strange Blog and Journals

I think I'm the only asian on this site! Wuddheck?! No fellow yellows or chinx?...aiiiyahhh, this sucks. Oh well. I'm a rainbow kid, I like all colors anyway. My friend alexis (who is on this site) is as yellow as a frog's belly, but she denies it. I don't understand-is it a SHAME to her?! She claims she's mexican/samoan/irish/doggish/barbie-ish....SO WHY ISN'T SHE ASIAN SOMEHOW?!...Normally I do not rant like this, but...asians are so fascinating! The moral of the story, kiddies, is that my friend Alexis is asian. Oh, and be proud of your race. 'Cause you're stuck with it for prettyyy much the rest of your life...okay, you saw this coming...unless you decide to bleach or burn your skin or something crazy like that...I hope I didn't scare off any potential friends I may make on this site...'cause Imma newb...a fob...lol.

Fact: I do not like the colour red. Fact: I hate pens because I tend to make a lot of mistakes. So why name it RiEnDk? Simple: It was dark at night when I was writing and this was the only utensil I could find at the moment. Karma? No, I am Karma.
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I am pretty much terrified of the guys at my school.

Incident 1:

I was in my Global Connections class and this kid Kyle always comes over from across the room to talk to me before the bell rings. One day when he walked away the girl that sits behind me goes, "Michele, you know Kyle is in love with you." and I was like 0_o. Um.... Then her friend comes right up behind her and goes, "Did you tell her?" Then I started laughing because, come on. So Lizzy McGuire where I'm the last one to know this thing. So now I'm afraid of Kyle and how and when and where he thinks of me. 0_o. If he were attractive to me- maybe I wouldn't be. But.... he's not. 

Incident 2:

In my math class there's this kid named Jeff that for some reason whenever the teacher makes a new seating chart is always at most 2 desks away from me (coincidence for all I know). He always asks me when he can't figure something out- which doesn't really suprise me 'cuz I'm a beast at math. But then when I was in his group (we were doing group work) this girl next to me starts singing "Secret loversss. That's what you are...". Then Jeff gives her an evil look and a nudge. I pretended to not notice for his own pride's sake. Then last week I was waiting for my mom to pick me up from school in the lobby and he came into the lobby with his friend talking and when he saw me he quickly got really close to his friend and whispered something. His friend turned around and then Jeff smacked him. 0_o. I pretended not to notice. Again. He asked me what I was doing and I told him my mom was picking me up. Then he walked outside. His friend smiled at me and said hi. Yea.... I kinda feel like he's a creepo because honestly- it's sooo wayyy obvious and he scares me.

Incident 3:

I was in gym- just doing a warm up jog- as instructed. All of a sudden this guy runs up behind me and then past and says, "Hi Michele" with a weird grin on his face and a little cockyness. This could be no big deal if I knew his name. We just switched schedules for the new semester and I have a new class. I have no idea who anybody is (except Kyle *shudders*).  It was sooo random. I have no idea how he knew my name. I mean, we had to do dance and then introduce ourselves to our new partners- but we had a new partner every minute- so there's no way to remember them all. This freaks me out...

Incident 4:

This one could be considered a compliment- but it's still weird. I got on my bus (after school) and sat in my seat (there aren't assigned ones- but I like this one seat). Then as the rest of the bus loads- a sophmore walks past me and says, "Hey pretty, you're looking nice today." I was just like 0_o. I looked over at my friend Brian (whom also might love me- he always has an excuse to touch my face)and was like, "Did you hear that?!?!?" I was freaked out.

