Jared Leto Blog and Journals

“Crap, no darn bars!” Gabrielle mutters to herself.

She then heads off to the dressing room.

“He’s here again, mind of I borrow your phone Shan?” Gabrielle says walking in.

Tomo shakes his head while Shannon heads her his phone.

“Did he fallow you?” Jared asks her darkly.

“I donno, I don’t think so” Gabrielle says.

Jared then looks outside the door looking for him.

“Don’t worry, cops will be here in ten minutes to “straighten it out,” whatever that means” Gabrielle says now hanging up.

“Wow, you actually did call the cops” Emily said in a little bit of surprise.

“Yeah dude, I said I don’t wanna do this anymore, I’m done” Gabrielle says now sitting down next to her.

“Well we better head on stage, you two should meet the cops outside not to cause a stir” Tomo says now grabbing his gaiter.

“Good idea” Emily says now giving Shannon a quick kiss.

“If you need me, just yell” Jared says now giving her a long hard kiss.

Gabrielle smiles and grabs on to Jared tight.

“Yo Jare we gotta go!” Shannon yells now from the hallway.

But just hangs on for a few moments, then slowly lets Gabrielle go.

“Boy can you say a sentence good” Gabrielle says giggling.

Jared laughs and then the two walk out.

A few minutes later, outside the arena:

“We can’t seem to find him miss, and we checked the whole area” A cop says to Gabrielle.

“Hum, bet the bitch ran away when he saw you with the phone” Emily says to Gabrielle.

“Probably” Gabrielle says shaking her head grimly.

“”So how long are you going to be in the area?” the cop then asks Gabrielle.

“Another day, then we head off to another town” Gabrielle says.

“And how many more times will you be moving?”

“For about another month and a half”

“Ok, what I can do is have you give me a list of the other towns you will be at so I can put out an bulletin”

“That well be just fine, let me just get out my blackberry”

Gabrielle then gives the cop a list, and then he says he’ll go to the office and send out a bulletin.

“Thanks a lot for this” Gabrielle says to him as he leaves.

“No problem miss, you take care of yourself” the cop says tipping his hat to her.

As the cop leaves Gabrielle and Emily walk back to the concert.

“Well, now he pretty much did himself in” Gabrielle says to Emily.

“Yep, he’s got all the towns looking for him now” Emily says smugly.

“Now maybe I can sleep tonight!” Gabrielle says now laughing.

Sorry to say though, she was dead wrong…

Was it a dream? Was it a dream? Is this the only evidence that proves it? A photograph of you and I...

I was numb. I made it halfway up the stairs before I collapsed, crying my eyes out. I really don't know what I expected... maybe my sweet, sensitive Jared following me upstairs, cradling me in his strong arms, whispering his apologies while drying my tears?

Instead, I heard the loud sound of the front door as he slammed it, and it echoed through the empty house. Jared had gone. I listened to him start up the SUV, the reverberation of tires crunching in the driveway, and the squeal of rubber against pavement.

Upsatirs, I didn't bother turning on a light. I stumbled into my bedroom, but annoyedly remembered I still had no bed. It felt invasive going to Jared's, but I crawled under his heavy covers anyways. The bed was so much bigger without him next to me. I instinctively tried to keep away from "his" side of the bed, but I could still smell his cologne and his hair and his sweat in the sheets. I tried avoiding it like a poisonous fume, but I was so used to it that the scent left me intoxicated. I cried for him, though horribly confused and heartbroken.

Why did he come out of nowhere with those complaints about me? Was he harbouring them for months on end? Did he really love me, or was it all an act? How much of my "dream life" had been real? Bteween the sobs, lyrics from an old Hedley song crept into my head.

And I will wait
I'll write another letter to myself
And I will find out
That morning comes faster alone...

***

Unfortunately for me, morning could not have come more slowly. I tossed and turned all night, crying, talking to myself, pounding the pillows angrily. I awoke haggardly, unaccustomed to waking up cold. Without Jared's arms around me or his warm chest to cling to, the heat of the blankets did nothing for me. I shivered and, without even noticing, dialled Cadence on my cell phone that had somehow made its way into my hand.

"Hey, Lysandra!" she answered cheerfully.

"Cadence... can you and Jen come over?" I asked glumly. I looked out the window. The sun was shining, the day was perfect. I was torn apart.

Cadence whispered something, presumably to Jeneine, who must have still be at her house. "Um, sure sweetie. But we just left you last night...."

I managed to choke out, "Yeah well, so did Jared!" before collapsing again in another sobbing fit.

"What?"! Jeneine and Cadence shouted simultaneously. "Why?"!

"Come over, i'll explain," I whispered. I ended it and tossed my phone onto the bedside table. When I got out of Jared's bed, I didn't bother getting dressed up or brushing my hair or putting on makeup. I went downtairs and fed Jare's dogs. I watched them eat eagerly, not a care in the world.

