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HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS !!!!!!

so i hope year 2010 will be better than 2009 :)

...and i  need more friends..so add me please X)

 

 

 

Hello 2010.

Finally, a new start to a year of bad habits, bad choices, and a bad disposition.

No more disbelief, insecurities, shyness, or distrust.

Finally I can be the person I really want to be.

 

Or Can I?

As 2009 rolled around to a close, I pondered the last year. "What made my year so difficult?" I wondered, and I began to process the thought. Well, I had made some pretty poor choices in the past year. I lied to loved ones, I ran away from responsibility, I snuck out of security, I ran with my life in my hands. Honestly, the stress I amounted from that was too much to bear. I have to make 2010 a better year. If not, what's the point of even celebrating a new year? In other words what does a New Year really mean?

 

In fact, I don't see the point of such a big deal over a new year. Every year is the same, you drink until your throat burns, the stumble on your way to your car, you laugh too loudly and make too big of arm movements, and you always wake up with the regret of your New Year's kiss- and a hangover. I mean, December 31st is just another day. And so is January 1st. And really, when have you ever woken up and felt completely different from the day before? In my case, never. I usually have a different mindset though, and I make goals and are motivated to make 2010 better. But how long does that last? Usually, for me, it will last 1-2 weeks. Then, I don't consider it a New Year anymore. I have grown accustomed to the term 2010, and it doesn't ring the same.

 

But since its just another day, shouldn't every day be treated like New Years?

September 21st to September 22nd.

March 4th to March 5th.

July 10th to July 11th.

December 31st to January 1st.

Everyday is a new year, for everyday is a year before the date in question.

 

So why not celebrate everyday as a new year? Because in fact, everyday is a new year. A new year from the year before, a new chance to better ourselves for the challeneges to come and the excitement to embrace. So instead of making a resolution like "I want to lose 10 pounds" or "I want to get a promotion", why not make a simpler resolution like, "I want to treat each day like a new year."

 

Each day is a new chance to better ourselves. Especially for me. Over the past year, I have ruined all trust I have with my family and defiled the relationship my mother and I shared. We no longer can stand to be around eachother for more then an hour or so, and even then, we're standing on eggshells, afraid to set the other's slowly ticking bomb off. More then anything, I would like to win back the trust of my mother, and win back the support from my family. In 2009 though, I was not motivated to do so. I would let my brain skip ahead to this specific date and tell myself, "Well, I can just wait until 2010. I'll definitely change then." But would I? Or would I just let myself divulge into my old ways and lie to myself once more? No, I decided. I decided that wasn't the right choice for me, let alone anyone. I need to better myself, I need to get myself back on track. So rather then quick-fixing a problem for about 2 weeks, I would rather really start anew, each day of my life.

 

"Far better it is to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs even though checkered by failure, than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy nor suffer much because they live in that gray twilight that knows neither victory nor defeat."
- Theodore Roosevelt

Instead of living in my grey twilight, I vow to myself I will dare mighty things, even if I'm not up to it, for I am ready to begin my new year, with a year full of new years.

 

 

HAPPY 2010 EVERYBODY!!!
I think by now everyone around the globe has celebrated the new year. Hehehe it was anticipating waiting for the fireworks at midnight in Sydney! :D Anyway I hope this year will bring you even more joy and happiness than last year! All the best and live your life. <3

"2009 was such an amazing year, achieved so much and so many great memories to look back on in the future; new classes, new friends, bestest bestfriends, birthdays, first concert, music/film releases, satisfying grades, leadership roles and NOT TELLING ;D ♥ ♥ ♥ Thankyou everyone for sharing it with me." - bRi.anna.

