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Chapter Three: Immortality's Not For Everyone

"Tiene los ojos mucho bonito," the darker haired man, whispered to his lover, smirking slightly as he said so.

His lover punched him in the arm, pulling himself free of the other's grip with a scowl on his face, "Are you trying to piss me off?"

"No," the other purred, snaking his arm back around the sharp faced man, "I'd never do that".

The shadow stood behind me, making me shudder involutarily; automatic response to his presence now. His cool breath ghosted across the contours on the back of my neck like a bitter wind, causing every hair to stand in end, "The Spanish guy's Gabriel Sporta, he doesn't hang around much. In fact he spends most of his time in the blood houses, seducing blood whores," he whispered quickly into my ear, his obvious disgust shining through. I pretended not to here him, unsure why he'd thought I wanted him to confide in me.

"The other one," he continues, his voice getting even lower as it warms affectionately, "He's William. Always been faithful, always been honest."

"And what about you?" I snarled, turning to face him like any hero that has a fear, "What's your story?"

He looked at me, startled by my outburst. Maybe he'd been hoping that I would smile at him and thank him for the welcome. Only the welcome had been far from warm and I was not in the mood for thanking. My self loathing was only surpassed by my hate for him, and my fear of myself was only surpassed by my terror of him.

"Me?" he repeated blankly, recovering from his shock and keeping his dark eyes careful, "I'm nothing in particular. I'm as loyal as my options."

I was about to retort with some snide remark when Gabriel interupted us, directing his question at me, "Como se llamo?

When I, for the second time, stare at him blankly the shadow answers for me, "Se llama...-oh wait, I don't actually know. Ummmm, what's your name?"

"Ryan," I muttered morosely, remembering again that it was worthless now that I had lost my identity.

"Se llama Ryan," the shadow finishes, tilting his head to the side as he said it as if he was trying to work out if he liked the sound of it.

"Ryan es mucho bello y palido," Gabriel continues, his eyes scanning me repeatedly as his boyfriend, William, glared enviously behind him.

"Would you stop speaking in Spanish!" William demanded, stepping forward across the cold slabbed stones, "He's the only one who can't understand what you're saying," he then turned to me and smiled sweetly, "Gabe would like to inform you that you have pretty eyes, your beautiful and pale".

I was suprised to find that I was still able to blush in my lifeless state, maybe I hadn't lost all my humanity to the darkness. Gabriel blushed too, blood colouring his cheeks a deep, crimson as he turned to William and caught his lips. I averted my eyes to the floor instantly, not only feeling that I was imposing on their own private passion, but also feeling slightly nausious at the thought of two men displaying affection in that sort of way. I had to admit, I was indeed slightly homophobic.

The shadow snickered behind me and my eyes flickered onto his, finding some kind of dark humour radiating from them, he indicated towards the two men making out in front of me and, upon finding my digust laughed out loud.

"What's so funny?" William asks, still locked in Gabriel's embrace.

"Ryan's being unintentionally funny," the shadow answered through his happy laughs. I was curious how the dead could be so happy. If you couldn't grow old and be at peace with the world around you then how could you ever be content?

"I'm Brendon," he finally introduced himself, holding out a hand for me to shake. I didn't take it.

[Author's Note: Tiene los ojos mucho bonito: He has very pretty eyes. Ryan es mucho bello y palido: Ryan is very beautiful and pale...... My Spanish is finally coming in handy :D]

organ songs, love them :].

Let the Bells Ring.
Can You Tell Me?

Working on an algebra 2 honors packet all day. I'm in chem, english, algebra. all honors. and PE bowling, World History, french 2, plus Journalism There's a lot of weird kids in the journalism class, but I'm trying to be open, I know we could probably become friends. Except for the one red haired girl who doesn't shave, which answers the age old question that indeed the carpets so match the drapes. She makes it especially known wearing tanktops.

HEAT WAVE lately in California, and I never look cute in the heat. At all :[. I still need to lose 20 pounds but then I'm done. Veganism is still amazingly so much fun. School is awkward. Only because somebody really hates me. And you know how when you really don't want to see someone, you end up running into them all the time? That's how it is, they're around every corner. i'm getting claustrophobic.

I want to get nail art one of these days, soon maybe, but I don't know how long I'd want to keep it :/. I HATE MY WORLD HISTORY CLASS. but I like all my other ones. Ideekay. I can't wait to graduate and do whatever the fuck I want to. Without worrying about harassment all dayy.