Incident 5:

In my Biology class, there is this kid named Irvin or Irwin- I'm not sure- I'm not really friends with him. Any way, we had an assembly today and he was like, "So who are you sitting with during the assembly?" in this really weird way like 'Ey!' (Fonzie). Then I was like, "Oh, I'll probably find a group of my friends to sit with. It's kinda hard to find people in the gym." And he was like (again- like Fonzie- but creepier), "Why don't you sit with me?" (I swear to exclamation point- he was trying to act macho) And I was like 0_o... "Errr.... sure.... but... um..... it's kinda hard to find people in the gym.... ya know..... during an assembly." (I'm too nice) It was super weird! I have barely exchanged 10 sentences with this guy and I don't even know what his name is! I was afraid the rest f the day and at the assembly I found a seat and watched people pile in. When I saw him- I ducked in to my bag and made my friend lean he arm on my to make me look like a big pie of coats or something (He's not the sharpest tool in the shed). I hope he doesn't ask me about it on Monday.....

I don't really know what this all means. This is pretty much the first time things like this have ever hapened to me. Never before. I think I either got really hot (possibility) or maybe a freakish rumor got started. I don't know how- but almost every one frickin knows my name and are weird to me. I deffo haven't done anything. I've never even kissed a guy at my school and I don't wear belly shirts or anything. I'm deffo not asking for it and I'm pretty quiet otherwise. What should I think?

Oh yeah I could sing the whole day long J but normal I had to be sad… my friend Greta had an asthma accumulation… L this is so bad L

My parents are strange at the moment… perhaps they don’t realized that I‘m a young lady :D ok not really :P but I could be older because all my friends are much older than I am and the don’t notice it because I adapt me.. So I think about nearly everything like a older people… psychooo :D

But of course I already be childless :p but they‘re too J

Do you know that I have a multiple personality?! My second I called Andrea .. She is strange because she make things and I don’t realize that I did it.. Really!! Yara is my third me… she tells me stupid things… :D so I always begin to laugh and anybody know why :P this is really funny J Lena is the „normal“ girl.. She is honestly, patiently, sensitive, a good listener, creative, sportive…

This are my personalities I know good…but there are some other I can only imagine…

Perhaps there is one who is by verse… (yeah there must be one), one is very much romantic ( I like this me J )…

All the personalities are more good and sometimes less good…

For example the people think I‘m always happy… J

Or at one party I don’t realize that I kissed the boyfriend of my best friend… fuck… some people told me this after 3 hours… and I said: WHAT?!? This was really scary L

Yes ok… enough of this… perhaps I will tell you something more about this later J

Now you can call me a FREAK, because I AM A FREAK :P *muhahaha*

Ok, tomorrow I have no school because I will done athletics for my school J

This will be funny J

And after this I‘ll meet Greta J she is on another school… but she has a free lesson J this will be sooo cool I love Greta (as a friend :p)

so today was like any other day. i woke up around 11:30 and helped my brother. then i laid in my computer room [we have 2 couches in there] and talked on the phone with my sister. then we went to pick up my 5 month old nephew and i played with him outside. my brothers friends ramone,joe,keith,chris some girl and kane[dog] came over while we were outside and then it rained. it was amazing to feel raindrops, i never been outside when it rained so feeling actuall drops felt good.

haha anyways tomarrow i have a grad party to go to and my friend is meeting up with me at 1:30 to go with me. then she is staying the night.

tokio hotel will be blasting in my room all night.

tuesday i go to kenny wood with my friend christina. we are staying in a hotel. monday night i have to stay with her so her dad doesnt need to make a double trip.

there is 8 days till my 14 birthday. i am getting old -_-

summer is goin good right now.

anyways what are you guys plans this summer?

K, so personally I think it sounds like Im on acid (im not) I havent written a poem in forever and this suddenly came pouring out as I am watching Running With Scissors. It took about 5 mins but Im sure I'll change bits here and there. I also will probably try to create a picture to go along with it. Its currently untitled as well.  Also, I'm not much in the mood for puncutation so woohoo for creative freedom.

