Gerard Way Blog and Journals

 

 

Amy.

We were older. 8 years older actually... i was 17. i still had a crush on Alex Gaskarth even though he was getting married with Tilde soon... actually... everyone was getting married eventually. Gerard and Alice got married ages ago and now it was everyone elses turn, even mine. Hunter asked me to marry him last year, but we werent able to actually do anything until i was 18, which was in a few days. When he asked me to marry him i was over the moon. i fell in love with him.

My mom was happy, my dad wasnt so sure since he's 20, but i didnt care. i was going to get married soon.

one morning i woke up at home and felt pain in my stomach and went to the bathroom, i knew i shouldnt have eaten that piece of bread that tasted weird...

i walked downstairs and saw Ray playing on some sort of gadget

"hey" i smiled and he lifted his hand up as a half wave to me

"Sam wants you to do her hair" he said

"yay!" i jumped and clapped my hands "ill go get my hair stuff"

i ran to my room and back down with a bag full of hair supplies

"god are you holding a body in there too?" he asked

"ummm... i have full body hair spray?" i said holding it up and he laughed

it was a week before i was getting married and all the girls were around me giving me support, seeing as most of them have been through what i was about to.

"you're gonna look gorgeous" Tilde smiled in tears "im already crying! but i know you're just gonna look beautiful in your dress walking down that fucking aisle!" she said hysterically and hugged me and i smiled

"thanks guys for being here for me" i said and Liana had tripped over the cat which ran away and everyone laughed

"oh my god, im sorry cat!" she called out

she was always a weird one with animals.

"i reckon we should give her our present now" Mara said

"YES! open open open" Sam said

"...but i dont have anything yet?" i said and Phoebe came with a box and kissed me on the cheek and hugged me tight

"awww... guys" i smiled and started crying and everyone hugged me

there was a photo frame and inside was a photo of a tree with all of our names carved into it

"oh my god! where is this?!" i asked

"down the road" Phoebe smiled

"yeah an old guy was yelling at us for killing nature" Mara said

"i told him to go away, but the point is... you'll always be our little girlfriend" Tilde said

"awwww" i said crying some more and we hugged again

"this week is all gonna be pre-wedding stuff... you know what that means girls" Sam said

"SHOPPING!" they all seemed to scream out

the next few days i had dizzy spells and even once threw up. something wasn't right. i went and bought a pregnancy test and peed on the bloody stick and waited. i havent seen Hunter much lately... he's always at work down at the music shop to get money to actually pay for this wedding. i felt so bad.

when i got the result i went off happily to go and find him. i went to his work and he wasn't there which was weird, apparently he wasnt there all week. i started to get worried, what if something happened to him? but the thing was, i saw him briefly yesterday. so if anything happened, it was between last night and right now. i went and called Alice but Gerard answered

"hey Amy" he said

"do you know where Hunter is?" i asked

"...no? is he in your pants? zing" he said and i smiled

"no Gerard, he hasnt been at work all week, but i saw him last night" i said

"did you ask him why he wasnt at work?" he asked

"well... no i just assumed he was there" i said

"maybe he's doing a secret thing for you... ill go call the guys" he said and i nodded "thanks"

maybe he was doing a wedding thing? i wasnt worried as much now.

it was three days before the wedding so i was quickly going over everything to make sure it was just right. Frank gave me a piggyback before i laughed and drove off to the church and reception. i decided to go to the hotel that we were supposed to go to after we got married, i had a key and Hunter always told me not to go see it until we got married, but i was curious anyway, and who knows, maybe he was in there doing wedding stuff... or touching himself.

i was wrong.

i opened the door and everything was dark so i turned the lights on and walked into the room and found Hunter in bed with Macie. fucking son-of-a-bitch Macie. they were both asleep so i pulled her out of the bed to see she was only in shorts and took her outside dazed and slammed her into the wall and she screamed

"HOW LONG HAS THIS BEEN GOING ON YOU FUCKING SLUT?" i yelled at her on the ground and she looked scared

"three...three" she stuttered

"three WHAT?" i asked

"three years Amy" she said and that totally shut me up.

he was cheating on me for three years.

i went back into the room and locked Macie out and walked to the bed and woke him up and he shit himself. i didnt say anything and he looked so frightened.

"Hunter. how could you lead me on? how could you ask me to marry you when you were seeing her? we would have gotten a divorce!" i said in disbelief

"i... i dont know. i love you" he said

"you make me sick. if your mom didnt bring Macie to the arena that day to try and take you away from me, this may not have happened" i said "but i was stupid enough to tell you that i loved you and won you over"

he sat up "i dont know what to say"

"then listen to this. NEVER TALK TO ME OR MY FRIENDS AGAIN."

"no.." he said getting up and taking my hand

"NOTHING can take this back Hunter. have fun fucking her with no stupid fiancees attatched." i said

he grabbed both of my arms and i slapped him "by the way, i'm pregnant"

he was about to say something but i cut in "im getting an abortion because no human being is coming out of me if it's apart of you"

i got up and walked out. 8 years and now im finally free.

  

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cliffhanger sort of.

im sorry for the sudden ending. but i was really stuck with this. &

im sorry it went from alice being the main pov and then amy.

my aunty had a baby today :) a girl!

my new ff leaked somehow but i never published it so i gotta fix that up, but.

im posting an intro after this.

get ready for panic! panic! panic! panic!

love you's & thank you for reading.

you keep me alive.

-sarahkiddo.

xxx

 

 

Amy.

Hunter and I were alone on his bus with the driver since there was another party tonight, we managed to make ourselves food and watched She's the Man since it wasnt just a boy or girl movie.

"i'm tired" i said softly

"do you wanna sleep here or in my bunk?" he asked "i can carry you if you dont wanna get up"

"...do you wanna carry me?" i asked laughing a little

"okay" he smiled and sat up and held me in his arms and picked me up

"wait... do you need to get changed?" he asked

"oh yeah" i said and yawned "i'll walk

"no, i like carrying you" he smiled and carried me to my bags and gently put me down and i picked up some stuff and went to the bathroom and came back out and he picked me up again and i laughed "its right there, i can walk Hunter!"

he put me in the bunk and climbed in and i just laughed "my bunk is more comfy"

"sorry" he said and laid his side and put his arm around me

"comfy now?" he asked and i nodded wearily

he stroked my back until i fell asleep.

 

-the next night.

Hunter.

 "hey Hunter, Bitch is on the phone for you" Uncle Bert said and he handed me his phone

"hello?" i said

"hey, its mom" she said and i laughed "hi mom"

"so how are things going over there? Bert been looking after you?" she asked

"yes mom" i said

"so what exactly have you been doing there?" she asked

"nothing really" i said

"hmm. theres something you're not telling me" she said

"i made some friends?" i said

"one of them being a girl named Amy?" she asked

"who told you?!" i demanded

"Bert, he is my brother after all. tell me about her!" she said happily

"i really like her..." i said going shy "she's so pretty and sweet..."

"aww, will i get to meet her when i come by tomorrow?" she asked

"what?!" i said

"im coming to check up on you" she said "and meet Amy"

"but.. no, you cant" i said

"why not." she asked

"well... i dont know. you're embarassing!" i said and she sighed "good."