"You're master's been bad," I told them in a soft voice. Judas lifted his head from his bowl and nudged me with his cool wet nose. I sighed. "Looks like you're the only loyal men left in this house, boys."

Roughly an hour later the doorbell rang furiously, accompanied by stalker-like doorknocks. I opened the door and in my ran my two friends, out of breath, but bearing hugs and ice cream.

"Lysandra, what the hell happened? You were so happy with him last night!" Cadence asked, settling onto the couch.

"Yeah! Like literally last night." Jeneine checked her watched. "Barely twelve hours ago, you guys were so lovey it was sick." She prodded me in the knee. "Details!"

I began with me telling Jared about my exhausting day, and ended with him driving off. By the time I got back to that part, though, I was hiccup-crying again.

"You slapped Jared Leto?" Jeneine asked increduously.

"Oh my gosh, you KNOW him, can you STOP calling him 'Jared Leto' all the time?!" I snapped. I buried my face in my hands. "I'm sorry, oh, I hate this, I hate him, I hate him," I said through my fingers.

Cadence rubbed my back sympathetically. "Lysandra, you don't hate him."

I stared at her. "Yes I do! You don't even know, okay? How could I not hate him after all  that?"

"I'm not saying it won't take a hell of a long time," Cadence replied hurriedly, "but it sounds like you guys just had a big argument, and neither of you really talked it out."

"I don't want to talk it out," I muttered. "He's the insensitive jerk. He's probably with some girl at a motel right now as we speak, calling her gorgeous..."

Cadence and Jeneine exchanged a look. "Oh, he's probably just at his brother's, and you know it," Jeneine exclaimed. I had actually forgotten that Shannon also lived around here, but my theory sounded better. or worse. I wasn't sure what I was going for.

"Whatever," I replied. I looked around the the living room and noticed a picture of Jared and I on one of the shelves. It seemed so insignificant before that I hadn't even realized he put it up. It was a really cute one: Jared behind me, arms around my neck, kissing my cheek while I laughed, trying to hold the camera straight. I remembered taking it when we moved my stuff into his place.

It felt like so long ago, but really, it had been barely a week before. He wouldn't have even asked me to mve in if he was harbouring all that conflict, would he? So why would he just lash out? Was he trying to be playful at first, and it had just been blown way out of proportion by my anger at being recognized from the TV?

"Maybe he had a lot on his mind," suggested Jeneine.

"Why are you guys always on his side?" I asked bitterly. "Since the beginning its been 'Oh, Jared Leto isn't creepy... maybe he just wants to get close to you... go to his house, date him, tell him you like him.' Seriously, it's every damn time!" I realized I had just mocked my friends' voices in the same way that Jared imitated me the night before.

"We don't try to be," Jeneine assured me. "But we want you two to, like, stay together and all."

"Definitely. We're not going to start trash talking him just 'cause you are." Cadence opened the carton of ice cream and place it on the coffee table. "Dig in; you'll feel better."

I highly doubted it, but I went to the kitchen and grabbed three spoons from the drawer. I tried not to look at another picture of Jared and I that was stuck to the fridge. Again, I hadn't noticed it when he was here... probably because I had the real thing to look at all the time. Shannon had taken the picture: Jared and I sitting against the big oak in his yard with Judas and Lucifer lying in front of us. I quickly turned away before tears filled my eyes.

My friends and I ate the ice cream in silence. I sat listening to the ticking of Jared's grandfather clock. I had never noticed that either. I took in the intricate lines in his hardwood floor, the panels on the wall, the photos of him and his mother and grandmother.

There was so much about Jared I still hadn't bothered to find out, and I felt like I had lost him. I wanted to keep him, but I wanted forgiveness first. It was his fault. He had lashed out with no explanation, he had left, he had said hurtful words. I had too, but it was in defence, really... wasn't it?

Or was I still harbouring a grudge too? I never thought about it, but when Jared and I talked about the things that were bothering us, it never had to do with one another. I think we wanted so badly to believe that the other was perfect, that we never tried to correct each other. Not that couples should change for each other, but we never discussed the little things. It was all about the future, the past, the "I love you."

Jared and I had a lot of talking to do. I only hoped I hadn't lost him already.

**Dear friends, am sorry I always make you guys wait so long for my chapters. I don't have a lot of time AT ALL. I know it's always week long intervals, i'm really sorry. I didn't have a lot of inspiration so I had to write this part quickly, and maybe it doesn't make a lot of sense, but hopefully it will lead me to some inspiration for Jare and Lysandra in the future. I love you guys, comment are appreciated... xoxoxox <3Kalia

from jared's twitter page. it made me smile. :)

I don't like how i ended this chapter... oh and i helped my friend paint her house on monday which is why it wasn't posted on monday.

I walked back to the shoot the next morning and everyone was slowly but surely coming in. I started setting out things when the guys and Sirius came up to me.

"Hey Jinxx, how's your morning so far?" Sirius asked.

