Michael Guy Chislett Blog and Journals

We all sat around the dark wooden table, Amy fidgeting next to me. I swear, that girl could never sit still.
"So," she said loudly, looking around the table with a smirk.
I glanced next to me, where it just so happened Sisky was sitting. I couldn't help but feel that the guys had set us up, so we were forced into conversation at some point. But what in this world was I supposed to say? 'Uh, hi? Yeah you were my best friend ever, but I secrety was in love with you and still am. Nice to see you again.' I cringed at the thought. He glanced over at me, a small smile on his face.
"Wait, how did you all meet again?" Amy asked, sipping on her Pepsi as she looked around the table at us.
"Well, we went to school together," said Bill, glancing at Sisky and I. He paused, so I took the hint.
"Right, yeah. We lost touch after high school because I moved to Washington state for a while, and they ended up moving as well."
"Fancy that, meeting back up in a Food Lion in the middle of fucking no where," stated Adam, smiling over at Amy.
While we ate, the conversation broke off, as it does with large groups, into smaller conversations. As if by chance, although I didn't believe it, Sisky and I were the only ones not included into a particular conversation. We listened quietly for a while, until he finally turned to me.
"How are you?" he asked quietly, his eyes staring intently into mine.
"I'm... good. Staying busy," I sipped my tea. "How are you?"
"Good. Tour is amazing. You'd love it," he allowed himself a polite grin, leaning in slightly and then back out.
"Yeah, I bet I would. It's what you always dreamed of," I chuckled. "How's Baby?"
"Cranky," he raised his eyebrows.
"What's new?" I laughed, and then looked down.
"Yeah, right? So what do you do? As far as a job?"
"Uh, well I went to college for acting and photography-"
"Big shocker," he grinned widely, allowing me to continue.
"And as I figured, finding acting jobs are tough. I'm looking for things in the photography world as of now, but I'm working with a photography company, just as an assistant and stuff. I'd love to find a job where I can travel, you know?" I met his gaze.
"Yeah," he trailed off. "We missed you," he said after a break in the conversation.
"I missed you guys... so much," I forced myself to meet his piercing gaze.
He nodded, a saddened expression reaching his features.
"I like you hair," I smiled, my eyes trailing toward his head of hair.
"Is that so?" he ran a hand through it on cue. "A guy told me it looked like a dead ferret the other day, I'm thinking of cutting it."
I shook my head, "don't cut it!" I put my hand up, combing my fingers through his curls. "And it definitely doesn't look like a dead ferret," I laughed.
"Yeah, well I've been needing to cut it anyway, so," he made a scissor motion with his fingers.
"Darn," I muttered, then snapped my fingers sarcastically. He shook his head, a smile on his face, and I noticed Bill watching us from the corner of my eye.
After lunch, the guys decided that it was probably time for them to head back to the venue.
"But we still have a show here to tomorrow, so if you want you can stop by before we leave."
"We'd love it if you did. You too, Amy. Both of you," said Jack, nodding.
"Wait, hold on," Bill dug in his pockets for something, then pulled out two lanyards. "Backstage passes for the both of you. These'll get you into Warped, too. We were going to give them away to fans, so here you go."
"Oh Bill you really don't have to," I smiled graciously.
"But I want to. Take them," he pushed them closer to me.
"Bill-"
"Take them or I'll throw them away."
"In the mud."
"Where no one will be able to use them."
"Well thank you, very much," I said, taking them from his hand. I gave hugs, saving Sisky for last, mostly because I was just too shy to do it.
He didn't pull back as quickly as I expected, instead he held on for a few seconds. Those few seconds made my heart race and my head feel like it was shutting down.
"Please come tomorrow," he said quietly, nodding, after he'd pulled back.
"I will," I smiled softly, unable to do anything else.
We all exchanged numbers, this time determined not to lose touch. We said our final goodbyes and watched them drive off.
After Amy and I had made our way home, gotten yelled at by mom for taking so long, and put away groceries, we decided that we were done going out for the day.
We sat on my couch, watching movies for the remainder of the afternoon.
An hour and a half into silently watching Harry Potter, Amy spoke up.
"Do do you love that Sisky guy?"
"Um, what?" I asked, hoping she'd leave it alone. She was Amy, she never left it alone.
"I saw how awkard yet... gushy things were between you two. What up wit dat?" she asked in an accent I didn't recognize.
"Well, we were best friends in high school, and-"
She gasped dramatically, "I'm... I'm not your first best friend?" She pouted her lips and faked pre-cry breaths.
"No offense, but we were best friends, as best as it gets. And..." I paused, unsure if I wanted to tell her. "And I was in love with him my entire high school career."
I exhaled deeply, keeping my gaze aimed at the television screen.
"Really?" she asked quietly, in a completely serious tone, by the sound of it. I risked looking over at her, only to find a serious expression on her face as well.
"Yeah," I said.
"Well, what happened? Did you date, or?"
"No, I, uh. I never told him. I didn't want to lose the friendship that I had with him, and was afraid of being rejected, so I just didn't..."
"Aw, Ell. Why not, though?"
"Because I just... didn't."
"He totally loves you," she said after a long pause in conversation.
"What?" I asked, incredulous. "Sisky? No, Sisky does not love me. We missed each other, we were just happy."
"He so does, Ella, you don't even see it."
"Yeah, because he doesn't." I was starting to get annoyed.
"But he does."
"No, he doesn't, so shut the hell up about it," I felt my jaw flexing as I watched Harry Potter.
"Geez, Ell. Don't fucking flip, I'm just saying what I see," she swung her legs off my lap, sitting up.
"Well it's not true, so."
"Ell, why can't you just accept it when people care about you? You always deny it. And him? Of all people, I'd think you'd be thrilled, or something."
"Well, I don't know what I think or feel anymore, so fucking drop it."
She got up off the couch, and walked over to the basement steps, "well I'm going home, Jesus."
I exhaled angrily, throwing the remote.
As much I hated to admit to even my own mind, she was right. I could never accept that someone liked me, all the guys who ever hit on me I always found a reason not to date them or go out with them.
Maybe I was just scared, of getting hurt.
But I knew it was because I was terrified of not finding someone who I loved as much as Sisky. I felt like no one else was worthy enough, I found myself, even after all that time, comparing guys to him. Things Sisky would have done, things he would have said, in certain situations.
I hated myself for that. For not giving anyone the time of day just because I still cared about him.
I hated myself for loving him.

