Brendon Urie Blog and Journals

Peaches.

Spencers family had a little party for him so i met all of his cousins and his perverted brother again, and to be honest, i was probably the hottest person in the room. i was probably the most sluttiest looking also, i looked so odd with the massive hair and bow in a short, pretty, fluffy dress compared to all his cousins that dressed sensibly

"SPENNY!" someone shouted and i saw a little kid with a pacifier in his mouth running to him

"hey buddy" Spencer smiled and hugged him

"this is Peaches, Danny. can you say hi to her?" he asked and Danny looked at me and giggled and ran off

"awww can i chase him?" i smiled

"if you want" he laughed and i spent a few minutes following the kid around until he fell on his face and started crying. since no one was around i gently picked him up and he was all pouty and wet.

"are you okay?" i asked and he just sniffled

i carried him to the kitchen and got some tissues and gently wiped his face

"any boogers?" i asked and he laughed and shook his head and rubbed his face into my hair

"do you wanna go see Spenny again? or mommy?" i asked

"Spenny!" he said

"okay darling" i smiled and we walked outside and he helped me shut the door and i walked down the small steps into the garden where i saw Spencers dad was already drunk and talking very loudly

"AND I WAS LIKE... THATS WHAT SHE SAID" he said and everyone was cacking their pants in laughter

Spencer was talking to an aunt or something so i walked over and he smiled at me

"this is my Aunty Mel" he said and i smiled and said hello and she walked off to talk to someone else

"i was wondering where you got to" Spencer said and i gave him the child

"no boogers" Danny said and i laughed

i went inside to go to the bathroom and i heard crying, i went into the lounge and saw Adam in his little bed

"shit" i said and hesistated to pick him up because i've never carried a baby before

when i finally grew the balls, i very gently picked him up and rocked him in my arms. he was so little and light...i felt like God or something. he kept crying and his face was going red and i panicked, so i started singing

"hush little baby, dont say a word. mamas gonna buy you a mockingbird. if that mockingbird dont sing, mamas gonna buy you a diamond ring"

he quietened and drooled on my hand

i kept singing a little bit after he was sleeping just incase and gently put him back down in his crib and played this toy on the side of his crib that sings and smiled and went and washed my hand

"is everything okay?" Spencer asked and i turned and nodded

"come with me and you wont feel outcasted" he said and i smiled "it's kinda hard"

"my cousins all think you're hot so that'll make it a little easier on you" he smiled

"it would.. but no" i said

"come on" he said pulling my arm and we went back outside and Spencers dad was jiggling around and dancing and doing the robot and i was literally wetting myself from laughing

"heeeey" Dallas said and i looked at him and nearly rolled my eyes

"hello Dallas" i said

"fancy seeing you here. i didnt know you were coming too" he said

"your brother made me" i smiled

"oh okay" he smiled

the rest of the night was pretty much the same...

 

Tiffany.

i slept in Spencers bunk early that night, i didnt feel better and i didnt feel worse. i felt like a bitch for giving Brendon the silent treatment most of the time, i didnt want him trying to get me back even though it was what i wanted so badly. Jon came to check up on me and i stayed pretty mellow

"i'm fine" i said

"if you need me, just wake me up" he said and i nodded "thanks" 

in the middle of the night i was woken up and pulled out of the bunk, confused as hell

"Tiffy" he said

"Brendon leave me alone" i said

"i know in there somewhere that you still feel the same" he said holding me close

"no Brendon, i cant.." i said but he pushed his lips to mine and i started crying, but i wanted him so badly. i just didnt know what to do, he tasted like alcohol and i started to get goosebumps along my arms

"please stop" i said quietly

"i cant" he said and his hands were trembling

"you dont understand the shit that is going through my head right now" i said

"tell me. help me to fix this" he said

"you can't fix a person that is broken." i said

"yes, i can" he said and tried to take me to his bed

"Brendon no!" i said but he was pretty forceful and then i was pulled back by Jon

"dude let her go" he said and Ryan got up and pulled Brendon off me

"but..." he said but Ryan took him to his bed and shut the door and started yelling at him and i was crying

"i fucking hate this!" i squealed and Jon held onto me

"come on, we'll sleep in my bunk and he wont touch you" he said letting me go in first and i fell asleep

i woke up with a headache and already knew i was going to have a horrible day.

 

Peaches.

that night when everyone went home, i got changed in the bathroom and walked to Spencers bedroom and saw him writing something. i put my stuff in my bag and when i got back up he was looking at me

"...bedtime?" i said and he smiled

"you dont mind sleeping in the same bed as me? considering..." he said

"i dont mind" i said "since your cute little brother gets the spare room"

i went under the sheets and Spencer turned the light off and joined me

"did you have a good night?" he asked

"yeah.. you?" i asked

"it was okay" he said and tried to put his arm around me without me noticing

"can i..." he said "kiss you goodnight?"

i smiled "i guess."

he moved some hair away from my face and softly kissed me. he tasted like gum so i guess he was prepared for this. my hand went on his side and he pulled me closer to him and i was distracted by the nice feeling i was getting from this.

we started going further and he had his fingers around the top of my shorts and i had to stop it.

"Spencer" i breathed out and he stopped everything

"i'm sorry" he said

"i should have said something, i can't hurt Ryan like that. i can't keep things like that secret" i said

he nodded "i got so caught up"

i smiled "i did too, which is kinda a good thing"

he smiled a little and kissed my forehead

"i wish you felt the same"

i gave him a hug and fell asleep in his arms

i woke up at 9 and had a shower, i heard my phone and answered it quietly in the hallway outside since Spencer was asleep

"hello?"

"i miss you quite terribly" he said and i smiled "hey Ry. i miss you too"

"Brendon and Tiffany as such messed up people right now" he said "he woke her up in the middle of the night trying to get her back"

"oh shit" i said

"i yelled at him, dont worry. she's still asleep but Jon said she was crying a little" he said

"poor girl. they are seriously perfect for each other because they both seem to need each other" i said

"i guess. have you been having fun?" he asked

"yeah, Spencers brother Dallas which i keep forgetting about was hitting on me all night" i said

"you would have liked that" he laughed

"shut up" i smiled "how was your night?"

"uneventful besides Brendon and Tiffany" he said

"let me know if she gets restless" i said

"i will" he said "i just want you back here"

"i'll be back tomorrow" i smiled "and remember how i told Brendon i was gonna get him back?"

"...oh yeah, what about that?" he asked

"one week until the day" i said

"what are you gonna do?" he asked

"i cant tell you" i smiled "i'll see you soon"

"fine, i love you" he said

"i love you more, dont remind Brendon, i'm hoping that he forgot"

"it's been like.. a year?" he said

"i know" i smiled

the next night i was babysitting and Adam kept staring at me with wide eyes

"hello pretty boy" i said gently touching his thin hair

"is he awake?" Spencer asked walking over and i nodded

"he is so cute"  i smiled

"hm" he said

"...is something wrong?" i asked

"nothing" he said

"bullcrap" i said and looked at the baby "ignore that"

"nothings wrong" he smiled a little

"you're lyinggg" i sang

"i am" he said "i just didnt expect this weekend to be as it happened"

"oh. thats probably my fault" i said

"hm" he said again

i turned around to face him "i'm sorry that i couldnt sleep with you"

"no it's not that" he smiled

"i just expected more affection.. i dont know, everything played so much better in my head" he said and i smiled "you think about me?"

he smiled and went a little red

i put my arms around him and gave him a little kiss and he sighed happily

"that made me feel better" he smiled

"i know. im good with things like that" i said "i want you to be happy Spencer, i dont wanna make you all emo and stuff"

he shrugged it off and looked at me and i hugged him a little tighter and his hands were on my back

"i really really really like you" he said and i smiled a little "i know"

he picked me up and i laughed as he swung me around and put me down and he sat next to me

"um" i said and looked at him "how long have you been... at a little 'obsessed' level?"

"only a few months" he said

"then do you just... ignore it when i'm with Ryan?" i asked

"sorta. i'll keep myself busy" he said

i nodded and he was looking at me when i looked back at him

"i'm sorry this didn't work out in your favour" i said quietly and he smiled "i think i'll be okay now"

i kissed his lips once and i could tell he wanted more than that. he frowned at me and i smiled "you're so cheeky"

"thats what my mom tells me" he said getting up and helping me up

"i'm just gonna grab some water" i said and he nodded and i went into the kitchen and poured myself a glass and Dallas came down and stood beside me

"hey Peaches" he said grabbing the milk and drinking out of the carton

"hi" i smiled "thirsty?"

"yeah" he smiled and wiped his white moustache "wheres Spence?"

"in the lounge with Adam" i said

"ohh..." he said and looked in the hallway and came back and kissed me and i pushed him off me, i hated how he was tall for his age

"uh. what the hell?" i said

and as Spencer walked in and Dallas ran off

 

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long filler.

im sorry about that :(

love you's

 

xxxx

Hoping that if I update this, Jazz might update "You're A Thousand Miles Away"...hahaha.

Chapter Three

Jazz's P.O.V

I was going to do it.

 

I was going to ask Brendon to move in with me.

 

I mean, we were always on tour with our seperate bands, anyways. So what did it matter if we lived together? Whenever we were both home, he's always be at my place.

