Foo Fighters Blog and Journals

**11/23/09
Them Crooked Vultures - New Fang
-------------Before heading home today, I decided I needed a somewhat reckless, impulsive but researched album purchase for the road. Them Crooked Vultures was my answer, and with a trio of John Paul Jones (Led Zeppelin), Joshua Homme (Queens of the Stone Age) and Dave Grohl (Foo Fighters), I eagerly expected greatness. "New Fang" is slightly scathing and admittedly confused in its lyrics, but the barhouse jam drums and sexily-whining guitar riffs are like a shot of Jack Daniels in a muscle car. Get "New Fang" from Them Crooked Vultures self titled 2009 album.

Chapter 9 (Part 1.)

(Taylor's POV)

Today was supposed to be the KROQ show, but instead we met with Zac and Jeremy.  Hayley and I decided it'd be good to talk things over.  I think she wanted to convince Josh to come back.  That scared me.  What if she decided to be with Josh?  I decided to prepare to get my heart broken, it'd be easier if I did, that way I could stick around.  Leaving this band, my friends, would be too hard.  I couldn't focus on what they were talking back.  I already missed Josh.  He was my idol and best friend, but now he was gone.  It sounds like he died, but he didn't, the band died.

“Can we still hang out and stuff,” Jeremy asked.

“Guys, just because the band is temporarily broken up, doesn't mean we can't be friends.  It's gonna be awful,” Hayley said putting her head in her hands.  I could tell she was crying.  We all crowded her with hugs.

“I can't imagine how you feel Hayley, since you loved him and all,” Jeremy said, my stomach dropped.

“I didn't love him like that,” she said angrily.  “I love Taylor,” she looked at me and I smiled.

“Oh.  We didn't expect that.” 

I could tell Hayley wasn't happy with their reaction.  She probably needed time at home.  So, I picked her up as she leaned against me and we said our goodbyes.  She was happy the way I exited with her.  Hayley never likes saying goodbye, and that gave her an excuse not to. 

After that, we went to her house.  It was dark, perfect movie time.  We snuggled up on her couch and watched Resident Evil.  She got scared, but she didn't scream, I did though.  I screamed when the guy jumped out at the girl.  Hayley laughed and kissed my head, then put my head in her lap.  I smiled, as I began to realize she really did love me.  She traced her fingers softly across my forehead, forcing my eyes closed.  I then opened my eyes and turned onto my back, facing her pretty face.  She smiled and kissed all over my face, then my lips.  We started kissing over and over until we were making out.  She pulled me up and slid onto my lap.  After awhile she smiled and kissed across my face to my ear.

I woke up, saying one word to myself, “Whoa.”.  I remembered everything, but I could hardly believe it was true.  Hayley was resting on me, sleeping soundly.  She was beautiful, the way the morning light struck her hair.  It looked more like a painting than anything.  Everything that I've ever dreamed about was happening now.  It was so odd how things were perfect, but not at the same time.  The band was broken up and Josh, my best friend, was missing.  

“Good morning,” she said smiling and sliding next to me.

“Morning, I'm hungry.”

“Me too, but I don't want to move just yet,” she said cuddling herself against me.

(One month later)

I ran into the bathroom as Hayley called my name.  She looked awful.  I sat next to her on the rug and held her into me, kissing her head.  Tears began running down her face as she shoved her head into my chest and she sobbed.  I hugged her weak body, feeling awfully worried.  Why was she crying?

“Hayles what's wrong,” I asked whispering.

“I don't know, but something does not feel right.”

“What do you mean?”

“Umm, I'll be right back,” I followed her out as she grabbed the car keys.

(Hayley's POV)

I ran out as fast as I could and drove to the convenient store.  I ran in and grabbed the “test”, but I already knew what it said.  I took it, and yeah I was pregnant.  Things couldn't get worse.

Chapter 9 Part 2

(Hayley's POV)

I drove home, crying from fear.  Who's baby was it?  Did I really wanna know?  So many questions, so little time.  Apparently I wasn't safe enough with someone.  How would I tell Taylor this also?  I pulled up in the dirveway and walked inside, finding him sitting on the couch, nervously playing with his thumbs.  He got up and ran to me, gently hugging me.  I kept crying and pressed into him.

“Hayles what's wrong,” he asked.

“I'm pregnant,” I blurted out.

