Apparently It's Not A Fashion Statement, It's A Death Wish!

Hello there.

 
This is my first ever bitch, rant, complain, rage about something going wrong, protest, criticize, grumble, whine, nitpick, nag, irritated, pissed off, insulted, offended, hurt, upset, ticked off, whine, whinge, sob story, distressed, hurt, disturbed, troubled, disappointed, damaged, concerned, bothered, worried, anxious, uncomfortable, apprehensive, disgusted(many more words), journal I’ve ever posted.

 
Most people that talk to me, know me or have heard of me, know how I feel about people who get on their journals and post a load of shit house problems they’ve stolen from someone else and claim as their own, just so that they can get a little bit of attention because the amount their getting just isn’t enough!

 
They know how much I hate liars!

They know how much I hate backstabbers!

They know how much I hate people who start fights and haven’t got the balls to stand up and take a fucking hit when they’ve said something wrong!

They know how much I hate people who tell you you’re wrong just because their too stuck up and one-sighted to see two points of view!

They know how much I hate LAME bitches who take cheap shots at young girls with serious problems! You may think you’re fucking tough but you’re just fucking pathetic!

 
They know how much I hate people who shoot their mouths off but haven’t got the balls to go through with what they say! You think it’s tough to threaten someone? To say you’ll, let me quote here:  “I wish i could just dump you on the street and wish for drugged up guy's to come stick you with STD filled needle's and to be bruitly rapped in a dirty allyway, why? Because you damn well deserve every last bit. I wish i could hold you down and slit every showing vein in your body, tearing every limb from it's joint, slicing your throat so deep you'll chock on your own cold blood, making you suffer from the hurt and pain, too toy with your emotion's as i dig deeper into your rib cage, slowly ripping each one from your body, leaving your chest wide open, over filling with blood, oh! and i'd love to drill that sweet, shinny blade right through your fucking heart. and watch you die, oh so slowly. I'll be enjoying every bit, you fucking slut!”

 
You think it’s fucking heroic to wish rape on a young girl!?! You’re a dirty fucking scrag and I can’t believe you would say something like that to ANYONE no matter how much you hate them! No matter how much you’re angry with someone, no woman should ever, and I mean fucking EVER wish such a horrible thing on another woman!

 
Have you ever been raped?

Do you fucking know what its like!?!

I do! And it’s not something I’d ever “wish” on someone, no matter how much they’ve disgusted me!

You’re not tough you stupid little bitch, you’re pathetic!

Some people may read this and think I’m over reacting, but open your eyes and look at the bigger picture, if someone’s big enough to wish such a disgusting thing on to someone that doesn’t deserve shit then I think they can handle some fucking words from me!

 
I’m so sick of the shit that some of you kids come up with!

You’re fucking 16 for crying out loud! You’ve lived(hardly!) a sheltered life, you don’t know shit about anything and you sure as hell don’t have the “god power” to demean, disgrace, humiliate and degrade someone in this manner.

 
I’m not saying your name because I’m not that fucking low, but I hope to god you read this because maybe then you’ll shut the hell up, sit down and look at your self before you tell someone else their, and I quote again:  “Your a pissy fuckhead, you need to get over your stupid lifestyle and relise not everything goes your way. Your quite pathetic, and i can't understand how anyone could possiably like you. Your a drama queen and it's very sad, you need to honestly get your head out from up your up-tight ass, and take a look at yourself. Your not all that, and you will never be. Bassically your a mistake waiting too happen, and i feel sorry for those around you. I wouldn't be able to stand, and honestly be quite ashamed to even call you my daughter. Your not a good friend, girlfriend, bestfriend, love, person. Your horibble, you have no self respect, yet you well expect it from other's. The world isn't your's, and you need to get over your stupid problem's. If you havern't noticed yet, It's not just all about you. Your not the only one with these so called "problems" which mean shit, compered to what half the people in this world go through, yet you expect so much sympathy for the stupidist thing's. I can't even explain how much HATE i have for you. Your a stupid little girl, who can't handle shit, and expect other's to pick up your peice's, and come to your every word. Your a lose teenager, who can't control her mood swing's, and stupid deppeseve lie's.”

 
Take note, you spelt so many things wrong in there sweat heart! When you’re trying to play keyboard mafia, at least remember to spell correctly. The italics are not me, their someone who I won’t name because I’m not that immature!

 
Frankly you disgust me!

What the hell is wrong with you?

Everything you said is a LIE!

She’s not a pissy fuck head!

She’s not living a stupid lifestyle! It’s called karma, you are what you’re made to be!

She doesn’t think everything goes her way! But gosh, if anyone knew what it was like to have everything, a spoiled little rich girl like you would!

She’s not pathetic! But hell, pathetic knows pathetic right? And you’re the most pathetic bitch I know!

You wouldn’t understand how people could like her because you’re to insecure about not being showered with EVERYTHING that you never stop to see the real her!

She’s not a drama queen! She reads the cards she’s dealt instead of complaining about the same thing everyday and expecting a different response! Take a look at your self!

