Well, I'm feeling my cross now...

it's so petty and so stupid that I feel ridiculous.

I'm just so tired of being given shit for being straightedge.

the people who are supposed to be my best friends just went on their first holiday without their parents, all together, staying in a hotel in Brighton for the weekend I think, and didn't invite me or even tell me they were going because they knew I wouldn't get drunk or smoke weed with them.

I'm just sick of it. just because I don't want to get drunk, and fuck random guys, and fall over, and make a fool of myself that makes me boring and not worth hanging out with.

my friends barely talk to me now, any of them, and they never invite me to go out with them because I won't drink or take drugs with them. it makes me feel like crap because they're so nasty about it. either they try and force me to drink or they just igore me completely, like I'm some weird alien who doesn't understand normal people.

it's not like I fucking preach at them or anything! I don't say a godamn word. if they want to drink, that's fine, I just don't want to.

'If people want to drink, that's awesome, it just doesn't work for me' - Gerard Way

oh, and a fantastic comment from another one of my 'friends' the other week at school: 'you know you're not cool or normal enough to hang out with us and we're being kind, right?'

if getting drunk every weekend is normal: FUCK NORMAL.

I refer back to my last journal:

Davey: (On Being Straightedge) I'm a moron because I don't want to lie in a gutter puking over myself...yeah right.

they can go fuck themselves. there's a reason I took the X and I'm not going back on that promise because the rest of my generation is retarded.

You designer drug WON'T WORK FOR ME!

sorry, rant over.

xXx


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Posted by silenteyesblue on 07/06/2007 3:00 PM Visits: 43
atragedynonetheless: 07/06/2007 3:30 PM
Don't worry about what your friends think, if they want to mess up their lives that's their problem and they shouldn't try to drag others down with them. If they have a problem with a descision that isn't theirs to make then they probably aren't worthwhile companions. If they give you shit about it just remember that it's your decision never theirs.
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phoenix82: 07/06/2007 3:45 PM
keep up the SXE spirit. don't let those 'friends' let you down. like you say, if drinking, using drugs and fucking random guys is supposed to be normal, then i don't wanna have any part in such 'normality'.
just have this in mind:
"Absent of Grace, Marked as Infernal
Ungranted in Dead Time left Me
Disowned to this Nature so Unnatural
I remain Alone"
DXH
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spiritualxmurder: 07/06/2007 5:26 PM
fuck them. like seriously. if they don't want to accept you for who youare then they can just go kill themselves with their 'awesome' lives. i mean, i chose to be straightedge and kids give me crap too, but i just tell them, that i'll live to be older than you, i'll actually live to see 30. no, i'll live to see 20.
if they think their lifestyle is normal, then fuck normal. i'd rather be wierd and not normal to whatever extent i want to. If they ever give you shit again, just remember, that if they keep this up, they might not live long
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angelofdarkness42: 07/06/2007 6:01 PM
Your not the only one that has that happened to you. My so-called best friend said that my life would be nothing without going to a party and getting wasted and fucking the first guy that I meet. Then when I get to college, I am surrounded by idiots who like to do shit like fight at clubs and get wasted to where those who don't do idiotic things can't get any sleep. I'll be around longer than them because I chose to stay clean and sober for all these years. I think that me being allergic to grain alcohol is also a plus.
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tiger07: 07/06/2007 8:41 PM
my army of imaginary friends applaude you.
But seriously, thats really cool.Cause when your "friends" are sick from all the drugs they've done and all the alcohol they've consumed, you can laugh at them.
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gerardwayiswaytoohot: 07/07/2007 3:04 AM
I would never take drugs myself... getting drunk, fine, but just one evening, and not all the days... then you've got nothing on your vacation.. you're extremelly right!
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katara: 07/08/2007 3:16 AM
oh my gosh. wot TWATS. u dont need that shit. if they wanna fuck themselves up, & regret more than they can remember, then that's their problem. dont let them drag u down. ur an inspiration 2 every1, especially me, cause my mates say they get drunk & do drugs & all this shit, but i can proudly say "i rock cos i look after myself". They sound like chavs. u deserve a standing ovation!
*starts clapping wildly* xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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