"mommy please dont come and ruin my life..." i frowned and she laughed "you have alot to learn boy. i wont embarass you i just wanna see how you're doing. i did give birth to you, you know"

"i know" i said

"i'm excited now" she laughed "i get to meet your little girlfriend"

i went a little red now "bye mom" i said and hung up and walked away

the next day mom came and Bert ran away, she hugged me tight and looked at the bus being half trashed

"i dont wanna go any deeper than this end" she said and i smiled

"okay show me Amy! right now" she said happily taking me off the bus

"but what if she isnt ready? she might be asleep" i said

"she wont mind if i say hello" she said and we got on her bus and Chris smiled at me and i waved a little and saw Alice and Gerard talking and they both looked up

"hey Hunter, is this your sister?" Alice asked

"no thats my mom" i said and mom smiled "hello"

"oh... shit my bad Hunters mom" Alice said and got up and shook her hand and showed her around and i sat with Gerard

"why is she here?" Gerard whispered

"she wanted to meet Amy" i whispered back

"serious? wow... hate to be you" he said

"i know" i frowned and i heard abit of a squeal from mom

"i think she found her" Gerard said getting up

"you are so so adorable!"i heard mom say and then she came out holding Amys hand who was wearing a light pink dress and curled her hair today and she smiled at me

mom was walking to Alice and Amy managed to sneak away and i got off my seat and held her hand

"sorry, i only found out last night" i said quietly and we walked off the bus 

i wondered why Amy never made the first move with me, fair enough that she was a girl, but i felt like she wasnt feeling the same sometimes.

we went inside the arena where the band was playing tonight and i saw a blonde girl listening to her ipod that looked awfully familiar

"Macie?" i said and she looked up with her blue eyes and smiled "hey Hunter"

"what are you doing here?" i asked walking upto her

"my mom brought he down, shes doing something here... who's this?" she smiled at Amy

"that's Amy, my girlfriend" i said squeesing her hand and she smiled awkwardly

"this is Macie, she's from back home" i said smiling at her

i had a massive crush on her. but she found someone else... Randy. what kind of name is that? Dandy Randy. total loser.

Macie got a phone called and politely walked away and started talking and i couldnt stop staring at her. she was soo hot.

"um.. im gonna go" Amy said

"what? why?" i asked

"nothing that concerns you" she smiled a little "you look like you have some catching up to do"

"no, i wanna go with you" i said

"okay" she said and we were about to walk back

"Hunter!" Macie called out and i turned around and she told me to walk over to her, so i did

"my mom wants to know if you're coming home with your mom later for dinner" she smiled

"oh... no im staying here" i said

"you're not coming back?.. ever?" she asked

"well i will, but i wanna be with Amy" i said

"what if things dont work out.. then what?" she asked

"then ill go home" i said

"then would i have a shot?" she asked

"well... i guess" i said

"okay...i'll be waiting" she nodded and smiled and gently kissed my lips but it took me a long time to notice what was going on and i stepped back "woah, why'd you do that?"

"why do you think?" she asked

"you could have just said you liked me" i said

"i always liked you... i tried to make you jealous with Randy but all you did was run off to... this" she said pointing to the open area of seats

"i'm happy now" i said

 

Frank.

Amy came onto the bus and i smiled "hey sweetie, Hunters mom went onto the other bus"

but all she did was walk off into her bunk. i went in and saw her crying and frowned and sat down and hugged her

"what's wrong?" i asked

"everything" she sniffed

"start from the start" i said

she explained the girl Hunter was talking to and apparently asked him out, but he said no, so that was okay. but then she explained this Macy girl from his hometown who was suddenly around and he acted like he was her slave and she also explained the way that he was looking at her, that broke her heart.

"Amy" i said and she looked at me

"is he worth all of this? all that he is doing to you?" i asked

"i dont know" she said quietly "i know he likes me, but its just when he's around other girls... i get so jealous"

"maybe he isn't ready for a relationship?" i said

she started crying again and i rubbed her back. she didn't want everything to end, and i did see how happy he made her.

 

Bob.

i heard yelling and decided to go check it out. Hunter was yelling with some girl

"you have GOT to be the most oblivious boy in THE entire world!" the girl yelled and he walked off

"dont you DARE walk off on me" she said chasing after him

i grabbed hold of the girl and he ran

"let go of me!" she squealed

"SHUT THE HELL UP!" i yelled and surprisingly, she did

Amy.

i took a deep breath and stood up and got off the bus and caught Hunter while he was running

"wait, wait" i said and he sighed "oh it's just you"

"i have to say something" i said

"okay" he said breathing heavily

"we're two little kids thinking that we can fall in love this easily, but we cant" i said "i dont wanna spend months crying over the most stupidest things because im so young and i just cant take it. i just wanna be a kid"

tears started falling out of my eyes as i looked at him and pulled the ring off my finger

"we can't be together."

i put it in his hand, gave him one last look and turned around and walked back onto the bus

Hunter.

i went back onto my bus wondering if that really happened. i could remember everything perfectly.

"hey chickenbutt" Bert said and i saw mom

"why the sad face?" mom asked

"leave me alone" i said in a shaky voice and went into my bunk and started crying

Jeph and Quinn opened the curtain and wanted some answers, sensatively. when i was ready, i told them everything. every word. they both frownedm and hugged me and mom came by and was told everything aswell.

"Hunter" she said putting hher hand on my shoulder "there's more girls out there... nicer girls."

i shrugged. she was perfect.

"but the real question is... do you wanna come back home?"

Amy.

three days later and i was still feeling miserable, seeing all the couples on the bus, happy. i went to my bunk and wrote into my journal.

"dear diary.

i thought i was stronger, but i guess i'm not. it's been 3 bloody days and i havent stopped crying. i havent seen him either and wonder if he's okay. this is all my fault..."

i put it away and took a deep breath and wiped my eyes and Alice came and sat beside me with a letter in her hands "it's for you"

she put it in my lap and gently tapped my back twice and got up and walked off

"dear amy. i've decided to leave with mom and head back home, since there's no use for me being here anymore. i'm sorry for whatever it was that i did, but... if we can't be together then i think i'm gonna be alone for the rest of my life. i thought about staying and trying to prove to you that i care about you, and that i knew you because obsessed with pink things eversince you saw that strawberry shortcake ad on tv and that you didnt have one favourite colour because you thought they were all beautiful in someway and that you're scared of small bugs going up your nose while you sleep. i dont know if you knew that i loved you, probably because i never actually said it outloud except to Bert when i was sleep-talking about Barney the Dinosaur. please dont ever change who you are - you're too good to lose :( - love Hunter."

the ring i gave back was on the bottom and i put it on my finger.

i couldnt live without atleast seeing him around. i needed him.

"oh my god" i said and stood up and ran off the bus

i loved him.

 

Alex.

i was carrying Amy in my arms and Hunter was glaring at me, mega jealous.

"dont you wanna go hang with your boyfriend?" i asked and she shook her head a little upset

Hunter got bored and eventually walked off the bus

"what's wrong?" i asked Amy

"nothing" she said, but obviously something was up

we sat down and i gently stroked her hair "did Hunter say something?"

"no" she said shaking her head

"what's wrong honey?" i frowned "i dont like it when you're sad"

"i REALLY like Hunter" she said

"that's a good thing" i said

"but last night at the show, i saw him talking to this girl" she said

"but they were just talking right?" i said and she nodded

"it doesnt mean anything Amy" i said

"but he was all happy and stuff and normal with her, he doesnt do that with me, he's all quiet and not all smiley and laughing" she said

"but that just means he likes you. alot" i said "when i realised i liked Tilde more than a friend, i got all quiet and stuff too and then she got annoyed and asked what was up with me and well, i told her"

"and?.." she asked

"and we made out. the point is Amy, he's just nervous when he's around you... and sometimes he doesnt wanna express his feelings" i said

"i dont know" she sighed and put her head on my chest "being a girl is hard"

"i know.... not that i am one... i just understand" i said

"ALEX WEARS GIRLS UNDERWEAR!" Tilde called out and i went red "IT LOOKED LIKE MINE OKAY!" i yelled back and Amy smiled and i put an arm around her

"should i give Hunter advice?" i asked

"i dunno, i think he gets it from Bert" she said

"...okay im gonna go give him advice" i said getting up and sitting her on the couch

"wait, what are you gonna say?" she asked

"to be himself around you.. why do you want him to do something?" i asked

"more hugs" she said and i smiled "okay"

 

Amy.

the guys were playing a show so i was backstage, unfamiliar with this place so i decided to explore. i walked around and it was pretty dark and i tripped but got caught by Hunter

"be careful" he said gently holding me up

"im sorry" i said

"why are you sorry?" he smiled

"for not being careful" i said and he gently held my hand and we walked and sat down in a hall where there was a little more light

"why were you running around backstage anyway?" he asked

"i'm not really sure" i said

he picked me up and sat me on his lap and cuddled me.

awww.

