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isayweriott: 04/04/2008 12:22 PM
first of all, here is this guy (of course.) that i like. he's got the most amazing hair in the universe, but that's not why i like him. actually, i dont even know why i like him because...i've never talked to him before. we have one class together. ONE CLASS. but i see him everywhere with his girlfriend and it kills me everytime. i've developed a new hate for some girl that i've never even talked to once in my life. all because of this guy. i freak out when i see him...i don't eat lunch because i can't keep it down because whenever i see him i feel like throwing up. my friend recently saw him at taco bell and she called me and i had a freak out session on the phone with my best friend about it. she said i was freaking her out. i kept laughing like an insane phycho freak whenever we started talking about him and i yelled about the dumbest things. i was scaring myself. every song on my ipod makes me think of him because my twisted mind finds some way to make one word, two words, the chorus relate to him and my feelings. when i look at him i freak out because hes usually looking back. so my friends locker is by his, right? i always go there just so i can look at him from the corner of my eye. once my friends told me that while he was hugging his girlfriend, he was watching me. ME!! and i FLIPPED. if that doesnt make you think that i am a huge freak, then i dont know WHAT will. on top of dealing with all of that, i am in all this other drama...the new girl at school is a lesbian and i have to commit my time to standing up for her and making sure that people don't eat her alive while dealing with this other girl who hates me for standing up for the new girl while dealing with my other friend who i suspect as somewhat of a liar and is changing her image because she wants to be friends with this other girl who probobaly woudlnt care what she wore...while dealing with my friends talking behind my back and calling me "punk" or whatever the fuck they say...while also dealing with these two freaks that are mad at me..one because he thinks i was talking shit about him and the other bceause i "broke his heart"...WHILE TRYING TO GET AT LEAST ONE DECENT GRADE ON A MATH TEST SO I CAN GET A C FOR THE FOURTH QUARTER, WHICH WOULD BE MY FIRST C OF THE WHOLE FUCKING YEAR.
its all too much for me to handle. i dont know how to deal with this stress.
the kid that thinks i was talking about him keeps bugging me. he calls me worthess, emo, freak, punk, a cutter....etc. i'm sick of it. i'm sick of every single thing that comes out of his mouth because its always negative. each word kills me. it really does. i was sad about it but now the next time he says something i am going to lash out. all my anger is going to go out on this one kid who took it too far.
i know thats a lot up there. thanks if you got alll the way down here. i just need to know how to deal with all of this without getting myself into trouble. i want to do things to that kid that would probably get me a decent two weeks of suspension. i'm sick of the drama, the heartbreak i feel every day of my life, and being blamed for things i didnt do...getting called names...EVERYTHING.
help.
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len0re: 04/06/2008 3:46 PM first of all, wow!
about that sick kid, I would recomend you to talk to him alone. the next time he tells you something nasty, CALMLY!! ask him if you can talk to him in private and tell him that you are not telling aything about him, you never did and you probavly never would (maybe add that you would never do anything like that because that's just no your style)
about the other guy, the amazing hair one, maybe it's just a HUGE CRUSH, try to be like friendly to him and if something happens then great. but please try to control yourself, I know it's really difficult, but keep your head cool (think of poker, how you must not show emotions in order to be a good player) show yourself interested in him but be careful with his girlfriend! (thegirlfriends can really be bitches if they feel you are interfeering)
well, I have nothing left to say, so bye and best of lucks!!
oh! and most important, "be yourself, no matter what they say. ooohh oohh, I'm an alien..." don't act as somebody else, if he's going to like you, show yourself as you are to him, trying to be someone else doesn't work out (most times lol)
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isayweriott: 04/10/2008 3:46 PM thank you. you two are rad.
the kid stopped talking about me because my best friend told him that he better shut the fuck up or i would beat him up. hahaha. we were forced to do a lab together in science, and we made up. hes still a little bitter towards me but its better than what it was before.
im going through the same thing with a crush on a dude ive NEVER talked to. the best thing to do is find some dirt on him that turns him off to u. thats what i did.
best idea ever. except this kid is perfect. hes nice to everyone, even the dorks, and hes crazy popular. and hes hot. i will just have to dig deep, i guess. |
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rlmheartsfob: 04/12/2008 11:18 AM Well....
For one thing...you're not a freak for freaking out about that guy. I really do know how you feel.
I had the most insane feelings for this one guy, but that's another story.
And with your friends who talk behind your back, I think, if you have enough courage, confront them about it and make sure they really are and tell them your feelings about it. And anyways...Friends don't talk bad trash about friends behind their backs. That's just not cool.
Mad props for sticking up for the new girl, except she'll have to go on her own some time and speak up. Some one standing up for her is just going to make her look not very confident in her self to the bullies. And if it has been going on for a while, talk to an administrator or a teacher about it. You could get in trouble for half way condoneing it. At least that is how it is at mine. lol
So this guy who makes fun of you...seems like a real jerk. I'd have already punched or shoved him by now, but that's me sometimes. But DON'T HIT HIM. Try to control yourself. If someone that called me names and what started to try to push me around, I'd most likely punch him. But don't. I'm not trying to provoke violence or anything because there are more peaceful ways to settle that. Like I said for the new girl... go to an administrater or a teacher and report it.
Hope I helped. =D
Good Luck.
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isayweriott: 04/16/2008 11:47 AM THANK YOU.
i love you.!
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rlmheartsfob: 04/18/2008 7:46 PM Word. lol
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infamousxlastxwords: 05/31/2008 10:52 AM im going through the exact same thing. except the guy i like doesnt talk shit about me. he feels SORRY for me.
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x0kimispunk0x: 09/16/2008 5:03 PM Hah I'm going to try to help you with this, because I went through a lot of this kinda stuff! I've liked, even obsessed, over so many guys I have hardly ever talked to, and who aren't available or anything. I just let it pass. You may think he is amazing, but eventually you'll stop thinking about him so much. Or maybe something will end up happening between you two. Just DONT get between him and his girl, that will just cause waaay to much drama. Eventually everything will work out. Try to meet other more available guys and try focusing on them instead of this unatainable guy.
Now about the name calling, I've been going through that for the past year, and I've learned to just ignore it. I've been called everything from emo to a whore. I know its hard, but you need to realize that these people who call you names and who make fun of you or talk behind your back just aren't worth it. They obviously have nothing better to do then make fun of other people. Try to ignore them, and remember that it doesn't matter what they think about you, it matters what YOU think about yourself. Be your own person, no matter what.
About the lesbian, eventhough what your doing is absolutely GREAT and I love you for standing up for her, you need to find a way to not spend so much of your time on her. You need to be able to focus on schoolwork to. Last year I had so much stuff going on, and I didn't pay attention to my algebra 1 honors class, and I ended up failing my final. You do NOT want that to happen! So try putting most of your focus in homework, but of course you need to leave some time for you're friends and social life.
Just try to forget all the shit that is going on, and focus on making things better one step at a time. I know its hard but you can do it (:
Much love,
Kimmi
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