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*Franky's Point of View*

I leaned my head on Billvy's shoulder. We watched Alex fake sleep next to Hayley on the opposite couch. Hayley was messing around on the damn guitar..again.

Mackie was on Gabe's lap, sleeping. her head was buried in his neck. HIs arms were around her waist, pulling her close as he rested his head on hers. 

Alison was tuning the drums and talking to Tam and Ryan. She threw the occasional glance at Alex, but she pretended to be distracted by whatever was saying so animatedly. if she wasn't doing that she was texting someone.

she was doing that alot lately.

Xani was arguing with Pete. We were doing bass tracks, so her bass was slung around her. Pete had come out of the production room to pick on something and i guess Xani was just so fatigued that she kinda..snapped. 

Hence the argument. Her hands were on her hips as they argued, about a metre apart from each other.

They were like in love or something, i swear. Why don't they just hook up already? 

oh right.

the boyfriend.

...forgot that.

anywho.

i compare these situations to school.

it's like when we think everyone has cooties.

but then 3 years down the line, we're a TAD more hormonal, and those cootie infested twerps we hated a few years back are suddenly devastatingly attractive.

anyway, it'll sort itself out.

i felt my eyes drifting closed as the arguing slowly drowned out, and went to sleep.

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*few hours later*

i woke up, it was dark. i guess Bill moved me to my own bed after the rest finished recording for the day.

I felt Bill's fingers running through my hair. kind of an absent minded thing he did sometimes. 

i moved a bit.

he knew i was up now.

i sat up a bit so i was next to him, and we stared at the city lights out the window.

'you hungry?' he asked me, looking down

'yeah'

'k'

we got up and walked to the kitchen. he sat on the counter as i raided the fridge. i felt his eyes on me.

'Bill?'

'Yes?' he answered distractedly

'stop staring at my ass'

'i'm not, i swear!' he protested

i took the mac and cheese out of the fridge, closing the door with my hip.

i put the food in the microwave 'sure you weren't'

'hmph' he pouted

he took my hands in his, pulling me to him

he entwined his arms around my waist, kissing me

i recall the microwave beeping at some point.

did that stop us making out?

no.

'no sex in the kitchen, kiddies' we broke apart to see Pete, shirtless and in skinny jeans, hair all messy.

'hey there booty call' i said

he rummaged through the fridge

'has Xani told Ryland yet?' Bill asked, hugging me to his chest

'no' Pete sighed, still looking

'do you think she will soon?'

he paused

'no.' he sighed, grabbing leftovers, some forks, and returning to the room where he locked the door.

Bill raised his eyebrows as i took out the food

'c'mon' i said, taking his hand and sliding off the counter

we walked past the other rooms.

Alison's was quiet, but she ws talking to someone on the phone, practically whispering.

i won't even bother questioning.

in Hayley's, she was on the phone too. Except she was yelling, loudly.

'No caleb, you cheated on me! you freaking CHEATED on me!'

i flinched a bit.

Xani's was quiet, with the exception of laughter and talking.

We slowly made our way back to the room, trying to block out all three scenarios in the process.

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*morning after*

'frankyyyyy'

'fuck.off.'

'breakfast?'

'fine.' i said getting up

i looked around, rubbing sleep from my eyes.

Bill was nowhere to be seen

there was a note on the bedstand

'i would have woken you to tell you i was going back to my place, but you looked so peaceful. i didn't want to disturb you. i'll call you later or see you at the studio.

love you,

Bill.'

i smiled and left the note there, getting up to go have breakfast.

Hayley was in the kitchen, taking muffins out of the oven.

Some people had joined us.

There was Alison, Xani and pete, but now Tam and Ryan were here too, and Alex. 

Hayley made her way over with the muffin tray.

Blueberry Muffins and chocolate chip muffins.

YAY!

Alex and Alison were next to each other at the table.

Awkward. turtle.

They weren't even speaking.

They just sat there.

Alex reached forward to grab a muffin

'careful they're-'Hayley started as he reached for one, but then retracted his hand quickly, probably because it burned

'-hot.'

'maybe.' Alex mumbled

everyone else waited a little bit before reaching for one to eat

They just ate, and alison tried to distract herself with texting someone.

we never knew who she was texting.

it's been like this since the party.

i'll find out somehow.

Xani and Pete were just happily eating, hands laced with each other.

Ryan and Tam were feeding each other muffin and laughing. Enjoying each other's company. Like they were in their own little world.

..again.

Hayley plonked down opposite me. There were huge bags under her eyes, her hair not done. Kind of like Alex circa yesterday.

weird.

i wish my end of the table wasn't so awkwardly quiet.

i casually looked over to Alison, who was still texting.

'who're you talking to' i asked loftily

she quickly sent the message 'no one'

Alex raised his eyebrows

he swallowed 'really?'

'really'

'okay' he mumbled, averting his eyes elsewhere.

Silence...again.

goddammit.

Again, just munching, and giggles from the happy end of the table.

no, clearly not this end.

