Panic at the Disco Blog and Journals

Hey I know its really early, it hasn't even been thanksgiving yet. I know, I know! But I couldn't wait to tell you what my dream christmas list is! AKA: Means it will never happen, I can't have these! lol :P Anyways yay!!! Lookie! :P :P

Christmas List:

1. Ryan Ross (well of course most of you should know I love him so much, so of course I want him for christmas!) <3

2. Brendon Urie (hehe :P)

3. Oh..nvm..the rest..screw the numbers! I want RYAN ROSS GOD DANGIT! :P SANTA JUST BRING HIM!! PLEASE!! :D

I SWEAR PRETTY MUCH I HAVE BEEN A GOOD GIRL!!! SO PRETTY PLEASE!! :D

(haha yes i am crazy!!)

 

"A Habit of Decomposing" (fanfic)

*Starring*

Katy Perry, *Brendon Urie*, Lady Gaga, Tracey Phillips, Gerard Way, Frank Iero, ....and many more!!!!  

 (I had here ready a really cool pic I mad with all of them together on a filmstrip but for some reason when I click the upload photo icon it doesn't up load it and just gives me a text box with a http code. could someone help me with that?)

Chapter 1

This story is mine and all characters and events (even those based on real people or evens) are entirely fictional. I do not recommend that any of this be taken as true and if you do, you're a complete ignoramus and you need to be knocked in the head!!! By the way, if I find out anyone has copied my story, I will personally come to their house and punch them in the kidneys!

This format was based on **LaUrie's** "Across the Street"....just the format. I really liked the way it was set up and I give her major kudos!

Rated R: Explicit Violence, Sexual Content, Crude Language

SUMMARY: Brendon Urie is basically Mr. Perfect at his high school. His best friend Ryan has always been there for him, but he's always been sorta second rate. For years, these two have been close....until Stephanie Z (Lady Gaga) is transferred to their high school.....then some very STRANGE things begin to happen......a murder perhaps????

Chapter 1

Brendon woke up for school early that day....it was the first day back from Winter Break and he was ready to see everyone he had neglected to speak to for the last two weeks. He rolled out of bed and ran quickly through the shower, then threw on a pair of black skinnys, a Cobra Starship T-shirt, and his new *Clandestine* hoodie Ryan had gotten him for Christmas. He snatched his I phone off his bedside table and found Ryan's number. He clicked "send text message" and typed inside of the little text box, "R u gna b able 2 pck me up 2day?" then hit send.

Ryan replied almost instantaneously, "Sry! I cnt! Grge tk my car awy agn! C if KT cn tk u. Spnc is tkn me."  

Brendon rolled his eyes and sent "ok" back to Ryan. He scrolled through his contacts and found "Katy P." He selected her name and hit "call". 

The phone range twice before Katy's voice came chiming from the other end,"Hey Bren! To what occasion do I owe this phone call?"  

Brendon smiled, "I need a ride. My car's in the shop from that fender bender I had on the corner of Fouth and Fraymont St., and Ryan got his car taken away again."

"Oh, I see....ummm....well, you know I got a new car over the break, right?"

"Yeah...?" Brendon said, a little confused as to why that would matter.

"Well, just as long as you know. I'll be there to pick you up in about ten minutes."

"Okay. See you then." Brendon hung up and grabbed his backpack of his computer chair. He left his room and walked down the hall to the living room and out the front door. He sat down at the top of the steps and waited for Katy.

Katy was one of Brendon's closest friends, next to Ryan. He had known her since 3rd grade and she had always been there for him. They had very similar past of extreme religion and, like himself, she had rebelled in every way imaginable against her parents' religious beliefs. She dyed her blond hair black, never went to church, worked at Hooters, and was openly bisexual. She respected her parents, but not their wishes and was hardly home due to partying or hanging out with Ryan, Spencer, and Brendon. Nothing sexual had ever happen between Brendon and Katy. He had always seen her as a sister.....a really hott sister.....but still a sister.

Brendon craned his neck as he looked down the street of suburbia for Katy. After about a minute or so of doing this, a pink VW Beetle rounded the corner to his street and began to slow down as it approached his house. Oh no, Katy! Brendon thought in a humored yet dishearten attitude, please don't tell me I have to ride to school in that thing!

The Beetle pulled to a stop in front of him and Katy yelled through the rolled-down passenger window, "Ya gettin in or what?"

Brendon grinned as he walked down the steps and got in the tiny car. He fastend his seatbelt and said, "Nice ride!"

"Thankya! This was bought with my Hooters tips! can you believe that? I'm never quiting that job!" Katy said as she began to drive down the street once more.

"Sounds fine to me!" Brendon joked.

"Only because I give you guys free food!"

"True."

"So how was winter break? Didja do anything fun?" Katy asked as she drove and applied lipstick at the same time.

"Not really. I saw Ryan a couple of times, but most of the time was spent at Aunt Becca's house in Oklahoma. It was freezing down there and so fucking boring!"

"Aww! I'm sorry bestie! I wish I coulda been there. We woulda had fun!"

"I know....so how was your break?"

A grin crept across Katy's face, "Weeeellll, I got a gig at this jazz club that totally digs my voice! I played there my first time on Tuesday and got a standing ovation! I swear, if I can keep this gig up, my music career could really take off!"

"Wow! That's amazing Katy! When is your next show?"

"This Friday....oh my gosh! Katy just got an idea!" Katy beamed from ear to ear as she continued, "You should come with me! Your voice is so beautiful, Brendon. They have a piano and everything!"

Brendon was quiet for a moment. He always loved to perform, but had kept his audience for solo performances limited to Katy, Ryan, Spencer, and his select choir class . He had never sung for anyone else, and the thought of that happening was very intimidating. "I'm not sure I could do that...." Brendon finally answered.

Katy rose her eyebrows, "Are you kidding me? You're the most amazing singer I've ever heard! You've got what it takes to make it! You just need to take that next step!"

That was when the conversation ended as Katy pulled into her parking spot in the parking lot of their highs school. The two got out and to his surprise, no one had even noticed that he had just gotten out of a bright pink slug-bug. He slung his backpack over his shoulder and walked with Katy over to the tree Ryan and Spencer were standing under, along with their friends Gerard Way, Frank Iero, Tracey Phillips, and Jared Leto.

"It's about time you two showed up!" Tracey said as she tossed her long, wavy black hair over her shoulder.

"I see your car isn't out of the shop yet?" asked Gerard with a smirk, "Nice ride by the way, Katy."

"Thanks! You know that it was bought completely with my Hooters ti-"

"Hey, who's that chick?" interrupted Frank, nodding toward a girl who had just stepped out of a Porche that had pulled up in front of the school. She wore her blond hair long and wavy and had on black skinny jeans, a zebra-striped tube top under a black cinch waist coat, and four-inch black high-heeled boots. She walked with an air of elegance and was definitely the center of attention as she walked up the steps and through the front doors of the school, which led straight into the main office. "She was hott!" exclaimed Jared once the girl had  left their sight, "I wonder who she is."

"I'm sure we'll find out soon enough." answered Frank, "Man, I'd tap that any day!"

"You guys are such man-hoes!" sighed Tracey, "I'm hungry....wanna walk to McDonands with me, Gerard?"

"Sure." Gerard was pretty much Tracey's bitch. He always did what ever she told him to do and did it happily. The two headed towards the McDonalds down the hill from the school, leaving the other's behind.

"Tracey's a smart girl." Katy said in admiration.

"What makes you say that?" Brendon asked.

"Because she saw her man eyein' someone else and she got him out of here quick to remind him who he's with!"

"Oh."

"Soooo....."

"So what?"

"What do you think about the new girl?" Brendon didn't expect this question,

"Well.........I don't know........I mean, I think she's pretty, but.........."

"But not all of us are man-hoes like Frank. Give us some credit, Katy." finished Ryan.

"I suppose." Katy replied as she rolled her eyes.

After about fifteen minutes, the bell rang and everyone flooded inside. Brendon walked pass the office, and as he did so, the girl from earlier walked out and began walking next to him. She held in her hand a piece of paper that looked like a class schedule. She turned to Brendon and asked, "Umm, could you tell me where the select choir class is?"

"I have that class this hour too," Brendon said, "Just follow me. It's in the auditorium." The two wound their way through the halls to a set of thick double doors that read, "Auditorium". The auditorium looked completely empty, yet voices could be heard coming from somewhere.

"Where's the class?" asked the girl.

"They're back there. Just follow me." Brendon led her through the rows of seats and down to the stage. She followed him as he walked up the stage steps and off to the side behind the curtains. There was a large room-like space with a piano that had several fold up chairs set up in semi-circle rows around it. Sitting at the piano was a short Asian woman named Mrs. Tippin who was the choir teacher.

"Ahh, it seems we have a new face!" said Mrs. Tippin in her clear, accent-free voice. The class turned around to get a look at the new student, including Gerard, Jared, and Katy, whose eyebrows rose when they saw she was with Brendon.