"Tiring, I walked here." I replied yawning.

"You could've asked one of us to give you a ride, it's the last day of the shoot so today is gonna be more relaxed either way." Spencer said.

"Well, I am very... I forgot what I was going to say." I stated.

Everyone started laughing and my phone rang, "You said you'd read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed, I'm okay, I'm okay, I'm okay now, but you really need to listen to me, because I'm telling you the truth, I mean this, I'm okay, trust me, I'm not okay, I'm not okay, well I'm not okay, I'm not o-fucking-kay, I'm not okay-"

"Alright?" I answered.

"Am I speaking to Miss Jinxx Pendragon?"

"Yes, this is she, who is this?" The guys immediately started paying attention after they heard my response.

"This is St. Mary's Hospital, you're parents have been in an accident, they're in surgery right now, but the chances aren't that great."

"Umm, I'll fly there as quickly as I can." I ran fingers through my hair as my hand was shaking, "Thank you for calling me." I hung up the phone and sat down on the ground.

"Hey, umm Jinxx, is everything okay?" Sirius asked kneeling down next to me.

"My parents have been in an accident, I have to go see them in the hospital." I ran my fingers through my hair again.

"When will you get your tickets?" Spencer asked.

"I don't know, I'll have to make a few calls to get low priced ones, but I'll leave tomorrow, Sirius can you tell Case that I'm not coming in tomorrow?" I said thinking and getting off the ground.

"Sure..." Sirius answered.

"I need to go check on how I can get this done..." I started walking away.

"Jinxx, you do know we're coming with you, right?" Brendon stated.

"Yeah I think a few more people are probably gonna tell me that by the end of the night." I said walking up to Brendon's car, "I'm stealing your car, so gimme the keys."

Brendon tossed me the keys and I got in and drove away.

--

I was quickly packing while going through my contacts to see which flights were going to England. My phone was on speaker and at the moment I was talking to an airline company.

"What do you mean the flight was cancelled?!" I yelled.

"I'm sorry Miss, but it was cancelled because the plane that was scheduled to fly it has engine problems at the moment." The lady stated.

"End call," I ordered the phone.

"State your command." The phone replied.

"Call Jared."

"Calling Jared," it told me.

I threw more clothes into my bag and started putting my piercings in.

"Hey Jinxx, what's up?" Jared asked when he picked up.

"Hey Jared, do you remember when ya said if I need help with anything to call you up?" I said as I put in my gauges.

"Yeah what do you need?" He replied.

"My parents have been in an accident and I can't get a flight out tomorrow, but I really need one." I answered.

"I can probably get us a flight going out tomorrow." Jared quickly told me.

"Us, meaning you're coming along, correct?" I asked.

"Yes, Shannon and Tomo said they would come too, anyone else that decided to come too?"

"Sirius and the guys from Panic, they were there when I got the news, so they all wanna go with me."

"Okay, so nine people for the flight, I'll pick you up at 3AM, have the guys go to the airport at 4AM, we have to go early to make sure everything is taken care of, I need to set everything up, I'll talk to you later and if you need anything else just call."

"Bye, Jared, and thanks," I said.

"You're welcome, bye." At that Jared hung up.

--

At 2AM I woke up, took a shower, got dressed, did my makeup, and did my hair. When I finished it was 2:50. I quickly checked to  make sure I had everything, grabbed my stuff, and went down to the street to wait for Jared. When Jared arrived he helped me  put my things in the trunk and we drove to the airport in silence. After we got there we went through security and walked to our terminal. At the gate I sat down and fell asleep. The next thing I remember was being shaken.

"Jinxx wake up," I heard Jared say.

I yawned, opened my eyes and looked up at him, "What?"

"The guys just got here and I was wondering if you wanted anything to eat right now." He replied.

"Umm, I'll just have a hot chocolate, when does our flight leave?"

"It leaves in 20 min., they're gonna start boarding in 5 min., before we get to England we have to stop at an airport on the east coast and then we go through customs and take a private commercial flight to London."

"Okay, come back soon with the hot chocolate... I'll be asleep or probably on the plane in my seat."

~*~*~*~*~*

yeah i rushed this quickly with my typing b/c i post this at school normally so yeah.... blah...

“He did what?!” Gabrielle said to Jared later that night when he told her what Robert did.

“Now calm down, he just talked. And he looked scared to death all the way through” Jared says now holding his hands up.

“I’m calling the courts tomorrow and telling them now he’s harassing you!” Gabrielle says clenching her fists.

Jared then raps his arms around her, making her calm at once.

“You do what you think what’s right, but just let it go for now. He’s harmless” he says softly.

“I donno” Gabrielle says in his shoulder.

“Trust me, he wont hurt you. I wont let him”

“It’s not you I’m worried about”

Jared smiles at that and then kisses her.

“You know, the guys and M are gonna be still out for a while” he then says slyly

“Oh?” Gabrielle says now smiling.

