

I watched Monica get on the plane and leave. I know she will be with her parents but I also want her with me. I know her mom needs her but something dosen’t feel right. I can’t do anything about it and that is what’s killig me. Tomy has Shane and Jaden; Mick has Ashely and Vince has Lila; I well have myself for this trip. 

We get to the frist place and our road crew already has everything set up, we start to do our sound check.

“Nikki man you were off there”

“Sorry, let’s take it from the top”

We play three songs, and go into the last song. I look out into the empty sits that will be full tonight and I swear I seen her sitting all the way in the back. Her long brown hair blowing in the wind, her hair shinning in the sun light. 

“Nik, Man what the hell is wrong with you?”

“Yeah, it’s like you where spaced out, here but not”

“Sorry guys, I promise I’ll be fine by tonight.”

“get a grip, she is fine. Before the show why don’t you talk to her.”

“I was going to call her tonight.”

“You better”

I went back to the hotel, I got to my room. I walk in on the coffee table is a basket of fruit, and on the bed is a piece of candy. I look around the room feel’s empty, I put my shit down and lay across the bed. I close my eyes and I see her, that smile could light up the room, those brown eyes god how they sparkle in the light; her hair blowing in the wind. Her skin soft and smooth mmm. “I love you”

“I love you too”

Her hand on my face her lips touching mine I long to hold her in my arms to kiss every inch of her body. It feels like she is right here with me. i open my eyes and the room is empty, it’s just myself here. I looked at the time and I grabbed my phone. I heard the ringing, finally she answered.

“Hey babe”

“I miss you”

“I miss you too”

“How was you flight?”

“It was ok, my brother picked me up from the airport, everyone here say’s Hi and they love you.”

‘How’s dad?”

“Well he can’t talk but he can mouth words, but at lest he is alive”

“That’s good babe, we might be able to swing by next week and see you for a day.”

“That would be great, hey don’t worry so much I’m fine honey”

“I know, but I want to be there with you”

“I promise for Christmas we can come here together”

“Fine it’s only 5 months away”

“Hey I’ll be home next week, Ill make it up to you”

“MMM I like the sound of that.”

“I knew you would.”

“So you miss me?”

“I said I did, you know what else I miss?”

“What?”

“Your kiss, your smile, and your hands on my body.”

“Hey, don’t start. i’ll call you after the show and we will have all night to talk dirty”

“Fine, and I’ll hold you to it.”

“I promise honey, I’ll be all yours tonight.”

“Well I guess you have to go then.”

“Yeah, hey I’ll send you as many pics from my phone as I can.”

“It’s not the same babe, I really miss you; I thought I could do this alone and I can’t”

“Sweetie, what is wrong?”

“it’s not the same, he is with us, but it’s different babe.”

“I know it’s hard but just hang in there, help your mom she needs it. Ok and I’ll be there as soon as I can”

“ok, I love you”

“ I love you too.”

We hung up and I got ready for the show, I met up with Tommy and Shane. We left together. When we got there Vince and Mick was waiting for us. The show was awsome, I wished Monica was here to see it. I took as many pics as I could and sent them to her. I changed and we all got on our buses and left. 

I sat on the bed and turned on the tv, I realy don’t know how I’m going to sleep with out her next to me. I called her and we talked. It was late yet early when we finally hung up. We were 30 miles away from the next city we were playing tonight, I need to get some sleep.

 

*Monica’s POV*

It’s been two months since’s Ashley’s and Mick’s wedding. It quite and nice around here. Jaden is two months old, Shane and tommy took her on her first trip. Nikki and I have been talking about having kids of our own, but right now it’s just talk. I would love too and he knows it but we both love our work and we are scared that we wont have time to spend with the baby.

I’ve been writing more song’s lately, and composeing only in my free time. I have been catering. Cooking food for parties and weddings, been doing cake’s too. Slow now but Nikki has been great. Putting up with alot from me. My dad is now at home he is doing good so I’ve been told. Nikki is actually going to let me go for 2 weeks while the band dose a couple of shows.

