onlinestore Blog and Journals

While I am on disability, I only get my 600 buck check every month, and while to younger people that may seem like a shit load of money but in reality that doesn't go far for paying rent at my parents house and trying to help them repair damages from Katrina and preparing the house for sale.  Being in bed almost all the time leaves me with few options for money, other than being a whore!  But I'm working my ass off on this, I know I can be successful at this, I was going to be a doctor and I fucking know I would have made it.  I have the determination to do many a things and this is one of them.  I just know it.  If anyone would check it out, even if it's just to give me feedback or more ideas.  Sorry if I keep mentioning this but it can be the difference of a lot of important things to me.  Possibly even one night of eating out or affording an extra prescription.  The way this country treats the not only poor but also the physically handicap.  I got treated like shit in high school and college because the schools don't have to follow the American disability act, (ADA).  I got mainly A's and some B's even though I was missing lots of school.

Eh, I'll skip all the details, unless you've been through similar situations it's rather boring.  I was called worthless, stupid, that I should just drop out b/c I'd never go anywhere.  Well I guess I showed them with a full paid scholarship and 10 grand scholarship to Loyola.  Plus I tested for gifted and received extremely high scores.  Same on the ACT.  Shit, I hope you don't think I'm bragging b/c thgat was just meant to show you how I proved the school wrong.  And DAMN, that felt good!  I just woke up, it's 4, but hell, I was up to almost five in the morning to create my account.  I really like this place better than my space, but I can't put my finger on why though.  I'll have to ponder that idea for a while!  I'm so glad that I have met so many wonderful people.  I really need to get a bath b/c I just got out of the hospital (AKA my second home) for pneumonia (sp?).  I never really felt bad, even with the 105 fever!  I probably got it from laying in bed all the time, it really sucks donkey ass!

Well, I'm off to work on my store a bit more.  It seems like no matter how much I do it never seems like it's enough, but I guess that's life.  Later my dears - Xtina