Adam Siska Blog and Journals

And suddenly, a horrific cry rang out across the internet.  For, low and behold, William Beckett has spoken: Read more...

1 year later

(Will's Pov)

I was standing in a hospital room holding a beautiful baby girl.

"Let's name her Allison."  The woman in the hospital bed said.

I looked at her and the name Sara popped into my head.

"Yea,I like that.  Allie."  I said looking down at the baby.

She smiled.  I bounced the baby in my arms and then they disappear.  I woke up with a jolt and looked around.  I was in my house and my girlfriend Lisa was sleeping next to me in bed.  I got up and went to the bathroom.  I splashed my face with water and dried off with a towel.  I walked out of the bathroom and looked at the clock.  It was 5 in the morning. I got dress and went downstairs.  I walked out the door and started walking to Starbucks.  I got to Starbucks and walked inside.  I ordered my drink and paid for it.  I was living in Maryland and have been for awhile.  I don't remember anything only that Lisa saw me walking down the street late at night by myself and she helped me.  I went to the hospital and the doctor said I had amnesia.  He said it might go away or it could be permanent.  I been with Lisa ever since and I kinda wish I knew what my dreams meant. I had the same dream every night.  I held a beautiful baby girl and talked to a woman named Sara then I woke up.  I got my coffee and sat down at the table.  I took a drink and watched the people walk by the window.  I finished my coffee and left Starbucks.  I walked down the street heading towards a gas station.  I got there and walked in.  I went to the newspaper rack and got a newspaper.  I walked to the cashier and waited in line.  I looked around and my eyes landed on a magazine.  The headline read William Beckett missing leaving a wife and daughter behind.  I walked over to the magazine and picked it up.  I opened the magazine to the page that the headline told me and saw a picture of a woman with a little girl.  The woman was the same woman from my dreams and I didn't know about the little girl but she looked like me.  I looked at the names on the bottom and Sara and Allie Beckett were printed underneath the picture.  I read the article and apparently I went missing when the dam collapsed on me.  They thought I was trapped under the rumble but they never found my body.  I was from Chicago and I was truly missed by my friends and family.  I had to go to Chicago and get some answers even though the magazine gave me all the info I needed.  I was married and had a daughter who is now 5 years old.  I put my paper down and took the magazine to the cashier.  I paid for it and walked out of the gas station.  I walked back to my house and went inside to see Lisa coming down the stairs. 

"Hey babe." She said

"Don't hey me."  I said

She looked confused so I walked over to her and handed her the magazine.  She looked at it with wide eyes.  I walked up the stairs and went to my room.  I grabbed my suitcase out of my closet and put it on the bed.  I opened it up and started packing my stuff.  I was half way down when Lisa came into the room.

"Where do you think your going?"  She asked holding up a gun.

I looked at her.

"Home."

"You are home."

"No I am not.  I have a wife and a daughter in Chicago.  I am going to be with them since you kidnapped me."  I said

She pointed the gun at me.

"Your not going anywhere."  She said angrily.

"Oh yes I am and you can't stop me."  I said shutting my suitcase.

She pulled the trigger and it barely missed me.  I ran over to her and took the gun out of her hand.  I pointed it at her and went over to the house phone.  I picked it up and dialed 911.  I told them everything and they said they would send help.  I hung up the phone and looked at Lisa. She looked shock then the police came and took her away.

(Sara's Pov)

I walked into the house after I dropped Allie off at school.  I took my coat off and hung it on the hook.  It's been 1 year since Will went missing and the police still haven't found him.  I was hoping they would.

"Mommy."  Little Will said running to me.

I bend down and scooped him up.  I kissed his forehead and run my hand through his hair.  He looked exactly like Will.  He had the same face shape as Will as well as his eyes,nose,mouth and smiled.  Will was only a year old.  I found out I will pregnant about 3 weeks after Will disappeared.  I hugged him and put him down.  He ran to the living room and I followed him.  Adam was sitting on the couch watching tv.  I walked over to him and sat down.  Adam has been here for me ever since Will went missing actually all the guys were there for me.  They helped me cope with Will gone missing and they helped me with Allie and Willy.  There was a knock on the door and I got up.  I walked over to the door and opened it.  I looked at the guy standing there and was shock that he was here.  I ran into his arms and kissed him.  He wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed me back.  He ran his hand through my hair and I did the same. It felt good to be in his arms again.  He pulled away and tears were going down my face.

"I missed you so much."  I told him.

He smiled at me and wiped my tears.

"I missed you to Sara."  He said

"Sara,who is at...oh my god Will."  Adam said shock.

I laughed.  Adam ran over to him and hugged him.  We let William come inside and Little Will looked at him.  His eyes went wide and he stood up.  Willy knew who his daddy was cause I showed him pictures of Will.

"Daddy!!"  He said

He ran over to Will and Will picked him up.  We all sat down and Bill told us everything that happen over the year he was missing.  Apparently he had been living in Maryland with Lisa.  He said that he kept having dreams about me and Allie.  He said he remember everything after Lisa try to shoot him. 

"Where's Allie?"  He asked

"School."  I replied.

"Oh."  He said

I laughed and snuggled up to him.  He wrapped his arm around me and held a sleeping Willy in his other arm.

"So what's his name?"  Will asked

"His name is William Eugene Beckett Jr. So now your senior."  I said

He laughed.

"No I'm Bill." He said

"I know."

We all talked for awhile then it was time to get Allie.

"I'll pick her up for you."  Adam said

I nodded.  He got up and left the house.  Bill looked at me then smiled.  He grabbed my face and started kissing me again.  I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed back.  His hands started roaming around my body and I smiled.  Apparently his missed me a whole lot.  I pulled away and looked at him.  He still looked the same as the last time I saw him.  His hair was a little longer then last time but it looked better long anyways.  The front door opened and Allie ran inside.  She saw Will and smiled.

"Daddy!!!!!"  She said

She ran over to the couch and jumped on Will's lap.  He laughed and put his arms around her.  She hugged him and kissed him on the cheek.

"I missed you daddy."  She said

"I missed you too Allie."

She hugged him again and got off his lap.

"I made something for you."  She told him.

"You did?"

She nodded and went upstairs.  She drew him a picture and was waiting for him to come back so she could give it to him.  I didn't think he would come back but Allie was so sure he would and here he was.  He was with us and he was going to stay with us.  Allie came back with the picture and she handed it to him.  He looked at it then pick Allie up.  He sat her down on his lap.

"So who is this?"  He asked pointing to a person in the picture.

I looked over and the picture was of Will.  She drew it so the police would have a picture of him but they couldn't use it.  It was cute that she wanted to help find him.

"That's you daddy."  She said

She had drew a flower in the right bottom corner and wrote I love you Daddy at the top of his head.   She drew a sun in the left top corner of the picture. It was a cute picture of Will and she could kinda draw.  It wasn't a bad drawing and it actually looked like him.  I had a feeling she was going to be an artist when she grew up.  Willy came into the living room and climbed on Will's lap.  I smiled.  Our family was back together and no one was going to tear us apart.  I snuggle closer to Will and he smiled at me.  I smiled back.  This is where I wanted to be.  I wanted to be with my husband and our kids.

