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Have you ever wondered if you had said yes instead of no, pancakes instead of waffles, or comedy instead of horror, whether your life would be different? I think about this question every minute of my waking life and sometimes in my sleep because I had to make the toughest decision in the whole universe. Where are my manners, my name is Lexi Summers and no, I’m not famous, but when I became Alex Gaskarth’s  first real girlfriend, I got my fair share of knowing what fame is. Let me take you back to the start, back when it all first started…

It was my first day of grade 8 when I first met Alex, well when I first came to know about his existence. Me and my best friend Jack were in English throwing paper balls at each other when the teacher asked us to be quite because we had a new student.

“Class, this is Alexander Gaskarth. He just transferred from St. Claus’s Private School and will be joining our class. Alexander, why don’t you introduce yourself?” She asked the boy who was wearing jeans and a plain grey shirt. I snickered at the bandana he had in his hair because honestly, who wears a bandana?

“You said it all miss.” He said looking down at the floor. It was cute that he seemed shy because it ment he wasn’t like all the other bone heads at my school.

“Why don’t you take a seat in front of Jack there?” She said pointing to Jack who was obviously wasn’t paying attention.

“Present!” He said thinking she was calling the roll. Everyone just laughed, everyone except for Alex who just sat in his seat and looked at his books. The rest of the lesson went by pretty fast because Jack kept talking to me about his holidays. In fact the whole year went by pretty fast and there were a lot of changes. Jack and I were closer than ever, having an amazing brother and sister relationship but everyone thought we were together ever since that awkward moment at Grace’s party, the whole seven minutes in heaven where Jack thought it would be funny to make moans, I was laughing but when everyone asked me if we had gotten to second base it was kind of annoying because he was like my brother. As for Alex, after a whole two weeks at our school, he had all the girls liking him and all the dudes hating him because the girls all like him. Instead of that shy boy he was when he first sat down in our English class, he was the definition of up-yourself. Yeah, I’ll admit he wasn’t bad to look at, but he thought he was the bomb and didn’t he know it. I had only ever talked to him once, well I shouted at him because he had stamped on my foot while I was waiting in line for lunch. I knew it was an accident but he didn’t even apologize and then he pushed in front of me in the line and he caught me on a bad day.

But this year, year 9 was different. Jack found out that Alex could play guitar and sing and was in a band called Hurting Her Slowly which was full of the people he absolutely hated. Jack wanted to start his own band because he thought he was so good as he could play all of his favourite Blink 182 songs so he decided to be friend Alex and ‘band-poach’ him.

“Jack, this isn’t going to work, he probably is happy with the other band and probably doesn’t even know who Blink 182 is.” I complained as he dragged me through the school and towards the tree under which Alex and a few of his friends sat under.

“Whoa! Stop right there! Who doesn’t know Blink 182, they are the best band ever and if not, I will show him the way of his musical misfortune. Lexi I don’t really care if you don’t approve, I’ve heard him sing and play his guitar, I need him in my band!” He argued with me as we crossed the courtyard.

“Perfect!” Jack said pointing to Alex sitting under the tree by himself. He grabbed my hand and ran over towards him.

“Hi!” Jack said waving as we stood in front of him.

“Hi?” He asked confused as to what we were doing here, I was asking myself the same thing.

“I’m Jack and this is Lexi and to be honest, we want you to be in our band!” He said quickly. I might gave forgot to mention that I play the drums, not well but I can hold a beat but at the moment, its not important.

“I’m Alex and I’m already in a band dude.” He said getting to his feet.

“See I told you Jack, now lets go.” I said turning around and grabbing his arm.

“Wait! I didn’t say I wasn’t interested, I just said I’m already in a band.” Alex said making us both turn around. “What’s the go with this band?”

“Well, I play guitar and Lexi plays the drums and we want you to sing and play guitar as well. We’ll write some songs together or jam out to Blink 182.” Jack explained.

“Blink 182? Are you serious? They are fucking sellouts, they’re on MTV and shit.” Alex said chuckling.

