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heheh I guess the title said it all.. also, I just wanted to mention that I probably wouldn't have posted this if it weren't for youaretheonly and +revolution*star+ , so thank you guys for encouraging me and sticking to this story!! This chapter is for youuu :-) hahah thanks for reading as always guys and sorry again for the long wait. okay, here we go. _________ 24.   “I’m not the one asking questions about drugs like a lunatic. You get him to back off.” He demanded. “What makes you think I can do that? I haven’t known him for that long so why would he listen to me? Like I said before, he’s not my boyfriend or my anything for that matter, so I’m afraid I can’t help you. And even if I could, I would never do anything to your favor.” I wanted nothing more than to leave this car and never speak to him again, but when he brought Josh up, it was like I was glued to the seat. Still, I held the car door open. “You think I would believe that you have no influence on him? He's in our circle of friends now.” He smiled and I looked at him with despise. “You and I are not friends.” I stated through clenched teeth. “Even so, you two are. Otherwise he wouldn’t keep looking out for you. You know you can convince him. After all, friends protect friends right? I guess the real question is, will you?” -- I heard the wheels scratch against the pavement as I was making my way up to my front porch. The car ride with Pete gave me unexpected and totally mixed feelings. I wasn’t sure whether or not to take him seriously. I mean, could he really mean all the things he said? Like, Pete…would he really hurt someone? Okay, I knew he was a total jerk and not sorry at all about anything, but this was just too much. How far could he go? Then again, I never really knew him maybe. Last summer when we all hung out, he seemed nice. He was nice. Like I said, I never saw the signs. Until now. Except now it was too late. I couldn’t go back in time, back to the night at the club, back to the beginning of summer and tell myself to not trust him.. Like things weren’t messy enough, he just had to bring Josh into the mix of it all too.. like I hadn’t enough of trouble to worry about. Wait, was I worried about Josh? Why? He could probably handle himself, right? Still, if Pete really meant what he said then, I couldn’t just ignore it and let him go after Josh. After the beach-day I had decided to never have him fight with Pete again, or to just prevent anything like that to ever happen, especially because of me. Even though he himself had contacted Pete for some yet unknown reason.. Like I wasn’t tired of trying to figure things out, I still had to face John and grandma at home. Gosh there were so many things going on, I felt like my head was about to shut down due to an overload of thoughts and events, problems, solutions and mysteries. Okay, so, small steps, take one thing at a time. I tried to breathe out. My feet walked slowly, and even though I wanted to get inside, my body felt too heavy for me to move somehow. It was impossible to ignore Pete in order to focus on my mom. But I had to. At least now. If I knew where Cynthia was, maybe I could take off and never bother Josh or have Pete bothering me again… With me out of the picture, I’d doubt Pete go after Josh. That way, everyone would be satisfied and I would finally find Cynthia! Another face flew at me first though, as I had managed to walk to the porch, and I stopped suddenly, surprised. “Hayley!! What the hell?? What is going on?” Laura’s squeaky voice reached my ears as she stood up. Her dark-brown hair was just long enough to reach her shoulders as she was wearing a dotted hairband along with a thin, pink tank top and jeans shorts. I met her worrying gaze and saw her waving in front of me. Right..forgot about Laura. I hoped she wasn’t too angry with me for hanging up on her. Though, the chances for that were very minimal. I tried to sooth my voice as much as possible. “Laura..hey, what are you doing here?” She walked away from the porch she had been sitting on and down the stairs, past me. Then she swung around so quickly, I didn’t even have time to take a step myself to follow her. “Uhm, hello! I called you and then you hang up on me for no one else but Pete. I don’t even understand why you bother to do so much as glance at him after what he did. I mean he drugged you! And when someone drugs you, I think that is a sign, a very big, warning sign, to stay away from that person. He’s danger! And you go after him!? Seriously, you’re like a… danger-magnet.” She stated with a tone that was quite harsh and I couldn’t help but to feel aggravated and stupid at the same time. Danger-magnet. Couldn’t have said it better myself huh. “Well, if I am, then you should probably stay away from me.” I said, sounding as harsh as her. Maybe she was right. All I ever did was get into trouble and now, I was pulling Josh down with me too. All this time.. I’ve done nothing but dragging him down with me. The party, the club, the fight… I needed to put an end to it. For good. Then it hit me. I think I finally figured it out. That was what he meant when he said “you don’t think how this affects anyone else but you.” I blinked and turned around. “Wait, Hay. I didn’t it mean it like that, okay? I was just worried. I mean, I still feel guilty after what I did to you and I don’t really want to bring it up, but... I don’t get it. What did Pete say or do to make you talk to him?” I thought about it for a while. I didn’t want to say anything but I knew Laura was not the type to give up. “It was just a stupid meeting, really.”  I said reluctantly. “Not stupid enough to make you keep talking to me. Come on, Hay, there must be something else.” She continued. I turned around and looked at her unwillingly. “He had information..about Josh.” “Josh?” And then I just started to blurt stuff out. “Yes. And now everything is even more messed up. I’m not even supposed to be standing here, talking to you, I’m supposed to be grounded and I need to stay away from Pete and I need to convince Josh to stay away from him too and it’s all just such a mess and you know what, I never should have gone out on that walk with Lily in the first place! And I shouldn’t have gone to Josh because I ran in to Pete and now they think I’ve escaped and I need to confront John to find out where Cynthia is and ugh you see how twisted all of this is?!” I breathed after saying it in all one breath. Wow. It was even messier hearing all of it. Laura looked at me with big eyes and I realized I was taking deep breaths, while panting around. “Wow. That is a lot going on there for you.. I’ve never seen you so freaked-out before.” She said. She came closer and put a hand on my arm. “Hey, do you want to talk about it? I had no idea John knew where your mom was.” I remembered our early days, when we skipped all of this. I never told her about how I really felt about Cynthia leaving. But.. after all that’s happened, we had gotten closer somehow and I was actually glad to have Laura by my side. “Yeah it’s just.. I overheard him talking with Lily in his office one day. Turns out he’s been hiding it all along. I just need to know where she is. To get some answers maybe. I mean, all of it leads to where I am now. It led me to the mental hospital. I don’t think I can let it go until I see her.” “Yes, of course. I’m sorry, Hayley. I never realized you felt like that. I just assumed everything was fine.” “Well, so did I. I guess.” “Okay, well you need to talk to him then. Call me when it’s over and please, take it easy. Focus on your mom. I’ll handle Pete.” She said with a smug tone. “Excuse me? You will do no such thing.” I replied, looking at her seriously. Laura rolled her eyes. “Fine, we will handle him later..” She added much more sourly. But she didn’t get it. “No, not we, I will deal with him. On my own.” “Oh gosh, Hayley. Are you serious? Come on!” “You don’t even know what’s going on!” I ranted, almost as loud as her. “Well, no not all of it, it was kinda hard to follow you in between there..but if you tell me the rest I can start up a plan.” She said, suddenly eager to begin. I couldn’t help but to smile just the tiniest. Not because I had missed her so called plans, which always got us in trouble, but bringing that up brought old times back and even though her plans were funny sometimes, I had to stick to my original plan for once. I tried to go back to normal face.  “No no, not one of your plans, not this time. It’s just for the best that you stay out of this, okay?” I looked at her and shook my head. She seemed to get even more frustrated. “Look, it’s time I started dealing with things on my own and not getting EVERYONE involved. It’s my mess, so I need to get it together.” “And by everyone, you mean Josh?” She said, tilting her head and looking at me from her side. “No.” I said, obviously. “And how come you always have to bring him up?” I asked, annoyed. “You do.” She said after a while, starting to nod her head and smile somehow. “So what? You’re included too. I’m not dragging someone down with me again. And what is this, a police interrogation?” I said, knowing she’d know what I mean. “Hey, do not mock me for that! I am not acting like a police investigator, although, CSI is awesome.” I smiled. “Then stop arguing with me over this.” Of course she didn’t though. “But seriously, you’re not getting us involved! We choose to be so it’s not your fault! I mean, I would just loooove to see Pete go down. Really..” “We. You said ‘we’.” I thought out loud. Laura stopped talking. “Who’s ‘we’?” I asked, feeling uncertainty creep inside of me. “I did? Oh well, I just meant, you know, me and…Josh.” “Oh so you’re a team now?” I shot back, folding my arms. “You just don’t understand, you’re not dragging us down or whatever-“ “No, you don’t understand. Look, we need to stop talking to him or something. He can’t be involved in this.” “He already is involved, Hay. Whether you like it or not.” Laura said, unbelievably calmly. I shook my head and looked down on the asphalt. There was no point in fighting Laura, but there was no point for her to fight me as well. She was wrong if she thought she could convince me or make me change my mind. “Look, let’s just end this conversation here. I’m sticking with my original plan which does not involve you or anyone else for that matter.” “But-“ “The end!” I said and silenced her. She looked mad and disappointed, like she had just lost a big court case. “Fine. You win. Now go and talk to your dad but know, that I am not happy on you.” “I can deal with that.” I said and bumped her shoulder. She glared at me evilly. She then softened. “Hayley, are you sure? I mean, I’m mad at making plans, I’m actually known for making exceptionally good ones.” “Right..yeah I’m sure.” I said, small-laughing. I was ready to go inside, but stopped myself. “Remember, do not say anything about this now to Josh. I’ve already blurted out too much information to you and I don’t want anyone to know I talked to Pete. So no communication between you two, okay?” Something in Laura’s eyes glistened but she remained calm. “Yeah sure.” “Laura, I’m serious! Do not call him..” “I won’t! Gosh.. I can keep a secret you know.” She said, obviously hurt by my comment. “Uh-huh.” I really hoped she could though.  ---- hm...will she keep it? thanks so much for reading! I will do my best to try and update soon again can't promise anything for now, but hopefully soon!! :)]]> 2013-04-02T12:18:13Z intolight Buzznet 24 a fragment of light chapter entertainment fanfiction finally! hayley josh laura long wait pete story talking thinking 2 4 2.4 برنامج عرب ايدول 2 الحلقة 4 مسلسل الكبير اوي 2 الحلقة 4 مسلسل يوميات مدير عام 2 الحلقة 4 afragmentoflight fan fiction fan fiction fan fiction ! fan fiction. fan-fiction fanfic #finally finally finally!!!!! longwait http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/8/7/1/4/7/thumb-21187147.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/8/7/1/4/7/synd-21187147.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/8/7/1/4/7/mob-21187147.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/8/7/1/4/7/gallery-21187147.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/8/7/1/4/7/large-21187147.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/8/7/1/4/7/feat-21187147.jpg intolight 11 100 http://www.buzznet.com/groups/parawhores/journals/106681881/
II  “I’m telling you everyone should have a chance to go, it’s amazing. I swear I’m gonna move there once I’m finished with school.” He said as he took a glance at us. His eyes landed right on me. And I stood there frozen. “Josh, did you go to the caves?” one of them asked, he smiled slightly at me and looked back at the girl who was next to him. He continued to talk. He had soft brown eyes, ones that one would wish to look into everyday. He had a muscular built, and a sweet smile. His lip piercing shined as the light of the fire reflected on it. His hair was brown, like his eyes, and it looked so soft. I had the sudden urge to go up to him and run my fingers in his hair. He had a grey cardigan and underneath a white V-neck shirt with “New Zealand” written on the top left corner. I couldn’t stop staring at his lips as he spoke. He seemed arrogant, and a know-it-all. I guess that’s why everyone looked up to him. He was the “jock” of MTSU. But for some reason, something about him attracted me. I hadn’t felt like this in so long. Not even with Ben. Everyone started to leave now that Kate and I arrived, except for the Blondie that kept asking the questions. He smiled at Kate, “Katie” he hugged her tightly, and I felt a sudden tinge of jealousy towards her. “This is Hayley, my new roommate” he eyed me from head to toe. “Hey Red, welcome to MTSU. Hope Katie is treating you right” he grinned. Red? Right, the hair… “She’s been awfully helpful,” I said with a smile towards Kate. She grinned and held her arm around his waist. Was she hinting something? Damn… “I’ve known Josh for years, we’ve been neighbors since grade 2” She looked up at him as he smiled at her. “Yep, I still remember when my little sister told me the news that the neighbors had an annoying little girl” she laughed loudly. “I was the annoying one? I do remember you being the one who always came over to ask if I could come outside to play” she elbowed him. He didn’t even move, I guess he had abs then. I couldn’t stop thinking of him, and his body. And eyes. And lips… We stood there talking about where I use to live and my experiences in New York. Which weren’t many. Kate went off to say “bye” to Meghan and left Josh and I alone. He shyly looked at me, “Ready for your first day of class?” he asked. I smirked, “I’m so ready” I answered sarcastically. He laughed, a shy one. He seemed to blush slightly. Kate was walking towards us… “So, I hope to see you around? Maybe we can get a coffee or something,” he said, scratching the back of his head. “Yeah, for sure” I answered, holding down my excitement. Kate walked to my side looking at Josh with a look that made him blush. “Alright, I’ll see you guys around” He said to both of us. “I bet we will” Kate laughed while pulling me away from him. _ “Josh seemed to like you” Kate said, as we walked through the hallways of our dorm. I laughed slightly, “He seems really nice” She smiled, “He’s one of the sweetest guys I know. Unfortunately, he’s changed throughout Middle school and now.” She unlocked our door, and smiled, “But you seem cool enough for him, so FYI I approve” Oh great, she noticed. I laughed in response, as I didn’t have any words to reply. _ Class wasn’t too stressful; Professor Stanley was a unique man. He was full of sarcasm, and a military type attitude. He reminded me of my Uncle Jeffrey. I walked towards the Café, since I had an hour to kill. The sun shined strongly today, I could feel a drop of sweat slowly form in the back of my neck. Middle Ten Café. The sign was a tacky one but the strong fragrance of coffee made my mouth water. Inside, there was air-conditioning (thank