(Will's Pov)

We were driving around looking for Allie when Sara's phone started ringing.  She looked at her phone and told me it was Lisa her assistant.  I nodded and she answered the phone.  I looked at her ever once in a while and she was still talking on the phone then her eyes went wide.  Her hands started shaking and I grabbed her free hand and gently squeezed it.  She pulled the phone away from her ear and she hung up the phone.  She threw the phone in the backseat and screamed.

"What's the matter?"  I asked

"Drive to the Conowingo dam."  She said

I nodded. 

"Is that where Allie is?"  I asked

She looked at me and nodded.

"We better hurry."  She said

I stepped on the gas and went faster.  As I was driving Sara was telling me everything that she knew about what happen and was going on.  We got to the dam and we got out of the van. What I saw broke my heart Allie was sitting on the rocks next to the flood gates but she was tied up.  I far as I could tell she was.  I looked over at Sara and she had her hand up to her mouth.  I ran over to her and wrapped her in my arms.  I hugged her then I kissed her.

"Let's go get her."  I said

Sara nodded and pulled out her phone.

"What are you doing?"  I asked her

"Calling the cops."  She said

I nodded.  She told them everything then she hung up her phone.  I grabbed her hand and we started to ran over to the dam when Adam yelled my name. I turned around and saw the guys running over to us.

"How did you know where to find us?"  I asked

"We been following you."  Adam said

I nodded.

"We want to help."  Mike said

I looked at Sara and she nodded.

"Okay,here is what we do."  I said

I told them what to do and they spit up.  I grabbed Sara's hand and we ran over to the dam.  I turned Sara so she faced me.

"You go and get Allie then you run.  Don't look back and keep running don't stop for anything."  I told her.

If there was any chance of saving Allie then I was going to take that chance.  I looked at Sara who had tears in her eyes.  I wiped them away and kissed her.  She kissed back and we kissed for awhile then I pulled away.

"Will,I.."  She started to say but I interrupted her.

"I love you too.  Now go and get Allie."  I said

She nodded.  She kissed me once more then started walking down the stairs.  I turned my head and saw Mike standing there.  I ran over to him and started beating the hell out of him.

(Sara's Pov)

I got half way down the stairs when someone grabbed me by my hair and pulled me back.  They started to pulled me back up the stairs by my hair and I struggled.  I try scratching their hand with my nails but it didn't work.

"Let me go!"  I yelled.

I heard a girl laugh and I automatically knew who it was.  It was Katie.

"No, in about 5 minutes the flood gates will open and your daughter will drown."  She said

I don't know how I did it but I got free.  I turned around and started hitting her.  I kept on hitting her then I heard the alarm signaling that the flood gates were opening.  Katie laughed and I punch her.  She fell and was unconscious.  I smiled.

"Leave my family alone."  I said

I turned around and ran down the stairs.  I ran over the rocks to were Allie was.  She was under the water.  I drove under the water and saw her.  I grabbed her and I swim back up to shore.  I got on the rocks and carried Allie further up so that the water couldn't reach us.  I looked at her and she was tried up.  She had tape across her eyes and mouth.  I laid her down and she started screaming through the tape.

"Sh, It's okay.  It's me mommy."  I said soothly.

I took the tape off and started untying her.

"Mommy?"  She asked

"Yes baby. It's me."

I finished untying her then I took the tape off her eyes.  She blinked a few time then she jumped on me.  She hugged me tightly.

"I missed you mommy."  She said

I rubbed her back and hugged her back.  I kissed her forehead.

"I missed you too sweetie."

I got up and placed her on my hip. I walked back up the stairs and stepped over Katie.  I walked on the dam and looked over at Will who was finishing off Mike. He saw me and smiled.  I heard a gun shot then Will went down and then the dam collapsed.  Some of the dam landing on Will.

"Will!!!"  I screamed out.

Mike couldn't move cause a large piece of the dam was on his leg.  He smiled at me.  I felt a hand on my arm and it was pulling me away.  I turned around and saw Adam was pulling me over to the car.  I let him take me over to the ambulance that was standing by.  I felt the tears coming down my face.  William was dead and I didn't save him.  The paramedic wrapped me and Allie in a blanket.  They checked us over and said that we were fine.  I rubbed Allie's back and watched as the police took Mike and Katie away.  They put them in the back of their car and drove off.  A police man walked over to me.

"Hi Mrs.Beckett,can you tell me what happen?"

I told him everything and he wrote it down.

"You have to save my husband."  I said with tears going down my face.

"Ma'am we're moving the pieces right now." He said

I nodded.  He walked away.  I looked at the dam and didn't understand how it fell apart.  I watched as they lifted pieces of the rumble and threw it to the side.  Tears were streaming down my face and I held Allie tighter to me. 

"Can they leave?"  I heard someone asked

"Yes, they can."

I just kept watching the firefighters moving pieces of the dam and throwing them aside.  I felt a hand on my arm.

"Come on Sara."  Adam said

I shook my head no.  I was going to stay and see if they got Will out.  I wasn't ready to leave yet.  I wanted to stay until they got him out.

"Come on.  They will call you when they get William and besides you and Allie will freeze."  Adam said

I didn't realized until now that Adam was right.  I was shriving and Allie was asleep cause she was so cold.  Adam put his hand on my arm and started pulling me to the van.  I didn't fight him.  I just let him led me to the van.  I climbed inside and sat down in the backseat.  I held Allie not caring that she was supposed to be in a car seat.  I let the tears come down not bothering to wiped them away.

(Adam's Pov)

I started the van and started driving back to the hotel.  I looked in the rear view mirror to see Sara was holding Allie tightly against her and crying.  I couldn't even imagine what she was going through.  She lost the only person she ever loved.  Her and Will have been together for a long time and they were made for each other.  I watched as she started to fall asleep.  I looked at the clock and it was 8 o'clock at night.  Sara has been through a lot and I was glad that she was getting some sleep.

"I can't believe what happen."  Mike said

"Me either."  I said

"So what do we do now?"  Andy asked

"I don't know but we need to cancel the tour."  I said

"Already done."  Michael said

I nodded.  I pulled up at the hotel and we all got out of the van.  I walked over to the door.

"Hand me Allie."  I said

Mike handed Allie to me while he took Sara.  We walked into the hotel and went straight to Sara's room.  Mike handed me the keycard and I slide it in the slot.  I opened the door and walked inside.  I walked to the bedroom and sat Allie down on the bed.  I got her pajamas out of her bag.  I took her wet clothes off and I dried her off a bit then I put her pajamas on.  I threw her wet clothes on the floor and I picked her up.  I laid her down on the bed and tucked her in.

"Mommy."  She said tiredly.

"No,it's Adam."  I said

"Mommy."