I closed my lap top and went downstairs, I fixed me a cup of coffee and went out back by the pool to have a smoke. Just then the phone rang

“Hello”

“Hey, just calling Tommy has Jaden at the toy store”

“Oh My god, alone?!”

“Yes, and it scares me to think about it, but he can’t buy that much she is only two months”

“It’s Tommy we are talking about here, he will bring back every girl toy just because they were cute”

“Don’t say that”

“Anyways hows the trip?”

“Ok miss you though”

“Aww I miss you too. Nikki said yes about me going back home for a couple of weeks”

“I told you he would, What wild and fun stuff are you doing while I’m gone?”

“Sitting by the pool tanning and smoking. If that is what you call wild and fun then you really need to get out more”

“Very funny, How is Nikki?”

“NIKKI, we talked about having kids just haven’t tried yet.”

“Well hurry up I want Jaden to grow up with someone in the Crue family.”

“Then you better start trying for another one”

“very funny, not yet ok”

“Don’t rush me.”

“Fine, well I hear them in the hall, so I better let you go.”

“Ok have fun and I’ll talk to you later”

I sat there thinking, how would our kid turn out? God help us if we do have one. I put my cigarette out and went back inside. I started cleaning up. When I was done the door bell rang.

“Coming”

I got to the door and opened it

“it’s ok if I come over “

It was Ashely, I didn’t even ask her if it was ok that she could come in before she walked in and sat down in the livingroom.

“Well come in and have a sit.”

“Thanks, what are you doing? Well I can see nothing. Hey I want to let you know that I can’t wait to see you and Nikki over tonight for dinner. So by the looks of it you need to get ready.”

“Wait when were you going to ask me if me and Nikki could make it? Nikki and I have plans tonight, he’s taking me out.”

“well that’s not what he said, so me and Mick will see you there.”

She got up and I followed her to the door, she turned around and smiled.

“You better wear something nice.”

“Oh I will I promise.”

I closed the door and stood there. What the fuck, I know Nikki didn’t say anything to me about having dinner with them. All he talked about was where he was taking and he couldn’t wait. For me to get ready before he got home. Which that will be any mintue so i better hurry.

*Nikki’s POV*

I got home and opened the front door, she must be upstairs. MMM I didn’t mean for her to wait for me in the bedroom but hey that will work. I put my stuff down on the couch and went upstairs. I got to our bedroom door when I heard her, I know she was alone and I could she her phone was on the night stand, so she must be mad and just letting off steam.

“How could she just tell me, not ask TELL! What a BITCH!”

I opened up the door t find her standing there in just her bra and panties. Damn she is hot!!!

“Honey is that what you are wearing cause if it is, HMM it better be just for me!”

She turned around and just looked at me. I walked into the room and then I seen what she did to it. She throw colthes every where.

“Honey, any of these would’ve been fine.”

“Damn it NIKKI!”

“What did I do? I just got home!”

“I’m sorry babe”

She walked over and gave me a hug.

“Would it be ok if I ask How was your day?”

“It was ok but...”

“But what?”

“We have to go over to Mick’s for dinner”

“No you and I have to spend time together.”

She tried to move but I held her close.

“I’m not letting you go babe, not looking like that.”

“Nikki!”

“I love it when you say my name like that, but I love it more when scream it!”

I looked over at the bed which was empty so I picked up my sexy wife and laid her on the bed, I laid down next to her.

“Babe, did you tell Mick it was ok for us to go tonight?”

“Monica, we aren’t going anywhere, and no I didn’t”

“I knew that bitch was lieing.”

“MMM I love how you look when your mad.”

“Nikki, Ashely came by today just before you came home and told me that you said yes about having dinner. She said we are going and they will see us there. Plus she said I will have to wear something nice.”

“Well we can be fashionably late, plus you have me to wear and boy you wear me well.”

“So we are going?!”

“Yes, but not now. After i make love to my sexy wife.”

*Hour later*

We got out of the shower, and Monica started to get ready, she did her hair real nice and her makeup. She got up and took the towel off, she started to get dressed, she put on her bra and then her panties. 

“You know I love you right?”

“Yes”

“What if we don’t go?”

“What about Mick?”

“Damn, fine what do i wear?”

“I don’t care.”

