Chapter 8

It was the day of the beach party and I was all dressed up and ready to go. I was wearing my new bikini and a pair of frayed denim shorts with sequins on. They sound tacky but they are really nice actually!

I went outside and jumped in my Black Aston Martin DB9 Volante. It was my favourite car that I had. Being a typical girl, I don’t know much about cars but I know I love this one! I love it so much that I bought a manual one with gears because I don’t know as many people who can drive them so less people would ask to borrow it! This may be considered selfish but believe me this is the only thing I'm selfish about.

I drove round to Jared and Shannon's and picked then up and then went on to Chris's and picked up Joey and her. The car was now full so we all set of towards Florida.

We arrived there at three in the afternoon, yes we were late but who shows up to a party early or on time? You simply HAVE to be fashionably late!

I went to park my car as everyone got out and went to join in the party and by the time I got back I couldn't see the people I'd brought with me anywhere. There were at least 200 people there and they were all invited. Bam had rented out part of the beach especially which I didn’t now you could do.

Through the crowd Bam seemed to appear and walked towards me and hugged me.

"Great turn out isn’t it?" he said breathlessly. It seemed that the crowd of people was denser then it looked and it was a struggle to move anywhere quickly.

"Yeah, there are loads of people, how many are there?"

"About 210 I think." He replied. "I only meant it to be a few of us but people kept calling me asking if they could bring other people along and then today loads of people turned up. Oh well, the more the merrier!"

"Yeah but I hope there's enough booze for us all." I said. "Let's not forget what's important."

"There's plenty." He said, pointing to a huge pile of kegs, bottles and cans. There really was plenty, I don’t know how I didn’t notice that when I came!

Bam grabbed my arm and lead me towards the drink and the next eleven hours were a blur of seeing people I hadn't seen in ages, drinking, finally finding Chris and the rest of my girls, dancing, swimming and volleyball. When 2 o'clock rolled around the party had died down considerably and it was actually possible to count the number of people who were still there: 42. You may think 'wow that's nothing for two in the morning, this party must suck.' However the thing was the number of people had dramatically decreased because the amount of drink had dramatically decreased. Compared to what there was when I first came there was nothing. 'So many people will be waking up feeling shit.' I thought. Plus people had also been drinking before they came!

At four in the morning the number of people had decreased again and we were all left with a large group of people who were all good friends. Green Day were there with their girlfriends and wives, as were MCR, the girls were there, 30stm, Bam, Missy, Ryan Dunn, Raab, Mike Vallely, Rake Yohn and Joey and that was it. We decided to build a fire on the beach so we all went to get some wood (there was a shop near by but we all had to go in because we got so much we needed a lot of people to help carry it!).
Throwing it all on a pile on the beach people started getting out lighters and setting fire to bits of wood and soon enough there was a large fire going. This probably wasn't a good idea considering we were all quite tipsy (quite a few of us a lot more than tipsy actually!) and it wasn’t the safest thing to mix fire and alcohol but oh well!

We all sat round in small groups and talked and drank more. I was sitting with Lici and Adrienne when Jared came over.

"Hey stranger, I haven't seen you all night." He said.

"It's ok; you just use me for a lift, then abandon me." I said in a sad dramatic voice, jokingly.

He smiled that same warm smile that he always did when we were messing around with each other and then it quickly faded.

"Hey Kitty, can I speak to you for a second." Jared asked quietly. The way he asked was strange and out of character for him: he was acting shy.

"Yeah sure." I said, and got up and walked away to a quieter part of the beach, followed by Jared.

"I just have something that I need to say, it's kind of difficult, so I'm just going to say it. He looked intensely into my eyes and I felt as though he was looking deep inside me, in to my soul.

"Kitty, I…." He started, but was stopped by Bam who threw himself on top of Jared, knocking him backwards so he was lying down, on top of him.

"I luuuuurve yoooou Jared." Said Bam, clearly very drunk. "I wanch Jared for a bit. On his own. Not yoooou Kitty." I laughed. Bam was such a funny drunk and was always very assertive too. I stood up to leave Jared with Bam and he gave me a look as if to say 'please don't leave me here alone with this drunken fool!' I gave him a sympathetic look back and walked away. Bam wanted him on his own after all!

Sitting with Billie and Gerard I was partly distracted. It looked like I was just listening to their conversation but really I was watching Bam and Jared. Bam had his arm round Jared and looked almost as if he was lecturing him about something. Jared was looking down a lot as if Bam had hurt his feelings. I wanted to go over, but I know what drunken Bam is like and reasoning with him would be difficult, so I decided to wait. After what seemed like ages they both stood up and came back over to the fire. Shannon went over to Jared and sat him down. It appeared he wanted to know what was going on too. Whist he was talking I couldn’t help but notice he kept looking at me, you know how people do when they're talking about you? He didn’t know I could tell because I still looked like I was interested in Billie and Gerard. Through the night I didn’t have chance to talk to Jared or Shannon for that matter so when I left at six in the morning to get a hotel room to finally get some sleep, I couldn’t. Too many thoughts were going through my head. What the hell were they saying? What was Bam talking to Jared about? Why was I involved?