Sisky's POV

Bill looked over at me, clapping his hand on my shoulder.
"Glad to see her again?"
"Yeah, man. It was nice..." I didn't meet his gaze, for fear he'd read my mind, as Bill often did. "I hope she comes tomorrow."
"She will," Butcher assured me. "Or we'll kidnap 'er."
"That's legal," I muttered, laughing.
"Why didn't you ever make a move on her in high school, dude? I mean, I don't know-"
"I met the chick for an hour and she seems perfect for you," Mike said.
"She's a great girl," Chiz agreed.
"She is..." I said quietly. "I never made a move, because. She was my best friend. And that's such a... such a weird situation. With our amazing friendship at stake, I just didn't want to risk it, you know?"
"It's risky business, messing with that," Bill said, allowing himself to smirk. I punched his shoulder lightly, and sat on the couch.
"So what do you guys want to wreck now?"
"Well, it's kinda hot."
"Let's shoot some footage," Jack said, holding up his camera pointedly.
Without another word, I ran out of the bus with the guys.
I couldn't believe that I'd actually seen her in person, sat next to her.
I felt.. well, lame, that I'd had dreams about her for so long. I was glad I didn't have to dream anymore, I didn't have to imagine what she looked like now.
"Fuck," muttered Bill walking past.
"Why so glum?" I asked in a deep voice, running to catch up with him.
"Our photographer just quit, had a family emergency that's going to take up months of his time."
"Oh," I frowned. "That's shit."
"Yeah, who're we going to find in one day, honestly?" Bill was pretty annoyed, and my mind quickly jumped around, thinking of a solution.
"Lightbulb!" I yelled into his ear. "I know of someone."
"Who?"
"You'll find out," I ran back to the bus without another word.

Hmm I bet you know who it is :D
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I awoke, hitting my head on the bunk above me. I wasn't sure if I'd ever get used to the fact that the bunks were so small. Whenever I sprung up out of bed, I always hit my head, and felt ridiculous after doing so.
I had the same dream about her, the one where I was playing a show and saw her, right there in the crowd.
As I lay there, I started thinking deeper about it. I realized, with a rapidly beating heart, that I had seen her. She had been there, at the show.
Before I had time to think any further, my bunk curtain swung to the side, revealing blinding sunlight and Bill behind it.
I closed my eyes and slapped his face, ignoring the groans that followed.
"Well good morning, sunshine," grinned Bill as I opened my eyes slowly, allowing the sunlight to creep into my burning corneas.
"Geez, bro," I muttered, forcing myself to get up.
"Day off," The Butcher yelled in my ear.
"Yeah," I replied mindlessly, getting a bowl of Lucky Charms.
"Dude, not all the Lucky Charms," whined The Butcher.
"There's a whole bowl left, bro."
He shook the box and raised his eyebrows at me.
"Right," he exaggerated, flopping down on Carden's lap. "This whole tour is ruined now."
"How about I go shopping for you, and buy you a box all your own?"
He simply raised his eyebrows and pouted his lips.
"Okay, I'll make you a deal. A box of Lucky Charms and Reese's Puffs for this bowl of cereal," I offered.
He huffed, and looked to Bill.
"Sounds like a good deal, man," said Bill, sucking air in.
"Deal," Butcher said, with a large sarcastic grin plastered across his face.
"What are we doing today?" asked Chiz suddenly.
"Well, cereal shopping," I offered.
"And checking out Virginia in all it's glory."
"Well let's do it, brother!" yelled Butcher, jumping up and clapping his hands.

I followed Amy into Food Lion, rolling my eyes as she skipped down the aisles.
"Let's get Doritos!" she suddenly turned and said a little loudly.
"We're here to get groceries for my mom, that's it, chica," I said, walking past her with a grin on my face.
"Weeeeeell, your parents are paying, aren't they?" she grinned maliciously.
"Mhm, and we're not spending all of their money, either," I shook my head.
"Ohh, Ella we have to get cereal. We haveeee to," she groaned tugging on my hand.
"You look like a little child right now," I pulled my hand from her, unable to hold back a grin.
"So? I want Cap'n Crunch!"
I sighed, weighing the options: giving Amy her way and buying a single box of cheap cereal or being mean and refusing. I wanted to be mean, but couldn't force myself.
"Alright, alright. One box," I laughed as she pulled me through the store. As she bent down to tie her All Star's loose laces, I turned the corner to the aisle, bumping into a tall, slender figure.
"Oh shit," I muttered a little too loudly, looking up.
I smiled, then looked down the aisle. My heart fell, and I looked back at the figure I'd just bumped into.
He looked back at me, realizing I was still standing there, then his face dropped slightly. Neither of us said a word until I heard another voice I knew so well.
"Ella Southers," said William, opening his arms to a hug. I quickly walked over to him, allowing his arms to wrap around me.
"Oh my gosh, you guys, wow," I muttered, my words barely coming out right. I noticed Jack standing not too far off, and quickly hugged him.
"Jack Edinger, oh wow."
"Like a little high school reunion," he laughed.
"What the hell, Ell? Ha, I rhymed," Amy muttered, walking around the corner, shoe in hand. Her mouth closed as she noticed the group of boys I was talking to.
"Oh... hi," she said, waving her hand, shoe and all.
"Uh, this is Amy. My great, and slightly, crazy, bestfriend," I laughed, scratching my head. I caught his glance, and my heart rate took a plunge, as if I'd just fallen off a cliff.
A small smile spread across his lips, his eyes sparkling.
"So, uh," Bill broke the silence, glancing nervously between Adam and I. "This is Mike Carden, of course, you've met him before, yeah?" I nodded, exchanging awkward smiles with Mike.
"And this," Bill clapped his hand on the back of the long haired boy. "Is Michael Guy Chislett, our lead guitar."
"Hello, nice to meet you," he smiled, and I noticed his accent. Either Australia or New Zealand, but I couldn't quite place it.
"And this crazy dude is The Butcher, our drummer," the boy smiled, and I noticed the extremely cool tattoos plastered across his chest and arms.
"So... aren't you guys on tour?" I asked, allowing a laugh to escape.
"Well, yeah, but," The Butcher began, looking to Bill.
"Sisky and Butcher made a deal and, uh, Sisky's here to buy some cereal."
I glanced at Sisky just long enough for my chest to explode, then I looked back to Bill.
Amy spoke up, and I was honestly surprised she'd kept quiet this long.
"I'm Amy, yeah. And we're here to buy food too, only Ell here won't let me buy anything except a ratty box of cereal because her parents are paying," she said.
I rolled my eyes, grinning.
"Oh yeah? Well, damn. Chosen a brand yet?" Bill asked, motioning to the wall of colorful, cardboard boxes on either side of us.
"Cap'n Crunch," Amy replied, grabbing the largest box in sight.
"Well we were actually aiming for Lucky Charms and Reese's Puffs," Sisky said, surprising me with his sudden outburst.
I looked at him and cracked a small smile, "You always liked Lucky Charms."
"Yeah," he replied, looking into my eyes, "yeah they're my favorite."
"As well as Fruit Gushers, but only the red kind," I said, not taking my eyes off him.
"I was addicted," he laughed.
"I almost had an intervention."
"That would've been interesting."
"Imagine Baby's reaction," I said quietly.
My heart felt like it was pumping either much too slowly, or too fast to even feel it, because I felt light headed and drowsy.
I hated that, even after all this time, he still had this effect on me.
I hated that after all this time, I knew I still loved the guy.