Diving off the dep end into insanity
Sinking in ridiculous thoughts to cover up the craziness
Splashing away sorrow and repressed anger
Swallow the nicotine lies
Drunken unconciousness until another day
Waiting until its too late
And watching the pressure gauge explode
Who is breathing anyway?
Its all reused air
Of all things to recycle
Something that is brand new
Life is recycled
            Thoughts
             Dreams
     and Body  parts
Do you recognize your face in mine
Do you see yourself drowning with me
Water melting your skin into a softness
Easier to tear it apart
Chlorine stinging your insides
Fish swim through your blood stream
An electric eel to SHOCK your mind
A jold of change to wake you up
From your unconciousness walk through this planet
Wander sleepily down a path leading to destruction
You wonder why I jump into insanity
When I cant even begin to swim
But anything's better than this razorblade grass

Liric is really sick and in the hostipal. He's in a coma right now, and needs alot of blood. Don't worry anyone because the doctors say he will be out of it in a matter of 3 or some days. Liric is just facing some problems, but he will talk to all of you soon. Havokisthecure, he wants to tell you thanks for being an amazing friend, and always through everything he's been through, he really thinks you're one of his true friends. Also, panicatthediscokid, he wants to thank u for being really sweet and letting him talk to you. He wishes all of his buzz friends good luck, and as I assure you, he will be fine.

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Marissa <3

Ps:I will make a buzznet for all you guys to ask me any questions you guys have.

So here i am, Sitting around doing nothing but revsion and Myspace because i came home early from school and Now ive decided that whenever i feel like it i will post a blog for you wonderful people of myspace to read and See what amazing thing happened in my amazingly BORING Life.  It'll be like my own sex and the city colum except it''ll  be "The No sex with no city" Well no sex for me atleast

So as a teenage girl im going through "Change" But in my eyes its the lack of change in myself,  Okay so i have a new hair colour and maybe ive grown a few inches But nothing else, I dont want to write it down but You must understand what im trying to say *cough*FLATCHESTEED*cough*  It gets annoying when you havent gone up a bra size in almost a year. *le sigh* Oh well i guess more important things are happening in the world of Kaii.

So... Most of my friends have loverly male partners, No im not jealous but it would be nice for the male of the human species to maybe pay a slight bit of attention to me once in every so often because a girl does get a bit lonley.

*Laughs*

In this boring town not much intrests me, I Find it a bore to go to town and do nothing but the same everytime, It really doesnt appeal to me but what does, Is spending time with the people i call friends because Trully they are all that matters to me at this point in time and in the near future i cannot see it changing... But still it is a bit boring walking around clacton and getting Odd looks from People.

Lets hope next week is more intresting Aye people.

XD

I know, this is a really random subject for a blog, but after yet another weird dream last night I thought it might be interesting to share......

Most Recent Weird Dream

I was hiking in a mountain and got lost in a mountain labyrinth.  I kept meeting people I know, and also famous people ( the main ones I remember are Panic At The Disco).  At one point I met Hayley Williams from Paramore; she was pregnant and yelling "Oooooowwwww!!" For some reason I knew she was in labour.  Next thing I know, a baby girl (wearing a nappy) literally materialised in her arms.  She said "Ohmygod!  Wow!  It's my baby!  Her name is Holly."  Then she ran off with the baby Holly and shouted to me "I have to tell Josh Farro.  He doesn't know I had his baby!"

I was as freaked out as you are now.  Even in my sleep.

Dream While Under Anasthetic In Hospital (yes, I can actually remember this)

Bill Kaulitz was running around trying to find Tom, because they were about to play a show.  He got me to help him.  We found Tom as the best man at a wedding.  The groom was Davey Havok - and he was marrying a woman (wrong, wrong, WRONG!!).  We got Tom out but Jefree Star tried to kill us.  He said that he should be marrying Davey.  The he died.  I was about to dive into water with the Kaulitz twins but then I came round.

Dream As A Three Year Old (my memory is photograpic)

Brian Molko from Placebo tried to kill me.  With his fringe.  Seriously. 

Does he know he caused me MONTHS of sleepless nights?  Bastard.

Those are the three weirdest ones I can be bothered to write down.  Leave a comment and tell me what you think, or if you have had even stranger dreams....