She kept saying mommy so I picked her up and took her to the other bed where Sara was sleeping.  I laid Allie down next to her and tucked her in.

"Mr.Duckie."  She said

"Right here." Mike said placing it next to her.

I was glad that we had Allie with us and that she was safe and sound.  We walked out of the room quietly and I shut the door.

"Let's stay here for tonight then we go home in the morning."  Andy said

I turned around and looked at him.

"I agree but we have to convince Sara to go home through."  I said

Everyone nodded.

"Let's get our stuff."  Michael said

We all nodded.  We all left and got our stuff then came back to Sara's room.  We all put our stuff on the floor and we all found a place to sleep.  I got my sleeping bag and laid it on the floor.  I climbed inside and fell asleep.

(Will's Pov)

Anger was building up inside me.  Not one doctor has come out and told me about Sara.  I worried sick about her and I was worried about Allie too.  I wanted to know how Sara was doing and if she was okay but I couldn't get a freaking doctor to talk to me.  I looked around and everyone was here waiting for some information on Sara.  I got up and looked around.

"Bill,where are you going?"  Adam asked

I looked at him.

"I'm going to look for a damn doctor." I replied.

He nodded.  I started walking until I found a doctor.  I walked up to him and tap his shoulder.  He turned around.

"Can I help you?"  He asked

"Yes, I want to know how my wife is."  I said

"Name?"

"Sara Beckett."  I said

He nodded and turned around.  He pulled out a clipboard and he faced me.  He looked through the papers on the clipboard.  He kept flipping through the pages and it was driving me insane.

"Aw,yes."  He said

"What?"  I asked curious.

He looked at me and smiled.

"Your wife is fine and is breathing on her own now."  He said

"Can I see her?"

"Sure. Room 165."  He said

I nodded.  I thanked him and walked away.  I walked past the guys in the waiting room and went to her room.  I opened the door and walked in.  Sara was lying in bed sleeping peacefully.  I smiled and walked over to her.  I stroked her hair and kissed her forehead.  I looked at her and she had a purple bruise on her neck.  I lightly touched it and she moved.  I moved my hand and sat down in the chair next to her bed. 

(Sara's Pov)

I woke up to someone talking.  I opened my eyes and I was in the hospital.  I felt a hand in mine and I looked around.  I saw Will and he was talking to the police.  I remember what happen and I felt tears coming to my eyes.  My beautiful baby girl was gone and I was probably never going to see her again.  I wiped the tears away.

"Will."  I whispered.

My throat was sore and it kinda hurt to talk.  He turned around and stood up.  He kissed me and stoke my hair.

"Hey."  He said

"Hey."

He kept stroking my hair.

"Did you find Allie?"  I asked

He looked at me and shook his head.

"No,but the police are looking for her."  He said

I nodded.

"Can I have some water please?"  I asked

He nodded.  He poured me a cup and handed it to me.  I took a drink and shallow it.  It kinda hurt to shallow it.  I winced and put the cup down on the table.

"Throat hurt?"  Will asked

"Yea."

The doctor came in and check me out.

"Mrs.Beckett,you can go when ever your ready." He said

I nodded.  He unhooked the machines from me and walked out of the room.  I scooted to the side of the bed and slowly climbed off the bed.  Will held out his hands but I refused to take them.  I got down and Will pointed to a bag in the chair next to him.  I walked over to my bag and got some clothes.  I walked into the bathroom and changed.  I walked back out and walked over to my bag.  I got my brush and brushed my hair. I put my hair into a messy bun then I put my brush back in my bag.  I put my shoes on and zipped my bag shut.  I grabbed my bag and put it over my shoulder.

"Let's go so we can find Allie."  I said

Will nodded.  He got up and walked over to me.  He took my hand in his and we walked out of the hospital.  We got into a cab and went back to the hotel.  We got there and got out.  We walked inside still holding hands and we went to the elevator.  He pushed the up button and the door opened.  We walked inside and he pushed the button to our floor.  The door opened and we walked out.  We walked to our room the room where I last saw Allie.  The room I almost died in and the room were some psychos took my baby.  Will slid the keycard in the slot and opened the door.  We walked in and I walked to the bedroom.  As I walked into the room I step on something.  I looked down to see Allie's stuff duck.  She never went anywhere with out it and it was her favorite stuff animal.  I bent down and picked it up.  I threw my bag on the bed and held the duck close to my chest. Mr.Ducky is what Allie called him and it suited him.  The duck was yellow with a black suit and red tie.  He had a top hat that had a red rose sticking to the side.  Mr. Ducky had one eye missing cause Allie bit it off when she was 2.  I remember giving her this duck.

~Flashback~

I had already gave birth to her and was holding her in my arms.  I looked at Will and he was staring at Allie.  I looked at Allie and she opened her eyes.

"Aww,she opened her eyes."  Will said

I smiled.  She had Will's eyes and they were beautiful.

"Can you hand me her duck? It's in my bag."  I asked Will.

"Sure thing."

He walked over to my bag and pulled out the duck.  He walked over to me and handed me the duck. I started playing with Allie and she smiled.  I showed her the duck and made it give her a kiss.

"Can I hold her?"  Will asked

I nodded.  I handed Allie to him and he gently rocked her.  He smiled at her and started to walked over to the door.

"Where are you going?"  I asked him with a smile on my face.

He looked at me and smiled.

"I am going to show our bundle of joy to everyone out there in the waiting room."  He said proudly.

I laughed.

"They are going to be jealous of you."  I teased.

"Good.  I want them to be jealous."

I laughed.  He walked out the door and I fell asleep.

~End of Flashback~

I was pulled out of my thoughts by Will putting his arm around me.

"It will be okay."  He said

I nodded.  We got up and walked out the room.  We got to the lobby and walked out of the hotel.  We got into a car and started driving. I told him everything that happen.

(Will's Pov)

I watched as Sara tucked Allie into bed.  We just got back from eating dinner and Allie fell asleep on the way here.  Sara kissed Allie's forehead and walked out of the room.  She shut the door and I wrapped my arms around her.  She leaned into me and sighed.  We were now in Maryland.  I kissed Sara on the cheek and we walked over to the couch.  We sat down and Sara snuggled up to me.  I smiled and turned the tv on.  Our favorite show The Notebook was on and we watched it.  I was glad that she was here and that Allie was better. 

"Your really good with Allie."  I whispered in Sara's ear.

She turned towards me and smiled.

"Thanks."

"Your welcome."

I couldn't resist anymore.  She looked so pretty with the light from the tv glowing on her face.  I leaned my head down and kissed her.  She kissed back and pretty soon a make out session was starting.  Sara pulled away and she had a big smiled on her face.

"Allie."  Is all she had I to say to stop me for going any further.