So this is the new story! Obviously, it's about my good friend, Adam T. Siska :D
The name is perfect, I do believe. I was surprised you didn't figure it out.
Things will get deeper and better explained, but this is just the first chapter.
Please comment if you like it, although you don't have much to go by yet. 
Much love;

Although this is only chapter 4 I can proudly say that I'm loving where this story is going. To all that read it, THANK YOU! I'm not sure how many chapters there's going to be but I can promise you that I will at least write up until after the Bogus Journey tour. Now, CHAPTER 4 OF UNEXPECTED PLACES!

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The ride to the hotel was...different from what the guys were used to. First, Sisky was not being obnoxious and annoying like he always is. Instead, he was a bit quiet since he was listening to Lily talk and only speaking when prompted. Second, William (or anyone else for that matter) wasn’t yelling at Sisky to shut the fuck up; this was mostly due to the fact that he and Victoria were deep in conversation. They don't even notice when someone else in the van looks back at them and gives them a look.

After arriving at the hotel, William and Sisky decided to show the girls to their room.

“We’re right next to you girls, ok?” Sisky said.

“So if you need anything just go ahead and knock,” William said then he and Sisky left.

After the two guys had left the room, Victoria collapsed onto her bed. She saw Lily do the same out of the corner of her eye. Victoria turned her head so she could see her friend and said, “Are we the luckiest girls ever or what?”

“Hell yeah!” Lily said, grinning at her friend.

Later that night there was a knock on their door. Lily got up from her bed and went to answer it. She let out a gasp and quickly returned to where the beds were.

“What’s wrong?” Victoria asked, getting up from her bed.

“Well, um…uh….” Lily fumbled.

Victoria let out a sigh and went to answer the door. She opened it and was shocked to see William and Sisky standing there. She took one look at them and saw that they were dressed up a bit. She then took a moment to look herself over. Victoria was wearing her favorite blue striped pajamas and fuzzy slippers.

“Hey Tori, we were wondering if you and Lily would like to join us for dinner?” William asked as Sisky tried to suppress a chuckle.

Victoria shot Sisky a deathly glare before looking at William. “Sure,” she said, smiling. “Just give us like….30 minutes?”

“Sure,” he said, returning the smile. “See you in half an hour girls.” Then he and Sisky returned to their own room.

Victoria closed the door then ran over to her friend.

“Get dressed,” Victoria ordered. “Now.”

After the girls were ready for their “date” the boys came back and were surprised at how amazing the two girls looked.

“Well?” Victoria asked.

“You look….wow,” William breathed.

Victoria giggled then stepped forward and entwined her arm with his. William gladly obliged then looked at his friend and said, “Shall we?” Sisky nodded and offered his arm to Lily, who gladly took it. The two couples then proceeded to make their way to the elevator then down to the hotel restaurant.

The couples sat across from each other (Victoria across from William and Lily across from Sisky) and talked as they waited to order. Victoria and Lily found out that William and Sisky had known each other since William was 15 and Sisky was 13. It shocked them a bit but it also made the girls understand their relationship more.

“So how long have you two known each other?” Sisky asked, sipping on his soda since he was too young to drink.

“Hmm…..about, what? Since I was 17 and you were 15?” Victoria asked.

“Yeah, that sounds about right,” Lily agreed.

“So you two are also two years apart?” William asked, intrigued.

“Yup,” Lily said. “Actually, Tori is the same age as you William and I’m the same age as you Sisky.”

“Oh really?” the boys asked in unison.

“Yes,” Victoria said. “Lily’s birthday is actually two months after yours Sisky.”

“Yeah?” Sisky asked as he looked at Lily.

“Yup. So you’re older than me by two months,” Lily said, smiling.

Sisky grinned then said, “Good to know. Can’t wait to use that against you later.”

Lily smirked at the boy in front of her and said, “I’d like to see you try.”

William and Victoria laughed at their friends. Since the first night they met, Sisky and Lily seemed to always want to one up the other. It was fun to watch and the couple seemed to have fun trying to figure out how to one up the other.

After dinner the couples decided to go for a walk, and after a few minutes of walking together as a group, Sisky and Lily decided to part ways with William and Victoria for a bit. The older couple made no protest and waved good bye to their friends.

After walking around aimlessly for a bit, William found a bench and he and Victoria sat down on it. At first, it was uncomfortable between them, but when Victoria looked up at William, she couldn’t help but get lost in his beautiful brown eyes.

“Victoria,  I like you,” William began. “Like, really like you and um…w…well I g..guess w..what I’m t…t..trying to say is –“

“William, it would be an honor to be your girlfriend,” Victoria said, smiling up at the stuttering boy in front of her.

William’s face lit up suddenly and he returned the smile. It wasn’t until their noses were touching that Victoria realized that they had slowly been moving towards each other. When their lips met, fireworks, bells, and whistles went off. It felt like the night at the pizza parlor….had that really only been the day before?

After the kiss, the couple grinned at each other then laughed. They now shared a sort of secret joke. It was theirs and no one else’s.

“Shall we head back to the hotel now?” William asked.

“I suppose so,” Victoria replied.

