Sonny Moore Blog and Journals

I've been so busy lately D:
liak with school and weekend stuff.
I've been helping out my parents with their new facebooks.
lawls. liak ferreal tis hilerousss.
my new brown hair everybody seems to like, including me.
I forgot my camera at my dads so i couldnt post any new pictures D:

nothing has been going on lately D:
I've been trying to find new sneakers
because my mom doesnt want me wearing my vans because they have a hole at the bottom,
but they're my favorite!
I like my shoes all beat up and such.
im not really girly.
i like my shoes awl beat up and big and sneakers :D
i sit with my legs wide open and my hand in my lap, liak a g, iknuh xD
i drink outta the carton x3
i talk about the atttractiveness of some girls, even to mah boyfran lawlsss XD
even mah moms boyfran was liak "hannah sometimes i think yourr a dood." xD

but then i have my really girly moments,
like i love makeup
and fashion
and dressing up :D

im so strange sometimes, liak ferrealz.

This weekend I did basically nothing except hanging with dominic,
they had a fire in their house friday earllyyyyyyy mornnig, liak 2am D:
on their table it scared me o-o
their table is basically gone nao because of the flames.

eff candles.

but anyways i did seee him friday,
my mom was being a meanie so it was just what i needed.
when i got home i was wearing his shirt, :]
and my mom was liak wth wai you wearing his shirt?!
im liak coz i want to?
she went to bed and i guess i was bein loud downstairs or something
and she started yelling saying she didnt trustt me with him
and how we need to be watched 24/7 and shit. it pissed me off how she doesnt give me any credit, when she says she gives me the most credit,
its crazy bologna :O
but hay tahts whatever c:

thenn i saw him saturdayyy!
which wasnt really expected but i did,
we went to his church
and then we went to the hospital to visit his cusnis boyfran who has swine fluuuuu.
and liak its really sad being in teh parking lot at the hospial
theres so many cars,
so many people who are there with a friend // family member that is really sick D:
its so depressing.
:/

But I was really happy,
like i was the happiest person in the world.
i swar nobody could be happier. :]

anyways, today im heading off to my dads,
going to shower now.
gotta do homework
report cards monday D:

oh some good songs ive been liking lately:
1. So contagious by Acceptance.
2. Manifest Destiny by Guster
3. Sometime When you lose, you win by Karate High School
4. Prelude to a Dream by A skylit drive
5. If you wanted a song written about you by Mayday Parade
6. I'm a fake by the Used
7. Smoother me by the Used
8.Mora by Sonny Moore

When I was real little, like fifth grade the used, unwritten law, sum41, and greenday used to be my favorite bands. and i've recently been listening to them lately,
also look at the song
Save Me by Unwritten Law
its awesome <3
I was trying to find the song I'm a fake and came across smoother me again

there such good songs if you havent heard them
the title of this is from smoother me <3

&I used to love sonny moore, like sixth // seventh grade? the song mora was my favorite and hes ohso yummy c:
and they have a new verison thats craaaazy technoish
listen to the old one, less techno. c:
still amazing.
but ne ways,
I go :D
hopefully next time i'l have some good photos :]

Pairing: William Beckett//Sonny Moore.
^ Weird. I know. It was a contest entry.

Rating: NC-17.

Word Count: 1, 209.

Once upon a time, promises meant something. They meant that you could tell someone something and trust them not to go blabbing their mouths and letting the whole fucking town know your secret.

Yeah, once upon a time.

"I'm in love with you."

Five simple words.

Five words, can't be that hard to keep it to yourself, can it?

Apparently, for William it was, because William didn't; William didn't even come close. William told the whole fucking school in a matter of fifteen seconds. It was rushing out of everyone's mouths like wildfire, something that couldn't be controlled:
"Did you hear? Yeah, Sonny wants to fuck William! Can you believe it?"
Like it's that hard to believe, anyway. Sonny had stared at William's ass and package every time it was flaunted in front of his face and although Sonny was undeniably, uncontrollably, unbelievably pissed, he would continue to stare. Because Sonny was good at staring and William was fantastic to stare at.

"You told? Seriously, asshole?"

William's already wide eyes widen and his head shakes violently.
"Why do you think that? W-Why would I tell anyway? Like that's anyone's business but mine and yours?"

William's trying to play it smooth, Sonny thinks and it's kind of already pissing him off.

"Maybe I think that because the entire fucking school knows?"

As Sonny's speaking, he's stepping closer with each word unknowingly, really, it's not on purpose, he's just pissed.