“Umm wait, what?!?”

“Ugh, Taylor don't make me say it again.”

“Who's baby is it,” he said looking at me.

“I. I don't know, but I want to go to the doctor asap.”

5 hours later.

“Hayley Williams, we have to run some tests before we can decide whether you are actually pregnant.  We can't always trust the tests,” my doctor said.

“Okay,” I said about to cry.

They ran through the tests, and then I got worried.  A group of doctors swarmed together in the hallway and went through papers and pictures.  I had no idea what to expect, but it wasn't good.  I possibly might've ruined my life.  And, I wanted it to be over already.

They came in finally and the doctor said, “There's a possibility you have a very rare type of cancer that causes you to appear pregnant.  Ms. Williams, we'd love to do more tests so we can find what's wrong, but I want to give it 2 days.”

I agreed and they told Taylor of my results.  He teared up and looked so afraid of what was happening.  He walked up and hugged me tightly.

“Hayley, I am so sorry.  Are you going to be ok?”

“I hope so.”

Chapter 9 (Part 1.)

(Taylor's POV)

Today was supposed to be the KROQ show, but instead we met with Zac and Jeremy.  Hayley and I decided it'd be good to talk things over.  I think she wanted to convince Josh to come back.  That scared me.  What if she decided to be with Josh?  I decided to prepare to get my heart broken, it'd be easier if I did, that way I could stick around.  Leaving this band, my friends, would be too hard.  I couldn't focus on what they were talking back.  I already missed Josh.  He was my idol and best friend, but now he was gone.  It sounds like he died, but he didn't, the band died.

“Can we still hang out and stuff,” Jeremy asked.

“Guys, just because the band is temporarily broken up, doesn't mean we can't be friends.  It's gonna be awful,” Hayley said putting her head in her hands.  I could tell she was crying.  We all crowded her with hugs.

“I can't imagine how you feel Hayley, since you loved him and all,” Jeremy said, my stomach dropped.

“I didn't love him like that,” she said angrily.  “I love Taylor,” she looked at me and I smiled.

“Oh.  We didn't expect that.” 

I could tell Hayley wasn't happy with their reaction.  She probably needed time at home.  So, I picked her up as she leaned against me and we said our goodbyes.  She was happy the way I exited with her.  Hayley never likes saying goodbye, and that gave her an excuse not to. 

After that, we went to her house.  It was dark, perfect movie time.  We snuggled up on her couch and watched Resident Evil.  She got scared, but she didn't scream, I did though.  I screamed when the guy jumped out at the girl.  Hayley laughed and kissed my head, then put my head in her lap.  I smiled, as I began to realize she really did love me.  She traced her fingers softly across my forehead, forcing my eyes closed.  I then opened my eyes and turned onto my back, facing her pretty face.  She smiled and kissed all over my face, then my lips.  We started kissing over and over until we were making out.  She pulled me up and slid onto my lap.  After awhile she smiled and kissed across my face to my ear.

I woke up, saying one word to myself, “Whoa.”.  I remembered everything, but I could hardly believe it was true.  Hayley was resting on me, sleeping soundly.  She was beautiful, the way the morning light struck her hair.  It looked more like a painting than anything.  Everything that I've ever dreamed about was happening now.  It was so odd how things were perfect, but not at the same time.  The band was broken up and Josh, my best friend, was missing.  

“Good morning,” she said smiling and sliding next to me.

“Morning, I'm hungry.”

“Me too, but I don't want to move just yet,” she said cuddling herself against me.

(One month later)

I ran into the bathroom as Hayley called my name.  She looked awful.  I sat next to her on the rug and held her into me, kissing her head.  Tears began running down her face as she shoved her head into my chest and she sobbed.  I hugged her weak body, feeling awfully worried.  Why was she crying?

“Hayles what's wrong,” I asked whispering.

“I don't know, but something does not feel right.”

“What do you mean?”

“Umm, I'll be right back,” I followed her out as she grabbed the car keys.

(Hayley's POV)

I ran out as fast as I could and drove to the convenient store.  I ran in and grabbed the “test”, but I already knew what it said.  I took it, and yeah I was pregnant.  Things couldn't get worse.

Chapter 8

After the lunch and game of ping pong with Zac and Em, Tay and I decided to go to my house and spend some quality time together.  I let him drive us, so we wouldn't die between Fiddlesticks and my house.  That'd be a way to go!  I held his hand during the whole day, proud that we were now together.  

