anarbor Blog and Journals

So this is just a mix of my favorite things of 2009.

MAYDAY PARADE!!! So i used to not really like them but now I'm heels over head for them. Hate me if you like, but I actually like them more without Jason, just like I like Anarbor more without Jess.

Speaking of Anarbor, I'm in love. Plain and simple. As I said, I didn't care much for Jess. I think girls just add drama that is uneeded, making everyone think she is hooking up with all the bandmembers and that shit. The only case this isn't true for me is with Paramore.

Paramore's new album brand new eyes blows my mind. It is so amazing, I cannot name one song on the album I don't like.

The Maine...well, where to start. There are honestly just too many things to say about these boys so I'll just lay it out. They Can't Stop, and they Won't Stop for some time to come.

All Time Low. Though many do not care for their newest album, I like it. I don't care much for the song Too Much, but otherwise in my top five top albums of 2009.

So All time Low had this lovely song called Toxic Valentine on the Jennifer's Body soundtrack. I have been listening to this cd nx since I got in September. If anyone reading this has heard it, you will most likely understand why.

NeverShoutNever... that's all I have to say.

Stephen Jerzak, courtesy of Buzznet and Purevolume I can listen to him everyday.

BUZZNET!! It is my addiction of 2009 and it will continue on into the future for as long as I can tell. Fan fics go along with Buzznet. I love writing and reading fan fics. I would like to thank everyone of you who have read and put some input in on my fics. I appreciated it to an extent that I cannot even verbalize.

I hope everyone had an amazing 2009, I know I did. I'm looking forward to 2010 since I'll finally be out of high school, and plus The Maine and Anarbor are both going to put out new albums! Yes!!!

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Okay, so MTV finally put shit about Anarbor on their site. It's about damn time people. Anyways, watch their 5 Things interview. It's guaranteed to make you laugh. If it doesn't, you have to driest sense of humor of my life, no offense. This proves these dudes are pretty fowl mouthed, as many have heard.

http://www.mtv.com/videos/misc/397598/the-5-anarbor.jhtml

1. Stars of Track and Field

If you like Death Cab For Cutie, Paper Route, or The Postal Service, you'll LOVE Stars of Track and Field. SOTAF just realesed their album A Time For Lions in September. This 3 piece band from New York will be on tour with Lights until early November. Alternative Press gave them 4 stars in March 2007. Check out "Racing Lights", "End of all Time", and "Centuries".

2. Anarbor

Signed to Hopeless Records, this 4 piece pop rock band from Arizona has gained alot of attention over the past year. Last winter, Anarbor was on the Take Action Tour with Cute Is What We Aim For, Breathe Carolina, and Every Avenue. This past summer, they toured with The Cab, The Summer Set, and Eye Alaska, and played at a couple Warped Tour dates. Anarbor just finished a tour with This Providence and will be playing on 2 more tours. You can play a couple of their songs on TapTapRevenge2 if you have the iPhone or iPod Touch. Now, I don't know if you watch football, but the song "Let The Games Begin" was played on the NFL Season kick off. I was so excited when I heard it. Check out "The Brightest Green", "Passion For Publiciation", "Halfway Sober", and "Between You and I". Keep in touch with them through their own website, twitter, and myspace .

3. Jimmy Robbins

Look at him. It's hard not to fall in love with that gorgeous smile and beautiful voice. Signed to Universal Motown Records, Jimmy Robbins just realsed his album "See Through Secerts" in early September. I've been in love with him ever since I listened to the song "Breathe". Some songs make me smile and just want to dance. Others are very personal and everyone can relate to them. Listen to "Surgery". It's such a powerful song. Listen to "Turn It Up", "Losing Control", "Breathe Again", and "Everything To You". For acoustic lovers, check out Too Sorry for Apologies (2006).

4. Hello Hollywood

What do you think of when you hear the word Arizona? Good music. It's the home of The Maine, The Higher, The Summer Set, Jimmy Eat World, Anarbor, and many more. Hailing from Arizona, Hello Hollywood gets thousands of plays a day on their myspace. The lead singer is only 18 years old. Not too bad for a teenager. Listen to "Kids Undercover", "Danger Danger", "So Late, So Sorry" (featuring Brian Logandales of The Summer Set!) and "Summer Sweetness". Help them get on the PacTour with Saosin and Eye Alaska (vote here) and The Ellen Degenres show (vote here)! I voted. You should too. ;)

 5. iRival

iRival, a 4 piece rock/pop punk band from Atlanta, Georgia will be pretty busy this fall. They will be playing on 2 tours. Manatour featuring Hit The Lights, There For Tomorrow, Sparks The Rescue, and other bands on select dates. They will also be on the DanceRawrDance tour with Family Force 5, Breathe Carolina, and Cash Cash. Listen to "Make Me Scream", "Colors", and "Figured Me Out".

Are you obsessed yet?

<3Jenny

A Rocket To The Moon will be doing a live chat soon. :D

Here's the final chapter to my first fan fiction We'll All Be... . I would like to thank you all for the support you have given me while writing this story. If it weren't for the people who read this, I proably wouldn't have begun any of my other fics. I'll keep writing don't worry, and I hope you enjoy.

Chapter 32

Telling the guys sucked more than I thought it would. I felt so bad for putting this on them when they were supposed to be having a good time but they were surprisingly supportive of it. They understood that I needed to do what was best for me. Then Jared, Garrett, and Pat broke news to me that I never saw coming.