"I didn't tell them, Sonny, I didn't."

William's voice is lower now, quieter, softer, sweeter.

Sonny's body is pressed against William's, they're pressed into the metal of a row of lockers and William won't meet Sonny's eyes, he's obviously scared shitless.

Even though Sonny and William have been friends since the first fucking grade, William's never seen Sonny mad, simply because Sonny doesn't get mad. Usually.

"You're lying, Billy," is almost spat in William's face and William can't help the cringe that occurs.

"Why would I tell, Sonny? I told you... I told you that I..." he doesn't mean to trail off; he just can't force himself to say the words. He is an awkward boy, and Sonny makes him twelve times more so.

"Told me what?" Sonny's voice is quieter now, he's melting just a little bit, because he knows what his Billy is going to say, and he's desperate to hear it.

"I told you that I love you, too," William croaks out and his face is the color of the crimson lockers behind him.

"Aw, look! I guess they're both fags!" some douche bag behind the two yells out and cackles his way down the hallway as Sonny spins around on his heel. He watches with eyes narrowed to slits before he turns back around to see William still there, cowering.
"It was you, it had to be you. We were alone when I told you and... and it had to be you! You promised, William!"

William slides down the lockers, in between Sonny's arms and Sonny's narrowed eyes watch him slide down, confusedly.

"I told Parker. She-she swore she wouldn't-"

Sonny had to resist the urge to let his booted foot fly into William's stomach. Parker, Parker of all people. Loud mouth of all loud mouths.

"Yeah, well, you swore, too, asshole."

William hates that he told, hates that the whole school knows, hates that Sonny is pissed, but he's getting really sick of being called an asshole.

"Stop, Sonny. I made a mistake," his voice is quiet but strong, firm like it wasn't before.

"Stop what, William?!"
William stands up and puts a bony finger in Sonny's chest; he's really just had enough of this already.

"Stop calling me a fucking asshole! Jesus, Sonny!"

Sonny stumbles back, just a little, the surprise evident on his face. His eyes then narrow back to their slits, he grabs William's hand from his chest, and drags him down the empty and barren hallway.

"Sonny, fuck!" William is kind of dragging his feet, not because he doesn't want to disappear off with Sonny, but because he doesn't like being dragged around by a mad man. Actually, William would very much like to disappear off with Sonny. And maybe not return for a day or forty.

Finally, they're outside and William hopes that maybe they can slow down now because he's pretty sure the skin on his wrist is getting rubbed raw by Sonny's grip.

They don't slow down though, not when they're off the grounds, not when they're on the grass, and not when they hit the pavement of the parking lot.

But finally, as they reach the last row, with the one whole car in it, Sonny stops.

He turns around, grabs William by the shoulders, and pins him to the side of the rusty piece of shit Sonny calls his vehicle.

He leans close, way far into William's bubble and any confidence William previously built up vanishes into thin air. He's cowering again and getting kind of angry at himself for being such a pussy.

"I like it when you're dominant, Billy."
William is so busy bitching himself out that he almost doesn't hear the seductive words whispered into his ear, or feel those lush lips brush his cheek as Sonny pulls away.

"W-what?" God. He's stuttering again. Sonny's hands inch up William's flat and bony stomach and Sonny can't help but inhale deeply, and then blink down hard, because this whole ordeal must be a dream.

"Dominant you. It's not something I get to see often. Or ever," Sonny is still whispering. William takes a deep breath of air and forces himself to look in Sonny's eyes.

Their breaths are now intermixing between them; Sonny's of cigarettes and Dr. Pepper, and William's of spearmint LifeSavers.

William is now feeling dominant, he's thinking maybe it's the compliment from earlier, or maybe it's the way Sonny's eyes are traveling all over his face, as if memorizing every detail and probably every flaw, so he leans in and attaches their lips, smothering the breathing between them.

Sonny's shocked at first, William can feel it in the way that Sonny's lips are moving, but he keeps pressing forward and now he's feeling brave enough to bring his hands into the equation. His hands are in Sonny's hair and Sonny's hands are resting on William's hips, and now Sonny is pressing them into the rusted piece of shit, so that their hips are touching and being held against each other.

It's William's turn to be surprised when Sonny's hips grind down softly into his, the sudden contact forces a moan of his mouth and he feels Sonny smirking into their kiss.

William's feeling amazingly confident now and he lets his hands trail down Sonny's back and then grasp Sonny's firm ass tightly.

