I've come a long way from the swallowing of pills and drowning in booze
HI MY LOVELIES!!!!
okay i'm updating beacause i feel some form of pride
pride of my progress in drinking!!!
okay so its been about three weeks now
three weeks since i started cutting down on alcohol
its tuesday and i havent had a drink since sunday and wont be drinking again til friday!
though i do still drink on some weekdays i have cut down MAJORLY!
i havent been drinking every single day anymore which id fucking HUGE for me as some of my closest mates will know
thanks to jacque growling me about my drinking all the fucking time i've started to cut down
and its been three weeks without me falling off the waggon
yes it is happening slowly
but it sure as fuck is happening!!!
i've only had two glasses of jagermeister, four beers, and three coruba's tonight
which is really fucking good for me
now that i'm partially sober most of the time i would like to thank all my mates like aleena, jess, tegs, ylva, cassie, emmy, mary, and all the members of friends in need for helping me out; for yelling at me or at least asking me to cut down but always being there for me at the same time.
you guys have been the best through this period (like almost two whole years) of extreme alcoholism
it was your support and you guys telling me to cut this shit out that started me thinking on actually calming down a bit on the drinking.
though i still do wanna hit the bottle every time im hurt angry or upset, i now dont do it as much
my drinking has gone down from seven days a week to about four days a week.
i know three days of sobriety may not seem like much to you guys but it is a fucking shitload for me
i may have started smoking pot a lot more
but pot is way less harmful than alcohol
simply because alcohol is actually addictive
where as pot is only habitual and i can say no to pot if
a) i know i shouldnt
b) i dont want to or
c) its offered to me
unlike alcohol
i just thought i'd let you know how much i love and respect you guys for pushing me onto heading towards straightening my act out a little
jacque has helped a lot
but it's you girls i think of every time i know i shouldnt be drinking
and yes i did have a reason to drink tonight
so thank you girls because i know i'm happy with the progress i've made
i hope you guys are too
i love you all and hope to talk to you soon
much love
xO.ox
ari
im so proud of you bubba :D
just keep on cutting down and eventually you'll get there
i mean- fuck me, you dont need substance abuse to fucking live
you do it because its a form of escapism- instead of being an Alki XD i read, and ive been doing that ALOT since i was fucking 8 in the hospital and whatnot >.> not very healthy either
but its better than drugs and pills and alcohol, bubba pot might be easy to give up and whatnot but dont use it as an alternative or a subsitute to alcohol
-infact :) you are a mighty clever person when you are sober :) you are proper smart and intelligent woman :P YOU KNOW WHAT? i got ultra bored (and like the retarded stalker person i am) during some gay lesson i googled you and i dunno what came up- something like costing money to go to school? dunno, but you sounded Hella amazing and im so proud of you
and i will NEVER stop being proud of you- and im sure everyone else is proud of you, and i will love you as long as i live :)
you've come a hella long way and i'll support you all the way until you're done with giving the harmful shit remember :) i love you!
and i am coming out to Nz eventually :P
xxxx
I'm always here for ya hun.
Love you!!
i lover you so much my favourite sister. haha
MWAH!!!!
I've missed you so much!! *hugs & kisses*
i've missed you too!!! big hug and kiss
i had a dream about you the other day, you were ridding a horse in the middle of aotea square while i was hanging out with jimi jackoff and a few of my other mates it was weird cause then you took the horse in the elevator and went to see a movie
oooh and guess who else was there?