            “Jules, after the tour is done, we’re moving to Arizona,” Pat told me.           

            “What?” I exclaimed. “Why?” I was surprised; they all LOVE Maine.

            “We also need a change of pace and decided that we wanted to do it. Plus Kenny’s happy since Hannah is going to college in Scottsdale,” Garrett told me.

            “So, you’re going to live in Phoenix?” I asked them.

            “Tempe, to be exact,” Jared told me.

            “Hey, that’s only like a 14 hour drive from Dallas,” I told them. They looked confused.

            “I’m moving in with Kyle and Marc and going to college in Dallas,” I told them.

            “We’re all leaving the nest,” Pat joked. I laughed and left to find Kennedy. I told him everything and he was excited for me. I really didn’t want to tell John but I knew I had to. I rode the elevator up four floors and walked down the hall to my old room. I let myself in and found John sitting on his bed.

            “Hey,” I said to him quietly. He looked a little bit startled. “I still had my key.”

            “Oh, okay. What’s up?” he asked me as I sat across from him on the opposite bed. I told him everything and he seemed a little shocked.

            “I hope I didn’t make you do this,” John said, blaming himself.

            “Well, I think our, um, thing kind of helped me to decide that it was best,” I told him.

            “I’m sorry about last night Jules. I really am,” he told me.

            “It’s alright. Shit happens,” I told him. He just chuckled at my response and I left to go and find Jack, Alex, and Zack. As soon as I stepped into their room, I began to cry. I sat on Jack’s bed and told them what was up and they were far from happy about it.

            “WHAT!?” Jack yelled at me, which caused me to cry harder.

            “Don’t yell at her asshole,” Zack said to him as he put his arm around me.

            “I need a change Jack. This whole situation, it just makes me sad and it hurts to be around. You know I love you guys so much but I need something new, something to believe in. I don’t have that anymore in Maine,” I told him. Jack looked really hurt and just stormed out of the room.

            “Juliet, he’ll come around, don’t worry,” Alex told me as he knelt in front of me on the floor and took my hands in his as Zack held me against him.

            “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you guys. You know I would never do that,” I told them.

            “We know that. Jack, you just mean so, so much to him that he is just having a hard time digesting this,” Alex said to me.

            “Do Rian and Kara know?” Zack asked me.

            “Yeah. Rian and I have been talking about me transferring colleges for a while actually,” I told them. We sat and talked about it and what colleges I was thinking about when the door opened. Jack came in, sat on the bed beside me, and pulled me into a hug.

            “I’m sorry,” he said to me.

            “It’s okay,” I told him.

            “No, it’s not. I was an asshole just like Zack said,” he replied. “I’m just going to miss you so fucking much.” I looked up and saw tears streaming down Jack’s cheeks. Jack never cries, NEVER. I reached up and wiped them away.

            “I’m going to miss you too. But hey, you can come and visit and I’ll come home to visit more than you think,” I told him. Jack just nodded his head and held me tighter to him. Matt Flyzik opened their door and came in the room.

            “Guys, it’s time for sound check,” he told them sadly. I had already broken the news to him; he was as torn about it as everyone else.

            “Alright, we’re coming,” Jack said. He gave me a light kiss on the forehead, got up, and followed Alex and Zack out of the room. Just as he was going out the door, he turned and looked at me.

            “Hey, Jules?” Jack said to me.

            “Yeah, Jacko?” I replied.

            “Happy birthday,” he said before he let the door shut behind him. I had totally forgotten that it was my birthday, as had everyone else except Jack. I hopped off the bed and ran down the hall after Jack. I got into the elevator just as the door began to shut and gave Jack a huge hug.

            “Thanks Jack,” I said to him. Alex and Zack looked confused and looked at each other. Then they both realized it.

            “Happy birthday,” they yelled in unison and both gave me a huge hug at the same time.

That night was my last night with the guys from my crew and it made me a little sad. During All Time Low’s set, Jack came and literally drug me on stage.

            “So, as some of you may know, this is Jules, Rian’s sister,” Jack said into his mic.

            “And today just happens to be her 19^th birthday,” Alex said.

            “How about we sing her a happy birthday?” Zack suggested. All of the other bands from our tour (Anarbor, Forever The Sickest Kids, The Maine, and There For Tomorrow), along with the merch guys, tour managers, techs, and Kara and Hannah all came on stage. They all sang me happy birthday with the audience of 1,000 kids, the biggest show they had played yet. I laughed and hugged everyone before I went to walk off stage just as Kennedy ran at me with a piece of cake on a pate, which he smashed in my face. I laughed at him as Alex and Jack, who were on either side of me, licked up my cheeks getting the cake off.

            “Yum, good cake. Brock, where’d you get that?” Jack asked him.

            “I got it when I visited your mom last night,” Kenny said in a completely serious tone. Everyone just laughed at him.

            “So, what song does the birthday girl want to hear?” Alex asked into his microphone.

            “How would you guys like a never before heard song?” I asked into Jack’s mic. Alex just looked at me. “I just posted this on their Myspace and it’s called ‘Let It Roll’!” I smiled at them and went and stood on the side of the stage. Garrett handed me a towel to wipe the cake off my face as the guys began to play. I danced along and sang to my favorite part of the song, during which Alex turned, pointed at me and winked.

“Take, take a breath/ We've got all the time in the world/ To get a grip on the fact/That we don't last/ But right now I want to watch the tide roll in/ With my best friends,” Alex sang. After the song ended, the crowd exploded with excitement and applause.

