My Chemical Romance Forum

I'm terribly sorry for any bad impressions this post may give ppl, but I really need a fucking rant session as I am currently insanely raging furious beyond the point of reason. My mother has just possibly done the worst imaginable by sticking her nose in where it doesnt belong and decided to clear out stuff in my room without my permission and in the process, mindlessly and idiotically chucking out what she thought were meaningless scribbles on a piece of paper, my MCR autographs.

FUCK

No amount of profanity or doors smashed in hot boiling anger can describe how I feel as of this moment.

This may not be a very big deal to most in reality and my reaction here could very well be uncalled for but BY GOD, I honestly cant give a fuck about that right now. Those autographs meant the world to me. The fact that they are the one and only precious evidence of me experiencing the luckiest moment in my life in getting to meet the band members in those short few seconds while they signed what was to be my most prized possesion of all time just makes the situation feel 10 gazillion fucking times worse. They are what cheers me up along with listening to the band's music when I'm upset. Just by picking up that small piece of paper and tracing the lines of Mikey Frank and Ray's writing lifts my spirit up as they take me back to those priceless moments spent standing next to the guys who made my life so much more worth living.

But now that proof is gone just like that, in an instant of fucking carelessness and disrespect for privacy as my mother went through my belongings without even asking me. And what's worse is that she has no bloody remorse for what she's done, but instead keeps on insisting she didnt do anything wrong because my things were too messy in the first place. It's like WHAT.THE.FUCK. I'm not a fucking kid who needs their room cleaned. Just because u dont like the way I have my things out doesnt mean u have the excuse to mess around with it. And even if it really WAS messy she still has no business in going through my stuff let alone the right to throw anything out. Fucking hell! Even I have the common sense to give ppl their privacy and independence in managing their own things so why the fuck couldnt she realise it, as an adult who's supposed to know so much more than me.

I know better to not step out of line in what I say about her because she is still my mother and deserve that basic respect but Jesus christ, I really, really, really, really do not know how I can forgive her right now. It's not even necessarily about the autographs anymore. Her ignorance and disregard for anything other than her own narrow-minded perspectives as well as knowing that she isn't feeling one bit sorry about losing something this important just infuriates me to no end. Fuck respect, I don't know why I should care when she obviously doesnt.

Currently blasting Three cheers out on full volume and hoping Iike hell that will take some of the frustration away so I can forget about it and get on with other things. To most of you it may just seem like a childish rant from someone who's getting riled up about something so insignificant, but yeah, definitely gonna piss me off for a good while.

This is beyond fucked up.