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i'm crying. :'( ]]> 2012-11-10T06:18:24Z paramoreine Buzznet http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/2/6/7/7/2/thumb-21126772.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/2/6/7/7/2/synd-21126772.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/2/6/7/7/2/mob-21126772.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/2/6/7/7/2/gallery-21126772.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/2/6/7/7/2/large-21126772.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/2/6/7/7/2/feat-21126772.jpg paramoreine ]]> 0 6400 http://www.buzznet.com/groups/paramorefanz/photos/?id=106505012
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Paramore - Making of Decode]]> 2012-10-04T01:47:16Z gorshine Buzznet andrealepori drheaven gorshine hollywood making of music paramore video andrea lepori holly wood making-of makingof pa ramore para more http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/0/5/8/4/9/thumb-21105849.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/0/5/8/4/9/synd-21105849.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/0/5/8/4/9/mob-21105849.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/0/5/8/4/9/gallery-21105849.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/0/5/8/4/9/large-21105849.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/1/0/5/8/4/9/feat-21105849.jpg gorshine ]]> 0 100 http://www.buzznet.com/groups/paramorefanz/journals/106087172/
Chapter 11: Hayley p.o.v : It had been three days .I had no idea where I was ,I was in the darkness all day .I didn’t know who my abductor was .He would barely feed me or give me water .I was didn’t care about me ,I was just worried about my baby .I knew I was still in the park .Because we had never walked out of the line of trees .I didn’t even have my phone with me .I felt tears spring to my eyes ,thinking about Jeremy ,about how worried he would be .I was sure the other guys were worried but I was basically Jeremy’s sister .He was always there .I couldn’t hold my sobs anymore ,I cried loudly .I knew no one would here me .My captor wasn’t here ,he left at night and came back in the morning .I was full of dirt and sand and That’s the only way I knew I was underground .How far ? I didnt know and was to scared to find out .I had stopped sobbing a bit when I heard sniffing above my head .I put my hand up and felt the top of the ground ….except it was wood .Slats of wood ! I tried pushing up against it but heard a lock rattle .A dog started barking and I screamed .I didn’t know if it was wild and looking for food . ‘Someone help me! Help me please ! Get me out !’ I started screaming. Josh p.o.v : Where the hell had the dog gone ! without him we were doomed and would never find Hayley .It had been three whole days ! . ‘Wait guys stop.’ I said Everyone turned around to look at me . ‘Josh we don’t have time to stop .’ Taylor said . ‘Sssshhh can you hear that?’ I said tilting my head to the side . ‘Is it that screaming?’ Zac asked . ‘Hayley.’ I said and took off in the direction of the screaming . I got closer and closer and when I found the police dog standing right where the screams were from I knew I had found my Hayley . I drooped to my knees ,trying to figure out how she was underground .The guys soon caught up to me and tried helping.   Hayley p.o.v : It seemed like I had been screaming for hours .I heard a shuffle above me and heard hands .I was dead! He was back ,he had obviously heard me screaming and was now going to end everything . ‘Go away! Leave me alone!’ I sobbed . ‘Guys we found her .’ That was Josh’s voice . Josh ?They found me oh my god . ‘How is she underground?’ That was Jeremy . ‘Theres slats ,feel under the grass ,it’s a decoy .’ Taylor said ‘Its locked !’ Josh screamed ,he seemed to be getting agitated . ‘Hayley can you hear us ?’ Jeremy shouted . ‘Yes !’ I looked up . ‘Cover your eyes and curl in a ball ,we cant get the lock broken so we have to crush the wood .’ Josh shouted . I did as he said and soon heard the wood start to crack . I soon felt the wood splinters start to fall on me .When it was over ,I started moving my arms to move the wood and the guys helped . I felt someone pull my hand and help me out the hole .I looked up and saw Jeremy .I knew I would feel bad later but I ran straight past him and into Josh’s arms .Josh was shocked but soon put his arms around me and hugged me tightly . Chapter 12 : Hayleys  p.o.v :  We had cancelled the rest of the tour and were heading home .We were all back in the bus and I wouldn’t let Josh out of my site .Everyone kept asking me questions that I couldn’t answer .I had my head on Josh’s shoulder ,just enjoying the moment .We had been fighting for so long that to be in each others arms was something different . ‘When is Chad joining us ?’ Josh asked . ‘uh Josh ,he dumped Hayley three days ago when he uh heard the news.’ Zac said . ‘Oh jeees Hayles im so sorry .’ Josh said moving my head to look at me . ‘Its ok .’ I said ‘No Hay ,its not .I ruined another thing for you .’ Josh said ,putting his head in his hands . ‘Hey its ok ,he wasn’t that great of a boyfriend anyway .’ I joked . ‘Besides you gave me something Chad couldn’t .’ I reminded him . ‘Why couldn’t Chad give you a baby?’ He asked confused . ‘Because I was already pregnant with a Farro .’ I smiled Josh smiled and brushed his lips lightly against mine . I looked over to the other guys whos eyes were wide .I blushed and got up . ‘Im going to bed .’ I said smiling before I walked off to my bunk . Once I got into bed I could here the guys cheering Josh .I soon fell into a deep sleep .   Josh p.o.v : What had I done now ! Yes I loved Hayley ,yes she was the mother of my child but my heart was with someone else .I had tried to move on with when she was adamant she and Chad would be together forever .I couldn’t break Sarah’s heart now !   Chapter 13: Hayley p.o.v : I woke up to hear a girls giggles .I rolled over thinking it must be Cat ,Jeremy’s girlfriend .That was until I heard Josh’s voice say I love you .I opened my eyes and climbed out the bunk . I walked to the front lounge but it was just Zac and Jeremy . ‘Hey wheres Taylor?’ I asked . ‘He went out for a little bit to get something sweet ,the bus needed gas ,so that’s why he was let off his leash .’ Zac said grinning .Zac had always teased Taylor about his long hair and said he looked like a dog . ‘And um…Josh?’ I asked ,fiddling with my fingers . ‘Back lounge ,I think he slept there .’ Jeremy said looking up from his book . I walked to the back lounge and opened the door .I felt all my anger as soon as I saw Josh and a girl with there ars around each other .And they definatly were not talking . ‘Oh this is good .’ I said ,feeling all my anger build up . They pulled away from their kiss ,the girl gave me a dirty look for interrupting them ,while Josh blushed . ‘Hayley ,I can explain ?’ He said . ‘No Josh you cant this time .First you get drunk and ruin my life ,I get kidnapped and you end up saving me ,I thought things were going back to before all that Josh even before Chad .’ I said ,trying to swallow a lump in my throat. ‘Hayley ,this is Sarah .I started dating her when you still with Chad ,I was moving on Hayley .’ ‘Then what about last night? What was that huh?’ I asked ‘Woah what happened last night?’ Sarah asked. ‘Nothing .’ Josh said turning to her . ‘He kissed me .’ I stated . ‘But it meant nothing .’ Josh said trying to cover up his mistake . ‘Oh ok .So you lie to me and then her .’ I said . ‘hey Sarah ,did you know I’m pregnant.’ ‘Yes I did congratulations.’ She said, her attitude towards me changing. ‘Did you also know its Josh’s child .’ I said . Josh hung his head as Sarah looked at him shocked . ‘I think im done here .Josh as soon as we get to Franklin ,I don’t ever want to see you again .’ I spat at him . ‘Again ,you cant do that its my child .’ He said . ‘I really don’t care Josh ,you should’ve thought about that one I guess .And you cant do anything this time ,because the whole world already knows your damn kid !’ I said before walking out . I walked over to my bunk and started packing all my essentials . ‘Hayley what are you doing?’ Jeremy said . ‘Im taking a plane home .’ I said . ‘I will pick up the rest of my clothes when you guys get back .’ ‘Hayley why are doing this again?’ He said . ‘Because Josh is busy sucking face with a whore in the back lounge.’ I stated heading to the bathroom to get my toiletries . ‘Hayley stop being such a bitch !’ Josh said . ‘Or what? You’re going to push me out the bus and put your child in harms way ,are you going to slap me again?’ I asked ‘You pushed her out the bus?’ Sarah said ,shocked . ‘It wasn’t moving ! and I thought the door was closed .’ Josh said defending himself . ‘You hit her to?’ Sarah asked ‘She brought up my ex-wife who happens to be dead .’ Josh said . ‘Its ok ,baby.’ Sarah said hugging Josh’s waist. I watched her in shock and disgust ,she was getting mad at him two seconds ago !   Chapter 14 : Hayley p.o.v : I sat in the plane looking dejectedly out the window .How could this happen? How could he treat me like he loved me and then toss me aside? I didn’t even know if I wanted this baby anymore ,I mean it would just remind me of him all the time .No! what the hell was I thinking ,this baby was mine not only Joshs .I knew I wanted this baby ,I just had to be level headed and go home and prepare to become a mother .I knew I could do this without Josh ,I knew I could . *5 months later* I was decorating the babies nursery with the help of my mom and Erika ,Mckayla was napping on the couch .I didn’t know the sex of the baby and wasn’t finding out ,the room was a pale yellow with cute little bug decorations .I hadn’t really spoken to Josh and his whore of a girlfriend in a while .Jeremy was going to help me with the baby if I ever needed it .I was busy painting the crib white when my doorbell ringed .I looked at my mom knowing I hadn’t invited anyone over . ‘Wasn’t me Hayls .’ My mom shrugged . I walked down stairs and opened the door ,my jaw nearly falling to the floor . ‘Sarah?’ I questioned . ‘Hi Hayley .’ She rushed past me and put her basket on the table . ‘This is just a little something for your little one ,I know you haven’t had your baby shower yet but its from me and Josh .’ She said smiling . ‘um ok.’ I said ,really confused about her change of heart . ‘Oh and yes we have to talk .’ Her smile dropping ,this is what I was waiting for . I walked past her and into the kitchen ,she followed shortly after . ‘Ok what do you want ? I knew you weren’t here to be nice .’ I said coldly . ‘Ouch Hayley ,now thats a bit harsh isn’t it?’ She smirked ‘Ok well ,That is Josh’s kid and he wants joint custody .’ She said ‘Go to hell.’ I snapped ‘We could take this into court and that wouldn’t be good for either of us ,oh and when you do decide to give him joint custody ,don’t think it’s a way to get Josh back .’ She said showing me the back of her hand . ‘We’re getting engaged sweety and there isn’t anything you can do about it .’ ‘Get out .’ I whispered ‘Gladly ,I’ll be going back to my Josh and you will be here with nothing.’ She said with a plastered smile on her face . And with that she brushed past me and walked out the door …   Chapter 15 : Hayley p.o.v : Sarah’s words kept ringing in my ears ,they were getting married? No way ! ‘Mom ,I’m going out for a couple minutes ,I’ll be back later .’ I called up the stairs . ‘Ok sweety ,we’ll just finish up here.’ I walked out the door and wen down the road to Josh’s house ,neither of us had moved since the tour.When I got to the door I knocked on it so violently. ‘Hayley?’ Josh asked . ‘No its Jeremy ,yes its me .’ I said walking in . ‘Yeah um sure come in .’ He said running his fingers through his hair. ‘What the hell have you gone and done Josh.’ I said pacing his room. ‘You mean get married ? Yes I love her so?’ He asked ‘Im talking about custody Josh! How could you think for one second that I would even consider even letting you set your eyes on this child!’ ‘Well its my child and im sure I am capable of raising it .’ He said calmly . ‘Joshie.’ Sarah sang ,skipping down the stairs ,in lingerie. ‘Ok I give up Josh ,that.’ I said pointing at Sarah. ‘That is my breaking point ,when do you want custody?’ I sighed . ‘As soon as the babies born.’ He said crossing his arms . ‘No way.’ I said He raised his eyebrow ,knowing I would give in one way or another . ‘Fine Josh ,you win are you happy now ! I gave up on your little game ,as soon as the babies born we will have joint custody .’ He started smiling but I cut him off . ‘But when the babies new born ,every time you have custody I will be here ,I will stay over until that child starts walking.’ I said ‘Hell no ,I don’t want this little whore in my house .’ Sarah complained . ‘Sarah.’ Josh cautioned . ‘You got it? My child is going to be brought up right and im not leaving it here to fend for itself when it cant even talk ,cause knowing you and your little toy over there you will ignore it because you two will be to busy to give a damn .’ I said my anger flaring ‘Deal .’ Josh said rubbing his neck . ‘It’s a deal.’]]> 2012-05-01T06:19:23Z paralove25 Buzznet http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/0/5/3/7/8/thumb-21005378.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/0/5/3/7/8/synd-21005378.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/0/5/3/7/8/mob-21005378.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/0/5/3/7/8/gallery-21005378.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/0/5/3/7/8/large-21005378.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/0/5/3/7/8/feat-21005378.jpg paralove25 0 100 http://www.buzznet.com/groups/paramorefanz/journals/106087085/