            “Thanks for coming out. We are All Time Low and we love you,” Alex yelled before they ran off stage. A tear rolled down my face as I realized it would be the last time I would hear the guys perform before I left.  The next morning, I woke up, got ready, and said my goodbyes. Kara had a really hard time with me leaving so I promised I would iChat with her every night. I told Rian to make sure she kept it together. I gave him a huge hug and kiss on the cheek before Kyle helped me in their van. I waved at everyone as we drove off to go to the next stop on the tour. Little did I know that my decision to leave would change my life forever.

THE END

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I'm going to be updating my other fics for about a week or two before I put up the first chapter to the sequel. I would like to apologize for the lack of updates to Dark Blue especially. I lost the inspiration to that story so if I stop posting for it, it's because I didn't know where to go with it. Oh, did you get my title- The Final Set. You know bands, last set in a show when there are several bands. Well, I thought it was clever.

Not going to try to make this journal entry long since I'm currently at a casino with all the boys and my stepbro.

It's amazing they let all of us in but most of us look old enough and some of us are. Except me of course, a mere 15 year old amongst 17-21 year olds. Save for my older bro, hes like 25.

I guess they must have overlooked me, can't blame em. I was hidden by Luke. Which, I'm soo happy with right now. What makes me feel guilty is that while Luke went to the bathroom, me and Joe went up to the third floor and made out near the elevators. It was thrill that got to me again, he's just such a badass.

Afterward I totally went downstairs to avoid getting any suspicions. I know that Adam was already giving me and Joe some looks. It made my palms sweat, seriously.

Trust me, cranberry juice is gross! I have no idea what my mother tastes in it besides pure bitterness. Oh, wells. It was the only thing we had to drink.

Anyways, it's Chris' birthday and Chris got a new car!! That lucky bee-otch! I wish I had a car already even though I'm not even old enough to drive yet.

Chris did the honors by driving us all around the place! Wooo!!! I love you Chris! Happy birthday mother effer of mine .x3

Well, I'm going to log out now, Joe's been driving his bills into a machine and me and Dan are gettting worried, especially since all Joe ever got was a $5 bill back. I hate gambling. Now poor Joe is addicted :(

Where is Luke you ask? He's right next to me, smiling like the idiot that I know and love. The guilt still seeps through my skin though.

Here it is. Okay, but first a funny story for you. It's alright to laugh because I did forever. so today at lunch, my friend and I were going to dump our trays when I slipped on something and fell on my butt. The funny thing is absolutely nothing fell off my tray and the one person who actually saw me do this said I was very graceful. My principal thought I was hurt because I began to crying, but I was crying from laughing so fucking hard. It was hilarious. Anyways, here's chapter 27.

Chapter 27

I had primed an entire wall before anyone else made it back upstairs. I heard the door open and turned to see Kara, and only Kara, pick up a paintbrush and start priming as well. We painted in silence for five minutes before she finally cracked.

            “I don’t want to put a damper on your mood Jules, but what happened?” Kara asked me as she sat down her brush and walked over to me.

            “I was tired of putting up a wall. I thought that I needed to be strong and not show emotions but I just had all this pent up emotion and I didn’t know what to do with it. After Garrett, I was just tired of people’s shit and with Caleb being around that wasn’t helping me figuring things out any,” I told her as I, too, sat down my roller. I looked at her and waited for a response.

            “Why did you feel the need to hold in all your feelings? You should have come talk to me,” Kara said to me, and I could tell that she was actually upset that I didn’t come and talk to her about it.

            “I know, but everything with you and Rian was going so well that I just didn’t want to put a damper on your mood,” I told her, kicking at the drop cloth on the floor.

            “Hey nothing will ever come between us, especially Rian. He wouldn’t want it that way either. You scared him Jules. He honestly thought that you were okay but when Alex and Jack brought you upstairs, you should have seen him. I’ve never seen him so petrified,” she told me. I began to feel guilty again about what I had put everyone through.

            “I’m sorry Kara. I just want everyone else to be happy you know?”

            “I know you do. You always have but you have to talk to me okay?” she said as she gave me a hug.

            “I will, I promise,” I told her as I hugged her back.

            “Alright, now that we got that settled, let’s paint,” she said as she picked her paintbrush back up.

The following days, Kara and I set up my room to what suited us both. We had fun since we hadn’t had much time to hang out yet this summer. We got done on Friday, which was a good thing since we set out on tour the following day. I had been able to let go of the feelings that I had held up in me and I felt better than ever. I felt happy, just hanging out with my friends, my family as I saw them. We both packed our stuff and got ready to leave. I helped Jack repack his suitcase when I saw him sitting on it, trying to zip it saying ‘Come on. You know you want to.’ I laughed and walked over to him. I pulled him up off the suitcase and looked down at the mountain of clothes spilling of the bag.

            “Grab it and bring it to my room,” I told Jack as I started up the stairs.

            “Alrighty,” he said as he grabbed his bag and brought it upstairs to my room. He sat it on the floor and I proceeded to reach down and tip the bag over. Jack gasped and looked up at me.

            “What are you doing?” he asked me.

            “Making it fit,” I replied as I sat on the floor and began to fold his clothes. To Jack’s amazement, folding his clothes actually made them fit.

            “Thanks Jules,” he said as he gave me a hug before he took his bag downstairs to be with the rest. After Jack left, there was a knock at my door.

            “Come in,” I said from my desk. I was finishing putting up information on ATL’s Myspace. I turned and saw Kyle standing in my doorway. “Hey bud.”