*o*RAWR! Good stuff??? Hmmm.....i kno sum of you don't like the fact that Brendon likes a chick.....but don't worry! I kno what tha peoples like and I promise you'll love this story! Just keep reading!!! Besides, I think I picked sum pretty cool chicks: Katy Perry, Tracey Phillips (the girl who played Helena in the My Chemical Romance video), and Lady Gaga. WARNING: This story gets pretty violent! *o* COMMENTS PLEASE???

Title: Change

Author(s): Kendra(me)

Fandom:Panic At The Disco(namely brendon)

Genre: Romance

Characters/Pairing(s): kendra and brendon but others are mentioned

Disclaimer/Warning: I dont own anyone here besides me. this is VERYYY sexual ;] i was in a pervy mood this was for my 22nd bday since its predessor was for my 21st

Chapters:1

Status:complete

Rated:R/NC-17

Summary: thanks to my best friend the guy of my dreams is in my arms but whats to come out of it?

A/N: I've been debating to post this here or not. It's extremely sexual so if you dont like dont read it.

I bid farewell to all my friends and their partners. I was so happy that they all showed up. I interupted Babs and Patrick's make out session to hug her. I look over at Pete and his little skank I gave him the biggest shit eating grin. I pulled Brendon down by his collar and kissed him full on the mouth a lot more passionate than our earlier soft kiss.I felt him gasp into my mouth and his arms circle around my waist.What was I doing? Did I like him? Or was I trying to get back at my now ex boyfriend? I dont know and at the moment I don't care. We broke away from the kiss and his lips lingered by my ear. "I've always liked you, I have since high school but you were running around with that dick head. I never gave up on you though so when I got the call to come out here and be your date, I couldn't say no." So he liked me? What the fuck was I supposed to say to that? I didn't know so I just smiled and whispered in his ear."Bring me home,preferably yours." He grinned and picked me up. When he lifted me up my hips brushed his. I felt tingly inside and could feel myself getting wet. Was he turning me on? I shrugged it off but only temporarily. We got out to his car and he started to drive me to his place. I couldn't say no to him any longer. Everytime I looked at him I got a rush of pleasure through my body.

I slid my hand over and rested it on his crotch. We were at a red light and I saw his eyes slip shut and a moan escaped his lips. I moved my hand as the light turned green and behaved for the rest of the ride.When he stopped I whispered in his ear. "When we get to your room I'm going to bang you so hard." He moaned and looked at me. "If we make it to my room you mean." I like his tone, the way he talked and oh my god the way he moaned. When he got out of the car I looked down to my lap,the wetness I was feeling starting to show. I was so caught up in that I didn't notice the door open and his arms pick me up again. When we got into his house the fun began. He wasn't kidding about possibly not making it to his room. The second he closed the door he pushed me to the wall and started to kiss me, hard. His tongue was moving in and out of my mouth like if he was fucking my mouth with his tongue.I massaged his tongue with my own briefly before doing the same to mouth. I felt around me with my leg and felt a couch. Mustering all the strength I had i pushed him on it.I felt his erection grow stiffer. "Like being controlled eh?" "You bet baby." I took his shirt off and was shocked to what I was looking at.He wasnt scrawny,no he had a toned chest and abs now. He pulled off my shirt and unclasped my bra.He pulled me down so that my breasts were now pressed against his chest.

I smiled moving my hand down to rub him through his pants. He was getting into it. I pulled his pants and boxers down and his erect shaft was staring me now in the face. Looking at it increaed my desire for him. I leaned down and pressed my lips against his erect cock. He moaned in pleasure. "I'm going to make sure when you have this beautiful tool inside me its hard and ready to release."I started to lick,kiss and suck his erect shaft. He put his hands on the back of my head to hold me in place while I hit all the spots he liked. I could feel the pressure getting ready to release so I pulled my head away. He gave me a glare and flipped me over so now i was on the bottom. He pulled off my shorts and panties pausing to make a comment. "My you're soaking wet aren't you?" He grinned devilishly before plunging his tongue into my depth. He was incredibly skilled with his tongue making it once again seem like his cock as he fucked me with it. He pulled it out and pressed hard circles around my clit. I could feel it throbbing begging for his tongue to hit it. "BRENDON IF YOU DONT FUCKING LICK MY CLIT RIGHT NOW, I'LL GO HOME!" Apparently he wanted me to stay because in the next instant his tongue was on my clit flicking back and forth rapidly. Just when I felt myself on the brink of an orgasm he stopped. "Fair is fair." He smirked posisting himself over me."How about this, if I make you orgasm when my cock goes in your wet little pussy, you have to date me." "You're on." I didn't think that was possible so I went along with his little game.

When he rammed his huge cock in though it penatrated against my G-spot and I screamed his name as I shook and came. He grinned and continued at a steady pace."Oh baby let me ride that cock of yours,its so big and it fits me so well." I rolled him over and started moving myself up and down on his shaft shaking my hips. I could tell from his moans of pleasure and hip bucking he loved it.He reached up and cupped my boobs with his hands. I loved what he was doing to me and I could feel myself close to my true climax this time. Between gasping breaths I managed to get out what I wanted. "Brendon...I want you to ride me good with that huge dick of yours." He didn't have to be told twice. I was back on the bottom in a flash,my legs were hooked around his shoulders and he was thrusting his hips into me so hard. Everytime he thrusted it hit my G-spot and I knew it wouldn't be long for me now.

I reached hand down and started to flick my clit back and forth not only to tighten my pussy's grip on his cock and to bring me to a climax faster,but because I knew guys liked stuff like that. I was right, a few minutes later he screamed my name and released his hot sperm inside of me. That drove me over the edge and I had to lift myself off his cock to send my juices squirting down,this happened a few times before I finally collasped ontop of him. We lay there for a few minutes before he mustered the engergy to bring me to his bedroom.We lay in bed and he smiled."I finally found my angel,well devilish angel." He leaned over to kiss me and it was a real kiss. A kiss I never got with Pete. When we broke away he smirked."I guess that means we're dating now, since you know I won." He was right but I had to admire his method of asking a woman out.I nodded and laid in his arms,dating him maybe a good think especially if I got pregnant. I fell asleep with that on my mind and Brendon in my dreams. For I had recieved the best birthday gift ever.

 

Peaches.

i went into the store room of the arcade and found a balloon and filled it with water, then i walked into the bands dressing room and saw Brendon just taking his shirt off and bam. i him him.

"hey!" he said and i marched over

"WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS?" i asked holding up his phone and he squinted and then stepped back "oh"

"YEAH OH." i said and he looked scared

"what are you gonna do to me..." he asked

"i'll get you when you're not ready" i said and walked out angrily and Ryan followed me while putting his shirt on

"where'd you get a balloon from?" he asked walking beside me

"store room" i said

"what're you gonna do to Brendon?" he asked

"why would i tell you?" i smiled

"because i'm your boyfriend" he said holding my hand

"i'll give you a clue" i said

"okay" he smiled

"it's called operation Blood" i said

"well that was a shitty clue" he said

"well you're a shitty detective" i said and he smiled

 

Tiffany.

Luke drove me back to the arcade and i looked to see he looked upset

"i hope things work our for you and Brendon" he said and i nodded and hugged him tight

"dont let anyone take you down" he said and i started crying on him

"we'll email?" he said and i nodded gently

"i better see you soon" i said letting go and crossing my arms

"you will" he smiled "and who knows, maybe it wont be planned" he said gently touching my hair "go on, he's waiting for you"

i turned around and saw people on the bus

"oh wait" he said and i looked at him with his phone out

"quick photo" he said and i smiled a little and wiped under my eyes and stood beside him and smiled as he put his arm around me and took a photo

"now i can never forget you" he smiled and kissed my cheek "i'll send it to you okay?"

i nodded again and he gently hugged me

"do you want me to walk you down?" he asked

"no, i'll just drag you in" i said and he laughed "this isnt a goodbye. we'll see each other again Tiffany" he said letting go of me

"promise?" i said

"promise" he said

i turned around and took a deep breath and walked down to the bus and Peaches was in the doorway and hugged me

"i think Brendon has something he wants to say to you" she said pulling me up onto the bus and then getting off herself

"Brendon?" i called out and wiped under my eyes again and walked up the bus and he poked his head out and i smiled

"oh hey" he said and walked over to me and gave me a hug

"Stephs my cousin" he said and i thought for a moment

"you're dating your cousin?" i asked

"no, i was pretending. i told her to send me texts and stuff to make you jealous" he said

"but why?" i asked again

"you said we couldnt be together because of your sister, i didnt wanna try again and fall on my face..." he said

"well... she likes Ryan anyway" i said

"oh.. replaced" he said and i smiled

"what happened with that kid?" he asked and my smiled slowly faded

"it didnt work..." i said quietly and he frowned a little

"sorry to hear that" he said

"i really like you Brendon and i wish that you didnt hurt me like that. i wasnt sure about it before and then when i really thought about it, you got your cousin involved..." i said

"im sorry, bad timing" he said

"yeah.. very" i said

"should we try this again?" he asked

"what do you mean?" i asked

he let go of me and stepped back "hi, i'm Brendon Urie, would you like to go out sometime?" and smiled

i laughed "hi i'm Tiffany Paige, and i would love to"

suddenly i was happy again.