“Yeah, they all went for pizza. I originally came her to get you, but now….”

“Now I think we need to take a rain-check” Gabrielle finishes his sentence.

“Bingo” Jared says now grinning.

A few days later:

Robert is still hot on the trail with Jared and Gabrielle.

He is at yet another concert, trying to get to Gabrielle again.

Now his new mission is to tell her about his and Jared’s meeting, and how much of an asshole Jared was to him.

He enters the stage area, looking.

He then spies her dark hair tied up hair a ponytail. He then makes his way for her, when suddenly he sees Jared walk over to her.

“Damn” he mutters now backing off.

He wants to talk to her without douche bag near her.

He waits a few minutes, watching,

Then Jared gives Gabrielle a kiss (making his blood boil) and then he goes off around the back while Gabrielle walks over to the seating area and then she takes a seat.

Now’s the time to make his move.

Robert then begins to climb the stairs, advancing towards Gabrielle.

Gabrielle then catches a glimpse of him from the corner of her eye.

“Oh no you don’t” she says to herself, as she slowly takes her cell from her pocket to call the police.

Jeneine and Cadence tried their best to make girls day fun. We made brownies, watched romantic comedies on DVD, and talked for hours. But by the time nine o'clock rolled around, I was still depressed. Yeah, things had gone okay... because we were inside for the rest of the day!

"Hey, Lysandra," Cadence said slyly, when she saw me reaching for my phone. "Why don't you let us drive you back to Jared's? We can see your house!"

"Yeah," Jeneiene agreed excitedly. "Besides, it'll save him a trip back out here."

I nodded and texted Jared to see if that would be okay. He texted back "the more the merrier" with a little tongue-face emoticon/ I guessed his response was sarcastic (it's hard to tell on a text, right?) so I told him they wouldnt be there too long.

We all piled quickly into Cadence's mom's car, to avoid being seen. All through the drive, my friends chattered eagerly about seeing where I was licing. I had to admit I was excited to show them. Jared's house (and mine too, I guess) was massive, well-decorated and home-y. I couldn't wait to be back where I was comfortable. Funny how I thought that, since i'd just been in my real hometown.

We pulled up to the house. Jared was sitting on the steps with Judas, wearing a casual black t-shirt and a pair of jeans. He waved at us.

"Guys, be cool, okay?" I instructed. I got out the of the passenger side and ran to Jared. He gave me a kiss and smiled.

"I see you're in one piece." He gave me the once over while I bent down to pet Judas. My friends followed behind shyly, avoiding Jared's eyes.

"Cadence, Jeneine.. well, you know Jared, Jeneine," I began hastily. Jeneine nodded, and Jared shook both of their hands in an awkward way. I led them into the house and showed them the main floor and the backyard. Lucifer was out the back, chasing a squirrel.

"Aww, your doggies are so cute!" Cadence commented to Jared, who was trailing us slowly as we moved through his home.

"Thanks," he replied. I showed my friends the upstairs, the bathroom, all of Jared's spare rooms. When we got to mine, Jeneine let out a snort.

"Wow, lemme guess... this is your room, Lyssy?" She laughed. "It never changes." She smiled as she examined the pictures of her i'd tacked on the bulletin board. "Glad to see you haven't forgotten us."

"Never!" I replied. I played with the corner of my pillow. "And hey, what's wrong with a little organization?"

Cadence pretended to snore and fall asleep, and even Jared laughed. I was glad he liked my friends. I mean, they were younger than him, they were immature most of the time (even more than me), and they could be silly and annoying... but they were my besties. I couldn't cut them out of my life just because i'd forged a new one.

We left and I hesitated opening the door to Jare's room, not sure what state it might be in. But he was generally organized too, so I pushed open the door and spread my arms wide. "This is Jaaaaaaaared's room," I said, exaggeratedly.

"Ahem." Jared cleared his throat and pushed his way to the front of our pack. He snaked his arms around me and kissed my neck. "It's our room, beautiful."

I could feel the jealousy from my friends' eyes. "Okay, our room," I corrected, and Jared smiled.

"You guys are so lucky!" Cadence looked out the window at the dark sky, bright with stars. "This is a great view."

I nodded. "It's amazing." I looked at Jared, who gave me a kiss in response. My friends must have been feeling awkward, because Jeneine cleared her throat.

"So.. well, like, we'd better get going... i've got to work early tomorrow." She moved between Jared and I and gave me a hug. "Visit anytime, girl!"

"I will," I promised, and hugged Cadence afterwards. Jared and I walked them to the front door and watched them get into the car.

"Nice meeting you," said Jared. I admired his playfulness, his accomadating personality.

"Bye guys! I love youuuuuu!" I cried, waving like a goon until their headlights had long since disappeared down the street. Jared and I walked back into the house and went to the living room.

"So, how was your day?" he asked.

I cringed a little bit. "Oh, it was okay." I stretched out on the couch and Jared sat beside me. "We watched movies and ate a lot of sugar."