            “Hey Jules. You ready for tour?” he asked me, going to sit on my bed in the process.

            “Yeah, I’m actually really excited,” I told him. I shut my computer and turned my attention to Kyle.

            “So what are you going to do about the whole Caleb situation?” he asked me.

            “Jack and Alex told me that he was dating some girl named Dani,” I said to him.

            “Seriously?” he asked me.

            “Yeah. He met her at the tour agency. She’s your new merch girl since your usual merch guy couldn’t come,” I told him.

            “I had no idea,” Kyle told me.

            “Well, now you do,” I told him. He laughed.

            “So have you talked to Garrett?” he asked me, watching to see how I would respond.

            “No, I haven’t. I don’t think I really need to,” I told him.

            “Are you going to be okay being around him?” he asked me.

            “I’m fine around Alex and Zack so I should be,” I told him.

            “Yeah, but he broke you,” he said to me.

            “I don’t want to talk about this Kyle,” I said to him in a calm voice.

            “Okay, I understand. Oh I was supposed to come get you for John,” he told me.

            “Why didn’t he just come up?” I asked him.

            “I don’t know. He just didn’t,” he said with a smile. I could see the gap in his front teeth and it made me smile. That was one of the many things that made him Kyle. I got up and walked with Kyle downstairs. He led me to the kitchen and I found out why Kyle wasn’t able to keep a straight face while he was talking to me.

            “SURPRISE!” everyone yelled in unison. Rian was holding a birthday cake and Kara was blowing on a noisemaker. Jack and Zack were popping confetti poppers at each other, while everyone else was standing around wearing goofy birthday hats that read ‘Over The Hill’ on them. I laughed at this and side hugged Kyle. He pulled me farther into the kitchen and put a birthday hat on my head. He put one on himself and snapped the elastic string under his chin.

            “Fuck, that hurt,” he said once he did it. I laughed and turned to look at everyone. There was only one person missing: Garrett. I walked over to Kennedy and gave him and Hannah huge hugs. John pulled me to him and gave me a big hug. He handed me a small notebook.

            “Since we are all a little strapped for cash, here’s your birthday present,” he said to me. I opened the book to find hand written coupons.

            “One free dinner with the guy of your choice (pick Pat),” I read.

            “What?” John said, looking at the book. Pat had written that in. John just looked at him but it made me smile.

            “Water balloon fight with all three bands: choose your team wisely, One free song of your choosing at any random time, one free cuddle buddy for those chilly nights,” I laughed at the last one and kept flipping through the book. “Thanks guys.”

            “Happy earlier birthday,” Jared told me as he gave me a hug.

            “Jare, where’s Gare?” I asked him. He just looked down at me.

            “He didn’t want to come because of what he did to you,” he said to me.

            “Can I see your phone?” I asked him. Jared handed me his phone and I walked into the living room. I dialed Garrett’s number and waited for him to answer.

            “Hey Jared,” he said with a sad voice as he answered the phone.

            “Get your skinny white ass over here now Nickelsen,” I said to him through the phone.

            “Juliet?” he asked.

            “Yeah, now stop being a party pooper and get over here,” I told him.

            “Are you sure?” he asked me.

            “Of course I am or why would I have called,” I told him.

            “I’ll be there in a minute,” he said before he hung up. I smiled and gave Jared back his phone.

            “He’ll be here in a minute,” I told him. He smiled and slid the phone back into his pocket. I walked into the kitchen and saw that the guys from FTSK were sitting in the dining room. I walked in there and sat on Kyle’s lap since all the chairs were taken.

            “Here Jules. Happy early birthday and late graduation,” Marc said as he slid a little box my way.

            “You shouldn’t have,” I told him as I opened the box. There was a Glamour Kills gift card inside. I flipped it over and saw that there was two hundred dollars loaded on the card.

            “Marc, I can’t accept this. That is way too much,” I said to him, sliding the box back his way.

            “It’s from all of us,” he said as all the guys smiled.

            “Thank you all so much,” I said as I turned and gave Kyle a hug. I got up and gave all of the guys hugs before I sat back down on Kyle. I heard the front door open and close so I went to greet Garrett. He looked at me and smiled weakly.

            “Hey,” I said to him as I gave him a hug. He stiffened a little and then loosened and gave me a hug.

            “Hey. I’m so sorry,” he said to me.

            “It’s alright. Really, all is forgiven,” I said to him with a smile. He handed me a package about the size of a CD case.

            “Here, John said he wanted to buy you this but he never had time. So this is actually from John,” Garrett said as I opened the present. It was the newest Anarbor CD. I had wanted it for a while but was never able to find it.

            “Thanks Gare,” I said as I went to give him a hug.

            “No, seriously it’s from John. I stole twenty bucks from his wallet to buy it,” he told me quietly. I burst out laughing at this and went to find John. I walked into the kitchen and smiled when I saw him. He was laughing about something and looked adorable with his hair sticking out in the back. I walked over to him, grabbed his arm, and pulled him around to the back door, all without a word from either one of us. I pulled him around the side of the house to a spot where no one could see us unless they physically came outside.

            “What’s up?” he said to me once I came to a stop.

            “Thanks for the present,” I said to him holding up the CD.

            “Where did you get this?” he asked me.

            “Garrett stole twenty bucks from your wallet and bought it for me for you,” I told him.