 

"Hey babe," Brendon greeted me as I let him into the house. "I missed you last night."

 

I snorted and punched his arm lightly. "You're the one who refuses to stay here."

 

"For good reason."

 

And that was what worried me. He was always so distant...but yet, he still cared about me.

 

"Are we going to stand in the doorway all day or can we actually go inside?"

 

I snapped out of my trance and giggled, ushering him in and closing the door behind me. We moved into the living room and he flopped down onto the couch, before holding his arms open, gesturing for me to sit down, too.

 

I sat down and he wrapped his arms around me. I snuggled against him, closing my eyes. He kissed the top of my head. It was moments like these when I was positive he had to love me.

 

"Brendon," I started, not too sure how to word this. I mean, moving in with me would be a big deal.

 

"Mmm?"

 

"Do you..." at the last minute, I felt my throat clench, and I changed my question. "Do you love me?"

 

Brendon's arms stiffened around me, but he didn't say anything for a few minutes. "Why..." he muttered after a while. "Why are you asking me that?"

 

"I don't know," I replied, moving away from him, to the other end of the couch. "I mean, we've been going out for nine months now...I was just...wondering."

 

"Look, Jazz," he began, and I felt a wave of rejection wash over me. He was going to say 'no'. I knew it.

 

"It's okay," I interjected before he could say anything. "I get it."

 

"No, you don't," he disagreed. He pulled me back to him. "You don't get it at all."

 

"Then enlighten me."

 

"I'm scared of moving too fast," he said.

 

"Moving too fast?" I scoffed. "Did you not hear me? Nine months, Brendon! That is not moving fast!"

 

"I know, I know," he replied. "I just care about you, Jazz. I don't want to lose you."

 

"Look, you could have just told me you didn't love me-"

 

He cut me off by kissing me, hard. "Of course I love you, you silly girl."

 

I felt a smile explode across my face before I leaned in and kissed him again. "Really?" I asked as we pulled away. He nodded. "I love you, too."

 

He grinned and kissed me yet again, and I wrapped my arms around his neck, twining my fingers into his hair. He loved me. He loved me.

 

In my joy of finding out his love, I'd completely forgotten about asking him to move in. I pulled away from him quickly, and he frowned.

 

"Jazz..." he whined.

 

"No, I have a question to ask you," I put a finger to his lips.

 

"Another question?"

 

"Yes...um..." I trailed off, looking away. "Will you move in with me?"

 

"Well, that's kind of moving fast," he stated, clearly surprised.

 

"Please?" I asked. I leaned in and kissed him, moving my lips down to his neck. "For me?"

 

He gulped and I pulled away, smirking.

 

"How about we take it slow-"

 

"Brennnnnnnnnnnndon," I whined.

 

"-and start with me staying with you whilst I'm here."

 

I squealed in delight and wrapped my arms around his neck.

 

"Jesus, who knew you'd get so excited over something like this," Brendon murmured. I giggled. "Meh, I still love you," he shrugged.

 

I smiled at the words. "I love you, too."

 

He kissed my forehead and I snuggled against him.

 

Everything was perfect.

"A Habit of Decomposing" (fanfic)

*Starring*

   Katy Perry       *Brendon Urie*        Lady Gaga          Tracey Phillips          Gerard Way               Frank Iero

....and many more!!!!

 

 Chapter 4

                                                     

This story is mine and all characters and events (even those based on real people or evens) are entirely fictional.  I do not recommend that any of this be taken as true and if you do, you're a complete ingnoramus and you need to be knocked in the head!!! By the way, if I find out anyone has copied my story, I will personally come to thier house and punch them in the kidneys!

 

This format was based on **Laurie's** "Across the Street"....just the format. I really liked the way it was set up and I give her major kudos!

  

Rated R: Explicit Violence, Sexual Content, Crude Language

 

SUMMARY: Brendon Urie is basically Mr. Perfect at his high school. His best friend Ryan has always been there for him, but he's always been sorta second rate. For years, these two have been close....until Stephanie Gemanotta (Lady Gaga) is transferred to thier high school.....then some very STRANGE things begin to happen......a murder perhaps????

 

 Chapter 4

Brendon spotted Tracey and Gerard waiting for him by the school's sign. He walked over to them and the three walked through the parking lot to Gerard's silver Subaru. They all climbed into the little truck and Brendon wedged in between Gerard and Tracey. Gerard pulled out of the parking lot and headed towards Brendon's house.

"Tracey told me about what happened at lunch," Gerard said as he drove through the exit gates of the school, "I wish I had been there!"

"She's just....confused," Tracey added.

"This is so stupid," Brendon sighed, "She needs to get over this....I like Stephani....as a friend....and I don't want Katy to chase her away all because of some stupid choir status!"

Both Gerard and Tracey looked at Brendon incredulously.

"You can't seriously be that OBLIVIOUS!" Tracey gasped.

"What do you mean?" Brendon asked.

"It's you!" Gerard clarified.

"Me?"

"Yes, you!" Tracey and Gerard said in unision.

"Huh?"

Tracey huffed and turned to look Brendon in the eyes, "Katy's acting all crazy for YOU! She doesn't like Stephani because she thinks she's stealing you away from her!"

"That's crazy," Brendon argued, "Katy and I are just friends....she doesn't like me like that, and I don't like her like that."

"Well, if that's true and you wanna chance with Stephani, you'd better make that message clear to Katy," Gerard concluded, "Otherwise, she'll drive Stephani away like she did that Lilly girl."

Gerard pulled to a creaky stop infront of Brendon's house, Tracey opened her door and stepped out, allowing Brendon get out.

"Bye Brendon," Gerard said over Tracey through the rolled-down passenger window.

"Remember what we said," Tracey yelled as Gerard pulled away from his house.

Brendon stood infront of his house quite perplexed. They had it all wrong. Katy was just mad because Stephani was a better singer. Thats all.

He walked up the steps and unlocked the door to his house. His parents wouldn't be back untill around eight, giving him pleanty of downtime. He opened the door to his room and slung his backpack onto its usual spot on the back of his computer chair. He took his Clandestine hoodie off, finding it was much warmer in the house than it was outside. He streched out on his bed and pulled out his iPhone. He saw that he had an unread text message from Katy, so he clicked "view." 

The text message read, "Hey Brndn! Jst wndrn if u wntd to hng out???"

No, he didn't. He wasnt too happy with Katy and he really didn't feel like talking to her. He chose to ignore the text message rather than engage in a conversation about how much she hated Stephani.

Two minutes later, his phone vibrated again. It was another text from Katy. It read, "Did u get my msg?"

This annoyed Brendon. He knew that Katy would keep bugging him....so he tunred his phone off and set it down on his bedside table. He would turn it back on later when he talked to Stephani.

But wait.

He didn't get Stephani's number.

He gave her his.

Brendon quickly turned his phone back on. He didn't want Stephani to call and have her transferred to his voicemail. That just wasn't suave.

When his phone's screen lit up, it said that he had one new voicemail. "Damn it!" he said outloud.

He quickly dial his voicemail to hear the message. He heard the playback of his greeting, the beep, and to his relief, Katy's voice saying, "Hey, just checkin' up on you....you didn't get a ride from me and I was just makin' sure you made it home. Call or text me whenever you can.....well....umm....bye then!"

He hung up his voicemail and set his phone back down on his bedside table. He rolled off his bed and lumbered over to his computer, where he logged on and opened up the internet. He went to Google and typed in "Lesbian Asian Porn" and let the search results pop up, then he quickly exited it and opened a new page. The reason he did this was because he had found out his mother had been sneaking into his room and checking his internet history. He never really did anything like that....on his COMPUTER at least (his iphone was a whole other story)....and it made him mad that his mother didn't trust him. So he figured he'd search for the sites, knowing that it'd freak his mom out....untill she saw that he'd only been on there for two seconds and didn't click any of the links. Then he knew she'd feel really stupid for not trusting him and stay out of his buisness.

He logged into myspace to check his mail and saw there were two unread messages from Ryan. He opened the first one that was sent the day before that said George had taken his car away. The second one that had been sent that afternoon read:

"After school today me and Spncer heard Stephani talking on the phone to someone....the only reason we could hear her was because she was standing(or hiding) at the far side of the school where Spncer's prking spot is. We heard her say some stuff that sounded like Italian...then she said something like, 'I know that we are young, and I know that you may love me....but I just can't be with you like this anymore.....Alejandro. I've found someone who will love me for who I am....not who my parents are. Our love is false.....our love is.....over. I never want to hear your voice again! Goodbye, Alejandro!' then she hung up the phone and walked away. She didn't even notice us standing there. Spencer and I left right after that.....I just thought you should know for some reason."

Brendon re-read what Stephani had said about five times. She'd had a boyfriend? Well, HAD is the keyword. The part about her finding someone who'd love her for who she was.....was she reffering to Brendon?

Brendon logged off his myspace and did a belly-flop onto his bed, then he crawled to the edge by his nightstand and grabbed his phone.

He turned off the vibrate mode and turned the ringtone volume up as loud as it would go, then placed it back on the nightstand. He curled up into a comfortable position and before he knew it, he'd fallen asleep.