"do you wanna come and sleepover on our bus tonight?" he asked and i felt cold in my stomach

"um... i.. i dont know, ill have to ask Alice" i said looking at him

"you can sleep in my bunk" he said happily and i went bright red

i was playing with the ring on my finger and i think he was watching me

"so... who was that girl last night?" i asked still playing with my ring

"what girl?" he asked and i rolled my eyes and looked at him

"i saw you laughing with a girl after the show" i said

"it was a random... she just came up and we talked" he said

"about...?" i asked

"i dont know, animals" he said

"really?" i asked

"...no." he sighed "she asked me out"

"oh..." i said shaking a little

"i said no" he said "dont cry dont cry!"

i started crying.

"im sorry, i didnt mean to lie, i just thought you'd get angry" he said holding me tighter

"im fine" i said wiping my eyes

he looked at me and i looked at him back

"sorry" he said and started tangling his fingers into my hair

"i should have just told you" he sighed "im sorry Amy"

"it's okay, i'm over it. i just cry alot" i said "i think i need to go and rest my brain"

my head was on his chest and he gently stroked my head, we probably looked like an emo couple right now. when i woke up i was still on him and sat up

"did i sleep for like.. ever?" i asked and he smiled "an hour?"

"oh" i said and stood up dizzy from the vibrations of the band on stage

Hunter got up and took my hand and we walked together to where we were supposed to be. he stopped suddenly and i looked at him "is something wrong?"

"no.." he said and kissed my lips like he did a few days ago and i smiled

"i dont know why i did that" he shrugged and smiled

"i thought it was sweet" i said and put my arms around his neck and he lifted me up and i laughed

"you make me really happy" he whispered

"well im glad" i smiled and gently kissed his cheek

he carried me around until we saw Alice

"Amy use your legs" she said and i looked at Hunter

"do you want me to put you down?" he asked and i nodded as he carefully put me on the floor and Ray came out all sweaty

"wow" i said and he smiled "hey Amy"

he went into the dressing room and the rest of the band followed and Gerard high fived me, i went and asked Alice about sleeping over and she started yelling at me and i freaked out and ran off crying

 

Alice.

i sighed and held my head. i shouldnt have yelled. they cant even have sex if they dont really know what it is. Gerard came up behind me

"hey, what was that about?" he asked and i started crying onto his chest and he patted my back

"sure... crying about nothing is normal" he said and i laughed a little

"i sound like mom right now, i wouldnt let Amy sleep in a bunk with Hunter and now she hates me" i said

"you're looking after her, im sure nothing would happen though" he said

"i dont know" i said "why am i so mean?!"

"because you're always naughty in bed and get a spanking" he said and i looked at him "shut up"

"its just one night and Bert will be around.. i doubt he'd allow it if they did anything either" he said

"you're right" i said

"i know" he smiled

i went on the bus and Amy was crying in her bunk and i frowned. i hated seeing her cry.

"Amy... im sorry" i said and she wouldnt look at me

"i changed my mind, you can sleep on Hunters bus" i said and she stopped sniffling

"just be careful okay? its a bus full of boys that dont wear clean underwear" i said and she nodded and i kissed her cheek

 

 

 

-x-

nothing too interesting today. 
im having lots of family people over today so its gonna be loud and boring and i have to clean up and GAAAYYY :'(

save me jebus.

 

love youuuuuuu's

 

x

 

rooftops - lost prophets - DOWNLOAD THIS SONG. ITS AMAZINGGGGG AT THE END.

"standing on the rooftops, waiting til the bombs drop, this is all we got now, scream until your heart stops, never gonna regret, watching every sunset, listen to your heartbeat, all the love that we've found, scream your heart out, scream your heart out."

 

 

 

DOUBLE POSTEEEEED. DO NOT PASS GO, DO NOT COLLECT $200.

Sam.

i spent the night sleeping and crying on the bus and then woke up again alone and took a deep breath and walked to the hotel and opened the door to our room.

 

Ray.

i was about to walk into the bathroom when the door opened and i saw Sam, we both looked at each other and i walked into the bathroom and closed the door. stupidly, i didnt lock it so she walked right in

"i know you hate me..." she began

"no i dont" i said "im just confused"

we sat on the side of the bathtub and she took a deep breath "sometimes i feel like.. you'd rather be working than be with me"

"what? really?" i said and she nodded

"i know we're always together on the bus or in the studio and before gigs but even then, you're playing guitar or on the computer fixing things up and before the gigs you always say you're nervous even though i know for a fact that you're not and cool you off" she said

"thats true" i said "i am pretty passionate about work and music"

"and thats not a bad thing.. i just feel like a third wheel to you and music" she said

"so you went and kissed Bob to try and teach me a lesson?" i asked

"no i kissed him because i was drunk. but ive spent a little more time with him then you since he's not always drumming and we've been getting closer" she said "i never should have done it... but i dont know. theres no excuse for what i did. i know that when we are together we do get abit... extreme"

"im sorry i havent been..overall affectionate" i said "ill try and spread it out more instead of in one big bang"

she smiled and i put my arm around her "i was about to have a shower, how about afterwards we go for a walk?"

"i thought you had a guitar solo you had to do today?" she said

"who cares" i smiled and she did too

 

Alice.

i was taking off the bandage that was over my tattoo and Amy walked in

"can you help me?" i asked and she nodded and pulled it all off for me

"wow thats pretty" she said

"good" i smiled and put the bandage away

"can i ask you something?" she asked

"yeah sure" i said "can Gerard listen too? its snuggle time?"

"..okay" she said and we walked to the couch and i sat on Gerards lap and he held onto me

"what's sex?" she asked and i nearly fell and Gerard laugh "oh god. the talk."'

"why? WHAT DID HUNTER DO" i yelled but Gerard held me back

"nothing, he just said that Bert said we couldnt have sex" she said

seemed innocent enough.

"does Hunter know what it means?" i asked

"i guess so, he told me it" she shrugged

"i dont know how to explain it to you. but i dont think it should happen since you're only nine and still like unicorns" i said

"you see Amy, when a mommy and a daddy love each other very very much.." Gerard went on and i covered his mouth and he licked my hand

"ew" i said

"is it scary?" she asked

"well... not really. its just wrong for little kids" i said

"oh" she said

"if Hunter touches you in a place that makes you feel uncomfortable then you slap him and tell me" i said

"and then what?" she asked

"ill get Tilde to come and kill him" i said

"okay" she said

 

Tilde.

"hmm." i said

"what?" Alex asked

"i have a sudden urge to hit someone" i said and held Alex's face and slapped him

"hey!" he frowned "your slaps hurt"

"sorry, i neeeded to get it out of my system" i said

he held me in his arms and kissed my neck

"i love you Tilde"

"mmm." i smiled and he kissed me and his phone was ringing loudly

"ugh" he said and hid it under a pillow and i laughed and reached for it and answered

"hello?"

"hi, i'm calling from a special service, are you interested in buying a vacuum cleaner?"

"no, Alexander does enough sucking, thank you!" i said happily and hung up

"who the hell was that and why did you reply with that?!" he asked

"some lady asked if you wanted a vacuum cleaner" i said

"and you said i do enough... oh" he said "TILDE!"

i smiled "well you do, pink pants boy"

"pink is a nice colour okay" he said

we were kissing on the bed and he put his hand down my pants and i laughed "no Alex"

"pretty please?" he smiled

i felt kinda weird since Alex was my best friend.

