Avenged Sevenfold Blog and Journals

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Pass Me Another Bottle, Honey, The Jaeger's So Sweet

Part 3

"Gem, it's good to have you back here" Tasha said as she hugged me
Tasha was Dad's girlfriend. We're actually more like mother and daughter than anything. Our relationship is more of one than the one I have with my own mother.
"I think she's a keeper Dad!" I laughed
"Yeah I think she is" he said as he kissed her
"And that's my Q to leave" I smiled
"Yeah, Gem wanna go and find Sierra" Emily said dragging out of the room
"Yeah... Sounds about good" "I'll be back laterz Dad" I laughed

He said nothing, I guess he was busy. Wait.. I should really not think about that.
***

"GEMMA!!!!" Sierra shouted as she hugged me
"I'm guessing you missed me"
"Ya think" she laughed

Sierra was my other bestfriend. Us three were the worse thing to happen to Huntington since ...... ammm our fathers. Let's say when I spent my summers here, I got up to alot of things a majority of them bad.

"So like how have you been??" she asked excitely
"It's been mega boring here, since you've left" she added
"Well, I've been up to the usual" I laughed
"Oh soo.. sex,drugs and rock n'roll" Emily laughed
"Hell Yeah" I smiled
"Yeah you did that here?" Sierra said
"Oh right, How's Jason been lately??" I laughed
"Not the same since you screwed with him" Sierra said
"Correct that... screwed him" Emily laughed
"I missed this" I smiled
"We all did" they said together.

***

"Ok, it doesn't matter where you are, your always bored at a certain time of day" I laughed as I lay upside down over the end of the bed
"Yup, very true!" Emily said
Sierra had gone home half an hour ago, *against her freewill, I might add*.
"Em... find some enterainment??" I said poking her
"Let's see.....I dunno!"
"Gahhhh!!!" "I'm going to annoy dad or something" I said
"That's always fun" Emily laughed
"Ain't It" I smiled
So we both headed downstairs.
"Dad!!" I shouted
"DAd!" ..... "DAD" I shouted getting louder each time
"Gem, I think he's not here" Emily said
"I'm getting that feeling" I laughed
"Sweeet, mean's t.v is free" I added
"Wow, T.v, thats like never boring" Em said sacrasiticly
"I know, isn't it" I laughed

So as we sat down on the couch, I flicked on the t.v. As I scanned through the channels, I noticed an ad for wraped tour.

"Shame we're missing that once again, this year" Em luaghed
"Wait" she added
"What!" I asked
"Did you see that?" she asked
"See what??" I said confused
"Ugh!, you are seriously blind Gem"
"Wow, I've never been told that before" I laughed
"Avenged are headlining Warped Tour this year" she smiled
"what?!"
"Hmm, deaf too I see" she laughed
"Hey,....soo a7x is playing warped tour?"
"YES!!!" she said
"Hmm, wonder why dad hasn't mentioned this me!" I asked
"I dunno, I'm wondering the same"
"oh,Oh... I'm begging to go on that tour. You are too" I smiled
"Yeah, found the reason he didn't tell you" she laughed
"Come on Em, when was the last time we went on tour with a7x?"
"Couple of months ago for me" she said
"Well, I haven't since I was 15"
"Oh yeah, that's right"
"Well I've found my excuse" I laughed evilly
"Gem, your crazy!" Em said backing away slowly
"But you Love me anyway" I said reaching over and hugging her

***

"DADDY, please,please,please let me go on tour" I said into the mirror

So i kneeling into of my full lenght in my room

"Gem, staying away from this place has really driven you crazy!"
"No it hasn't" I laughed "Shhh!!, don't let her win" I said to inner voice
"Yeah sure it hasn't" she said rolling her eyes
Then I heard voices downstairs. Him and Jimmy had came back finally.
"Ok, I'm asking now" I said getting up
"Well, I'll stay here" Em said sitting on the bed
"No, your not. He won't say No if I have witnesses" I smiled
"But Dad and Tasha there" she said
"There always around" I laughed
"The things you get me into" I said rolling her eyes
"Oh btw, your coming with me tomorrow to get my lip re-periced" I smiled as I took her by the arm
"Oh fun" she laughed

So yeah, It's been a while and this is short and nothing really happened but as I've said assignments are taking up my time :/ but Enjoy?

xxGemma

M.Shadows puts the "laughter" in "manslaughter"

Synyster Gates can slam revolving doors.

The chief export of The Rev is pain.

Johnny Christ counted to infinity...twice.

Zacky Vengeance can divide by Zero

They say that lightning never strikes the same place twice. Niether does M.Shadows.

The grass is always greener on the other side. Unless M.Shadows has been there, then it's soaked with tears and blood.

Synyster Gates died ten years ago, but the Grim Reaper can't get up the courage to tell him.

The Rev once visited the Virgin Islands. They are now The Islands.

Zacky Vengeance sleeps with a night light. Not because Zacky Vengeance is afriad of the dark, but the dark is afriad of Zacky Vengeance.

Johnny Christ is the reason Waldo is hiding.

A Tsunami is water running away from The Rev.

How many times does it take Synyster Gates to screw in a light bulb? none. Synyster Gates does not need light. Light needs Synyster Gates.

Zacky doesnt get brain freeze. Slurpees know when to back the fuck off.

Johnny Christ got in a fight with a cloud.

M.Shadows does not teabag the ladies. He potato-sacks them.

The Rev crassed the road. Nobody has ever dared question his motives.

M.Shadows can speak Braille.

Johnny Christ is not hung like a horse...horses are hung like Johnny Christ.

M.Shadows jacks off to Monster Trucks.

Jeeves asks Zacky Vengeance.

If The Rev is late, time better slow the fuck down.

Geico saved 15 a year switching to Synyster Gates.

Johnny Christ went back in time and stopped the JFK assination by catching the bullet in mid air. JFK head just exploded in sheer amazement.

The Rev brushes with Plutonium.

Zacky Vengeance has to sort his laundry into three loads : Darks, Whites, and Bloodstains.

M.Shadows made Satan cry.

The most effective form of suicide known to man is to type "Synyster Gates" into google and hit "i'm feeling lucky!".

Jesus walked on water. Johnny Christ walked on Jesus.

When Zacky Vengeance gives you the finger, he's telling you how mant seconds you have left to live.