God) and nice acoustic music softly played as background music. The place was empty, except for the right side of the small shop. There sat a man he had to be a Professor, he looked way too old to be here. I walked down to the left side to the corner booths. I grabbed my laptop from my bag, and waited for it to turn on. I looked around the coffee shop; they had canvases of Johnny Cash, Elvis and Bob Dylan. It looked quite nice for a café, it seemed like a good hangout place for myself. “Hey, Shorty” A familiar voice said from across the Café. There stood the guy from yesterday, Jeremy. “Oh hey” I said, a smile on my face. He seemed like someone I could definitely hang out with. He wore a green uniform with the Café’s logo embroiled on it and matching green plugs. “Mind if I sit? I’m on my break” He sat down before I could even answer, his wrap looked delicious. “Want one? I get them for free, since I make them and all…” I shook my head. “No thanks, I’m not hungry. But thanks” He shrugged, and bit into his wrap. “So, how has your day been going?” He asked, with a sincere interested look. “Okay, I guess. I have to get use to all of this.” I half smiled. “Well, it’s your first day. You’ll find it easier in a few days” “I hope so, I already have a stack of homework to do.” “And that is why I refuse to go here” He grinned, I laughed and shook my head. “Well, I should get back to work. Or Dave’s going to kick my ass. I’ll see you around?” He asked, a hopeful tone on his voice. “Yeah, for sure” I smiled. He winked and walked back to the counter. I closed my laptop ignoring the 20 emails I had. I looked outside and caught someone’s eyes. It was Josh. He was sitting next to a tree, his head rested on it, and I could see he had earphones on. He quickly looked back to his friends. 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I “I hope you enjoy your stay at MTSU” The blonde girl, who had mentioned her name but I’d already forgotten, handed me the key to my room. I smiled and grabbed it from her hand. I turned my head and looked around the campus. It was big. This was all new to me though. I’ve never been to a university. In fact, back in New York I hadn’t visited a single college. I felt uneasy. Oh great, I’m going to be sick on the first day. Teenagers, and adults were scattered everywhere. Small groups formed, I could easily pick out the freshmen. I probably looked the same. I grabbed my bags and plugged in my headphones into my ear and headed towards my dorm. _  My room wasn’t that bad, a girl by the name of Kate shared it with me. She seemed nice; she had well kept golden hair and bright blue eyes, the type that every girl dreamed of having. She seemed athletic, but had curves that anyone as skinny as me envied. Kate had a gentle accent, a Tennessee accent. Kate already had her stuff out. She stood on her bed, trying to pin her band posters on the wall. Metric. Phoenix. Broken Social Scene. Well, I approve of her taste in Music. I had a feeling my time here was going to be just fine. “So… Hayley, where are you from?” She asked, glancing slightly at me as she continued to put her posters up. “Meridian. But I was living with my Mum in New York” I explained.“Wish I was living in New York” She smiled, “Instead, I’m stuck living in Tennessee” she smiled, while rolling her eyes.“Tennessee doesn’t look too bad” I mumbled, half lying.“You’re a bad liar,” she laughed. “Well, Hayles…” Hayles? Good. Nicknames are good. Means there’s a potential friendship. “How does a good ol’ Tennessee party sound?” I looked up at her, slowly putting a shirt back onto my bed. “Uh, sure why not?” I said trying to sound like I’d been to many before. “I mean, it isn’t as good as a New York Party, but we do have some good BBQ” She grinned. I smiled, trying to seem like I knew exactly what she was talking about. I didn’t have many experiences in New York. In fact, I spent my times inside strumming my guitar with Ben or reading. I wasn’t the party type. I guess there’s a first for everything… Kate dragged me towards the bonfire. “Meghan!” She yelled, over the blasting music. I expected hip-hop but instead Indie Pop blasted from a jeep nearby. “Hayles this is Meg, we’ve been friends since forever” She smiled. “Hayley, it’s nice to meet you. Here” She handed me a red cup full of who-knows-what. I took a whiff of it, definitely smelled like something strong… Then again, I wasn’t a drinker. “Thanks” I answered, nervously, as she watched me drink it. They had a red couch out, a few feet away from the bonfire. People surrounded the fire with their drinks and guitars. They laughed loudly and spoke about things they’d done during their summers. A bunch of girls, and guys who looked like they belonged in a band surrounded one who talked like he was telling a magnificent story. He probably was, by the looks of each person, they all seemed so into whatever he was saying. I sat down at the couch and watched, as the fire grew stronger with each log thrown into it. Meghan and Kate had walked off to catch up. “Are you sure you don’t want to come along?” Kate had asked; I shook my head and told her to go along and that I’d be fine. “You’re new” A tall bearded guy with a tattoo on his arm sat next to me. “Yeah…” I said a little shy. “I thought so, I know everyone here so I’m the first to notice who’s new,” He said with a sweet smile, “I’m Jeremy, by the way” I smiled back at him, “Hayley” Jeremy was a nice guy, he chatted none stop. As if he knew me for years, and not in a flirty way but just as a friend. It was nice, I wasn’t good at flirting with guys, I guess I’m just too awkward. “So, who’s your roommate?” he asked, “Kate Whitmore.” His eyes looked around, “Awesome” He said, by his tone of voice I knew something happened between them. “Yeah, what about you?” I asked, trying to avoid silent moments. “Oh, I don’t go here. I work in the school’s café” He took a sip of his drink; “So I’m always around” he smiled. Behind him I could see Kate staring at us, her eyes seemed a little… angry? I wanted to avoid any trouble with her on account that she’s my roommate and all. “Well, I’m going to go talk to Kate” I said with a smile. “See you around?” He nodded and brought his cup up to mine. “Cheers” he said with a goofy smile.  “Hey” I said still holding the cup she had given me. “I want you to meet someone,” She said as she walked towards the group of people surrounding the one guy. “Come on” she waved at me. 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I told you I'd update right? Even if it would take some time...hehe. So here's an extra long chapter for you 'cause you're all so awesome!! I'm so glad that people are still reading and all of your comments make me so happy so thank youu :-). Now..let's see what Pete is up to...? ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 23. Sitting in Pete's car was probably, no, scratch that, it definitely was the last place on the whole earth that I wanted to be in right now. As soon as I shut the door, a sinking feeling came to me that doing this was completely idiotic, considering previous events and the fact that Pete could not be trusted. Yet, I couldn’t bring myself to not wonder what he meant before. He wouldn’t just say something like that for the sake of it. The radio blasted some pop-song hit and it brought me back to the club, making me nauseated. I pushed the off button and made no grimace to Pete’s reaction as he stopped moving his head and looked at me. “Listen, I didn’t get in the car to nod my head to some stupid song, so start talking.” I said, looking forward as we were coming against a red light. Pete slowed and hit the brakes, breathing out. “Well, first of all, I’m not the one who should start talking. Really, I had no clue you two were together. Jeez though, you could’ve picked someone better.. I mean, him out of all?” Annoyed at his already defensive tone, I needed to get to the bottom of this. “Who are you talking about?!”  “Your boyfriend.” “I don’t have a boyfriend!” I yelled, getting more and more irritated at Pete’s dumb answers. Would he just cut to the chase? As if he already didn’t know I was clueless as to who he was talking about. He looked at me for a second, in a curious manner. “Is that so? Hm…either you’re lying or something is just really messed up.” Aggravated by his behavior, I glanced out the window. Everything was messed up and being in Pete’s car didn’t exactly make all of it better. Maybe this was just a bad idea. “You know what, you can either drop me off or you can actually tell me why you said something about keeping ‘my boyfriend away from you’?” I said and glanced at him a bit sourly before staring straight ahead. He finally gave me a solid answer. “Well, isn’t that obvious? That Farro dude.” My head made a quick turn towards Pete. That name…why did it sound so familiar? I’ve heard it before and…come to think of it, I’ve heard if from Pete. Farro…. Farro. Wait, he meant.. Josh? Josh Farro. His last name was Farro. Oh my God, I remembered now when I sat on that bench outside Valley Mall with Pete and asked about him and Pete had said his last name was Farro. “Wait, what about him?” I asked, after a while. “Well, to start with, he punched me. At the beach you know.” My panic suddenly turned into laughing. Was that what this was all about? “Pete, seriously? You’re pissed about that punch and so now you think he’s my boyfriend because he went after you? This is just silly, just drop me off here." I realized now what a stupid move it was for me to get in the car with Pete just because he mentioned the word ‘boyfriend’. Honestly, what was I thinking? Pete was someone you needed to stay away from and I needed to start now. Not be so easily lured like that. “Please, he barely gave me a bruise.” Pete said nonchalantly. I looked at him in disbelief and after a while, he looked back with a defeated look. “Okay, so he did. But that’s not the point. Him bothering me was fine once, but not twice and definitely not a third.” He said. “What are you talking about? He only punched you once.” I said, letting go of the grip on the car door. “Oh no no. You’re telling me that you’re oblivious to the fact that he’s been contacting me this morning? He’s been contacting me ever since that day actually. Telling me to come over to his place and then asking me questions on what kind of drug I drugged you with. He’s like, a friggin’ police investigator with all his questions. Today was the first time I actually agreed to go see him. I’m telling you-“ “He did what?” I thought out loud. Why would he contact Pete? I thought they were barely friends; he was just a friend of Mike really. And invite him to his place? What was he thinking, inviting someone like Pete? I didn’t get it. I thought I made it pretty clear that I didn’t want him to get involved with the whole Pete-issue, even though Laura had called him and gotten him involved. But that wasn’t my intention, gosh.. why was he always being so difficult? And so secretive? “So how did he even get your number? I thought you said he was a friend of Mike’s.” “Yeah.. I lied.” I looked at him, not in disbelief, because let’s face it, I knew Pete was a liar by now. Which made no sense to why I was even talking to him. He grunted and took a left turn. “Josh and I.. We’ve known each other for quite some time.” He started. So there was more to the story.. I knew it had to be. Otherwise, why would Josh just go after a stranger like that and invite him to his place? Pete looked at the rearview mirror before speaking. His right hand made a quick movement through his black hair. I noticed he wasn’t wearing any cap, like he always used to. “His mom used to date my dad a while back so, technically, we were step-brothers. We never got along, and so when my dad ended it with his mom, it wasn’t a surprise that we didn’t get along then either.” “Maybe because you’re an ass.” “Ouch.” I glared at him. Like he didn’t see that one coming. Step-brothers huh. Didn’t see that one coming. But when I thought about it, Josh had only mentioned that he was living with his dad. As if his mother was out of the picture. I never saw her at the apartment anyways. But then I thought of the fishing trip… Didn’t he mention something about his mother changing? For the worse. It was all a vague memory in my mind right now, but I knew if I’d try to remember it, I would. Nevertheless, their acknowledge with each other explained everything with the party, the punch.. Perhaps that was why Josh didn’t want me to drink..? Because he didn't like Pete? “But..at that party. When you saw him you were greeting each other like friends.” I said, thinking back. “Yeah well, keeping up the appearance you know. Besides, no matter how much of a jerk you think I am, I didn’t want to start a fight right there. And he did come to the show, as Mike’s friend that is. I hadn't seen him in quite some time actually.” “So why didn’t you just tell me you used to be step-brothers when I asked you about him at the Valley Mall?” Pete looked down, looking like he actually felt a bit ashamed or embarrassed. But the look faded as soon as it came. He pulled up on a driveway, and I realized he had driven to my house. How did he even know where I lived? And then I remembered, since we used to be friends, he’d picked me up a couple times along with friends wherever we were headed to yet another party. He looked at me. “Because I thought you liked him. And, well, I didn’t want to minimize my chances with you.” He gave a little smile at the end. Surprised by his answer and his overall mood, I wasn’t dropping my guard down. Did he think that drugging me was going to fade away easily? There wasn’t anything Pete could say or do right now, after what he’d already done. “Well, you managed quite successfully anyways.” I stated. “And I’m sorry.” He said. “No you’re not. I don’t even think you realized what you did. And sorry doesn’t cut it, Pete. You just.. you’re not the friend I thought you were. I don’t trust you anymore.” “Friends..that’s all we ever were huh.” He said, looking out the window. “If even that.” I looked down. It was quiet for some time. I felt like leaving, there was no point in staying and I wasn’t even sure on what my purpose was for getting in the car anymore. Did he really just want to apologize? Somehow, I couldn’t believe that. And I was right. “Fine. At least now I have nothing to lose.” He said, in a more serious manner, looking at me. “What?” “Josh and I just try to stay out of each other’s way now. But it isn’t exactly easy when he keeps contacting me. I’m almost convinced he’s collaborating with the police or something. He just has that sense around him. Always had. Or he’s just protecting you for some reason, which leads me to think you two are-” “We’re not.” I interrupted. I didn’t need another Laura-thought. “So you don’t like him?” Pete asked, seeming more pleased. “Look, I don’t care whatever you’re doing or what he’s doing to you. You’re going to get caught eventually and quite frankly, I don’t see why you’re telling me all this. It’s not like I’m going to forgive you for drugging me and then try and help you get away with it. I’m leaving now.” I said, before opening the door, ready to step out. I didn't even know what time it was. “Hold on, what if this does concern you? I mean, after all this time Farro’s been helping you, you do care about his fate if not mine do you?” Pete said and I froze before completely stepping out, letting his words sink in. I turned around. “Are you threatening me?” I asked, eying him suspiciously. He smirked and then looked down. “Let’s just call it a compromise. You get him to stay away from me and I’ll stay away from you. In other words, no one will get hurt.” I squinted my eyes towards him. Was he being serious? No one will get hurt? He forgot that he wasn’t the most intimidating person and I wasn’t going to let myself get the creeps from him. “You’re pathetic, Pete. I’m not scared of you. You know, I might just call the police right now.” I said evenly. “Go ahead. I’m sure your father would love to read about