drunk Blog and Journals

In the car, i couldnt stop staring at Ryan. He was just soo perfect in everyway. I was trying to get used to his perfection.

So who took care of my girl? Ryan asked.

I did! Dont worry, she was spoiled at all times! Brendon smiled.

Good, Now i can take care of her, He said kissing my hand.

Dont be too happy. She get a different late night craving every night, Brendon told him.

HEY WHEN NEMO WANTS SKITTLES, NEMO IS GONNA GET SKITTLES! I screamed from the back seat.

They laughed and i rubbed my stomache.

Ryan went to my belly and kissed it. Then he kissed me.

By the way, Were finding out the gender in 2 weeks, I smiled.

Perfect! He smiled.

When we arrived at the bus, Everyone attacked him in a hug. I thought Spencer tried to rape him but im not sure.

LETS GO CELEBRATE!!! Jon said.

How? I asked.

LETS GO CLUBBING! Brendon said jumping on the table.

Brendon! Get off the table! I told him while slapping his feet.

Dont we got a show today? Ryan asked.

Yah but we can go clubbing after... Spencer said.

Alright! Ryan said.

Ima stay on the bus, i mean clubbing isnt really baby place and come on what can i wear? Nothing fits me! I said while lifting my hands up.

Babe, you want me to stay then? He asked.

No, Umm No you can go! I said smiling.

Are you sure? He asked.

Of course, i smiled and gaved him a kiss.

My stomache started growling.

NEMO IS HUNGRY!!! Claimed Spencer.

Wow someones hyper ever since Ryan came back, Jon said with a high voice.

OF COURSE!!!!!! I GOT MY LOVER BACK! Spencer screamed and jumped on Ryan.

Poor Ryan.

HEY SPENCER GET OFF MY MAN! Brendon said jumpping in.

Hey! Im the one pregnet with his baby! I shouted.

Yah she wins, Ryan said pushing them off him and giving me a hug me.

I smiled and kissed him. Then we started walking out the bus to dennys.

We ordered and we ate.

So how was it? He asked.

Hmm? I asked.

How was it without me? He asked.

It was horrible, I cried.

He hugged me.

It was horrible without you to. Look what i did.

He lifted up his shirt and turned around.

On his back said my name and it had a heart.

Then It was a smaller heart.

Whats the smaller heart for? I asked.

For Nemo...He smiled.

I was all teary.

I kissed him again.

God i loved to kiss him. Everytime i kissed him, it was like home. Like i was safe from the dangers of the world.I couldnt get enough of it.

Its beautiful Ryan..Really.

I knew you were going to like it, He smiled.

He looked at his watch.

Well we gotta go.

I nodded my head. I watched him pay and then we walked back to da bus.

The guys got ready. I wonder how everyone was going to react when they see Ryan. We headed to the concert and stood among the crowd.

When Ryan appeared, Everyone went crazy.

They played beautifully. Life was back when they played and i was glad he was back.

He looked at my eyes while i looked back at his. The whole time playing, he would look into my eyes.

OMG WHY IS HE LOOKING AT YOU? Screamed a girl.

Because hes my husband, I smiled and kept looking.

When it was finish, I made my way to Ryan.

You were awesome baby, I said giving him a kiss on the lips.

How about me? Brendon pouted.

I laughed and kissed his cheek.

He smiled and went to give Spencer a wedgy.

Alright so are you sure i can go out tonight? He asked.

Of course you can, Have fun! I told him.

He gaved me one last kissed and went off with Brendon. I went walking back to the bus.

I layed on Ryans bunk.

I just couldnt believe he was back. Im so shocked.

I walked around the bus, I actually didnt have much to do.

I sat on the couch and turned on the tv. It was 16 and pregenet.

Those guys are such asses just leaving there preg girlfriend to do the hardwork. Ryan will always be there for me but the baby is still in me. How is he going to be when the babys out? Would he still be here? Probably will. I cant imagine him just leaving us.

Then i thought about it.

This isnt living material. I cant raise my child here. I cant make him stop his dream just to help me raise our child. He should keep his dream...Am i ruining it.

NO STOP IT! He was happy when i told him i was preg. He knew everything that comes with it. When the time comes, we will see. God i gotta stop over reacting.

I changed the channel and put on TLC baby.

EWWW SHES GIVING BIRTH1!!!!! It looks like it hurt.

Ah Everything i do for love!

The door opened and Brendon and Jon came drunk.

Denise!!!!! G-G-GO OUTSIDEEEE!!!!! Brendon slurred.

I went outside.

Spencer was helping Ryan up.

What happened? I asked.

H-HE drink much, Spencer giggled.

Here, go inside, i said pushing Spencer inside.

I helpped Ryan up, He puked. I brought him to his bunk.

I-Im sorry, he told me.

Its okay Ryan, I dont mind i told him.

I took off his shoes, His pants, and his shirt.

I layed next him.

Goodnight.

Goodnight Denise... I L-Looove you.

Love you to, I smiled and went to sleep