We wouldn't want little Allie catching us.  I wouldn't even know what to say if she saw us making out.  I knew Sara wouldn't know either so it was best to stop making out if Allie was home.  After the movie we got our pajamas on then we crawled into bed.  I wrapped my arms around her and she snuggled closer to me.  I was glad that we worked things out and I missed the feeling of her body close to mine.  I missed holding her in my arms and I missed holding her in my arms while comforting her.  Everything was working out and that's how I wanted it.  I kissed Sara on the cheek and went to sleep.

(Sara's Pov)

I woke up to someone knocking on the door.  I looked at the clock and it was 11:30 in the morning.  I turned my head and Will wasn't in bed.  I rolled over and I saw a note on the nightstand.  Dear Sara, I'm sorry I wasn't there when you woke up but I had an interview I had to go to.  I forgot about it and I am sorry but when I get back me,you and Allie are going out.  So be ready.  I should be back at 12 in the afternoon. 

                                                                                       Love,

                                                                                     Will

I smiled to myself and threw the note away. I looked over at Allie and she was still asleep.  The knocking got louder so I got up and quietly walked out of the bedroom. I shut the door and went to the door that led inside.  I opened the door and immediately a plastic bag was over my head.  They tied the bag to my head.  I couldn't breath and I was struggling to breath.  I put my hands to the bag and tried to rip a hole in it so I could breath.

"Oh, no you don't Sara." A girl said

She grabbed my hands and tied them up.

"I'll go get Allie."  A guy said.

I recognized the guy's voice.  It was Mike and he found us.  I didn't know who the girl was but apparently she was working for Mike or with Mike. She threw me on the floor and grabbed me by the back of my hair.

"Sorry, I had to do this Sara but you understand. This is the only way I could get Will back.  Sorry you won't see your kid grow up but I will take good care of her." She said then let my hair go.  My face hit the floor.

I was angry and I was trying to untie my hands but it was no use. The girl laughed.  I heard a door opened.  I couldn't really see through the bag because everything was blurry.

"Mommy!!"  Allie said

I started to fight to get the ropes off of me but I couldn't get them off.

"Say bye to your daughter." Mike said

I toss and turned but the ropes was not loosening up.  They laughed and left.  I closed my eyes and tried to slow down my breathing.  I thought about mine and Will's wedding day.

~Flashback~

I walked down the aisle and my eyes locked on Will.  He looked so handsome in his tux.  His tux was black with a white shirt and a blue vest.  He smiled at me and I smiled back.  I looked at all the people that were standing up for me and my smiled got bigger.  I finally reached Will and he took my hand. We walked up the 3 little steps and looked into each others eyes.  He pulled my veil back so he could see my blue eyes.  The priest began then soon enough he sighted the vows.

"Do you William Eugene Beckett Jr. take Sara Nicole Lee to be your lawful wedded wife?"  He asked Will.

"I do."  He said

The priest asked me the same thing.

"I do."

"By the power invested in me and the stated of Chicago I pronounced you husband and wife.  You may kiss the bride."  He said

Will pulled me closer to me and kissed me.  I kissed him back.  We walked out of the church and got into the limo.  We got to the reception and we started dancing.  We cut the cake after a while.  After everything was done we got back to the limo and it drove us to the airport.

~End of Flashback~

My flashback was interrupted by Will calling my name.  I kept my eyes closed and I felt my head being lift then place down.

"Someone get the scissors!!"  He yelled

I kept my eyes closed and breath really slowly.  It was getting harder to breath now but I had to hang on. I needed to save Allie and I needed to be there for Will.

"I go see if Allie is here." I heard Mike say.

"Hang on Sara."  Will said

"Is she still alive?"  Adam said

"Barely."  Will said

I couldn't breath much longer and I could feel my eyes get heavy.  I tried to open my eyes but they wouldn't opened.  I heard Will curse and yelled for the scissors then call 911. I felt my body relax and it got harder to breath.

"Hang on Sara.  Help is coming."  Will said

(Will's Pov)

Sara's body went limp and she stopped breathing.  Andy came and gave me the scissors.  I cut the plastic tie that was around the bag.  I put the scissors down on the floor and I took the bag off of Sara's head.  I felt for a pulse and she didn't have one.  I laid her on the floor and started cpr.  I kept begging her to wake up.  I kept the cpr going and I kept checking for a pulse.  I finally felt a pulse but it was weak.  She needed to go to the hospital.  I held her in my arms and kiss the top of her head.  The paramedics arrived and they loaded her on a stretcher.  I watched as they put a tube down her throat and I followed them out the door.  I got in the ambulance and held her hand all the way there.  I told the paramedic what happen and he wrote it down.  We got there and I helped them unload her.  We rushed inside and the paramedic told the doctor what happen.  They rolled her into a room and made me go wait in the waiting room.  I didn't know what happen but I wanted to know.  I wanted to kill whoever did this to her.  I just hope she remember what happen.  I waited for hours and nobody was telling me anything.  I sighed and ran my hand through my hair. Sara and Allie were my life besides the band and I wouldn't know what to do if something happen to Allie and Sara.  The guys came and sat down next to me.

"We talked to the cops and they will find Allie for you."  Adam said

I looked at him confused.  I thought Allie was with them safe and sound.

"What?"  I asked.

He sighed.

"Allie wasn't there or anywhere in the hotel."  Mike said

I couldn't believe someone kidnapped my baby girl.  Mine little angel was missing and I didn't even notice that she wasn't there.  I should have made sure she was there but Sara needed me.   She would have died if I didn't help her.  I shouldn't be shooting myself for saving Sara before I looked for Allie should I? 

"I thought she was with one of you."  I said

Adam put a hand on my shoulder.

"It will be alright.  The police will find her."  He reassured me.

I nodded.  It was my fault that she got kidnapped and my fault that Sara ended up in the hospital.  I laid my head back and sighed.  I was going to save Allie when I found out that Sara was okay and after I see her.

(Adam's Pov)

We all were sitting on the couch on the bus. I could see or feel the tension that Will and Sara had created.  Sara had Allie on her lap and Allie was telling her about what happen the other day.  I could see that William didn't want her to know that Katie was around him and Allie but he couldn't stop Allie from talking.  Allie was moving her little arms when she talked and it was cute.  William always moved his arms when he talked so she took after him.  Allie looked just like him only she had Sara's eye and face shape.  I couldn't believe how much time has went by but time flies when your touring and or in Will's case taking care of a kid and a wife.  I guess him and Sara were having problems.  Hopefully they would work it out before something bad happen.  I'm not saying something bad will happen but they needed to work out their problems before they got worst.  All of a sudden Sara looked up.  She looked at me and smiled.  I smiled back at her.  She put Allie down and she ran to the back lounge.  Will got the paper off the table and started reading it.  Sara pulled her book out of her bag and started reading it.  They needed sometime alone so they could talk and I knew how to get them alone.  I leaned over and told Mike that we needed to take Allie somewhere so they could talk.  He agreed.  He told the other guys.  The bus stopped at the hotel and we all got our stuff.  We walked off the bus and checked into the hotel.  We got our room keys and put our stuff in our room.  I was in my room when there was a knock on my door.  I opened to see Andy,Mike,Michael standing there.  I let them in and we all sat down on the couch.