William stood up then extended his hand to her. Victoria took it and William pulled her up. He held her next to him the rest of the walk back to the hotel. Victoria loved the way she just seemed to fit right into William’s arms and side, like they were meant to be. William loved the way Victoria’s skin seemed to brush against his. He also loved the way she just seemed to fit right in his arms. It made him smile the entire walk back to the hotel.

"Wakey wakey lovebirds!" a familiar voice called from the doorway.

Victoria and William turned their heads to see Sisky and Lily holding cups of coffee and plates with breakfast.

"We decided to make coffee and breakfast," Sisky said as he handed William and Victoria each a plate and Lily handed them each a cup of coffee.

"Thanks!" Victoria said, taking her plate and coffee eagerly .

"You really didn't have to do this," William said as he took a sip of his coffee.

"Yes I did," Lily said. "It's my way of thanking you for letting Tori and I staying the night."

"It was no big deal," William said, shrugging.

"Either way, thanks," Lily said as she and Sisky sat down on the other bed and beagn to eat.

After breakfast the four took their dishes down to the kitchen. Victoria and Lily were surprised to see that no one was home. When they asked, William said that his parents were out and about, his sister was going to school in California and his little brother was at a friend's house.

"So, now what?" Sisky asked.

"Well, don't you guys have to pack and get ready for your flight to New York?" Victoria asked.

"Already taken care of," William said.

"Really?" Victoria said.

"Yup," William smirked.

"How about we go play a round of bowling?" Lily suggested.

"Yes!" Sisky agreed. "And we should play on teams!"

"Yeah!" Lily exclaimed. "That would make it more fun!"

"I call Lily!" Sisky said, putting an arm around Lily's shoulder.

William and Victoria looked at each and shrugged. They were perfectly okay with being on the same team, and kicking their best friends butts in the process.

After a few hours of bowling, Lily and Sisky insisted on rematches, the girls realized that William and Sisky needed to head to the airport. After returning their bowling shoes, they headed back to William's place where William and Sisky grabbed their bags then Victoria and Lily dropped them off at the airport.

"Tori, will you come see us in New York?" William asked.

"Um, I'll try," she said. "Plane tickets are kind of expens--"

"I'll pay for it," William interrupted. "Just say you'll come."

"Ok," Victoria said, not even bothering to argue with him. "I have an early class tomorrow. Any time after 11 is good."

"So, Noon?" he said, grinning.

"Noon works," she said, returning the grin.

William placed a kiss on Victoria's forehead then the two boys and two girls departed ways, for now at least. As Victoria and Lily got back in the car, Lily bombarded her friend with questions.

"Stop talking so fast Lily!" Victoria said as she drove back to their place.

"Sorry," Lily said. "I guess I'm just excited. I mean, who knew that William Becktt and Adam Siska of TAI would go for girls like us?"

"Yeah," Victoria said faintly. "Who knew?" And suddenly her mind was filled with thoughts of William, especially of the kiss they shared the previous night.

"TORI!" Lily suddenly shouted, pulling Victoria from her thoughts. Victoria was shocked to see that she had almost cause an accident....guess that's what happens when you dream about a cute guy while driving, Victoria though sheepishly.

After the almost-accident, Lily decided it was better for her to drive so Victoria pulled to the curb and they switched. After arriving back home to their apartment Victoria was shocked to see a package from her mother.

"What's that?" Lily asked, looking at the box.

"Something from my mother," Victoria mumbled as she picked it up and walked inside.

Once inside the tiny living room space she set the box on the floor and opened it up to see it full of photo albums and other little trinkets. There was also a note. Victoria read it to herself then smirked as she handed it to Lily to read. After Lily read it she placed the note on the coffee table in the living room then helped Victoria go through it.

"Wow," Lily said after looking through a third photo album full of pictures of Victoria and a previous boyfriend. "Why did she decide to send these now?"

"Hell if I know," Victoria said as she shoved everything back into the box. "Probably because Troy is bugging her. God! When is he ever going to learn? I. don't. like. him!"

"God, he's such an idot," Lily agreed. "Besides, you have William now."

"Lily," her friend began, "I do not "have" William, ok?"

"Oh really?" the dirty blond smirked. "Cause with the way you two have been acting--"

"What about you and Sisky? Huh?" Victoria asked, wanting to keep the topic of dating off of her.

"Um..well...I...I'm not sure," Lily said sadly.

Victoria sighed then looked at the box in front of her. She stood up then grabbed the box full of crap and looked down at her one and only friend. "C'mon, let's go burn this shit somewhere." Lily looked up at her friend and smiled. 

The two girls left the apartment and headed somewhere deserted, somewhere where they wouldn't get in trouble for doing what they were about to do. They grinned at each other as the pile of photo albums and other things created flames of dancing fire. After what seemed like hours the two returned to the apartment and decided to head to bed since both had early classes in the morning, as well as a plane ride.

"Hurry the fuck up Lillian!" Victoria screamed to her friend from across campus. More than half the students turned to look at her but she didn't care. Victoria was on a mission this morning. After the bell had rung she had dashed to meet her friend at their usual meeting spot before heading to the apartment to grab their bags then head to the airport.

"Calm down! I'm walking as fast as I can!" Lily shouted, frustrated that her best friend has just called her by her full name. "Happy?" she asked as she and Victoria walked to her car.

"Very," Victoria replied, smiling.

"Someone's excited!" Lily said, teasing her best friend as she unlocked her car.

"So?" the brunette responded. "I know you're just as excited as me!"

"And your point is?" Lily said as she started the car and pulled out of her space and out of the parking lot.

The trip to the apartment was quick, as was grabbing what they needed and leaving behind what they didn't. They quickly made their way to the airport then checked in, just barely managing to catch their flight. On the flight from Chicago to New York, Victoria slept while Lily did what she did best when she was bored, doodled. After the plane landed and they had grabbed their bags from the overhead compartment, they headed off the plane and made their way to baggage claim, where they were going to pick up their other suitcases before meeting up with the guys.

As they were waiting to grab their bags, Victoria heard someone call her name. She quickly looked over to see William and the rest of the guys waving at her. She turned back around then face-palmed herself for her stupidity. Victoria quickly turned back around and waved at them. William made a gesture saying that they would wait for them outside. Victoria gave him a thumb ups then the five guys quickly headed outside.