"you're birthdays in a few days right?" i said

"a little over a week" he said

"we'll do it then" i said

"really!" he said

"yes really. ill even call the vacuum lady" i smiled

"oh you dirty dirty girl" he said and cuddled me

i knew that he's wanted this for a long time now.

 

 

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:D

sex.

i always have sex in this fic lol.

HAPPY HALLOWEEEENIE.

i have ideas for the next fic. it will be based on PANICCCCC! <3

love you's

xx

 

1981 - gyroscope

 

Ray.

We just played a show and we were celebrating for everything in a nightclub for the afterparty, everything was fine, it was just id spend my Saturday nights doing something else. I went to the bathroom and ran into some fans that thanked us for the show and i spent a few moments talking to them and then went to go find Sam. But when i did, i wish i didn't.

Sam had a bottle in her hands and she was kissing Bob. i thought nothing was going on, but i guess the pain in my stomach was right

"Hey Ray" Alice smiled and looked in my direction and was left speechless

she went over to them and pulled them apart and started yelling at her and i walked back to the hotel alone wondering what the hell was going on.

Mikey.

Phoebe and I were holding hands and i was kissing her and she smiled

"so, enjoying life so far?" i asked and she nodded

"thats good" i said putting my hand on her side and she was staring at me adoringly

"im gonna kiss you again" i said and leaned in and she put an arm around me as i kissed her

"hey guys... oh" Alice said and we both stopped

"sorry" she said

"its fine" Phoebe said "whats up?"

"have you seen Toro? i was with him and then he was gone" she said

"uh no..." i said looking at Phoebe

"i saw him walk outside before" she said

"okay.. thanks" Alice smiled and went outside

Phoebe was looking at me again

"Phoebe..." i said

"yes?" she smiled slightly

"i wanna rape you again" i said and she sighed

"you should know by now the feelings i have when im around you" i said and she laughed

"i cant help it if im drop dead GORGEOUS" she smiled "but im not always so hormonal like you are"

"i know" i said putting both my arms around her

"come and dance with me" she smiled pulling my arm

"no" i frowned not moving

"oh come on, you cant be that bad" she said

"trust me, i am" i said

"you're putting sex on the line here" she frowned

"but..." i said

"there will be alot of butt." she smiled

"fine" i groaned and followed her onto the floor

 

Bob.

"woah woah woah, i know you're tipsy but you cant just do that" i said to Sam

"what the fuck do you think you're doing?!" Alice said angrily but she was speechless "Ray saw the WHOLE thing, and now he's gone somewhere"

"he saw me?" Sam said a little scared

"he's heartbroken now Sam, look what you did" Alice said

"i know we're becoming greater friends but.. i love Liana. more than anything in this world, and i dont want to ruin that by something that happened for a minute" i said

Sam was crying and ran away and Alice sighed "i better go find Ray"

i nodded "i'll try calling him and talking him through it"

Alice ran off and i pulled my phone out

"Bob?" i heard and turned around and saw Liana playing with her nails "did you really mean what you said?"

i walked towards her "of course i did, i'd never do anything like that to you, drunk or sober"

she smiled and hugged me "thank you"

"wanna go sit outside? i need some air" i said

"okay" she said and held my hand and we walked and sat out the back on some crates

 

Alice.

when i didnt find him, i went to his hotel room and heard noises from the tv. i knocked on the door and the noises were gone

"Ray... it's just me, Alice" i said "i know you probably dont want to talk to anyone right now and that you feel like you're hearts been torn and thrown away, but that can all change if you just open the door."

he eventually opened the door looking emotionless and i hugged him and he started crying

"it's okay" i said quietly and we went inside and i sat down with him touching his hand 

"i've never had my heart broken like this before" he said sniffling

"i know, we all experience that a few times in life" i said "the first time is the worst"

"but i love her..." he said

"Ray, you're a smart cookie. you do amazing things for yourself and the band not giving a crap about how famous you can get or how many fans you'll have. You're one of the most respected people in my life" i said and he looked at me

"i know that Sam loves you, but if you just talk to her and find out why she's doing this, you can fix this" i said

"but what if she doesnt love me anymore and thats why she's moving on?" he asked

"then ill kill her" i said and he smiled a little

i stayed and watchedm tv with him and got a call from Gerard

"hey, im sorry i just left" i said

"thats okay, i didnt freak out since you were recently kidnapped or anything" he said

"you know i'm fine" i said "im in Rays room watching cartoons"

"oh yeah i heard what happened. of course my girl would go and try and solve everything" he said

"of course" i smiled "hooked up with fans yet?"

"nope but i got grabbed a few times" he said and i laughed

"anyway... i'll call when i go back to the hotel" he said

"okay, bye" i smiled

"was that Gerard?" Ray asked

"yeah" i said putting my phone away

"im sorry" he said

"he'd rather me be here and helping a friend out, Ray" i smiled "i thought you'd be happy, you've seen me naked"

"it was an accident!" he said going red

 

Amy.

i was on Berts bus since everyone else was at some party. I was sitting on Quinns lap reading an article about the band

"read that bit right there" Quinn said pointing and i read closely

"so Quinn, how does it feel to be the hottest guy in the band, according to fans?" i said and then glared at him and he smiled

"stop hogging my girlfriend!" Hunter said and i smiled going red to the calling of "girlfriend"

"fine fine" Quinn said i'll read about myself on my own"

i got off his lap and sat with Hunter who was playing on his laptop

"there is this AWESOME zombie game" he said and Quinn laughed behind his magazine

"do i look like a zombie slayer to you?" i asked

"no, you look like a girl" he said

"i'll just watch you play" i said

"okay" he said "and Bert said we can't have sex"

"oh okay" i said

i have no idea what sex is.

 

 

:)

love you's.

xx

 

your crashing but your no wave - fall out boy <3

Warning - mature content.

 

"You've been assigned to the same flight as Iero, Bryar, Masters and Hughes - you're in Sergeant Way's squad." the Corporal said shortly. "Oh, and Sergeant Way would like to brief you on what you'll be doing tomorrow. I'm to escort you."

I nodded, rolled off my bunk, stood up and followed Corporal Toro out of the bunkhouse, or whatever they called it in the forces.

We walked for what seemed like about five minutes, in the slowly fading daylight. When we finally got to a small building, quite a way away from the main area, the Corporal turned to me.

"Alright, you're to go in here. The Sergeant wants to brief you on certain aspects of military life - what you'll be expected to do in the first few months, etc. I'll be back here to collect you at twenty two hundred hours, giving you two hours." He then stepped forward and knocked on the door. I sighed and took a deep breath, not having the slightest idea of what to expect. There was an answer from inside the small brick hut; Corporal Toro glanced over.

"You may go in, Way." I nodded and stepped forward, opened the door and stepping uncertainly inside.

The room was dimly lit, furnished like you'd expect an office to be. "Sergeant Way" sat behind a desk cluttered with empty cups, papers, files and other shit. He didn't look up as I entered, but, obviously hearing me, he gestured to the chair on the opposite side of the desk. I sat down.

"You wanted to see me, Sergeant?" I wasn't sure whether I should address him as such or not, being a new recruit.

"Yeah, you could say that." I breathed in sharply, recognizing my brother's voice immediately. Of course, I knew perfectly well it was him - but it just gave me that little bit more courage. Even though he still wasn't looking at me.

"Well..." I hesitated, then decided to continue. "The Corporal said you were gonna brief me on certain aspects of the military life...?"

"Why'd you join, Mikes?" he asked, finally looking up at me. I almost recoiled in surprise - he looked like he was only just holding back suppressed anger. "Why'd you sign your life away like this? You're still just a little kid" I didn't have to think about my answer.

"Because I needed to see you. I'm sorry, but I just can't be without you. Nobody understands. And I don't know what to do." Gerard got up and walked around the desk, slipping between it and me, leaning back against it. I smiled slightly, he was shorter than me by at least three inches now. And fuck he looked sexy in his officer's uniform.