Chapter 18 : Hayley p.o.v : I woke up extra early to get out the house before Josh woke up .I packed most of my clothes in my suitcase and all the other essentials in my back pack and headed downstairs .I grabbed my keys off the table and made my way to my car .Everything fit easily as I only had two bags .I started the car and headed to Jeremys. Josh p.o.v: I woke to the sound of a car engine .Dammit! I was meant to catch her before she left .I jumped off the couch and raced to the front door but I was to late ,she was alredy gone .I raced to the bedroom to see if this was all a joke ...Apparently not ,the bed was made and everything of hers was gone .I reached for my phone and hit speed dial ,to my utter disbeleif she answered 'What do you want Josh?' 'Come home.' 'No ,you still want me in a coma ,this is what it feels like .' I could here the car in the background ,where the hell was she going ? 'I didnt mean it ,I was angry .Just please come home ,please ' 'Goodbye Josh .' I could here her voice was choked ,she was crying . The line went dead .I dropped the phone onto my lap ,wondering what to do now .I tried to phone back but no answer so I left a message . 'Hayley ,please pick up .' I tried a number of times but still no answer .I decided to try one more time . 'Hayley please....I need you ...'   Chapter 19 : Hayley p.o.v: It had been a few days since I moved in with Jeremy and Sarah .Josh tried to phone me nearly every hour but I never answered . 'Hayles! Sarah and I are going out to dinner ,do you want to come with ?' 'No im fine but thanks jer bear .' I smiled up at him . 'Have you spoken to him?" 'Not planning on it .' 'I just got off the phone with Zac ,hes beating himself up about it .' 'Let him ,I couldnt care less .' 'Thats a total lie and you know it ,come on wheres the H-bomb we know and love .' 'She's right here .' I mumbled 'Im sorry ,what?' Jeremy teased 'Shes right here!' I screamed at him ,making him smile . I ran up to him to try and tackle him but he was to quick ,he grabbed me around my waist and slung me over his shoulder ,he started running around the house with me bobbing against his back .Sarah walked out her room all dressed up to see what the commotion was all about . 'Are you two at it again? ' she said smiling Jeremy stopped by the couch and released my legs making me fall head first into the couch . 'Nooo .' He said innocently Sarah started laughing .'Well ok ,but im ready .Hayley are you sure you dont want to come ?" 'Super sure ,you to have fun .' Sarah and Jeremy left after that .I went to bed pretty early that night ,only to be awoken two hours later with a tapping at my window . 'Hayley ,Hayley .' Wait a minute I knew that voice I moved over to the window and opened it . 'Josh? what are you doing here ,go home !' 'No just let me in please .' I moved out the way so he could climb in . 'What are you doing here?' 'Please come home .I didnt mean what I said .I was amgry and upset and I know I can never take it but please forgive me Hayles ,im nothing without you .' I just stared at him with my arms over my chest ,not saying anything .He gave up after a while and turned to the window . 'Wait!' I grabbed his arm as he turned back to face me . 'Im nothing without you ,I would rather die than stay alive if you were gone .' Before he could say anything I closed the distance between us and reached up on my toes as my lips met his ,his arms wound around my waist and we fell on the bed .For the first time we showed each other just how much we truly loved each other .   Epilogue : Hayley P.O.V : It has been six years since all the drama but alot has changed ...first there is no more drama ,Josh and I got married and now have two beautiful daughters ,Emma-Jade and Kelly-Anne .Every year I go and visit Chads grave ,Charges against Josh were dropped a couple months after the incident .Paramores sixth album had just been released and we are now all on tour .Theres one thing about all of us that has changed ...weve all grown up .Well I guess we had to considering wer'e all parents now . ''Mommy!' I looked over to the patch of grass all the kids were playing on outside the bus .All the kids had trapped Clayton in a pile of building blocks .Clayton was so much like Jeremy but he was one hundred percent Sarahs child .There was Zacs little boys ,Alan and Dennis ,there was no denying that they were zacs kids .And then there was Taylors kids ,a little girl Alexa and a boy Ryan .Life just couldnt get any better . 'Hey kids!' I looked over to the kids again ,all the guys were running around the kids and making them scream and runaway .I walked the short distance over to them . 'Do you guys have to terrorise the kids every five minutes?' I asked laughing . 'Of course .'Jeremy said tickling Alexa with one arm and holding down Clayton with the other  . 'Hey beautiful .' Josh said behind me . His arms snaked around my waist ,I tried to hold in my laughter because his arms could barely reach . 'He kicked!' I laughed .' Youre so set on it being a boy .' 'A father can tell .' 'How ? you already have two kids and they ,according to you they were meant to be boys but look you have two daughters .' I waited for an answer but Emma and Kelly swarmed us . 'Mommy! were thirsty .' Emma said as Josh picked her up and Kelly hugged my legs . 'Ok i'll go make juice .' 'Cream soda .' They both shouted . I walked over to the bus and started making a jug of cream soda for everyone .Before I finished making the juice 'bug' started kicking . 'Wow ,you like to kick dont you .' The kicking got worse as I clutched my stomach ,thats when it hit me . 'Josh!' I screamed He ran into the bus breathless .'Whats wrong ?' 'He's coming .' Josh phoned the ambulance and they arrived in no time  .We were on our way with everyone behind us and four hours in the delivery room before little Luke arrived on the sixteenth of January . 'He's gorgeous .' Sarah said a couple hours later in the hospital room . 'Absolutley! ' Jodie said ,who is Zacs wife .'No offence Josh but Luke has Hayleys looks .' Josh just laughed 'Although he has your eyes ,Josh .' I said smiling 'But he has your beauty .' Josh said kissing my forehead . 'Where does Luke come from ?' Zac asked knowing that Luke wasnt on our list of names . 'Uncle Zachary .' Kelly wouldnt shorten his name . 'Luke comes from mommys tummy .' Everybody errupted into laughter ,even Luke made a gurgle .Yes life was different but it couldnt get any better . Dedicated to my sisters Caryn and Kim who inspired Emma and Kelly (Even for just a short bit ) *To my Uncle Alan who shows you life is always good :) *To my uncle Dennis  -Miss you so much *And lastly to bug ,hurry up little one I cant wait to finally meet my little niece or nephew on the 16th January :)    Luke (Bug/my nephew) was born on the 21st of January 2011, he is the cutest little thing I have ever seen]]> 2012-05-01T05:47:02Z paralove25 Buzznet fanfiction joshayley paramore fan fiction fan fiction fan fiction ! fan fiction. fan-fiction fanfic pa ramore http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/0/5/3/6/3/thumb-21005363.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/0/5/3/6/3/synd-21005363.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/0/5/3/6/3/mob-21005363.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/0/5/3/6/3/gallery-21005363.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/0/5/3/6/3/large-21005363.jpg http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/2/1/0/0/5/3/6/3/feat-21005363.jpg paralove25 0 100 http://www.buzznet.com/groups/paramorefanz/journals/106087051/
