The Veronicas Blog and Journals

Part One:

Bill's P.O.V

Sam and I walked into the lobby where they served breakfast, Sam was dressed and ready. Lily, Rose and Allistar were not up because Sam changed her mind about them going. Instead, it would just be her and I, I felt a little bad for her, and she was taking slow steps. Her thighs were bruised a little from the pole, mainly from me. Her wrists were also a reddish color from where I was gripping them, she wore her long sleep jacket to cover them, but I felt like a jerk for it. She was stirring her food around on her plate.

"You're just so cute when you are nervous." I said watching her, she glanced up to me and then back down at her plate.

"Ok, I know now is not the time for jokes, but Baby I want you to relax, I'm going to be there right there with you." I said

"Something just doesn't feel right, I don't trust my mother." She said

"But you can trust me and I think you're going to be fine." I reassured her. She kissed me on the forehead and then walked out of the lobby. I sat there looking at my coffee mug, when at the corner of my eye I could see Lily. She was still in her pajamas. It was around seven in the morning so I was just surprised to see her up so early.

"Hey what are you doing up so early?" I asked pulling her a chair out, she wiped her eyes, she had obviously been crying. I stood up a poured a cup of milk mixing it with some coffee, her favorite drink in the morning. I took a seat next to her, looking at her sad face,

"I couldn't sleep, I kept having those moments where I kept saying to myself, just go to sleep, and for hours I was tormenting myself, just sleep, but I would wake up and realize that I had been sleeping, and it happened so long and so many times I just got up, and here I am." She said

"I used to have the same dreams when I was nineteen years old, and they tormented me, I have them occasionally now, but not as much, usually when something is bothering me." I said she lowered her head resting her chin on the table her hands were folded underneath her face, I copied her, and our brown eyes were looking into each other.

"Ok, have you ever cared so much for someone that when they were doing something stupid you didn't know how to confront them without hurting them?" She said

"One time, your Uncle Tom, was so into this girl that he did everything she wanted him to do, and he stayed in this old house, to protest it getting torn down, they were stealing cable and it was just pathetic, and no matter hoe many times I begged him to give up this act and come home he wouldn't, but when I finally gave up I told him then if he wouldn't come home I would go there, I stayed there two nights, before he got me out of there." I said

"So what you're saying is if you can't beat them, join them, when they see how stupid it looks form the outside they are bound to stop." She said

"Maybe not, because in order to stop they have to really want to, it's a painful thing to watch someone you love and care about, not love and care about themselves." I said

"Last Night while I was awake, I wrote a song, do you want to hear it?" I asked

"Yes, I would love to hear it." He said.

"I'm going to have to go without any music until Uncle Tom or Rose gets up." She said

"That's ok, I understand." I said looking at her, she pulled a piece of paper from her robe pocket; she turned her back to me.

"Hold your head up high, your never wrong, somewhere in the right, you belong, you would rather fight, than walk away, what a lonely way to breathe the air, what an unlovely way to say you care, now we are to far gone, for me to say, and I never thought we'd come to this." She said pausing, she wiped her tears away, then continued, but this time she turned to face me, her eyes were focused on me, "Maybe there's beauty in good bye, there's just no reason left to try, you pushed me away, another black day, count out the reasons to cry, look what you missed living like this nobody wins." She closed her eyes this time letting the tears flow freely. I could feel the tears falling out of my eyes, watching her tiny frame belt out such a beautiful sound.

"Searching for the truth, in your eyes, found myself so lost don't recognize the person now that you claim to be, don't know when to stop or where to start, you're just so caught up in who you are, now you're far to high for me to see, and I never thought that we'd come to this, Maybe there's beauty in goodbye, there's just no reason left to try, you pushed me away, another black day, count out the reasons to cry, look what you've missed living like this nobody wins." She was out breathing heavy looking at me; I stood up wrapping my arms around her as she laid her head against my chest.

"Lily, I am not sure what is wrong but you are a great person you will figure out a great solution." I said

"Ich liebe dich, papa." She said. She wiped her eyes, stepping back. She grabbed her coffee milk, and walked out into the hallway. She stopped in the doorway, and looked back at me.