“Monica, what are you doing?”

“I’m looking for something”

I didn’t know what but I couldn’t wait so I walked over to the closet and damn! I had to smile

“What, she said for me to dress nice, so honey what do you think?”

She stood there wearing a short dress, if she bent over everyone could see her ass, she was wearing her thigh high boots.

“I love it, my rock star wife”

“More like porn star”

“Hey you said it, but your my porn star.”

“So should I?”

“NO, why not wear this.”

I went over to the closet and pulled out, and pair of her leather pants and her lace shirt, I gave her a small jacket.

“I’ll change. Nikki you better wear something and not just that.”

“What? I got my boxers on”

“Pants and shirt babe.”

I put on a pair of jeans and a nice shirt, then grabed a leather jacket. We left I knew Monica didn’t really want to go but she was right, Mick would be upset with us if we didn’t show up.

We got there and Mick was out front, he came and met us at the car.

“Finally, I was thinking you guys weren’t going to show up”

“Sorry Mick it was me, I didn’t know what to wear”

“She tired on everything in her closet.”

“Is this nice enough? Ashely wanted to to wear something nice!”

“That’s Motley nice, works for me dear.”

“Thanks, why don’t we go in”

I took Monica’s hand into mine and we followed Mick into the house. When we got inside Ashely came into the room, and the look she gave Monica well it was priceless. I guess she thought my wife would be wearing a dress or something nice.

“You look nice Ashely”

Monica said I guess trying to be nice, that’s my girl nice and at the same time can be a bitch.

“Glad you both made it, dinner is almost done. Monica you look well not sure. I thought you said you would dress nice.”

“Sorry, it took me an hour to find an outfit, and well I didn’t want to wear something to nice and then out do you. So it’s your dinner party your time to shine.”

“Whatever, drinks are at the bar. Everyone is out back”

She went into the kitchen and Monica turned and looked at Mick

“Was it something I said?”

“No dear, you are fine. Plus you look nice”

“Thanks, well I’m going out back to have a smoke is that fine?”

“Yes, just don’t throw it in the grass, there’s an ash tary out there.”

*Monica’s POV*

I went through the kitchen, and stoped, I thought I would be nice and ask her if she needed any help.

“Ash, do you need any help?”

“No thanks I got it”

“You sure, I can help you”

“No, the beef is almost done.’

“Ok I’ll be out back if you need me”

I went outside to find, Pam and Vince and his wife, The manager and his wife. Everyone was dressed comfortable and nice. I fit right in, if I would’ve wore something like she wanted I would be over dressed. Just now I’m under dressed but who gives a fuck, I’m dressed better then she is.

The dinner was ok, we all talked about the shows they will be doing next week. I missed Shane and Tommy. I had Pam and we sat by the pool, we talked about everything. Ashely was trying to piss me off but it didn’t work.

It was getting late and me and Nikki left. When we got home we went to bed.

 

*Mick's Pov*

 Last night at the rehearsal dinner thing's happened and I'm not sure why. But I'm hoping everything goes as planed. Making Monica look like a bitch at my wedding is not what I want. Hell having Nikki and Bret fight isn't a good thing either.

 I finally got up out of bed, the rest of the guys were still sleeping. My wedding is in 5 hours and for some reason I feel like it's not all going to be good. Monica being a bride's maid stayed with Ashley, I'm just hoping everything is fine.

 *Ashley's Pov*

 I rolled over and the awful smell of coffee brewing made me get up and see who it was that was making that awful shit. As I walked into what will be soon mine and Mick's kitchen I could see Monica was standing by the counter drinking a cup of coffee while she was on the phone.  Standing out of her sight I stood watching her. Bret and I are best friends, he told me everything that happened between him and Monica. I don't like her so yes I come off as a bitch, but it's only because Monica is around.

 I know that I'll have to be around her if Mick and I hang out with Nikki. But I can just fake being nice with her, but I guess I could try to fake it now as well, I have to be around her all day any ways.  I came into the kitchen as Monica was hanging up, she smiled at me.

 "Would you like a cup?"

 "No thanks, I don't drink coffee."

 "I didn't know sorry."

 "That's fine, have you talked to any of the guys?"