Chapter 10: Hayley P.O.V: I was awake to early for me and I knew why ,the room was to empty .I rolled over to face Josh but he wasnt there .He must be making breakfast .I walked downstairs and into the kitchen ,everything was clean ,the glass shards were gone and the spilled water .I walked into the lounge ,Joshs shoes werent there ,his sweaty shirt that he had thrown at me after his jog yesterday was also gone .That was weird because Josh never did laundry ,only because he had no clue how .I heard mumbling from the other lounge ,I walked in to find Josh on the couch ,tied up and gagged .I ran to him and removed the gag . 'Josh ,what happened ?' 'Get out of the house now!' 'No, not without you .' I started to untie the rope around his hands and moved to his feet before he stopped me . 'Hayley! Get out of the house now! ' His shouting made me jump ,before I understood what he meant I heard a voice behind me . 'Good morning sunshine ,I hope you dont mind what I did to your little boyfriend.' 'You touch her! and I swear to God it will be the last thing you ever do ! I still need to beat your ass because of nearly killing her! are you so mental that you could just leave her like that ,youre a idiot! how could you even harm her ,youre twice her size you bastard!' Josh was so angry he was practicly growling. 'Ooh a little protective there ,are we Farro ,but you knew from the start she is mine .' I got up from my knees to face Chad . 'Whats wrong Hayls? Didnt you enjoy seeing me last night?' I didnt even react to his words ,I just heard Josh say one word . 'Run!'   Chapter 11 : Hayley P.O.V : As soon as Josh spoke ,I ran .I went straight for the door but it was nailed shut .Chad ran up behind me and grabbed me from behind and started to drag me up the stairs .I tried screaming for Josh but no one answered ,I then tried struggling against Chad but it was no use he was to strong . 'Come on Hayley ,You know you like it .' 'Get away from me! Let me go!' He dragged me up the stairs and into my bedroom ,he threw me on the bed and removed a gun from the back of his pants and placed it on the bedside table . 'Just in case you try anything .' I watched in horror as he grabbed the zip of my hoodie and yanked it down .I jerked my knee straight into his nose and heard a loud crunch .His nose started to bleed . 'You little bitch!' He raised his hand and the next thing I knew ,I felt a white hot flash across my face .I looked back at Chad ,he raised his hand and hit me again and again ,getting harder with each fist .He was to pre-occupied that I managed to to pull my leg against my chest and kick him in already broken nose ,he stumbled back letting out a howl of pain .I ran out the door screaming for Josh but no one would answer ...   Chapter 12 : Hayley P.O.V : I ran into the kitchen ,still calling for Josh but no answer . 'Hayley ,Hayley,Hayley you stupid little girl .' I turned to face Chad ,who had alot of blood around his nose and mouth .He had just walked into the kitchen and grabbed for a knife in the holder .I tried to run but he caught my hoodie forcing me to fall to the floor . 'You know its for the best Hayles ,if I cant have you ...well then no one can .' He raised the knife and brought his arm down aiming for my chest .I shut my eyes tightly .At that moment I heard a loud ringing in my ears .I opened my eyes to see Chad looking at his chest ,he had a red circle and it was getting bigger .Chad tried to stab me again but another loud ringing hurt my ears .I looked up at Chad he now had a red circle in his forehead .He slumped down as his eyes rolled back and collapsed on top of me .I started to panic and managed to get out from under Chad .I looked up to see Josh holding Chads gun .He pulled me into his arms . 'Your'e safe now ,I told you I would keep my promise Hayles .' He took me into the lounge and sat me on the couch and for the first time since tour ,I broke down crying .The only difference was I wasnt crying for Josh to wake up ,I was crying for the realisation that everything was finally over ...   Chapter 13 : Hayley P.OV: Josh just held me on the couch while the police came and took Chads body away .I couldnt get used to how this whole nightmare was over . *one month later* I was getting better ,alot better .Josh and I still lived in the same house ,we were really trying to put the last moth behind us . Josh and I were sitting on the couch and were watching Twilight for the hundredth time ,well it was Joshs first time watching it ,only because I forced him to . 'I don't get how this edward guy sparkles? and then every girl swoons over him .I mean come on real men play guitar .' He waggled his eyebrows at me and gave me cheeky grin. 'Because its romantic ,youre a guy of course you wont understand .' 'Whats so romantic about being a human disco ball?' I had to laugh at that he did have a point . Two minutes later the doorbell rang . 'I'll get it ,you sit and learn a few tips from Mr human disco ball .' I walked to the door and answered it . 'Officer Stanley ? Hi .' 'Good evening Miss Williams ,is Josh Farro home ?' 'Yeah he is .' I turned behind me to call Josh ,a few minutes later he appeared behind me in the doorway . 'Officer Stanley? uh Hi ,is something wrong ?' he seemed pretty calm while I was as anxious as hell . 'Josh Farro ,youre under arrest for the murder of Chad Gilbert .'   Chapter 14 : Hayley P.O.V : 'This has to be some kind of mistake !' Another policeman got out the car and walked towards the house ,he walked straight past me and started handcuffing Josh and lead him towards the van. 'No! Stop ,please this is some sort of mistake!' I ran after Josh and the other officer but Officer Stanley got ahold of me and held me so I couldnt run . 'Josh! Please stop! He never killed Chad it was self defence to protect me ,Please! Dont take him away ! please! I felt tears running down my cheek ,I was still struggling against Officer Stanley when Josh turned around . 'Hayley ,it will be ok .Dont worry .' Josh was trying to keep me calm . 'No its not Josh! Dont you see it never is!' Officer Stanley let me go and walked towards the car ,he climbed in the drivers seat ,while the other officer put Josh in the back and climbed in the passenger seat . I watched them as they drove off .I stood there for what felt like hours .I didnt even think ,I took off in the opposite direction ,not caring about the house or shoes .I wasnt even tired after 10 blocks ,I just carried on running until I got to a small white house . I ran up to the door and knocked so it hard it felt like the door was going to fall off its hinges . 'Hayley ? Is everything ok?' 'Zac! no its not ,Josh is in Jail.' 'For what ?' 'Murder.'   Chapter 15: Hayley p.o.v: 'Zac ,I dont know what to do anymore.' 'It will be ok ,dont worry ,we will get him out I promise .' I tired to calm down and listen to what Zac was saying but my mind was to pr-occupied ,I had to get Josh out tonight . 'Zac ,I have to go .' 'Wait Hayley ,where are you going ? its the middle of the night .' I turned around to look at him .'Im getting Josh out of prison .' 'Hayley wait !' But I didnt listen,I took off again heading for the police station .Thank God Franklin was so small ,it didnt take me long to get to the station.I burst through the doors ,getting a few nasty looks from some people sitting on the benches and headed straight for the front desk. 'Wheres Josh Farro?' I asked the woman at the front desk . 'He's in for questioning right now .' 'When will he be released ?' I was getting desperate now . 'Well after the questioning is done ,he will be put in a cell until his court case .' 'How long would that be?' 'Two to three months .' 'WHAT!' She sighed impatiently .'After the questioning...' 'I heard what you said!' I cut her off .'Where is he exactly?' 'She checked a chart .'Room twenty-six ,Why?' I didnt even answer her ,I unlocked the latch on the desk and lifted the counter ,I ignored the womans stare and walked right through . 'Excuse me! your'e not supposed to be back here .' I didnt stop walking ,I just turned to look back at her . 'Watch me .' I carried on walking as the woman tried to stop me .I got to room twenty six and didnt bother knocking .I opened the door to see Officer Stanley sitting at a table with Josh siitting at the other end .I walked up behind Josh and stared at Officer Stanley with a straight face .The woman from the desk barged in . 