M.Shadows dosn't use pickup lines, he simply says, "NOW".

In the begining, Johnny Christ told god to make him something to play with and gave him a seven day deadline.

Contrary to popular belief, George Bush is a great speaker and rarely mispronounces words. He appears incompetent because he knows Synyster Gates is watching.

M.Shadows does not leave messages. M.Shadows leaves warnings.

The idea for the show "24" is actually stolen from a drawing Zacky Vengeance made when he was drunk.

The Rev kicked a 50 yard field goal while having sex.

The biggest mistake Clint Eastwood ever made is when he told Johnny Christ to make his day.

M.Shadows once drop kicked Tim Allen for popularizing his mating call.

Synyster Gates killed the last Unicorn with his bare hands.

The Rev plays soccer with severed heads.

Johnny Christ can lift a mountain over his head with one arm and make a perfect pitcher of kool aid with the other.

M.Shadows is like a Tsunami, if you can see him coming it's already too late.

Uncle Sam doesn't want you anymore. He's got Zacky Vengeance.

Johnny Christ beat up the Jolly Green giant.

M.Shadows ate the Stay Puff Marshmellow man.

The Rev didn't vote for Pedro. He doported him.

Why was 6 afraid of 7? Because of M.Shadows.

When God said, "Let there be light", Synyster Gates said, "say please."

Johnny Christ plays Russian Roulette with the Grim Reaper.

Zacky Vengeance punched a woman in the vagina when she didn't give him exact change.

The symbol for Zacky Vengeance in sign language is a middle finger on fire

It has been awhile since we have shed light on our current doings.  Well here is a long awaited update into the world of A7X..

We came off of the road amidst one of the most turbulent times in history.  Everything going on around us was overwhelming, frightening, frustrating and confusing.  I must confess that it was also very exciting to me.  I’m sure you can share my sentiment.  We have been focused on only one thing, writing and preparing to record what to me is our most personal and epic Avenged Sevenfold album.   The reason is the fact that everything happening around us in the entire world might be a once in a life time source of inspiration and direction.  We have been harnessing every aspect of what  makes A7X truly unrelenting and  building off of that.  I don’t think we sleep too much anymore because of the excitement we feel while writing this album.   Only a world spinning out of control could inspire the music and vision we have now.  Once again it is fucking exciting.  We will continue finalizing our songs until we feel every note does both You as well as Us justice.  We are also in the final stages of solidifying our production team, studios and engineers so that the  second the axe falls and the album is written we will spend day and night in the studio until it is complete.  This album will definitely take you on a very dark journey...
Sincerely
Zacky Vengeance

Wow its been awhile since i posted a journal, alot of thing have been happening, like my best friend moved 6 weeks ago, ive been sick, umm this month is going to be a busy one for me, since i play the clarinet for a school band and got preformances coming up, my birthday which i cant wait for, exams that are in the same week as my birthday which i can wait for and hope i pass and before or after that my cousin will be born cant wait to see him or her. Anyway i found my usb which i have lost for 3 or 4 months now and found a story that ive wrote for one of my assignments for my english class i hope you like it, well here it is.

Halloween Horrors

October 31^st, 1846 was the first time Transylvania started this yearly tradition known as Halloween, this so called day only gave the vampires a reason to come out and hunt. 30 years after they introduced this holiday, vampires all over the world hated the fact they were hiding when they were higher up on the food chain then humans, so they slowly started to take over.

It has been exactly three years since the vampires have taken over the world. There are hardly any humans left and the ones that are alive are slaves just like me.

Let me introduce myself, my name is Aden-Marie and I'm Sixteen years old, I haven't aged since I got here, I know that I've been turned because all they give me is a cup of blood per week. I use to live with my older brother Zack and his friends but now I hate them, it's their fault I'm a slave and imprisoned, if only he truly cared about me, if only we got along and they didn't pick on me all the time none of this wouldn't of happen. 

October 31^st 1876

Another day, another argument this always happens, they find a reason to annoy me, pick on me, and call me names. I thought I could handle it but today it only hurt worse when Zack started calling me names, today they took it too far this time. After Zack left the room, I stormed out the house slamming the door behind me and went for a walk in the woods trying to calm down. After about 10 to 15 minutes of calming down, I heard something behind me that sounded like an animalistic growl. I turned around and saw something running at me; I started running back to the house I could see the house in front of me, I slowed down once I couldn't hear the thing anymore, so I turned around to see if it was still chasing me but only to see nothing, so I started to slow down to a jog but I tripped over a log and fell. As I stood up I felt something warm running down my leg. I looked down only to see the leg of my jeans soaked with blood, I bent down to see how big the cut was but I stopped as soon as I heard something snap behind me, I quickly  got up and started to run again but the creature grabbed my arm and threw me back on the ground. As He stood over me, the moon shone over him, the first thing I noticed was his bright red eyes, I started to look over his face and noticed it was my brother's friend Brian, now I'm scared.
 
"Please Brian just leave me alone, I haven't done anything to you" I whimpered as I slowly backed away
 
"Ha-ha, you haven't done nothing wrong, well accept the fact your human and made us go into hiding" Brian sneered

"What are you talking about Brian, we are in hiding because we all are human" I said getting up
 
"Yeah that's what you think" he said as he grabbed me by the throat and pinned me up to the closet tree, I tried to get his hand off but he only tightened his grip.
 
"Bri...Brian....Stop" I said gasping for air as he stopped the air going to my lungs
 
"Brian let her go NOW" Zack yelled, but Brian still didn't let go of me
 
"Why are you protecting her? Huh Zack tell me cause so far she's been nothing but trouble and its her fault that we're in hiding and I'm sick of it" Growled Brian
 
"She's my sister and the others would want her because she has inherited mums powers when she died, have you thought of what they could do to her if they capture her huh? Man your stupid sometimes" Yelled Zack, as Brian let go and I fell to the ground.
 
"AHHH!!!" I screamed as I felt arms grab me. 