            “What? Are you kidding me?” John said. He stepped to head back in the house but I grabbed his hand and pulled him back in front of me. He looked down at me and an overwhelming feeling came over me. I pulled his head down to me and kissed him. He placed his hands on my waist and pulled me closer to him.

            “Oh, dear God,” he said against my lips. I giggled and pulled away from him. He swallowed hard and looked down at me. “What was that about?”

            “I don’t know. It just felt right,” I said to him. “You’ve tried to tell me haven’t you?”

            “Tell you what?” he said, trying to play it cool but it didn’t work to great for him.

            “You’ve tried to tell me that you like me before haven’t you but I’ve just never really connected all of it together until now,” I said to him. I myself was having a huge moment of clarity.

            “Yeah, I have but then you were dating Garrett and then…. everything happened,” he said to me.

            “I’m sorry, I didn’t pay attention,” I said to him. He simply dipped down and pressed his lips to mine.

            “It’s alright,” he said to me after he pulled away.

            “I think we should keep this quiet otherwise Rian is going to get super paranoid and worried about me and he doesn’t need that on tour,” I said.

            “I agree. Let’s just keep it quiet at least for a while,” John pulled me to him and kissed me deeply before we went back inside. The night carried on as he celebrated my birthday early. John and Pat stayed in my room with me that night. We stayed up and talked and listened to my new Anarbor CD. I couldn’t wait to meet the guys from the band since I had been a fan for some time. I was counting down the days until the groups joined together into one bigger tour: 14.

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So the song for this chapter is "Pour Some Sugar On Me"- The Maine cover. I thought it was going to be weird, but it blew my fucking mind. I'm addicted to it. I was walking around school singing, my guy friend was like "Def Leppard" and I was like "no, The Maine" and he just laughing at me since he knows how much I love them.

Well I've been with Luke for over a month now & it's been terribly amazing, I just feel so guilty as I type this.

Okay so, Me, Luke, Joe, Dan, Chris, my step brother, & Adam were all splattered on the couch and on the floor at Dan's house.

(Parents were out in the backyard for a bbq.)

So, Dan had the TV remote & when he passed it to Adam after a show ended, Adam put on CSI: Miami. Don't get me wrong, that show was cool and all but I wasn't in the mood for that.

Well, I asked if anyone saw the latest episode of True Blood & Joe said he hadn't, I hadn't either. Dan then mentioned that he had the online link saved on his laptop upstairs if we wanted to see it. Well, then Joe asked me if I wanted to watch it and of course, I said yeah. I mean.. Hello! It's True Blood!

Luke looked like he didn't care much so I left with Joe right away and we sat on the bed, leaning against the wall. As soon as True Blood started playing, me and Joe had to snuggle against each other since he had the laptop on his lap. It was fun to watch it with Joe, he always makes the funniest comments.

But.. I guess I must have given the wrong impression when I layed my head on his shoulder. I didn't even think he would think anything of it. But he did. =/

Halfway through True Blood, Joe shifted in his seat. This is when I made the wrong move by looking up at him. He looked down at me and we stayed like that for a moment. It was awkward and it was a hint that told me what was going to happen. And then our lips met. At first, the only thing that went through my head was: ............

It was silence.

I didn't think much of anything, I just enjoyed his soft lips on mine as our kiss grew harder. Joe was intriguing to me, he was.. something different. He had just the perfect amount of arrogant in him, and I guess I allowed him to kiss me because of the thrill. It was thrilling because he was off-limits and it felt so exciting.

I didn't feel the guilt until halfway through the kiss. It began with me thinking: What am I doing?

But I didn't bother to answer myself as I put my arm around Joe's neck. It was very risky of me to do that, if anyone was to come in at that moment. Though, all we heard was a loud bang. It wasn't even the door to Dan's room. Which, by the way, was fully open. It was from downstairs, on a table I supposed.

This is where we broke the kiss, and Joe whispered, "I hope that's him at the door."
I couldn't help but smile, it was a line from the lyrics of one of our favorite songs, Anarbor - Let The Games Begin.

I let him give me a quick kiss and I pulled back, then mentioned that we should finish watching the episode. And that was that. We watched the rest of True Blood without kissing. Which was amazing! But so disappointing when Godric died & I'll admit I let a few tears run. :(

When it was done, I got up from the bed and so did Joe, as Joe put the laptoop back on Dan's desk, I looked around the room at all of Dan's collectibles. He was such an adorable little snowboard freak. Too bad it was summer.

Joe looked at me then, laying his hands on my waist. The look in his eyes made me melt. It was a shame, really.

Well, we kissed again, and he leaned in first. I felt really guilty by then but I let him kiss me, only for a few seconds before I pulled away and sighed. I really didn't know what I was thinking. So, I turned around and walked out into the hallway, headed for the stairs. Joe caught up to me quick though, and he grabbed me, pulling me around I couldn't help but giggle. Then his lips crashed onto mine one last time, and he pulled back.

Finally, we went down the stairs as if nothing interesting had happened upstairs. Luke and the others were in the kitchen and when Luke saw me he smiled, walking over to me. I felt extremely guilty by then. Even then, I didn't allow Luke to kiss me, I was afraid he might be able to taste the betrayal in my lips. There was no way I was going to let Joe, of all people, end my relationship with Luke.

About thirty minutes passed by of a few drinks and snacks, talking and laughing. Then it was time for me and my stepbro to leave, we did. I hugged Luke goodbye, kissing him on the lips very, very quickly. The whole time, Joe had been giving me looks, I hated it, I feared that Luke sensed the truth in Joe's looks. But amazingly, Luke hadn't said anything. So all was fine.. for now.