"i'll go buy you a present tomorrow for being an ass" he said

"normally i'd decline but... i like presents" i said

"if you were your sister i would have gotten you fruit" he said

"a peach?" i said

"yeah, a peach" he said and i laughed

 

Peaches.

it was late on the bus and my laptop was being a little bitch

"slut" i said to myself and Spencer walked in "that is no way to treat a boy!"

i smiled and put my glasses on and looked at the screen

"is something wrong?" he asked sitting beside me

"my laptops being a slut.. i mean a bitch" i said and he laughed a little "here let me help"

he kept typing and clicking things so i rested my head on his shoulder

"ohhh you're looking up about the merch stuff" he said and i nodded

"its easy as" he said "i'll show you"

we sat for an hour and he was explaining what to do and it turns out that it wasnt hard at all

"if you need help just ask" he said

"thanks" i smiled

"you look really smart with glasses on" he said

"i know" i said "the computer screens hurt my eyes especially at night"

"fair enough" he said and got up "you coming to bed?"

"i will when i'm done, thanks again" i smiled and he yawned and waved before going to the bunks

i was finishing off when Ryan came in his baby blue pyjamas rubbing his eye "come to bed" he said in a normal lazy tone

"i'm nearly done" i said typing and sent the final email and shut my laptop and stood up "i gotta change into my jammies" i said walking past him and he laughed and turned the light down and i went to the back and pulled out some clothes

"hurry up" he frowned

"Ryan, go to bed" i said getting dressed

"but i get lonely" he said

"sook" i said

"i'm not in the mood to argue about that right now" he said and i smiled and finished getting dressed

"i'm going to the bathroom and you're not coming" i said imagining him like a cat gently scratching the toilet door to be let in and laughed to myself.

i took all my make up off and followed Ryan to his bunk and he made me go in first so i couldnt escape

"what is up with you boy, i'm not going anywhere" i said

"i'm insecure and a little paranoid" he said

"about me?" i asked and he nodded

"i'm not gonna run off on you Ryan..." i said softly

he kept quiet and i wasnt sure why

"i'll lick your nose if you dont say something" i said and he smiled

"i have nothing to say - there" he said

"okay then" i said and turned around and fell asleep

i woke up and turned around and got out of bed and sat on the couch on Jon without really paying much attention

"uncomfortable?" he asked and i nodded

"aww. poor girl" he said scrunching my hair "apparently Brendon and your sister are an item now"

"thats great" i said

"i'm not silly, i know you are Ryan and doing a little somethin' somethin'" he grinned

"piss off" i said but feeling bad for saying it after "i didnt mean that"

"are you together yet?" he asked putting his head close to mine

"yes" i said quietly "tell anyone and die" 

 

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FILLLLERRRR.

only got one more exam and transition sooo i should be posting a little more soon. one more week baby.

love you's

xx

"i feel like jumping in the river, taking all my clothes off, swim butt naked til i get arrested, i do most anything for you, cuz i like your dirty attitude"

:) old song by a guy from Melbourne.

 

Chapter 3

Title: Breathe Me

Author: XxX♥LAURIE♥XxX

Disclaimer: I found the banner pic on photobucket.com and edited it for my story. The title I got from the lovely miss SIA from her song entitled "Breathe Me"!!! It's a wonderful song that I LOVE...XD!!! I own the story and the concept of the story, so don't steal it or I'll have to pinch you really hard...lol. However I don't own the famous characters or any of the bands their in. This is a fiction written strictly for entertainment only. HATERS FUCK OFF!!! XD!!!

Genre: Drama/Romance

Fandom: Panic at the Disco, Fall Out Boy...ETC

Characters: Brendon Urie, Ryan Ross, Spencer Smith, Pete Wentz...ETC

Pairings: Ryden, Rydon

POV: Brendon 1^st person limited omniscient

Rated: R (intense sexuality, graphic violence, intense language/swearing)

Summary: Life is hard for everyone. But for Brendon it's exceptionally hard. On top of having a highly demanding career as a field reporter for the local station KLUV, and a second job as a novelist with a deadline to make a second book he also has to deal with his difficult home life. His boyfriend, Ryan, is a paranoid schizophrenic that's confined to his home because of his agoraphobia and split personality. Born with a rare disease called Strathclyde's syndrome Ryan can't usually fend for himself and so Brendon has the added task of working two jobs and caring for his boyfriend who on top of having a royal flush of medical problems, also battles everyday with the fact that his step father sexually abused him as a child.

 

~BRENDON'S POV~

    When I finally gathered the balls to go back inside Ryan had reseated himself on the ground and was making paper ghosts out of trash bags and newspaper.

"Where'd you go?" He asked in a cheerful tone as he put a twist tie around the ghost's neck to seal the newspaper into his head.

"Just walked up and down the street!" I mumbled under my breath as I removed my coat.

"Sorry I snapped at you earlier!" Ryan admitted as I plopped down on the couch and grabbed my laptop off the coffee table.

"Yeah, don't worry I don't care!" I grumbled, unable to hide my disappointment.

    He didn't say anything after that. So I turned to my writing. I read what Ryan had written. It was absolutely beautiful but that was no surprise to me. After the line that I'd been stuck on for about 3 weeks Ryan had written a beautiful sex scene. It was far better then the animalist type sex scenes I'd written in my last book. I'd never been much of a romantic. But Ryan's words were absolutely perfect.

"You can erase it if you want to, I won't get mad!" He said as he put a twist tie around another ghost.

"No, Ry this is amazing baby. Why didn't you tell me that you could write this well. I would've asked for yer help ages ago!"

"Ah, don't butter me up Bren it's not that fucking good!" He babbled.

"Don't do that!" I shot.

"DO WHAT?" He asked seemed surprised I'd yelled at him.

"PUT YERSELF DOWN! YER AN AMAZING WRITER RYAN! THIS IS WAY BETTER THEN THE SHIT I'VE WRITTEN!"

    He blushed, and I peaked over the computer in time to see him smile even tho he didn't really want to.

"Yer so damn sappy!" He joked and reached up touching my calf lightly.

"DON'T DO THAT, I'LL ATTACK YOU!" I teased.

    But to my surprise he got a devilish look on his face and dug his fingers into my calf tickling me. I bent my knee trapping his fingers.

"STOP IT!" I yelled, laughing.

"Make me!" He chided as he bent down kissing my thigh.

    He manage to wriggle his fingers free, then got up on his knees letting his fingertips flow gently up the back of my leg dipping into my underwear until I felt him against my ass.

"Oh how the tables have turned!" I jeered as I pushed him back.

    He gave me a pouty face and crossed his arms over his chest. I tried to act like I didn't want him, but it was obvious. I had to cover my erection with the computer just to hide it from him. But he knew. He had some kind of sixth sense. He could tell exactly when I wanted him. And if he knew he had me he wouldn't give up until I'd give in. And eventually I always did give in. He was too attractive to say no to.

"Come on Brenny just give it up?" He whispered as he pushed my knees apart and slid his hand into the crotch of my briefs squeezing my length tight, making my body tense and my hips jerk forward.

"MMM...no go away!" I groaned pushing him back again.

    He lurched forward biting my thigh, then sucking on the teeth marks he'd just made in my skin. The feeling of my flesh in his mouth, his tongue against my skin, made me insane. I decided to FUCK being coy. I threw the laptop on the coffee table and reached into Ryan's underwear jerking hard on his length until he lifted his mouth to mine and moaned against my lips. That's when I lost it. I ripped his underwear off, pushed him onto the floor, forced his legs open and bent down kissing his manhood. He squirmed for a moment, and after toying with the head of his dick I took all of him into my mouth. His hips bucked up against my forehead but at that point all I knew was his taste in my mouth.

"Mmm- God Bren!" He gasped into the air as he forced my head harder into his crotch.

    But I didn't want to waste him. Not yet. I sat up, swallowing his taste.

"God, why'd you stop!" He begged in a disappointed voice.

    But his question was answered when I layed my body over his and rolled, putting him on top of me. I spread my legs as wide as I could in the space between the couch and the coffee table and grinded my erection up into him until he finally did what I wanted him to. After leaning down to kiss me, he lifted two fingers of his right hand to his lips, put them in his mouth, then slipped them out and trailed down my body not shying when he got to where I wanted him to be. Slipping the two fingers into my ass he worked them for a moment until I was squirming and begging him to take me. He positioned himself over me, pushing his hands into the bends of my crotch, then thrust in, making the whole world go momentarily white. And I snapped back to reality to the feeling of him moving inside me, his breath hitching as he moaned above me. He leaned down, sucking on my neck for a moment, then moved down biting my nipples. I bucked up into him, grinding there when I felt him about to come. His dick was throbbing inside me, his blood was pounding thru his body in tune with his heart. My heart was thumping. And finally he came, his seed warm and thick. He pulled out and collapsed on top of me panting.