his daughter using a fake ID to the club and accidently getting drugs in her drink in tomorrow’s newspaper. Every father’s wish really.” I shifted in my seat, feeling a sudden sting as I realized Pete had thought of things that hadn’t even crossed my mind. He was right. That was the reason to why I didn’t call the police in the first place - because of John and all the trouble it would bring. There was just such coldness to the way he said those words, like he’d turned into someone more capable of doing things I didn’t even want to think of and in that moment, I knew for sure that he wasn’t sorry at all. He really was a jerk and I regretted my stupid impatience for getting in the car in the first place. “You’re sick, you know that?” “I’m not the one asking questions about drugs like a lunatic. You get him to back off.” He demanded. “What makes you think I can do that? I haven’t known him for that long so why would he listen to me? Like I said before, he’s not my boyfriend or my anything for that matter, so I’m afraid I can’t help you. And even if I could, I would never do anything to your favor.” I wanted nothing more than to leave this car and never speak to him again, but when he brought Josh up, it was like I was glued to the seat. Still, I held the car door open. “You think I would believe that you have no influence on him? He's in our circle of friends now.” He smiled and I looked at him with despise. “You and I are not friends.” I stated through clenched teeth. “Even so, you two are. Otherwise he wouldn’t keep looking out for you. You know you can convince him. After all, friends protect friends right? I guess the real question is, will you?” ------ wooops.. what has hayley gotten herself into now? What do you think will happen?? I'd love to hear your thoughts and read your comments!! Thanks so much for reading!! <3 Christmas holiday is coming up, but I'll try and update soon! ;)]]> 2012-11-28T07:45:46Z intolight Buzznet a fragment of light chapter 23 fanfiction hayley josh afragmentoflight chapter23 fan fiction fan fiction fan fiction ! fan fiction. fan-fiction fanfic http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/3/5/0/4/5/thumb-21135045.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/3/5/0/4/5/synd-21135045.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/3/5/0/4/5/mob-21135045.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/3/5/0/4/5/gallery-21135045.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/3/5/0/4/5/large-21135045.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/3/5/0/4/5/feat-21135045.jpg intolight 11 200 http://www.buzznet.com/groups/parawhores/journals/106556909/
Hey Y'all! Well, it's been ages since I've actually written a post here. I have to be completely honest, for a while I kind of just forgot about this account. I took a break, which I thought would only be a few weeks, and it turn out to be... a few months? or even a year... I'm not sure.  Anyways, I'm back. And I want to start writing again. I understand I have two stories that I need to update. But honestly with all this time I've had I haven't written anything. So, in order to re-live those two stories I need to write some new things until I can get some inspiration to continue ICM and SS.  Now, I have a few questions for all my fellow buzzneters. Would you guys still read my stuff? I mean, it's been way too long and I'm sure I've lost some readers. But if I get enough "yes"s from y'all then I will start some new ideas.  I would also like to know if I were to write Joshayley's (I know... I'm still team Joshayley at at heart. Despite everything.) would you guys be interested in reading them, or anything Paramore related? And what other teams/ships would you guys like?  I'm hoping to hear from you guys. So read y'all later. Also, if you guys can reccomend some fanfics for me, I'd really appreciate it. Nght y'all!  boy. x]]> 2012-11-06T17:18:38Z bewareofyou Buzznet http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/icons/journal-thumb.png http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/icons/journal-synd.png http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/icons/journal-mob.png http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/icons/journal-gallery.png http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/icons/journal-large.png http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/icons/journal-feat.png bewareofyou 4 100 http://www.buzznet.com/groups/parawhores/journals/106550977/
Wohoooo I'm back with the next chapter after hundred years.... haha. I'm SO glad if you're still reading this, and I hope you will continue to, so thank you alll so much if you're still sticking around! Well, since this has been on hold for so long, I thought I could summarize a little bit of the story so that you don't have to go back through the chapters (if you don't want to). So here it goes: //Hayley was at a mental hospital because she tried to kill herself. Her overprotective dad John was the one who put her there, and therefor, Hayley has been mad/in a fight with him ever since. It's also due to the fact that John has met a new woman, Linda, after her mom Cynthia mysteriously disappared/left them and he seems to have moved on while Hayley hasn't. Hayley has now found out that John is keeping secrets about Cynthia from her as her grandma Lily came to visit. She had a fight with her about that and she is now determined to find out the truth about her mom. Also, during her stay at the mental hospital she met a guy named Josh. Her first sight of him was a sad, angry boy who almost jumped off the roof. The two started off as strangers, but as Josh has reappeared in Hayley's life several times by either saving her or just being there, she has come to think that they are not strangers anymore. But she still hasn't figured out why he visited the hospital and why he acted like that the first time she saw him. Laura is Hayley's best friend, they've had their ups and downs but lately, Laura has been there for Hayley. Pete is the guy who was Hayley's friend at the beginning, but changed all that by drugging her.//  22. “Thanks again.” I said and met his eyes sincerely. And then, for some reason, I took a step forward; putting a hand on his shoulder and leaning in to kiss him lightly on the cheek. It was merely a touch and then I felt the weirdest feeling I had ever felt, no matter how hard I tried to ignore it. I pulled back and felt his eyes on me. I walked away before he could say anything. “Good luck.” I heard him shout after a while. I thought about the fishing trip somehow. When I caught that perch and how Josh said that the first fish you caught were supposed to bring you luck. But I didn’t need luck right now. I needed and wanted the truth and I was ready for it. I had to be. -- “Wait, you said what? Friends don’t let friends get drugged?!” Laura’s voice rang on the other end following with insane laughter, as she quoted me. I was on my way home, on my way to face John, Lily and Linda. To face the truth. And what better way to prep myself than with Laura? At least that was I told myself as she so conveniently had called after my visit at Josh’s. I explained how I had gotten grounded, which was why I couldn’t see her. And so she asked me where I was and I told her…which I now realized was completely stupid of me, knowing Laura and her romantic thoughts on practically everything. Only it was too late and she had already started with her giggly behavior. “What’s wrong with saying that? It’s true, besides, I think he was just agreeing because he didn’t want to admit that he was pissed about the apartment, which he has every right to be.” I said, keeping my eyes on my footsteps and holding my phone tightly against the ear. I only felt people passing by, never saw them as I was locked on putting my feet straight on the pavement whilst trying to hear Laura in all the noise. “Uh-huh okay, how about this: friends don’t kiss friends on the cheek?” Laura asked and I rolled my eyes yet again. I just