"I don't know what to do...help me Gee," I repeated, adding the last bit, whispering his nickname. Gerard regarded me seriously, then suddenly grabbed my black shirt collar and pulled me ferociously towards him.

"How about..." he began, and kissed me. I froze for a moment, then began kissing him back, kissing him like I'd never kissed anyone before. I opened my mouth slightly to take a shuddery breath and before I knew it, his tongue was dancing along the roof of my mouth. I decided to take control and deepened the kiss even further, linking my own tongue with his, playing with it, with him...pushing him back onto the desk, on top of piles of paperwork...showing him I wanted to lead, I had to lead, like we'd done once before in our room, one afternoon when our parents were out...

"L-lock the d-door, Mikes," he murmured, pushing himself up ever so slightly as to break the contact between us. I straightened up and hurried over to turn the key, then almost ran back to the desk. It was pretty obvious what was going to happen.

I forced Gerard back down on the desk again, the sexual tension in the room was almost suffocating. My hard-on was killing me yet I could feel Gerard's own erection pressing up against me. I kissed him again, this time simply little teasing pecks against his lips. I moved my hands up his body, finding his jacket buttons and undoing them gently, removing that, then his shirt and tee. Groaning with anticipation, Gee reached up and almost ripped my shirt over my head. I stopped in surprise for a moment; he took advantage of the moment to pull me on top of him again and, as I gritted my teeth and tried to contain myself, he began kissing my neck, taking little nips at the skin. All I could do was lie there and enjoy it.

Next thing I knew, my shirt was on the floor, along with Gerard's regulation pants leaving him in just boxers, me in jeans. I began to take control again, and leaned forward, licking his collarbone tantalisingly, dragging my tongue down his chest and stomach til I reached his boxers.

"Oh fuck, Mikes, just do it," he gasped, bucking his hips so hard I almost fell off. I slowly eased his boxers down, smirking teasingly up at him.

"Little kids can play dirty too, Gee," I murmured and took him into my mouth, crouching on the floor now, loving the feel of him quivering with anticipation as I ran my tongue over his slit, playing with him again. I didn't hold him for long, being too close to coming myself. After a couple of minutes I had him screaming my name, begging...if only he knew how close I was...

I straightened up and quickly ripped my jeans and boxers off, discarding them carelessly on the floor, went back to Gerard, still lying on the desk, a tortured look in his eyes. I met his gaze.

"Just go for it...I don't care if it hurts...Oh god, Mikes, do it..." he moaned shakily. I nodded and spat on my hands, coating my dick the best I could, then inching forward and guiding myself into him. I positioned myself above him, his legs scissoring my waist, and entered him again, making him gasp this time.

"Fuck...yeah, there Mikes...oh god, yes," he moaned as I hit the spot. I pulled out, then re-entered him, my dick throbbing so hard now. I knew we wouldn't last long.

"Gee...I'm gonna..." I began, then came inside him before I could even finish, so hard I almost lost my balance. I pulled out for the last time and collapsed back on top of him.

"What about me, Mikey, I need it so bad," Gerard whined. I leaned back to stare at him.

"You really waste a lot of my efforts sometimes, Gee," I told him, sliding my hand down his hard member. He shuddered violently as I began pumping him.

"Harder, fucking harder," he hissed as I ran my thumb over him. I went harder, faster, obliging his needs until...

"Mikey," he screamed and came all over the desk and my hand. I licked some of the liquid off my fingers, watching him seductively from under my eyelashes.

"I've missed you so fucking much," I told him, matter of factly.

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A few months later, we got deported...sent out of the country to fight the enemy. I'd only just completed the basic shit I needed to do, yet they obviously thought our flight had the best chance of survival. Whatever.

We got a boat from the huge forces ship to the shore, on our boat it was Sergeant Way's group and another flight, most of the guys I knew already.

Frank threw up on the boat ride; he told me it was cause he didn't travel well...I knew he was fucking terrified. We all were.

As we were approaching the shore I could see other boats, gliding through the sea mist on either side of the ours. I could hear yells and orders being thrown about on land; the crackle of the guns and the occasional deafening blast of a shell.

The boat was metres away from the shore; Gerard leapt out and ordered the rest of us to follow him. No one dared refuse, not that there was any other option anyway. We followed him like sheep.

When the order was given, we threw ourselves to the ground, checked our guns and began firing. Well. Some of us did; others were selected to go on ahead.

"Way, go. Now," my brother yelled at me, pointing up the beach. I jumped up and, trying my best to keep myself as low as possible, I sprinted up the beach, aiming for the dunes.

I never made it.

About halfway there, a gun went off. It was different from all the others, because it found its target. Me. It hit me dead on in the right side of my rib cage. I stopped short, straightened up as half my ribs on that side shattered, and at least two punctured their way into my lung. I tried to gasp for breath, went down, the pain causing hot tears to course down my cheeks, leaving tracks through the grime of spending over three weeks on a ship with no bathing facilities.

I hit the sand hard, the impact jarring my ribs and my punctured lung even more. There were stars spinning in front of my eyes and a buzzing noise filled my ears.

"Private Way...Way, can you hear me...MIKEY!" a voice yelled. I blinked hard, struggling to focus on the figure kneeling over me. It was Corporal Toro, the assigned medic.

"How many fingers, Way?" he asked urgently, shoving his hand at me. I groaned, and tried to speak but a flow of blood poured from my mouth, dribbling down my chin, into my lap. I collapsed back on the sand, staring up at the painful sky. A face suddenly appeared, blocking my view; it was Gerard. He looked devastated...why? Couldn't he understand that the army wasn't a place for little kids? I was going...

A sharp pain jolted me; it was Toro, doing something to my wound. I tried to tell him it was hopeless, that it didn't matter, but all that came through my lips was the metallic, bitter trickle of more blood. Gerard was crouched next to me, taking off my helmet...I could see him, he was mouthing my name, over and over. MikeyMikeyMikeyMikeyMikeyMikeyMikey. Maybe he was saying it, or screaming it, I couldn't hear him though. The buzzing noise was fading now, and so was the light. A couple of soldiers were grabbing hold of my brothers arms, pulling him back. The pain on his face was hard to see, yet I knew it was there. Don't be sad, Gee, don't hurt cause of me, I wanted to tell him but I knew he wouldn't hear. Nobody would hear, as I drifted into a sea of dark.

 

"And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me

For all the ghosts that are never gonna....."

 

P.O.V one

"Next," the Sergeant behind the desk called. I got to my feet and nervously walked over. I needed this, needed something to believe in. I wanted it so badly, but the things I'd had to sacrifice to get it...my parent's happiness, my mates, the sketches and drawings, the music...these were minor things, though, minor little trivialities compared to having to leave what mattered to me most in the world. Him.

My whole life, I'd felt like a failure. In high school, almost everyone had ignored me. I'd been terribly shy and so I'd got through by just drowning my sorrows away in drink. Either that, or bringing my screwed up thoughts to life through my sketches. There was only one person who I'd ever been able to talk to properly, about everything, and now I'd gone and left him. Again.

I sat down on the other side of the desk and the Sergeant raised his head and met my eyes.

"Name and age?"

"17, and my name is Gerard," I replied quietly. "Gerard Way."

__

Years later.

P.O.V two

__

"Next!"

The yell from the Sergeant behind the desk made me almost fall out of my seat in shock. Was it my turn already? I glanced around at the other guys in the lines of seats, but nobody caught my eye...like they were avoiding me. I sighed and stood up, walking over to the desk. I'd wanted this for so long, it was hard to believe I was actually here now. Maybe I'd rushed it all a bit...I mean, jumping up and leaving like that...I didn't regret it though.

Back at school, I'd been nothing more than just another shadow. I'd basically just followed others, watching and silently wanting what they had. This, though...no, this was different. I wanted it because it was a chance to actually prove to myself that I wasn't some greedy little kid who always wanted attention. It was because of him.