Once the girls had their suitcases, they quickly made their way outside, only to see that the boys were no where to be found. Victoria stared at Lily and she stared back. Had they really been ditched by five guys that they thought they could trust? Suddenly, a pair of long, lanky arms were wrapping around Victoria's waist, pulling her backwards. She would have screamed and kicked and hollered, ahd she not known that the owner of the arms was none other than William Beckett. That was when the rest of the guys appeared. Sisky, pulled Lily into a hug and placed a kiss on her cheek.

"Ready to go?" The Butcher asked.

"Go where?" Lily asked.

"To the hotel then you're going to hang out with us while we do a photoshoot," Sisky explained, wrapping an arm around Lily's waist.

"Very nice," she replied, smiling up at the dirty blond.

"How was you're flight?" William asked as he took Victoria's suitcase from her hands and headed towards the van that was waiting for them.

"Good," Victoria replied, following him. "I slept for most of it."

"Haha," William chuckled. "Sounds like something I might do."

Victoria laughed with him then they all piled into the van; The Butcher driving, Mike riding shotgun, Michael in the middle with Sisky and Lily, and William and Victoria in the back.

Chapter 33 ... Elliott

After two weeks I drove the car in front of our house and sat up. I slammed the door shut. It was raining and I had a hold tight of the plastic bag I had in my hands.

“Oh sweetie, you’re all wet,” Bill said when I was inside. He smiled and hugged me tightly. He had to be strong for me, all the time. I felt sorry for him. I had done all of these things to him and I don’t know if I will ever make it up from him.

“I’m gonna do it right away,” I said and took my pregnancy tests from the bag.

“Okay,” Bill nodded. We read the instruction together before I walked in the bathroom.

“Bill? Would you come here, please?” I yelled to him. I sat on the toilet and I had the test in my shaky hands. William came in and kneeled on my level.

“It says we need to wait five minutes,” I said. William sat on the floor and leaned his head on the wall. I came to sit next to him. He put his arm around my shoulders and I leaned my head on his shoulder.

He looked at his phones clock.

“Let’s see,” he said and sat up.

I pulled my eyes shut.

“It’s positive,” he said after a while. A smile spread on his face. “We’re gonna be parents.”

My eyes got wide. “I’m gonna do it again after a while. Let me see that.”

William gave the test to me and kissed my cheek.

“That’s amazing,” I said.

“It can’t be that bad,” William sneered and I wrapped my arms around him.

“We’re gonna be great parents,” he smiled.

“Well I’m not sure about that,” I laughed.

On that day, I made three tests and they all proved that I was pregnant. I couldn’t really describe my feelings. First, I felt really confused. I wasn’t ready to be a mum and this all came too fast. But I knew I didn’t have to worry, because after all, it wasn’t that bad. I knew that some day I would become a mother, and this was the day it happened. And Bill was the one I could ever imagine to have a baby with.

After I did those three tests, we both called to our own parents. We didn’t say anything about the broken condom, we just said that we are having a baby and we are both happy about it.

“That was weird,” William laughed after he had talked with his mother.

“Yeah,” I said laughing. I lied myself on the couch and Bill came to sit with me.

“After eight months I’m going to have huge boobs, huge thighs, huge stomach, huge feet and a huge ass. What do you think about that?” I giggled.

“I like it,” he smiled and leaned in to kiss me on the lips.

“I’ll ask that again after those eight months,” I laughed.

“I like big boobs,” Bill smirked.

“Shut up,” I giggled and pushed his face away.

Nine months later

We got engaged after three months from the day when I got pregnant. But then we started fighting. We fought from every little thing. Bill’s shirt on the floor, my food plates in the living room. It started to be ridiculous and I wanted to have my own life. But he knew that I needed him more than anything and we still loved each other. We had our good moments too. Sometimes I just got really pissed up and Bill was getting used to it.

I was lying on the couch, watching TV behind my huge stomach. Elliott’s room was ready and I was supposed to go to the hospital tomorrow. I felt nervous about it. All these imagines from a beautiful baby boy we had in our heads would become real tomorrow. His name was going to be Elliott Beckett. It felt good to say it out loud.

Things between Gabe and I were okay now. Gabe was going to be his god father and he was best friends with Bill again.

I stood up from the couch and slowly walked to the fridge.

“Bill?” I yelled to him. He was sitting at the table with his laptop.

“Mmh?” he mumbled.

“We don’t have any milk, would you please go and get it?” I said and sat down in front of him. He didn’t move his look from the laptop’s screen.

“Bill?” I said again.

“Yeah, hold on a second,” he said.

“Bill, I’m serious,” I said staring at him.

“Why do you need milk right now?” he asked frustrated.

“Because I want porridge,” I whined. Bill sighed and stood up.

“Let’s make something else. The stores are already closed,” he said and glanced at his watch.

“Do we have chocolate?” I asked, rummaging through the cupboards.

“You’re eating a lot, have you noticed?” Bill said with a smirk.

“I’m not eating a lot and shut your mouth,” I said when I found a chocolate bar.

I heard Bill’s laugh from the kitchen as I sat down on the couch.

I couldn’t get any sleep that night and when I finally fell asleep, I woke up again.

“What the fuck?” I said and pulled up my blanket. My sheets were wet.

“William,” I whispered, jolting him awake. His eyes shot open immediately.

“What? Is it coming?” he said and stood quickly up.

“No, but my water broke. Let’s go to the hospital,” I said.

“Oh, okay,” he said and helped me to stand up.

I had my bag already packed and I just quickly changed my clothes and Bill carried my bag in the car.

“I’m nervous,” I said as we drove to the hospital.

“It’s going to be okay,” Bill said with a smile and rubbed my leg. I rested my hand on my stomach and took a deep breathe.

“He’s kicking like crazy,” I whined when we were walking down the hall to the hospital room. I mean, Bill was walking. They had put me in a wheel chair and it felt weird to sit in that and some nurse pushed me and I just sat there and didn’t do anything. William was walking there next to me and smiled. He took my hand in his and I squeezed it like a crazy.

“I feel so nervous,” I whispered.

“Relax,” he smiled. Two nurses tried to lift me up from the chair, but I gave them an angry glance.

“I can still walk for god’s sake, even though I am pregnant,” I snorted and stood up from the wheel chair. I sat back down on one of the beds.

After couple hours they told me that the baby was ready to come out.