“I'm nervous,” he said.

“Why Taytay?”

“Because right now, I wanna kiss the crap out of you,” he said looking at me with eager eyes.  I decided to give him what he wanted.  I leaned into him as he pulled up in my driveway.  We started kissing gentle and slow, but he wanted more.  The kiss gained heat as he rubbed up and down my sides under my shirt deeply.  His hands were warm and strong, they were perfect.  

Taylor threw us through my front door and kicked it closed while still kissing me deeply.    I walked backwards pulling him by his belt and threw ourselves back on the couch with him on top of me.  We kept kissing, but more gentle as I wrapped my arms around his neck.

“So, I see how it is now,” Josh's voice came from the kitchen doorway.  Taylor got up and we sat awkwardly, looking at the angry face in front of us.

“Josh, I thought you were with Rebecca.  So, I thought it was okay,” I said gently, so he wouldn't get too angry.  He had a temper,

“Yeah well I thought you loved me, Hayley.  I guess I was just another stepping stone, again.  I came to say, I'm quitting the band,” he stood confidently.

“No!  We need you!”

“Just like you need everything else?  To make your life happy!”

“Hahaha, you must be talking about yourself,” Taylor said laughing.  Josh walked over, balling his fists.  I got worried then.

“Josh, stop it!”  I said pushing him back.  He pushed me out of the way and punched Taylor in the cheek.  Taylor shook it off and slammed into Josh as they kept fighting.  Taylor punched back, so hard I could hear Josh's teeth clink together.  Josh then threw him off, gave me one apologetic look, then left.  I got down beside Taylor as he groaned in pain.  He was bleeding from his lip, forehead, and cheek.  I didn't know whether to take him to the hospital or not.  I was furious at Josh for being so stupid.

(Taylor's POV)

The physical pain of it all sucked, but the emotional tire was probably worse.  I couldn't imagine how Hayley felt now.  Josh was leaving us.  I would miss him, but the old him was the one I'd truly miss.  Man, life sucks sometimes.  At least I still had Hayley.  She kept all of us going, no matter what.  But, I don't know if things with the others would stay the same.  Maybe this was the end of Paramore.

Chapter 7

Taylor was sleeping soundly, fully clothed, thankfully.  I realized I was fully clothed too.  What was going on?!  Was my action all a dream?  I didn't know, but I knew Taylor was back.  He scared me when he quit, never thinking he'd be seen again.  He looked peaceful and happy, which was something I hadn't seen before.  The urge to wake him was overwhelming, but he probably  needed sleep.  And, I could use some more myself.

I woke up, this time finding myself alone.  This sent me into panic mode and I threw myself around the house, then I found him.  He was in my music room, playing one of my acoustic guitars.  It was a new riff I hadn't heard, it was awesome.  I sneaked over to the couch and sat by him.  He was silent, watching me as he played.  I began hypnotizing myself in the sound of his beautiful sound.  It was nothing I'd ever experienced.

“Do you like it,” he said smiling when he stopped.

“That was amazing.”

“Really?  I thought it was cheesy,” he laughed and set his guitar down and looked at me.

 “No, it was perfect,” I said as we leaned forward, staring at each other's lips, I couldn't help but let mine lock into his.  We consumed ourselves completely in each other and continued the kiss.  But, of course the moment didn't last.

“Honey I'm hooome!”  Josh.

“Shh, hide,” I said to Taylor as he ran into the closet.

Josh walked in and grinned walking to me.  “What's up?”

“I didn't expect you this early,” I said, hiding my disappointment.

“Hahaha Hayles, you know I always wake up early!”

“Oh yeah I guess so.”

“So, what do you want to do today,” he asked patting my leg.

“Umm sleep,” I didn't mean to sound rude, but it's the best way.

“Oh, well I guess I'll go hang with Rebecca,” ouch.

“Fine Josh, you can go ahead and keep playing god.”  He then walked out.

“Hayley, I'm so sorry, he's such an ass,” Taylor said sitting next to me.

“He purposely brings her up to make me jealous or mad, and the only reason I'm jealous is because he always leads me on,” I banged my fist against the couch out of frustration.  Taylor then took me in his arms and hugged me.  “Just please come back to the band.  I cannot deal with those asses without you,” I looked into his eyes.