"I knew you couldn't resist me!" He gasped then laughed softly.

    I laughed myself as I wrapped my arms around him and let his steady breathing calm my throbbing heart.

"I love you!" He whispered then yawned.

"Love you too!" I replied and kissed the top of his head.

"Let's go to bed!" He suggested as he pushed himself off the floor.

    I nodded in agreement and stood up following him into the bedroom. We made out for a while, but neither of us had the strength for another round. Eventually we both passed out.

 

WELLLLLL I WARNED YOU!!! XD!!! I DON'T DO SUBTLE AND I DON'T DANCE AROUND THE POINT!!! =D!!!

Love Laurie

Comment please???????

I REALLY HATED THIS CHAP BY THE WAY...NEXT CHAP IS BETTER...I THINK ANYWAY

Chapter 4

Title: Breathe Me

Author: XxX♥LAURIE♥XxX

Disclaimer: I found the banner pic on photobucket.com and edited it for my story. The title I got from the lovely miss SIA from her song entitled "Breathe Me"!!! It's a wonderful song that I LOVE...XD!!! I own the story and the concept of the story, so don't steal it or I'll have to pinch you really hard...lol. However I don't own the famous characters or any of the bands their in. This is a fiction written strictly for entertainment only. HATERS FUCK OFF!!! XD!!!

Genre: Drama/Romance

Fandom: Panic at the Disco, Fall Out Boy...ETC

Characters: Brendon Urie, Ryan Ross, Spencer Smith, Pete Wentz...ETC

Pairings: Ryden, Rydon

POV: Brendon 1^st person limited omniscient

Rated: R (intense sexuality, graphic violence, intense language/swearing)

Summary: Life is hard for everyone. But for Brendon it's exceptionally hard. On top of having a highly demanding career as a field reporter for the local station KLUV, and a second job as a novelist with a deadline to make a second book he also has to deal with his difficult home life. His boyfriend, Ryan, is a paranoid schizophrenic that's confined to his home because of his agoraphobia and split personality. Born with a rare disease called Strathclyde's syndrome Ryan can't usually fend for himself and so Brendon has the added task of working two jobs and caring for his boyfriend who on top of having a royal flush of medical problems, also battles everyday with the fact that his step father sexually abused him as a child.

 

~BRENDON'S POV~

    I woke up when the bed started to shake quickly. Of course a normal person would think nothing of it. But with Ryan my first thot was SEIZURE. I shot up looked around surprised to find he wasn't even in bed. Then, from the bathroom, I heard Ryan gag and then whine as he vomited.

"Baby, you ok?" I asked as I jumped out of bed and rummaged thru a drawer to find a pair of briefs. But I realized it was a stupid question since if he was puking it probably meant he wasn't ok.

"GOD BREN!" He groaned and then I heard him purge again.

"Baby it's ok stay calm!" I whispered as I walked into the bathroom.

"NO, IT'S BLOOD!"

    That statement took a moment to register. But then I saw the red liquid swirling in the porcelain and knew exactly what he meant.

"Does it hurt?" I asked as he moved behind him touching his back, hoping, to comfort him.

"OF COURSE IT FUCKIN HURTS, MY GUTS ARE ON FIRE!" He shot aggravatedly.

    But I wasn't offended by his outburst.  I understood that he was in pain, and that he needed someone to snap at. I just remained behind him stroking his bony spine. I had seen this similar instance before. It was one of the side effects of his medicine. The doctors had informed us it wasn't an all too serious side effect. But that it would be uncomfortable. He'd also told us that the stomach bleeding was due to a chemical in the medicine that doesn't always react well with stomach acid and can upset the stomach lining thus causing the irritation thus causing the bleeding thus causing the vomiting. There was no need to call the doctor. All I had to do was comfort Ry in his moment of pain and wait for it to stop.

 

    He purged again this time shaking hard as blood spilled out of his mouth. And then he started to cry.

"I CAN'T FUCKING DO THIS ANYMORE!" He shot as he wiped his mouth with the back of his arm.

"Hush baby, it'll pass like always ok, just muddle thru!" I whispered stroking his back again.

"GOD, IT HURTS!" He whined, and purged again until his thin body was wrecked from shuddering.

    I remained behind him until his fit was over. But once it was he collapsed onto the floor dehydrated and exhausted. His thin body had been wracked hard, and he was still shaking. I flushed the toilet. Then grabbed a rag out of the closet and wiped his face. I rubbed the blood off of his mouth. And dabbed away the sweat on his forehead. Throwing the rag in the sink I carefully lifted his nude body off the floor and carried him into the bedroom placing him very gently on the mattress. He was awake, but slightly disoriented, and I knew that wasn't a good side. I pushed my palm against his forehead, shuddering when I felt he was warm. High fevers were a symptom of his disease not the medication he was on. I ran downstairs grabbing a towel from the drawer under the sink and put ice into it, and grabbed a syringe out of the bathroom closet. Then ran it back upstairs and placed the rag on Ryan's head. He was beginning to fall asleep by then. But his doctor had informed me to keep him awake during an attack. He'd said that if Ryan fell asleep he might NEVER wake up again. And that was not a chance I was willing to take. I held the icy towel against his forehead and shook him gently. His eyes fluttered open and he looked at me.

"Bren, I feel so...drained. I just wanna sleep!"

"NUH-UH BABY, you have to stay awake ok, just talk to me, tell me a story or something!" As I spoke I uncapped the needle and gently pushed it into his side. He didn't even seem to feel it. Throwing the needle aside, the only thing I could concentrate on was keeping him awake.

"Nah, I'm to tired Bren, just let me sleep!"

"Baby, tell me a story! Tell me about when you were little? Tell me about yer friend Spencer!"

He sighed, "Tell you what about him."

"Anything, what did you two do together!" I shot just wanting him to start talking.

"We, this one time, tried to build a fort out of old trailer siding and a deck awning. We started building it in the woods and Spencer stepped on a hornet nest. We had to hide in his grandpa's shed." Ryan explained, but he was slurring his words together like he was inebriated. When he closed his eyes I shook him and coaxed him to keep going. "Then this other time, we went to the zoo, and I fell into the bear pit" He paused to laugh, I knew he was completely delusional, "The mamma bear tried to get me, cuz she thot I was gonna attack her baby, but I played my harmonica and it let me go!" I wanted to laugh at how idiotic that sounded. And had the circumstances been different I would've busted up laughing right there. But Ryan wasn't doing this to be funny. He was doing it because he had no idea what he was talking about. His brain was borderline cooking in his skull and he was completely lost.

"Tell me another story?" I begged when he started to drift off again.

"Well this time I was at the rainbow house, and I played my guitar for Elton John, he let me be in his band, and I got put in the Rock and Roll hall of fame!" Again I wanted to laugh, but at that moment it was far too inappropriate.

 

    Finally after half an hour of listening to Ryan ramble about how he was inducted into the R&R hall of fame and how he had personally had sex with Elton John, his fever broke and once his hallucinations subsided and he returned to his old self I made him drink water so he wouldn't dehydrate. Then I let him go to sleep. And once I knew that he was all right I went to sleep myself.

 

HOW'S THAT FOR DRAMA HUH!!!! XD

WOW! So I thot of this disease all by myself! Originally I was going to call it Burn's Syndrome but I thot Strathclyde's Syndrome sounds so much more dramatic. I got the name from a place in Scotland. I google searched Scotland randomly cuz I was bored and found Strathclyde and it was a place and I was like HEY that the perfect name for a disease lol!!!!

COMMENT PLEASE

LOVE LAURAY!!!!!!!!!

5 Me and You

"Ughhh" she groaned and returned his peck,trying to grab ahold of his shirt to pull him back down but failed. "I don't wanna gooo. And you never answered my question!" she yelled as he went to get dressed,eventually going into the bathroom to change back into what she was wearing before- putting his clothes in a neat pile as hers had been. As she got dressed her mind shifted from what happened to her dad and how she was currently acting with Brendon. She too knew that if they had never broken up,she would be acting a little different right now. Since they hadnt been close in years she was really afraid to show too much emotion-although she didn't know why. Finishing up she took a quick glance in the mirror then walked out,letting him take her hand as she laced their fingers and swung their hands back and fourth. "Where are we going?"

Brendon chuckled. "You'll see and as for your question. I think it's okay to kiss in public as long as its not tonsil hockey. Sex is usually out depending on my mood and I think it's the most romantic thing in the world when people confess their love in public." Brendon smiled softly the brisk night air turning his cheeks red,it was either that or he was blushing from them holding hands. After about ten minutes of walking the lights of the local carnival came into view. "Not exactly an amusement park but close enough.Besides it's the last night and something fun always happens on the last night." He looked down at her awaiting her reaction whilst stuffing his other hand in his hoodie pocket.

"What kind of mood are you in? I was wanting to shove you down on the sidewalk and have hot sex with you,.." she lauhed,giving his hand a light squeeze as the lights started to come into view. Her cheeks turned pink and she nudged him gently with her elbow. "This is so cute! I like..love you!" Her last four words didnt really register until it was too late. Giving her lip a small bite with her teeth she started to get excited,yanking on his hand to make him walk faster. "So is this like our first date or something?" She asked,glancing back at him with a grin.