Sonny moans into William's mouth and grinds his hips forward again.

The kissing continues, gradually getting rougher as Sonny's hands find themselves trailing down William's lanky body and then coming into contact with a belt buckle that proves to be no challenge at all.

Sonny's hands are dipping in and out of William's skin tight skinny jeans before William pulls away and whispers, "Best secret I ever told," against Sonny's lips with a mischievous glint in his warm brown eyes.

Unfortunately From First To Last is dropping off of Warped Tour due to the current condition of Sonny's voice. He will be having a mild surgery to remove a node, and the doctors assure us that Sonny will be full force come this fall when we tour. Thanks to everyone for making us the Energizer band almost everyday, and we are really sorry to all the people that didnt get to watch us play at Warped Tour.

great... now my fav band wont be there, and if u dont believe me check out their myspace bitch.........................

Let's starve down to the bone, we're looking better boney
Who needs figure anyway?
Stay with me, stay with me,
So I can dig my nails deep in your cave

It feels better now without control girl, you look better blurry angel
Why do we need to be sanitary when the world's so filthy anyway?

Oh Poor me oh poor you
Ohooo Ohooo Ohoho x2

Poor unfortunate child
I can't stop running away...

I'm a one life,
Hopeless dirty animal baby
And I bow down to my feeble brain
Abberated, primitive
Stay with me, stay with me

No food for weeks
I've never felt better
We look better famished girl
Hightail to our lush escape
And leave our filthy world away

Oh poor me, oh poor you
Ohooo Ohooo Ohoho x2

Poor unfortunate child
I can't stop running away...

I'm on the verge of self destruction
Suffering because of my selfish voices
I'm on the verge of self destruction suffering
Because I gave up on
Myself
And everyone

Oh poor me, oh poor you
Ohooo Ohooo Ohoho x2

Poor unfortunate child
I can't stop running away... x2

I can’t eat anything
Without shoving my hands down my throat
And I refuse to meet the world without smearing on makeup
With my hair blinding my eyes
Oh, blinding my eyes

I can’t remember the last time I’ve seen my own eyes
Or the color of my skin
Do you know what it’s like to feel ugly all the time?

I stretch myself across the world
Pushing my limits
For your entertainment and
You had the nerve
To call out my weaknesses and
drag me through the dirt

I can’t remember the last time I’ve seen my own eyes
Or the color of my skin
Do you know what it’s like to feel ugly all the time?

Ooh
I’m staring in the mirror
Looking back at the person I hate

Ooh
I’m staring in the mirror
Looking back at the person I hate

Ooh
I’m staring in the mirror
Looking back at the person I hate


Ooh
I’m staring in the mirror
Looking back at the person I hate

I cant remember the last time ive seen my own eyes(eyes)
Or the color of my skin
Do you know what its like

I cant remember the last time
I've seen my own eyes
Or the color of my skin do you know
what its like too feel ugly all the time!

Ooh
Ooh
The color of my skin
Do you know what its like to feel ugly all the......

So, like, I totally don't have a banner for this yet.

D:

I would make one, but I don't know what it would be, so I think this one is actually going to be bannerless.

If you haven't read the opening, you need to.

I tried to link it, but it didn't work. At all. So just go back a few journals to the "Everyone's one shots" journal and read it. You need to.

o.O

Anyways,

[Paige Gray's Point Of View]

There was a light knock on my door, and my dad walked into my room. "Paige?" I took my face out of my pillow, and glared up at him.

"What on earth would you want to ruin now, Father?" He just sighed and shook his head. He walked over, sitting down on my bed, and took my hand. He looked around my room at the bare walls, and almost seemed to grimace. I sat up straight on my bed so that I could look my dad in the eyes. I was rather puzzled. "Dad?" He looked at me, and sighed.

"Paige, I think that it's time that I stop being so up tight. You can go to public school, and I thi-" I cut him off by jumping up off my bed, and screaming loudly. He flinched back a little, then settled back to his original position. "And I think!" He raised his voice a little so that I could hear him over my scream, and calmed down, "I think that you can hang a few posters and pictures in you room, but I have to approve them first." I screamed again, and lunged at my father, taking him in my arms and smothered him in a giant hug. "Don't let me get disappointed in you because of this, Paige." I nodded, and smiled.

"Don't worry, Daddy. I promise I'll be a good girl!" He just laughed loudly,stood up, and ruffled my hair before walking out of the room. He turned round before shutting the door.

