Getting Back On Track;

Hello everyone. Sorry to keep you waiting. The past couple of weeks have been rough. I know I use it as my excuse every damn time. But what else can I really say? I think this is the number one reason why I hate school. It takes up a lot of my time. But hell, if I want to be a fashion designer and go to college, might as well put up with it for a little while. I swear, after I graduate, I'm taking a year off and save up my money for it while working. Its my life.

Last week I performed with the boyfriend at open mic night. We did "Poprocks & Coke" by Green Day and "Just A Girl" by No Doubt. Now I know I'm always talking about fashion on here because its one of my passions & its so fun to talk about. But music is really my true #1 passion. Fashion actually ties with it. When we first did "Poprocks", I was quite nervous. But the crowds response was actually pretty good. The feeling of a crowd is quite intimidating. But you can't let it get the best of you. If you think the crowd thinks you sound like a dying cow, you're going to sound like a dying cow. So thats why you need to beat those feelings and give it what you got. I felt awkward during "Poprocks". So when I came back with my boyfriend to do "Just a Girl", I gave all I had. Then afterwards, they loved it. I'll tell you right now, it is the most amazing feeling in the world to do what you love doing and having people enjoy what you do. When people connect with you. When you're done "working" you hear cheering. Letting you know you did a wonderful job.

I messed up a little bit with both of the songs. But I'm not that used to singing in front of people yet. Afterwards, I got a lot of compliments. And like I said, it really means a lot to me. Because being a musican/fashion designer. I take compliments about my style and performing very seriously. Hell, I take fashion & music very seriously.

I'm always day dreaming about being Billie Joe here and seeing that in front of me...

Now don't think I want to do it for fame. It would be nice. But its not about that. Its about expressing yourself through music and your performance. Its never ever about money. Ever. Don't ever do something just for the money. Do something because you love it. But back to what I was saying, music is about connecting to people. No matter who they are. And the greatest feeling in the world would see those people who are supporting you, who love what you do, singing those songs right back to you. Its all about connection, love & passion.

I'm really working hard to get where I want to be. Its hard, but in the end it will all be worth it. It will be worth looking back at those packed nightclubs, sweating from moving all over the stage, hearing people sing the songs back to you and seeing them jumping everywhere and dancing and being blinded by the spotlight. It will be all worth it. Because I love it.

My next performance will be a little bit bigger and more serious than open mic night. It will be the fashion/talent show at my school. The fashion show practice was supposed to be today. But I didn't have school and I don't think students are allowed in the building. I didn't go and hope I would know what I'm doing come the dress rehearsal day. Lets just hope they'll still let me in and let me walk the "runway" and perform in the talent half. The show is next Friday. Hopefull everything will turn out fine.

From now on, I'm going to try to get some music topics in here or at least try to review some. Trying to get more pictures in. But my camera like to suck up all the juice in my batteries. Stupid batteries.

- Love & Dreams

Livee