"Well, well, well Zack and Brian can't do a simple job" that voice sounded really familiar  

"Matt we've got her now so why don't we go hand her in" said Zack

"What are you guys talking about....Wait you...you work for them" I said slowly working it out in my head

 "Yea im sorry Aden, I know were family but you're the enemy" said Zack

 "No, no you're not sorry and if you were truly my family you wouldn't be doing this" I said with tears in my eyes

 "Lets go" Matt said as Brian handed him a cloth that he put some sort of liquid on it, Matt put the cloth over my mouth, my eyes started to get heavy, I kept fighting to keep away wake but I couldn't the last thing I saw was my brother looking at me with sympathy. When I woke up I found my self locked in a damp, cold cell. This is how I've been waking up for the past months, years. The vampires never did found out I've got powers, I know I have them I just don't know what they are or how to use them. 

NEW PROSPECTIVE

Chapter four: Come back to reality (Jesse's POV)

"Which one is it?" Kroger questioned.

"It's up here on the right, just over this little rise, number 127" I said excitedly.

"Don't sound too sad about not living with me anymore" he said as he pulled into the driveway of my new home, my car completely full of boxes. Victoria pulled up behind us in her own car, also full of boxes.

"Oh, I am sad about leaving you Kroger" I said comfortingly, "But, you know, you and Victoria have reached that point in your relationship. The one where you move in together, get married, and start making babies. Unfortunately, there's no room for me in that plan."

He scolded at me, "Don't even mention marriage and babies, you're beginning to sound just like her."

I simply laughed at him as we both climbed out of the vehicle.

"It's far too early on to be talking about such things" he then added.

"I agree" I replied.

It only took the three of us 20 minutes to shift all the boxes from the two cars into my new room. Add another 20 minutes for Victoria to drag a concerned Kroger out of the house and into her car. Add another 10 for him to actually allow her to leave without me. Add another 5 for me to run back to my room and dive onto the bed before rolling onto my back and yelling, "Freedom at last."

"Freedom's always good" someone chuckled.

I quickly sat up to see who had just spoken.

A smiling, shirtless man stood in my doorway. Messy looking brown hair, tiny skeletal frame, gorgeous dark brown eyes, and freakishly big looking hands. I instantly recognised him.

"Ryan?"

He nodded.

"Sorry about the noise, I didn't realise anyone was here. I would have been quieter had I known."

"That's fine" he said before crossing his arm's in-front of his chest and leaning back on the doorframe. "It happens a lot. I'm so unloved."

"Awww, poor you" I cooed before laughing.

"See what I mean, no love" he laughed. "Um, anyways" he said before scratching the back of his head, "We didn't know if you wanted that bed, so we just left it where it was. Bren will take it out if you want to use your own. There are blankets and bed sheets in a cupboard down the hall if you need them too."

"Thanks" I replied.

"You're welcome. I think you have about two hours to yourself before Regan gets home and ambushes you with questions."

"Regan?" I questioned puzzled.

"The girl who was following us around when you had a look at the room."

"Oh yeah, now I remember. She's very pretty, is she your...daughter?" I said hesitantly before looking away.

I instantly felt uncomfortable because a strange woman walked over, linked her fingers with his, and began a full on make-out session, tongues and all. After a minute or so, I slowly glanced upwards, they were still at it. Scared they were going to start humping each other in my doorway, I cleared my throat.

They finally detached themselves from each other.

He began blushing profusely, while she gave me the nastiest death glare I have ever received. If looks could kill, I'd be dead ten times over.

"I guess I better go" she said continuing to stare at me. She then pecked him on the lips once more before saying, "Call me" and leaving.

He watched her walk down the hall, a huge grin on his face, and then he returned his sights to me, "Ah, sorry about that. Um, what were you saying?"

"Oh, I was just asking if Regan's your daughter" I replied.

He let out another laugh, "Well, I treat her like a daughter, but no. She's Brendon's little princess. Although, if I did have a kid, I'd hope it was just like her."

"That's sweet" I smiled. "So um, is she your girlfriend?" I asked.

"Who, her?" he said pointing in the direction that the mystery woman had left in.

I nodded.

"No, no" he said shaking his head, "Just a good time" he added before grinning once again.


**********


I am so over unpacking. My bed is made and my clothes are in the closet. That's the important stuff organised, so who cares about the rest for now.

I was lying on my freakishly soft bed when I decided that I wanted to read. I clambered off the side of my bed, and looked for the box labelled 'Books.' When I found it, I tore off the sticky tape that was keeping my belongings contained, opened the cardboard flaps, and dug around until I found the story I wanted. Clutching it in my hands, I returned to the bed, made myself comfortable, and opened the cover.

The story is entitled, 'She had the world' by G.R. Ross.

It's about a girl who thinks her life is perfect. She can do whatever she wants, whenever she wants too. She can captivate and entice any man that she wishes. For years she goes on like this, getting her way and sleeping with any man that she desires, until she meets a boy who turns her down. She slowly comes to realise that her life isn't as fantastic as she's made herself believe. She realises that she has just been shielding herself from hurt, from pain, from love. She then falls in-love with the boy who refuses to have her. After numerous rejections, her heart begins to break. She decides that if she can't be with him, she may as-well end her own life. However, before she goes through with her plans, she wants to know why. Why he doesn't want to be with her. Why he doesn't want to sleep with her. Why he doesn't love her. She orders him to answer her questions, a steel barrel pressed to her temple. He tells her that he has always been around, waiting, hoping she would notice him. He tells her that he won't be with her until she learns to love herself. He tells her that he can't sleep with her, not until he thinks she is ready. And he tells her that he does love her, that he has always loved her.

It's a very romantic story, in its own little fucked up way of course. I truly love G.R. Ross, he is my favourite author. It's a shame he lives in secrecy though. No one has, or ever will see him. He doesn't do book tours. He doesn't plaster his face across the back of his books. He doesn't even give us his full name. No one knows anything about him. It's a shame really, it would be a dream come true to meet him. I simply love the way his mind works.

I was about a third of the way into my book when there was a knock at my door. I looked up to see a young girl. Regan. Her long flowing black hair was pulled back from her face and sat in a single plait; her fringe was swept towards the right. She had chocolate coloured puppy dog eyes set in her light skinned face, accompanied by full pink lips. She simply stood there smiling at me.

"Hi Regan" I said.

"Hey there" she replied before stepping into the room. "What are you reading?" she questioned pointing at my book.

"Oh, this" I said before closing it, "It's um, it's called She had the world. It's written by my favourite author, his name's... "

"G. R. Ross" we both said at the same time.

"Yes" I answered in a surprised tone. "How, how did you know?"

"I browse his books occasionally" she answered as if it were nothing.