"Oh, and your first day is tomorrow." My face lite up even more. Oh, jeez. This should be fun.

-Next day-

I woke up to my phone screaming at me, and checked the time. I smiled and hopped out of bed, walking over to my closet to get ready for my first day of school. I pulled out a brick red Harry Potter shirt that read "Muggle" on it, and the a short, puffy, layered black skirt to go along with it. I smiled and slipped the shirt on my body, looking in the mirror at how it all hugged my thin figure. I nodded, then went into the bathroom to brush my teeth and hair. I heard my door open, and I whirled around to find my good friend Vienna standing in the door way. I jumped a little, then sighed once I realized it was her. "Fuck, Vee. You just can't do that to a girl. Just because we offered our house up to you, you little foreign exchange bitch, doesn't mean you can just barge in like that." I grinned, and walked over, hugging her. I stepped back, and twirled. "I'm not going to seem like a slut, right?" She shook her head.

"If I don't, you won't." I snapped my fingers, and nodded, looking her up and down. She was in very short denim shorts, and a black tank top with black fish nets over it that actually covered most of the shorts. I looked down at the black and white Creepers she had on, and laughed.

"Trying to feel tall, now are you, Vee." She just flailed a little, and squealed.

"Shut up, okay? Jeez!" I just laughed again, and walked off to the bathroom. She followed me, and watched as I put eyeliner and a thin layer of brick red eyeshadow on.

"Why are you watching me, dude? It's kind of givin' me the fucking creeps." She just laughed, and walked away singing some weird song that I had never heard before about someone giving someone the "fucking creeps". I just rolled my eyes a little, and continued putting my face together for the day.


My dad's drive drove Vee and I to school today in a long white limo. Vee was freaking out, playing with everything in the limo, and just acting like a kid on Christmas. She claims she's never been in a limo before. "Damn, man. Ridding to school in a fucking limo is AWESOME!" I just nodded. I wanted to be normal, not the silly little rich girl that rides to school in a limo. As we drove up to the school, Vee rolled down her window, and waved to a group of black in the giant court yard. I'm assuming that was her group of friends. Dad's driver parked, and let us out just as Vee's friends walked over to admire the flashy limo. Fuuuuccckkkkk. Vienna got out, and latched onto one of the guys in the group; kissing him lightly, and resting her head on his chest. I just smiled, and walked over. I almost seemed to fit in, except I think that they're all from California, or something. Vienna detached from the guy, and walked over to me. "Guys, this is Paige. Be nice because she's amazing. Obviously, she's the one who opened her house up to me, and now she's going to be coming here. Treat her like you would me, bitches." I looked around the group, and picked our a few nice looking ones. There was a girl standing there in giant, black and white guys trip pants with chains, hand cuffs, and black straps hanging off of them, and a tight black and white corset- like tank top with ribbon hanging off of it. Those pants must be her boyfriend's. She was the first to walk up to me, and smile.

"I'm Sage Harris. Nice to meet you, Paige." I smiled and nodded. Vienna hugged Sage, and looked at me.

"Paige, this is the Sage that I always talk about. You know, the friend from back home?" I nodded again, and looked back at the crowd of people around the limo. Sage stood next to me, and pointed at a boy in skinny jeans and an all black t-shirt. His hair was long, black, and layered, and his eyes were lined darkly in black. Not to mention, he was pretty pole- like.

"That's Cat, or Eric, But he likes Cat." Oh, he's pretty. He smiled, and waved a little. Breath taking. She pointed to a girl with brown wavy hair next. "That's Amy, and the girl next to her is Crystal." Amy smiled, but Crystal grimaced a little. I cocked my head a little. Sage leaned over and whispered in my ear, "Don't worry about Crystal. She doesn't like people." I nodded, and smiled at both of them. 

She went through the whole group, introducing Chris Curell, Matt Tuck(Who I already knew), Matt Sanders, Sonny Moore, Zack Baker, Wesley Borland, Brian Haner, and Alex Varkatzas. All of them, except Tuck, were exchange students from The States. The Baker kid came up and wrapped his arms around Sage's waist, earning them a glare by the Wesley kid. Oo, drama. Note to self: Ask Vee about it later.

"GOOODDDD MOORRRNNIIINNGGG FELLOW STUDENT BUDDIES!" another boy ran up, and tackled Sage from behind, sending Zack and her flying. Thank god that they were actually standing on grass. All three students were on the ground laughing, and Zack pushed the boy off of him.