 

"AND YOU CAN'T SEE MY HEART.....BEATING. NO, YOU CAN'T SEE IT THROUGH MY CHEST! AND I'M TERRIFIED, BUT I'M NOT LEAVING. I KNOW THAT I MUST PASS THIS TEST. SO JUST PULL THE TRIGGER...," is what woke Brendon from his sleep. Russian Roulette by Rihanna was Brendon's favorite ringtone, but at the moment, it wasn't her voice Brendon was eager to hear. He looked at the screen and saw that it wasn't someone from his contacts, so he knew it had to be Stephani.

He clicked "answer" and said in an unexpectedly sleepy voice, "Hey."

He heard Stephani giggle from the other end, "Um, hi! It's Stephani....did I just wake you up or something?"

"Uh, nah, nah. It's cool. So what 'r you doin'?"

"I just finished practicing on my piano. Do you play piano?"

"I play the piano, the accordian, guitar, bass..." Brendon stopped because he began to feel like he was boasting. Stephani, however, saw things differently.

"That's really cool! Everyone says you're a wonderful singer too!"

Brendon blushed, "Ahh, I'm not that great...."

"I can't know that for sure," Stephani reasoned, "would you like to come to my house? We could practice together!"

This invitation surprised Brendon, but none the less, he eagarly excepted, "Sure! When do you want me to come over?"

"You can come over tonight if you like! It's only four-thirty.....perhaps stay for dinner?"

Brendon jumped on the idea, "Yeah! That's be great!.....wait, I don't have a ride."

"That's okay. I'll have Peter pick you up."

"Peter?" Brendon asked suspiciously.

Stephani quickly explained, "Oh, he's just our butler!"

"Butler? You have a butler?"

Stephani ignored the question, "What is your address?"

Brendon recited his houses location and said, "So when will 'Peter' be here?"

"Probably in about twenty minutes....do you want me to ride with him?"

"If you want too."

"Okay!" Stephani said excitedly, "I'll see you in a bit!"

Stephani hung up and Brendon saved her number into his contacts. He got up, walked over to his closet, and grabbed his Avenged Sevenfold hoodie and threw it on. He went into his bathroom and brushed his teeth, fixed his hair, and put on just a tiny bit of eyeliner.....not enough to where it looked like he was wearing make-up....just enough to make his eyes pop a little. He'd been doing that since seventh grade.

He was just about to close the door when he remembered something. He quickly ran back to his nightstand and pulled out the bottom drawer. He fished around under his socks and found the pile of condoms he and Ryan had bought a little while ago. He stuck two in his wallet and pushed the drawer back into its place. He once again stepped out of his room, shutting the door behind himself.

He had made it about half-way down the hall when he realized what he was doing. He stopped in his tracks as the epiphany settled in. He didn't want to practice with Stephani....he didn't want to be her friend.....he was just a tool who wanted to get lucky. Brendon felt ashamed of himself. Here was this shy new girl who had been tormented by her peers because she was different and had decided to put her trust into him, and here he was trying to take advantage of her.....he felt like slime....he was absolutly disgusted with himself.

But he didn't put the condoms back.

He sent his mom a text message saying he was going to a friends house, then locked the front door once he was on the porch. He waited for a few minutes and soon a black Rols Roice pulled up infront of him. The back passenger window was was rolled down and Stephani said throught it, "Hey, hop in!"

Brendon walked around to the other side where Stephani had opened the door for him from the inside. He crawled in and saw that she had also changed clothes. Stephani now wore a black and white checkered mini-dress with black leggeings and white stilettos, and wore her hair in a loose pony-tail. She was smiling---completely and totally beaming! Not like the shy smiles she wore at school that day. Oh no, She was genuinely happy to see him!

Brendon looked in the driver's seat and saw a man with a tan skin complection, black hair, and even though he was sitting down, Brendon could tell he was pretty short. Stephani noticed Brendon looking at him and said, "That's Peter....Peter Lewis Kingston Wentz III. He drives me around everywhere and makes me food and stuff.....I don't think I could live without him!"

"Anything for you Ms. Gemanotta," Peter said as drove away from Brendon's house.

Brendon looked over at Stephani and said, "I've only known you for a few hours....."

Stephani seemed confused, "And.....?"

"Well, what makes you trust me enough to invite me to your house?"

Stephani didn't imeadiatly reply. She looked up into Brendon's eyes and said, "Because of the way you looked at me.....most people either look at me the way Katy did or the way Frank did....You saw me as a person. You wanted to be my friend...."

Brendon shifted uncomfortably in his seat. He really felt like a jackass now.

Stepahni noticed his behavior and quickly said, "What's wrong?"

"Nothing....it's nothing...."

Brendon looked out the tinted windows and saw the neigborhood had changed, along with the social class! The houses here were huge and most of them rested behind towering gothic fences and gates. Peter pulled to a stop at a twelve-foot brick wall, with an opening for the gate. He pushed a button on a small remote clipped to his sun visor and the gates auto matically opened. 

The manor was on a hill, just like many of the others in that area, but at that particular estate, the house was placed directly on the very top of the prominence, and because of the vast amount of towering trees in full foliage, it was completely hidden from view until Peter had driven halfway up the hillside. When Brendon finally saw the house, his jaw litteraly dropped;

It could simply be described as five-floors of elegance. Ten enormous white support beams held up the front overhang and sparkling fountains of beautiful marble women spouted out water.  The home itself was painted a classic white, and Brendon couldn't help but stare in awe at its remarkableness.

"You live HERE?" Brendon gasped.

"Yep! Welcome to my humble abode!" Stephani said proudly.

"There's nothing humble about it!" Brendon declared.

Peter pulled into the huge parking garage that was probably bigger than Brendon's house. Peter quickly got out and walked around to open Stephani's door. Brendon followed Stephani out and felt his heart leap into his throat. Inside the garage were maybe a dozen classic and just realeased cars. Brendon ran over to the black and yellow 2010 Camaro and about had a heart attack!

"Oh, my God! Just like the one in Transformers!"

"Yeah, that one's mine."

"You drive?"

"Yeah, but only for fun." Stephani said, "Driving to school isn't fun. That's why I have Peter take me. C'mon, let me show you the house."

Stephani grabbed Brendons hand and led him to a set of French doors that opened up to a baby-blue corridor. Stephani ran down the hall with Brendon trailing along behind. Stephani made a sharp left through a door that Brendon didn't even see until Stephani and pulled him through it.

The circular room had hard-wood floors and four large windows on the side opposite from the door.  The attractive burgundy rugs under all of the handcrafted furniture were accented with intricate golden designs that seemed to dance across the carpets. The furnishings themselves were a work of magnificent art. The couch and loveseats had wooden frames and extremely fluffy looking cream-colored cushions, and winged-back chairs stood out against the dark, wood wall panels. The claret curtains were drawn back on the west wall, allowing afternoon sunshine to bath the room with a stunning radiance that complimented the room to an immeasurable degree. There was a table with glasses, one tea cup, and Neuro Sonic just to the right of the door, and next to that was a large white piano that was so well polished, Brendon could clearly see his own reflection.

Stephani let go of Brendon's hand and ran over to the piano, "This is what I call the 'piano room.' I practice every day in here. I love it"

"This is amazing!" Brendon exclaimed.

"Come here!" Stephani said excitedly, "I want to hear you sing!"

Brendon sat next to Stephani and cleared his thoat, "Ya sure?"

"ABSOLUTLY! GO ON!"

Brendon began playin a slow malencholic melody and after several measures, he bagan to sing:

"take a breath/ take it deep/ calm yourself/ she says to me/ if you play/ you play for keeps/ take the gun/ and count to three/ she said, 'and now/ I'm movin slow'/ no time to think/ my turn to go/ And you can't see my heart/ beating/ no you cant see it through my chest/ and I'm terrified/ but I'm not leavin'/ I know that I must pass this test/ so just pull the trigger..../ Say a prayer/ to yourself/ she says 'close your eyes/ sometimes it helps'/ and then I get/ a scary thought/ that she's here/ means she's never lost!....."

When Brendon finished his song Stephani stood and clapped, "Bravisimo!!! You were LOVELY! Did you write that?"

"Just the piano acompanyment. The song is by Rihanna."

"Well, it was great."

"Well?"

"What?"

"Aren't you gonna play?"

Stephani blushed, but playfully sholved Brendon, "Alright, let me show you how a real pro does it!"

Stephani didn't begin with a piano intro like she had the first time, she rolled right into the song:

"I'll never talk again/ oh, boy you've left me speechless/ you've left me speechless/. so speechless/ and I'll never love again/ oh boy you've left me speechless/ you've left me speechless/ so speechless/ I can't believe/ how you slurred at me/ with your half wide broken jaw/ you popped my heart seams/ all my bubble dreams/ bubble dreams/ I can't believe/ how you looked at me with your Jonny Walker eyes/ he's gonna get you/ and after he's through/ there's gon' be no love left to ride/ and I know that it's complicated/ but I'm a loser in love so baby/ raise a glass to mend/ all the broken hearts of all my wrecked up friends/ I'll never talk again/ oh, boy you've left me speechless/ you've left me speechless/ so speechless/ and I'll never love again/ oh, friend you've left me speechless/ you've left me speechless/ so speechless....."

She stopped playing and turned to Brendon, "So what'dja think of that? It's not finished....I just started it this afternoon....."

"You mean you wrote all of that yourself?"

