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Rain Rain DONT go away....
Ok I know i just wrote a journal about how its raining and I said I wanted it to go away but I've changed my mind. I took my puppy for a walk and LOVEEEEEEED it. It was so refreshing. Who knew that a cool rainy day could make you feel so good. Usually every morning when i walk the dog i'm wearing basketball shorts and a tank and by the time i get back into my apartment i'm sweating because it sooooooooooooooooooo freeking hot! Well at the moment its 72 degrees and there is a breeze and its raining. it feels amazing compaired to what its been like.
So right now I'm sitting on my balcony watching the rain hit the pond. I'm drinking hot apple cider and eating toast with peanut butter. All my children is on in the background. I love that show. I also LOVEEEE one life to live even more.
So I was just thinking about everything when I was walking the dog... Like what life used to be like. I mean don't we all get nostalgic every once in a while? I was thinking about high school and how i miss being so envolved in something. I was thinking about how I miss going to shows and being so involved in that. I need a project. Something that I'm going to really enjoy. I have a problem with motivation. I love fashion and photography but i've been so out of the loop with both. I miss working at a clothing store. I miss having beautiful mountians to take pictures of. you can only take so many pictures of the beach. I also miss writing poetry. It seems like I have a block lately. Like I can't think of anything to write. my head is so cloudy all the time. I think it because of stress and mental anxiety i've been having. God i miss writing. I need to find something to spark me again. I need inspriation and motivation... how do i find that? I know it just needs to happen but I want it to now.
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my computer is about to die so i'm going to take a shower while it charges a little... this is just an intermission :)
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Well Intermission over! I hope you enjoyed that little break there.
So here is the new update with me... I might be pregnant... i don't know yet its still a little to early but I have A LOT of the symptoms. My mom is going to be stoked if I am. and if I am I'm glad that I started taking prenatal vitamins. Brandon and I aren't trying to have a baby since he's leaving in October. But its one of those if it happens it happens. I started taking prenatal vitamins because i'm trying to make my hair and nails grow and I thought hell i might as well take them to get ready for the future. I might as well be ready and have my body prepared so I can make sure I have healthy babies.
You might be asking if she might be pregnant why doesn't she seem more excited. well... Im not going to be excited until I know for sure. I mean its also not really what I want right now too... so thats another reason. and the third is well I want brandon to be there for me while I'm pregnant and with i'm going to iraq its going to be pretty hard. He'd be a daddy when he got back and I think that would be extremely overwhelming for him. I remember how hard it was last time and I could only imagin how hard it would be this time. Id love to have a baby though. I know my family would be really supportive too!
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Well this is getting kind of on the long side. I think I'm going to go. Take care all!
Much LOVE!
<3
So right now I'm sitting on my balcony watching the rain hit the pond. I'm drinking hot apple cider and eating toast with peanut butter. All my children is on in the background. I love that show. I also LOVEEEE one life to live even more.
So I was just thinking about everything when I was walking the dog... Like what life used to be like. I mean don't we all get nostalgic every once in a while? I was thinking about high school and how i miss being so envolved in something. I was thinking about how I miss going to shows and being so involved in that. I need a project. Something that I'm going to really enjoy. I have a problem with motivation. I love fashion and photography but i've been so out of the loop with both. I miss working at a clothing store. I miss having beautiful mountians to take pictures of. you can only take so many pictures of the beach. I also miss writing poetry. It seems like I have a block lately. Like I can't think of anything to write. my head is so cloudy all the time. I think it because of stress and mental anxiety i've been having. God i miss writing. I need to find something to spark me again. I need inspriation and motivation... how do i find that? I know it just needs to happen but I want it to now.
...
my computer is about to die so i'm going to take a shower while it charges a little... this is just an intermission :)
...
Well Intermission over! I hope you enjoyed that little break there.
So here is the new update with me... I might be pregnant... i don't know yet its still a little to early but I have A LOT of the symptoms. My mom is going to be stoked if I am. and if I am I'm glad that I started taking prenatal vitamins. Brandon and I aren't trying to have a baby since he's leaving in October. But its one of those if it happens it happens. I started taking prenatal vitamins because i'm trying to make my hair and nails grow and I thought hell i might as well take them to get ready for the future. I might as well be ready and have my body prepared so I can make sure I have healthy babies.
You might be asking if she might be pregnant why doesn't she seem more excited. well... Im not going to be excited until I know for sure. I mean its also not really what I want right now too... so thats another reason. and the third is well I want brandon to be there for me while I'm pregnant and with i'm going to iraq its going to be pretty hard. He'd be a daddy when he got back and I think that would be extremely overwhelming for him. I remember how hard it was last time and I could only imagin how hard it would be this time. Id love to have a baby though. I know my family would be really supportive too!
...
Well this is getting kind of on the long side. I think I'm going to go. Take care all!
Much LOVE!
<3
| Posted by riottime on 08/13/2008 9:55 AM | Visits: 13 |