"So,Adam where do we take Allie?"  Mike asked

I haven't thought of it.

"I don't know.  Maybe the zoo?"

They all nodded.  We talked about it some more before we got up and walked out of my room.  We walked to Will's and Sara's room and knocked on the door.  Sara opened the door.

"Hey guys."  She said

"Hey."  We all said back.

We walked in and sat down on the couch.  Will was no where to be seen and Allie was playing with her duck on the floor.  Sara sat down and looked at us.

"So,what's up?"

I made a motion for Mike to take Allie somewhere and he got up.  He picked her up and took her into the bedroom.

"Sara,we know you and will are having problems.  You guys need to sort it out before it gets worst."  I said

She looked shock that we knew and tears started to come down her face.  She wiped them away.  I expected her to denied that her and Will were having problems but she surprised me.

"Thanks Adam, so were are you guys taking Allie?"

"The zoo."  Michael replied.

She nodded.

"Okay,let me get her ready."  She said

"Where is Will?"  I asked her.

She shrugged her shoulders.

"I don't know."

She got up and went to the bedroom.  Mike came out and walked over to us.

"So,are we taking her?"  I asked her.

We all nodded.  I pulled out my phone and dialed Will. The phone rung 4 time before he answered.

"Get your butt back to you hotel room."  I said

"Why?  Is there something wrong with Sara or Allie?" He asked worried.

I smiled.  They had a chance.  He stilled love her and Allie. Not that he wouldn't but I was glad to know that the damage hasn't gotten too bad.

"No, you and Sara need to talk and we are taking Allie for the day."  I said

"Okay. I be there in 5 minutes." He said

"Bye."

I hung my phone and put it back in my pocket.  Sara came out of the bedroom with Allie.  Allie had on some blue jean shorts,a pink shirt with a duck on it.  She had on her white Dora sandals and she had her sparkling Dora sunglasses on her face.  She had her duck in her hand.

"She's already."  Sara said

Allie walked over to me and I grabbed her hand.  We all said goodbye to Sara and we left.

(Sara's Pov)

I sat down on the couch.  The guys took Allie to the zoo so me and Will could talk.  I waited for Will and he finally showed up.  He took his sunglasses off and put them in his pocket.  He walked over to me and sat down.  He looked at me and I was waiting for him to talk.

"Where did they take Allie?"  He asked

"The zoo."

"So, I guess the talking starts now?"

I laughed.  We were bad about talking about our problems but I was wheeling to try if he was.  I sighed.

"I don't know what happen between us but I want to work it out and I guess the guys think we do need to work out our problems."

He nodded.

"Look Sara, I'll start.  I'm sorry.  I'm sorry for not being home more often and leaving you for months at a time.  I'm sorry that I didn't tell you about Katie hanging out with me and Allie the other day and I'm sorry you found out from Allie.  To be honest I am sorry about everything." He said then took a breath.

I nodded.

"I'm sorry for working all the time.  I'm sorry for not being there when Allie got sick. I'm sorry that you have to Allie all through your tour. I'm sorry that I am a bad mom."

"Your not a bad mom and I don't mind taking Allie with me.  She can come anytime she wants and to tell you the true I thought you wanted a break from her.  I guess you was scared to stay with Allie alone."

I never thought about that.  I guess I was scared of staying with her but Will left me with her all the time.  I guess I was just a little afraid.

"I never thought about that.  I guess I was but you left me with her lots of times."

He laughed.

"Yea but not for long periods of times plus you always got someone to babysit her so you wouldn't have to watch her." 

I nodded.

"That true but I want to change that."  I said

He nodded.

"I'll help you."

I nodded.  We talked some more and the tension between cleared.  Will wrapped his arms around me and kissed me.  I kissed him back and he ran his hand through my hair then down my back.  I wrapped my arms his neck and kissed him back.

(Will's Pov)

I woke up to a knocking on the door.  I got up out of bed and looked over at Sara who was asleep.  I was glad we work things out.  I walked out of the room and went to the door.  I opened the door and the guys were standing there.

"Hi daddy!"  Allie said hugging my leg.

I laughed and scooped her up.  I let the guys in and shut the door.  We walked over to the couch and sat down. I put Allie on my lap and she started to tell me all that she did.  She had a ball at the zoo and I was glad the guys took her out.  She needed to get somewhere and let out all that extra energy.  Allie got up and went into the bedroom.  I looked at the guys and they smiled at me.

"Did you work out your problems?"  Adam asked me.

"Yea."  I said smiling.

They looked at each other and gave each other knowing nods.  They turned back to me.

"Good."  Mike said

"Allie wasn't causing trouble was she?"  I asked

"No. She was very good."  Mike said

I nodded.  The bedroom door opened and Sara walked out with Allie on her hip.  She saw me and smiled.  I smiled at her and she walked over to the couch then sat down.  I wrapped my arm around her and kissed her cheek.

(Sara's pov)

"Mommy?"  I heard Allie said

I opened my eyes and saw that Allie was sitting up in bed.  I stood up slowly so I wouldn't wake up Will. I walked over to her bed and she jumped into my arms.  I caught her and she buried her head in my neck.

"Sweetie,you shouldn't jump.  Mommy wasn't ready to catch you."  I told her.

She took her head out of my neck and looked at me.

"Sorry.  I'm glad your here."  She said then kissed my cheek.

I smiled and ran my hand through her hair.

"Me too.  I missed you a whole bunch."  I told her.

I kissed her forehead and try to lay her back down but she wouldn't let go of my neck.

"Allie, you need to laid down."  I said

"Laid down with me please."  She said

I sighed and laid down on the bed.  I laid her beside me.

"Where's my duck?"  She asked

I looked around the room and I didn't see her duck anywhere.  It was probably on the bus so I pulled out my phone and texted Adam.  I told him when he comes here to bring it.  He told me he would.  I put my phone back in my pocket and Allie put her head on my chest.  I stoked her hair and her eyes started to close.

"Your duck is on the bus but Adam will bring it when he comes."  I told her.

She nodded.  I looked at the clock and it was 6:30 in the morning.  I stroke her hair until she fell asleep.  I pulled the blanket over us and I fell asleep.  I woke up to someone stoking my arm.  I opened my eyes and Allie was laying on my arm.  She had my hand in her arms and had it against her face.  I smiled.  I felt someone stroking my arm again and I turned over.  I about fell onto the floor but was caught before I hit the ground.  I looked up to see William and he was holding me bridal style.

"Sorry,are you okay?" He asked me.

I laughed a little.

"Yea,now that you caught me."   I said

He laughed.  He carried me over to the chair and sat down with me on his lap. He put one hand on my leg and the other around my waist so I wouldn't fall off.  I still had my arms wrapped around his neck.  I looked at him and he smiled at me.  He stroked my cheek.  I took my hair out of the ponytail then ruffled it.  I put my hair tie on my wrist and I put my arm back around his neck.  It felt good to be in his arms again and I was glad I got off work for a couple of weeks.  I was going to spend as much time as I could with them.  Will moved my hair behind my ears and I smiled.  I nuzzled my head into his neck and he stoked my arm.

