featured Going back to my roots
Pretty soon, if all goes to plan, Im going to be leaving Tucson and heading back to the old country. It may only be for a year, but well the future is wide open. It feels big, but I am pretty at peace with my decision.
I planned all this about a year ago when my relationship with Elliott felt like a bad country and western song. I decided I had to start living the life I wanted, and planned to go back to the UK and do my Masters (which Ive been saying Im gonna do next year for the last 10 years). So now we are best buddies again, and he has been so great, understanding and supportive, and while he isnt coming with me for the whole time hes gonna at least spend, 4 to 6 months, next Summer there. Last time we did the distance relationship thing it was pure misery, but I think Im more ready now. Not sure Im ready for the proximity of my family, but at the same time I do want to spend more time with my aging parents, and my adolescent neice and nephew.
Its the people that I will most miss about Tucson I have recently come to realize. This surprised me cos while I have many, many close aquaintances, I have few close friends. There are so many really good people. Smart people who live by their beliefs. People that are doing really cool things. People who will help you. People that I really love without being intimate with.
I think Im going to post alot of pictures of people before I go. This is pretty much the only place I ever organize my photos, and I want to remember.
I planned all this about a year ago when my relationship with Elliott felt like a bad country and western song. I decided I had to start living the life I wanted, and planned to go back to the UK and do my Masters (which Ive been saying Im gonna do next year for the last 10 years). So now we are best buddies again, and he has been so great, understanding and supportive, and while he isnt coming with me for the whole time hes gonna at least spend, 4 to 6 months, next Summer there. Last time we did the distance relationship thing it was pure misery, but I think Im more ready now. Not sure Im ready for the proximity of my family, but at the same time I do want to spend more time with my aging parents, and my adolescent neice and nephew.
Its the people that I will most miss about Tucson I have recently come to realize. This surprised me cos while I have many, many close aquaintances, I have few close friends. There are so many really good people. Smart people who live by their beliefs. People that are doing really cool things. People who will help you. People that I really love without being intimate with.
I think Im going to post alot of pictures of people before I go. This is pretty much the only place I ever organize my photos, and I want to remember.
when do you leave?
Hmm I fully understand each and every feeling you have.. even about the family..I love my family, but 1 week spent living with them again freaks me out. But maybe it's because of my stepfather. And tell me, what will happen to Snorty? Of course you can transport him to England, but would he like that? And and and... now that you'll be closer, you have nice cheap flights from all over England to visit us :-))))))) And we have the house ready, finally... :-) though we are 3000 euros shorter...
[quote=kathy1981 And and and... now that you'll be closer, you have nice cheap flights from all over England to visit us :-))))))) totally agree! I live near Kathy, btw :-D
oh, and very good photo!
A friend once told me that it is best to leave a place when you are still loving it, rather than the alternative. I think she is right; you will know that you always have a home here.
And the masters - awesome. What in?
October, if all goes well. of course I could do it online. I could do it in Tucson, but that is not what I wanted. I miss my home. Im not even sure its really home anymore, but I miss it, and I want to spend a little time. The masters is only 9 months of taught, then I can come back if I want to do the thesis. I thin in the long term maybe we can settle in some compromise place like maybe east coast USA. My parents are well into their seventies and 13 hour flight plus 5 hours on the train could just be too stressful in an emergency you know? The one thing that might disrupt my plans is snorty. He is coming with me, and the traveling will be really stressful for him. I think he will like Wales though. He actually hates the heat. Summer is really tough on him here, and he doesnt mind rain, so I think he will really like it.
When Elliott comes over we will definately do some travelling around Europe, and of cousre Portugal will be one of my priorities. Sustainable architecture and energy systems. Its a bit of a break for me not to be doing Biology as that is my first love, but green building is fun, and the course is taught at a place called the Centre for Alternative technology. It is 30 miles from my parents house and its part eco village, part tourist attraction. Its been going since the seventies, and Ive been there so many times starting in the early eightees. I ve seen it become established.
I also think Snorty will love Britain. And you are right about the roots.. and parents. My mother is in the hospital for 7 weeks now, and she is so close yet too far, as I have the work here and I just cannot go... I'm not so easy on this subject, I got a job with hard work, and now the boss is on vacations, I'm here alone, responsible for some clients on my own..