“Finally!” I sighed. It was starting to feel very uncomfortable.

They took my bed and carried me into the surgery room. I was yelling like crazy because it hurt so much. William just held my hand and whispered in my ear “it’s gonna be okay” every now and then. It made me feel relaxed, just to hear his voice.

“Adam and Cassadee are here,” he said and sat down next to me.

“What? Oh god I want to see Cassadee now!” I said. I was sweating and they told me to spread my legs.

“Fuck no!” I said with a laugh.

“Allie, just do what they tell you to do,” William said in a calm voice.

“Oh so the baby can come out,” I said, laughing to myself. How stupid I was.

“Okay, are you ready then?” the doctor asked. I nodded nervously.

They told me to push and I pushed, I did everything I could.

“I don’t feel too good,” I said but my voice came out in a whisper.

“Doctor,” Bill said as he saw my eyes getting closed.

“Push,” the doctor said.

“I don’t know if she’s alright,” Bill said, looking at me concerned. The sound from the monitor stopped beeping and my eyelids started to feel heavy. I felt dizzy and I was going to throw up.

“Sir, you must leave,” I heard one of the nurses saying to Bill.

“No,” I whispered, but no voice came out from my mouth. I tried to move my hand but I couldn’t.

William walked into the waiting room, tears in his eyes. Cassadee sat up immediately.

“What’s going on?” she asked shocked. Bill took a deep breathe.

“I-I don’t know,” he stuttered frightened. He sat down on one of the chairs and buried his face in his hands. Adam rubbed his back.

“She just said that she wasn’t feeling well and then her eyes went close and the monitor stopped beeping and…” William explained and burst into tears.

After about an hour the doctor walked into the room. William lifted his look on him. The doctor took a deep breathe and stared at him.

“I’m sorry; your wife’s heart has stopped. But the baby is okay.”

Some nurse ran down the hallway and yelled to him.

“Dr. Carlson, wait! Something happened!”

The Author is an option. SERIOUSLY! The Author!!!!

so wish I could go but there better be videos if they play that please

Chapter 32 ... The barbeque

We arrived at Pete’s and Ashlee’s house at six. I had never been there and I was amazed how beautiful their house was. They were all gathered outside.

“Hi guys, glad you could make it,” Pete smiled and hugged us both with an apron on. I think he was our cook for tonight. There was whole Fall Out Boy with their girlfriends and some guys I didn’t know. Cassadee hadn’t arrived yet, neither Sisky.

We sat down at the table and Ashlee was sitting with us. William went to talk with the guys, while I talked with Ashlee for a while. Finally Cassadee appeared on the door.

“I’m sorry I’m so late,” she gasped. “I just got back from a photo shoot and I’m exhausted! Give me something to eat!”

“Hold on, Cassie,” Pete smirked. “Only five more minutes.”

“Great,” she said and sat down next to me. I moved my look on her.

“I know, I look horrible,” she sighed. I started to laugh.

“You look great, hun,” Ashlee smiled.

“Where’s Adam?” she asked, looking around.

“I don’t know,” I said wondering. “He hasn’t arrived yet, I guess.”

“I hope he won’t come,” Cassadee said. “I’m not in the right mood to talk with him.”

“Why not?”

“Because-“ Cassadee started, but then we saw Adam on the backyards door. He searched for Cassadee’s face and when he saw her, his mouth fell into a wide smile.

“Aww,” I whispered. Cassadee elbowed me on my side. I just giggled, but then my smile faded away. After Adam, I saw Gabe coming from the door. My whole body started to shake, but Cassadee grabbed my arm and told me to calm down. I went into a shock. All those memories got back in my head again.

He came with some blonde girl. I think she was his girlfriend or something.

“Sorry we’re late, our flight was pretty late,” he gave Pete a smirk. He ignored me totally.

“This is my girlfriend Stacey,” he said to all of us. She gave us a shy smile.

“Hi, I’m the one who almost fucked your boyfriend and cheated her own boyfriend.”

I was glad I didn’t say that out loud, even though I wanted. Bill came to sit next to me and smiled to me warmly. That made me relax and I forgot Gabe and his girlfriend.

“I love you, sweetie,” he said and placed a gentle kiss on my lips, holding my hand. I guess he just wanted to make sure I was okay.

“You didn’t tell me that he was coming too,” I whispered quickly in his ear when our lips parted.

“I didn’t know he was coming,” he whispered back.

Our eyes met. Gabe looked first at Bill, and then he looked at me. His eyes got wide, but he moved his look quickly away.

The whole evening felt really awkward. I took a couple drinks and the food was good, but I couldn’t stop thinking about Gabe. I tried to act normal, but William noticed it, so he tried to make me feel better. We all sat around the table, talking and laughing.

Luckily Gabe left with his girlfriend after couple hours. I felt more relaxed after that. We were supposed to spend the night at Pete’s and Ashlee’s place.

I didn’t drink much alcohol. My last drunk was at Gabe’s birthday party, and after that I decided that I would not drink alcohol ever again.

After midnight we decided to go to sleep. We slept in a guest room. All the others continued partying, but I wondered where Cassadee and Adam were.

“Is Adam staying here for the night?” I asked from Bill when we were walking up the stairs.

“I don’t think so,” he said and hiccupped. “Whoopsie,” he grinned.

“Are you drunk Mr. Beckett?” I asked laughing.

“Not much. You know why?” he asked with a sly smile. We were now in the guest room and he took slowly steps, pushing me backwards. “I was going to say about this to you last week, but I didn’t get a chance… so, I was thinking that maybe…”

I fell on the bed and he came on top of me, kissing my neck.

“Are you sure you’re not too drunk?” I asked. “We are in your friend’s guest room right now.”

Bill let out a laugh. “I know we’re ready for this.”

“Maybe,” I smiled and started to unbutton his shirt.

I’m not gonna tell you every little detail about it, because I’m sure everybody knows how that ended.

I was sweating and my heart was beating fast. William rolled on my side and he had a smile on his face.

“Are you happy now?” I giggled. He moved his look on me and placed a kiss on my lips. He wrapped my arms around me and I closed my eyes.

“I love you,” he whispered in my ear. A smile spread on my face.

“I love you too,” I whispered back. William stood up from the bed and put his boxers back on.

“I’ll be right back,” he said in the darkness and disappeared. I felt so tired that I fell asleep before he came back.