Well it's been a while since I've been on buzznet and updated with photos and journals, my internet was capped the Christmas week and it was just way too slow to wait for anything to load. Well I just posted a bunch of photos from my random roadtrip up the coast to different beaches to make up for my absence. It wasn't as I expected it would be, it rained all the way there and was endless. We couldn't go swimming or pretty much do anything outdoors down at the beach, so we went Boxing Day Shopping! Wooh half prices and discounts! I cashed in on some nice V necks, jewellery and other stuff. Since it was just raining non stop everyday we headed home.
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bRe-wind back to my birthday... (it was celebrated on 3 different days)
OK my friends and I met up and everyone was prepared to just chill and hang out or bum around the shopping centre but then some decided that it'd be a good idea to go the beach. So... out of peer pressure I went... This was so not me, I would never do something like that and lie to my parents about where I am. But I have to admit it was an amazing day and the weather was great for the beach, + I made it home safe and with no suspicion. 'I lived that day a lie.' - bRi.anna.
My sister held a BBQ at her place with the family attending, it was fun and delicious! The Carols in the Domain were on the same night as well, haha we had it playing on the TV as background music. Every now and then someone would start singing to them and we'd either join in or laugh at the random outburst.
Also my brother, took me out shopping with his girlfriend and then we went iceskating! which was really fun and something I haven't done in a long time.

Until next time...
<3 bRi.anna.

HAPPY NEWS YEAR EVERYBODY! HAPPY 2010! We made it! :D I thought I was gunna fall asleep during the countdown but thankfully I did :) Thank you thank you hold the applause everybody. Anyways,  happy new years and get ready for another new year <3

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well hello there 2010! i was trying to finish this before the new year..but i got a wee bit distracted. so..yay for first post of the new year.

Taylor

The semester was drawing to a close. I cannot wait for summer break. It puts me one step closer to being a senior. Thus one step closer to college.

"Hey Tay. Can I sit?" the redhead Williams asked setting her lunch tray down on the table.

"Sure Hayles." She complied. "So what's up?"

"Nothing much. Just thinking how we hadn't really talked recently."

"Is there something in particular you wanted to talk about?" I asked, knowing there obviously was.

"Oh, not really." She picked at her food and then finally pushed the tray away. She heaved a heavy sigh.

"What is it Hayley?"

"I need a favor?"

"Sure, anything."

"Well, you know how I normally carry Hayley's bag for her because my class is near y'all's."

"Yeah..."

"Well see I REALLY need to go study for my French test...but if I go...I need to leave now."

"What are you asking Hayley?"

"Will you carry Hayley's bag today...cause I really need to study...and you're going to the same place...and it's not like you'd have to walk with her or talk to her...just carry her bag...and..."

"Hayley, its fine. I'll do it."

"You will?"

"Yeah."

She hugged me tight. "Thanks Tay, I owe you." She ran off in the direction of the French room.

Man was I a softy. I sighed. It wouldn't be too bad...I just had to carry her stuff...I wouldn't have to talk to her at all.

 

Hayley

The bell rang signaling lunch was over. I looked around for Hayley but didn't see her. Instead Taylor was walking over to me.

"Hey, uh, Hayley had to study for French so she asked if I would help you out." He bent down and picked up the bag.

"Oh...okay."

We set off across the commons. Though I had gotten a little better on crutches, Taylor still had to take small steps to not completely leave me in the dust. We reached the class just before the bell rang. He set my bag down.

"Thank you."

"No problem." He walked to the back and took a seat.

"Are you guys back together?" Emma asked.

"What? No! Um...he was just helping me but...that's it."

"Uh-huh. Whatever."

"Alright guys, lets get started." The class quieted down while Mr. Rushing began to speak. "Okay, I'm going to pair you guys up for one last song before finals. Gabriel and Kelley. Jake and Todd. Hayley and Taylor."

"WHAT?!?" Taylor and I said in unison.

"Is there a problem, Mr. York?"

"No sir," he said reluctantly.

"Good." He finished pairing the class together. "Okay, you'll have to do most of this out of class, but you will have Tuesday to make any final adjustments prior to Wednesday performances. Alright, today we'll be talking about..."

I stopped listening. Why? Out of all of the people I could have been paired with, I had to be paired with my ex-boyfriend! I mean really!

"Alright guys, I'm gonna give you a few minutes to confer with you partners just before the bell rings."

People moved to meet their partners but I just stayed seated. He could come over here. And he did.

"So..."

"Yup..."

"Do you wanna just meet tonight? You can bring you guitar over to my house and we'll whip out a song and then be done."