'Im sorry Officer Stanley ,I told her she wasnt supposed to go through and interupt you .' 'Its ok Lisa ,you may go.'   Chapter 16: Hayley p.o.v : 'Hayley ,you arent supposed to be in here .This is a murder case we are deasling with . 'Save that whole murder shit ,it was a murder in self defense.' 'And you would know how?' 'Because I was apart of it!' My voice surprised me at how loud it was . 'Hayles calm down .'Josh said . 'Why dont you explain Miss Williams .' 'Why dont you let these explain.' I threw my phone across the table to show him the pictures of my bruised neck ,my shoulder before the operation and my head before the wound healed . 'These could be fake and set up .' He was starting to test my patience . 'How is this set up?' I pulled the neckline of my shirt down to show the operation scar across my collarbone .Josh put his hand around my arm ,he could tell I was about to scream . 'And what about these?!' I pulled my shirt sleeves up to show him the razor scars . 'Miss Williams ,I understand but the facts remain.' 'Screw the facts!' 'Hayley.' Josh was trying to caution me but I ignored him . 'These are your 'facts'! Chad strangled me ,he beat me and I ended up in a coma,I cut myself and had stitches in my head after he threw me into a mirror .Those are the facts!' 'Miss Williams.' He was still calm 'Enough! 'Hayley ,calm down now!' Josh got out his chair and grabbed my arms . 'No ,Josh I wont ! im just telling him the truth!' Josh managed to get me to sit down after a while . 'Now Miss Williams ,I understand ...' 'You understand nothing! ' I cut him off 'Hayley!' Josh snapped 'He doesnt deserve to be here!How dare you ,the real culprit is dead! Josh saved me from getting killed myslef! You idiots dont know anything and you call yourself investigators! You are pointing fingers at the wrong people! You dont care about innocent people ! Just as long as you bastards get your fat paychecks while people rot in prison! 'Hayley thats enough!' Josh was really mad now I looked up at him ,he wouldnt look at me . 'Well Mr Farro ,we have a few decisions to make but for now ,your free to go .'   Chapter 17: Hayley p.o.v : As we walked in the front door ,Josh slammed it behind me . 'Hayley ,how could you be so stupid!' 'Me?' 'Yes you! how can you lose your temper in front of a police officer ,let alone the Sheriff!' 'Well im sorry for sticking up for my boyfriend and trying to protect him when obviously he cant do it himself !' 'I was doing just fine until you walked in!' 'I was just trying to help!' 'Well you shouldnt ! You always screw everything up ! You deserved getting beaten by Chad ! Because you were the idiot who snuck into my bunk! Because of you I got arrested! You should have never woken up from a coma! ' I just stared at him as the tears spilled over ,never showing any emotion . 'Hayles ,im sorry ,I was angry....' 'Save it ,I will be gone by morning .' My voice was cold . 'Dont go ...' His voice was barely above a whisper . My hand reached the necklace that I never took off ,the one Josh gave me .I clenched my fist around it and ripped it from my neck and threw it as his feet .He didnt even flinch he just stared at me .I finally broke eye contact and turned around ,heading straight for my room .I slammed the door but didnt bother locking it .I flopped onto my bed and reached for my sidekick .I immediatly started texting Sarah . Do you and jerm have space for me for a couple days? -Hayley Yeah ,sure ,are you ok? -Sarah Not really im moving out -Hayley Why? What happened? is Josh ok? -Sarah He's fine ,he just thinks it would have been better if I stayed in a coma -Hayley OMW! 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Hey guys, heres the story again :) I didnt change the characters in this story because as you know its already a book that I spun off with my own 'reasons' and it wouldnt be right to have my own characters when this is already a book :) fanfiction is still ok though ;) Part 1 : Josh p.o.v: I got off the bus and headed to my door .No one seemed to be home. When I got to the door there was a shoebox sized package on the front porch, it was addressed to me. I picked it up and headed up to my room, where I tore open the package and opened the box. It was full of cassette tapes? I’m sure Zac had a tape player, he kept everything. I walked into his room and started going through the drawers in his room. I finally found the tape player and headed back to my room. I went through the tapes; all of them were unmarked except for little numbers on them. I popped the first tape in and hit play... It was quite and then I heard breathing... You are probably shocked to hear my voice ...especially now .I’m not sure how many weeks it’s been ...but you should know by now that I am dead... No no no, it couldn’t be .The voice belonged to Hayley Williams. She was a girl in my class and two weeks ago she killed herself. I thought it over again and realised she wasn’t just a girl in my class, she used to be my best friend and secretly she was my crush... I made these tapes for a reason .To explain why I did it. Don’t think everyone has these tapes .If you get these tapes, it means you’re a reason for why I did it. There are ten reasons and some people appear more than once so don’t think you just skip to your parts. There are rules you have to follow if you are listening, once you are done you have to send the tapes on to the person after you ...and if you don’t? Well don’t think I’m that stupid. I have a person who has a copy of these tapes and if you do not pass them on, that person will release them in a very public way. Shaming you all... Was I first on the tapes? Was I a bad reason ...who was before me? I hit play again... So let’s get started with person number one shall we....Chad Gilbert... Yes Chad you are first on my list .Everyone knows Chad as the happy go lucky guy but I found a side to him he keeps hidden until he is alone with someone...no that’s wrong ,I found the other side of him when he is alone with a girl... What the hell could he have done to her? No one would ever hurt my Hayles...How did I not know? Everyone knows I love candy and monster. So every day I walk home and stop off at the little shop just near my house and every day I buy monster and a snickers bar since they’re my favourite. The old man behind the counter knew me well. He never spoke to me .I didn’t even know if he spoke English but everyday he would greet me with a simple nod and I would pay him the ten dollars and go home . Nice story Hayley but where does Chad fit into this? The one day I saw Chad in there, he was talking to the old man. As I suspected he didn’t speak English, he was trying very hard but Chad kept bothering him. As I went along the row of candy bars I watched Chad, he was putting candy in his pocket. And that’s when I noticed another person in the shop .I didn’t get a clear view but he had a back pack and was robbing the poor old man blind. I went up to the counter and pushed passed Chad; I took out the ten dollars and paid the man. While he was ringing the items up I whispered to Chad that he should tell his friend to stop. He turned to me with a grin and said ‘or what’. With that I left the store , a couple minutes later I noticed Chad following me .I didn’t like where this was going so I decided to take a short cut home ...the only problem with that was I had to walk through a alley . Franklin is known as being safe but I didn’t feel safe with Chad following me... Please don’t let him do anything, Chad I will kill you... I dipped into the alley and he started running .Once I saw this I ran as fast as I could. He called after me, his arm raised ...he was holding something. ‘Hayley you dropped something.’ He called after me. I stopped and he caught up. He had a ten dollar note in his hand. ‘You dropped this.’ He said out of breath. ‘No I didn’t.’ I argued .knowing I only had a ten dollar note in my back pack and I used that to pay the man behind the counter. ‘I think you did.’ He smirked. ‘No I didn’t.’ I still argued turning on my heel and walking away. He grabbed my wrist, tightening his grip. ‘Chad let go.’ I shouted. He didn’t let go of course .He pinned me against the wall and crushed his lips to mine ,he was very demanding and he wanted more ...and I don’t me more kissing .... I managed to kick him and ran home as fast as I could . That bastard! He was going to die when I saw him next ... The tape stopped, all I could hear was her breathing... How did you feel Chad? Did you feel good about yourself? That you were so close to rape ...did you have fun? Well now everyone knows Chad and I know I wasn’t the only one. Oops I guess now everyone knows I wasn’t the only girl that you took hold of ... How do feel now?   ‘Josh I’m home.’ My mom called up the stairs. ‘Hi.’ I called back. ‘Dinner won’t be long.’ She called. ‘I’m not really hungry.’ I whispered. ‘And why not?’ Zac said, appearing at my door. ‘Oh um had too much candy on the bus.’ I shrugged. ‘From who?’ He questioned. ‘Uh ...Jenna....Rice.’ I said. Zac’s eyes fell to the tape player in my hand .Understanding fell across his eyes. ‘Why do you have my walkman?’ He said. ‘School...Project ...that ok?’ I asked. ‘Sure just put it back when you’re done.’ He said, walking away. I hit play again... That’s your part done Chad .aren’t you glad it’s over? Put in the next tape to see who’s next.... Part 2: Josh p.o.v: ‘Josh you have barely touched your food.’ My mom stated. ‘I’m just not hungry.’ I shrugged, playing with my fork. ‘Are you sick?’ She asked concerned. ‘No, I just have a project to do, may I be excused?’ I asked. ‘Of course.’ She said, smiling. ‘Maybe I can help with the project.’ Zac said, cheerily. ‘No.’ I said spinning around. My mom shot me a look. ‘I mean, I don’t need help .it’s quite easy.’ I said. ‘Oh ok.’ He said. He turned around but I could see he was watching me through the corner of his eye. I walked into my room .flopping onto my bed. I didn’t want to listen to the tapes .I didn’t want to hear the reasons that she had ended her life. But I had to because I was one of them... So you decided to carry on listening ...good. The next person on my list is none other than Alex Gasgarth .You have all heard the rumours; don’t say you haven’t I know you have... Who hadn’t Hayley? It was all around the school within a couple days. The rumours were that her and Alex met in the park one night and got it on. Did I believe it? I didn’t know, I didn’t want to but Hayley never spoke about it. The rumours started that Alex and I met up in the park. Does it ring any bells? As you know I was deemed as the school slut. The one that would so anything to get into a guy’s bed .Alex you must be wondering why you are on here. The reason is simple; you did nothing to stop the rumours. You were seen as a hero and my reputation was ruined. Everyone knew I was the shy one, I never spoke to anybody. But I had just recently moved here, I was an easy target. Here’s the real story .When I moved here, I met Alex. My parents were setting the furniture up in the house and I was trying to get a box out the car and Alex walked up and wanted to help .We spent the rest of the day setting up my room. We talked about music and school .And that was it...Did you expect more? At school he ignored me .He would always text me but when he saw me in person it was different. And I still fell for him. Before I knew it I thought I was in love. He texted me the one night to meet him in the park and I jumped at the opportunity to see him. He was an hour late and I was sitting on the swings. When he finally got there, he surprised me he came up behind me on the swing and pulled me off, sweeping me into a hug. I burst into a fit of giggles. Which I’m sure is a surprise for most, because I guess you never saw me at school. I had seen you laugh. It was the best thing in the world to see you smile. And I loved your laugh. After that we lay under the stars. Just talking about life and then when we left he kissed me. That was my first kiss. She stopped talking and I wondered if the tape had stopped. What were you expecting something hot? Something more between us? No that’s it ...that was all that happened... I knew they had the rumours had to be false .She was never that kind of girl to get into bed with a guy .I was glad it was all cleared up. ‘Josh?’ My mom said appearing in the doorway. I pulled the headphones off my head and looked at her. ‘You alright?’ She asked. I just nodded .Not being able to say anything because the lump in my throat. I had started to really miss Hayley. ‘Honey?’ My mom asked. ‘Sorry, I was just thinking.’ I said wiping my eyes. ‘Was it about her?’ Ashe asked. I nodded once more. ‘It’s alright .She is in a better place, you never know she could’ve been very unhappy, she could’ve been abused and no one ever knew.’ She said, walking towards my bed and putting an arm around me. ‘I know.’ I sighed. ‘Hey what are these?’ She asked. ‘Oh um research for school.’ I said quickly picking up the tapes. ‘Well ok make sure you get some sleep tonight ok.’ She said before walking out. I sighed and put the earphones over my head again. Thats your story Alex. Well done for being the hero. You’re going to have to turn over the tape to listen to the next person. Josh Farro the next person will surprise you...   Part 3: Josh p.o.v: My hands were shaking as I put tape three in the walkman .Was this me? Could this be my reason why my best friend died? There was only one way to find out .By listening to the next tape. I hit play unsure if I even wanted to listen Here’s your surprise Josh Farro. The next person on my list is not you but it is someone close to you... It’s Zac? What did my brother ever do to Hayley they were so close. Jenna Rice, you’re next my bestie. You could hear heavy sarcasm in Hayley’s voice .Jenna and Hayley had been close once but I wasn’t sure what happened or if I had anything to do with it. Jenna...you were my first friend when I moved here, that I thank you for ...but I quickly learned what a backstabbing bitch you were... Whoa Hayley .Where did this come from? So that’s why Hayley distanced h I saw what you were doing Jenna .I got close to Josh and you wanted him. Remember that night you let me read your journal...I saw you wanted him and you forgot that you wrote that you had to get me out the way .Do you remember the day you invited me over to Starbucks to get coffee . erself from Jenna .Everything made sense now ,it was everyone who did her wrong who made her the small and timid person she was at the end .And I added fuel to the fire ...   