"It showed," he said with a laugh. I smiled thinly.

"Yeah. But... well, we went to the store, and probably six people asked me if I was your girlfriend!"

Jared smiled, which was not the reaction i'd been hoping for. "And you said?" he urged me, touching my face.

"I denied it at first, because I knew they were just trying to get close to you... and then when I admitted it, this girl asked me if I could get her tickets to the next Mars show!" I spouted in a defiant tone. I looked at Jared, whose face was unreadable as usual. He was looking at the floor and biting his lip, a usual sign of thinking.

He pulled me against his chest. "Well, you're proud of being my girl, aren't you?" he asked. He twisted a piece of my hair while he talked. "Because i'm proud of you."

I looked up at him. His eyes were cloudy, a rare thing. They were usually clear and bright, but I couldn't get anything from them tonight. It was dark except for the kitchen light casting a beam on us from the hall. "I am, Jare. You know that."

Jared started to kiss me quickly, and I knew in an instant what was on his mind. He'd already let the incident slide from his mind and was moving on to better things... at least that's what he figured. "Then why," he said, between kissing me and and trying to pry my shirt off, "is it a problem?"

Was he serious? "Jare," I whined, and finally had to pull away from him. He wasn't very well going to listen to me with his tongue down my throat. "Jared, it IS a big deal, and it is a problem!"

"But why?" he asked, sitting back against the house. He gave me an accusing stare. It seemed to say why are you dragging this on? Let me love you...

"Because," I said softly, "I don't want the whole world to follow me around with a camera or ask me for connections. It's creepy!"

Jared turned, with a look on his face i'd never seen before. "Lysandra, come on. Why won't you just go with it? Isn't it enough that I love you?"

I was taken aback. His voice was urgent, almost sarcastic... and bitter. "Well, yeah," I replied, in a quiet voice. I didn't look at him. "Jared, I know you love me. And I love you. It's totally enough for me. But I don't want to just be known as 'Jared Leto's girlfriend.'" His response had scared me a little. Jared was usually quick to comfort me in his sensitive way, hold me close, tell me things would be okay...

"Oh, well that's good to know," he said, and he rolled his eyes a tiny bit. He stood up. "This is just like you, you know? I've done everything for you today, and I let you move in here, and i've taken you to L.A. and told the whole world how much I love you... but there's always an issue with it isn't there?!" He ran his hands through his dark hair. "It's always about you, Lysandra."

My heart started to pound. Was Jared angry with me? When I thought back, he had never gotten angry at me or even risen his voice. Sure, we playfighted, and back when I hated him, we disagreed on a lot. But he'd never gotten angry.

"Always about ME?" I shot back, standing up to face him. "I went to your show, I went to your premiere, I went on a PLANE even though I was scared to death... I waited around alone in that hotel room all day while you did your little press meetings and your wardrobe and your 'luppers,'" I seethed. "I didn't ask you to buy me a dress, or let me move in, or drive me places! You offered! Don't pin this on me!"

Jared put his hand up. "Well there's another complaint from you! 'Oh Jare, i'm not ready, it's not right...'" He mimicked me in a kind of comical way, but neither of us was laughing. "The world isn't always going to spin your way Lysandra! Sorry if you're used to that with your perfect little family and your friends and your normal life!"

"My perfect life?" I repeated, stunned. "Yeah, it's got to be tough being famous and having thousands of girls ready to sleep with you, and making so much money it could feed a country in Africa!"

Our argument sounded ridiculous, but I was so hurt. Had he always felt this way? Was he harbouring these grudges and irks against me because he wanted me to think he was perfect? Well, i'd fallen for it... the great, sweet Jared Leto who could do no wrong was showing me his true colours.

"If you felt that way then why did you ever come back?" he shouted. "That night when you told me you finally liked me, after I liked you for so long... what was that?"

"Jared, I..." I didn't know what to say to that one. I came back because I did like him, and wanted to tell him... that had been one of the happiest days of my life. But he made it sound awful.

"Lysandra," he said, in a low but menacing voice, "if you've been using me all this time, then now would be a really good time to say it."

"USING you?" I shrieked. I'd expected another mean comment, but not that character accusation! Before I knew what I was doing, the whooshing sound of my arm swept through the air, and I slapped him hard across the face.

He stumbled back a little bit but regained his balance, holding his face with one hand. He stared at me in disbelief while I ranted on. "Jared, I have never used you! If anything, you've used me! You just wanted your image back on track so you wouldn't be known for dating all those stupid Hollywood girls!" I snorted. "I knew all that stuff about finding the perfect girl at a concert was bullshit."

He still didn't say anything. I was pretty sure the slap had shocked him, because he was completely mute. I stared him down, waiting for him to say something... anything.

"Is that how you really feel?" he said quietly. He brought both hands down to his sides, and I could see the red mark already that i'd left on his adorable face.