 "No, Nikki isn't answering his phone"

 "Well the other girls are upstairs, I guess we could start getting ready. The guy that is doing our hair will be here in a half an hour. The lady that is coming in to do our nails will be here in 15 minutes."

 "Well let's go upstairs so we can get ready."

 *Shane's Pov*

Jaden stayed with Pam, I just got off the phone with her when Monica and Ashley came upstairs. We all helped Ashley get into her dress, she finally got it on and then came buttoning it, and she had to get the one with a million and one buttons. I could tell something is up when Ashley finally let us girls see our dresses. Her maid of honor had this long off white dress, now came her bride maids, each one of us had a different dress and color. Lila Vince's wife had a short red dress, I had a long Lilac dress. I could tell that the color of our dresses matched her flowers and ours.

Ashley went into the closet, I looked at the flowers and I knew the next color was going to be black which that would be for Monica she was the last one. Ashley came back out holding the dress, but it was covered.

"When I picked the flowers I knew I wanted my girls to wear dresses that matched each color. Plus I got you all bouquets that match your dress color. Monica this one is for you."

She uncovered it and I looked I wasn't sure if she had the right dress, I mean it wasn't a type of dress you would wear to a wedding let alone be in the wedding wearing it. It was a long see through lace black dress. Monica looked at Ashley I wasn't sure what she was going to say, but I couldn't wait.

"Are you sure that is my dress and not the one you will be wearing on your honeymoon?"

"Trust me Monica, this one is yours it fits you. I heard you like see through lace so when I seen this I knew this was your dress."

Ashley handed it to Monica, but Beth her maid of honor grabbed it from Monica.

"Damn it Ashley! Stop being a bitch to her. We all know you don't like her, but shit it's your fucking wedding and she isn't going to wear this. Now you better get her the real dress."

"If I don't?"

"I wont be your maid of honor."

"Fuck, why do you have to be so damn nice. Hell even if it is too this Bitch."

I looked at Monica, who was trying to be nice.

"Ashley, if you don't like me, then why am I here in your damn wedding?"

"That's easy. Mick!"

Ashley gave Monica and smile and went back into the closet, when she came out this time she handed Monica a black dress it was short but it was nice. We all got our dresses on, by the time we were all done, we all looked nice. Monica was the last one to come down. We were going to have some pictures taken in the house and out front at the church.

Monica came down and her hair was so beautiful, she had it up and she had some on the sides out and they were curled. Her makeup was great, I know she didn't have them do her cheek and stuff, but what they did with her eyeliner and eye shadow was great. Her nails weren't that long but they were awesome. Black with red flames, she is our spit fire.

Everyone loved how she looked, but when Ashley came back into the room and I thought there might be a fight before the wedding.

"Monica, why would you....How could you fuck up my wedding?"

"I'm sorry, I didn't want to out do everyone else plus you are the bride and you look better then all of us."

"What ever!"

"We finally made it to the church and we were waiting on the guys to get here.

*Bret's Pov*

I took a seat and everything started. The church looked great the flowers were awesome. The door opened and closed, Beth was the first one to come out. She looked nice in the off white dress; I knew Ashley picked the right color and dress for her. Lila came out she looked ok in the red dress, Shane came out wearing the Lilac dress it looked great. I couldn't wait to see Monica in the black see through lace. The door opened and closed, Monica passed me wear a short black dress, but damn she could turn anything simple into something hot.

The doors opened and Ashley came walking down, she looked so beautiful. I know Mick will make her happy, but I'm not so sure she will make him as happy. They said their Vows, and Mick gave her a kiss for the first time as his wife. Everyone was leaving and heading to the reception; I got into my car and went to the place. I parked in the lot I had a cigarette before going in.

 It was a great party; nothing bad happened I don't think. I didn't even see Monica. I know her and Nikki are here But I couldn't tell where. Beth and I was out on the dance floor when I seen Nikki and Monica. She had her arm's around him. He was holding her close, God he makes me sick. Seeing them two together makes me want too scream.

 I didn't stick around much more after that, I had to leave. Maybe I'll see Monica and again hopefully it wont turn out so badly as before.