We got coffee and you told me you wanted Josh and I must never speak to him again because I was in your way .Did you honestly think I would do that? Break Josh’s heart and never speak to him again? You were wrong my friend, he was my best friend .And to the people that get to listen to this, you will see the bad side of Jenna Rice, straight A student. I got up from the table not caring about the coffee and do you know what she did? She followed me. I turned around to see her fist raised and you know by now that she hit me. At my funeral Jenna, did you see the scar under my eye? Did anyone else notice it? That was caused by Jenna’s ring on her finger, on the hand that she used to hit me. I had noticed that scar Hayles...you told me it was your cat. I believed you but what funeral? There was no funeral... She made my life hell after that, anyway that she could torture me she did. The rumours of me being a troubled kid was her because I kept getting into trouble in school that was of her doing ... Be careful if you become friends with Jenna Rice people ,she will always get what she wants and you can’t do anything to stop her ... Next tape is someone who everyone knows as the good boy...  Part 4: Josh p.o.v: I always knew Jenna could be bitchy but I didn’t know she would go to that extent and hit Hayley .Compared to Hayley, Jenna was huge .Hayley had always been tiny. I popped the tape in, hoping it wasn’t someone I knew well... You thought I wouldn’t catch you out but I did .And you told someone you shouldn’t have told because everything would be blown out of proportion... and it was .There went the little piece of my reputation that I had left .Yes I’m talking about you Taylor York .... No no no no. Taylor! He was our friend! Hayley had kept her distance from him and was always around me but I thought that was because she didn’t know Taylor like I did .But maybe she knew Taylor and I didn’t... Everyone knows Taylor as the guy who writes the newspaper for school .His parents bought him fancy camera’s to encourage his hobby but he had another hobby that included sing his camera. As I’m recording this, I just wanted you to know Taylor ...I’m below your window .Just as you were below mine taking pictures of me to fuel your own desires. Why hadn’t Hayley told me? I would’ve told Taylor off  ,I could’ve helped ...I could’ve beaten his sorry ass ,even if he was my friend . It started when my parents were out of town to visit my grandparents. I spent most of my time in my room, playing music, writing music etc. And then I heard it .Faint clicking sounds and the only clicking that it could be was from a camera .My curtains are always half closed, I like the summer air .I made my way over to the window but when I got there I saw a figure running across the lawn .The next few nights it happened again .I didn’t know how to stop it. Let me ask you this Taylor, now that you know I was below your window watching you, do you have that feeling of no privacy? Does our chest close in and you feel claustrophobic? And another thing, what pictures did you manage to get of me? Coming out the shower or just sitting on my bed playing my guitar? What do you use them for? Are you that much of a psycho path that they fuel your teenage urges? Do you get turned on when looking at those pictures of me playing guitar? There was no way Taylor was like this! He was one of my best friends, I should’ve known ...but then again I didn’t know Hayley was depressed either... Do you know how I found you Taylor? Do you want to know or will it embarrass you? The one night I tried to walk to the window and catch you that way, you ran away as you had before but you dropped your beanie .You were the only person I knew, who wore a red beanie. I remember the next day when I handed you the beanie .Your face, you were in total shock .And from then on you started avoiding me. I knew I had caught you. I know you won’t be able to tell me .But why did you do it Taylor? that made me feel worthless like a piece of meat for everyone’s viewing and mostly from then on I got depressed ,because I thought I would never be loved ,I thought I would just be used ... But I loved you Hayley.... I thought you were my friend Tay? I heard her sniff .I knew she was crying... Turn over to the next tape for more reasons ...the next could be you...  Part 5: Josh p.o.v:  I covered my face with my pillow and screamed. I couldn’t take it anymore, I wanted Hayley back, I wanted my Hayley back .I wanted her in my arms and I wanted to be able to tell her everything would be ok... ‘Josh? Are you ok?’ Zac said peeking into my room. ‘How could she? How could she do this to me?’ I asked. ‘Who? Hayley?’ He asked ‘Why would she kill herself, leave all of us behind and just give us these.’ I said blowing my cover on what the tapes really were. ‘She needed to explain .And she couldn’t do it face to face.’ He sighed. That woke me out my misery stupor. ‘You know about these?’ ‘Taylor, told me.’ He said quickly. ‘Why didn’t you tell me?’ I asked. ‘I couldn’t, you had to find out for yourself.’ He shrugged. ‘What number am I Zac?’ I begged. ‘Josh...I don’t know .You have to find out by yourself by listening to all the tapes.’ ‘Zac...Please.’ ‘I can’t...I’m sorry.’ He said before walking away. I lay back down on my bed ...I can’t believe he knew... I put the headphones back on my head and put in the next tape. Amy Brenan...Everyone knows you’re the go to girl .I just know you as the cow of the school. You’re the head cheerleader. I guess you weren’t thinking when you passed that comment about me; did you think it would lead to my death? Well I guess you got your answer .By the time you made your comment to me, I was already so low and you just pushed me further. I wanted a change because of low self esteem so I dyed my hair red, it was a big change from blonde but for a minute I liked how it looked .But then you came along and made me feel low and you wouldn’t let go that my hair was red and it seemed to be getting more attention from everyone else, when it should have been focused on you. You made the last days of my life hell. So how do you feel now Amy? Some may call this a stupid reason to go and kill myself but when you are already so low, everything seems to have a huge effect .I kept this tape short .Just so Amy could remember what she said and for once feel bad about how she makes everyone feel.... I always knew Amy was a cow .I never knew that she picked on Hayley. Well she picked on everyone. Gosh I felt so stupid .I should’ve seen all the signs. She had put up her hand in Life orientation. I remembered that, she had asked why we couldn’t talk about suicide and how the person would be feeling and how we could help them. Everyone had shun her down, even the teacher...including me. I said that person was stupid to even consider it. Life couldn’t be so bad that they would want to kill themselves. Gosh I was an idiot, I basically helped my best friend kill herself ....   