I didn't want to say no, but I didn't want to say yes either. This was all new to me. I had never hit anyone before, let alone had a screaming match with someone I was deeply in love with. I was confused and angry, hurt and regretful. I thought I was in love with Jared Leto, but he had proved me wrong. He had started in on me, instead of comforting me when I needed it. It was all his fault... wasn't it?

"I don't know how I feel," I said, tears falling from my eyes. I ran upstairs to my room and locked the door. So much for a fun day.

**I know, I know... you all don't want this to happen. I hope you liked it (I know it's hard to like it, but... the story I mean) and please don't judge me too harshly, this is not the end!!! Comments are appreciated, and I don't know when I can write another part.... maybe thre weekend? I love you all!!! xoxoxKalia

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips, faith and desire and the swing of your hips; just hold me down hard, and drown me in love...

I woke up to my phone blaring my ringtone. I shifted under Jared's grip. He was still asleep, so I wearily rolled over to grab my phone from the bedside table.

"Hello?" I said, although it came out more like "huhhluhh" because I was so tired.

"Well, if it isn't Mrs. Jared Leto!" said the voice on the other end with a snicker.

"Cadence?" I hadn't spoken my friend's name in what seemed like forever. It was hardly recognizable.

"In the flesh!" Another voice giggled and cried, "Hey, it's Jeneine too!"

"Hi guys."

Cadence wasted no time. "So when were you going to tell us that you've offically fled town and are living with THE JARED LETO?"

My friends knew about Jared and I liking each other, but now that I thought about it, I neglected to tell them that we were officially boyfriend and girlfriend, let alone housemates. "Oh, sorry," I replied airily, yawning. "It slipped my mind."

"Slipped your mind?! You're sleeping with my future husband, you traitorous bitch!" Jeneine was laughing hysterically. "Let me know if he's good in bed!"

Jared must have heard his name, because he turned over and warpped his arms around me. "Good morning, gorgeous," he said in a low voice.

"Oh my gosh, is Jared right there?" squawked loudly from the phone. Jared gave me a quizzical look and I rolled my eyes.

"Hi, Jared!" my two besties chorused together.

"Hey," Jared replied sleepily. He fell back against the blankets and sighed. My friends squealed, and then Cadence's voice became wistful.

"So you're really gone then, Lysandra?" she asked.

"I haven't left the country or anything," I replied slowly, momentarily distracted by Jared standing up and stretching. I'd forgotten he wasn't wearing anything the night before...

Jeneine's urgent voice broke into my reality. "Lyssy, PLEASE come visit today, if you can. We can have a girls day. You need to tell us about this! I mean, like, not just the move... but, like, have you seen Entertainment lately? You're all over it, girl!"

I groaned. "Yeah, unfortunately." I watched Jared get dressed. "I made a fool of myself at the premiere."

"Oh, it's not that bad." Cadence sounded like she was trying really hard to come up with something good to say. "You looked amazing, that's for sure."

"Thanks." Jared came back over to the bed and massaged my shoulders. I smiled at the gesture and held up a finger, indicating that I would only be another minute. "Guys, i'll see if I can make it back today. I'll text one of you, okay?"

"Okay, bye Lysandra," they said. "Bye, Jared!"

Jared laughed. "Bye ladies," he said sweetly into the phone. I heard their shrieks again before pressing END on my call. Jared continued to rub my shoulders, and I rested my head against his.

"What was that about?"

"Oh, Cadence and Jeneine want me to come into town for a girls day or something." I gripped his hands and settled back into the pillows. "I'm sorry if I woke you."

"It's okay." He laid back with me. "Do you want to go? I'll drive you."

I laughed. "No. Jare, you're not my chauffeur. I can take the train or something."

"I want to," he insisted. "Or I can buy you your own car, if you'd like..." He nudged me, like he always did when he wanted to buy me something.

"No," I said adamantly. "Chauffeur it is. No spending your money on me."

He smiled. "Then i'd better let you get dressed, even though I know you were enjoying watching me before..."

"Can't help myself." I really couldn't. If you discounted every wonderful thing about Jared's personality, his looks could still win you over. How could they not? Soft dark hair, sapphire blue eyes, a sweet smile, belmish-free skin and a flawless muscular body... he had it all.

He winked at me and then got up to leave. "I'll make you a quick breakfast" he proposed. He walked out the bedroom door, and then walked right back in. "Have I kissed you yet today?"

"Nope," I said with a grin. "I thought you were neglecting me."

"Never." He cme over and gave me a long good-morning kiss, and then disappeared for the second time out the door.

****

"Call me for a ride," Jared instructed when he dropped me off at Jenine's. He nodded at my friends. "Behave yourselves ladies... especially you." He smiled and kissed me. I got out of the car and waved, and he drove off.

"Wow, if I hadn't seen it with my own eyes..." Cadence commented, following Jeneuine into he house and to her bedroom.