"I write all my own music," Stephani said simply, "So didja like it?"

Oh Brendon liked it....but he could help but feel that that song was written for him....

 

 

WHEW!! That was a pretty long chapter huh? It took three days to write!!! Okay, so things didn't get as spicey as expected. I didn't realize this chapter would drag out as long as it did, BUT IT'S ALL GOOD! Next chapter is when a certain someone figures out a certain something about a certain someone else, and well.....it's not so pretty....I'll Have the Chapter 5 up in a few days for ya'll! COMMENTZ???????#o#

 

 

CALENDER BUSINESS

Chapter Thirteen (Build myself a wall on happy highs)

I couldn't believe what was right before me. I couldn't believe what he was doing to her, to my beautiful Sarah. To my best friend.

To the girl I love.

"B-Bren" she stuttered out, a look of pure shock on her face.

Brent didn't turn to look at me, nor did he stop what he was doing, he simply yelled, "Get the fuck out Brendon!"

Before I could think, or even say anything, I turned on my heel and walked away.

My body was numb as I pushed my way through the house full of people. The loud, obnoxious music that could be heard became a blur inside of my head as I made my way down the stairs. I had just reached the bottom when someone grabbed hold of me. I tugged my arm away and continued moving. I only took a few more steps when my arm was firmly grasped and I was forcefully spun around.

"Fuck off!" I angrily snapped before my eyes fell on Sarah's face.

My harsh glare instantly softened when hurt spread across her face. I simply stared at her for a moment, the look on my own face reflecting hers. I was trying to think of something to say, when she spoke first.

"I'm sorry Brendon. I, I didn't mean for you to see that" she quietly mumbled.

I tried to look at her angrily, but I just couldn't. No matter how mad I was, I care for her far too much to stay mad.

"Why did you do it Sarah, why did you let him touch you like that? We made a pact, remember? No sex until we found the right person, until we were in-love."

"Bren, I..." she began, but I cut her off.

"Are you in-love with Brent, Sarah? Do you want to spend the rest of your life with him? Would you die for him?" I questioned sternly, unsure what it was fuelled by. Frustration or hurt.

"You don't understand Bren. It was so hard."

"What was hard? Saying no? Keeping your legs closed? What?" I snapped.

"Don't say it like that. You make it sound like I was doing something bad. Like I was being a slut" she said.

"It is bad" I bluntly replied.

Her eyebrows raised, the hurt on her face stronger, and she said, "It is not. It's natural. It's something couples do together. Brent and I, we're a couple, so it's not bad."

"Stop telling yourself that. It is bad Sarah, it is. If you don't love him, then you shouldn't be doing it with him. You should have said no. He should have respected you enough to stay away, but he didn't, because he doesn't. He doesn't love you; he just wants to fuck you" I rapidly blurted out.

The second the words left my mouth, I realised what I had said. I quickly stepped towards her before saying, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean it."

A single tear ran down her cheek as her facial expression moved from hurt to fury.

"Yes you did" she snapped. "And he does respect me, he does. He was the one who tried to stop it, but I wouldn't let him. I'm the one who wanted it, not him. And what we did isn't bad. Just because I don't love him now, doesn't mean I can't love him later."

Now I was mad. We made a promise to each other, and she broke it. I know that she had done it before with her boyfriend in New Zealand, but she told me that she didn't want to do it again until she was in-love...



Sarah and I were lying in her bed watching Romeo and Juliet. Not my personal choice, but Sarah really wanted to watch it. Who am I to deny her?

I let out a sigh, and turned my head to look at her. I stared at her intently as she stared at the screen in-front of her. 'How did I meet someone so amazing?' I thought to myself.

I continued to stare, when she said, "Have you ever been in-love before Brendon?"

I quickly became startled, and didn't know what to say. Well, I knew what I wanted to say. I wanted to tell her that I have been in-love, and I still am. With her. But, I know that I will never have the guts to tell her that, not without the risk of losing her anyway. It's one of those things best kept in the mind.

After a minute or so of my silence, she turned her head to face me.

A grin spread across her face, and then she said, "You have been in-love. You've never mentioned that before. Go on, tell me about her. Or, him, as the case may be" she chuckled.

"It's not a him" I scolded. "And, I never told you, because it's too complicated to explain."

It was her turn to let out a sigh as she said, "Life never goes according to plan now does it."

"No, it doesn't" I replied. "So, have you ever been in-love?"

She rolled on her side before saying, "I don't know. I mean, I've loved people before, but I've never been in-love."

"Oh" was all I said in reply.

"I hope I get to experience it all someday. You know, falling in-love. Finding someone I would die for, someone I would give up everything to be with. Someone to make love with."

When the last part left her mouth, I gave her a strange look.

She smiled before saying, "I know we're only kids, but it would be nice to share my body and passion with someone who adored me. With someone who wouldn't hurt me." She let out a small chuckle before saying, "What am I talking about. Sex is sex, the end. It's not special or anything. I mean, it's great, but it's far from romantic."

"It could be" I said.

"Yeah, whatever" she laughed.

"No, I'm serious Sarah. It can be as special as you want it to be. All you need to do is find the right guy. Your Romeo" I smiled.

"Oh yeah, and how do I know I've found him?" she asked.

"Well, if you want to make love, he won't have a problem waiting until you're ready for that to happen, and when it does, he'll do it exactly how you want him to. He'll love you no matter what you look like or how you act. He'll love you for you, and nothing else."

She smirked at me before saying, "You know what Bren, you're gonna make some girl real happy one day."

"I know" I pompously responded. "But, until I find my Juliet, I'm gonna stay pure for her."

She furrowed her eyebrows before saying, "Do you mean, you're going to abstain from sex?"

"Yep, if that's what it takes to make it perfect. Just, don't go telling the guys."

She giggled, "Your secret is safe with me Bren. But you know, abstinence sounds like a really good idea. Maybe we could both do it. This Juliet wants to keep her Romeo happy."

"I think it sounds like a good idea. Well, I promise not to have sex with someone I don't love if you don't."

"And I promise not to have sex with someone I don't love if you don't" she replied with a happy grin.



"But we promised each other that we would wait until we were in-love, not before" I growled, now very annoyed with her for the first time ever.

"You don't know how hard it was to go without it Brendon. You've never done it before."

"I know I haven't, and that's because I kept my word" I said before turning around, and walking out of the house.

She didn't follow me, and I didn't expect her to.

I paced back and forth in the backyard, ignoring the clusters of people that were watching me curiously. Most were drunk or stoned, so I was very amusing to them. Eventually I stopped in-front of the fence. I was so mad, that I began to shake a little. All I wanted to do was rip Brent's fucking head off. I wish I had never met him and asked him to join the band. I wish I had never introduced him to Sarah.

I suddenly went from being mad at him and Sarah, to being mad at myself. I let out a frustrated groan, and then I punched the wooden fence. Once, twice, three times. I shook even more as I watched the red fluid leaking from my hand. I dropped it to my side, and rested my forehead against a plank.

I moved my head, and turned around when someone tapped my shoulder and asked, "Are you okay?"

It was the girl from earlier. The one from the line who was giving off a creepy vibe.

I just stared at her coldly, and said, "Not particularly."

"Oh, that sucks. You um, you're Brendon right? This is your party, right?" she then asked.

"Yeah, that's right. Why?"

"Well, I was going to see if you'd care to join me for a joint" she said holding it up in-front of my face.

I know Sarah said I couldn't have any or it would upset her, but what she had done upset me more. Time to make the board even.

"Okay" I said before giving her a smile.

"Great" she said grinning back.

Something about being mad made me bolder then ever before. It's like, I found a new confidence booster. I moved towards the girl, and placed my hands on her hips.

"So babe, you got a name?" I asked as I pulled her into me.

"Sophie" she replied, now looking me in the eyes.

"Well Sophie, I suggest you light that smoke so we can get this party started."

She giggled before pulling a lighter from her back pocket, and handing it to me.

"Why don't you get this party started?"


**********


I've never felt so good in my life. It's like I have no problems whatsoever. I feel, free. Free of my parents, free of my friends, free of my problems, and free of Sarah Tipene.

I shifted in my seat slightly as Sophie straddled my lap, before placing her hands on the back of my neck. I gave her a lazy grin before she joined her lips to mine. I pushed my tongue into her mouth as she pulled my head closer to deepen the kiss. She moaned into my mouth as my hands roamed her body. I let out a lustful groan as she pulled away from me.

"Why did you stop?" I pouted.

"Something buzzed in my pants" she giggled.

"Well that's kinky" I laughed.

She reached into her pocket and pulled out her phone. After a moment or so of staring at the screen, she moved her eyes to mine, and gave me a sad look.

"What's wrong?" I asked

"My friends say it's time to go."

"Really?"

"Yeah" she replied before looking at the ground. Not even a second later, her head snapped back up and she said, "You should come."

"Oh really? And why's that?"

She leaned in and whispered, "If you stay at my place, I can give you a real birthday present."

Being a drunk, stoned, horny teenage boy, I instantly said, "Okay."

She smirked before climbing off of me, and pulling me to my feet. She then laced our fingers before pulling me in the direction of the door. We were halfway across the front yard, walking towards the car of people telling us to hurry up, when someone called my name a few times. I stopped and turned to see Ryan, Spencer, Sam and Sarah walking towards me.