"Jeez, Jay. Watch out where you're going." He laughed again, and helped Sage up. I looked around awkwardly, waiting for someone to introduce the stranger, and Amy finally caught on.

"Paige, Jay. Jay, Paige."

"Hello, Paige." So, he wasn't foreign. He had sweeping black hair that covered his right eye, and very pretty black- lined eyes. Wow, public school has pretty boys.

So, it's pretty fucking short.

I have the attention span of a child, and I'm tired.

Excuse typos and shit[:

Oh, my God, why am I in Italics?

The shit?

Anyways, that doesn't matter.

I really love comments, you guys.

Like, love them.

:D

Ello!

I had such an amazing weekend i went to Lexys house last sunday it was supper fun, they had a homemade water slide i didn't bring a bathing suit so i refused to go in the water, Marissa run down it in her clothes (She only had one pair of clothes) she was soaked she picked Garth up he hosed her down then they chased after eachother, I saw Shane again Lexys boyfreind who is freaking amazing by the way he got hair color spray i had my hair half gray because of him it glittered. Then everyone else started showing up, this guy named Derek tired to fuck me which i almost left because he scared me, Ross(his brother) made him leave with his mum. Later that night we started a fire, then had hide n seek glow n the dark which was something i wasn't able to join in because of my anxity problems but i flipped out when i got glow sticks (I go OCD when i see em) then we tried to find 'ghoust' which we never really did only we were chase by land lords AHHHH!. then we read books outside, this girl Ashlyn almost beated Garth's cousin just so she could charge her fucking PHONE! next thing i know Garths mum was chasing her out i was freaking out she ran back in threw a bookbag at Marissa and Me no one wanted her there, finally she left which made everyone have a party for it. Soon we all got sleepy Tasha, Jen, Marissa, and I slept on the hard ground in the tent with shitty blankets. Then i left in the morning dropped Marissa off went home took a shower, fell asleep.

Wesday

i got to download lots of Sonny Moore songs which made me soo ffucking happy his music is MAZING! i stayed with Jessica for her early birthday party I finally met Emily and saw Corey which made me happy we went to the mall Jessica and Emily played with my tampons which was fucking awesome people stared at them like retards. We went to Body jewels i found out it's 30$ to get my lip pirece Jessica aasked the guy how much it was to pirece backs she wants one (I know weird) we went back to her place Jessica had a bitch crying fit with her mum, Corey made Emily and Me kiss god she's a great kisser I like her *Blush* when we went swimming saw Mariah, Marissa R, Darwina, and Tamson they had to leave though :( made me sad we had to push corey in the water ^____^ Corey had to leave, then Stephine came and swam. We went to bed around 1 am we took pics in the bathroom Emily and i kept kissing eachtoher soo i really love her i don't know why i shouldn't but i can't hate it because she's really fun, silly, and pretty. My dad picked us up dropped her off I was sad :(

Today

I'm right now listening to Sonny's remix of When The Wind Blows i likes it, and talking to Katie so that's all for now

ClaraZombie

Sonny Moore and the Blood Monkeys will be tonight's studio guest on DJ Rossstar's Punk Rock Show.

The SoCal eletcro-rock band will be dropping by to discuss their upcoming record and future touring plans.

Last November will be calling to give us details on the upcoming 'The Summer 17 Tour' that they'll be apart of all summer long

If you have questions for Sonny and Last November, you can instant message us at the screen name DJ Rossstar 08 (AIM) or leave us a message at (818) 641-1605.

DJ Rossstar's Punk Rock Show airs live at 7pm PT (West Coast Time) on Stickam!

DJ Rossstar

Music Update

1.The Used- Blue and Yellow

2. My Chemical Romance- Blood

3. From First To Last- Save Us

4. Eyes Set To Kill- Liar In The Glass

5. Avenged Sevenfold- Burn It Down

6. Bring Me The Horizon- Sleep With One Eye Open

7. The Kooks- Always Where I Need To Be

8. Sonny Moore- Float It

9.Eminem- We Made You (DONT ASK!)

10. Mcfly - Little Joana

This weeks alot of techno but anyways here you go!

1.Fever- Family Force Five

2. Party In Your Bed Room- Cash Cash

3.Supersonic - Family Force Five

4. Scar Tissue- Red Hot Chillipeppers

5.Paper Chase- The Academy Is...

6. Copaface part 2- Sonny Moore

7. Afterbrith- From First To Last

8. Wake The Dead- The Used

9. Paper Cuts- Gym Class Heros

10.City At War- Cobra Starship