I woke up when he rubbed my arm.

“Allie? Wake up,” he said quietly. I slowly got my eyes open. I saw his face and my eyes got wide.

“What?” I asked.

He moved his look away and ran his hand through his hair.

“I think… that the condom we used…” he said awkwardly. I swallowed hardly.

“Did it break?” I asked frightened. He looked at me and nodded.

“But… but I didn’t feel anything,” I said in a shock, my eyes widened. My head started spinning and I couldn’t see anything. I burst into tears.

“I’m so sorry,” Bill said and wrapped his arms tightly around me. I leaned my head on his arms and cried in silence.

“I’m not ready to be a mum yet,” I said through my tears. “Why does these things always seem to happen to me?”

William hushed and moved my body slowly to make me calm down.

“Are you sure it broke?” I asked quietly.

“Yeah,” he sighed. “I’m so sorry. We shouldn’t have done this now.”

“It’s not your fault,” I said and lifted my look on him. “We are in this together, right?”

“Of course we are. We can do this,” he said in a calm voice.

“What happens to your career?” I asked, tears running down my cheeks. William wiped them away.

“We’re gonna have a little break. I’m sure they will understand,” he said and kissed the top of my nose.

“I don’t even know if I am pregnant. I need to do a test first,” I said.

“Let’s think about that later,” he sighed. He lied me down on the bed and moved slowly his hand on my hair. He pulled the blanket over us both and kissed my neck. My whole body was shaking, but I tried to control myself. I can do this. We can do this. We are in this together. The man I love and he loves me.

GUESS WHAT?! OMG, two chapters left! I finally got this finished, so yay! I'm not really sure about the ending though... But I had to think about you guys and you would hate me if... well you'll get to know it later. ;)

I'm happy that I got this finished just before my school started, because school is keeping me quite busy and when I come back to home, I'm like super tired. But I promise, I'll keep posting as much as possible!

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Chapter 31 – “Me and Adam together”

I slowly opened my eyes and rolled on my side. I loved the smell from the sheets. I curled back under the blanket and yawned. I had slept almost twelve hours, but I was still tired. We came home yesterday night and went straight into bed.

“Good morning honey,” William said smiling, poking his head from the door.

“Morning,” I smiled tiredly.

“I made some breakfast, just if you’re interested,” he smiled.

“I’ll be there in a minute,” I mumbled and closed my eyes again. He laughed and closed the door again. I couldn’t get sleep anymore, so I stood up and decided to take a quick shower.

When I walked in the kitchen, I smelled coffee and eggs. I smiled all the way in there.

“Look who it is,” William said with a huge smile on his face. I saw Cassadee sitting at the table. She lifted her head up and our eyes locked. Those brown eyes brought back so many memories. 

I had tears in my eyes. She quickly stood up and stepped closer to me.

“Oh I missed you so much,” she said after she had wrapped her arms around me.

“I missed you too,” I mumbled, swallowing my tears.

“I am so happy that you finally decided to get back together. I thought that we would never see each other again,” Cassadee said excited. I smiled and we sat down at the table.

“I know, I thought so too,” I said smirking. William stayed quiet and gave me a cup of coffee. He sat down too and stared at me.

“Never stop believing,” he smirked. I sneered and moved my look on my hands.

“That’s a good advice…” Cassadee sighed. “Because I stopped believing.”

I looked at her. “What’s wrong?”

“I don’t know. I think I’m going crazy or something. We just got back from the tour and I am like so tired. I’m tired of thinking about him. You know what I mean?” she said and took a sip from her coffee. “I made a mistake for running away like that. I’m a coward.”

“What? What are you talking about?” Bill asked confused. I laughed and looked at him.

“You just don’t know anything,” I shook my head.

“Yeah, because no one ever tells me,” he snorted.

“Adam. I can’t stop… Oh dear god why am I talking about this when Bill hears everything?” she laughed, shaking her head.

“Oh that’s okay, I’m excited to hear more,” he smirked. I looked at him for a while, and he got the sign.

“Well alright,” he sighed and stood up from the chair. “Will you at least tell me when you guys are getting married?”

I laughed and hit him with a newspaper.

“I’m going, I’m going!” he whined and walked in the living room.

“I’m so jealous because you guys are so happy together,” Cassadee sighed.

“Oh shut up,” I smiled. “I talked with Adam. Cassie, you should really talk to him. I don’t want to be part of your problems.”

“You talked with him? What did he say?” she asked excited.

“This is what I’m talking about,” I sighed.

“Just tell me!” she begged.

“Well, he’s thinking about you…”

“And…?” she asked impatiently.

“And he wants to call you. He wants to talk with you. He was really confused when I talked with him. I think he’s in love with you, Cas,” I said with a wide smile. Cassadee’s eyes got wide and she stared at me for a moment.

“I’m gonna call him,” she said and quickly sat up from the chair. “I’m gonna call him. Right now!”

“Go for it, honey,” I laughed as she walked in the bedroom with a phone on her ear.

“So Adam and Cassadee, huh?” William giggled when he walked back in the kitchen.

“You sneaky little…” I laughed and put my arms on the table, leaning my head on them.

“Aww but that’s so sweet,” he smiled.

“Isn’t it? You need to stop teasing Adam, Bill. He’s heartbroken,” I said.

“Not anymore if Cassadee’s calling him,” he said laughing. “Why didn’t I ever see that?” he asked bemused, leaning his head on his hand.

“That he likes her?”

“Yeah, I mean… Why didn’t he say anything about it?”

“Maybe he’s afraid. Poor guy… He must be out of his mind because of her,” I giggled.

“Then you have no idea how out of my mind I was every time we had a fight,” he laughed and leaned back on the chair.

“Oh yes I know,” I sighed. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder and leaned his forehead on mine.

“Do you know what I was thinking?” he asked smiling.

“No, I don’t,” I grinned.

“I was thinking, that maybe tonight…” he started, but at the same time Cassadee ran into the kitchen.

“Oh my god!” she squealed. Then she frozen and took a deep breathe.

“Well, what did he say?” William asked smirking.

“He said that…. he likes me. That’s what he said. He really likes me,” she said, her eyes glazed.

“Go on, dear,” I smiled. She shook her head and came back to sit with us.

“Have you heard that Pete’s having a barbeque next weekend?” she asked.

“No, we haven’t. Are we invited?” William asked confused.