“I want to be with you.”

“I want to be with you too, but won't it be difficult?  Especially on tour and stuff.  We need a plan to make this work.”

“Yeah, we need some luck too,” he kissed me gently.

“I don't know what to do with this band anymore,” I said as my cellphone rang.  It was KROQ.  “They want us to do an acoustic show,” I said shortly after getting off the phone.

“Oh great, how are we going to do that?”

“I have no clue, we should just ask them if they want to go.  And, if they don't you and me just go.  But, that's not for another week.”

“Good, another week without them, hopefully,” Taylor said as he lay back on the couch and pulled me on him.  I snuggled into him and kissed his chest.

“HAHAHA,” Taylor and I laughed as we were playing around in Target.  I jumped on his back as he held onto me and ran around.  Today was amazing.  I had gotten a lot of ideas for new songs during today, mostly from Josh and the guys not being there.  Taylor ran to the toy section and set me down.  Then, he grabbed a plastic ring and bent down on one knee.  The ring was bigger than my face and pink.

“Hayles Nicki Wilson soccer balls, will you marry me and scrub my feet for an eternity,” we busted into laughter as I smacked him on the arm and jumped at him, wrapping my legs around his back.

“You betta get my name right if you wanna marry my small ass,” I said looking at his face.

“I didn't know you were black,” He said raising his eyebrows then smiling at me.  He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my nose, making me blush.

“Hey GIVE ME THAT BACK,” a familiar voice said behind us as we heard stomping.  Tay slid me down off of him and we turned around to find Zac chasing a black haired girl in circles.  Tay and I looked at each other shaking our heads, realizing Zac's pants were in her hands.  I walked over, tempted to ask how Zac was.  Apparently he had a new girlfriend and they were happy.  At least one of the guys besides Tay was normal.    Zac gave up and walked over to me, ruffling my hair.

“Hey Gaps and T, what's crackin,” he said smiling.

“Haha not much, we're bored.  I can see you're not,” I said winking.

“Well, we kinda are, huh Em?”

“Mhm, this must be Hayley and Taylor!  I'm Emily, it's amazing to finally meet you.  Zac talks about you guys a lot,” she said.  I was going to like her.

“Hey we should all go to lunch,” I said enthusiastically.  They all quickly agreed.

Things are looking up, finally.

During his Nirvana years, Dave Grohl used to write stuff that he kept it for himself because he felt it wasn't good enough, compared to what Kurt Cobain used to write (we, the fans of Foo Fighters have to disagree). Some time after Nirvana disbanded, and after reject a lot of offers, including the permanent position and drummer of Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers, he decided to start a solo project: "I was supposed to just join another band and be a drummer the rest of my life, I thought that I would rather do what no one expected me to do. I enjoy writing music and I enjoy trying to sing, and there's nothing anyone can really do to discourage me." He recorded twelve of his songs after the seudonim of  "Foo Fighters", being this the first, homonymous record. He played every instrument by himself, and made vocals in every track.

After the unexpected success (for him, because it's a really good album and every magazine and specialized media gave good reviews of it) this record had, he had to find a supporting band; he thought about inviting Kris Novoselic (Ex- bass player of Nirvana) to this new band, but both agreed that it would be weird for the public, so, after Sunny Day Real Estate disbanded, he invited bassist Nate Mendel and drummer William Goldsmith to join him. The group played its debut show at a keg party in February 1995, and  made their live debut on a big venue on March 3, 1995 during a show at The Satyricon in Portland.

Goldsmith left the band during the recording of the second album, "The Colour and the Shape".

The current members are Dave Grohl, Taylor Hawkins, Nate Mendel and Chris Shiflett. The have released 6 magnificent records: Foo Fighters (1995), The Colour and the Shape (1997), There Is Nothing Left to Lose (1999), One by One (2002), In Your Honor (2005)(Double disc) and Echoes, Silence, Patience & Grace (2007)

This time I can't embed the videos due to copyright restrictions, but I highly recomend you to watch Times Like These (Check out, Dave's t shirt), Learn To Fly, Everlong, The Pretender, Big Me and Monkey Wrench.

Chapter 6

Hayley's POV

Josh was passed out as I struggled to shake the fear off.  I grabbed Josh's phone off the floor, feeling unbearable pain coming from my shoulder.  I automatically called 911 and explained as calmly as I could, then I recognized the voice. 