Brendon's face turned red. Not for the sex part but the fact that she said I love you to him."Well you might as well say it is. First date weve been on in years.What do you want to go on first." He bit his bottom lip and whispered. "I love you too...I never stopped." He wasnt sure if she had heard it or not but he'd save the romance for later when they were at the top of the ferris wheel which he was going to have held up there.

"Yeah well we have my brother to thank for that don't we?" she grinned and pulled him a little further into the crowed before stopping and looking around-not hearing his whispered 'I love you too'. "Hmmm..I think you should win me some kind of cute stuffed..thing first." she laughed and turned to him.

"A stuffed animal eh? You want the teddy bear? So you can name it Brenny bear?"He chuckled walking over to the ring toss game. Surprisingly enough Brendon had the knack of getting the rings on the posts. What had started off as normal size teddy bear was now a life sized teddy bear. When the booth operator handed it to her she lept into his arms causing him to once again blush."So what do you want to do now that you havet this?"

Danielle squeeled when he won her the bear-she thought it was the cutest thing seeing as how she saw it in a dozen movies. "I don't know what I want to do.." She looked around,only seeing rides that really wernt her thing. "What do you want to go on?"

Brendon grinned devilishly and dragged her to the ferris wheel. When they got to the front of the line he handed the operator a twenty and mumured something Danielle couldn't hear. The got in their cart and he wrapped an arm around her. "Don't worry we aren't going to fall out I promise you that. And if we did you'd have a safe landing." The look in Brendon's eyes was more intense than usual.When they got to the top it stopped. "Well babe here's your chance to tell me how you feel."

Ever since the age of ten,Danielle has had a fear of heights,so the fact that Brendon drug her to the Ferris Wheel made her stomachs do flips. She got on and bit her lip,looking down over the edge and then at Brendon who was all calm and collected. "You really wanna know how I feel?" she groaned,looking down over the edge again. "I feel like you are a huge jerk for dragging me up here because I hate it." She pouted and laid her head on his shoulder-trying to keep it cool.

"Don't worry it's fine babe. I just wanted to bring you up here. He tilted her head to the side were you could see the whole park and a few fireworks going off. I'm the same man I was back then. We're not kids anymore so what's stopping us?You said you loved me and I know I still love you. I never stopped." He looked at the sky for a moment. "We always used to say our love touched the sky,well babe we're at the top of a ferris wheel and its as high as well get without going on an airplane. You asked me earlier what level of intamcy do I think is okay for public and I answered you." Brendon paused, it was getting hard to talk normally. His emotions were getting the best of him and he was starting to choke up. He was also getting nervous he turned for a bit to look at the fireworks. They really did help create the mood. What could be more romantic? Fireworks lighting up the night sky,on top of a ferris wheel and despite the giant stuff bear it was pretty intamite inside the car. He saw her starting to shiver, so he somehow managed to get out of his hoodie without rocking the car too much. As he wrapped it around her he spoke in a hushed whisper."You asked me what kind of mood I was in..well baby I'm in the mood for romance." He sent a signal down and the song I Knew I loved You Before I Met You by Savage Garden came on. It was their last dance at prom and it still played fresh in Brendon's mind. They glided across the floor like the king and queen of dance. Ironically enough they were crowned king and queen. That's how Ryan had figured out about them and Brendon personally hated Ryan for that one reason.When the song hit the chorus Brendon broke the instense stare of his eyes by closing them and leaning in for a kiss.

He closed the gap all the way and their lips touched. It seemed to last forever and if the song changing to another one of her favorite songs hadnt accoured he would've swore time was standing still. That's how he felt when he was with this girl. They finally started their decent down off the ferris wheel. They reached the bottom and he wrapped his arm on her shoulders as they walked. They still had time for atleast one more ride and he just found the perfect one. It was sort of childish and yet he remembered seeing in movies couples going on it. He lead her to the carosel and go in one of the carts. "I feel kind of patetic we're the only ones on this thing." He laughed. "But that means we can ride a horsey next if you want." As they went around he gentley nuzzled her face with his nose and kissed her cheek every now and then. Placing his mouth by her ear he started to sing very softly in her ear knowing it was her weakness. "She's been running through my dreams and it's driving me crazy it seems." His arm went instead around her waist and followed soon after with the other one. It didnt even seem like they were at the carnival anymore. It was like they were in their world now. A world created by their secret love of eachother.

To say Danielle was on cloud nine was an understatement. It had been years since the two had been together,but all it took was his touch and his singing in her ear to make her remember how much he used to mean to her-how much he still meant to her. As they got off the carousel she took his hand and pulled him through the crowd- walking a few steps ahead of him,turning around and smiling as she pulled him behind a building. Leaning against the wall she dropped the bear and pulled his body against hers,her arms going around his neck and playing with his hair as her eyes closed and she kissed him. Letting the kiss linger for at least a minute she pulled away and let her forehead rest against his, "I love you.." She whispered,al the memories of their younger days together. Although now they were alot older and obviously knew a lot more about what they were doing than before. Brendon was still a complete dork but you could tell he matured- especially when it came to them.

Brendon just smiled and kissed her back. Saying he loved this girl wasn't enough. "I want to be yours again. I'm not afraid of Ryan, Dani. He can't control you. You're eighteen years old now. I'd give my life for you babe."Ironically enough after said that you could hear gunshots in the backround. Someone ha gotten overly drunk and was firing a gun in random directions. One of the bullets grazed his shoulder."We're out of here." He ignored the flesh wound it wasn't anything to serious. Instead of going out the front way he helped her climb over the gate before hopping it himself. As the gunfire got more and more rapid he picked her up and continued to run with her. "Just stay as curled up as you can okay? We'll be back at my place soon enough."

 

 

Tiffany.

we had lunch and i felt pretty special since i ate a large sandwhich on a plate and had to use a knife and fork. i caught Luke staring at me 37 times and just smiled and acted like i wasnt counting, i would have mentioned something but i didnt wanna be mean or anything to the pretty looking boy.

"you have really beautiful hair" he said and i nodded "wanna touch it?"

"oh, uh" he said but i got up and bent down beside him and he stroked my hair "wow its so smooth"

"i treat it well" i smiled and sat back down

"mom wanted me to be a girl so she could do my hair" he said and i laughed

"but you're so cute, she'd love you anyway" i said

"true, she does" he smiled and i almost passed out

"so what shall we do now?" he asked

i shrugged

"do you wanna see where i live?" he asked

"...will i be able to come back?" i asked and he smiled again. ah.

"yeah" he said "maybe a little later"

it turns out he owned a house too, a small one that he shared with a roommate who was lying on the couch in a very relaxed position. Luke cleared his throat and the other guy looked up and saw me and then sat right up and i smiled "hello"

"hi" he said "i dont always do that.. just.. on Mondays"

i laughed and so did Luke and he showed me around. the most amusing thing was the laundry how the clothes were all over the floor and on the washing machine but not actually in it.

"this is a pretty sweet place" i said and he nodded "its been almost a year now, Kyle and i havent really improved on anything in that time"

we went to his room and it was slightly neater than Kyles with more band posters, and Lukes was more brighter. he went out of the room and came back and closed the door which got me thinking.

"i'm really glad you agreed to come" he said and i sat in the middle of the bed with my legs crossed

"i like peoples houses" i smiled "gives me ideas for my own"

he smiled at that and crawled onto the bed and moved a stuffed toy away and sat beside me

"i am so jealous you get to hang out with P!ATD" he said

"it's not so great" i said

"how could it not be? they are sooo cool" he said

"i dont actually know their music believe it or not, thats my sister" i said

"oh" he said "well im sure you're happy for this opportunity"

i shrugged a little and looked at him

"you have really nice eyes" he said and i smiled "...maybe you should fall into them"

he gave me an uncertain look at first and leaned forward like he wasn't sure

"you can if you want to" i said softly and he nodded and softly kissed my lips and his roommate came barging in

"hey Luke i cant find..." he said and stopped and we pulled apart and Luke went red, but so did Kyle

"uh, i cant find.. my room! yes. my room" he said and closed the door and ran off

i laughed a little and Luke was still red

"naw, it's okay" i said gently rubbing his back and my phone was ringing from a private number

"get out there while you can Tiffany" i deep fake ugly voice said

"...Brendon?" i said

"uh" they said and hung up and i rolled my eyes

"Brendon Urie?" Luke asked

"yep" i said

"wow thats cool that you have his number" he said

"you can have it, i dont want it" i said going through my phonebook

"do you have something against the band Tiffany?" he asked

"no" i sighed "i just... BRENDON URIE IS AN ASSHOLE" i said and covered my face

"oh... i see" Luke said

i explained to him what happened and how i was kind of using him as revenge

"well he wouldnt have called if he didnt care about you being with another guy" Luke said

"true" i said "but what about that girl Steph?"