I don't think I'll sleep well tonight.

I'm pretty sure someone already wrote a journal of their favorite quotes from John Ohhh.. Oh welll. It doesn't hurt to read them again. Haaha. Some of these made me laugh hysterically. I especially love the ones about life.

You see, John is among the list of people I look up to. No, not because he's $Ofr3@K1Ngh@wtLyKOmG *Cough* Crazy fan girls. *Cough* No. I look up to him because I think that some of the things he says are so inspriational and I like way he views his life. He's always posistive. I love how he can be so chill and carefree, but he's serious when he knows he has to be. I think it's awesome that they go out every night and do what they love -  performing to hundreds of people. You would come across some challenges and problems, but it would also be so much fun. A different city every night. I would love to do that, but the chances of that happening to me are like zero. I love watching their In Person Documentary. At one point, he said he'll keep on doing what he loves doing as long as there are people coming out to their shows. I know The Maine will continue growing and I really hope they reach out to everyone with their music. I want my grandkids to know who they are. Hahahh. They deserve the chance to be world known. And no matter what happens, I will be supporting them the whole way.

I remember spring/summer of 2007, they only had a couple hundred friends on myspace. Now, they have over 200,000. I'm so proud of them and all their accomplishments. I could go on for hours about how much I love this band. Unfortunately, I have not had the chance to meet anyone from The Maine. They always come on a week day or the show is sold out. :( Boys Like Girls is posting some tour dates on their myspace on Monday, and I'm crossing my fingers for them to come to Pittsburgh. If they go to Altoona or Allentown (no offense to anyone who lives there) instead of Pittsburgh, I will be so mad. But when that day comes, I will truly be on of the happiest girls on this planet. So to anyone who has had the chance to meet them, you are so lucky. I want to thank them for making such good music, doing what they want to do/following their dreams, being the awesome people they are, and telling me to be me.

Okay, ranting time. You know what really bothers me. Rumors. Stop spreading them. And hearing stories where fans ask band members to be the father of their babies or if they can have their numbers. It's kinda creepy.. Put your feet in their shoes, would you want people you didn't really know asking to have sex with you and for your number? I wouldn't, but maybe that's just me. Their personal lives and band life are two different things. It really bothers me when people talk about their personal lives. I wouldn't want people I don't know talking about my issues. Would you? I was in the maine chat thingy and all these girls could talk about was how hot John was. Hellooo! There are other people in the band too. Their names are Kennedy, Garrett, Jared, and Pat if you didn't know. Just saying. Looks aren't anything. Okay I'm done ranting. Here are my favorite quotes of his.

"Don't forget how lucky we are to be alive. Take advantage of every day. There might not be a tomorrow."

"Cause there is life in every breath you take. And there is hope with every move you make. And every single mistake you think you've made should make you feel alive. 'Cause you only have one chance to live in this spec we call life."

"It's good to feel at home. But home isn't really a place. It's the people who make it what it is. I have a great home."

"The most important thing my parents taught me was that you are comfortable with the decisions you make."

"You can't force creativity, you'll hate yourself for doing so. It all comes in waves, just like life, but the key is being true to yourself. As long as you accomplish that, then the creativity will flow."

"Life is inspiration."

"The only dreams that matter are the ones you have when you're awake."

"Je t'aime de tout mon coeur (I love you with all my heart)"

"Give yourself some credit for the work you put in with your own two hands.But remember to never forget the people and things that have helped you along the way."

"YOU will be the only YOU to ever live on this planet. How fuckin' rad is that? So don't be afraid to be yourself. FUCK what people think about you. Take advantage of being unique. And stay true to who you really are."

"You fit in, We stand out. WE ARE THE PEOPLE WE'VE BEEN WAITING FOR."

"Surround yourself with the people you love, and well, if they don't love you, then they really aren't your friends. You should just try to talk to them and let them know they are bumming you out. If they keep doing it, you'll know they aren't the people you want to be around."

"I want you to get up out of that computer chair, and I wanna see you winding and grinding and I don't know love each other!"

"Let's spread some STDS!"

"Spread the word. We are an army of LOVE."

"I heard the Jonas Brothers were playing here tonight, Well Fuck the Jonas Brothers!"

"Word. ...right now? Well my name is John Cornelius O'Callaghan the fifth, the best lead singer in the world. FOR THE MAINE. Just for The Maine."

"Begin to take responsibility for yourself, at the end of the day we are nothing but our own experiences and memories. Start to lead this something called ME."

"Be kind, and do what you like. Time here is short. Fuck what you know, or think you know, and just be yourself. I'm in a good place right now, and so are you. I love my life and I love the people in it."

"I'm unsure of a lot at the moment, and probably will always be...but I'm comforted in knowing that every single person on this earth is the same boat as me."

"Skies are blue and I'm alive. So all is well."

"Right after I said "fuck them", I said "I'm just kidding, I've never met them." They are successful and I don't know them. They play to arenas, we play in small clubs. But I wouldn't change a thing in the world. It was a joke."

"We walk back to van. Our heads turn to the right after Garrett said "Hey look a celebrity!", and guess who we SAW!!!!! DONNY STEVENS FROM EVEN FUCKING STEVENS. We can now die happy."

"It's insane how everything works together so harmoniously, just one big circle. Try not to fall asleep. Break your routine, and live it up."

"Tomorrow...smile at a perfect stranger, and mean it."