I furrowed my eyebrows before saying, "You've read his books. Do your parents know, cause, you seem far too young to be reading such a grown up book."

I was actually worried about the fact that there are some pretty descriptive sex scenes in his writings. Don't understand? Well, put it this way, I consider it borderline porn. I mean, I'm not complaining or anything, it needs to be in there to make the book believable, but it's not really appropriate for a child.

"Dad doesn't mind, neither does Uncle Ry or Uncle Spence. If they had issues with me reading it, they wouldn't have given them to me."

"Have they read these books?" I questioned holding up the one in my hand.

She nodded.

I couldn't help but feel slightly sick. They've read them, meaning they know about the explicit content, and still they give them to her. Generally I don't judge the proceedings of others, but I feel that it's a very irresponsible action. I discontinued my thoughts when Regan spoke.

"So, have you met everyone yet?" she asked me.

I shook my head in disagreement, "No, not yet. I've only met Ryan and yourself."

"Really? Well the others are home now, maybe I should..."

She stopped talking when a man walked up behind her. He bent down before wrapping his arms around her and kissing the top of her head. He then straightened himself up before resting his palms on her shoulders. He looked up at me and smiled. Just by looking at him, I can tell that this is Regan's father, Brendon.

He had the same silky black hair reaching just past his ears. He had the same right sweeping fringe. He had the same chocolate puppy dog eyes, set in the same light skinned face. And he had the sweetest smile I have ever seen, formed by the most luscious pink lips.

All the bad thoughts I had just been having about this man melted away with every bat of his eyelashes. To be honest, all I could think about was taking his hands in mine and tasting his mouth. I felt my corners of my mouth begin to turn upwards as thoughts flooded my head. He spoke, quickly bringing me back to reality as my mind began to take a more, erotic, direction.

"You must be Jessica" he said, now barely a meter away from me, his hand out in-front of him.

"Oh" I said before rapidly getting to my feet, "Y-Yes, I am, but um, people just call me Jesse" I added before taking his hand in mine and shaking it.

"Well Jesse, welcome to the mad house" he chuckled.

I blushed a little before letting go of him. God, his fingers are so rough and manly.

"So, have you met Spencer yet?" he then asked.

I shook my head, "No, not yet."

He opened his mouth to speak again but was interrupted.

"Looks like the parties in Jessica's room"

We all turned to find Ryan. He walked in and stood next to Regan. I'm beginning to find his ability to randomly appear slightly concerning. The man pop's up from nowhere. It's a little spooky.

"I think she prefers the name Jesse" Brendon informed Ryan.

"Oh really, well, forgive my lack of knowledge, Madam Jesse, Lady Regan, and most of all, Madam Brenda" he said in a smartass tone. "Also, please forgive me for interrupting your female gathering, but I have been given strict orders by Master Spencer to inform you that supper shall be ready in 20 or so minutes."

Brendon raised his eyebrows, while Regan and I began laughing.

"Ha ha ha, aren't you a comedian" Brendon said sarcastically.

"You know it" he replied, a grin on his face.

"Oh, uncle Ry, guess what?" Regan said capturing everyone's attention.

"What?" Ryan asked.

"Guess who Jesse's favourite author is?"

"I don't know, but I suppose you're going to enlighten me" he responded.

"G. R. Ross" she giggled.

For some strange reason, he looked at her wide eyed before saying, "Really"

"Yep" Regan nodded, "You know who we're talking about right?" she said continuing to giggle. "That real weird guy, won't tell anybody who he is. His storylines are unbelievable and borderline idiocy. Stupid idealist, can't string two sentences together in my opinion" she added before bursting into laughter.

Ryan must like his work or something, because he began grimacing at Regan. He looked really annoyed.

"He is not a stupid idealist" Ryan then growled, "And he can string two sentences together, he's an excellent writer. Also, his storylines are unique. No one but he could write a love story involving death and keep it romantic and pure, so in your face!" he said poking out his tongue.

"Whatever" she then scolded, "I bet he sits in his room all day jacking off."

"Regan!" Brendon then snapped, "That is enough. Jesse, please excuse my daughters mouth."

"Oh, that's okay" I replied.

To be honest, I was actually finding this very amusing. I've never met people who are so passionate before. I sat in silence, waiting for Ryan's retaliation.

By now he was fuming, his cheeks were burning red, and he looked like he wanted to thump Regan. She just stood there smirking at him. Egging him on.

"You are such a...arrgh!" he yelled clenching his fists and gritting his teeth. "You are such a little douche bag" he added before putting his right hand on her face and pushing her backwards slightly. He then turned and stormed out of the room.

"Ryan" Brendon called before looking Regan in the eye and giving her a stern look.

"I'm sorry" she whimpered, "I was just joking round" she said now looking at the ground.

Brendon let out a sharp breath, "Look at me"

She did as she was instructed.

"Food, shower, bed" he said with finality before also turning and leaving the room.

I'm curious to know if anyone is into avenged sevenfold. I wrote a 3 part story about them for a contest, and because so many people took an interest, I've decided to write a proper story. Anywho, I was wondering if anyone would like me to post it on here.

Pass me Another Bottle, Honey, The Jaeger's So Sweet

Part 2

"Where are you going to go??" my mom shouted at me
"Dad's"
"Yeah right, like he really want to have you?" she laughed crossing her arms
"Your wrong, he's always dying for me to stay with him. But I couldn't cause I was stuck here with you"
"Lies, Gemma, he's feeding you lies.. just like he did to m...."
"MOM SHUT THE FUCK UP, IT'S BEEN 5 YEARS GET OVER IT!!" I screamed as I bolted out the door and into my mom's car.
"You can pick this up at the airport" I sneered as I slammed the rear door closed.
"Gem, don't go..." she pleaded
"Sorry, I'm leaving. Goodbye" I said as I got into the car

***

"I'm finally out of here"  I thought as I waited at baggage claim.

After grabbing my stuff, I headed over to the arrivals area, looking for a filmar face

"He's always late" I though as I rolled my eyes

I sat on a free bench and grabbed my ipod. As the music blasted through my head I couldn't hear anything so if anyone came up behind me I'd never seen them coming.

My Dad's POV

So I'd dragged Jimmy to the airport with me, even tho he's not fond on the airport, he claims there out to get him. Which makes no sense lol.