Part 6: Josh p.o.v: I popped in the next tape eager to see who was next even though I was scared at the same time... I know these tapes are short .I’m sorry for that ...but because being on these tapes is embarrassing enough ,I don’t want to embarrass you further will every single detail and word said between us .You just need to know why you are on my list and why you were part of me ending it all... She was quite for a few minutes...I knew what this meant .She was trying to control her emotions and keep from crying. I could here she wanted to speak but didn’t know how to start... Jeremy Davis, you’re the next person on my list... Her voice was squeaky and knowing Hayley her voice was only like that when she was scared. Jeremy was known as the jock of the school .Along with Chad Gilbert and Alex Gasgarth .They were the big boys. I couldn’t believe all of them had a piece of my Hayley. Had made her want to kill herself... I was only sixteen Jeremy! How could you? What did he do Hayley? I’m sure everyone remembers Amy’s party, am I right? It was filled with alcohol and sex...I was invited can you believe it ,after all she had put me through ,I was still invited .And maybe now I know why ...maybe I don’t. I declined because I knew it could only cause trouble .I was house sitting that night anyway and guess where it was ...two houses down from Amy’s party. The night of the party I thought what the hell, why not. So I walked down to the party, I walked through the house and to the back yard. In the Jacuzzi I found Jenna and Jeremy .She was laughing as if he was the best thing ever and then her eyes fell on me. I saw her scowl before she covered it with a smile. ‘Hayley! Come here.’ She said cheerily. I walked over and she begged me to join them. ‘I don’t have my bathing suit.’ I said. ‘Neither do we.’ She smirked. I realised then that she was naked in the Jacuzzi with Jeremy .The only thing that kept her from being exposed was the bubbles .I didn’t know what to do, at this point I was already so low in my life. My hands lingered on my shirt before I walked away and then stopped .I walked back to the Jacuzzi .And began taking my clothes off .I didn’t go as far as Jenna and Jeremy .I stayed in my underwear and got in. No Hayley...you didn’t.... I looked at Jenna .She smirked at me and got out .Heading back into the house. I was left alone with Jeremy. At this point I didn’t care what would happen and the worst did...Jeremy came onto me and I did nothing to stop him. His hands were touching me and I just sat there. I was too weak to even consider stopping him .I let the tears run down my face and this just urged him on .Eventually I screamed and hit him .I don’t know how long it had been but I lost it . How did I not see you Hayley? I was there Hayley .You should’ve found me, I could’ve helped... I got out, grabbed my clothes and inside the house. After that night it was the first time I fully considered suicide. Thank you Jeremy for making me feel even more worthless than I already did... I let the tears silently run down my face .I had no idea .She had always seemed so happy with me ,like nothing was wrong ...Now I knew that was a mask .It wasn’t Hayley at all... Part 7: Josh p.o.v: I sat there in my room .Silent ...not moving... I heard my door creek open and my mom peeked in. ‘Josh...We’re all going to bed.’ She said. ‘I won’t be much longer.’ I said, quickly wiping my eyes. ‘Ok well when is this project due?’ She asked. ‘Friday.’ I lied. ‘Ok well  ...if you want you can stay home tomorrow and finish it. I just want you to get some sleep.’ ‘Ok I will.’ She left after that and I hurriedly put the next tape in. Alex Gasgarth you make a second appearance and this is probably the most humiliating of them all .That same night at the party .I ran into one of the rooms to get dressed .There was a girl in there but she was passed out, so I thought it would be ok if I got dressed and then left her to sleep without her knowing .As I was putting my hoodie back on the door started to open and I didn’t want another episode of the Jacuzzi, so I ducked into the closet .And cue Alex. He walked in knowing exactly what he wanted .He went straight up to the girl...pulled his pants down....and he ...he... I understood exactly what she was talking about ... I never knew he was that sick in the head... What was going through your head Alex? What were you thinking as you raped that girl? I still to this day don’t know who it was but that gives you know excuse. You could’ve have ruined that girls life .Given her some disease because who knows you could’ve raped some other girl .You could’ve raped me if you had the chance and if I wasn’t careful enough .After you were done my throat was raw and my eyes burned .I didn’t know I had been screaming and crying. You walked out and joined the party again, like nothing had ever happened... I flung the earphones from head, jumped off my bed and started throwing around anything in my path. ‘Josh  ...dude what are you doing.’ Zac said running into my room. ‘He killed her he killed my Hayley and I helped. ‘What are you talking about?’ He said closing the door. ‘Alex Gasgarth. That idiot.’ I screamed ‘I know ...I know....Just be glad it wasn’t Hayley.’ He sighed. I turned to him in anger. ‘I couldn’t care if it was Hayley or not .The fact is he raped an innocent girl and you tell me to forget it.’ ‘Look calm down and listen to the tapes, you need to finish the tapes.’ He urged me. ‘Ok ok, youre right.’ I said sitting back down... ‘I just need to finish the tapes ...only three more.’ I sighed.   Part 8: Josh p.o.v: I sat on my bed trying to calm my breathing before I started the next tape .I didn’t need to punch anything else.... I picked up the tape marked eight and put it in. I could hear shallow breathing but she wouldn’t speak. Josh Farro... She squeaked my name she was nervous again. I don’t have much to say except I’m...Sorry. You were my best friend and I was always hoping you would be something more because I ...loved you. You weren’t a reason why I ...ended things .I had t explain to you why I did it because I couldn’t let you talk me out of it. My heart got stuck in my throat... I always thought I wasn’t good enough for you and Jenna wanted you, so I had to back off unless I wanted my face crushed in again. I always thought I wasn’t good enough for you... You’re right Hayley you weren’t good enough...you were perfect for me... I also always thought you wanted Jenna. The way you looked at her... Those were looks for you Hayles .She was in the way. The reason why I did this ...My home life wasn’t great .No I was never abused but my parents were never happy with what I did .And being pushed down back in Meridian and then again here .I developed depression and was never treated .My parents wouldn’t believe it ,so no medication for me ... I loved you Joshua Neil Farro and I’m sorry for the pain that I have caused you .But life was getting too much for me. I remember when we kissed for the first time .It was accidently, I was upset and you didn’t know how to shut me up ,so you kissed me .It was the best feeling in the world let me tell you that. I’m positive my heart stopped beating then and there. I thought of you every night .How sweet you were to me and how caring you were .I also thought about how cute you were and how I wanted to kiss you again. I wanted to fall asleep next to you, so you could keep me warm in the winter... I could tell she was blushing and heard a faint giggle. Joshie...please I beg you .Don’t let my death keep you from living your life ,find that special girl ,get married and have beautiful children and please think of me sometime ... All the time...I will think of you every minute... I just needed you to know that you did nothing in causing my death .You prevented it for a while longer. So be happy Josh...And remember that I love you... I will try and be happy. 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