"did you stop to think maybe he was trying to get you jealous?" he asked

"no" i said pouting

"maybe you should talk to him" Luke said putting his hand on my thigh

"but i like you.." i said looking at him

"i like you too, but... i know that you dont feel the way i do" he said

"i have a feeling you're wrong" i said

he smiled and cuddled me onto the sheets and i smiled as we kissed and then stopped

"you really like him dont you?" Luke asked and i nodded

"come on, i'll return you to him" he said about to get up but i pulled him back down "no."

we laid in bed together after that and i was so confused

"i'm leaving here tomorrow..." i said and he nodded "i really do like you Luke"

he gave me a hug and a tear fell down my eye

"you're just... normal. you're not famous with all of the girls chasing after you" i said shaking a little and he kissed my forehead

"i understand that when boys do this to girls, sometimes they need a boy to help them get through it all" he said gently twirling a part of my hair

"how do you feel about guilty revenge sex?" i asked wiping the tear away and he laughed "it's wrong but... i like you so that's okay"

"dont tell my sister or she'll kill me if she found out i wasnt a virgin" i said and he laughed

 

Peaches.

Liana came running in her costume while Boys Like Girls were staring at her butt and jumped on me

"what what?!" i asked and she was so excited she couldnt speak

"Jon asked me to be his girlfriend!" she jumped happily

"OH MY GOSH!" i smiled and hugged her and then out of nowhere Jon came into the room and put his arm around her

"this is my burlesque dancer. not yours" he said and i laughed and he took her away

i was so happy for her.

the boys were doing a photoshoot that i didnt really wanna get involved in. Ashley Tisdale was on her phone and the band were playing charades... really really badly.

i went outside on a rail and sat by myself kicking my legs like a little kid, i was happy at everything now except Brendon. it wasnt hard to see Tiffany liked him alot. i felt arms go around my waist and turned around and saw Ryan smiling

"hey" i smiled

"hello" he said and rubbed his cheek on mine "we're nearly done so we can leave"

"okay" i said softly

"Brendons been trying to call her" he said

"oh god no" i said looking at him

"afraid so" he said

"she's gonna be so mad" i said

"well we hid his phone in the building so its okay now. come inside and give me some support" he said

"i'm okay out here by myself" i said

"i know you are" he said rubbing my sides "i just dont want you to be alone out here"

"okay" i said and jumped off and went back inside and there was confetti everyone

"NO NO NO! THE CONFETTI COMES WHEN I SAY THREE" the photographer yelled

"I DID PULL IT ON THREE, YOU JUST CANT CLICK PROPERLY" the confetti person yelled back and the band was laughing

"I'M PRETTY SURE I KNOW WHEN TO CLICK" the photographer yelled

"WELL LOOK WHAT HAPPENED NOW, WE RAN OUTTA CONFETTI. WE SHOULD USE YOUR WASTED PHOTOS SINCE YOU HAVE SO MANY BAD ONES" the confetti person yelled with his hands in the air

"THE PHOTOS WOULD LOOK GREAT IF YOU FUCKING JUST PULLED THE STRING ON THREE" the photographer yelled and started spitting

"hey hey, make love, not war" Spencer said

"why dont you take the photos?" Ryan asked me and i looked at him and then everyone looked at me

"oh... okay" i said and the lady gave me the camera

"i need a cigarette" she murmured

"i'll do the confetti!" Martin said running in "on three"

i nodded and got the camera in place

"one... two.. three!" he said and pulled the string and a loud pop happened and gold and red confetti went everywhere

"oh my god i want one" he said and i smiled and took some more photos

after about 200 photos i decided to stop and put the camera down and Ryan danced over to me

"uh okay that was REALLY homosexual of you" i said and he smiled and held onto my cheeks and kissed me

"i better go call Tiffany its 7 now..." i said

"okay" he said

i went into the girls bathroom and saw Brendons phone on the sink and smiled. i called Tiffany and she sounded tired

"hello?"

"hey Tiff, it's me, where are you?" i asked and she yawned "Lukes"

"...doing?" i asked

"i fell asleep on the couch thats all" she said

"oh when are you coming back?" i asked

"i'll get Luke to drive me down now" she said

"okay be careful, you sound like yogi bear right now" i said

"i love yogi bear" she said and i smiled "i know. bye"'

i looked at Brendons phone and saw a picture of himself. of course. then i looked up this Steph person in his phonebook and found a photo, she was very attractive, but something caught my attention. it was under Family Contacts...

incest? eew.

 

 

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IM SORRY ITS A FILLER! ive started exams and been working on them and crap :(

it'll get better when i know what to write.

promiseeeeee.

i finish school for the year next friday so expect them "everyday posts" again!

love you's

OH BTW.

Luke is mine.

xxxxxx

NEW PROSPECTIVE

Chapter six: Those who lack maturity have an abundance of creativity (Jesse's POV)

I was in the lounge having a conversation with Spencer. He got to his feet and stretched before speaking.

"I think I could go for a hot chocolate, how about you?" he asked looking at me.

I let out a sigh before saying, "Actually, a hot chocolate sounds really good right now."

"Good" he said before walking towards the door. When he got there he paused and looked at me, "You coming?"

"Yeah okay" I replied getting to my feet and following him to the kitchen.

I sat down at the table, while Spencer walked over to the cupboard. He got out a big bag of chocolate, a saucepan, and then he got milk from the fridge. I watched him as he filled the pot with milk and placed it on the stoves front left element. I was watching him slowly stir the milk, when Brendon entered the room.

He walked up behind Spencer and rested his hands on his waist before asking, "Is that stove top hot chocolate I see you making?"

Spencer nodded.

"Yay!" Brendon then said before walking over to the table and sitting opposite me.

He just sat there grinning at me, not saying a word. Admittedly, I was getting a little creeped out by his odd behaviour. I raised my eyebrows slightly, and leant back in my chair a little.

"Am I scaring you yet?" he asked me.

I nodded my head, "A little bit" I then said before letting out a little chuckle.

He laughed before placing his hands on the back of his head.

A few seconds later, Ryan entered the room all dressed up.

"Looks like someone's ready for a night out" I said looking him up and down.

Brendon looked behind him to see Ryan. He looked back at me before rolling his eyes.

"Ryan here is a womanizer. This evening's attire means he's about to go on the prowl for an innocent young lady to violate."

"That's a little creepy" I chortled. "But defy young, because Ryan barely looks 23."

"23" Brendon said in disbelief, "The old bastard's not 23."

Ryan walked over and slapped Brendon on the back of the head before saying, "I am not an old bastard. And like I told your daughter, I am not a womanizer" he insisted.

"Please" Brendon scoffed. "You don't seriously believe that do you? You sleep with a new girl almost every night. You are, by definition, a womanizer. Or would you prefer I called you a promiscuous man whore?"

Ryan pondered for a moment, and then he shrugged his shoulders and said, "Promiscuous man whore sounds good to me."

"Course it does" Brendon said shaking his head. He let out a sigh before saying, "And you are old by the way. You're the oldest in this entire house. That makes you super old" he laughed.

"He's older then you?" I questioned in a surprised manner.

Brendon gasped before acting hurt, "How could you think I was older then him?"

"Well" I began, "I didn't think you were older until I found out you had a 12 year old daughter. And I have to say, you look great for someone your age."

"Wait; how old do you think I am exactly?" Brendon questioned.

"Um, well, seeing as Regan's 12, and you look so young, I'd say, early thirties" I answered honestly.

I don't know what I said to offend him, but Brendon's jaw practically hit the table. Ryan and Spencer looked at each other before bursting into laughter. Ryan was almost crying.

"That is the best answer ever" Ryan squeezed out.

"I'm not in my fucking thirties" Brendon snapped, "I'm only 26."

"Oh, sorry" I said embarrassedly looking away. That was until a thought crossed my mind, "Hang on a second, that means you were only..." I paused to work out his age when Regan was born.

"I had just turned 14 when Regan was conceived" he said as if it were nothing.

I was taken aback; "Holy shit" was all I could get out.

I couldn't believe how young he was. I couldn't believe he was even having sex that young.

"Yeah, I suppose I was a little young, but it doesn't matter now does it. Anyways, Ry's 27 and Spencer's 26. I know it's not polite to ask, but how old are you?"

"Oh, um" I said snapping back to the conversation, "I'm 24. I um, I'm actually a twin too."

Ryan shot his head in my direction before eagerly asking, "An identical twin?"

"Um...no" I replied hesitantly. The look he was giving me was a concerning one. "I think I'd be a little concerned if Kroger and I were identical. Mostly because it would mean I was a boy."

"Oh, that's a shame" Ryan said before walking over to the pantry.

Spencer then came over to the table and put down four large mugs full of hot chocolate. He then walked back to the bench, and returned a few seconds later with plates, forks, and a knife balanced on top of a large plastic container. He placed everything on the table and then opened the box.

I began to drool at the smell that wafted out of it. Inside were home-baked cookies and cake. I haven't had home-baked goods in a very long time. Not since I lived at home with my Mom anyways.