"Dude, why now?" Jimmy complained
"Cause I've got to get Gemma!" I asked
"What, i didn't know she was visiting"
"She isn't" I smiled
"Huh, but why are we here?"

I slapped my hand against forehead, and this was my bestfriend.

"Dude, she's going to be staying here from now on"
"Oh right. Awesome" he smiled
"Now where is she?" Jimmy asked looking around
"I don't know actually"

It had been a few months since I'd seen Gemma last. She did say she'd dyed her hair, well I think she did.

"Ok Dude, I'm lost" Jimmy said
"Same here"
"Ha, can't even find your own daugther Brian" Jimmy laughed
"Shh! Quite"

Then I heard the riff to Enter Sandman, so I guessed Gemma was deaf listening to her ipod but finding her wouldn't be hard.

"Dude, do you hear that?" I asked
"Hear what?"
"The music?"
"No, unless it's my drum solo" he luaghed

I rolled my eyes. I looked over to one of the benches and noticed a girl around Gemma's height and size. She had he hood up and was listening to a mp3 player.

"Dude, found her" I smiled
"Where?" he asked looking mindlessly around
"There" I said taking his head and turning to the bench
"Oh right, I'm going to scare the shit out of her" he smiled
"Fine then, you do it!" i said as I turned to him but he was already began sneaking over to her. This should be good.

End POV

As I sat listening to my ipod, I knew something bad was going to happen. Dad always takes Jimmy with him everywhere, so I had to think like Jimmy. So he's going to sneak up behind me. So I spund around

"Sorry Jimmy, I win this time!" I laughed
I'd stopped him in mid sneaking. He stood and glared at me.
"I'm sorry Jimbo, but rules are rules" I giggled
"Gem, you never change" I said messing with my hair.
"Thanks" I said rolling my eyes
"And where my hi" dad said crossing his arms in a huffy state
"I'm sorry Daddy dearish... Hi " I smiled at him
"Thank You sweetie pie" he said reaching out to hug me
"Dad, no sweetie pie" I cringed as he hugged me
"Sorry, but I Love you thats all" he said kissing the top of my head.
"Dad" I whined

I could see Jimmy laughing his head off at the corner of my eye

"Oh shushhh!!! Jimmy" I glared at him
"Hey, you two stop" dad inruppted
"Sorry" we both said
"Ok Kiddo, let's get you home" he smiled as he took my extra bag

Home. I was finally here. Five Years away and I'm finally home.

***

So I was unpacking my stuff into my old room, well it wasn't old now. I wasn't leaving here, not again.

"Dad, Brian..... Where is she?... She's here isn't she?" A familiar voice said downstairs
"Yeah she's up in her room" Dad said

Then I heard footsteps race up the stairs and then my door opened slowly.

"You decided to come back to Huntington, and you don't call me, and Dad is the one who has to inform me!" the voice said
"Ammmm..... I forgot" I smiled nervously
"Oh fuck that... Your back and that's all that matters" she said as she hugged me
"I've missed you Em"
"Missed you too"

Yeah Emily was my best friend, last time I seen her was I think 4 months ago. We kept in contact via the msn and other ways, but it wasn't the same. Emily was Jimmy's daughter. One as crazy as the other, Jimmy edging Em out just a smigde.

"So why the sudden idea to come back here, you said nothing over msn 2 days ago" she asked

I sighed heavily and sat down my bed

"Two Words Em! ... MY-MOTHER" I said flopping onto the bed
"I guess she pushed you over the edge" she said
"Well, yeah and she did find out about the tattoo's" I said biting my lip
"Oh Jesus!, well Your here now and you'll never have to deal with her again" she smiled
"Yeah, i'm cutting all ties with her from now" I smiled
"O...k"
"Yup, Now what have I missed around here" I asked her

So Short ... Sorry, but I've got a report on Tattooing due after Halloween soo it's taking up most of my time :)

xxGemma

"Wh..why would you say that? surly you've made a mistake!" thinking in my head while sat in my car in the hospital undergrounds, i felt ill again.

having flash backs to the room that changed my life forever, i thought i was untouchable!

The doctor walked in with a look on her face that only Jimmy would pull in bad news, "Im afaid its not good news Mr. Baker." she said closing the door behind her.

Taking her seat she flipped though the pages of my results. my leg jumped up and down, then she asked "Is there anyone who could take you home?" i shock my head.

She told me finaly on what was on the pages, my felt heavy, my skin turned cold, my ears turned on to a high pitched ringing.

Walking up to my car i walked into someone and payed no noticed, "Hey! watch where you're going! Asshole!" yelled the man.

sat in my car i sighed heavly.

biting my bottom lip i grabbed the wheel, looking up i tryed to stop the tears from falling.

10 mins later.

Getting into the Stuido, everybody was there, Shads, singing, Brian playing his Guitar, Rev and Johnny messing around.

I let off a small smile. They didnt need to know yet.

I turned around and heard Shadows yelling in the booth "Hey Zach! where you been?"

I raised my head and yelled back "No where speical".

Brian and i wasnt talking, you see we had a fight before, i could'nt hold it in any longer! i had to let go!

I held my hands over my face as the tears ran though, i started to cry.

"Hey, Gena called me to tell you to switch you're cell phone back on.." said Brian stopping on what he was saying. He came up beside and said "Dude, im sorry that i yelled at you before, i mean we're ment to be buddys! buddys dont keep secerts."

My hands where over my face still and i replied "No, Brian somethings are sometimes best untouched."

Brian bite his bottom lip then kicked the door "You see!? this is what im talking about! you think just because you're a rockstar makes you better than other people! well wake the fuck up Zach!"

Before he could say another word i jumped in and said "you wanna know where i was? Huh?! I was at the hospital getting my results back!"

Syn just stared and said as a joke "Well its not like as if you have cancer" Syn laughed.

"I do," i said quietly. Syn stopped laughing and said "What?

"I have breat Cancer, Brian!" i replied as my tears started up again.

To be continued!

Poor old Zach! Cancer is not a laughing matter! its a terrible illness! and i hope we all give money to Cancer Research! because we ALL can beat cancer TOGETHER!