"What happen to us?"  He asked me suddenly.

I raised my head and looked at him.

"What do you mean?"  I asked him.

He sighed and ran his hand through his hair.

I didn't know what he meant.  I thought we were fine but I guess we wasn't.

"You seem kinda distant lately and you never want to stay home with us anymore."  He said

"Are you telling me that I don't love you and Allie?"  I asked him.

I felt the tears and Will wiped them away.  I looked down at the floor and noticed that Will didn't have any shoes on. I wanted laugh but I didn't.  Will grabbed my chin and raised up so I looked at him.

"I'm not saying that.  I'm just saying that we used to be all over each other and you use to stay home all the time but you just stopped it all together.  I know you love me and Allie but we need you too."

He sighed.

"I guess.."  He stopped probably cause he didn't know what to say.

The tears rolled down my cheeks and I wiped them away.  He was right. I was kinda of neglecting them.  I didn't know what to say but I knew I want to work it out with him and with Allie.  They mean everything to me and I would do anything for them.  William wiped the tears off my face and kissed me.  I kissed him back and he started to stroke my arms.  We kissed for awhile then I remember Allie and I pulled away.  He looked confused.

"Allie."  I whispered.

He moved his head so he could see behind me.

"Still asleep."  He said

I nodded.

"I want to work it out with you and Allie."  I told him.

He nodded.

(Will's Pov)

I want to work it out with her and Allie too.  We been married for 7 years now and it seemed like our marriage was falling apart.  I guess it was partially my fault.  I should have stayed home more and helped Sara with Allie.  Sara got off me and headed towards the door.

"Where are you going?"  I asked her.

"To get some coffee.  Do you want one?"

I nodded.  She left and I looked at Allie.  She was still asleep and I was glad that she didn't see me and Sara making out.  I wouldn't know what to tell her if she saw us.  I sighed and Adam walked in the door with Allie's stuff duck.

"Hey."  I said

"Hey.  How is she?" He asked

"Fine."

He nodded.  He walked over to her bed and laid her duck next to her.  She turned around and opened her eyes a little.

"Mommy?"'

Adam laughed and looked at me.  I walked over to Allie.

"Mommy went to get something to drink."  I told her.

She nodded.  She grabbed her duck and held it tightly to  her.

"Thanks Uncle Adam."  She said

"Your welcome kiddo."

He turned around to looked at me.

"Does she get to leave today?"  He asked

"I think so."

"Good cause we got to go to Washington and we will be staying at a hotel for a couple of days." He said

I nodded.  I stoked Allie's hair and she smiled.  I smiled and kissed her forehead.

"Do you feel better?"  I asked her.

She nodded.

"Yea. Tummy hurts."

"I know it will for awhile but then you will be all better."  I said

She nodded.  The door opened and Sara walked in with our coffee.  She smiled at me and I smiled back.  She walked over to me and handed me my coffee.  I took a sip.

"Mommy."  Allie said

Sara smiled and broke our stare by looking at Allie.  She walked over to her.

"I'm here sweetie."  She said

I turned around and looked at them. Allie held her little arms out and Sara picked her up.  The door opened and the rest of the guys came in.  They all had something for Allie.  Mike had a stuff bear,Michael had a barbie doll with a toy car,Andy had a coloring book with crayons.  They walked over to Allie and handed her all the gifts they got her.  She thanked them and started coloring.  The door opened again a few minutes later and the doctor walked in.  He released Allie so everyone gather the stuff they brought and walked back to the bus with it.  Sara picked Allie up and we walked back to the bus.

 (Sara's Pov)

I grabbed my stuff and walked out of my office.  It was 8:00 in the evening and I was ready to go home and relax.  I got in my car and buckled up. I started the car and drove.  I was almost home when my phone started ringing.  I pulled it out of my pocket and saw that William was calling me.  I answered it.

"Hey babe."  I said

"Hey."

"What's up?"  I asked

I heard Allie in the background and wonder why she was still up?  They were in Cleveland which meant that it was 9:00 at night.

"Allie is sick."  He said

"What's wrong with her?"  I asked

"I don't know but she has a fever."

"Did you call a doctor?"  I asked him.

I pulled up to the house and shut the car off.  I unbuckled myself and grabbed my stuff.  I got out of the car and walked up the walkway.  I opened the door and walked in.  I put my purse and briefcase on the table.  I shut the door and locked it.  I walked into the living room and sat down on the couch.

"Yea."

"What did he say?"

"He hasn't arrived yet."  He said

"Oh, do you need me to come down there?"  I asked

"No,I got it under control."  He said

"Okay."   I said

"Don't worry she will be fine."  He assured me.

I laughed.

"I know."

"But if you want to come down here you can."  He said hopefully."

I thought about it and I could use sometime off.  I mean I haven't seen Allie in awhile.  They have been gone for a month now and it would be nice to my husband and my daughter.

"Okay Will, I'll be there first thing in the morning."

"Okay.  I see ya then."

I heard Allie coughed and William said something to her.

"She wants to talk to you."  He said

"Okay."

I heard him handing her the phone.

"Mommy?"  Allie said hoarsely.

"Hey sweetie."

I heard her cough again.  I wanted to her hold and comfort her but I was here and she was there.

"Mommy, are you coming to play?"  She asked

"Sweetie, you need to sleep."  I said

"Are you?"  She asked then coughed.

I sighed.

"Yea sweetie, I'm coming."  I said

"Yay." She said excitedly.

I heard Will tell her something.

"Mommy, daddy wants to talk to you."  She said

"Bye sweetie, put daddy on the phone."

"Bye mommy, love you."

"Love you too."

(William's Pov)

Allie handed me the phone while the doctor check her out.

"Hey."  I said

"Hey, is the doctor there yet?" She asked

"Yea.  She is checking her out." 

"Okay.  I am going to stay on the phone if that is okay?" 

The doctor turned around and faced me.

"Mr.Beckett, has your daughter eaten anything today?"

"She had waffles for breakfast, ice cream a couple hours after that and she didn't eat lunch or dinner cause she was sick then."  I said

She nodded.  She poke Allie's stomach and Allie started to cry.

"Does that hurt?"  The doctor asked her.

"Yea."  She said hoarsely.

The doctor faced me again.

"Mr.Beckett, can I talk to you for a minute?"  She asked

"Sure."

"Sara, I have to go.  The doctor wants to talk to me."  I said

She sighed.

"Okay but call me when you found out what is wrong with Allie."  She said

"I will. bye."

"Bye."

I hung up my phone and put it in my pocket.  I followed the doctor to the front lounge and sat down on the couch.  The doctor sat down next to me.

"Mr.Beckett, your daughter has Appendicitis."  She said

"What?"