"Wow, you look like your going to climb across the table and shove your face in" Brendon laughed.

I blushed a little, embarrassed with my behaviour, before I said, "Sorry, I just haven't smelt anything so good since I lived with my Mom."

"Oh, it's fine really" Spencer said as he pushed a mug in my direction. "We live with Ryan and Regan, so that was nothing."

At that exact moment Ryan whined, "Where the fuck are the little marshmallows?"

"You see" Spencer then laughed before he got to his feet, and walked over to the cupboard Ryan was looking through. He reached into it, and pulled out a glass jar before handing it to Ryan.

"Thank you" Ryan excitedly said before rushing over to the table and sitting down.

Spencer re-joined us, and then Brendon, Spencer and I watched Ryan as he picked through the miniature marshmallows. He picked out five greens and five whites, and then he put the lid back on and looked up at us.

"What?" he questioned.

"Why do you always pick through them?" Spencer asked before sipping his drink.

"Because, green and white are for boys, and yellow and pink are for girls. Duh, everyone knows that" he said before reaching across the table and grabbing some cake.

"God, you are such a kid sometimes Ry" Brendon said shaking his head.

He swallowed the large chunk of cake in his mouth and said, "And what? Those who lack maturity have an abundance of creativity, so I have no problem with people thinking I'm a big kid. It just means I have a great imagination, which is what's needed in my profession."

"What is your profession?" I questioned.

The three guys looked at each other slightly wide eyed before Ryan finally said, "Oh, I'm an aspiring writer."

"Really, that's awesome. I wish I could write. I've always wanted to, but I'm not very good."

"Say's who?" Ryan then asked me.

"Oh, um, my ex boyfriend" I said before looking down at the cup in my hands.

"That's just one person. I don't know if you'd want to, but maybe you could let me take a peek at your work sometime" he said smiling at me.

"Oh, I don't know. I mean, I'm no G. R. Ross, so you'll probably think its complete shit."

Brendon and Spencer began laughing. They stopped when Ryan gave them a stern look.

"Can I ask you something?" Ryan questioned.

"Yeah" I replied, nodding my head.

"Why do you like his work so much? I mean, what is it about this guy that makes you so passionate?" Ryan asked as pure intensity spread across his face.

"Well," I began, "I suppose it would probably have to be his mind."

"His mind?" Spencer said looking at Ryan, and then back at me. "Explain."

"Oh, sure, well, his mind must be a fantastic and interesting place. What he writes enthrals me, it tests me. It's like he sees the world's darkness more then he sees its light. He shows you the rough and unfinished side of human nature. It's like he rips the rose-tinted glasses right off your face and smashes them. You can never go back to only seeing the world's beauty and not its ugliness. His work will forever be imprinted on your mind."

"He brings you into the real world, the one not many see" Ryan gently said staring me right in the eyes.

"Exactly" I replied in the same tone.

We held each others gaze. I don't know why, but it felt like he was staring straight into my soul, like he was trying to read me. As strange as it seemed, I couldn't look away from him. It's like we shared some sort of strange bond. We stopped when Brendon spoke.

"Yeah, that's what I think about his writing too" Brendon mumbled.

I tore my gaze away from Ryan, and looked down at the cup my hands were wrapped around.

What is it about this guy that makes me feel so, strange. He deters me and entices me all at the same time. It's almost like I envy and love him. Which is crazy enough all on its own, seeing as I barely know the guy.

I could feel him still staring at me, so I glanced in his direction before I looked at the other two guys.

"So um, what do you two do for a living?" I asked, directing my question at Brendon and Spencer.

"Oh, well um, if it's not obvious, I'm a baker" Spencer answered, "And Brendon over here is a high school teacher."

"A teacher, that's awesome" I said, a huge grin on my face. "What class do you take?"

"Music" he replied.

"Oh, that's right. I remember from your ad now. Do you enjoy it?"

"Well" he began, "It does have its moments. I do get the occasional urge to kill some of the kids, but very rarely. I've got some very talented students, and they have so much passion."

"You sound very proud."

"I am very proud, I love my job. I get to watch the kids grow from irritating little freshman to mature seniors. Shouldn't everyone want to help kid's fulfil their dreams" he said.

I gave him another smile before saying, "Yes, they should."

He blushed a little before saying, "So um, where do you work?"

"Oh, I work at 'Corbin's Pet store.' It's um, it's not far from Starbucks, down on Fletcher Street" I answered.

"Oh yeah, I know the place. Regan wanted a kitten from there a few weeks back. Lucky I was there or Ryan actually would have brought it for her" he said before glaring at Ryan.

"What?" he said, an innocent look playing across his face, "My girl wanted a kitten, so I was going to get her a kitten. It's not a crime to make her happy."

"No, it's not, but you spoil her way to much Ry" Brendon added as he crossed his arms in-front of his chest.

"Whatever Bren" he said before getting to his feet, "You just don't spoil her enough." He then poked his tongue at Brendon in a very 'mature' manner, and said, "I'm going to head out now, I'll see everyone in the morning."

"Bye" the three of us said in unison, before he walked out the door.

 

Does anyone know the like, ratings, of things you can post on here? cause i have a brendon urie three-part story, but it's quite explicit, and i don't want to get into trouble or get banned.

 

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"I can't believe your gonna be Panic's assistant on tour! This should be interesting and a ton of fun!" Spencer said, helping me with my suitcases.

"Yup, and we're finally gonna share a house! Remember how we always wanted to share a house, so we could be together 24/7?" I asked.

"Hell yea! And since your coming on tour with us, we're gonna be around each other so much, we going to be sick of being around each other, " he laughed. 

"I doubt we'll ever be sick of each other"

Spencer opened the door to his 2 story home. It was an extremely pretty house, with five bedrooms, three bathrooms, and a pool.

We walked into his house, well, I guess now it's our house.

I 've been to Spence's house a couple times, so I knew my way around.

We walked upstairs, talking about random topics.

"Well, pick any of the three spare rooms." he said pointing.

"Three?" I asked, "Aren't there five rooms" You have one, so shouldn't there be four?"

"Oh. I forget to tell you. Brendon has his own room here too. I mean, we're around each other a lot, so I figured if he ever needed to stay, he needed his own room," he said.

"Oh," I said, while looking into each room.

"Oh?" Spencer asked suspiciously.

"Just, oh. I didn't know that."

"Well ok. Have any ideas on which room you want?"

"Umm, I think I'll take the room with the bathroom?" I asked hopefully.

Spence laughed, "It's all yours."

"Yay! Thanks Spence! For Everything!" I squealed.

"No prob."

I'm not street, but I do what I gotta do. So what you got a crew, I got a crew too

Spencer and I sang along to Cobra Starship's song 'Pete Wentz Is The Only Reason We're Famous', his ringtone.

He answered his cell, while I decided to take my things to my room.

"Hello? Oh hey Bren."

I ignored the fact Brendon was calling Spencer, I meanwhile lied on the queen sized bed in my room, then got up and walked aroung my room.

"Oh yea. I forgot. I picked up Mia from Summerlin, then we drove down to my house."

"She's good. I think she's unpacking."

"Yea. Um...hold on a sec."

Spencer came to my room.

"I totally forgot Bren and I were supposes to go over some songs today. I need to go over there like now." he said.

"Okay. Go." I said twirling my hair.

"Well, do you wanna come?" Spencer asked.

I sighed, "I dunno. Am I invited?"

"Yes you are Mi."

"Um...Okay I'll go. I can unpack later."

"Are you sure?"

"Yea. Why wouldn't I be?"

He began to say something, but changed his mind.

Spencer went back to talking to Brendon.

"We'll be over in a few minutes."

"See ya."

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Spencer and I were at Brendon's house fairly quickly.

Brendon was lying down on his front lawn, watching clouds go by.

"Hey Brendon." Spencer said as we walked toward him.

"What's up Spence?" Brendon asked calmly.

It was kind of funny. Brendon. Brendon Urie. Calm? I thought Brendon couldn't be calm.

"Nothing much. Just here at your house, wondering why you're so damn calm."

I laughed. I wasn't the only one who knew Brendon and calm didn't mix.

Brendon sat up.

"Hello Mia." Brendon said looking at me.

"Hi Brendon. How are you?" I asked.

This was the first time I've talked to Brendon ever since we broke up three years ago.

He looked like he had done some growing up. He looked...well...more sensitive...I'm not sure how to describe it.  He looked REALLY good. I made sure I didn't stare.

"Good, good. Just staring at clouds. How are you?"

"Good too."

"So.." Spencer began, "We should get to rehearsing."

"Oh yeah! I forgot that's why you came!" Brendon exclaimed standing up, shaking grass clippings off his clothes, then shaking his head, making sure none stayed in his hair.

"What did you think we were here to do?" Spencer asked.

"I dunno. Maybe you needed me to give you a haircut." Brendon said smiling.

"Ah yes, I needed a haircut from you Mr.Urie. Like I would let you touch my hair!" Spencer said.

 I laughed.