"Brendon, where do you think you're going?" Sam asked.

"Yeah Bren, you're supposed to be spending the night here" Ryan added.

"Not anymore" I said before turning and walking over to the car.

"Brendon, get the fuck over here" Ryan then yelled.

"Get in the car, I'll be one second" I said to Sophie before releasing her hand.

"Okay" she said before giving me a quick kiss, and climbing in.

I walked over to my friends and said, "What is it, I have to go."

"Mate, where do you think you're going? Your parents think you're staying here" Sam said.

"And what are you doing with that girl? Do you even know those dicks?" Ryan questioned as he looked at the car briefly and then back at me.

I looked at Sarah, who surprisingly had remained quiet the entire time, and then I said, "I'm going to do what Sarah did tonight."

"Oh yeah, and what's that?" Spencer asked.

"I'm going to break our promise" I answered staring her right in the eyes.

"What promise?" Ryan said before the three of them looked at her.

"I don't have time to explain, why don't you ask her" I responded before returning to the car and climbing in.

"Bout time babe" Sophie said as I closed the door.

"Sorry" I said as I looked out the open window at Sarah.

She was crying now, and as much as it hurt me, I couldn't stay. Sarah doesn't love me, so I need to stop wasting my time.

"Ready to go dude?" the guy driving asked.

I tore my eyes away from Sarah, and looked at Sophie before saying, "Yeah, let's go."

Chapter 18

Brendon's pov: I woke up to only find Ryan still sleeping, it was just about time to get ready anyways. I decided I would go ahead and wake Ryan up. I reached over and shook Ryan gently and he just groaned. "Ryan..wake up." I whispered in his ear but he still didn't budge. "Wake up or I will tickle you!" I said and he just rolled over onto his stomache and threw the covers back over him. "Fine, I guess I have to do this the hard was then." I slid the covers off of him and he shivered, I slid my hand up onto his sides and started to tickle him. His eyes shot open and he started laughing, "Bren..stop, this tickles." He managed to get out, through constant giggles. "I know, but I told you if you wouldn't get up the easy way it was going to be the hard way." I smirked and kept tickleing him. "Okay, im up, im up!" He yelled and I stopped tickling him. "yay!"I chimed and crawled over him trying to be careful of his ankle and kissed the back of his neck gently. "Did you have a good sleep?" I asked as I kissed down his back now. "Mhm." He answered as his thin body shivered a little as I continued kissing him. I stopped at his lower back and smiled, "Good, now lets go eat some breakfast." I exclaimed and hopped off of ryan, then helped him out of bed. I insited on carrying him down the stairs. "Bren..I have crutches ya know." Ryan said giggling and I just shrugged, "Oh well, I like this better." I said and he just blushed.

Finally after eating a yummy breakfast made by my mother we left for school. We got there kinda early so we sat down in the hall way outside of the classroom. Ryan rested his head on my shoulder and closed his eyes. He was still tired, I could easily tell. "Bren, Im still sleepy..maybe we shouldn't stay up that late again, even though it was tons of fun." Ryan smirked still having his eyes closed. "Oh..yeah, probally not, at least we can stay up late on the weekends though and do whatever." I stated. "Yeah that is true.But anyways..you know how you said you were going to kick Travis's ass, don't do it. He is a lot bigger than the both of us. He is so tall." Ryan told me. "Oh..but, he hurt you!" I yelled. "I know, but promise me you won't, cause then if he hurt you I would have to kick his ass again, and then the whole cycle would happen over and over again." Ryan stated, which he had a point. "Okay fine, if you really do not want me to." I said rolling my eyes along with a sigh, "Okay good, cause I really don't want you to." Ryan answered and leaned up to kiss me on the cheek.

Taylor's pov: Me and my cousin, Laurel walked into the school right on time. We both went into class and saw Brendon and Ryan sitting in their desks. I sat down at their table, the teacher had us in groups of four today. Only problem was..there was no seat for Laurel, Pete was sitting there. I sat and looked at Laurel and shrugged. She just pouted and walked up behind Pete. We all knew Pete Wentz was bi and had a little thing for Ryan, He of course would never steal Ryan away from Brendon though.  He wasn't stupid. So Ryan came up with a plan quickly. Its not that he didn't want Pete sitting there or anything, Pete was an awesome guy, but we couldn't just leave my cousin out. "Hey..umm Pete can Laurel sit there please, so she can sit with us?" Ryan asked very politely, batting his long eyelashes and pouting cutely at him. "Oh..yeah sure, no problem Ryan." Pete quickly allowed and got up allowing laurel to sit. "Thanks Ryan, I swear I love you." Laurel said. "Oh..I know!"Ryan chimed with a smug smile. "You know Ryan, I swear you act like a girl sometimes." I said giggling, and referring to him batting his eyelashes at Pete to get his way. "What?! Nuh uh..Im a boy, I just..do that..ya know flirt a little so..he listens to me." Ryan replied blushing. I just laughed.

Finally after two tests and long periods of classes it was the end of the day. We actually had no homework suprisingly. I saw Laurel after school and we decided to ask the guys if maybe they wanted to go hang at my place now, just for a while. I saw Ryan walking on his crutches along side Brendon. "Hey guys, you want to come hang out at my house for a while, you know just chill?" I asked and Ryan looked at Brendon. "Bren, what do you think, I mean its fine with me." Ryan replied and asked. "Oh well that will be okay, it sounds pretty cool." Brendon answered not sounding too enthoused. Im sure he was planning on getting to make out with Ryan all day or something. But one day of not doing that wouldn't kill him, I mean who knows they might even do that while at my house. Even though I hoped not. "Okay cool, just meet me there then. Me and Laurel are gonna go ahead and head there." I said and we waved goodbye.

Ryan's pov: I waved back and texted my step mom to tell her I would be home by five at the latest. Brendon ended up telling his mom the same time on the phone. We decided we would go ahead and walk together there I mean, I walk to my house almost everyday, even with the crutches it couldn't be the worse pain I would ever experience.

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While walking, Brendon constantly asked me if I was sure that I didn't want a ride there and I always said im sure. I guess he just was concerned about me. I mean I may look really breakable, but im not that breakable I promise. "Ry..you sure?" He asked for the fifth time already. "Yes Bren, I am absolutely positive. What do you want me to do to convince you I will be fine?" I asked smiling. "Oh..I dunno, I was just concerned that it hurt." He said and looked at me with concerned eyes. "Aw Bren, I am fine." I said and stopped to kiss him softly. He kissed me back just as gently and pulled away with a smile. "Okay, I guess you are." He said and I just giggled. All along I had to kiss him just so he would know I was just fine. He is so silly.

Sorry you guys, it was short..right? I know. I just got home from Tennessee and I have stuff to do. Sorry :( anyways I hope you guys liked it anyways. :) Thanks for reading my stories, it means a lot to read all of your comments. :) Thanks again, Love Laurel!

 

Title: Changes Everything I See (One shot)

Author: Me (patricksgirl84) Written for Kendra (mylittleheart) birthday. I'm soooooooo sorry this is so late. Hope you like it. I don't think it's one of my best.

Fandom: Panic At The Disco (with a little FOB side dish)

Genre: Romance/Drama

Characters: Brendon Urie/Kendra

Disclaimer/Warning: Nothing. Do not own. If I did Brendon would be shipped to Kendra ASAP!

Rating: PG/13

 

Kendra parked the car and walked into the store. She got the few groceries she needed and checked out. Leaving the store she shifted the bag of groceries as she dug in her purse for her keys. Someone bumped into her and she dropped the bag. She looked up.

“Oh my god. I’m so sorry.” He bent down to pick the items that fell out.

“Here you go. I’m really sorry. I hope nothing broke.”

“No, everything seems alright.” Kendra was about to walk away when she felt a hand on her arm.

“What do you want?”

“Um. I really don’t know. Would you like to go out for a cup of coffee sometime?”

“I don’t think so.”

“Why not?”

“First off, I really don’t know you.”

“My name is Brendon. I moved here from Vegas. I’m 22 years old. I play in a band. I’m the singer, but I do play a few instruments.”

“Sorry. I really need to go.” Kendra started to walk away.

“What’s the problem?”

“It’s not you. I just have to go.” She ran to her car before Brendon could say anything more. He just stared at the car leaving.

“What the fuck?” He looked at the ground to find a day planner.

“It’s your lucky day, Brendon Urie.” He said to himself.

~@

Kendra pulled into the parking spot and walked into her apartment. After putting everything away she went to lay on the couch. Her cell phone went off.

“Yeah.”

“Hey Babe.” Oh god, she thought. Not him.

“Pete, what do you want?”

“I wanted to know if you want to go out tonight.”

“We broke up.”

“I know. I’m just lonely.”

“That’s not my fault.”

“I know. Come on. You need to get out.”

“Fine. Just for supper. It’s nothing more, but you know that.”

“Yeah. I’ll pick you up in a hour.”

“Bye.”

After a few minutes, Kendra got up and got ready for her semi-date with Pete. She was finishing up when there was a knock on the door.

“Hey, Pete. I’m just about ready.”

“It’s fine. Where would you like to go?”

“Um, how does Antonio’s sound?”

“Good. It’s shouldn’t be too busy tonight?”

