strange Blog and Journals

Hey Guys J

What’s up?

Yes, the last two days Melissa was here. It was always really funny :P

But when she’s here I’m so high :D

Oh yeah, today is Monday L school sucks!! And I have to go to Softball training L

I don’t want to go there!!! It’s so boring!! But my parents say I have to go there … grr.

I feel bad, don’t know why. Maybe because everything sucks?!?

I want to go to America for 6 months but I can only get there when I’m in form 11 and when I have a good English mark… fuck L

I want to go now!! Away from this fucking everyday life!! Ok I would miss my friends but perhaps there are freaks like me…

My father said oh since you are at ten sing you don’t like softball… but it’s not right. I was 9 months at softball before I go to ten sing . They are all older than I am and so they make party together and talk about it so I was alone… I tried all the time to get connect in the team but it didn’t walk. So I came to ten sing. There I had the first real friends in my life… I can’t tell this my parents because they wouldn’t believe it. I was so happy there and so I don’t want to go to this strange people who don’t like me (ok some people likes me but it would never be a friendship ). So I spent all my time with my first real friends. And now the games are at the same time then a few things with my friends and of course they are my first choice, naturally!! But my parents don’t understand me because before ten sing I liked softball very much. Yes of course I liked it because the people there don’t discriminate me and I’m really good . But the things change!! My parents said that I’m like a six years old child because oh yeah I have something new so I don’t need the old thing anymore, but it isn’t right. Why did parents ever think they’re right? I feel so worse!!! I want to run away to my friends but it won’t work. So I still sit here and write this to make me clear what I think. Yes it’s helps…. Ok not very long but it must…

If I were you I would think oh my god what is that for a strange girl but I’m not so strange like it seems to…

Write me on if you want to know me :P

Love Lena

p.s.: I’ll upload many videos in the next time :P I’ll hope you can laugh about this videos because you should take it with fun :p

p.p.s.: the asshole can be very sweet but I’ll tell you later :P