I pulled the chair out and sat down, glowering at the Sergeant for no particular reason.

"Name and age?" he asked.

"M-Mikey, Mikey Way...and I'm 17."

Later

I was lying on my bunk that Corporal something-or-other had showed me to, when the door opened and several other young men walked in, most talking animatedly about some incident that seemed to have happened on the rifle range earlier on. One guy though, walked over to stand by my bed.

"Hey kid, you new here then?"

"Yeah, just joined up today," I replied, without looking at him.

"Oh right, cool - can I sit down?" I said nothing so he took my silence as a yes, and sat down on the edge of my mattress. "Nice to meet you, we're all your roommates. I'm Frank Iero. What's your name?"

"Mikey, Mikey Way," I yawned. This conversation was beginning to get boring. "Who are all these guys then?"

"That's Jamie Philips, Ed Masters, Bobby Bryar and Jasper Hughes," he pointed each one out when he said their names; Bobby - a blonde haired guy with very blue eyes, turned and gave me a friendly grin. He was the only one...I guessed the other's had all grown tired of all this by now.

"So what happens next then?" I asked, rather unenthusiastically.

"Well, hopefully Corporal Toro will come and tell you who's squad you're in soon," Frank shrugged. "Then tomorrow you'll probably start "basic training", which is just the fancy term for "basic suicide unless you're made of stronger shit". Trust me, it's awful but the sooner it's over, the better."

"Hey - midget kid," the blonde guy, Bobby suddenly called. I guessed he was talking to Frank since Frank was obviously the shortest member in the room. Frank glanced around.

"Don't call me that, asshole. What?"

"Who's squad is the new guy in?"

"I dunno," Frank shrugged. "Man, I gotta take a piss. Bryar...wanna come explain the squad situation to young Mikey Way here?"

"Sure," Bobby came and sat down on my bed as Frank walked out the door. "Okay, Mikey. How it usually works is like this: most guys sharing a room get to stay in the same squad, where you'll be doing drill, shooting, field exercises and shit. All of us in here are in the Sergeants squad, except Jamie Philips. Chances are, you'll be put in with us four. Can I ask you a completely irrelevant and personal question?"

"Whatever," I yawned. I'd only been in this place a few hours and it was already wearing me out.

"Are you a homosexual?" Bobby asked in a low voice.

"Yeah," I replied, closing my eyes. "Why, does that bother you?" He burst out laughing.

"Not at all, man. So are your family cool with it...stop me if I'm being too nosey, yeah?"

"My family are cool, yeah," I drawled. "My brother Gerard's actually gay too."

"Whoa, no shit man! So is he, like really girly or anything? You're not obviously, but-"

"Gerard's a complete dyke, only he keeps it a secret," I retorted. "He, like, dresses in drag and shit when he's at home. He only joined up cause he lost faith in everything else. He's actually in the army too, at this base I believe. That's not why I'm here though."

"Whoa, slow down a moment," Bobby cut in. "You're brother is gay...and he's in the army, stationed at this very base? Fuck...what's your last name, Mikey?"

"Way," Frank announced, walking back over and collapsing down on my bed. "Like our Sergeant...only they're probably not even related." The next minute was very confusing, considering all three of us spoke at once.

Me: "Gerard's a Sergeant?"

Bobby: "You're our Sergeant's brother?"

Frank: "Our Sergeant's gay?"

We all looked at each other, then began laughing hopelessly, but were cut off a minute later by the Corporal who had shown me here - Toro? - entering the room.

"Guys! Calm the fuck down already. Okay, Mikey Way? You're the new kid, right?"

"Yeah, why?"

"Oh. Okay. Don't worry, you're not in trouble. I've just been sent to tell you that you've been assigned to the same flight as Iero, Bryar, Masters and Hughes - you're in Sergeant Way's squad."

 

 

A/N  Okayyy, I posted this chapter about two months ago but never got around to finishing it.  Finally, I've managed to write the second chapter, which is only why I'm reposting it now.  Let me know what you think, it's my first finished Waycest and my first gay sex scene XD

Warning - next chapter contains mature content!!

 

 

Alice.

"so" Bert said and i looked at him

"your little sisters getting some now" he smiled and i glared at him and pushed him over

"oh come on, its cute" he said

"i know its cute, but now way in hell is my little sister getting some at the age of nine" i said and helped him up

he shrugged a little and Frank came upto me "good to go?"

"ahuh" i smiled "bye Bert" i waved

"where are you going?" he frowned like a little kid

"im getting a tattoo" i said

"with my name on it?" he asked hopefully

"uh no" i smiled

"what are you getting a tattoo of?" Frank asked

"Stevens name. i already have "Daddy" down there since he died, so" i shrugged

"oh okay" he said "i wanna get Maras name on my butt, but she said no"

i laughed at that comment

 

Ray.

"okay, imma count to 20 and you gotta hide" i said

"okay!" Sam smiled

we were playing hide and seek with Bob, Liana, Alex and Tilde since we had nothing better to do

"okay... go!" i said and they all scattered away and i counted against a tree and then went to look for them

i heard a squeal, but it didnt sound like a happy one and i walked over to some bushes and found Tilde on the ground laughing

"found you!" i said pointing to her and she smiled as i helped her up "that wasnt fair, Alex tripped me. he's behind the bins anyway because he smells so BADLY" she yelled out looking at the bins and followed me and i found him crouched down pretending to be a rubbish bag

"uh.. Alex?" i said

"im not Alex" he said

"sure you are" i said

"nope, just a rubbish bag" he said and i laughed

"well we found you anyway, but you can stay there if you want" Tilde said

"shut up Tilde" he said

"AHA IT'S ALEX" Tilde smiled "rubbish bags dont know my name"

Alex got up and dusted himself off

"okay lets go!" he said and ran ahead of me trying to look for people

We found Liana because she was getting chased by a bee and running away from it, so we just left her to run and had to find Sam and Bob. We looked everywhere and i started to get worried

"what if they teamed up?" Tilde asked

"what if they're making out?" Alex said

"NOT FUNNY" i frowned

"my bad" he smiled and we all saw movement and looked to the left

"behind that shed?" i asked and they both nodded

"it might just be Liana and that bee" Tilde said

"i dont think so..." Alex said

We found them both behind the shed anyway and went back to Liana who was sitting on the ground with the bee sitting on her palm

"we both gave up" she said breathing heavily and the bee buzzed a little and Tilde laughed "naw thats cute"

Bob and Sam were laughing together and then they both went inside together and i felt a little jealous, i doubt that anything was going on though.

Amy.

I was with Bert and he was teaching me to play piano

"you're getting better" he said and i smiled

"i guess thats the end of our lession today" he said and i got up "thanks B"

he laughed "you're welcome"

i liked the end of the lession because he gave me lollipops

"so... arent you gonna run off to the bus?" he asked

"no" i said "wheres my reward?"

"in my pants" he said and i looked at him

"im joking, its here" he said holding it upto me "be careful, Hunter licked it"

i unwarpped it and put it in my mouth and the wrapper in the bin

"you kids are sick" he said a little grossed out

 

Alex.

"it gets lonely when Amy doesnt love you anymore" i said

"i love you?" Tilde said

"i know" i smiled and kissed her head "but i want Amy to love me"

"but you thought it was weird that a little girl fell in love with you" she said

"but i miss the stalkerness" i frowned looking outside

"aww" Tilde said "she has a crush on Hunter now, just let it go. she's over you" she said trying not to laugh

"dont laugh!" i cried out and she started laughing and walked off on me so i wouldnt hit her

"sometimes i feel like you're a bitch" i said

"took you long enough. sometimes i feel like you dont love me like you love her" she said

i frowned "but im innocent"

"as innocent as Hitler!" she smiled

"WHAT IS WITH THE INSULTS!" i cried out and she laughed and gave me a hug "i'm sorry, im just in a happy mood"

my mood changed completely

"does Alex get sex since Tilde's so happy?"

she looked at me "you can touch my chest later"

"score" i smiled and she laughed again and started to kiss me

"i love you" i said with my head on her neck

"i love insulting you" she said

"i'd yell at you but i cant be bothered" i said

"even if i told you i dyed your jeans pink this morning?" she asked

"what?!" i said sitting up straight and she ran like hell as i chased her

 

 

<3

i dont really know what the purpose of this chapter was.

but i am ALL up for chest grabbings.