had to tell her that too, did I? Okay, so, perhaps that was dumb and I didn’t even know why I did it, but it was no big deal really. Kissing people on the cheek was like shaking someone’s hand, okay maybe not as intimate but it was seen as the most custom way to greet someone in several countries, France for example. Why was I defending myself anyways? “Oh come on, you’ve kissed multiple guys on the cheek! And they were no more than friends, if even that.” I replied to Laura, while crossing a street, trying not to bump into everyone flying at me. I had no idea what time it was, but I guessed it was just about when everyone had lunch break because I was flooded with people. I heard Laura’s voice again. “Haha, yeah but I was flirting! Like you wouldn’t know…” “Fine, but this wasn’t me flirting with anyone, okay? I’m sure, no in fact I know, that it’s not on his mind and not on mine either, only if you keep bringing it up so drop it and move on.” “Hm…” I wasn’t trying to flirt with him. I wasn’t even sure on what the definition of our acquaintance was. Like, guy-you’ve-met-several-times,-counting-in-a-mental-hospital-and-who-later-saved-you-from-certain-scenarios-and-also-took-you-on-a-fishing-trip.Yup, that pretty much covers it. Oh, also, guy-I’ve-managed-to-tell-my-most-personal-problems-to. So what did all of this make us really? Friends was my first thought, if not strangers, but calling him a stranger might be a tad weird now. Still, there was something yet mysterious about him. Or all of this, like, could it really be just by chance all those times we’d encountered? Especially at the mental hospital. But I did know what Laura meant about the flirting; all those times we’d hooked up with some boys or whatever at a party, we would kiss them on the cheek to flirt, just to play with them and have fun, nothing serious really. But that wasn’t my intention with Josh at all and maybe that was the problem.. The fact that I didn’t flirt with him? Wait what was I thinking? Problem? Why would it be a problem? Ugh, this was probably exactly how Laura wanted me to resonate. She had watched too many C.S.I episodes.. “….So let me get this straight, you’re grounded or you’re supposed to be grounded but then you took a walk with Lily, which you had a fight with and then you went to Josh but you shouldn’t have really because you’re grounded. So even though you were grounded you went to him..” My mind focused back on Laura’s voice and I realized she had been speaking while I had been drifting away myself. “Hello? Hayles, are you even listening to me?” I tuned in again, as well as I could while looking ahead of me to see where I was going. “Yes. Of course. You were saying…?” I tried to lead her to finish the sentence, which she luckily did. “So I was saying.. I think this proves something else..” “What does?” I asked. “The whole grounding-thing. That you went to him even though you weren’t supposed to. It proves that..” “Yes, it proves that I don’t care whether I’m grounded or not.” Gosh we both needed to stop saying the word ‘grounded’. I looked up and realized I had no idea where I was. Usually, I would take the bus, which I had only done once considering coming here today was actually my choice.. But I couldn’t find that same bus-station again and everything just looked so much. There were streets in all directions, places in every building, corner.. Maybe I had to get a cab home. How did I even find his place earlier? And then I remembered, I was still on the phone with Laura! It’s weird how her voice worked like a background filter underneath my thoughts. I knew she wouldn’t take it the wrong way though. I was getting tired of hearing the same story over and over again anyways. And then, while I was looking for that bus station, a car pulled up with the passenger window rolling down. Assuming it was for someone else, I quickly walked on, but it went after me, like a dog following his mate. I squinted my eyes under the sunglasses, trying to see whoever had pulled up. “Looking for a ride?” His voice reached my ears before my eyes could reach his and I knew who it was. But.. it wasn’t who I thought it would be.. Not that I was expecting it to be someone else, but the only times I had bumped into someone..well, it was always Josh. But this was not. This was Pete. And I could hardly believe that he even had the nerve to speak to me after what happened last. I tried to ignore him as much as possible, but his black BMW kept following me and I glared at him angrily. “No, I’m not.” “What?” Laura said panicky. “Uhm, nothing Laura.” I walked on. “Come on, get in the car and I’ll drive you.” I heard him say. Totally thrown off by his offer, I looked back at him and nearly shouted. Seriously, that was it. Who did he think he was? “What the hell is wrong with you? Don’t you recall anything? Last time I let you take me anywhere you drugged me! Drugged me! I thought I told you to stay away from me, so stay away.” Judging by the look on his face he wasn’t expecting my rage towards him, but honestly, what did he expect? It was like he had hit his head or something and I was not interested in hearing his attempts at apologies again. “Hayley, I’m sorry! Really okay! I.. I did it because this guy told me that this “thing” was supposed to make you more energetic and all, and I wanted to be with you, but I knew you didn’t like me so…” “So you thought that you could drug me into liking you? Well, guess what, it didn’t work and I will never ever trust you again. So get away from me.” “Fine, but tell your boyfriend to stay away from me then! Jeez, I was only trying to apologize.” And that really threw me off. Boyfriend? What the hell was he talking about? “Hayley why are you shouting?” Laura’s voice suddenly reached my ears. “I ran in to someone. I-” “Who?” “..Pete.” “Whaaaaat? Get away from him!-“ “Laura, I gotta go. Call you later.” I kept my eyes on Pete and as he realized I had slowed down my pace, he knew he had made me curious in some way. And I wanted to punch that smirk off his face again, but.. I needed to calm myself in order to find out what he was talking about. “But-” I hung up on her. She would hate me for a few minutes, but she’d probably understand. Or since it was Pete, she probably wouldn’t. But I had to do this.  He bent down his head so that he’d be able to see me. He smirked. “So, you’re looking for a ride or what?” Angry and absolutely amazed at myself for actually doing this, I got in the car and shut the door. --------- wooop woop... what did you think?? Tell me your thoughts and a billion thanks for reading! Happy belated Halloween everyone! ;) note: i'll try and update within a few weeks, it might take some time but please be patient, i will update! ]]> 2012-11-03T07:53:08Z intolight Buzznet a fragment of light chapter 22 finally its back hihi wooooo afragmentoflight chapter22 finallyitsback hi hi http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/2/2/8/6/6/thumb-21122866.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/2/2/8/6/6/synd-21122866.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/2/2/8/6/6/mob-21122866.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/2/2/8/6/6/gallery-21122866.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/2/2/8/6/6/large-21122866.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/2/2/8/6/6/feat-21122866.jpg intolight 12 300 http://www.buzznet.com/groups/parawhores/journals/106287952/