"Yeah, sure. I guess that's fine." I looked at my watch, "I probably won't be there until eight-ish."

"How come?"

"Not that it's any of you business but...I'm meeting someone for dinner."

"Oh, then I'll see you around eight." He walked off.

Great.

 

Jeremy

"Hey Hay, sorry I'm late." I quickly walked over to her and took a seat across from her in the booth.

"It's no problem, Jeremy." She pointed to the drink in front of me, "I ordered you some sweet tea; I hope that's okay."

I nodded, "Yeah, its fine." Okay, how do I say this? "Listen, I wanted to talk to you about this whole Taylor thing."

"Oh no, not you too."

I held up my hands in self defense. "I'm not gonna try a make things right...or figure out what happened. Just hear me out. Okay?"

"Fine."

"Did you know that Sarah and I broke up right before you moved up here?"

"Really? How come?"

"You know, I have no idea."

"What?? So why did you break up?"

"We had this stupid fight. Sarah was looking into different colleges, including one in California."

"I didn't know she was looking into school in California."

"Yeah, well, her and her mom went down for a visit to check it out and she got lots of scholarships and was nearly in but then she came to talk to me." I took a sip of tea. "I asked her to please just forget California."

"But didn't she really want to go there?"

"Yeah, but this wasn't about her future...it was about our future."

"But if that's what she wanted..."

"Would you stop interrupting and let me finish the story, please."

"Alright."

"So anyways. We started fighting about college stuff and graduating and what would happen if we didn't go to the same school or if she went somewhere way far from Franklin and I just stayed here. In the rage and fury of it all she said that maybe it didn't really matter...that if we just broke up we wouldn't have to worry about if she left...and so she did it. She broke up with me."

"I don't understand what this has to do with Taylor and me."

"I'm getting there. Hayley, why did the two of you break up?"

She looked down and then back up at me. "We had a stupid fight."

"Uh-huh, that's what I thought."

"So you think we should get back together?"

"No, I didn't say that. I just think you should think about what you're giving up by holding on to this stupid fight."

"Whoa...I didn't realize it was already 7.30. I better get going; I'm supposed to meet Taylor in half an hour." She stood up, balancing on her crutches.

"I can drop you off, if you'd like."

"Sure. Just drop me off at my house, please."

I dropped the money on the table and then led her to my car. The quick ride was quiet as she sat in thought about the conversation we just had.

As she opened the door to get out I said, "Just think about what I said."

She nodded, "Bye Jeremy."

 

Taylor

"What are you doing here?" I was staring at Hayley; her guitar case was on her back.

Hayley wrinkled her brow. "I thought you said be here at 8.00?"

"Well, I did, but I figured I'd have to go get you or something."

"Since I'm already here, will you invite me in before I get rained on?"

"What?" I looked up at the dark clouds. "Oh, yeah, come on in." I moved aside so she could come in. "Can I get you anything, water, food?"

"Water would be much appreciated, thanks."

"Sure."

"Do you want to practice in the living room or your room or what?"

"Can you go up stairs on crutches?"

"Taylor I live in the loft. I have to go up and down stairs everyday; I'm getting pretty good at it."

"Alright, then let's go to my room. I'll meet you in there."

She nodded and turned for the stairs. I watched her go up a few before I turned towards the kitchen. I grabbed two waters from the fridge and walked up the stairs. I pushed the door to my room open. Hayley was sitting on my bed watching the rain fall down on the window.

"Here you go." I held out the water for her. She nodded her thanks.

I pulled my guitar into my lap after taking a seat across from Hayley. I strummed it, "So, do you have any ideas? Any lyrics?"

She reached into her bag and pulled out her song book. "Not really," she said flipping the pages. "I have bits and pieces of things, but none of them are good enough to be a whole song. Why don't you start putting some chords together...we'll see if anything comes together."

I started playing some things and soon enough, Hayley started filling the pages of her book with words.

The weather was getting worse. It was really windy and rainy; every five seconds another bolt of lighting struck. Not even the thunder could keep up.