“Hannah?!”

“Hayley!  Oh my god, what the fuck!  I'm making them hurry!”

“Okay, but I'm fine, it's Josh.”

“Why are you in Josh's car?!”  Now, I felt guilty.

“I'll explain later,” I hung up, pissed off at Hannah's judgment.  

I got out of the car, finding myself untouched.  I ran to the driver's side and pulled Josh gently out on the the grass.  I noticed he had a slight cut in his rib, but as I examined him, nothing else was major.  I pressed down on the wound to keep it from bleeding out bad.  Finally, the ambulance, police, and firetruck arrived.  They put Josh on a stretcher and took me just to check my vitals.  Then, someone yelled “get the paddles” and now, I was freaked.

“Is he okay!  Is HE OKAY!?  Answer me,” I lost it as this lady grabbed me and said something I couldn't understand.  Josh had to be okay.  

I eventually calmed down and sat in the police car as they drove me to the hospital.  Josh had gone into shock, but I assumed everything was okay because no news is good news, my dad taught me that.  The car ride seemed long, with no one to talk to.  Hopefully the family would figure it out, so I didn't have to explain it.  Josh has screwed up a lot lately, but it wasn't necessarily his fault.  Josh's mind seemed to work differently than the rest of the world.  You had to know him really well to understand why he does things and why he does things.  But, I figured that Josh did have reasons for everything, he just won't tell anyone.  Maybe he would after this incident.

Finally, I was in the waiting room, sitting next to Zac.  I loved being around Zac when things are screwed up.  He's so laid back, that he just cheers everyone up, especially me.  But, for some reason the grief struck me and I came into tears.  Zac wrapped his arms around me and pulled me to his chest, letting me get out whatever I needed to.

“Ms. Williams, Josh is ready to see you now,” the nurse said giving me a sympathetic look.  I gave Zatchell another hug and pulled myself back together.

“Josh,” I said as I rushed to him.  He smiled and hugged me gently.  “How are you?”

“Good, just a broken arm and a minor cut.  I can go home today.”

“Oh thank god,” I gently rubbed his arm and he smiled in comfort.  “I'm so tired,” I yawned.  

“Ask the doc when I can ditch this place,” he said chuckling.

I came back jumping up and down with Zac behind me, pushing the mandatory wheel chair.  Josh laughed and sat up gently, stretching.  God he was so hot and muscular.  I smiled as Zac and I helped him into the wheel chair.  Zac wheeled him out of the hospital, with me crazily running beside them.  For some reason I felt good, but exhausted at the same time.  Today, was a catastrophic day, but maybe everything with Josh would make it better.  He was moving in with me, whether he liked it or not.

“Alright, I better drive you guys home,” Zac said leading us to his car.  I helped Josh in, avoiding hitting his cast.  “Wait, where do you live now Josh?”

“I'm staying with you and the family for now,” he said looking straight ahead.

“But Josh, I really want you to live with me,” I said holding my knees to my chest, he was hurting me.

“Hayley it's best that I stay away from you for awhile.” Zac shook his head and looked at me in the rear view mirror.

“No!  Josh I love you!  I need you to stay with me, I hate living alone.  Please,” I had a small hope that my over dramatic pleading would work.

“I'm sorry Hayley,” he said getting out of the car.  Zac waved for me to come to the front seat and I happily got next to him.

“Gappers, I'm sorry he's an idiot sometimes,” he said ruffling my hair.

“It's okay.”

“Hey, you know he'll come pleading for you, haha he always does.”

Zac dropped me off at my place, but I wasn't planning on staying.  I got some clothes, a very very sexy dress and heels.  I put my hair up, attempting to look seductive.  I put on red lipstick, dark purple eyeshadow, and a little bit of powder.  No one would dare turn me down.  I went out to my car and drove to James' and Connor's bar in downtown Franklin.  I walked in, eying every guy in the bar, none of the good dudes were here yet.  I waited for a hour, drinking like I just got back from a war.  Finally, a guy came in.  He had short black hair.  I didn't recognize him.  Once he walked to the back lounge, I threw myself at him and took him to my house.  He didn't resist anything.