"She needs to go to the hospital and have her appendix removed."  She said

I nodded.  I got up and ran into the back lounge.  I gently pick Allie up who was holding her stomach.  I took her out of the back lounge and ran out the bus door.  I ran to the car I rented and put Allie in the back seat.  I buckled her in and shut the back door.  I ran to my side of the car and started it.  I sped to the hospital and got out of the car.  I ran to the back and opened the door.  I unbuckled Allie and picked her up.  I ran inside the hospital.

"Help my daughter has appendicitis."  I said frantically.

A nurse came over with a gurney and I laid Allie on it.

"Sir, how do you know she has appendicitis?"  A nurse asked

"The doctor that I had called came over to the bus and told me."  I said

The nurse nodded and wrote it down on her clipboard.

"You need to feel out these forms."  She said handing me a clipboard.

I took it and filled it out.  I handed the clipbroad back to her and she left.  I walked into the waiting room and pulled out my phone.  I dial Sara's number and she answered on the 1st ring.

"What's wrong with her?"  She asked

"She has appendicitis."  I said

"What?!"  She asked shock.

"She's okay. I got her into the hospital so they can remove her appendix."  I said

"But she is only 4 Will."

"I know but she will be fine."  I assured her.

"I'm on my way.  I called the airlines and my flight leaves in a hour."  She said

I looked at the clock it was 10:00 at night so she will be here around 12 or 1.  I knew she was panicky and probably rushing around the house throwing things in her suitcase.

"Alright.  Do you want me to pick you up?"

"No. I'll take a cab."  She said

I told her the hospital I was at and she hung up.  I called Adam and told him everything.  He said he would bring Allie's duck with him when he comes tomorrow morning.  I hung up my phone and put it in my pocket.  The doctor came out and walked over to me.

"Mr.Beckett?"  He asked

"Yea."  I said standing up.

"Your right but it is rare in kids her age."  He said

I nodded. I really didn't want to be right but I guess that was good.  I ran my fingers through my hair and looked at the doctor.

"What now?"  I asked

"Well we have to do surgery and remove her appendix right away."  He said

I nodded and he handed me some papers.

"If you can fill those out then we can get started."  He said

I nodded and started filling out the paperwork.  When I finished I handed him the papers.

"Can I see her?"  I asked

He nodded and made a motion for me to follow him.

"You can follow us until we get to the surgery room then you have to go back to the waiting room."  He told me.

"Okay."

We got to Allie's room and the doctor opened the door.  We walked in and there was an iv in her arm.  I walked over to her and she was awake.  I stoker her hair.

"Daddy?"  She said

"Shh. It's okay daddy it here."  I said stroking her hair.

"Where's mommy?"

"Mommy is coming but now you have to sleep."  I said

The doctor grabbed the bed and started wheeling her out.  I grabbed Allie's hand and we rolled her out of her room.  I looked at Allie who was struggling to stay awake.

"Mommy."

"Mommy is not here."  I told her.

I walked with the doctor and nurse until they got to the surgery room.  I kissed Allie's forehead and let go of her hand.  I watched as they rolled her into the surgery room.

 (Sara's Pov)

I sat down at my desk and started reading the file that was sitting on it.  I had a child abuse case and it was a closed case.  The dad apparently had been hitting his kids and they were cover from head to toe in bruises.  There were witnesses that saw him hitting them.  I finished reading then put the file in my briefcase and headed out the door. 

"You have new messages."  Lisa my assistant said

I walked over to her desk and took my messages.  I read through them and one message in particular caught my eye.

Hello Sara.  Long time no see.  You locked me up and now its time to pay.  I have your daughter and husband and if you want to see them again you will do exactly what we say.   So sorry I didn't give you the message personally but you understand. 

                                                                                                               Mike

I couldn't believe it Mike Hawkins was back.  I thought I locked him up for good.  He was locked up for killing his family including his 5 kids.  The only one to survive was his 10 year old daughter and she testified against him.  How did he get out?

"Are you alright Sara?"  Lisa asked

I looked at her and smiled.

"Yea.  I'm fine."  I said

I walked out of the building and got into my car.  I started my car and drove off.  I drove to the venue that William was playing at.  I got there and shut the car off.  I unbuckled myself and got out the car.    I ran up to the building.

"Sorry miss you are not allow back here."  A security guard said

"Please I need to see my husband."  I said

"Ma'am if I had dollar for every girl that said that I would be vacationing in Hawaii."  He said

"My husband is William Beckett and if you don't let me in.  I'm afraid that he will have you fired for not letting his wife in to see him."  I threaten

He laughed.

"Ma'am go and buy a ticket like everyone else.  Your threats mean nothing to me."

I sighed.  I saw Adam walking behind him.

"Adam!"  I yelled

He turned around and saw me.  He ran over to me.

"Sara,What are you doing her?"  He asked

"I need to see Will and Allie but the guard won't let me in."

He looked at the guard.

"She is Will's wife so you can let her in."  He said

I looked at the guard and smiled.  He sighed then let me in.

"Thanks Adam."  I said

We walked over to the back stage area then we walked to  their dressing room.

"Why do you need to see them?  I thought you were working?"

"I was but I got a message and it said that they had him and Allie.  I just want to make sure that they are alright."

"You could have called him."

I laughed.  I never thought of that.

"I never thought of that."  I admitted embarrassed.

He laughed.  He opened the door and we walked in.

"Bill someone is here to see you and Allie!"  He yelled

Will and Allie came out of one the doors.

"Mommy!"  Allie said

I bend down and she ran into my arms.  I hugged her then stand up with her still in my arms.  Will came over and pecked me on the lips.

"Hi. What are you doing here?"

"Hi.  Allie go play with Uncle Adam while I talk to daddy."  I said

I put her down and she went over to Adam.

"Let's go outside."  I suggested.

He nodded.  He got his coat and put it on.  We walked out the venue and started walking.  I told him about the note and that Mike was out.  I told him everything.

"Sara you didn't need to come out here.  We are fine and there is security everywhere I doubt he could get us without being caught."  Will said

"I know but he could have snuck in."  I said

He laughed and pulled me closer to him.

"I doubt he could but I will have security around me and Allie at all times if that will make you feel better."  He said

I nodded.  I wanted them to be safe and I didn't want Mike hurting them.

"Have you called the police?"  He asked

"No."

"You should call them."  He said

I nodded. I pulled out my phone and called them.  I told them everything and they said they would have someone watch the house for me.  I thanked them and hung up the phone.

"Are you okay now?"  William asked

"Yea."

"Good.  Now you can watched us play."

I nodded and followed him backstage.  Allie was there with Adam so I stood next to her and watched William sing his heart out.  After the show William walked me back to my car.  I looked at my watch and it was 8:00 at night.  William gave me a goodbye kiss on the lips.  I gave Allie a kiss bye and got in my car.

(William's Pov)

I walked back to the bus with Allie.  I put Allie's pajamas on her then put her to bed.