"You never would have believed lowly Lysandra was dating that sexy guy?" I finished.

"Yeah," she answered. "But not because you're lowly.. haha. But because 3 months ago you hated the guy and resisted him...God knows how."

"And really, we were the ones who ove you to his house when you refused to see him, and then you guys hooked up finally, and all was well... so, like, we deserve the credit for bringing you together!" Jeneine chimed in.

"Maybe," I laughed. I couldn't believe Jeneine's room. Before, it was abolsutely wallpapered with pictures of Jared Leto, but now, was clustered with...

"Penn Badgley?" I blurted. "What happened to Jared?"

"YOU happened to Jared," Jeneine answered with a smirk. She shook her short brown hair around and glanced at her wall of Penn. "Who knows? I might meet him somewhere someday, and we could fall in love..."

As far fetched as that sounded, she was right. It made sense. After all, that was what happened with Jared and I...

"Yeah, but Penn Badgley? He's so..."

"Hot!" Cadence broke in.

"Gay!" I countered. "Literally..."

"Not! Jared is," Cadence argued. "Or have you forgotten the movie Alexander?"

Yeah, I had, considering i'd never seen it. "I don't even know what that is," I replied honestly. I shifted in Jeneine's desk chair with a superior smile on my face. "But Jared is definitely not gay." I winked in emphasis.

Cadence's smile seemed as bright as her blonde Taylor Swift curls. "You're so lucky! He's so sexy. I've seen pictures of him without a shirt.. wow." She fanned herself and laughed. "Does he still look hot first thing in the morning?"

I considered the silly question. "Better than hot," I decided. "His hair's always messy and his eyes are sleepy, but he's always warm and smells like laundry detergent and he always gives me good morning kisses."

"Sleepy-eyed Leto," Jeneine mused. "That's so cute. Is he, like, different offscreen? What's he like at home?" She winked at me and added, "In bed?"

I spent the next half hour talking about Jared's quirks: his teasing smile, his concern for me, his protectiveness, his annoying vegetarian meals, how he always knew what to say, his whisper-singing to me at night, and (I confess) his intimate skills.

My friends' eyes were as big as saucers when I finished describing mine and Jared's hotel shower encounter. I didn't feel as embarrassed as I thought I would, probably because it had been pure magic when it happened.

"Mmmph," Cadence murmured. "Wow. Okay, I think we can establish that we're both thoroughly JEALOUS by now." She smiled at me. "So, let's hit the mall? I say Mexi-themed snacks. It's been a while since we've done that."

"Agreed."

*****

It was really hard finding "Mexi-themed" snacks in Decembre. Tacos, nachos and enchiladas were such summer foods that we ended up having to ask an employee where the food was.

The girl we asked was probably about fifteen, and clearly depressed that she worked in a supermarket. "Yeah they're in aisle 12... hey!" she said, wheeling to face me. "Aren't you Cassandra?"

I stared "Um, no, I'm Lysandra," I said, confused.

"No way, you're Jared Leto's girlfriend!" She bounced up and down, smiling.

I tried to muster up a convincing fake laugh. "Oh, no... i'm not. I wish!" I giggled nervously.

"Barry, look!" The girl shouted, ignoring my denial. "Barry, it's Jared Leto's girlfriend!"

"Oh my gosh!" The male employee, looking fifteen too, joined our conversation. "We're both Echelon... can you get us tickets to the next Mars show? I'll pay you, I swear."

"She's not his girlfriend!" Cadence snapped, trying to pull me away by my arm.

Another group of kids, all emo and fourteen, spotted me. "Lysandra! Oh wow, guys, it's Leto's girlfriend!"

"That dumb chick?"

"Hey!" I cried angrily, advancing on them. "I am not stupid!"

"But you are his girlfriend, aren't you?" one of the emos asked skeptically.

I resigned. "Yes, I am, but.."

"Can you get me his autograph?"

"My phone number is 555-2233, tell him to call me!"

"Tell him Tyra Andrews loves him!"

I was now surrounded by seven or eight pre-teens, mostly girls, who were pressing up on me like I was the celebrity! But I wasn't... was I?

"Come on," Jenine said in disgust. We ran out of the grocery store and booted it to Cadence's mom's car. Then we drove back to Jenine's, out of breath.

"Geez, when did you become Miss Popular?"

I groaned. "When it was revealed to everyone in Boston with a TV that i'm dating MR. Popular."

"It's okay." Jenine tried to lighten the mood. "We can bake brownies or something."

A thought struck me. "Guys, you don't think i'm going to be hounded like that everywhere, do you?" The thought was panicking me already. I was a private person, and did not want the world to know all of me.

"Naaaah," Cadence predicted, but sounded unconvinced. "All of the high schoolers hang out at the grocer because they have no lives. It was just a coincidence that that store chick was an Echelon or whatever."

When we got out of the car, one of Jeneine's neighbours spotted me and waved. "Hey, you're Jared Leto's girlfriend, aren't you? I saw you on CelebrityLive!"