 

love you's

xxxx

 

Prostitution is the worlds oldest profession (and dear madame i am a professional)

"go on believe if it turns you on, take what you need til your bodys numb. prostitution is revolution. so just get it while you can"

Alice.

it was three days since Stevens death and we had a funeral. We didnt actually have a proper ceremony, we just laid him to rest. There was nothing i could say. He had no family as far as i'm concerned. I held in my hand a black rose and gently placed it onto the coffin right in the middle and everyone else started throwing their flowers as i coffin went down, it was hard to see, luckily Gerard had his arm around me and i took deep breaths and shut my eyes and felt the tears roll.

He started to get buried in dirt and more tears came along, not just from me but almost everyone. it's hard to see someones life end. its hard to be at a funeral even if you dont know the person, its just a sad time.

Frank walked upto me and i looked at him and all i could think of was "he killed him" he looked as sad as i was and held his arms out and hugged me, he was even shaking a little bit. I didnt know if i could forgive Frank... i just didnt know.

The boys went off recording again and i went back to the hotel alone to try and think. i wasnt sure what to think about, but i needed to think. I was sleeping when my phone rang and i didnt even realise and answered

"hello?"

"hey Alice" Amy said

"hey babe" i yawned "is everything okay? wait.. who's phone are you ringing from?"

"Gerards" she said and i smiled by how cute her voice sounded over the phone "oh"

"he said he's worried about you" she said

"tell him im fine, i was napping" i said

"okay... he's singing right now, wanna hear?!?!" before i could answer i heard a thud and i could briefly hear him singing

"well i thought i heard you say i like you, we can get out, we dont have to stay, stay inside this place"

"this is the best day ever" i smiled

"pardon?" Amy asked

"nothing.. just tell him im okay" i said

"okay, can we talk tonight?" she asked

"about boys? a.k.a HUNTER?" i grinned

"yes, im hanging up now" she said and hung up

Gerard then called me a little while after, while i was actually awake

"hello?" i said unsure if it was him or Amy

"hello baby" he said and i rolled my eyes "hi. i heard you singing?"

"really? was i that loud?" he asked confused

"no, Amy put the phone upto the wall" i smiled

"ohh. yeah she told me she called you without telling me, anyway, i miss you" he said

"i miss you too" i said softly

"im gonna bail soon anyway, i might walk to you if i have to. you should totally come outside and we'll do that slow-mo run thing... except we need a field" he said and i laughed

"i'll start walking over now and we'll meet in the middle?"

"sounds good, be careful okay?" he said

"i'll do my best" i smiled a little

"okay, love you" he said

"i love you too man whore" i said and hung up and went and did my hair and walked out with my stuff and accidentally walked into someone walking by

"crap, im sorry" i said and he smiled "no problem"

and then he winked at me and walked off and i went red and ran to the lifts and went down laughing from embarassment. When i saw Gerard he gasped and ran over to me like a little kid so i just stopped walking comepletely and he jumped on me in the form of a hug and i smiled

we started to kiss on the sidewalk and i felt his smile

"i saw you a few hours ago" i said

"i know" he said and held my hand and we walked back "just after today i felt bad for leaving you alone"

"its okay" i smiled "was Hunter at the studio?"

Gerard grinned and nodded "Amy was pretty happy, they held hands today and walked around"

we went back to the hotel and the first thing Gerard said was "we havent had sex in a while, i know its insensitive, but true"

i laughed "not even a dinner? a movie?"

"my bad" he smiled

i went ahead and took his pants off while we were on the bed and i realised that we really havent done this in a while... god ive had more sex with his brother than him. dont think about that dont think about that. I think ive had sex so many times that i'm over it now.

after having a shower together which i kept giggling in because it was so weird and Gerard tried to make it sexual, Amy came up to have a chat with Frank

"oh" i said and he walked upto me "i dont know what i can do to make you happy"

"i am happy, its just you" i said and he frowned even more and i found it kinda cute

"i have an idea" i said and his face lit up "what? what?"

"come with me to the tattoo parlour and pay for my tatt" i said

"um okay" he said "when?"

"tomorrow" i said

"okay" he nodded "will you hug me?"

i smiled and hugged him tight and Amy cleared her throat "we need to talk Frank! go away"

"okay okay" he said and got up and talked to Gerard and Amy and I sat on the sofa

"as you may know, Hunter and I are taking it slow" she said and i smiled "how slow?"

"Bert said he could stay on the bus with them, so he could be with me" she said

"wow he must really like you" i said

"well duh, look at me" she smiled "anyway, he wants to like.. prove his worthiness to me, to be his girlfriend"

"i see" i said

"but thats all cool and stuff, i cant wait til it happens but..." she said

"but..." i said

"im worried about.. when we kiss" she said

"what do you mean? cooties? dude thats all a myth" i said

"no like.. kissing him. on the lips. properly" she said

"ohhh. its not hard, look" i said and got up and made out with Gerard while he was talking to Frank and he just looked at me

"you were a demonstation" i smiled at him and went back to Amy

"but thats different, you've loved him for years.. who was the first boy you kissed? how did that go?" she asked

i thought back and realised... "Alex" i said quietly and she gasped "YOU NEVER TOLD ME THAT!"

"WE WERE 13!" i yelled back for some reason

"oh my god!!!" she said

"it was bad, i remember shaking so bad that i ran off" i said

"then what?" she asked

"he came and found be behind the bushes crying" i said

"and then what" she asked

"he told me not to be scared because he didnt know what he was doing either" i smiled

"i guess..." she said "if i do it badly i can just run off too"

"you're nine.. i dont think he expects your tongue to go in his mouth" i said

"i gotta be prepared" she shrugged

 

Bert.

"dont screw this up" i said

"shut up, i wont" Hunter said angrily

"you shut up" i said

"no you shut up" he said

"fuck you" i said and Dan came and hit me "he's eleven!"

i rubbed my arm "sorry kid"

"whatever" he said "i like Amy anyway, so i wont stuff it up"

he went to the bathroom and did his hair and Amys laughter was heard outside and i smiled as i saw her walk on and wave to someone

"hello!" i smiled and hugged her

"hi!" she smiled back "hi Dan"

"hey" he smiled at her

we were all going to dinner to celebrate how awesome our bus was. we started off having dinners for celebrations, new records, new bands singing up, birthdays, but now when we want dinner we just make it up as we go.

we went to a restaurant and Hunter held the door open for Amy and she smiled and walked in with me, looking like a princess. we sat in a booth and talked until food came and Amy looked a little worried, i had a feeling i knew why.

"you think you're gonna look silly eating infront of Hunter?" i whispered quietly to her and she nodded still looking worried

"he wont look at you when there's food. sad but true. i swear" i said and she smiled and slowly ate looking at him to see if he was looking at her, but hell no he wasnt.

after they ate they both looked a little lost

"can we go play on the playground?" Hunter asked

"sure" i smiled "take care of the little lady, shes in a dress" i added

 

Amy.

to our surprise no one was on the playground, maybe because it was tightass Tuesday at this place. we sat above the slide together and Hunter held my hand and i was kicking my feet nervously

"i have something to say" he said

"yes?" i smiled

"i havent met any girl like you before..." he said

"is that bad? do you think im a boy?" i asked

"no" he smiled "you're just so smart... and pretty... and.."

he leaned in and kissed my lips and i felt my heart flutter in a small surprise. he pulled away and i looked at him. in kid world, a kiss on the lips meant alot.