"Fine then," Brendon began, "Let's go inside. I'm bored of being so calm! I need to scream!" We all walked inside while Brendon screamed, "I AM THEE BRENDON URIE! BEST VOCALIST IN THE WORLD! I'M THE GUY THE GIRLS ARE ALL OVER!"

I tried to not laugh, but I couldn't help it.

Spencer and I burst out laughing.

"As if. I'm surprised you got your name right," Specer said laughing.

"Haha. Welll, let's go to my musical room! We need to start working hard! We need to get some practicing in before we leave for tour!"

"Sure, sure." Spencer said walking.

"So, Mia, you wanna hang out with us and see what we have in store for the tour?" Brendon asked.

"I dunno. I think I'll just stay out of you guy's way." I replied.

"Are you sure?" Brendon asked looking towards me.

"Yea, I'm sure."

"Umm...ok. Then, why don't you explore my house. Take a look around. Eat sleep, drink. Whatever you wanna do." Bredon smiled.

I couldn't help smiling back.

"You can go into my room. Watch t.v. I kinda spilled soda on the t.v. in the living room. And well...yea. For now, the t.v. in my room is working."

"Wow Bren," Spencer laughed, "Smooth."

"Thank you."

"Alright let's get to work." Spencer said.

"Let's go!!!" Brendon yelled running down the stairs.

"We'll be in Brendon's musical room. A.K.A. the basement." Spencer laughed.

"Okay. Have fun."

"Alrighty."

Spencer walked toward the stairs that Brendon ran towards, and went down.

I was alone in the living room of Brendon's house.

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I was really hungry. Brendon had the fridge stocked up with a bunch of food.

I got a coke and a banana to setlle my hunger. After I finished eating I decided to explore Brendon's house.

It was a fairly simple house. I thought Brendon would have painted all the rooms a bright red or green.

I went upstairs where there were a lot of guitars and a lot of other things.

There were a bunch of things I recognized.

I remembered Brendon talking about having a room in his house where he kept everything he loved or had memories in them.

The guitars Brendon had were some he played with on tour I supposed. I kept walking. There was the VMA Panic! won back in 2006. There were some awards, certificates, and pictures on a shelf.

There were pictures of Ryan and Jon with Brendon and Spencer, back when they were in Panic!

There were pictures of Brendon and Spencer writing music, playing songs, or simply having fun. There were pictures of Brendon with other bands , Cobra Starship, Fall Out Boy, The Academy Is..., and a bunch of others, as well as pictures of Brendon and Pete Wentz. I smiled.

I exited that room and walked into Brendon's room. I turned on the TV and sat on his bed. I looked at his bedside table. I gasped as I came upon a familiar picture. It was framed, engraved with the words, "Near or far, where ever you are, your spazstic self will forever be in my heart." There weren't any cracks, scratches, or any marks. The picture was unharmed. "Wow. He kept it." I whispered. We both looked extremely happy, having a great time. I sighed. Next to the pictures were the red sunglasses I got him.

I felt my chest tighten. Memories were flooding back. I quickly looked toward the TV. Family Guy was on. Good. That should take my mind off things. As I sat on Brendon's bed, I heard Spencer and him practicing. They sounded amazing.

The song ended. I could here Brendon playing a guitar,Spancer lightly tapping on the drums as Brendon sang 'Three Little Birds'. I felt my eye lids get heavy. I yawned. I was really tired. Before I knew it, I was lying on Brendon's bed, my head on his pillow. fast asleep.

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(Brendon's POV)

Spence and I finished practicing . We were so focused on our music, time flew by.

We went back up to the living room. Mia wasn't in the living room or the kitchen.

"Where do you think she is?" Spence asked while grabbing two bottles of water out of the fridge.

"I dunno Maybe upstairs somewhere. She's not down here."

Spence handed me a bottle of water. "Thanks." I said, twisting the cap open and drinking the water.

"No problem," Spencer said, "I'm gonna go to the bathroom. What time is it Bren?"

I took my cell out of my pocket and checked the time.

"Almost midnight. 30 minutes til."

"Damn, it's getting late." Spencer said.

"Yep."

"Like I said, I'm going to the bathroom."

"Kay."

"Will you go check on Mia? See if she's ok?"

"Course."

"Good. I'll be back." Spencer walked through the living room and went to the bathroom.

I went upstairs and heard a TV. Mia's in my room.

I walked to my room and found her fast asleep on my bed. She had a long day. She was tired. She looked cold. I grabbed a blanket from the inside of my closet and gently laid it on top of her.

I walked over to the TV and turned it off.

I stopped and just looked at Mia. I had her. I screwed it up. I loved her, and I still love her. I still have feelings for her. I wonder if she still has feelings for me...

Impossible.

I broke her heart. I sighed.

I turned around and gently shut the door. "I wish you would come back to me." I whispered. 

I walked downstairs. Spencer was waiting for me, "Hey, where's Mia?"

"Sleeping in my room."

"Oh, I don't wanna wake here," he said, "Mind if we spend the night?"

"Go right ahead. You know where your room is. We can leave Mia in my room."

"Thanks. Where are you gonna sleep?"

"Guest room. On the couch. Where ever." I replied.

"Oh, well okay. Well, I'm gonna go crash. I've had a long day." he said.

"Kay, goodnight."

"Night."

Spencer headed for his room and I headed for the guest room. I stripped down to my boxers and fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow.

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Hey! I posted a long chapter! Happy? I actually did my homework ahead of time and actually had some extra time on my hands =D

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*Kinda off topic, but I wanna share this. Ok, so today in my language arts class, we were reviewing for a test when a girl raises her hand and says "this textbook has writing in it! It says 'SHANK!'" We all burst out laughing. The teacher didn't really mind. THEN, the same girl raises her hand and says that there was more writing. This time it said "Now flip to the blank pages at the end of the book." So then the girl says she turned to the blank pages at the end of the book and it said, "HA! You listened to the book! You loozer!" (yes, that's how they spelled loozer.) We all started laughing again. =D *

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Kelly's POV

When I had left the cab, there was this guy, standing in the front yard of the house on the cliff; I guessed he lived there. He looked somewhat familiar, but then again it was probably just me, for a minute there I thought... no, never mind, who could I have been kidding? It's very unlikely.
Just as I walked in the doorbell rang. Who could that be already?  Upon opening the door a nice looking guy, rather skinny, is what I found standing in my doorstep. "Hi, I'm Ryan, I guess you must be my new neighbor?" as he spoke, I realized that this man in my doorstep was no one else but Ryan Ross. Could someone wake me, please?

Cee's POV

8PM, I was bored so I decided to turn on my computer, I signed in and the first thing that caught my eye was his this one particular nickname. "Brendon - I love you, if only you'd know" ... It always kept me wondering, what it meant. If it was really meant to reach someone, and if it was, to who was it? But I never dared asking. I  wanted to talk to him, but I didn't really, and then, after all I did anyway.

Cee says: Well good morning to you!

My screen notified me he'd replied. What a wonderful feeling.

Brendon - I love you, if only you'd know says: Good morning back at you! You have the gift to make me happy just by speaking to me, I just felt great, only because you said good morning...

Such a lighthearted feeling I got then.
Cee says: So sweet, how are you today?

Brendon - I love you, if only you'd know says: Great now I'm talking to you, yourself?
The lighthearted feeling never stopped, on the contrary, it only got stronger.

But I was game to play along.

Cee says: Exactly the same.

Brendon - I love you, if only you'd know says: Ha, thank you! Even though, I'm a total dork. Anyway, I have to go. Have a nice day sweetheart. ;)

I didn't get the change to reply, he signed out.  Upon looking at that again... hold the phone, did he just call me ...sweetheart?

Ryan's POV

She was quite shocked upon opening that door, I could tell. "I assume you recognized me, then, I mean, ... I can tell from you face." I asked her as she still gasped away.

"Oh well, yeah, I'm sorry.... Err, I'm Kelly, nice to meet you," She said as she shook my hand nervously. I sat talking to her, about anything, she told me she played guitar, I asked her to play for me but she wouldn't. She made an excuse for it, but it was pretty obvious she was kind of shy.  Don't get me wrong, I would have been too. I decided to invite her over to the party, she agreed on coming and so I left to go and get drinks and food for the party.


Brendon's POV

I stared out of my window for a while, was I doing things wrong? I guess it's only people like me that fall in love with a girl on the other side of the world.  On the other hand, maybe that's a real sign that the love is true, I mean, why else would you fall in love with the girl on the other side of the world... As often as I thought that, the girl on the other side of the world started to sound almost as natural as the girl next door.

I made up my mind and decided to tell her. Whether it tears it all apart or not, in my heart I know there's only one right thing to do. Jon arrived back from the store, I drank my red bull. Told me about this party Ryan was having at his place.  "You should come, I'm taking Cassie, too," and I was taking.... Well, I was taking it pretty good that I wasn't taking anybody.  I guess I couldn't talk to him about it if I wanted to, he wouldn't understand. One thing I knew, I loved her very much, and I couldn't just put that feeling aside, even if I wanted to , no matter where she lived.

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