time Blog and Journals

There are some things that i just cant seem to put my finger on; like why things that should make me feel great really make me feel worse than ever.  Why change is the most inevitable, sought after thing that there can possibly be, but in the end no one really wants it.  I've lived here in this place that doesn't ever move while everything i love and even those i don't become everything i'd never hav imagined.  Jealous of everything and wanting nothing to do with the fact that i need everything i don't want to need.  confusing i kno, believe me.... Theres no room for greats because the greats hav all had their time to be everything everyone expected.  Everythings been done and if theres something u need to say i can damn well bet its been said already, and probably better than u can even think to say it.  The days are too long but the months fly by. a contradiction in itself. And if u dare love somethng i promise it will be the end of u. Somehow quiting is the hardest thing to do but being who u refuse to give up being is even harder.

I mumble alot, i kno. give me a song & it'll be on repeat for hours while i spill my guts for every notebook to read. Today summer hair=forever young is my best friend as i sit wishing i was the one person i need most to be. The past is often the only friend we have because the future just wants to screw u over. Tomorrow the sun will rise just to prove that yesterday was better than u ever thought possible, scars included.