Juse Because I Love You - October

October is my favorite month of the year.  Fall is in its prime, the leaves are turning and rotting; and it may sound weird but I love that smell, and it's starting to cool off, but not so much that freeze your butt off.  And of course, we all know the best part of October is Halloween! It's the best holiday of the year, in my opinion.

I've been in conflict over what I wanted to be.  I went from 80's/Raver, to a zombie, to a ghost, and back again.  I briefly considered vampire, but with all of the mania right now, I'd probably get beat up.  So my best friend and I finally ended up at eighties zombies.  It's going to be so much fun!

We went from Clawson Michigan to Hamburg New York, then back to Clawson, then to Lake Orion.  Three times in the last year or so, that is absolutely ridiculous. That also means three different high schools.  Then, with in the next two or three years, I'll have to move again!

I've been thinking lately about how much all of this moving in the last year has changed me.  I used to be this fun loving person, very social, you could almost never get me to shut up.  I loved meeting new people and trying new things and having awkward shallow conversation with complete strangers.  I had a huge group of friends and loved being with people in general.   I used to live for that kind of stuff!
But then the whole fiasco started, and it seems to have morphed my entire personality into someone I never expected to be. 
I now loathe small talk and meeting new people; I have had enough new people to last me the rest of my life.  I'm quieter than I was, even a year ago, more secluded.  I'd rather do things on my own.  My circle has shrunk drastically; I have my two best friends, Haley and Josh (who is also my favorite cousin and band-mate), than I have Casey; who is one of the only good things that came out of New York. 

And it's ironic because I plan on going into childcare! And not just childcare, autism childcare, and that's even more difficult.  It's one of those things that if you don't meet new people, you'll never advance in the field, it's a networking kind of thing. 

It was a good month in music this month.  We had the new Paramore album (which didn't actually come out in October, but its close enough).  A new Mayday Parade album (which is AMAZING), a new Tokio Hotel album, the Glamour Kills Tour started, and we got a new Young Veins song!  It was a good month indeed.  I also feel I should mention Craig Owens leaving Chiodos.  The band has said that they do not wish to release the reason why. 
Chiodos is nothing without him. Craig Owens is and will always be Chiodos; they won't find anyone with a voice like that anywhere else.    

I don't know if it's just me, but the "My Song of the Moment" module on my Buzznet page makes me angry.  You type in the artist name and it gives you a pull down list of the songs right? So why are none of the songs I ever want on there? I've tried to get I Swear This Time I Mean It from Mayday Parade, and Therapy from All Time Low, and Careful by Paramore, but they're never there! BLEH!

Band of the Month:
Mayday Parade

Quote of the Month:
"I like my men the way I like my marshmallows....flaming." - Alyssa Gilbert

Anyway, that's my rant of the month.  Happy Halloween!