I woke up, feeling so sick and awful.  I kept my eyes closed as my nerves resurfaced.  Once they did, I felt warm muscular arms around me, Josh!  I snuggled back against him and smiled.  He was fast asleep though.  I laid there for as long as I could, but the need to see his face was overwhelming.  Turning over, I opened my eyes, ready to see a handsome man.  But, it was not Josh. 

So i just want to share some ideas I've had for awesome fanfics, hopefully you'll love them as much as I do.

All I wanted-  A continuation of "Tangled Up" one of my fav stories.  An awesome love story that takes place on the BNE tour.  Hayley tried to get her best friend back, and wants to be with him.  But, his girlfriend is a huge problem in the process, and takes over Hayley's life, behind Jake's back.

I Still Feel Her Part 1- Jonny Craig, during the Dance Gavin Dance era, meets a spunky girl at a bar he goes to regularly.  He follows her around, curious about her, then something goes terribly wrong and he is forced to save a girl he's never met.  It's mostly a depressive story.

I Can't Let Go-  Chad and Hayley story.  Very depressing to start off with, but gets happier as it goes on.  Begins with 12 yr old Hayley, showing her parent's break up.  Then, her and Josh being together.  You get the point.

Adventureland- I love Kristen Stewart in this movie, so why not add Hayley and Josh and the band.  4 teens are forced to work at a theme park in Nashville, but they all get into drinking and drugs, until they are caught and forced to work longer than they expected. 

Chapter 5

Josh's POV Still

I sat by Hayley's hospital bed, waiting for her to wake.  The surgery went well, the doctors said that they were amazed at her strength.  So was I.  I hoped that she wouldn't be mad, considering the fact that it was truly an accident.  But, I'd understand if she was, I still deserved it.  Zac would be mad at me still, he always is.  But, I was too worried at the moment to care.  What if Hayley didn't love me?  I couldn't handle it if she didn't, I can't get over her.

I took her small hand and lightly rubbed it, thinking about the smile on her face I might see.  Her face was beautiful when she slept, one of the few times she's calm in the day.  I couldn't help but notice she was mumbling something as she slept.  Then, her perfect eyes opened.

“Josh,” she asked sitting up and blinking slowly.  “I'm so glad you're here,” she slurred.  Must be the meds.

“Aww, me too.  How do you feel?”

“I, I dunno yet,” she shook her head.

“It's okay, just tell me when it hurts,” I brushed her bangs out of her eyes as she smiled.

“I want a bunny,” she said sticking her tongue out.  She was so cute.

“Aww well you can have one,” my cellphone rang and it made her jump, then she giggled.  I laughed and answered.

“Jush, you haven't been paying your rent,” my indian landlord yelled through the phone.

“I'm sorry, I haven't had time.”

“You have one hour to come move, I have more customers who pay on time!”  He hung up.

“Damnit!”

“Whaz wong Joshie,” Hayley asked, cheering me up.

“I have to go, I'm getting kicked out of my apartment,” I said, worried about leaving her.  “i better ask my mom if I can move back in for awhile.”

She grabbed my hand and pouted, “Nwo!  You can live with MEEE!”

“I would love to, but let's wait a week Hayles,” the meds must make it hard for her to reason.

“NWO YOU LIVE WITH ME NOW JOSHIE!”

“Oh alright,” I lied as we said bye and I rushed outside to my mom.  “My landlord kicked me me out, mind if I move back in?”

“Joshua Neil Farro!  You aint leaving my home this time!”  I laughed and shook my head as I left.

I came back to the hospital, and Hayley's room seemed to be more crowded than any room.  Everyone was singing “Fences” as she clapped and sang along, with a more beautiful voice than anyone in the room.  I walked up and started singing with them, then Hayley saw me and grinned, waving for me to come closer.  I did and she took my hand.

“Your mom told me a lot about you,” she bit her lip, I could tell she was holding in a laugh.

“Oh no, what'd she say?”

“When we were teenagers, she said you would talk about me to yourself before you went to bed,” she started giggling as my mom laughed, standing next to us, scaring me like always.  “And that, you would say my name in your sleep,” I instantly blushed and threw my hands to my face as everyone laughed.

Everyone left when Hayley fell asleep.  The doctor said we could take her home in a hour, well I could.  I didn't want to wake her yet, so she slept on until the doctor came back in and accidentally startled her by looking at her shoulder.  I noticed they had taken her bra off, which aggravated me a little, but I understand.  When the doctor was done, we helped her into a wheel chair.  It was easy since she wasn't hurt anywhere else, but she leaned on me a little bit longer than I expected, making me grin.  We got her in the car and she waved goodbye, then laughed and rolled her eyes.

