joseph Blog and Journals

I dunno.  This whole internet hype is pretty confusing.
It is to me anyway.  No doubt, it is ridculously fun, but none the less confusing & amazing.

I mean, like, why do people spend half of their day in front of the screen updating?  Is your goal to end up like Jeffree Star and become famous?  If that's the case, then I'm sorry to say that less than 1/16 of you will end up like him.  It's not entirely about looks, unless you're striving to be a model, it also involves your skills and talents.

I apologize in advance.  I know that I'm coming off as an asshole.  However, that is not my intention, at all.  All that I'm doing at the moment is sharing my opinions with you while listening to Crime Mob. 

Also, I'm not trying to come off as if I believe i'm perfect and nothing can compare.  I am extremely far from perfect.  I drink, I smoke, and I do drugs.  Those are just three of my many flaws.  However, I dont plan on changing those flaws.  At least, not for the time being.  My flaws are what make me, me.  I'm also sorry to say that nobody is perfect.  Not a single being on this green earth that we all take advantage of with our hair spray cans, not even our beloved Jeffree Star.

I also dont get why we have to be scene, or emo, or preps, or whatever else we have thought up.  Why can't we all just be ourselves?  Why is sombody who wants to get into the 'scene' but fails miserably automatically labeled a poser?  None of it makes sense.  It doesn't make sense to me now, and I'm willing to bet my ass it wont make sense to me in twenty years.

Whatever, I'm just a boy with dreams that people constantly try to crush.  I dont know much about myself, I'm still finding myself; just like half of you that are actually reading this.  I'm still a kid at heart and at the same time, I am more mature than half of the people on this whole internet hype.  I idolize people for their flaws, it proves that they are real.  I have a hard time believing in God, but I am trying my best.  My insatiable thirst for knowledge will never be quenched.  i dont mean knowledge like high school science.  That shit is mediocre.  I mean life.  I plan to see the world and travel as much as possible.  I dont plan on going to college right out of high school.  i want to embrace as much culture and life and I possibly can.

My goal is to make you smile.

Now that we got that out of the way:
Hello, my name is Joseph.