“I think so. Adam said that if we are coming in there tomorrow, then Adam and I can talk and stuff,” she explained.

“Talk and stuff?” I giggled.

“Shut up, Allie,” Cassadee laughed and put her head in her hands. “I’m all confused right now.”

“Oh we totally understand,” William laughed.

“No you don’t,” she whined. “You guys need to stop being like that.”

“I’m sorry,” I laughed. “It just feels so…”

“Unbelievable? I know!” Cassadee said with a weak laugh. “Me and Adam together.”

“I guess I need to understand, because I am a man. I don’t see things like you do,” William laughed.

“Just be happy for them, alright?” I laughed my hand on his shoulder.

“That’s easy. I think I can do that,” he smirked.

Chapter 30 ... There’s always a second chance

“I love this house, dad! Please, please, I want to move in here!” she begged, almost kneeling in front of him. She danced around the house and opened the window.

“Look at this view! The city is just in front of us,” she said, poking her head out of the window.

“I will do whatever you want if you would just let me move in here! Allie, show me the closet,” she said, walking towards the bedroom. I followed her into the bedroom with Callie holding my hand and opened the closet door.

“That’s pretty small,” she said with a sound of disappointment. “But that’s not a problem at all.” Stephen and mum walked in and Stephen looked around.

“Are you sure you will now stay in Chicago, Allie? You’re not coming back anymore?” he asked.

“I’m one hundred and twenty percents sure,” I said smiling.

“Oh honey,” mum said with a smile. “You seem to be so happy about it.” She walked over to me and gave me a big hug.

“Just remember to keep in touch,” Stephen smiled.

“Hey guys! Hello! What about me? I need this house!” Debra whined.

“Dad, when will I get my own house?” Callie asked, staring deep in her dad’s eyes. Stephen sneered and rubbed his forehead.

“Let’s talk about that later, darling,” he smiled and walked back in the kitchen.

“Where’s all your stuff, Allie?” Debra asked, still looking in the closet.

“They’re already in the tour bus,” I smiled.

“Are you touring with them again?” mum asked and sat down on the couch.

“No, we are going straight back to Chicago with William. That’s best for both of us,” I said and ran my hand through my hair.

“Do you mind if I move in here, Allie?” Debra asked carefully.

“I think you really want this, so go ahead,” I smiled. “It was first my idea, so I won’t turn back now.” Debra smiled and then turned his look on his dad. He looked at her and then his face melted into a tensed smile.

“Let’s go and get your stuff from home.”

Debra squealed and first she attacked to me and wrapped her arms around me. Then she hugged Stephen, then mum and then Callie.

The rest of the day we helped Debra to get her stuff into the house. Mum, Stephen and Callie left the house and so we and Debra were alone in the house.

“Debra… Before I leave, I just wanted to apologize. I have no idea why I give this apartment to you, but I guess that means that maybe I still like you somehow,” I said with an awkward smile.

“I appreciate this very much. And I’m sorry too. But I will change. I’m not the same Debra anymore,” she smirked.

“That’s good,” I laughed and wrapped my arms around her.

“Good luck,” I smiled and opened the door.

“Thank you. And good luck for you and William too. I knew that you guys were going to get back together someday,” she grinned.

“Hope we see again soon,” I said laughing and shut the door. I stepped down the stairs, and when I was outside the building, I started to scream and dance.

“Allie?” I heard a voice and frozen.

“Adam, hi,” I said awkwardly, clearing my throat.

“You seem to be happy,” he laughed.

“Oh, really? How did you guess that?” I asked sarcastically. My cheeks were blowing red.

“Nah, I just felt like it,” he said shrugging. I started to laugh and walked closer to him.

“Actually, I was looking for you. So this was the place you lived?”

“Yup,” I nodded.

“Cool. But hey, let’s go, Bill is waiting for us.”

“Yeah,” I smiled.

We were walking down the street and it was very awkward, because we didn’t speak a word.

Finally he opened his mouth.

“How well do you know Cassadee?” he asked carefully.

“Cassadee? Oh. I haven’t talked with her since the birthday party, so… I think she had changed her number or something. But I don’t know. I guess I know her pretty well. At least I knew.”

“I haven’t talked with her too since the birthday party. I think I made a big mistake. I think I was too offensive towards her,” he said, moving his look on the ground.

“She told me about it. No, you weren’t. You were just too slow. She likes you, I know that for sure. But she just freaked out,” I said with a quiet laugh. “I think she had never thought that it would actually happen.”

“Oh,” he mumbled.

“You should call her. I don’t know where she is right now or what she’s doing, but at least you should give it a try,” I smiled. We were now standing in front of the bus door.

“Maybe I should,” he said and a little smile appeared on his face. “Yeah, I think I will.”

“What’s going on?” asked a smiling face, when the door opened.

“William!” I yelled and ran into him. “I’m yours, finally!” I giggled and wrapped my arms around him.

He laughed and lifted me up on his arms.

“Oh I can’t even walk through your happiness,” Adam laughed and we had to step outside the bus so he could make his way in.

“Did Debra move in?” William asked, still holding me in his arms.

“Yup,” I said smiling.

“That’s great! Let’s go inside, it’s freezing out here. And you will meet the boys from This Providence.”

“Oh cool,” I said excited as we stepped in.

“Guys, this is my girlfriend Allie,” he announced to them. I felt a good, warm feeling in my stomach.

“Hi, Allie,” they all said in same time.

“Hi,” I said smiling. The tour bus wasn’t the same one they had on the summer tour. William smiled and took my hand. We walked in the bunks and sat on his bunk.

“Have you packed already?” I asked, looking around.

“Yeah, we are leaving now and heading to Chicago. This Providence will continue touring until it’s done, but there’s not much venues to go anymore.”

“You’ve planned it all out,” I sneered.

“Well, I had some time,” he smiled and lay down in his bunk. I ran my hand on his chest, and he pulled me closer to him and I lay down next to him, my head on his chest. I never thought that I could feel this feeling again, but now I felt it.

So umm, I have now three chapters after this, but it's not done yet. Maybe five chapters after this, but I'm not really sure about the ending. 

Oh and I still love comments, I wanna be sure if someone still reads this, sooo... let me know. :) I will start posting my new fanfic after this is done. It's called They Told Me To Believe In Fairytales, but you will hear more after this is done. Hope you're still interested.

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