"Will you sing to me daddy?"  She asked

"Yes but you will have to go to sleep."

She nodded.  I started singing His Girl Friday.  She fell asleep before I hit the chorus.  I tucked her in and made sure she had her stuff duck.  I left the bunk area and went to the front lounge where the guys were watching a movie.

"What are we watching?"

"Ghost Ship."  Mike said

I nodded.  I sat down on the couch and watched the movie.  After the movie I put on my pajamas then climbed into my bunk.  I fell asleep and woke to Allie screaming again.  I pulled back the curtain and saw a guy right in front of her bunk.  I got out of bed and grabbed the guy by the shoulders.

"What's going on?"  Adam asked

"Here take him and throw him off the bus."  I said pushing the guy toward Adam.

He nodded and grabbed the guy.  I pulled Allie out of her bunk and held her tightly against me.

"Are you alright."  I asked her.

"Yea."  She sniffed

"Come on let's go to bed."  I said

"Can I sleep with you?"

"Sure."

I grabbed her duck and we climbed into my bunk.  I pulled the covers over us and we fell asleep.

"I'll have a hot chocolate and a chocolate chip muffin please" I smiled at the waitress as I took my seat next to the window.

Outside was getting dark now, I could see groups of Panic fans walking past the café every so often. The show must be starting soon.

The waitress brought me my things and I paid her before relaxing back into my seat.

I took in my surroundings, breathing deeply smelling the freshly ground coffee, the freshly baked goods all on display. There was a big mug hanging from the middle of the ceiling which looked very artistic.

I dug my hands into my pockets as I left the café, and realised I hadn't grabbed my phone on my rush out of the bus. I walked fast, I wasn't one to dawdle down darkened streets on my own.

As I turned another corner I saw a figure ahead of me, before I could call to see who it was I heard a deafening noise and I blacked out.

I came to hearing the voice of someone I didn't know. I didn't open my eyes because the light was blinding me. I realised that my chest was burning me, it was hotter than burning, it was killing me.

"Miss, I need you to stay with me, do you know your name?" the unfamiliar man was leaned over me pressing into my burning chest

I opened my mouth to speak, but nothing came out

"It's okay, you've been shot, do you understand?" he asked, once again I couldn't speak so I squeezed the hand that was in mine

"okay good, we're on the way to the hospital, hang in there for me, okay?" this time I focused on him with all I could, he was a cute ginger man, roughly in his thirties, scraggy hair covering parts of his face, and a lot of stubble. When he smiled at me lines showing age crept up in the corners of his eyes and mouth. I couldn't stay awake much longer, I was too tired, I let my eyes close as I forgot about the burning.

"Good morning" a woman spoke as she walked into the room.

It wasn't familiar, all white and plain with monitors all around that I noticed were attached to me

"You had a lucky escape last night" she carried on when I only stared at her "How are you feeling this morning?"

"Like I was shot last night" I said trying to joke, but realising suddenly pain was in my chest now the burning was gone

She chuckled and moved around to pick up my wrist and looked at her watch; I knew she was taking my pulse even thought the monitor at the side of me was stating it quite clearly

"You're lucky we had the best surgeons on last night, you might have a nasty scar in a few weeks, but your alive and that's the main thing, right?" she smiled at me "Do you have a name, you had no ID on you"

"Cassie" I croaked

"Well Cassie, if you want to just rest for today, you can go home tomorrow" she smiled.

I closed my eyes, wondering why I was still so tired even though I slept all night.

"Cassie, time to wake up, you can go home today" The same nurse came in; I'd slept a whole 24 hours

I smiled politely to her after she had handed me a bag of medication and told me what I needed to do to make sure I was alright. I had to visit another doctor in a few weeks, and change the dressing on my chest every two days. I had been shot in the chest, just to the right narrowly missing my heart, the nurse was right. I was lucky.

The hospital called me a cab after I had been to the nearby bank to get out some money. I directed the driver to where I knew Panic and The Academy Is would be tonight; it was going to be their day off, and I realised that without knowing their numbers off by heart meeting them their was the only thing I could do.

I hugged the medication bag to my chest as I lent next to the bus waiting for someone to come let me in, I was still off balance and light headed. Butcher opened the door and rushed down to me hugging me a little too tight, I yelped as I felt a shock of pain

"Cassie! We've been worried sick, Mike thinks you left because of him, William didn't even do a good show last night because you weren't there"

"Can I just come inside?" I asked shivering even though the temperature wasn't cold

He walked in front of me to the main area where I could hear William shouting at Mike

None of them looked up as I walked in.

"Hey guys" I smiled

"Cassie!" William shouted the biggest smile I'd ever seen forming on his face as he came to tackle me in a hug, throwing us both onto the floor, this was a little too much movement

I screamed until he got off. He looked scared as he watched me. I smiled sheepishly back up at him.

"Bit too tight" his expression didn't change

"Look Cass, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to go off on one so bad. You didn't have to stay away for two nights" Mike started

"I didn't, mike, I went to a café and when I was walking back someone shot me" I said as-a-matter-of-fact lifting my t-shirt that a nurse had given me to show them all of the bandage.

"Fuck" Butcher whispered still behind me

"Well, yeah. But whatever, random shootings and what not. I'm fine, just don't hug me too hard, hurts y'know" I smiled sheepishly at all of the boys

"I am so sorry!" William said, looking close to tears

"What for?" I asked, confused now

"If I'd have followed you when I realised you weren't in the bunk you wouldn't have been on your own" he said in one breath.

"Might have still happened. Anyway, how was your show?" I asked

"Shit. Loved up boy over here didn't do a good set because he was worried about where you wer-"

"With good reason!" William cut Sisky off.

I sat talking about anything and everything trying to ignore that everyone was being way too careful around me

"Guys I'm sorry to be a party pooper, but I'm going to bed" I announced getting up and walking to my bunk once they'd all said goodnight, William came with me. I quickly changed into a pair of shorts and a tank top as William stripped down to his boxers.

I crawled over to the window side of the bunk after quickly taking my medication. I turned to face William as he wrapped his arms lightly around me

"I'm not going to break" I laughed

He held a little tighter and pulled me into his chest

"I didn't know what to do when you were gone, all sorts were running through my mind, I don't know what I would have done if you hadn't come back today, or soon" he said rushed

"William, it's okay, I'm fine, I tried to call you, but I forgot your number, and I left my phone on here" I mumbled keeping as close to him as I could

Without realising it, I began to cry

"What's wrong baby?" William asked kissing the top of my head

"I don't even know why I'm crying. I'm going to have a really ugly scar you know, right on my chest"

"I don't care. You're perfect, with or without a pretty scar" he chuckled.

A few minutes went past in silence

"William?" I whispered, aware that some of the other guys were getting in their bunks now

"Yeah?" he whispered back

I closed my eyes "I love you" I whispered, knowing that for the first time ever, I ment it. I was in love.

William lent back from me until I looked up at him "I love you too" he smiled leaning his head down so he was kissing me