"Dad there is something I need to tell you, but I am not ready to tell you, when I am ready I promise I will tell you, but right now I just can't, I would never lie to you, and if I think it's life threatening, I would tell you, but until I can no longer handle this, I'm going to keep it to myself ok?" She said

"Lily, I trust you, I love you, and what ever you're talking about can wait." I said, she smiled then walked away going back to her room. I wiped my eyes, heading back up to fix my eye make-up. I walked into the hotel room, Sam was packing her bags.

"Whoa what are you doing?" I asked

"I can't do this, Bill, something is not right, something isn't right, I can feel in the pit of my stomach, my distrust for her." She said

"Sam, I am not forcing you to go, if you want we can go home, Dunja can set up someway for him to meet us, it doesn't have to be here." I said

"Bill I have to tell you something, I had a dream about it, and now it's back in my mind." She said sitting down on the steps by the bed.

"My father didn't want him to be killed, my mother did, I was just turning fourteen and I was about to have him, when I over heard my mom say she could have him gone right away, my dad asked gone as in someone wants to adopt him already, but they heard me walking up and stopped." She said

"So your father took him to someone who was going to adopt him?" I asked

"I don't know, I want to think so, but why would my mother try to reunite me with someone she wanted dead in the first place?" She said placing her hands over her face

"Maybe she is just trying to do the right thing, maybe she has changed." I said

"Then I will arrange for her and him to come to us." She said crossing her legs

"No don't do that, come on lets just get this over with you will have a different view once it's over." I said holding my hand out. She sighed walking out of the room, I wanted to worry about her, but my worry was more about Lily, I wanted to excuse it for her adolescent transitions, but it was something else.

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Kinda forgot about it on saturday so its EXTRA special today :) this week is sad songs  :'(

1. Taylor Swift - White Horse. I first heard this on Keltie Colleen's blog back in Feb. Its an amazing song and the emotion Taylor puts into her songs is just mind blowing. She's finally getting the credit she deserves. This song has been played over 2000 times since i downloaded it 6 months ago, i listen to it when im going to sleep or if im sad or if im at someones house and out of my comfort zone. The video is heart wrenching to see someone so beautiful upset, its like "ah no stop please!!" i wanna know are those real tears!?!? lol

2. You And Me - Life House. My cousin sent me the link to the video on youtube but i knew it from somewhere.. Smallville. i heard it on a movie soundtrack but none the less its an awesome song. i have it on repeat as i type its one of those songs you can never get sick of really :) If i ever get married this is fur sure gonna be the first dance song :'). IF you listen to the lyrics they're pretty sweet. Not many songs like this are out now and it sucks. LIFE HOUSE FTW!

3. Finch - Letters To You. Its not a soft sad song but i call it a sad song cos the lyrics say "i miss you" so hahaah. I first heard it on a video on Jac Vanek's youtube and instantly fell in love with the band. Theres not much to say about this song/band other that theyre amazing and look them up!

4. Aerosmith - I Dont Wanna Miss A Thing. Its in this weeks playlist again for the same reasons hahah.

5. Paramore - My Heart. Some say its about a relationship with God, others say its about the relationship Josh and Hayley once had. Either way its about some form of love with another person/being. This is one of those kinda songs you'd turn to if you were upset. The lyrics are just amazing and im surprised nobody ever came up with anything like them before. I think it explains the feelings one has towards another perfectly. Paramore just keep creating amazing music and im so excited for their new record which has apparently a song on it thats like a love one c:

6. A Fine Frenzy - Near To You. This song is just amazing, if describes how i feel sometimes. Again the lyrics are amazing and i love how AFF's music is a change from your general rock or whatever genre you want to think of, its beautifullllll :)

7. Blink 182 - I Miss You. This has always been a favourite of mine. The video is kinda odd at parts but the song is seriously WHOA. Tom's voice is amazing. This doesnt need an explination as to why it's in this playlist it just is.

8. The Veronicas - Someone Wake Me Up. I remember seeing them on a disney show and have since loved their voices, their music is amazing, catchy and not your generic pop or rock or whatever. This is one of my fav songs by the twins other than Losing Myself.

9. The Used - Smother Me. I heard its about Bert's ex who supposidly died in an accident while preggers with his child. if so, ouch. its a different kinds song that the guy would usually do but different can be good! i love the lyrics and how tis just the piano and his voice, super soothing.

saved the best for last...