"Sometimes I can feel really weird, and at the same time...I can feel incredible, and sometimes, trying to write down all of the things I'm thinking, just doesn't work."

"Take it easyyyyyyyyy, 'cause we're all still breathing."

"Stop doing bad things, or at least try..."

"Perfection cannot be reached, because nothing's perfect, but things can change, and so can people..."

"Stuck in a hole, but I'm not trying to dig myself out..."

"I don't really watch TV or movies or anything like that...'cause I'm indie.."

 "Start thinking yourself. What am I doing here? Why were we put here? So many views. So little truth. So little evidence. So contradicting. One thing remains the same. I breathe. I survive. One day. At a time. No different than every other person on this entire earth."

"Some people have real problems. Write that down."

"Stay the fuck in school, and say fucking no to drugs!"

"You are number one. Straight up."

"Be thankful for what you have and where you're at. Some aren't so fortunate. Don't stress. It always could be worse."

"I'm not a fan of mickey mouse. He's a borderline douche."

"That is real life. The way you can deal with those situations, is by making decisions.. You either do or you don't want to be involved with them. I know it's way more complicated then that, but that is the step you need to take. It's the time spent contemplating which is the hardest."

"I'd be a giraffe. I'm long and skinny just like one of those gentle giants."

"So thanks parents, for having unprotected sex and bringing your kids being here."

"It's almost as if this never had any meaning at all. Take leaps toward change."

"I've got nothing but love in this skinny frame."

"Once separated due to ignorance or naivety or whatever it may have been, they now work together for something bigger than they could ever imagine."

"I actually don't think it was the chicken or the egg. I believe Colonel Sanders came before both of them, and that's the only reason he developed such a sweet recipe for KFC... which stands for Kentucky Fried Chicken."

"We're from Arizona, which is Satan's birthplace, but no amount of heat can prepare you for 2 months under the sun... the closest star to Earth."

"You're crowd surfing, I fucking like you, holy shit, you're almost naked too!" This was one of my favorite lines from the In Person Documentary. I couldn't stop laughing.

Woahh. That was a long journal...Thanks for reading if you did! What's your favorite quote? Who do you look up to?

peacee,

<3Jenny

PS: If you read fan fics, check out stephie299 's stories. She writes about All Time Low, Forever The Sickest Kids, The Maine, Anarbor, and There For Tomorrow. Some of them just focus on one band, but other stories focus on more than one band.

PSS: I'll be posting Current Obessions 4 tomorrow around 8 pm EST.

Here it is folks, Chapter 2. I got good feedback on the first chapter so I'll probably keep this one going.

I gripped his hand tightly and followed him towards my first period class, which was Computer Science. He led me through the rows of Macs and placed me in a chair between him and Jared.

         “Sorry, I forgot you didn’t know where you were going,” Jared said to me apologetically.

         “It’s alright,” I told him.

         “Yo, Mr. Bryant, we have a new student,” Garrett yelled across the room. I instinctively smacked him. He turned to me and grinned. I blushed and looked down at the table in front of me.

         “Really Mr. Nickelsen. And who may that be?” the teacher, Mr. Bryant, asked him. Garrett took my hand again and pulled me towards the front of the room.

         “Everyone, this is Avalon Meyers. She just transferred. If you’re rude to her, I will kick your as-,” Garrett began but was cut off by Mr. Bryant.

         “Alright, Garrett. Thank you and welcome Miss Meyers,” Mr. Bryant said to me. I nodded at him and followed Garrett back to our seats as everyone stared at me. Mr. Bryant began to read the morning announcements when Garrett reached over and took my schedule from me. He looked it over and began marking it.

         “What are you doing?” I said to him.

         “I’m marking the classes I have with you so you can look for someone in them,” Garrett said.

         “Miss Meyers and Mr. Nickelsen, am I going to have to separate you?” Mr. Bryant asked as everyone turned towards us.

         “No sir,” Garrett said before going back to my schedule. Jared took it from Garrett and did the same thing. Turned out I had all of me classed with Garrett but only had three classes with Jared. I had six classes with Pat and it was about the same with the rest of the guys.

         “You’ll meet Max next period,” Jared told me as we began on our assignment, which was to make a PowerPoint about something that interests us.

         “Who’s Max?” I asked him.

         “He’s a friend of ours. I think you’ll like him. His really cool,” Jared told me. The bell rang so I logged off my newly created school account and followed Garrett and Jared out of the room.

         “I’ll see you later,” Jared said before he head off into the crowd.

         “You ready?” Garrett asked me. I nodded my head and pulled my book bag over my shoulders. He took my hand again and led me to the music wing of the school. We had Music Appreciation with Pat and Max. People gave me weird looks as I walked sort of behind Garrett through the main lobby on our way to our next class. I felt weird so I picked up my pace so I was walking beside Garrett. He turned and smiled at me before he started up the stairs.

         “Look out!” someone from above us yelled. Garrett quickly pulled me towards him, covering me with his arms. A second later several textbooks hit the floor where I had just been standing.

         “You okay?” Garrett asked me.

         “Yeah, I’m fine. Thanks,” I said to him. He smiled before we started up the stairs again. We went up one flight and started down a dark blue hallway. I could tell it was sound proof because the noise of the students wasn’t reverberating off the walls. Garrett opened the door to room 312 B and walked inside. He led me to the back of the room where I saw Pat. I waved at him and he got the attention of a guy sitting next to him who had dark golden blond hair and was about the same height as John.

