Scream Blog and Journals

Im sorry for not posting as much as I should and not posting yesterday... This story is becoming harder and harder to write and I know where its going I just cant put the words down [if that makes sense]

Sorry for being such an epic faliure as a writer    :s

Tom's POV

We drove on down the motorway and into the night. Cars flitted by and I noticed Katie and Bill curled up together in the backseat. I knew what they had just done and felt proud of my little brother for making a woman out of her - my sight turned to Cassey who was looking forlornly out of the window, not wanting to meet my gaze. I put my hand on her shoulder quickly and she turned to face me, eyes filled with tears. She wiped her face, trying to hide it from me but I had alredy seen how this was affecting her. I whispered into the darkness of the car how much I loved her and she leant over the seat and kissed my cheek tenderly.

"I love you too Tom Kaulitz, thats why im running away with you..." Cassey curled up again and I excellerated into the dark - headlights illuminating where we were going.

I drove for a while longer until we needed to re fuel the car. Katie and Bill were awake in the back but as silent as corpses, Cassey was whispering to Katie and Bill was looking out of window. I could feel how scared he was for us all and gave him a reassuring smile in the rearview mirror. We pulled up at the petrol station and only I got out, trying not to be noticed by any fangirls like earlier this year. I let the car fill up and then went into the shop to pay, then the screaming started.

Katie's POV

I didnt know what had happened. First I was curled up with Bill in the backseat, the the car door was flung open and someone was dragging me out of the car. I tryed to scream but it was stifled with a hand, Bill lept for me but I was bundled into the backseat of another car and it whizzed away. I caught a glipse of Bill running across the forecourt to me but he wasnt fast enough and we outdrove him. I called out and scrabbled at the window but cold hands grabbed my other arm and a needle was shoved directly into my bloodstream. I felt a hot sensation drip through my and my eyelids had started to droop and my body felt like it was floating. My mind was fighting it but I didnt respond and I lapsed into a drug induced sleep.

Bill's POV

I screamed myself hoarse as Katie was driven away from me. I felt so sure that no-one would follow us but I was wrong. The girl I loved was being whisked away by stalkers and my heart broke into two again. My body was shaking in violent shudders and Tom was immidately by my side, calling the police at the same time. Everything after that was a blur and Jost turned up and helped me back to a hotel somewhere I didnt recognise. Tom and Cassey were sharing a room and I felt suddenly alone as the police had finished talking to me and left me to my thoughts. I wanted her back in my arms and to smell her hair and the warmth of her body. Everything I was seemed wrong without her. I crept into bed and stripped down to my boxers, a shiver rolled up my spine when I relised that she wasnt going to be sleeping quietly in my arms again or sigh or breath against my neck.

It was all my fault and I couldnt live without her. It made me realise how selfish I really am and how much of my life I take for granted. I brought my knees up to my chest and let tears finally fall from my eyes and make the pillow damp. I wanted to make everything okay again but I relised what a true faliure I really am. She must be so scared, I thought to myself, Its all my fault. I cause everyone in my life pain and suffering and im exactly what I hate.

Im a diva and I demand every thing I want when I want it. Everyone seems to adore me but no one knows who I really am. Im just a huge fake. I pull the covers over my head and listen to my steady heartbeat. My mind goes back to Katie's face and fresh tears spring up. She had only ever shown me kindness and love and this is the way I repay her. I feel like im worthless and in truth I am.

I delve into my wash bag and pull out a bottle of sleeping pills. Would anyone care if I took them all? Would anyone actually miss me? No, I dont suppose they should, they would throw a party and celebrate that I wasnt a nucience anylonger.

Everyone would go to my funeral to make sure that I stayed dead.

I scribbled a quick note to Tom. I didnt want to leave him but I knew what a pain I was to him - It was eaisier for everyone this way. Tears stained the paper and made the ink spill around the sheet. It wasnt like he would care anyway.

I got up and went to get a glass of water before setting the pills down infront of me, lineing them up and counting them. There would be enough. I gulped down the first one, and then another and then another until they were all gone. Sleep came soon enough and I clutched one of her t shirts.

Forgive me Katie, I whispered into the night, I'll see you in hell my love.

The world collapsed around me, my heart beating slower and the final tears escaping my eyes ....