Glow One Shot
give it a second try please!:)
Reblogged from +revolution*star+
just a little one shot i wrote, hope you like it. R*
There we were sitting on the ground of the empty parking lot, the sun was setting down and sended the shadows of trees and our tour bus reflected on the ground along with our shadows, hers was rather small compared to mine, i don’t even know for how long we’ve been sitting there and just saying nothing. I looked at her since she wasn’t even noticing i was doing so. We finished our show hours ago and somehow ended up stuck here outside while the rest of your band mates were inside the bus, goofing aroun and probably eating. I watched her run her hand throug her greezy blond hair, her green bangs were almost faded now, she was wearing her black skinny’s and a white tank top, there seemed as if there was nothing special about this girl in particular. Tons of people would go crazy if they’d just see her on stage while i saw her every day, she was around me all the time, so shouldn’t i be crazy about it too ? It wasn’t really it, she was my friend, we shared love for music but sometimes fought and recently a lot, i knew the reason of those fights and i knew that she knew it as well, we were just both too stuborn to admit it to each other. I licked my dry lips and crossed my arms on my chest glancing up into the sky, it was dark blue, seemed so ice cold and mysterious, tiny stars were already appearing here and there. I sighed deeply and looked down at my shoes then at the pavement traced with yellow stripes that i could still see but soon everything would be dark and the only source of light would be the windows of the tourbus. But when you’re outside and the sun falls down you’d still see well in the dark, even though i wasn’t a cat i didn't had some special abelities to see better in the dark but i knew i could still see her features. The sun was just about to dessapear and the ground was almost yellow ,glowing with light, a few moments later it setted. I sighed one’s more and looked at her, Hayley kept staring at her converses and twirling the paper crown around her finger as the other one rested on her lap, i rolled my eyes and looked away remembering the prank that was made on us during the show. A fan gave those crowns to Hayley and she thought thought it was funny and grabbed them putting one on her head and did the same to me even if i tried to tell her not to, i was so damn tired and really wasn't in the mood for stupid things. And when we had those crowns someone started to yell : long live to the king and queen ! I know it’s dumb to get mad at that but i knew exactly why they did it, just because Hayley said that she asked me to go to the prom with her, i did accept even though we were only friends and than she started to tell all of those girly things, she wasn’t girly at all but at that time she wanted to be the queen. She did win but an other guy was the king and she told that i got really jealous and practically cried and she thought that it was cute ! Of course how nice to make a total idiot of me because all of the interviewers of the radio station were listening to her in awe and believed her every word, they all laughed at me. I of course haven’t cried, i just left because she complitely forgot that i was her date for the night and was dancing with the king dude for the rest of the night, end of story that i don’t even care about becase it was seven years ago. So now everyone things that we dated in the past and creates all sorts of rumors, i’m sick of that and Hayley’s isn’t really helping. Even thought i saw how shy she got when everyone started to chant that at us of course she then laughed it off and continued the show, i had pulled the crown away and didn’t cared about it anymore, somehow Hayley managed to take them with her and kept them with her, God knows why.
I felt a bit cold now and rubbed my arms for warmth, i glanced at Hayley wondering why she wasn’t cold wearing her tank top. I watched her for a little more, she seemed to be in deep thoughts right now, i shruged and looked away again resting my back on the cold metalic wall of the tour bus or more our second home. I miss home, my mom was crying again when i left two weeks ago and i feel like it’s been two month or something. Don’t get me wrong i love this, i love playing shows and watching stupid movies and eating cereal at all times of the day and night but i hate to just sit there besides a person that has something important to tell you and just not saying a word, being unable to pronounce any word even if you have a whole book written in your mind.
I glanced back at her again, she had pulled away the paper gold crown and started in front of her, her eyes closing and openeing slowly as if she was falling asleep, her black mascara was slighty smuged around her eyes and it made her look even more tired. I raised my eye brows when i heard a soft laugh escape her lips, she looked down letting her green bangs cover her eyes before she narrowed them at me, i was caught staring and didn’t looked away immediatly, she smiled and looked back down again.
- That was a silly prank, she said quietly finally breaking the eternal silence.
- Yeah, i said unable to hide my frustration, seemd like they loved your stories, i looked away, she was silent for a moment.
- You’re still mad ? she asked softly.