 

Hayley

Taylor started playing. The thunder outside offered a nice background beat. I uncapped my pen and let the words come to me. Soon, I had my song:

(Verse 1) It's all the same-these stupid fights
that we get into all the time
it's what you're wearing
or what we're gonna eat
that starts the yelling from me
starts the yelling from me.

(Chorus) Why are we fighting this time?
I don't even know
But I'm too stubborn to say I'm sorry,
to say that you were right-
because you were right
but so was I.

(Verse 2): You stupid boy-don't you even know
that I love you when I hate you
won't you realize behind these
big brown eyes is a girl that
has fallen for you
fallen for you.

(Chorus)

(Bridge) It's that same stupid game that we're playing.
I wish we'd figure out what we're saying
what we're doing
what we're feeling.
(Chorus)

(Ending) What are we fighting for?
I don't even know.
I just know I'm sorry.

I bit my pen. I couldn't show him this.

"So, what do ya got?"

"Huh?" I slammed the book closed.

"It looked like you were writing up a storm over there."

"What? No...it's nothing good...just a few words here and there."

"Well, let me hear them. Maybe we can make something out of it." He reached for my blue book.

"No!" I pulled it away.

"Geez. Chill out."

My phone started ringing. Saved by the cellphone! "Hello?"

"Hayley...its Dad...listen the storms getting really bad over here. They don't want any of us leaving."
"Oh, so when will you be home?" I asked looking out Taylor's window to see how bad the storm was here.

"I'm not sure...but Hayley wherever you are, I want you staying there."

"But Dad..."

"No buts, stay there...at least until the storm blows over."

"But...Dad..."

"I...se....yo...la...er." The connection died.

"Damnit."

"What?"

I rubbed my hand across my face. "Nothing. Let's just get this done."

"Fine."

It was nearly 11.00. No matter how many different melodies Taylor played nothing else came to me. This may be hopeless.

"Taylor, sweetie," his mom knocked on the door. "I don't think Hayley should be out in this."

"No, it's okay, I'll be fine," I said. I could not stay here for the night!

"Hayley, have you looked out the window recently?" She was right, it was crazy out there. I wouldn't be surprised if a tornado hit the area or at least somewhere around it. "Really, it would be no bother for you to stay here. You can sleep in the guest room, down the hall."

"What about my clothes?" I was wearing a pair of jean shorts and a tank top.

"Taylor, can lend you some of his."

"Taylor can do what?" he said.

"Taylor Benjamin."

"Yeah, sure." He walked to his drawers and pulled out a pair of leaf-camo sweat pants and a hoodie. "Here."

"Thanks," I took them from them. How did I get myself into things like this?

 

Taylor

Was my mom crazy?? Did she really invite Hayley to spend the night?? At our house?? And did she really expect me to let Hayley borrow my clothes?

"Taylor Benjamin!"

"Yeah, sure." I walked over to my dresser and got some sweat pants. Noting that Hayley was only wearing a tank top, I pulled out a hoodie as well. "Here."

She took them, "Thanks."

"Here, I'll show you the room."

Hayley set her guitar on my bed, "Can I leave this in here?"

"Yeah, sure."

She followed my mom down the hall. I fell back onto my bed. The girl that I loved and hated all at the same time was going to be sleeping only a few feet down the hall.

I let out a deep breath, Okay, I can do this. It's no big deal. She's just gonna be sleeping. Then she'll wake up and leave. Everything will be back to normal soon. I hope.

I sat up, surveying my room. I set Hayley's guitar down on the floor. I picked up her song book. I could just sneak a peek and no one would ever know. But it's Hayley's private song book...but I want so bad to see what she wrote tonight.

No, I can't do it. I set the book down by the guitar.

 

Hayley

I laid my head back onto the pillow. I hate storms. Lighting flashed and the thunder rolled as if to reaffirm the fear I had. I know it's silly. A seventeen year old girl who is still afraid of storms...it just brings back bad memories.

I looked at the clock sitting on the bedside table: 2.30am.

I'm never gonna get to sleep...my brain was wired. Why had I written that song? Was it just sparked from the conversation I had with Jeremy earlier? Or do I really feel that way? Was it just a stupid fight? Am I too stubborn to say "I'm sorry?"