         “Hi, I’m Max,” he said as we approached him.

         “Hey, I’m Avalon. But please, call me Ava,” I said to him.        

         “It’s nice to meet you Ava. Here you can have my chair,” Max said before he went to find another one. I sat in the chair Max had vacated as Garrett sat next to Pat.

         “So how was your first class?” Pat asked me.

         “Good, I guess,” I told him.

         “Mrs. Holloway,” Garrett yelled out across the room again.

         “Garrett, no,” I said as I clamped my hand over his mouth. The teacher looked around to see who said her name. I could tell Garrett was smiling from behind my hand. I pulled it away but too soon.

         “Mrs. H, we got a new kid,” Garrett yelled.

         “I’m going to hate you by the end of the day,” I told him. He smiled at me.

         “You can’t hate someone you just met,” he told me.

         “Mr. Nickelsen, don’t yell, it’s rude,” the teacher said.

         “May I?” Pat asked me. I nodded my head reluctantly.

         “Mrs. Holloway?” Pat said as he raised his hand.

         “Yes, Mr. Kirch?” Mrs. Holloway replied.

         “We have a new student I would like to introduce,” he said to her.

         “Go ahead, Pat.”

         “Everyone, this is Avalon Meyers. She just transferred in from Glendale,” he said. I waved a small wave before I sat back down.

         “Thank you Mr. Kirch. And Avalon, welcome to our school. Do you go by Avalon or something else?” Mrs. Holloway asked me.

         “I prefer Ava,” I told her.

         “I’ll make a note of that. Thank you. Alright, let’s get started,” she said before she started on with her lesson.

Before I knew it, it was time for one of my favorite electives, Art & Design. Pat, John, and Kennedy led me from Geometry to Art & Design. I was so excited as I was practically jumping up and down.

         “Chill,” John said to me jokingly. “I’ll go introduce her.” John led me to the front of the room and just introduced me to a vibrant young teacher named Miss Collins.

         “Well, Ava, I hope you enjoy the class,” she said to me.

         “Oh, I will,” I said before John pulled me away.

         “Do you like art or something?” he asked me as we walked towards the back of the room as usual.

         “I’m planning on majoring in Graphic Design when I start college,” I told him as I stepped around some bags on the floor.

         “Oh, how’d you get into that?” he asked me.

         “I designed shirts for my sister’s band, well her old band,” I told him.

         “Really? What band?” he asked me as he opened a locker. He placed my bag in the same locker as his things.

         “She was in a band called Anarbor. Not sure if you’ve heard of them,” I said. I figured he hadn’t.

         “No way. That’s awesome. Yeah, I actually do know who they are,” he told me. I smiled at him as we arrived to where we were sitting. I looked up and saw Kennedy, Pat, Garrett, Jared, and Max all sitting at the table. John pulled out a chair for me before he sat down. We sat and talked the whole period as I doodled in my notebook, making new designs for Slade, my best friend and lead singer/ bass player for Anarbor.

         “Wow, you’re good,” Kennedy said to me as he looked at my notebook.

         “Ah, thanks,” I said to him.

         “The bells going to ring in a minute,” he told me just before John handed me my bag.

         “Thanks John,” I said to him.

         “No problem,” he said to me with a smile.

The bell rang and we headed out to lunch. Pat linked my arm with his and jabbered the whole way to the lunchroom. We walked through the line and I followed them to a table.

         “Oh, shoot. We need another chair,” Pat said before he sat down his tray and grabbed a chair from a neighboring table. “Sit.”

I sat at the table as the other five guys made their way over. Garrett sat on my left side as Pat sat on my right.

         “Hey, guys?” I said as they all began to eat.

         “Yeah?” they said, looking over at me.

         “Thanks for welcoming me into your group. I figured I wouldn’t find any friends but instead I got a great group of six,” I said.        

         “Of course. So, if you don’t mind, tell us about yourself,” Pat said from beside me.

         “Well, I’m the same age as you guys and I lived with my sister Jess until yesterday. My mom was a single mom and she left me with Jess three years ago so she could move to New York. I moved in with my friend Mike and his family yesterday and then my boyfriend of two years broke up with me,” I told them.

         “That fucking sucks,” Pat spit out.

         “Mr. Kirch, watch the language,” Mr. Bryant said as he passed our table. All the guys laughed at Pat who sat there blushing.

         “So why’d you have to transfer?” Kennedy asked me.

         “Um, well I lived in the western part of Glendale and Mike lives in the far eastern part of Phoenix and his parents didn’t want me going to any of the Phoenix high schools. So they decided to enroll me here since it is only ten miles from their house,” I told them.

         “You said you live in the eastern part of Phoenix?” John asked me.

         “Yeah, why?” I replied.

         “Well, I live in the western part of Tempe and so does Jared. If you would like, you could car pool with us?” he offered.

         “That would be amazing. I actually kind of need a ride home since Mike can’t come and pick me up,” I said.

         “Yeah, that’s cool,” John said as Jared nodded his head in agreement.

         “Hey, could we come over to your house to see where you live?” Pat asked excitedly. Max smacked him and Pat just looked at him. “What?”

         “Dude, you don’t just invite yourself to someone’s house,” Max said to him. I laughed at them a little.

         “No, it’s alright. Mrs. Kitlas actually likes having people at the house. Pretty much the more the better,” I told them.

         “Cool, well Kenny can show you to my car after school then,” John said as the bell rang.

         “Okay,” I said as I grabbed my bag and went to dump my tray.