Hope you like the story more soon

Pass me Another Bottle, Honey, The Jaeger's so sweet

Part 1

"OMG, Gemma. Volume much!" My mother shouted as she passed my room door.
"Nah, I think it needs to go louder" I laugh as I turned the volume up to 90
"Gemma, that music is terrible, it only gets you into terrible things" she complained

I rolled my eyes at that comment. Terrible things. There was nothing I hadn't tried. 18 and I've been arrested 3 times, been high of my face, been completely wasted and anything that can be pierced I've had done but then taken by my evil mother. Tattoos ! Yup, I've got them.

"Gemma, are you even listening to a word i'm saying" she shouted
"Nope, I was not you cranky old bitch" I muttered under my breath
"What was that, young Lady!" she sneered at me as she towered over me.
"I said, You only hate that music. Cause Dad was fricking immseresed in it"
"Don't mention your father in this" she sneered at me
"Well looks like I did " I smiled
"Gemma, I dunno what I am going to do with you" she said as she walked out of my room

My Mother everyone. The complete opposite to myself. I don't know how my father stayed married to her for 10 years. I was three when they got married. I don't remember much of that but those were the happy days. Until I turned 13, it went sour. My mother began to be a lot less happy about my fathers social habbits and also how he'd dissappear on tour for a few months without calling her. Me on the other hand he loved adoreablly.
When they decided to spilt and then divorce, my mother got custody of me which I was totally not thrilled about, but I got the summer months with my dad. But that became the only time I got to see him, unless I paid $40 to see him:/

We still talk loads, but I haven't seen him since I don't know when. My mother stopped me going to see him. Her hatre of him grew and grew, as I started to get into same music of him, it got worse. We both are into the same metal bands and I fricking love his band, more than any regular fan would.
My pateince was wearing thin with my mother these days. Ever since I turned 18, she's been more and more protective of me.

***

"GEMMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" mom barked at me from downstairs.
"What now!" I muttered to myself
"GEMMA!!!!! A WORD NOW" she shouted
I put down my guitar and walked downstairs to confort my mother.
"Gemma what is this all about!" she sneered as she held a piece of paper
"Amm, it's a ......long piece of paper" I smiled
"It's not time for jokes Missy!" she glared at me
"Fine" "It shows you have no sense of humour" I muttered under my breath
"Gemma, why is there a charge from Extreme TATTOO on my credit card"
"Fuck, that" I said
"Excuse me!, Gemma do you have a tattoo?" she asked
"Amm, not excatly!"
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"I don't have 1"
"Good, where did this charge co..."
"I have ....a few" I said biting my lip.
"A FEW, How many is A FEW" she said raising her tone
"Amm, let's see, my wrists that's 2, my ribs, that's 3,my upper back ....and my shoulder plus upper arm...." I said
"GEMMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" she screamed
"What?!"
"Does your father know about these?" she asked
"Ammm, where do you think I got the money from" I smiled nervously
"That's it.... He's making me out to be the bad parent"
"Well, your doing that on your own" I muttered
"What was that?"
I took a deep breath and closed my eyes
"WELL YOUR DOING THAT ON YOUR OWN!!!" I shouted
"How, How Am I ?" she questioned

Then we fought for hours. I was fianlly getting everything off my chest about her.

"I'm leaving Mom!!" I screamed
"No, your are not!!!" she sneered
"Yes, I am" I said getting up, running up stairs and then locking my door.
"Gemma, Open this door ...NOW" she said slamming on the door
"NO!!"

I quickly grabbed my backpack from my closest and started filling everything I had into it. Also I had my laptop on and was booking the 1st ticket out of Jesrey. I wasn't staying here much longer. I was going to the place, where I'd be happy. Where people would respect me. I had everything I need in my backpack and I had booked my ticket with my darling mothers credit card. All I had to do was call the one person who'd understand my leaving. My cell was lying beside my laptop, I picked it up and dialled the number.

"Yeah, Hey it's me"
......
"Remember, what we talked about last night?"
.....
"Well, I'm leaving .... today?"
.....    .....    .....    ....
"Thanks, Can't wait to see you too"
.....

"Love you too, ByeBye"

That's it, everything was set, now to get the airport and get out of this god for saken hellhole of a house.

So?? :)

xxGemma

Synyster Gates’ POV

  Love sucks.  Love sucks so fucking much, I’m serious, it does.  I loved Matt first.  He ended it with me when I started to become very attracted to Johnny.  After I first rejected little Johnny, back in high school, he went and got this smokin’ hot girlfriend, Cassy.  God, I hated that bitch.  Every time I saw her and Johnny together, I wanted to kill her and rape him.  Matt was furious when he found Johnny and I toe to toe in a fight over her one night.  I wasn’t the slightest bit afraid of either Johnny or Matt, but rather was hurt by Johnny’s attitude when I told him that she had asked me to fuck her.  I called her a whore to his face and he laid me out for it.

  That was the first time that Matt fought to defend me, and I loved it.  But, I hated that it caused Johnny to take off and ignore me for a long while.  He dumped her, got arrested for kicking the ass of the guy she was cheating on him with, and called my dad since his mom was busy.  I rode along and got to sit next to him in the back of the car, where I talked at him for the entire ride back to my house.  I say that I talked ‘at’ him, because not only was he not talking to me, he was ignoring everything I said.  That ended up hurting my feelings, a lot. 

  Once we were in the house, in my messy bedroom, I sat next to him on my bed and tried to comfort him.  I tried to assure him that we would find some way to have fun, and he broke my fucking heart.  He told me we weren’t friends and never have been, and that he loved me…a lot.  I tried to let him down easy, since even though at the time I was madly in love with him, I was still Matt’s boyfriend, and a big part of me still loved the big lug.  He ran off and if Matt hadn’t shown up on my doorstep at just that moment, not only would I have caught Johnny before he escaped, but I most likely would have ravished him.

  All summer long, he ignored us.  Not just me, but all of the guys, too.  He even went and got a new girlfriend that he paraded all over town and rubbed it in my face that he was happy without me in his life.  We kicked Justin out of the band after he claimed that Jimmy and Zacky had been having an orgy in Jimmy’s car one night, yet there was no proof and they had no damned clue what he was talking about.  After summer was over, Jimmy and Zacky somehow managed to talk Johnny into being our new bassist, and he was perfect.