10. Panic! At The Disco - Nothern Downpour. This song is the only one i really like from Pretty.Odd. Brendon's voice is amazing and then RYAN sings its like the best. The lyrics confuse me in places but for the most parts it easy to comprehend that its written about missing your better half. When I heard this song i thought i couldnt love it more than i already did but when the video came out on halloween i cried like a baby at how simple and beautiful the guys were in it. Ryan really is an amazing lyricsist (sp?). This will forever be one of my all time favourite songs till the day i die.

BYEEEEEEEEEE

Don't worry, as with many of Courtney's ramblings, this attack was doled out via the internet (Twitter, specifically).  Find out what Courtney's beef with Lil J is...

Today, July 29, 2009 was the Starburst Summer Concert at Six Flags Kentucky Kingdom. The line up was amazing. With Never Shout Never, The Academy Is...,The Veronicas, Gym Class Heroes, and Boys Like Girls.

My friends and I arrived a half hour before Six Flags even opened. Bad Idea. The crowds were already forming. (Note: arrive earlier than early.) Anyways we waited in line until they opened. And then we casually sped walk, lol not the same as run, to Sugar Plum, where if you bought two bags of Starburst you got V.I.P. seating for the concert. They only sold 200, and the lines were already long, however, my friends and I took a gamble and waited TWO HOURS but we were able to make it and get the V.I.P's . not even the best part yet.

Now if anybody who truly knows me, knows how TERRIFIED I am of roller coasters. I was terrified.  But today that was all changed. My friends said I had to go on the roller coasters before we left. So we worked my way up by starting with the kiddie coaster. I survived that.

Next, we went to what is called Thunder Run, which is a wooden roller coaster. I was a little scared because of the height. But when people say its mind over matter, it really is. I ended up riding that coaster and I loved it.

Then we started to head over to Greased Lightening which is fast and has a loop. (Progression...I know) I survived that one.
Even though I did close my eyes. Lol.  It was worth it.

Also while walking around the park we ran into members of Never Shout Never TWICE! (And we weren't even following them...like some people were) The first time, we took a picture with them. And the second time, we high FIVED them in passing. It was amazing!

After Greased Lightening we made our way to the arena where the concert was being held. We watched Never Shout Never perform, and I have to say...it was GREAT. After Never Shout Never my friends and I had to make our way outta V.I.P. so we could do a meet and greet with BOYS LIKE GIRLS!  The meet and greet wait time however, took a while. But when your four gorgeous guys, you need to take the time to look good for your lady fans...so it was worth it. ( Oh and John liked the shirt I made...lol)

NOW ARE YOU READY FOR THE BEST PART???? BECAUSE HERE IT IS!!!!!

After the meet and greet , myself and my three other friends were able to ride a roller coaster with BOYS LIKE GIRLS!!! One tiny problem though. John and Bryan were not too keen on roller coaster riding...and neither was I. The coaster they chose...and when I mean they, I mean MARTIN. Was Chang. It looks terrifying to me. I was nervous, because just a couple of hours ago I was TERRIFIED of them. But I couldn't pass this chance up NOT riding with him. So....what did  I do? ....I rode it. I sat right next to Martin, and he's not afraid. He was all ready for some coaster action. Me on the other hand....I'm thinking what the heck did I get myself into????. But after thinking about it for a good thirty seconds. I finally thought, IT DOESN'T MATTER! I'M RIDING WITH MARTIN JOHNSON FROM BOYS LIKE GIRLS!! And That's what helped. Martin was so sweet. I told him how scared I was and he said there's nothing to be afraid of. And then after it was all over, he asked how I WAS! Gorgeous and Sweet? Oh yeah he is. He even took a picture with me after the ride, and I think it looks amazing. (Not because he's in there....lol)

After the ride, when we came back through the backstage gates, we parted our ways with Martin.(Sad...) but on our way out, we got bombarded by like everyone there asking, " Do you know him? How'd you get to do that?" left and  right. It was a little over whelming, so I now can understand why Robert Pattinson feels overwhelmed by TONS of girls.