'-she loves the way that i tease, i love the way that she breathes, i touched her ooh, she touched my aah-'

the ringtone was cut off by Hayley who picked up the phone.

she got up from the table with a smile, putting the phone to her ear

'Hey Garrett' she said, walking to her room before giving us some sort of wave

I saw Alex's follow her as she shut the door.

i raised my eyebrows

'who's Garrett?' i asked generally

'Nickelsen'

'huh?'

'Garrett Nickelsen.'

'okay.'

Alison  rolled her eyes 'hello? The maine?'

'oh..right. how do you know and how does she know him?!'

'warped. they were there too. whenever she disappeared she was with ftsk or them or someone else. when you were screwing bill, we were getting to know the bands. such as the maine.'

'that's one way to put it' alex mumbled

'what was that?' alison shot

'nothing.' he said stiffly.

'o..kay. is she like...'

'like what?'

'with him?'i asked cautiously

Alex stood up quickly, looking at a message he just received on his phone.

'crap, that'd be jack. i better go, sorry, great to see you all and thanks for food!' he said quickly, hastily kissing alison's cheek and not even lingering for more than half a second.

he opened the door and left

'hmm'

'well? is she?'

'no, she isn't'

'okay.'

'what's up with you and Alex?' Tam asked

'uhh' alison looked at her food

'come on, you guys are like, not speaking to each other. it's getting awkward and creepy. who did what, and when. just spill it already, woman' i said, poking her

she paused

'promise not to judge or comment until i'm done?'

Xani looked deterred 'this sounds awfully like me when i was telling you i slept with this loser' she said pointing at Pete as he 'glared' at her

alison paused again

'i slept with John O'Callaghan-'

Xani choked briefly before Pete patted her back

'you did WHAT?' Tam said, looking aghast

'you heard me. don't tell anyone, i'll kill you all and shoot your corpses, i swear i will.' alison threatened

'we won't' we all said quickly

silence.

'and i think Alex somehow knows. i don't know how, but i think he does. he's been distant since the morning after the party.'

she shifted uncomfortably

'damn' i muttered, crushing my muffin into pieces as i thought

'does hayley know?'

'yeah i think she does. cos she knew i was completely wasted, and looking for John, and she know that i liked him so this is how it would turn out in the end of the party. i'm sure she knew something of the sort was up.

'k'

we heard Hayley laugh while still on the phone

'ok, Xani, seriously, are you SURE they're not together?'

'yeah. Friends are allowed to laugh, Franky.'

she said dryly before Pete whispered something in her ear making her laugh

'well, Xani, friends don't usually fuck either, but hey, you know, anything's fine.' i said sarcastically as she 'glared'

'they're not together. and no, i have not broken up with Ryland yet.'

'why?'

'he's in chicago'

'so?'

'i'm not going to break up with him over the phone!'

'fine. but do it soon.'

'i know i know' she said rolling her eyes

with that we were left in silence once again.

*few hours later, at recording studio*

'thank god!' hayley said, throwing off her headphones

'what?'

'we've finished the record! Pete's mixing it tonight! we've actually legitimately finished a record!' she said excitedly, jumping around.

'actually, i mixed all of your tracks before, and i just finished that one, so we're technically done' Pete said, leaning against the doorframe

hayley squealed and we all started talking

'there's just  album artwork left but you can figure that out on your own. it's all about your tastes.' he said shrugging

we all started talking again

'oh and by the way, there's something else i have to tell you guys.'

'about what?'

'tour'

'oh, what about it?'

'well...'

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'Just a small town girl

Livin' in a lonely world

She took the midnight train

Goin' anywhere

Just a city boy

Born and raised in South Detroit

He took the midnight train

Goin' anywhere

A singer in a smokey room

A smell of wine and cheap perfume

For a smile they can share the night

It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting

Up and down the boulevard

Their shadows searching

In the night

Streetlights, people

Livin' just to find emotion

Hidin', somewhere in the night'

- 'don't stop believing' by journey

sick song

i've been obsessed with it

i've been singing it ALL the time

i know you love that cliffhanger!

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i know i know i haven't been updating in a while..

:(

sorry

school does end next week though

this weekend i have this thing called the 'Combined Schools Festival'

i had a rehearsal yesterday and there were hot guys EVERYWHERE.

i was just sitting in my spot with my violin, playing, and i look up at the conductor, and behind him i see the most AMAZING sight

also known as the lead cellist.

OMG HE WAS SOOO FREAKING HOT.

like a mini garrett nickelsen.

god he was cute.

anywho

that should be fun

and i may update you on what happens during this.

we're playing this piece in the orchestra with the choir, it's pretty famous, it's called 'o Fortuna'

SOOOOOO fun to play!

also, bubbles and i are going to record a video in the holidays of us covering a song (hopefully) and also one of me and my violin, and her listing random songs for me to try and play on the violin.

i don't know, it's just something fun we've figured out how to do because for some reason i can play most songs she lists...

she says i'm a freak.

but that's bull.

mhm!

i'll update the next chapter if i get 12 comments.

12 COMMENTS

mhm!

and you're all free to guess what happens after this cliffhanger too!

first person to get it right gets a virtual cookie.

so yeah

that was a bit of an uneventful chappy though. sorry.

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