  We taught him all our songs, created some new ones with him, then rocked out as a band of close friends.  That last part stung for quite a while, since he never was around any of us unless it was to practice or to perform somewhere.  Otherwise, he was with her.  Kailie was her name and Johnny loved her with every ounce of his being, which cut me deep every time I saw them together.  I tried to break them up one night, when I got him drunk, then had Zacky dare us to make out.  We made out, and it fucking rocked!  The next morning, Jimmy screamed so loud and panicked that all but Johnny woke up from it.  When we ran to find him, we saw why.

  Johnny’s girlfriend had killed herself.  When we woke him up, I couldn’t keep the tears from falling.  I tried to keep him from seeing, but he pushed past me.  When he saw her like that, he broke.  He had scooped her up in his arms and started rocking her to and fro while screaming so loud, it was if he was trying to reach her on the other side. 

  After that, Johnny changed again.  Not for the better, either.  He started ignoring everyone, especially me.  He became very closed off and hated every sign of affection from any of us guys, but once again, especially me.  That was when I started to get pissed off.  Why was only I getting hated on so much?  He obviously blamed me for it; I know that now.

  I caught him crying all the time.  I would watch him constantly for any sign that he was suicidal.  Matt knew what I was up to; he was really worried about him as well.  Of course, I found a way to make Johnny hate me even worse.  I showed him my love one night after a particularly amazing show and he rejected me, and then broke down into uncontrolled sobs.  Matt had found me on the floor with my arms wrapped around the small and sobbing man on my lap and had joined in on comforting him.

  A week later, all hell broke loose.  I tried to seduce Johnny and was kissing him when Matt walked in on us.  Matt was furious.  I was afraid for Johnny and afraid for my already overly abused ass.  Matt had gotten to the point that for every time he caught me loving on Johnny, he fucked me without lube.  Lately, it had been happening more and more frequently, which even caused me to fuck up during shows sometimes.

  Matt started screaming and breaking things.  When I whispered sweet nothings to calm him down, it didn’t work for the first time ever.  Finally, I had no recourse.  I blamed it on Johnny.  I knew Matt wouldn’t hurt him, or so I thought.  I was wrong.  Matt screamed some of the most awful things to Johnny before then punching the poor guy in the balls…hard. 

  The way Johnny looked at me that night still kills me when I think about it, it was so cold and hate filled.  That night marked the beginning of my downward spiral.

  I started acting up to get Johnny’s attention, since he had become dead set on ignoring me at all times unless on stage or in an interview or something like that.  It only seemed to make him hate me even more.  Val came on tour and I noticed a distinct change in Matt’s behavior.  He became more aware of his looks and behavior when she was around.  I finally figured it out when I caught them fucking on the floor in the back of the bus, they had been so eager that they hadn’t even made it to the bunks themselves.

   I ended it with Matt and started trying to regain Johnny’s love and attention.  All that got me was more heartbreak as he openly insulted me and then laughed when I had started to cry.  Zacky had held me and rocked me to sleep like I was a baby.  Hell, even Matt got in on the ‘Syn and Johnny Love Brigade’ as Jimmy had anointed us.  Once again, Johnny insulted me so viciously, that I finally gave up.  I started bringing groupies around him, flaunting it in his face that I was over him and moving on.  It was a lie that caught up to me one night.

  I had picked up a biker and his girlfriend.  I took them back to the hotel room that I was sharing with Johnny.  I told Johnny that he would want to leave because I would be fucking the two all night.  Johnny fucking flipped out!  He punched the girl in the nose first before throwing her out of the room and into the hallway.  The guy charged at Johnny, who side stepped before bringing the bedside phone crashing down on the big guy’s skull over and over again as I stood there gawping at the sight in front of me, my mouth opening and closing, but there was no sound as I tried to process the pure violence that I was witness to.

  Matt had pulled the phone out of the raging and hard breathing Johnny’s hands before handing him over to Jimmy as he had pushed the guy out into the hall where two paramedics were waiting for him.  Johnny started retching before he had finally puked up any and everything he had recently eaten or drank in the past 24 hours all over the expensive plush carpet.  That was when Jimmy dropped the bomb, so to speak.  That was not the first time that Johnny had lost it like that.  Jimmy had actually witnessed the small man that I was in love with, kill another human being…a groupie whom had gone too far one night and insulted Johnny’s dead girlfriend.

  Matt, Zacky and myself all collapsed on the big red leather sofa that was in the room and against the wall opposite the bed.  As I was sitting there, Johnny came toward us while Jimmy explained the killing in a more graphic manner.  Johnny straddled my lap and pressed his cold forehead against my own warm one as he looked into my eyes.  I immediately wrapped my arms around him and brought him closer to my own body.  All signs of drunkenness gone now, I was thinking only of how to turn this situation into a possible start of a relationship with the small trembling bassist on my lap sometime soon.

  Jimmy had asked if Johnny intended to kill us since we knew about the hooker, whom Johnny had insisted was a groupie, but said that he wasn’t going to do anything to us.  Zacky had pointed out there wasn’t really much of a difference when you really think about it, which we all agreed made sense.  Then, Jimmy asked Johnny a very good question.

  “So?  Are you two gonna fuck after we leave or what?  Because if you are, I need to know, so I can put my earplugs in!” this had caused Zacky to giggle so much that he had tears in his green eyes after he had finally managed to calm himself down.

  Johnny said no, which really upset and confused me.  I asked why not.  I asked if he still hated me.  He informed me that not only did he not hate me, but was thinking of my safety as he was capable of hurting me during any kind of invading intercourse because of how angry he still was.  I had assured him that if he chose to hurt me during sex, I would still be all for it.  But, he refused.  I did get a hand job out of it, though.  I also got a new boyfriend, whom I quite honestly loved to the point of obsession.

  He and I were hot and heavy, but there was no real sex between us for a very long time, as I wanted to wait at first.  But, as time went on, it began to become painfully obvious that Johnny was not willing to give or take, either.  Even when I initiated it, it went nowhere further than a messy 69.  Since Matt was once my lover and still my best friend other than Zacky, I naturally complained to him about my lack of a sex life.  He then told Johnny about it very loudly one night after a particularly amazing show in Texas.

  That night I got bent over a nasty and ugly couch and butt fucked so hard, I could barely move the rest of the night afterward.  I never thought that it would be Johnny topping me.  That night changed my views on that forever.  He even gave me such filthy talk that I came multiple times for him.  I had never done that for anyone else other than Matt before Johnny. 