Hello all! Sorry it took so long for me to get some writing up on this beezy. My break was much crazier than expected! Here is a little preview of my new oneshot, let me know what you think! The fields were as yellow as they had ever been that summer. As she looked across the mid-august sky, streaked with splashes of gold and pink, she could feel the sweat tickle the hair on the back of her neck, reminding her of the never-ending heat of California. They both lay stretched out on the hood of his old blue pick-up truck, listening to the sound of crickets began to mix with the sound of the distant rising tide as the sky slowly began to transform. He simply let out a long breath, she turned her head to look at him: watching as his chocolate-brown eyes scanned the sky, his dark eyebrows furrowed as his jaw clenched as he swallowed hard. She could only focus on how his eyes closed as he ran his fingers through his dark tousled hair. “I leave September second,” he broke their silence, feeling his own throat tighten. He only wanted to keep his cool, and tell her casually. Looking at her meant that he could see how his words would register in her head, with the potential of changing the expression on her face with sadness. Maybe if he acted like it wasn’t a big problem…she would see it the same. She could only nod, not wanting the tears that were threatening to form and fall upon her cheeks, exposing her. He did not look at her. He simply held her hand, continuing to let his eyes dance across the sky, looking for stars that were beginning to appear in the ever-darkening sky.  ]]> 2012-07-09T10:14:11Z 30secondstopaija Buzznet http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/5/1/4/6/1/thumb-21051461.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/5/1/4/6/1/synd-21051461.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/5/1/4/6/1/mob-21051461.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/5/1/4/6/1/gallery-21051461.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/5/1/4/6/1/large-21051461.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/5/1/4/6/1/feat-21051461.jpg 30secondstopaija 3 300 http://www.buzznet.com/groups/parawhores/journals/106226685/
Hello all!  This week I'll be posting: ONESHOT: FEATURING JOSHAYLEY a NEW chapter of HOMH :D  I can repost the series if readers would like, but just to give you a refresher, here is a link to the last chapter! (CANT BELIEVE THE LAST TIME I UPDATED THIS WAS AUGUST D:) and should I go through with a rewrite of "Infinite"? Let me know in a comment below!]]> 2012-06-17T20:30:33Z 30secondstopaija Buzznet http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/3/6/7/7/1/thumb-21036771.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/3/6/7/7/1/synd-21036771.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/3/6/7/7/1/mob-21036771.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/3/6/7/7/1/gallery-21036771.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/3/6/7/7/1/large-21036771.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/3/6/7/7/1/feat-21036771.jpg 30secondstopaija 5 300 http://www.buzznet.com/groups/parawhores/journals/106223485/
Yay updated within a week! I think.. anyways, I spent time writing this today so that you could have something to read before I left! (read my next post). So, enjoy this chapter... :) ----- 21. After walking endlessly through streets, people, signs, I found myself standing outside a familiar wall. The house was made out of bricks in different shades of orange and had several windows carved out on the wall, a few small balconies here and there. It stood big and tall on the street. It was a house I had never mentally gone to myself actually and I remembered the sign one the wall, naming the street Lexington 2nd street. I stood against the wall, hesitating and doubting whether I should go in or not. What was I even doing here? Okay, so I came to apologize, that’s all. I noticed how much of a different environment this was compared to where I lived. I lived in an old style, but original family house placed in a calm neighborhood where people walked their dogs or jogged at a slow pace. There were people here too, walking their dogs or jogging, but this was more of a city life. It was more like a mess, with magazines booths, food stalls and other small shops lining up on the street. People going in all directions, taxies driving unbelievably fast and a few whistles now and then. And I liked it. I thought that this fitted me more, this city life with things always moving or happening. When I moved out, which, maybe now would be pretty soon considering all the stuff going on at home, I wanted to move to someplace like this. As I thought about moving, I thought about Lily and the things she had said and the things I had said, and I realized that I couldn’t just “walk it off” as I thought. I still felt the pain throbbing in my chest, but at least I hadn’t cried any more. And then panic rushed through me as I remembered I’d been crying and I felt the panic because I didn’t want to look like a mess when he’d see me. Like I cared, but… I did. I took a step forward, standing in front of the big door that led to the apartments inside and before making any other move, I took off my sunglasses, trying to remove any signs around my eyes that indicated I’d been crying. I hadn’t put on any makeup today anyways, except for mascara and light red rouge. But it wasn’t like I had been weeping, so I was sure the mascara hadn’t created a pool of blackness beneath my eyes. My hair looked alright I think but I patted it anyways, straightening any tangles that I could feel. Why was I getting so nervous all of a sudden? I looked fine, I know I did. Besides, I wasn’t going on a date or anything. It was just Josh. Just the guy who I had happened to encountered a few times now, including the mental hospital ones. And then my mind traveled back to what his reason for being there was again. But I refocused on what I came here for. To apologize. There was a girl, carrying a pink hand bag coming from the other side of the door and she held up the door after her, expecting I was on my way in. But I stood still. What would I actually say when I met him? I hadn’t thought much about that…probably because I never used to think beforehand on what I would say, so why couldn’t I do that now then? “Hello, you’re on your way in or what?” The girl asked, obviously annoyed at me for doubting. Well, I was too. But I was thankful that she cared to hold the door for me. “Yeah, thanks.” I walked in and was surrounded by narrow walls creating a long hallway to all the apartments. And then I remembered, I didn’t even know the number to his apartment? Dang it. Since I had never gone here while I was conscious that is.. I remembered that when me and Laura ran out as fast as we could, we didn’t have to run that long to get outside, so it must be one of the doors more near to the exit. I walked and walked… and then turned. I was facing a door with the number 8, I wasn’t sure it was his, but I guessed. I couldn’t do much more. I knocked three times and it was opened by an older man, wearing what looked like hiking clothes. He had stubble on his chin and looked down at me through the brown hat he wore. He probably looked as confused as I did, because, clearly, this was not the right door. “Yes, can I help you?” He asked in a polite tone. “Sorry, I think I’ve knocked on the wrong door. I’ll just leave.” I walked away quickly and heard a faint “okay” and then the door shut. “Looking for someone?” I heard someone say in a too familiar smug tone behind me. I turned around and saw Josh, standing outside the same door. He wore black jeans along with a blue sweater and his brown hair seemed to have grown since last time or maybe it was just disheveled, though I don’t know why that would make it look longer. He smiled. I frowned. “Hi.” I said more shockingly than I imagined and walked up to him. “I thought you didn’t live here.” I said, meeting his eyes for the first time. He looked better, better as in the bruise had almost faded around the right eye and the anger in his face was gone, relieved for that. “Oh, that’s my dad. He’s on his way to hike.” He said and looked backwards and just then, I remembered that he had told me once that his dad hiked. His dad waved at me, I smiled and returned it. He then came towards us and stretched out his hand. “Seems like you didn’t knock on the wrong door after all. Well, aren’t you going to introduce us Josh?” He said, nudging him on the shoulder. I let out a light laugh. “Dad, this is Hayley. Hayley, this is Jim, my dad.” He said, pointing