Not anymore.

 

Taylor

I lay across my queen-sized bed looking up at the ceiling. It was 2.30 and I was still wide awake. The rain was still coming down pretty hard. An occasional bolt of lighting struck followed by a loud burst of thunder; nevertheless, it had calmed down ever so slightly since earlier in the night.

My door began to creak open. "What the-"

"Tay," she moved closer to my bed.

"Hayley, what are you doing here?"

"I...I...I'm sorry."

I left my bed a wrapped her in my arms. She dropped her crutches and put her weight on me. I kissed her hair as silent tears fell down her face. "Here, sit down." We moved over to my bed. I wiped a tear off. "I'm sorry too. I just...don't want you to go."

Her thumb rubbed against my cheek, "I know. I don't want to go, but I have to. But I plan to make the most of my time before I have to leave Franklin." She smiled coyly.

I took my cue and kissed her lips. She pulled back, "I love you."

I kissed her again and then, "I love you too." This time I kissed her forehead, "More than you'll ever know."

"Can I sleep with you?" She asked.

"What?"

"Wait...not like that...just sleep. I don't want to be alone."

"You'll never be alone."

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aww...yay. that was my new years gift to you guys. hope you liked it!! and i hope 2010 treats you well :D

Today was very nice. Annie arrived about three o'clock. I went to meet her, but then I drove across the silver car and it was oan her father. I mounted and rode back. First, we made food and then we went to paint, hair and dress. Unfortunately, we forgot the camera, so we do not have a single photo. Actually we have. The webcam. Were we also see the fireworks. A dancing outside macarena. Fun it was! We overripeness, slightly drunk and tired now. I also called my dad to let me wish a happy new year. He was totally drunk. : D
Now we are sitting here with Annie, I fall asleep but I still just sit at the computer. : DD
So keep it nice and maybe you'll understand, I translated it with Google.

Happy New Year!

huge & love Kat

Cup's of Coffee Drank: 2
Ciggerettes: None
Alcahol Units: None
Music Played: Avenged Sevenfold, MCR, Miranda Lambert.
Tears Shed: Alot :(
Mood: Ill

It's New Years Eve, and aside from the fact that I am the ONLY person still in -clogged up with god knows what illness- Something really made my day...something you'll understand if your a Super Nerd like myself. Now on Channel Four they're doing a countdown of the best telivision of the "twentieens" and aside from the fact most of it is utter tosh -as my dad used to say- Im fairly impressed for the most part. Fifth was QI, and as any aspireing British Nerds will know, that show is both utterly entertaining and extreamly interesting. It's quite impressive the British public voted that fifth when its just a bunch of British actors/comidians sat around a table with Stephan Fry talking about usless facts of information. 3rd was Doctor freacking Who. And I really have to say, I LOVE David Tennent because of that show. Serious to god, this was a countdown of the best shows from the past ten years, and Doctor Who came third. That was a bloody good achivement if you ask me!! Exterminate! And of course, Number One would be Top Gear, but frankly, Top Gear deserved it. Its a bloody good show.

The countdown of the best songs was abit of an Anti-Climax, 3rd was The Artic Monkey - I Bet That You Look Good on The Dancefloor, it's a dying shame that band were so negative about their sucess. 2nd was Mister Brightside by The Killers, I'm not a big fan of theirs at all, but that song is a work of pure genius. Its so upbeat and unbelivably sad at the same time. Whenever Im really upset, you can tell, because I'll be playing that. But number one, ergh, Snow Patrol, Chasing Cars, not being funny but what a depressing song to end the year on. Though, to be honest, it's pretty appropriate.

Litrally, as I type this, it's just hit 2010. Im too ill to drink, but getting Shit-Wrecked would be pretty nice right now. (Still heartbroken [R.I.P Jimmy]) There are too many things I've got to do next year, Im so glad this one is over, honestly who DIDNT have a shit year this year? The Queen?
Someone upstairs had it in for the human race I think.

I've eaten a million shortbread buiscuits while writing this, and Im getting far to overexcited at David on Alan Carrs shiw -which I never watch normally, because its terrible-

Happy New Year

Bella
xo

PS: If Ryan gets drunk tonight, I'll murder his alcaholic arse

Shit Happens - Party Harder!