“I’m ready.”

“Let’s go.”


~@

Brendon knocked on the door. He knew he should have called before coming over. No one answered.

“Damn.”

“Can I help you?”

“What?” Brendon turned around.

“Can I help you?”

“Um, I was just seeing if Kendra was home.”

“I seen her leave about twenty minutes ago with her boyfriend, Pete.”

“Boyfriend?”

“Yes. They have been dating for a couple of years now.”

“Guess, I’ll call her later. Bye.”

Brendon left the apartment depressed.


~@

Pete pulled the car in front of the apartment.

“Thanks for supper.”

“No problem. Even though you left me with the check.”

“I was going to pay. Honestly. I have no idea what happened to my planner. I have all my credit cards and information in there.”

“You better call your bank if you can’t find it. I’ll call you if I find it.

“Thanks, but we looked in the car. I doubt it’s in here. I'll talk to you later.”

“Okay. Thanks again.”

“It was nice to get out. Have a good night.”

Kendra left Pete’s car and went to the apartment building.

“Oh Kendra, dear. It’s you.”

“I’m sorry if Pete’s car woke you up, Mrs. Caine.”

“No, even though he does need to get a muffler.” Kendra laughed.

“I keep telling him that.”

“Wasn’t he going to walk you to the door. A young man always walked his date to the door.”

“I told him I could make it. Oh, we broke up awhile ago.”

“I’m sorry.”

“No, it’s fine. We are better off as friends.”

“That’s good.”

“I’m going to go to bed now.”

“Same here. Oh, after you left another young man came to your door. I told him you were gone.”

“I don’t know who that would be, but thank you. Good night.”

Kendra went inside and got ready for bed. After setting her alarm clock and getting into her bed the cell phone went off.
“Who is texting me now?”

She read the text, “Are you missing something?”

She texted back, “Who are you?”

Next the phone rang.

“Hello?”

“It’s Brendon.”

“How did you get my number?”

“I found your planner.”

“You have it?”

“Yes.”

“Oh, thank you. I was worried I lost it. Can I get it tomorrow.”

“Sure. Can I take you out tomorrow or do you have a date?”

“No. I mean I don’t have a date.”

“Good. I’ll pick you up at 7:00.”

“Good night.”

~@

The next day Kendra got up and went to work. The day dragged on. She just wanted to get this date over. She got home late and hurried to get ready for the date. She was putting on her jacket when there was a knock on her door. She opened it.

“Hi. You look nice.” Brendon said.

“Thank you. Can we get this date over with?”

“I’m really not that bad. Why don’t you like me?”

“You just remind me of some guys I’ve known.”

“Well, I’m not them.”

“Your cocky and arrogant.”

“Hmm, you think you know me? I could just taken your planner and used your credit cards. You know what, here.” He handed her the planner.

“You don’t have to go out with me. Nice meeting you.” Brendon turned around and started to walk away.

“Brendon, I’m sorry.”

“Whatever. I have better things to go than this.”

“I’m sorry. Come in and I’ll make us something to eat.”

He sighed.

“Fine. I really wanted this night to be nice.” She took his hand and had him sit on the couch.

“Is there anything you don’t like to eat?”

“No, anything is fine. Will you let me help?”

“No. I screwed this up, so you sit right there.” Kendra went to the kitchen and started to put together chicken and potatoes. Once it was almost done she had Brendon make a salad. They sat down and started eating the salad.

“I’m really sorry for how I acted. I hope your not mad.” Kendra said.

“I’m not mad.”

“Okay.”

“So, do you live alone or with a roommate?”

“Myself. My last boyfriend wanted me to move in with him, but thank god I didn’t. I found some things out and we broke up a few weeks after he asked me.”

“I’m sorry.”

“No. We are better as friends now.”

Are you seeing anyone now?” Kendra looked at Brendon.

“No.”

“I thought you might have been.”

“Why?”

“I came by last night to drop off your planner and I met one of your neighbors.”

“Mrs. Caine. She gets things confused. I’ve told her over and over that Pete and I aren’t dating. Anyway, you said you were from Vegas. Why would you move here?”

Brendon laughed.

“I actually had a bad break up. I needed a place to start over.” His phone started to ring.

“You answer your phone and I’ll get our food.” Kendra took their plates to the kitchen and made plates for both of them with the chicken, potatoes, and green beans. She could hear Brendon’s voice raise a few times. She waiting a few minutes and then decided to go to the dining area. Brendon had just closed his phone.

“Sorry about that.” Kendra place a plate in front of him and sat down.

“It’s okay.”

“Since I was speaking of my ex, he decides to call.”

“He?”

“Yeah. I should of told you, I guess.”

“No, it’s your personal life. Just surprised.”

“Because I’m interested in you?”

“Maybe.” Kendra pushed her food on her plate. Brendon took her hand.

“I am interested in you.” She looked up into his eyes.

“We hardly know each other.”

“How about we get to. I’m new here and need someone to show me around.” She smiled at him.

“Alright.”

~@ 6 months later

“Why won’t you move in with me?” Brendon asked.

“I just don’t want to lose what we have.”

“And we would be living together? I don’t understand.

“Brendon, we’ve had this discussion before and I’m not moving in with you.”

Brendon sat down across from Kendra.

“There is more than you are afraid. What is it?”

“I’m just scared. What if things don’t work out with us?”
“Do you love me?”

“What a question? Of course I do. You mean the world to me. I just don’t want you to fall in love with another man.” Kendra placed her hand over her mouth. “I’m sorry.”

“No. I understand, but there’s still more isn’t there.”

“I found Pete in bed with a guy. That’s why we broke up. He’s gay. And when you mentioned your ex it’s like I can’t move past that. I want to. I know you get upset when Pete and I do things together, but I can‘t have you two meet. I'm just afraid that you may fall in love with him. I know it‘s stupid.”

“It’s not stupid and I really doubt I would fall in love with him. Plus, I don’t fool around on the people I date. No matter what sex. Right now I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I know it’s only been 6 months. I can’t help how I feel.”

“Brendon, I wish I could give you what you want.”

“How about we do a trial run. You bring some things to my house and stay a few nights a week?”

“I guess that would work.”

“Come here.” Kendra went over to Brendon and sat on his lap.

“What do you want, Mr. Urie?”

“This.” Brendon took Kendra’s face in his hands and kissed her. He opened her mouth with his tongue. Just as he was about to take her to the bedroom someone was knocking on the door.

“Hold that thought. I’ll be right back.”

Kendra went to the door and opened it. Pete was standing there.

“Uh, what do you want?”

“Nice to see you to. Can I come in?” Kendra turned around and didn’t see Brendon.

“I guess.” Once Pete was inside she closed the door.

“So, what do you want?”

“What’s going on? Your really acting strange.”

“Kendra, is everything alright?”

“Hey, you must be the new boyfriend. I’m Pete. The old one.”

“Yeah, Kendra has mentioned you a couple times. I’m Brendon.”

“I didn’t know you had company. I found some CD’s of yours. I thought I would give them to you.”

“Oh, thanks.”

“Well, I guess I’ll be going. Nice to meet you, Brendon.”

Brendon and Kendra watched Pete leave.

“Don’t be worried. I don’t find him attractive at all. You have my heart.”

“I love you, Brendon.”

 

Tiffany.

Brendon was trying to call my phone but all i did was shut it off. i needed to lock myself somewhere and just scream. Everyone left me alone because it was what i wanted. i was considering going back home to mom and dad when Brendon came in and i just rolled my eyes and he shut the door and got on his knees infront of me

"we NEVER actually kissed" he said "i leaned toward her and that was it"

i crossed my arms

"i never should have hung out with her today, i'm sorry. i will tell the media that nothing is going on between us and that i love YOU. i would never do anything to hurt you like this" he said

"tell Dave he's fired" i said and he didnt say anything and i groaned and got up but he literally pulled me back down

"no, i'll do it" he said

"why the hell do you put up with me Brendon?" i asked

"wha?" he said

"i give you so much crap and i get so jealous that i just take it all out on you" i said "i'm just dead weight" 

"well it's not your fault i'm a crappy boyfriend" he said

"NO. you're not!" i said and tears were coming out of my eyes "i havent had a boyfriend since year 8 because im scared of getting hurt again! i get so paranoid about it and..."

he folded his arms "again?"

i didnt realise what i just said and got up and ran outside, he tried to run after me but i finally lost him and tried to catch my breath.

something was wrong with me.

Peaches.

Brendon ran out after Tiffany and i was about to go along but they were already out of sight. when Brendon came back i decided to ask him

"were you playing extreme chasey?" i asked

"no" he said "she said something about being scared of getting hurt again"

"...huh?" i said

"im not sure" he said

"Tiffs never been hurt" i smiled

"well, maybe theres something that shes not telling you" he said

i called her phone and to my surprise she answered.