with his fingers at us and acting in the least enthusiastic way, still smiling though. “Nice to meet you, Hayley.” He said and shook my hand. “You too.” I said and smiled back. And then silence fell over us. I glanced at Josh who with a smirk, glanced back. It seemed as if the fighting between us has melted away and I was glad for that. Only.. I came to remind him of it by apologizing. Then Jim picked up a large green bag packed with equipment for hiking from the floor. He put his hand on Josh’s shoulder and shook him lightly. “Well, I’m on my way then. I’ll be home in 2 days. Call me if you need anything.” “And how are you going to help when you’re in the woods, miles away from here?” Josh asked, in a joking manner. Jim shrugged and put on his backpack. “I don’t know. But it just feels good saying it. Okay, behave now and see you later!” He said and then turned towards me. “And pleasure meeting you, Hayley.” I gave him a nod and made way for him as he went out the apartment door. “Your dad seems nice.” I thought out loud. Nicer than mine.. “Yeah, I guess he is. It’s nice to have the whole apartment for yourselves sometimes though.” He yawned and walked around. He then stopped and looked at me. “So, what brings you here?” And I snapped, remembering why I was here again. Ugh.. here it goes. “Right, uhm. Listen, I kinda wanted to talk to you. About…the fight at the beach. I’m sorry about that. I got mad at you for going after Pete but then I realized you did because I crashed at your apartment again.. I’m sorry for.. everything really. You’ve been saving me all those times, at that party and then the club and yeah, I just wanted to reassure you that I won’t be intruding your apartment anymore, so sorry for that too.” I said, looking up at him. He lowered his glance and for a moment I thought I saw a hint of anger in him again. But his voice was calm. “The apartment was never the issue but apology accepted.”  “Great.” I said a little too fast. Wait, what? Did he say that it wasn’t the apartment? Then what was it? “Do you even know why I went after him?” Josh suddenly said and sort of caught me off guard. I looked to the side and then said in an obvious way, “Yeah, well, he’s a total jerk. And if I have to come up with a reason you did it, if not your apartment then, it’s because you see me as a friend, right?” He looked at me seriously and for a moment, that was all there was. No words spoken between us and I started to feel almost nervous again. “And friends don’t let other friends get drugged.” I added a bit awkwardly. After I said that last thing, I saw his lips turn upwards. But he had a look before, which I couldn’t read and I know I’d seen it before, the last time I was here. But he cut in before I could ask. “Yeah, friends don’t do that.” He said, looking down and then up at me again. I gazed around his apartment, thinking of what I would do when I got home. What John would say, especially after hearing Lily’s version of the walk we took. Who knows, she might say I escaped, since I’m grounded. Right now, I wanted to escape, just pause everything for minute and go to the roof and just lie down and be. Everything else could wait. I needed a break. But I had waited long enough. I had had a break for 2 years.  “Hey, are you okay?” Josh woke me from my thoughts. He took a few steps towards me and he managed to sound conventional but still serious as he asked me that. Not like those fake therapists on TV. I then wondered if it was that obvious that I had cried, even though I was pretty sure I had covered it up already. Nevertheless, the words came out of my mouth naturally, with a sigh. “It’s John, my dad. And, Lily, my grandma. You know the story I told about my mom leaving me 2 years ago? Well, I know for a fact now that John and Lily both know where she is but they are hiding it from me. I confronted Lily earlier and… I just.. I don’t know what to do.” I never meant to say any of it, but here I was, opening up like a book again. Why was it that with Josh, I always did this? I leaned against the doorway absentmindedly, thinking I needed to stop spilling out everything about myself. It didn’t seem normal…but then again, we were friends now, so, maybe it was. But it wasn’t when we were strangers. “Well, you wanted to find out the truth right?” He said, trying to sound a bit chipper. “Yeah, but it was like at the mental hospital. When I told you I was being discharged, I was glad because, I wanted to get out. But somehow.. I was still scared, remember? And I think it’s the same with this. I want to know the truth so badly, really, I mean, that was how I ended up at the hospital that night I overdosed…because of all of this with Cynthia. And now that I’m so close..” “..You’re just scared.” He finished. I looked at him, trying in my unconscious state to understand him. Everytime he said something like that, it sounded like he knew how it felt himself, like he’d been through something similar too. “Yes.” I said. “Anyways, yeah so I came here to say I’m sorry about crashing at your apartment and I’ve said more than that already.. so, I’m going to go now.” I took a step from the doorway, so that I was standing outside the door and then turned around, finding that Josh was just behind me. “Thanks again.” I said and met his eyes sincerely. And then, for some reason, I took a step forward; putting a hand on his shoulder and leaning in to kiss him lightly on the cheek. It was merely a touch and then I felt the weirdest feeling I had ever felt, no matter how hard I tried to ignore it. I pulled back and felt his eyes on me. I walked away before he could say anything. “Good luck.” I heard him shout after a while. I thought about the fishing trip somehow. When I caught that perch and how Josh said that the first fish you caught were supposed to bring you luck. But I didn’t need luck right now. I needed and wanted the truth and I was ready for it. I had to be. ------ thanks for reading guys and I'd love to hear your thoughts as always....!]]> 2012-06-16T12:25:10Z intolight Buzznet 21 a fragment of light chapter fanfiction hayley josh 2 1 2-1 2.1 مسلسل الكبير اوي 2 الحلقة 1 الاولى مسلسل ساهر الليل 2 الحلقة 1 الاولى مسلسل سيلا 2 الحلقه 1 مدبلجة afragmentoflight fan fiction fan fiction fan fiction ! fan fiction. fan-fiction fanfic http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/3/5/9/7/8/thumb-21035978.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/3/5/9/7/8/synd-21035978.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/3/5/9/7/8/mob-21035978.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/3/5/9/7/8/gallery-21035978.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/3/5/9/7/8/large-21035978.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/3/5/9/7/8/feat-21035978.jpg intolight 11 300 http://www.buzznet.com/groups/parawhores/journals/106218900/
First off, If any of my former readers/friends are actually reading this, I want to say I'm sorry for falling off the face of the earth on here! Life happens, and unfortunately it all happened at once. I just finished my freshman year of college at AIS! :O It was crazy, but so much fun. I'm looking forward and dreading the next two-and-a-half years.  I had major writers block before I left, and since Im taking Creative Writing next quarter, maybe I'll pick up HOMH again as some of my assigments :O Either way, Im going to start posting and writing again, I just dont know what just yet!  Peace, love, and Seattle hipsters! Paija]]> 2012-06-14T12:12:53Z 30secondstopaija Buzznet http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/icons/journal-thumb.png http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/icons/journal-synd.png http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/icons/journal-mob.png http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/icons/journal-gallery.png http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/icons/journal-large.png http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/icons/journal-feat.png 30secondstopaija 7 300