Today I say fuck you to the scale, tonight it´s party and a 3 dinner meal ( ehm what to say in english well 3 rätters middag in swedish :p)

I have heard that the new year is gonna be like it is on new year evening, well in that case I think 2010 gonna be a healthy and haooy year, cause Im not gonna drink anything tonight, well no alcohol at least, cause im out of money and Im still a little bit sick. And Im gonna be with some of my best friends, and Im always happy then Im spending time with them.

So! I really wish you a very happy 2010

xoxo Bella Manson

Yelloo citizens of Buzznet! I just feel that since 2009 is officially over in just a few hours I should do a little review... Don't have to read it. It's mainly just me ranting to myself about my shitty year.

Well, this year was pretty slow for me. Probably the laziest year I've had, and I feel really regretful about that. I started high school, made a few friends, but lost ALOT of close friends in the process. And I hate myself for that.

Today has gotta be the most horrible New Year's Eve for me EVER. I felt like crap all day, stomach sick, headachey, tired, you name it. Parents are going out, leaving me at home babysitting my little brother and his friend. Whoopee, what a way to spend New Year's Eve!!

Anyway, more from 2009. I saw a few of my favourite New Zealand bands of all time in Nelson (my hometown) with a friend, and it was great. One of my highlights of the year.

I'm moving January the third! I've lived in this shithole all my life, and I'm stoked to actually be getting out of here finally. One thing I regret from this year is becoming the shy kid of the class. One of my New Year's resolutions for 2010 is to not let that happen at my new school. Hopefully I can make better friends next year, friends who actually understand me, who I can relate to more, as I feel like the friends I have at the moment don't really get me that much? Plus, I want some friends who actually listen to DECENT music! Not Hannah Montanna or any of that crap! >:/

Okay, since most of my weekends consisted of at least one day of doing pretty much nothing all day, another one of my New Year's Resolutions is to do more with myself! Be less lazy, hang out with friends more (maybe I might keep a few next year :/).

A few things of 2010 I'm looking forward to are Jim Beam Homegrown (music festival here in New Zealand), which has 4 of my favourite NZ bands going to it, and PARAMORE IN MARCH! They're finally coming here!! So excited!!!!

 

 

Okay, on a more happier note, I JOINED BUZZNET THIS YEAR! October, and I'm glad I found it. I made quite a few good friends on here, and I love you all! Plus, I discovered a couple of AWESOME bands I probably never would've found if it weren't for buzznet, eg; All Time Low and The Maine! I also think my writing has improved since I began writing on here. THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO READS MY FICS!

I just want to say something quick about updates:

I recently updated First Impressions, so I think it will be another week or so before I can update again. Moving on Sunday, so I'm having to pack like crazy up to then. Plus, there's this Beach Tour type thingy happening near where I live on the 5th and 6th, so I'll definitely be there then! After that, it's just settling in, so I really have no idea when I'll be able to update. As for City Of Delusion, I'm having a little bit of writers block at the moment unfortunately. I'll try and update before we move, but I honestly don't think that will happen. So it may be another week before I can update that. TRULY SORRY GUYS!

 

Well, I'd better go. Thanks to anybody who took the time to read this long, boooooring post! Uprising by Muse just came on the radio so I'm off to sing as load as I possibly can whilst headbanging like a maniac! Now that's what I call an awesome way to spend New Year's Eve!! hahaha, bye everyone! Hope you all had an awesome Christmas and I wish you all the best for the new yeeeeeearrr!!!!

 

 

love that picture! ^ hahha, crack's me up. You're gorgeous Matt!

 

ANYWAY, asta la vista baby! *salutes*

Hi everyone) so,i've already had new year mood) and now im wanting to post my wish list)

1)"Humanoid" ring. this ring from video "Automatisch" by Tokio Hotel.

2)sidekick 2009

3)shoes of sweet-loli

now thats all) i hope i'll get everything in this list)

aw,and i want this one in my room =^_^= meooow

bye for now,

Love,Anfisa

xoxo