To buy list: cute necklaces, not sceenie chains like I used to own, and new nikes, but I'll probably design my own online ;]. and I need to work on buying bracelets since I always neglect that. And I desperately need a job. It's so necessary. Plus sunglasses since I've either lost all of them or their broken.

FAVORITE MOVIE ATM: ADVENTURES IN BABYSITTING. how could you not like it?!

I've changed so much since like..May. I'm so over being trashy or sceenie, like a lot of my tastes have changed, I'm back to where I was the beginning of last year but much better. I like looking clean and older and sophisticated. I even got a haircut, but I need my bangs trimmed a little bit, ahahaa. Just more jagged I guess? I love shopping for metal hair band tshirts, it's the only thing I wear lately. I can't wait until it starts getting cold or raining, I always look extra cute then :]. I have so many clothes for when it's cold,not when it's hot aha.

My music tastes also changed drastically. Sometimes I'll listen to some old shit, but I guess I really like indie again, aexcept more folky indie. Idk if that even makes any sense :/.

I had a horrible dream that one of my girl friends had a penis and one of my ex-guy friends had a tiny vagina...ehh wigged me out hella.

I'll try to update more frequently :].

i should write a new one of these. I hate lazy people. Whenever I work up the courage, I'm taking the caltrain to san francisco for the day. I hate doing things by myself. I need money. I need a job. I need new shit.

I bought a mickey mouse patriotic backpack and it's simply amazing. my new schedule is available for pickup at school, ahhh I'm nervous.

hands off, I saw them first :D!

i'd love them forever and ever.

AHH SO MUCH TO TELL, SO LITTLE TIME! due to some confusion with buzznet, my account has been suspended for about 3 weeks now! but, everything is all good and I have SO MANY UPDATES. ahh, i'm excited to post all of the new shit. I have pictures from disneyland and san francisco and it's all just really great :D. stay tuned!

well a miracle kind of happened yesterday. marlena madness read my blog and saw that i needed a ride so she offered to take me. unfortunatley we had already sold my ticket so i couldn;t go. i was pretty bumed out but i soon learned that i had to get over it. a strange thing happened in my dream last night though. i had a conversation with GABE SAPORTA of COBRA STARSHIP. it was a phone conversation though and it was as if we were dating. we had a pretty weird conversation but yet it was still amazing. we kept talking and talking and talking. i dont know if this dream means something or not. i mean it cant possibaly mean that GABE and i are going to hook up that'd be insane. but man would i love that so much!!!maybe ill meet him or something like that. well if you have any ideas about what this dream i had might mean or if you want to know what we talked about then drop me a note. but still i wait to go to a COBRA STARSHIP concert and still i wait to meet GABE, RYLAND, NATE, ALEX & VICKY T.

or hiking or anything just to clear my head up, and I don't want to think too much so I want to be distracted as well. Like, I just really need a break. Like a 3 day break. Like, a real vacation where I go somewhere. Someone should invite me somewhere, except I'd probably be a bitch by the 2nd day.
AKHJJSKH, I need the wilderness! I need a road trip!

i try not to get fat people mad at me because i'm afraid that they'll attack.

mm, i love vegan food soosososo much :]. ahah I liked wrong turn 2 even though it was epicly long and I have yet to watch the rest of my DVDs. I hung out with Marissa and Nessy tonight and had some vegan dogs and a vegan scare, then on my way home I saw Stephanie walking to hang with Jeremy and Sarah and I was like HAYYY! and ran out of the car to hug her :]. 2mmrw, im waking up early, fuck yoga, doing DDR for 500 cal. (that much techno is going to fry my brain) and then calling Corey so we can hang out. Nessy's decidedly a vegan this summer, so whenever she goes to Whole Foods I'm going with her to help her shop. I really like wearing the wilcox P.E. shorts, they're so comfy! It's actually really cozy tonight so I might go see what I have on TiVo, get some hot chocolate and enjoy the rest of the night. OR I'll spend the majority of the time editing a lot of pics or resizing for photobucket at least.


I LOVE SUMMER :D! and life, duhhhh.


p.s. I need a lot more friends like Marissa.
p.s.s. I've been having really good luck lately, which is odd considering were in retrograde, which (thank god) is coming to an end soon, so maybe that's why I've taken a turn for the better.