 
“You need to honestly get your head out from up your up-tight ass, and take a look at yourself” HAHAHA isn’t it funny that, that’s exactly what you should be doing and not her? Her heads firmly on her shoulders! Where as yours is not! Grow Up!

 
“Your not all that, and you will never be” Yes she is, and forever will be! And by you being all “GO DIE!” you’ve just proved she’s better then you!

 
“Bassically your a mistake waiting too happen, and i feel sorry for those around you” You can’t call someone a mistake waiting to happen when you’ve already failed at holding a great friendship. Look who’s a mistake waiting to happen now! Feel sorry for the people around her? I feel sorry for you! You really need some friends!

 
“I wouldn't be able to stand, and honestly be quite ashamed to even call you my daughter.” Well let’s hope you never have children because you’d be the type of mother who would make her child commit suicide! Stop being such a Prima Donna!

 
“Your not a good friend,” She’s a good person and that makes her a GREAT friend!

 
“Girlfriend,” Where does this fly from? Are you jealous because she has a love you’ll never be able to have because you’re to self absorbed?

 
“Best friend,” She’s my best friend and I can honestly say I’d be dead if it wasn’t for her. You’re an idiot!

 
“Love,” And you’re wrong again! She’s got the biggest heart I’ve ever seen! She’s got so much love! And it’s all for one man! One thing you’ll never have!

 
“Person” She’s the greatest person I know!

 
“Your horibble, you have no self respect, yet you well expect it from other's.” How can you get self respect from someone else? Are you insane?!? It’s because of people like you that she’s so messed up! Fuck you make me want to kick you!

 
“The world isn't your's, and you need to get over your stupid problem's.” Funny, I never heard about the world being your’s either, yet you act like it is! And her problems aren’t stupid! If you think her’s are, then you think mine are and then we have some real problems! Don’t call problems you’ve never had stupid or petty because not everyone has everything like you!

 
“You expect so much sympathy for the stupidist thing's.” Let me recall a time when you constantly bitched and complained about how “fat” you were but never got off your ass to do anything about it! You ALWAYS bitched about it, knowing you’d get sympathy and attention! So think about it, a problem you can easily fix like that, or an actual family problem that causes a lot of stress and depression. Tell me, bitch, which ones fucking stupid now?!

 
“Your a stupid little girl, who can't handle shit, and expect other's to pick up your peice's, and come to your every word.” She’s never once asked me to pick up her pieces. It’s called friendship! A REAL friend is there to do it with out her even having to ask! Maybe you’re confusing her with your little red head fuck buddy. She’s not a stupid little girl! She’s an amazing young woman! Little defines height and size, which really, if anyone’s little it’s you! If she couldn’t handle it, she’d be dead by now so shut the hell up!

 
“Your a lose teenager, who can't control her mood swing's.” Name one woman who can control their mood swings? Come on, impress me you idiot! Unless she’s a robot with no emotion from another planet, then there isn’t a single woman I know who can control her mood swings when she gets into one. And that just proves you’re a bigger idiot then I originally thought, and I always did, right from the start.

 
“And stupid deppeseve lie's.” This coming from you. Not a single thing you said was truth! Pull your head in and crawl back under your rock!

 
People wonder why I hate society. It’s girls like this that make me hate them all.

If you want to threaten someone close to me, have the guts and fucking do it! Then expect me on your fucking door step wanting answers. And dear girly, you know I fucking mean what I say! You’ve seen how horrible I can really be! You play with fire you’ll get burnt!

 
I really do hate the attitude problems some of these teenies have these days. It makes me want to throw up!

It’s always:  

“Z0mG I:m 50o0ooo00000 muCh b3tT3r tH3n Y0u! Z0mG Lyk3 K!LL y0ur53lF!! mY Bl33d!ng BlaKc H3aRt i5 iN 50o0o0o0o0o mUcH m0r3 aG0nY tH3n Y0ur5!!!”

 
Serious, shut up and read what you’re writing!

 
To my dearest Topaz,

Honey I know a lot of what I’ve just said might hurt you. But I felt this needed to be said. I’m sick of what this bitch is doing to you!

You don’t deserve any of the horrible shit she’s said to you!

You’re an amazing person!

You’re my best friend and I know I’d be six feet under if it wasn’t for you.

I know you didn’t want me to start anything. So I thought an “angry” journal was in the mix. It’s indirect but it gets the point across.

And the point is:  “She’s a fucking angry spoiled hobbit who can’t just shut up and get over herself, she’s a scrag, a backstabber, a liar and a dirty mole all wrapped in a tiny pocket sized girl!”

I’ll always love you Topaz!

I’m always going to be there for you and will never turn you away….Unless I’m sleeping and you wake me up, then we got beef!

Joking.

I love you so much and only wish I could hug you, but I can’t so I’ll give you my cold over the net.

Virtual cold! *sneezes and coughs onto a floppy disk and shoves it in the computer*

Hope you enjoy. *giggles*

You’re my world baby doll, and I’ll never let them hurt you.

I mean this, forever!

We’ll get our men!

Best Friends Forever and Always!

 

End of my massive rant.

Comments and thoughts would very much be appreciated.

Love Jess!

<3