“I'm so glad to be the freak out of there,” she said laughing.  “Doctors are annoying, and I hate how white the rooms are!”

I laughed, “I think that nurse stared at my ass the whole time!”

“Well, who said I didn't do the same,” she giggled and grinned at me.

“Oh shut up,” I said hitting her shoulder playfully.  Oh god how much more can I hurt her?!  “Oh god Hayley I am so so sorry,” I said banging my head against the steering wheel.  Then, I hurt her again.  The car piled into a car in front of us.  I lost consciousness.

Chapter 4 (Part 2)

I didn't know what to say as I walked out of the bathroom.  Josh was leaning against the wall with his face in his hands.  He seemed to be crying, which is something I thought I've never seen.  It worried me, seeing Josh cry over me, making it impossible to remember how mad at him I am.  He began to walk away, but I grabbed his arm before he did.

“We have to talk about this,” I said looking at his tear stained eyes.

“No, we don't.  Not when everything is my fault Hayley,” he said escaping from me.

“But, will you at least stay, so I'm not alone here!”

“I can't,” he walked out but someone walked in soon after.

“Hayley,” Taylor said running to me and picking me up.

“I thought you left me to,” I said wrapping my arms around his neck.

“No, I couldn't.”

The next morning I woke up to the smell of Starbucks.  I sat up, finding Taylor on my phone.  I smiled and grabbed the coffee next to me, sipping it as we smiled at each other.  He hung up and jumped next to me kissing my head.

“Morning,” he said happily.  “We have an interview with Steven today at 2.”

“Oh awesome!  And then we go home right,” I frowned fearing this vacation was way too short.

After the interview, we headed straight to the airport.  We were quiet.  I didn't know what to say, the fear of the guys had consumed me.  If they found out about what Tay and I did last night, they'd hang us with our own instrument cords.  Better get a wireless mic.  Tay's face was emotionless as he looked at his phone.  He shook his head and put it away as we entered the plane.  Then, we saw a familiar face.  Josh.  We sat down, avoiding him. I don't think he saw us.  

“You know the drill,” I said breaking the silence and putting on a fake smile.

“Mhm,” he said taking my hand as I laid my head on his shoulder.

In the middle of the flight, Josh came over and grinned.  Taylor stood up, narrowing his eyes.  Next thing I know, they're on the floor fighting very competitively.  I yelled and broke them apart, pushing Josh off.  Then, things got worse.

Josh pulled out a gun and pointed it at Taylor.  Everyone screamed and Taylor panicked, throwing himself at Josh.  Then, it happened.  The bullet flew into my shoulder as Josh accidentally pulled the trigger.  Things couldn't get worse.

Josh's POV

How could I do this?  What the heck was I thinking?  I sat in the Franklin emergency room, texting everyone I knew.  I loved Hayley, but she'd never forgive me for what I've done, no one would.  No one even knew if she'd survive this.  She never did anything to deserve this.  I should be the one with a hole in my body!  I shouldn't have been so stupid!  Taylor made her happy, more than I ever could.  And now, they may never see each other again.

My family rushed into the waiting room and stopped at the sight of me.  I looked up, not hiding my tears. Zac came over and stared at me with disappointed eyes and shook his head angrily.  I tried to speak, but nothing came out as I choked on my own regret.  Then, they all walked in, everyone I knew.  Hayley's family, my family, and some more expected people.

“Officer, arrest this man,” Hayley's mother yelled as the officers walked to me.

“Stop,” My mom yelled, turning to Hayley's mom.  Uh oh.  “It was an accident!  If you think my Josh would shoot the woman he loves, you're an idiot,” she yelled pointing her finger.  Everyone gasped and asked “Really?”  as if it was a surprise that I loved Hayley.

“It was an accident Josh,” Hayley's mom asked.

“Yes, Ms. Williams.”

“Officers, forget it,” she said coming to me and hugging me as she sat down on the couch.  “I know that Ms. Hayley loves you too, she always has,” she said as I smiled and everyone joined the hug.

“Well I guess I'm out of the picture,” a familiar voice said from behind the group as everyone looked up.  “I quit,” Taylor said walking out.  What have I done?