The woman was probably Jared's age, and obviously wasn't hanging out at the grocer. "Um, yes," I replied. "I mean, no. I have to go!" My friends and I ran into the house and locked the door.

"Oh no," I told them. "It's hardly ten a.m. and i'm being recognized!" I sighed, thinking of the premiere and how much it scared me having these strangers know my name. That was LA, but this was my hometown. Would I have to stop libing the way I did, because of this sudden recognition? Would I have to guard myself, not knowing who was talking to me for friendship or to use me for connections?

"Guys... what have I done?"

**Hey guys. I know that part wasn't too great and didn't have much Jared (boohoo) but I needed it as a filler to lead up to the next part which will be posted tomorrow (Wednesday). I have a lot of time tomorrow so I will make that part extra extra good!!! Thanks for reading, comments are appreciated, and so are you guys!! Much love!!! xoxoxoxKalia <3

Another sexy Jared "Lord of War" picture... smiles :)

i played with your hearts, got lost in the game....


ahahahah joking. i promise a new part of "a beautiful stranger" WEDNESDAY. if i dont deliver you can abandon my story forever!!!

well, please dont. but yeah.

much love!!!


xoxoxoKalia

Today was the first concert of the tour of 30 Seconds To Mars to promote their upcoming album This Is War that, as most people know, will be in stores on December 8. 

The repertory presented songs of 30 Seconds To Mars [ALBUM] and A Beautiful Lie was joined those songs like Kings and Queens and one that does not even know his name, belonging to the band's new material.

THE LIST OF SONGS IS THE FOLLOWING:

* Kings & Queens
* Attack
* From Yesterday
* A Beautiful Lie
* Capricorn
* Edge Of The Earth
* New song (title not yet known) possibly 100 Suns
* P & R now, I think that really means questions and answers
* The Kill
* The Fantasy
* This Is War

The show lasted about 2 hours for some fans was enough but others do not catch up, and anyway, we should all be happy because the band returned to the stage.

THANKS:

J30STM (the OB for the list of songs)

Robert walks by the park for the hundredth time now, still thinking.

He head actually hurts now, thinking.

“Well, if I can’t convince her the he’s shit, maybe I should let him know myself” he says suddenly having a brainstorm.

He then checks his watch.

Still got time to get in the concert.

He then heads off to the arena, now carefully planning out his speech.

At the arena:

Gabrielle and Emily just got in and are now sitting in the back with the guys.

“Ten minutes” a guy comes in to says to them.

“Right, well we better head off to our seats” Emily says now kissing Shannon.

“We’ll see you on stage” Gabrielle says now giving a deep kiss.

Jared smiles and then raps his arms around her.

“Guys, we got only a few minutes till stage…. you understand” Shannon now says teasing Jared and Gabrielle.

They laugh at that then with one last quick kiss, Gabrielle and Emily head off to their seats.

A few minutes later there’s a knock on the door.

“We’re coming we’re coming” Shannon says.

The door then opens and then in walks Robert.

“Sorry for interrupting, but I’m here to see Jared” Robert says softly.

The three of them stand frozen for a moment, then Jared, having a feeling on who it is, then says, “I’m him. Please sit”

Robert nods his head and then sits on the sofa.

“So, how my I help you?” Jared says now sitting on the other side.

Shannon and Tomo then get the idea on who he is, and then Tomo walks and stands in front of the door, while Shannon stands beside Jared, just in case.

Crazy son of a bitch.

“Well, I don’t know if you know who I am. But, I’m Robert….” Robert begins.

“Ah, your Gabriele’s ex boyfriend then” Jared says smiling slightly.

“So you have heard of me?”

“Plenty”

“I see. Well, so I guess you’re her new boyfriend huh?”

“Yep”

“So….”

“So, what? You’re checking up to see if I’m treating her right or something?”

“Um no. I just, wanted to meet you. You know, your pretty famous and it’s hard to believe that little quite Gabrielle even had the nerve to talk to you”

“Yes well she did a pretty good job. Warmed up to me right away really”

Shannon then gives Jared a look, remembering the nightmare that was when those two first meant.

Jared waves his hand at that and smiles.

“Oh well that’s good” Robert says now hanging his head a little.

“So is this all, cause I have a show to do probably now” Jared says now standing.

“Oh, yeah” Robert says now getting up to.

“Well it was nice meeting you Robert, stop by again soon, maybe about an hour before show time next time huh?” Jared says laughing as he holds out his hand.

Robert fakes a laugh and then shakes Jared’s hand.

Then as Robert takes his leave, the guys go off to the stage.

Robert now finds himself outside of the arena, knowing that if he even shows his face at Gabrielle again she’ll call the cops.

“Asshole. I’ll show him. She’s wayyyyy better off with me. Smart ass mother…” Robert now rambles off as he takes out a cigarette and then goes sulking back to his hotel .