"that was sweet" i said

"thank god- i just ate garlic bread" he said and i smiled

"i really want you to be my girlfriend Amy, i'll do anything" he said

"young love never really lasts.." i said "what if i get hurt?"

"lets change that then. if things happen then we'll just have to let it go" he said

"okay" i smiled

"i have this for you" he said giving me a tiny shiny ring

"thanks, i love it" i said and he put his arm around me

"i'm really happy when you're around" i said and he smiled and sweetly kissed my red hot cheek

"i hope by now, you know how i feel about you" he said and i nodded "i know"

 

 

 

 

<3

i couldnt find a picture for them both >___<

its all just in my head.

a really attractive brunette couple.

 

love you's

x

 

 

 

 

Amy.

Alice slept with me in my bunk as her way of feeling bad for forgetting my birthday

"Bert told me about you and his nephew" she said

"you heard nothing" i said and she laughed a little and held me tight

"you're growing up. thats all" she said "it's normal to likes boys, you would know with Alex"

"but this is different, he's my age" i said

"i know" she said "i know i sound like mom when i say this, but you gotta be careful"

"i know" i said

"and dont do anything that you dont wanna do, if he even lays a hand on you i swear on my fathers life.." she said

"Alice stop, im not stupid" i smiled

"i just dont want you to get hurt" she said

"i wont" i said

"so are you gonna ask him to be your boyfriend?" she asked

"i've known him for a few hours!" i said

"so?" she smiled

"im not a tramp" i said and she laughed "alright alright, we better go to bed now"

"okay" i said and she helped pull the covers over me and kissed my cheek

"love you" she said

"love you too" i said and slowly drifted to sleep

The next morning i woke up really cold and smothered myself in the blankets, i got out of bed and grabbed my jumper and put it on over my pyjamas and put my slippers on, i walked to the front of the bus and saw the bus driver, Chris

"good morning" i smiled and he looked over from his newspaper

"hello there, you're up early" he said

"yeah, its too cold" i frowned and he smiled

"do you know if Berts bus is awake?" i asked

"err.. i dont know, do you want me to go see?" he asked and i nodded "yes please"

he got off his seat and off the bus and walked over to our neighbours and came back

"most of them are up actually, would you like to go see them?" he asked

"when im dressed" i said "and eat breakfast"

"okay, just tell me when you're ready" he said

i went and got dressed and brushed my hair and then had some toast for breakfast and Alice popped up beside me

"oh there you are" she yawned

"yeah, im going to Berts bus after i eat, is that okay?" i asked and she nodded and walked to the bunks and went inside Gerards

i put some moisturiser on my face and had a good wake up and then went to the front

"well dont you look warm" Chris smiled

"its too cold to wear skirts in the morning" i smiled back and he held my hand and walked me to the other bus and made sure i got on safely

"dont convert to this bus now, its full of boys" he added and i laughed and waved to him and Bert came and gave me a hug

"why are you up so early?" he asked

"it was cold" i said

"then why didnt you stay in bed?" he asked and i shrugged and stood by the smal heater they had on

"Hunter told me he had a good time last night" Bert smiled and i rolled my eyes "stop getting involved Bert"

"well im sorry for trying to hook my nephew up" he said "so what brings you here?"

"everyones asleep on our bus so i didnt wanna wake them up" i said

"oh... so you're not here to see Hunter at all?" he smiled

"shut up" i said and walked into the play area at the back and saw Dan and Quinn

"good morning" i said and they both looked up from the game they were playing on the xBox

"good morning" Quinn smiled and paused the game and picked me up and put me on his lap

"glad you could join us, i was kicked Quinns ass" Dan said

"only because i let him win" Quinn said and i smiled "where's Jeph?"

"sleeping" they both said and continued their game so i went to his bunk and opened the curtain

"hello!" i said a little too happily and he rolled over and looked at me squinting his eyes and smiled "hey, what's up?"

"not much" i smiled

"well... thats.. good" he yawned

"did i wake you up?" i asked

"a little. Bert farted on me before so that woke me up first" he said

"ew" i said

"yeah.. ew" he laughed "Hunter was talking about you last night, we all interrogated him"

"what does that mean?" i asked

"we asked him a million questions about what happened" he said

"oh no, why did you do that!" i said slightly annoyed

"dont you wanna know what he said?" he asked and i started to get interested

"...yes" i said and he sat up

"he said you were the most perfect looking nine year old he's ever seen" he said and i gasped excitedly "really!"

"yeah really. and he wasnt lying" he said gently touching my hair "my god what shampoo do you use"

i laughed "the one in my bag"

"we should give Bert some, he has long hair and it always looks greasy for some reason" he said and i smiled and went back to Quinn and Dan

"oh you're back! im still kicking his ass" Dan said

"no you're not!" Quinn whined and Bert walked over with a cup in his hands

"bloody Hunter is still in his pyjamas, i told him to get dressed but he said no" Bert said

"did you tell him Amy was here?" Quinn asked

"nope" Bert smiled and bent over to me "do me a favour?"

i walked to the front of the bus and saw him sitting and watching TV in really comfortable looking clothes. his hair was all messy and he started playing around with it, even like this he looked amazing

"hi Hunter" i said and he looked over really surprised to see me

"Amy.. oh.. hi, um i was going to.." he said "nothing"

he got off the couch and gave me a hug "ill go get a blanket"

i sat on the couch and he came back with a light blue blanket and sat right beside me and put it over our legs

"thanks" i smiled

"if i knew you were here i wouldnt look so gross" he said

"you dont look gross though" i said

"well.. i feel gross" he said

"thats okay" i smiled

he looked into my eyes and then looked away "im gonna go get dressed"

"okay" i said and watched him walk off and saw Bert, Dan and Quinn all watching him and hitting his arms

Bert came over to me smiling

"you two would be a great couple" he said

"it doesnt feel right" i said

"is he moving too fast? ill hit him with a spoon" he said

"no... im just not sure if he likes me as much as i think" i said

"he does. i promise you" he said "he's probably worried about the same thing"

"WANNA PLAY MONOPOLY JEPHA?" Quinn yelled into a bunk

"GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME!" i heard Jeph yell back

"i wanna play monopoly" Bert mumbled and walked over to them and came back with the board game and i smiled

"wanna play with me?" he asked and i nodded and he pulled up a table

i was the puppy dog and he was the hat for some reason. i never really liked the hat.

"bahaha! i get a house" he said getting a piece of red plastic and putting it on his property

"but i own all the land around it so you'll get a fine" i said poking my tongue out at him and Hunter came back dressed with his hair looking even better than before

"we're playing monopoly" i said

"yeah and i won a house" Bert said happily

"oh" Hunter smiled "i'll just be on your team"

he sat next to me with the blanket again and as i was moving my puppy i felt him put his arm around me and i glanced at him and he smiled, i kept playing the game and he was helping me out with what to buy

"this game isnt fun anymore when i losing" Bert said

"we're just a good team" i said and he smiled "i know. im hungry, FOOD!"

he got up and walked to the stove so i gently put the puppy down on the board and looked at Hunter

"i'm gonna ask Bert if i can stay with him on tour, like you are with Alice" he said

"oh really? why?" i asked

"i never really get to hang around people like you. im kind of a loner" he said

"oh me too" i smiled

"and maybe... if i stay then you'll like me" he said

"but i do like you" i said

"but i want you to like me enough to be my girlfriend" he said and my heart was beating harder and faster that i felt sick

i do like you enough, i do like you enough, i do like you enough

"it's a little fast" i said

"i know" he said "just give me time"

 

 

 

FILLLLLER.

my bad.

love you's

x

 

home - best before

"here comes the bass line. thumping like my heart is pumping, baby wont you tell me something?