"i know you probably dont wanna talk to me, but please just stay around" i said

"i really need to tell you something sis." she said "i should have earlier, but i feel so stupid"

"what is it?" i asked softly

"you know when i ran away that time when i was 14?" she said and i nodded "yeah and you came back a week later"

"i had a boyfriend at the time. and i went to go see him. i didnt wanna tell mom because i knew she'd get so mad at me. as soon as i found out he was part of a drug dealing system and stuff i told him i didnt wanna be with him anymore" she said and sighed

"oh my god" i said putting my hand to my mouth

"then he..." she said and i heard her crying

"then what" i whispered

"he... he raped me for three days straight and then i managed to get away and found my way home eventually" she said and i had tears falling from my eyes

"where did you go?!" i asked

"i stayed with Mrs Fisher, she promised not to tell anyone" she said

"where the fuck are you? i want you here right now!" i yelled in tears

"i'm in someones treehouse" she sniffed "but i'm not finished"

"okay" i said shaking throughout my body

"on the last day of that year, i had an abortion. i lied to you and mom, mom was at work with dad and Mrs Fisher helped me again" she said

"wasnt that scary?" i asked

"i never wanna do it again." she said softly

"i wanna give you the biggest hug in the world right now" i said and she laughed

"it was a long time ago... but thats the real reason why i didnt date. not because i didnt want the commitment" she said and i nodded "can i come and get you now?"

"if you want" she said "i'm just by the bridge that you said would look better if it had curves"

i smiled "okay, dont run off"

"okay" she said and i ran outside and over to the bridge and  saw her wearing the bow and immediately hugged her tight

"i have the best sister in the world" she smiled and put her arms around me

we started walking back together holding hands

"maybe Brendon and I shouldnt be together. i'm a handful and i always get so moody" she said

"it's upto you" i shrugged "he'd have Audrey anyway"

"yeah.. she's pretty" Tiff said

she went and talked to Brendon and i got on the bus to see Spencer by himself just blinking at the window

"hey" i said and she snapped out of it and looked at me "oh hi"

"you look so bored" i smiled and sat beside him

"a little" he said "is Tiffany alright?"

"she will be" i said "wheres Ryan and Jon?"

"doing guitar things" he said

"aw" i smiled

"um can i ask you something?" he said

"of course" i said leaning my head on his shoulder

"since we're on a break my mom wants to see me and pinch my cheeks and stuff. would you wanna come with me? i dont really wanna drive for 2 hours alone" he said

"oh okay, i'll have to ask Ryan" i smiled

"okay" he said "my family is... special"

"dont worry, so is mine" i smiled

Brendon came back on the bus alone and went straight to the back and i got up and followed him to where he was lying on his bed. i laid beside him on my stomach like he was

"i guess it didnt end too well?" i said and he nodded and i noticed he was tearing up

i gently rubbed his back

"my sister is very complex... i dont think you're ready for her yet" i said

"but i love her" he said in tears and that made me sad seeing a man cry.

i put my arm around him as he was quietly sobbing to his pillow

"she loves you too, she's just not ready for commitments right now" i said but he just kept crying

we talked a little bit until he was crying so much that he fell asleep.

two days later and i was on the road with Spencer and Brendon fired Dave which meant the rest of the band were looking for a new producer. we got to his luxurious white house and he helped carry my stuff to the door which his father answered

"Spencer" he smiled and hugged him "and... Peach?"

"Peaches" i smiled and hugged him

his mother was in the lounge room carrying a baby

"oh i didnt know you had siblings" i smiled at Spencer

"i dont.." he said

oh awkward.

she stood up gently "we wanted to tell you, but you were so busy being a rockstar and.."

"i'm a brother! that is amazing!" he smiled

"we named him Adam" Spencers dad said

"he's so cute and small" i said gently playing with his hand

"you must be Peaches" his mom said and i nodded "if you need any babysitting and stuff, i can help"

"why thank you" she smiled "he's been okay lately. nothing like Spencer was"

i laughed and took my stuff up to Spencers room and saw all the empty space and music magazines and posters. i put my things on the ground and went through some of his cds

"i was hoping that whatever happens here, stays here" he said and i turned around

"...is that the only reason why you wanted me here?" i asked putting the cds down

"no.. but it is the majority of the reason why" he said

"but what if someone found out?" i asked

"they won't, like i wont be all over you every minute of the day" he said

"do you understand that if we do.. things, i wont be feeling the same?" i said and he nodded

"okay" i nodded

"i always think about you and it's hard to make it stop... i try everything" he said and i smiled "well now's your chance to let it all go"

"come here" he said so i walked over and he gently grabbed my hand and placed it on his chest and i felt his heart beating

"wow" i smiled "why is it doing that? we arent having rabbit sex or anything"

"i'm nervous" he said

"why?" i asked

"i dont know!" he smiled "you're just... beautiful and perfect"

i smiled and gently hugged him and he lifted my head up and i looked at him and we started making out. i had to remind myself that i loved Ryan so that nothing would happen after this weekend that i would later regret. i could feel him putting all his emotions into this and i felt so guilty for not giving them back.

 

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knowing me, they'll probably have sex.

everything is a little rocky right now, and i just found out Audrey kitching had a miscarriage after Brendon broke up with her. she is the hottest scene girl ever, but fuck i hate her for being a liar.

therefore.

she will do something bad in this fic.

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hey everybody, I got a couple of pleadings not to stop, but like you might have noticed, I did, I started writing a new story but I can't get this one out of my mind, I think I might start again, but that might take a while cause I don't really have much time and insperation, but you might see it updated not long from now I hope

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“I was wondering what happened to my Twilight hoodie,” Spencer joked, tugging on Haley’s sleeve. He didn’t mind her wearing it, but he hadn’t seen the thing in ages.

“Now you know,” she laughed as they checked their luggage in. The airport was crowded, brimming with travelers and people headed home for Christmas. Brendon and Sam were standing behind them, next in line.

“It’s so good to finally have you two back together,” Spencer gazed at the couple, wrapping an arm around Haley. She grinned widely, nodding her head.

“I was starting to worry you’d let her get away again,” Spencer continued, still waiting for the cashier to process the luggage. Part of him knew they’d eventually find their way back together, but part of him had also been worried that Sam would take Pete back.

A puzzled expression found its way onto Brendon’s face. “What?” he questioned, looking at Haley and Spencer, then to Sam. “Um, we’re not,” he gestured awkwardly to Sam and himself, “It’s not, uh, like that...”

“What?” Sam took a step away from Brendon. Last night he’d told her he was still in love with her. It was assumed that they were together now. She was completely confused, along with Haley and Spencer.

Brendon scratched his head, barely making eye contact with the three of them. “We’re...getting there,” he said slowly, tapping on the handle of his luggage. “I don’t want to be a rebound,” he explained as simply as he could. Not only had Sam just gotten out of a marriage with Pete, she’d gotten out of a long relationship with him. Although he didn’t like to think about it, Brendon knew this made him potential rebound material. Of course he loved Sam, and wanted nothing more than to be with her, but he had to be aware that Sam could change her mind and the way she felt at any time. He needed to make sure they were both ready before they could start and maintain a healthy relationship.

“Wow,” Sam said sarcastically. If he was even considering that he was only a rebound to her, he didn’t truly know her anymore. He wasn’t worthy of being with her. He wasn’t worth any more of her time. “If that’s what you think,” she snatched her luggage from Brendon’s grip. “Fine. Tell everyone I said Merry Christmas,” she said, turning her back, and walking away.

Brendon proceeded to check in his luggage, and didn’t look back. He knew he’d made the right choice. It sucked that Sam took it so personally, but it was just a sign that they weren’t ready to really be together.

********

Sam didn’t even have to hail a taxi because Tessa was waiting for her outside the airport. She’d parked by the curb in the loading zone.

“What are you doing here?” Sam asked blankly. She and Tessa weren’t on speaking terms. Tessa hadn’t even apologized.

“To see you,” Tessa replied, taking Sam’s suitcase and loading it in the trunk of her car. “Ryan kept bugging me to find you. Said he needed to see you. Pete told me that you and Bren were taking off to Vegas with Spence and Haley, so I figured I couldn’t get to you in time, but then Spencer texted me saying you weren’t going after all...”

“Yeah,” Sam frowned. “But how did Pete know about my plans?”

“Pete knows everything,” Tessa shrugged, pulling away from the curb. “All his connections and whatnot. And Sam,” she added, turning her head away from the road. “I’m sorry.”

“Hmm,” Sam said, looking out the passenger side window.

“I’m sorry for what I did,” Tessa continued. “I let you down and I hurt you. I made your life ten times worse than it already was. I should’ve been by your side the way you’ve always been there for me. But instead I betrayed you.”

“It’s alright,” Sam mumbled. She wasn’t really upset about that anymore. It happened, and it was time to move on.

“As you can see, I’m no longer preggo,” Tessa pointed to her slender body. Her stomach was flat as usual.

“Tess,” Sam began. “You didn’t have to-”

“I did,” Tessa interrupted. “It was my choice, not Pete’s. We both hurt you too much, and for no reason. We didn’t love each other. We would’ve never worked, and we definitely could not handle having a kid together.”

“Apology accepted,” Sam said. If she could forgive Pete, she could forgive Tessa.
And Tessa seemed much more mature and responsible. She’d changed.

“Thank you,” Tessa said gratefully, turning onto Ryan’s street. “It’s good to have you back.”

Sam smiled. “So what does Ryan want? And on Christmas Eve?”

“No idea,” Tessa shrugged, pulling into his driveway. “I guess we’ll find out.”

Ryan immediately came outside, and waited for Sam to reach the front steps.

When she did, he did the unthinkable. Ryan Ross proposed to Sam.