  The down side to all of that was Matt.  Matt was so hurt by watching Johnny take and gently dominate me the way he did when we were together, that he took off and stayed gone for almost two weeks.  It felt like forever to me, though.  I ended up treating poor Johnny like shit while Matt was gone because of all the guilt that I felt.  When Matt got back, I spent almost all of my spare time with him.  Not just to reassure him of my standing as his best friend, but we started screwing around with each other once again. 

  It became too much for me to handle finally.  I started doing more coke to help ease my sexual urges and would sometimes even lash out at Johnny.  The nights would pass with either me trying to love up on Johnny or trying to kill him for making me hurt my Matt in the first place.  I know it was never his fault, but at the time I blamed it all on him like it was.  Finally, it all came to a bloody and shattering halt one night when everything escalated and Matt and I took it too far.

  I raped my boyfriend.  I forced my hard and throbbing erection in my sobbing Johnny’s tight ass and took all of my rage, hatred and violent urges out on him…over and over again.  Even worse of a betrayal was that I let my ex-boyfriend/ secret lover take him repeatedly as well.  God, how Johnny screamed as we did that to him.

   It still haunts me to this very day. 

  Matt and I had made out right in front of his red and puffy eyes after Matt’s cock was pulled limp from Johnny’s bleeding ass.  After we had left, we got a call from the local hospital.  We had hurt Johnny so badly that he was in the hospital and was currently in surgery for the damage that we had caused to his rectum.

  I never moved as fast as I did then.  Both Matt and I rushed to the hospital where Val laid into us pretty badly.  Matt got a black eye and a split lip as she literally yanked his lip ring out and I got a broken nose and two black eyes as well as a broken wrist and two broken ribs courtesy of one Zacky fucking Vengeance.

   I had to sneak into Johnny’s room after his surgery since there was actually an armed guard at his door with the express permission to beat the hell out of Matt and me if we tried to get into the room that held my small and injured boyfriend.  Once I was finally passed the guard, Johnny fucking screamed loud and long with a high note wail mixed in it when he woke up to see me laying next to him and gently laying little kisses on his face and neck.  The door was kicked inward and the big guard grabbed me by my hair and actually sucker punched me in the gut, yet Johnny refused to tell him that it was okay for me to be in there.

  Instead, he cried as Val held and rocked him.  I was on pins and needles for the two weeks he was in the hospital and Matt and I were terrified of how this would affect not only the band, but our friendships and relationships as well.

  -Johnny broke up with me the day he was released from the hospital.  Just like that, we were over.  I destroyed my perfect relationship with a man who would have given me anything if I had but asked, instead of violating and humiliating him like I had done.

  He got together with a small brunette named Lacey and I got with Michelle.  We would try to outdo each other, but it would only lead to a hurt that pained me so deeply, some of the wounds felt as if they would never heal.  It came to a head after one spectacular drunken night between us.  Johnny and I had spent all night at my house fucking like wild animals.  When he gone home, I had felt an empty hole form in my soul.

  Later on the next day, I had gotten a phone call from Val telling me to get down to the hospital to pick Johnny up.  Lacey had gone postal on the poor guy and only Val showing up had saved him from a certain death at the crazy bitch’s hands.  When I got there, they led me back to the place he was in.  He was still being bandaged as his hands were really fucked up from trying to keep her from stabbing him with a huge hunk of glass from the table she had tackled him through and thus shattered.

  We got back together, this time with Matt’s complete support.  I also began to notice a slight attraction between Matt and Jimmy, more so on Jimmy’s part, though.  Even Val noticed, but unless Matt decided to do something about it, there was nothing she could say or do about it, so she stayed silent and loving.  Johnny and I were more in love than ever before when the shit between Jimmy and Matt finally erupted in a fuck-fest that was just beautiful to behold.  I even loaned my sweet lover to Matt, and watched in fascination as he took all of Jimmy’s cock in a hot deep throat that had my cum splashing all over my calloused hand.

  We became the walking undead known as vampires a year later.  Matt and I left the others for their own safety, but after four years away from Johnny, I could stand it no longer.  I went back to claim what was mine, only to learn he almost died by his own hand.  At the hospital, I turned him while Jimmy was turned by Matt.  Lacey was Johnny’s first kill, a fact that makes me beam in joy to this day.

  -Now, though…you’d never know that Johnny and I were once madly in love unless you were there for it all.  We don’t sleep in the same bed anymore.  We have affairs.  Mine with women while his are with Zacky, Leana, Jimmy and Matt. 

  God, I wanted to kill Matt when I walked in on them for the first time!

  Johnny had been kneeling on the floor with Matt fucking him from behind, Jimmy’s cock in his mouth and his own dick was buried in Zacky’s tight ass.  I’ll be honest, I was more jealous than hurt at the time.  Jealous that between the two of us, Zacky wanted Johnny topping him more than me!  Why Johnny?  Was I that bad of a lay the few times that Zacky and I got together?  Or did Johnny do something different with them than with me?  I was so furious that I almost missed the triumphant sparkle in Matt’s eyes as he dumped his cum in my man’s asshole.

  The snarl that came out of my mouth had sparked a chain reaction in the fucking men.  Zacky had sprayed the carpet with his seed and slumped the floor, exhausted.  Jimmy has screamed and cum in Johnny’s mouth before falling on to his back on the bed.  And Johnny…he had cum so hard, he actually passed out against Zacky’s sweat slicked back!

  Matt had seen my fury, but he simply smiled all dimples and teeth, like he knew how hurt and confused I was by what I had just witnessed.

  “What’cha thinking about, beautiful?” the slightly slurred purr next to my ear distracts me from my ruminations of things past.

  “Just stuff, love.  Why?  You have something better for me to think about?” I am attentive in my sudden desirous attention of my newest lover’s interest.

  “My cock sliding in and out of your wicked mouth.” I grin and drop to my knees in front of a drunken Zacky Vengeance.

  As I slip my mouth around my secret lover’s cock, my eyes water a bit as I try to imagine it as Johnny’s.  He’s gone and I have no clue where he and Matt are, but it worries me.  He didn’t even tell me he was leaving, he just up and left.  Zacky starts moaning like a whore as I work his dick and balls with both my mouth and hands.

  “Fuck, Bri!  That feels so fucking…Ahh!” Zacky screams, but not from pleasure and this makes me look up.

  I scream at the sight that meets my eyes…