After that we went back and listened to GYM CLASS HEROES! They flippin killed it! The crowd was into it like no other. Travis was into it, it just made one of the best sets of the day. Even when he told us to hug strangers. (We did by the way)

LAST but definitely not LEAST, BOYS LIKE GIRLS! Words cannot describe how much energy this band comes out with. Its like the intensity of a thousand SPARTA warriors...they started out with their new song, "LOVE DRUNK" and killed it! They got this crowd moving to the music. They even sang a new song off their album. It was killer. They got a little crazy at the end and they let themselves totally be a free spirit. Even to the point where Martin decided to climb up the railing on the side of the stage. (DANGEROUS! DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME! OR ON A STAGE! THE SECURITY WILL GET MAD! EVEN IF YOU ARE MARTIN JOHNSON!) But their set was by far the best of the day. And I'm pretty sure that the NEVER SHOUT NEVER fans might not agree. But I definitely think they were! Bryan, got down and dirty and came out to the crowd singing, John was banging his drums like no other, Paul was jumping on and off the speakers, and well Martin was making some security guards mad climbing on the railing of the stage. But it was SO WORTH IT. And to make it even better, after the song THUNDER, it began to start raining. Now who could plan that?? Just awesome. And then the finally song, " THE GREAT ESCAPE" was all done in the rain. The perfect answer for a hot and sweaty day! There was even a rainbow outside. And as soon as my friends and I left Six Flags. The rain stopped!  It was so amazing. And by far the best concert to EVER happen! I conquered my fears of coasters and rocked out to some of the hottest bands around!!

Most girls wish that Edward Cullen would sniff them, smell them, lick them and kiss them. But, Edward Cullen is not in love with everyone's smell. Buzznet caught up with 6 different female artists and found out what deodarant and what perfume these ladies wear. Now it's up to you to determine which of the artists smells would be most attractive to Edward Cullen. Details ...

So The Veronicas/The Pretty Reckless/Carney show was really amazing last night.  Everyone's vocals were so amazing and the stage presence was very fun!! It was my first time promoting at a show in Hollywood and let me just say one thing.  Its insane!!! afterwards there are so many people trying to hand all these poor people flyers that all they want to do is get out of there.  I think next time I will go early and pass out flyers to the line and try that way.  Cause I dont want to scare the poor people I just want them to take a look at what I have going on. hhaha

Have you guys ever gone to a show where you get bombarded with flyers and people yelling at you right after?

so that was the not so fun part of the night but other than that it was an AMAZING show!!

If you haven't gone yet make sure you head over to www.kyliehype.com right now to go get some Kylie Hype designed bows!!!! all my bows are 100% hand made!! =]

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Taylor Momsen hit Hollywood tonight, with big black high-lace boots, a red lace slip dress, red lipstick, a black leather jacket, a chain with a cross around her neck and a band of three boys called The Pretty Reckless. Taylor was most certainly looking pretty, but reckless she was not. Taylor Momsen is in fact a performer and she proved her part as a lead singer in The Pretty Reckless tonight. Read on ...

As many of you know, our band Carney released it's debut single "Love Me Chase Me" on iTunes this Tuesday! Since the release 5 days ago we've had a whirlwind of positive feedback and buzz stirring up, and it's come to the point where iTunes is recognizing us in the Pop Genre as "New and Noteworthy" on the very front page of the iTunes Music Store! A couple of day's ago we joined the "What's Hot" list which is also on the front page, but to be considered "New and Noteworthy" means that we're really making waves! Open up iTunes and take a look for yourself, or you can look at these sweet screeshots I took ;-)

"New and Noteworthy" - http://www.twitpic.com/81dzw

"What's Hot" - http://www.twitpic.com/81dsu

Here is what you can do to help us climb even higher up these charts so that we can start really spreading the word beyond our (amazing and passionate) fans, and into the rest of the world!

RATE Carney's "Love Me Chase Me" (takes 10 seconds max)

http://itunes.apple.com/WebObjects/MZStore.woa/wa/viewAlbum?id=319086159&s=143441

REVIEW Carney's "Love Me Chase Me" (takes 3 minutes max)

https://buy.itunes.apple.com/WebObjects/MZFinance.woa/wa/addUserReview?id=319086159&type=PlayList

And, if you're confused about how-to rate and/or review, here's a How-To for each!

How-To Instructions:

How-To Rate "Love Me Chase Me" http://www.twitpic.com/80xde

How-To Review "Love Me Chase Me" http://www.twitpic.com/80xfk

We're looking to get all of your ratings/reviews in before Tuesday, June 23rd so that we can show Interscope a REALLY great first week of sales :-) The first week is so crucial and the more we can prove that people are genuinely appreciating what we're doing here, the sooner we get to put out our full-length album!

Don't hesitate to spread the news! Every single download, rating and review make a world of difference :-)

Zane