alcohol Blog and Journals

I woke up to a beeping noise.

"She's awake" I slowly opened my eyes to see Alex with tears in his eyes.

"A-Ale.."

"Noel, shh. don't talk you need to rest."

"What happened?"

"Don't worry we just want you to be ok. Please just rest for me"

After that I drifted into a deep sleep.

                              Alex's P.O.V.

I sat there and watched the person that I was falling for lay there in a hospital bed, feeling helpless.

"Noel just please stay awake. Please get a grip and get out your safe."

The doctor entered the room. "Sir are you part of her family?"

"Yes sir I'm her fiance."

"Her surgery went well, well she fainted and hit her head on the rock, it didn't do damage to her. She only had to get a few stitches. She's going to be a little sore, but that is  what her pain killers will be for."

"Ok. thank you so much. HOw is her mom?"

"That's another story. This morning she released and sent to a treatment facility for her alcohol and drugs problem. Turns out the reason  why she had passed out and wouldn't wake up was because she overdosed on cocaine. Does NOel have a place to stay?"

"Yes she will be staying with me."

"Ok, just sign the release papers ad when she feels good then yo guys can leave."

Wow how am I going to tell her about her mom? Why didn't she ever talk to me about it? She would've told me later probably we just started seeing eachother.

"Alex" she opened her eyes slightly.

"Yeah, Noel?"

"Can we leave. I hate hospitals."

"Ok let me go get a wheel chair for you. I don't want you to be walking or moving around."

In 20 minutes we were out and on our way to our place.

                                        Noel's P.O.V.

It was a silent car ride.

"So what happened?"

"Noel I'm not sure how to say or put this."

"Please Alex just tell me."

"Your mom is in rehab. and the reason the fire started was because whateer was cooking on the stove caught the curtain and it started a fire. Your mom supposedly overdosed on cocaine. They couldn't get her awake, but somehow a miracle happened once she woke up, they decided to release her and send her to treatment."

Tears slowly slid down my cheek.

I knew she had a drinking problem but now my mom was a cokehead.

I felt Alex's warm hand find my lifeless cold hand.

"Noel it's going to be fine. You're going to stay with me until everything is back to normal." He said with sincereity in his voice.

"It was never normal" I said flatly.

"The reason we moved here was to break away from me and my mom's old life. The reason I don't have or talk about my dad is because he left me and my mom to die of not having a way to support me and her. He molested me when I was 9 years old. I told my mom when I was 14. She didn't beleive me, but even if she did she couldn't leave him. He was our provider without him we wouldn't be able to survive. She had a little money saved up but not much." Now I was starting to really cry. I hadn't ever talked to anyone about that very day.

I continued "One day me and my mom went out for a girls day. We came home to an empty abandoned house. The only stuff that was in there was my things and her things. He left a note saying that he was gone and never coming back and that he sold the house and me and my mom had 2 weeks to gather up our things and get out. We were staying at random motels for a few months. Until my aunt offered to buy a house for us to stay in out here in Maryland. So we moved here and now I'm going through hell.....again."

"I know you've had many disappointments in your life Noel. This I promise you here I will not let you down I'm going to always be there for you no matter what. I promise."

"Alex that means alot to me thank you so much. So I'm staying with you?"

"Nope. Your staying at a hotel."

"Oh. kk." I said with sadness in my voice.

"Hey Noel I'm just kidding I would never make you stay at a hotel. Of course your staying with me." 

I looked at him and we stared at each other for a minute.

I started to realize that I'm falling in love with someone. For the first time.

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