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Hey guys! Hope y’all had a lovely Thanksgiving :D Christmas is in less than a month! Time flies so fast, huh? Hope you like this part...I’ll get crackin on the next part now!

 

Peaches.

Fever was ending and the boys were starting a new album. Ryan and I pretty much couldnt get off each other, and people thought it was weird when we werent on each other. i was emailing some people about merch when i heard Brendon and Tiffany arguing and got up and has a quick look

"it wasn't my fault!" Brendon said and she just walked off but he went after her and pulled her back to him

"it doesn't mean i dont love you, it's just a publicity thing" he said

"i do not care Brendon!" she said "i dont want people to start spreading stuff about me"

"you dont understand" he said

"no, i dont" she said and i walked over and she glanced at me and i pulled her aside and Brendon went and sat down

"what's wrong?" i asked

"the producer made this rumour that Brendon was seeing Audrey Kitching and he wants Brendon to hang out with her and stuff since they are friends and to piss the fans off" she said

"why? to start some shit?" i asked

"i guess, make it more exciting and shit" she said dully

"it's not his fault" i said

"i know" she said and Brendon walked over "we're still together Tiffy" he said

i tried to push her to him but she refused until i literally shoved her onto him and he held onto her

"i love you" he said softly

"i love you too" she said back and i think they made up.

The new producer was a real ass. i was so close to slapping him for staring at me like i was showing my breasts out to him, but Ryan couldnt say anything because he didnt want to wreck the bands career, but Tiffany already punched him in the face for me and thats why, this was all happening to her and Brendons relationship.

she stayed pretty quiet for a while.

"hey hey" Ryan said and i looked at him and smiled

"daydreaming?" he asked and i nodded and he hugged me tight

"i missed you" i said and he smiled "i was setting up my baby"

"i dont like you calling your guitar that" i said

"fine. i was setting up my Beyonce Knowles" he said and i smiled and kissed his lips and he picked me up and span me around a little and put me down

"are you on merch tonight?" he asked

"nope" i said "i'm gonna stay and look after Tiffany"

"oh, how is she?" he asked

"moody like a bitch" i said and he nodded

"well if you're gonna be on the bus then be careful" he said and i smiled "anything for you"

"i like it when you smile all cute-like" he grinned "come hang out inside with me"

"okay" i said and he took my hand and we went inside and Jon kissed Liana and she went backstage since she was one of the performers on stage later. i stayed for a few moments more and then decided to leave

"noooo" he frowned

"yeeeees" i said and lightly kissed his cheek "this is you're last fever show. make it amazing as usual"

"but i want you to be here for support" he said

"i'll be in the bus supporting. i'll make you a little flag and wave it" i smiled and he went all weak again

"i'll see if Tiffany will come down here" i said and he nodded and i went out the back to the bus and dragged her backstage and she was still angry but she knew she couldnt do anything

"it'll all get better" i said gently hugging her

"i hope so" she said softly

she spent most of the time crying quietly since she didnt want to lose the best thing she's ever had.

after the show she wiped her tears and the boys came out and Brendon took her with him and she looked confused and i shrugged at her and Ryan came with a smile on his face "i did it!"

i smiled and hugged him and he gave me a kiss "ew you're all wet"

"i know" he laughed and broke our kiss "i'm gonna go get changed"

i nodded and he grabbed a towel and walked in the same direcition as everyone else

 

Tiffany.

i stayed up emailing Luke about what was going on and how i wasnt happy and sent emails involving frowny faces.

"thats bullshit. make him stand up to the producer."

"i can't. you dont understand what that could do to their career."

"it's the career or love. you gotta do something"

i shut my laptop and sat there in the darkness and held onto my head.

i nearly fell asleep when someone gently woke me up and i saw Brendon

"are you alright?" he asked and i shook my head and he lifted me up and took me to the bed and tucked me in and laid beside me

"is this really getting to you?" he asked and i nodded

"i'll speak to Dave" he said

"dont. he'll just fuck up your life even more" i said

"if he's making you upset then i'm going to do something about it" he said

and i nodded and fell asleep.

i woke up in the morning and saw Dave beside the bed and sat up

"oh hey" he said and i was speechless

"don't mind me, Brendon told me to find his phone in here" he said

i moved over to the side of the bed and picked it up and handed it to him

"thanks" he smiled

"get the hell away from me" i said and he laughed and left and i was scared from then on.

when Brendon came in i looked at him horrified

"what?" he asked

"why the hell was he in the room?" i asked

"why was who in the room..." he asked

"Dave" i said

"but he's inside" he said

"he was in here when i woke up and i gave him your phone and told him to go away" i said and he looked confused "should i go talk to him?"

i looked out the window and shook my head and laid back down

"i found my phone on the table out there" he said

am i going crazy?

he laid beside me and looked into my eyes

"you look frightened" he noted and i just rolled over, i didnt want him to see me cry.

 

Peaches.

"PEACHES!" Spencer screamed out and i smiled and ran over to him and jumped into his arms and Ryan laughed

"we're having abit of a break now" Spencer said "what shall we do?"

"i dunno" i smiled and hugged him even tighter

"wanna go down the street and buy ice cream?" he asked

"okay!" i smiled and he put me down "is Ryan coming too?" i asked

"if he wants" Spencer said looking at Ryan

"nah. go have fun without me" he said

"..okay!" Spencer smiled and held my hand and we walked down the street to an ice cream parlour where an old happy lady was working

"uummmmmmmmmmmmm i dont know which one i want" i said looking at him and he smiled "want me to choose?"

"okay" i said and he got me a rainbow icecream. i didnt realise how much i loved it until now when i was eating it

he handed me napkins because i was getting it all over my chin

"better?" i asked putting my chin upto his face and he just laughed "yes Peaches"

we went looking for something to get Tiffany and Spencer didn't have a gay side in him so he was really bad at choosing things.

i found a medium sized bow that you could add on a word onto the middle in shiny silver letters

"this is so perfect" i said

"really?" he said

"i think i'd know my own twin" i smiled

i got her name added onto it and put it in a light blue velvet bag

"you must really hate seeing her sad" he said

"yeah.." i said "i'm always the more happy retarded one"

he laughed and a few fans came up asking for autographs and photos and while people were waiting they'd talk to me which was nice

"wow... you're name is like a fruit" a guy said and i smiled "it's the only reason why i eat fruit"

a few people around laughed at that comment and a very cute little eight year old walked over to me with a poster of Panic! waiting behind some of the taller teenagers and she couldnt see Spencer so i gently pulled her to me and put her in the front and told Spencer to look over and he smiled and bent down to her and she started talking to him about how she loves him and he kissed her cheek before she went back to her mom. after everyone got their chance we continued walking and came across a wedding as the bridge and groom were walking down the stairs and confetti was being thrown around, it was really nice to see things like this.

"that's gonna be you and Ryan one day" Spencer said and i hit his arm and he just laughed

we walked back to the bus but before he got on, he pulled me aside

"i have to tell you the truth" he said

"about who?" i asked

"about me" he said

"... are you coming out of the closet?" i asked

"no" he smiled

"okay" i said

"i have alot of feelings for you Peaches, it's driving me mad" he said

"i could kinda tell" i said

"of course" he sighed "i know you're with Ryan, but i just wanted to tell you" he said

"i appreciate it" i smiled a little and gave him a hug, but it felt so much different now. it wasn't a playful hug anymore.

 

Tiffany.

Brendon was hanging out with Audrey so i was just on the bus with Ryan and Jon who were playing chess

"i swear to god that's how you move it" Ryan said

"as if, they can't move forward, only diagonal" Jon said

"no, thats the OTHER one" Ryan said

"well you obviously don't know how to play chess" Jon said

"yeah i do" Ryan said

"no you dont" Jon said and i went on until i cracked and got up and tipped the game over

"well. that means i won" Jon said

"no i did!" Ryan frowned

"no." Jon said and i just laughed and sat on his lap, tired

"aww. fine you win, but i got the girl" Jon smiled

"are you okay Tiffany?" Ryan asking picking up all the pieces off the ground

"no" i said

"everything will be fine, it's just harmless flirting at most" Jon said and someone walked in and i heard my sister and Spencer and i saw her sitting on Ryan and looking at me and waved a little

"i have something for you" she said pulling out something and Jon grabbed it and handed it to me

"...why? it's not my birthday is it?" i asked

"no, i just wanted to cheer you up" she smiled and i sat up properly and found a light pink bow with my name written in this metal looking thing on it

"oh my god it is so cute!" i smiled and got up and hugged her

"it'll look beautiful on you" she said

"what the fuck" Spencer said

"what's wrong?" Peaches asked

"Brendon Urie pashes Audrey Kitching on Lunch Date" he said and we all got up and went around his laptop and it was an article with a few photos

and everyone just sorta looked at me and i got off the bus and saw Dave on the phone and walked over to him and he looked at me and got off his phone

"ah Tiffany" he said "what am i going to do with you"

"you're going to call Brendon and tell him that it's over" i said

"what's over?" he asked

"our relationship" i said before punching him in the nose

the only way to remove the paranoia of losing my boyfriend was to do it myself.

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well.

there we go.

a year later, fever ends, new producer, new album, brendon and tiffany break up, spencer likes peaches.

love you's

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