“Look Alex, you may see them as sell outs but they are amazing live. Listen to The Mark, Tom and Travis show and then tell us what you think.” I said getting quite angry. He was dissing Jack’s favourite band and it annoyed the hell out of me because they were an amazing band. I looked at the shock that came across his face and then smiled too myself as I walked away. I didn’t get to see Jack for the rest of the day because he got sent up to the principle’s office for spitballing the back of our English teacher’s head. But when I got to school the next day, Jack almost tackled me to the ground he was that excited.

“Alex listened to the cd and he said he is in! He was like dude, we need to fucking do this, this is awesome, they are just being themselves, its awesome, everyone loves it. Thank you, thank you, thank you!” He yelled as he jumped up and down. I couldn’t help but smile because Jack was so happy. This was how the whole thing started, a band mediocre band that cover Blink 182 songs, a band that in the future was going to make me question everything I stood for, make me question every single what if.

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“Lexi, you aren’t doing it right.” Alex whined. “It’s one two three and come in on four.” He told me as we were practicing in Jack’s basement. This is how it had been for almost two months now, apparently I couldn’t play the drums to save my life.

“That’s what I did!” I yelled.

“Yeah, ok fine.” He said, his voice dripping with sarcasm. Two months of this and you can see where I’m coming from when I say I hate Alex Gaskarth. Yes, I said it ok, I hate Alex Gaskarth. Everything I do isn’t good enough for him, my drumming, my shirt designs, helping him with his homework, the way I dress! Normally I wouldn’t care because I would have Jack to consol in but I no longer felt like I knew him, he wasn’t my Jack anymore, he was Alex’s Jack and that’s what hurt the most.

“You know what Alex? I’ve had just about enough of your constant whining and sarcasm, if you don’t think I can play, play the drums yourself!” I said standing up and walking out of the basement. I got to the stairs before someone grabbed my arm.

“Lexi, what was that?” Jack asked shocked.

“Jack, you cant seriously expect me to stay in the same room as him if he is going to rain on my freaking parade every single minute of every single day. Its been two months and he thinks this is his band, how can you not see this?” I said holding back the tears that threatened to fall, I never let anyone see me cry, was a sign of weakness.

“Are we talking about the same person? So he gives you a few little tips here and there, its not like he is constantly harping on about how you cant play the drums.” He said with a small laugh.

“Oh my god! Are you serious? Jack that’s all he does, tells me I cant play over and over again! How have you not seen or heard this!” I said storming up the stairs so I could grab my stuff and get away from this person who is not my best friend.

“Come on Lexi, don’t be like this.” Jack said following me up and the stairs and into his room. “Alex is nothing but nice.”

“You are delusional! Alex is not nice, Alex is deceiving and cunning and sneaky and a jerk!” I was really starting to get angry, Jack was so far up in the clouds that he was oblivious to everything Alex does.

“Lexi, that’s my friend you’re talking about.” He said, his voice lowering to a scary whisper, it sent shivers down my spine. This was definitely not Jack and I blamed every single little thing on Alex.

“That’s good, now you wont miss me because I quit, I quit this band, I quit this friendship because you are not the boy I have grown to think of as my brother, and I quit trying to fake that I’m happy.” I said as the tears flew down my cheeks. This was the first time that Jack, in fact anyone had seen me cry so I would have expected that he would realize that something was seriously wrong.

“Are you asking me to choose between you and Alex? Because I could never do that!” He exclaimed.

“Why? It isn’t that hard Jack! Who was there for you when Jenna told everyone you had cooties? Who was there for you when your first kiss was accidentally with Greg? Who was there for you when your sister was sick? I would have thought you would choose me but lately, I feel like I don’t know you so who knows? So I’ll make it easy for you, bye Jack.” I said and walked down the stairs and out the door.

This is one of those I wonder if my life would be different moments. I wonder if I had just put up with Alex’s crap whether Jack would have realized how much of an arse he really was, or whether we would have had the same fight but later? Lucky for me, a friend of a friend of a friend of a friend, has a time machine so I was able to go back and see whether life would have been different. Oh who am I kidding, I don’t have access to a time machine or some special future revealing rubbish can, but I do have my imagination and some fairy dust.