- You made a fool of me but that’s alright, i’m kind of used to be threated like this by you, she sighed softly.
- And you think that i did the same at the prom ?
- I just left, i pointed out, you’re lying so much that even forgot the real version of the story, i shook my head.
- I just added some deatils, she said quietly, Josh you can’t be mad, you did run away.
- I walked away, i looked at her now, you just left me there after you got the crown and danced with that guy, i felt that you didn’t needed me anymore and left.
- I didn’t used you to be the queen, she said quietly, i let out a laugh.
- Seven years had passed d’you think i still care ? i asked looking at her, she shrugged and looked ahead of her.
- If you still that mad than i don't even know, seems like you do care, she said, i cleched my teeth feeling a bit of sarcasm in her voice.
- I was actually happy that you got the crown because all you could think about was the prom night and i actually cared about you because you were really getting ready for this, i said, even though i found your dress rediculously long and that bow, i made a face, really ugly.
- Josh, she said quietly, don’t try that.
- What ? i snapped, thank you my best friend for taking me to that friggin prom and giving me a chance to win, i mocked her and sighed.
- I didn’t did it for that, she said quietly, i glanced at her hands that played with the crowns again.
- You have to grow up, there’s no prom Hayley, no crown, i muttered, it’s aint some game anymore ! i snapped.
- D’you know why i kept those ? she asked putting the golden paper crown above her head, i sighed.
- I don’t know, i shrugged, to feel like a queen again ? i muttered.
- I just wanted you to be that king, she smiled, i looked at her as she set the crown on her head and smiled to me.
- Well i never wanted to have that stupid prise, that’s for girls seriously, i shook my head, Hayley you did left me, just admit it.
- I’m sorry, she whispered i felt her smile, i know i’ve been stupid to dance with him all night but i got really sad when you left, she whispered.
- Wow i’m touched, i muttered.
- I thought i’d have the courage to tell you and well i didn’t had the chance and i still haven’t had the chance to talk to you honestly about my feelings.
- What ? i asked in sibelief.
- What i’m trying to say is that, she smiled and placed the other crown on my head, what i’m trying to say is that i had a crush on you Josh and i thought i’d tell you what i feel at the prom and than i got exited about the winng than happpy and then i was upset cause you left, see what i mean now ? she looked into my eyes placing her hands on my shoulders.
- What feelings Hayles ? i asked softly, we were only friends,i trailled off feeling a little awkward now.
- Yeah well that’s cause i was scared to tell you, she smiled and sighed, Josh i think that it’s not that bad that we didn’t date in the past.
- Date, i repeated and touched the paper crown on my head, you wanted to date me ?
- Well maybe not date you because i wasn’t sure of how it would work, Hayley trailled off, you know how shy i was.
- You still are, i chuckled softly, you were blushing like mad when they made the prunk on us, i smiled, she giggled.
- That’s cause i remembered the prom and thought about my feelings for you, maybe it’s not that late ? We lived a little more now, we know a little more now and it that could help.
- In what ? i chukled, us dating that could be funny, we’d confirm all the rumors, i laughed.
- Well they’ll thing they were right, she grinned, my heart stopped when she took my hand in hers.
- How can you want to date me, i’m just Josh, i whispered, i’m nothing but your band mate and friend.
- Well that’s so great, she whispered and my heart nearly stopped when she moved closer resting her head on my chest wrapping an arm around my waist.
- What’s so great, i know you since we’re twelve and i sometimes feel like your just a dude, i laughed nervously.
- I know a lot about you too, she smiled looking up to meet my eyes, but you’ve been so distant lately, she said quietly.
- We’re fighting all the time and it’s ain’t helping, i said quietly and run my hand through her hair , i’d love to be with you but you’re making it impossible.
- Me ? she asked quietly, c’mon Josh you're always fighting for nothing.
- Fine i’m picking up fights for no reason, i said sarcastically.
- Yeah cause you’re jealous, she said i could hear her smile.
- No way, i grinned, is there’s something to be jealous of ? i said in moking surprise.
- Well i don’t know but some guys seem to know something about me, they woudln’t be all arond me than, she said with a chuckle.
- See you want a fight again, i sighed.
- No, she smiled and looked at me, i don’t want to fight, i’m tired of it, she whispered sounding dead serious now, i looked at her face from side to side, wasn’t she beautiful, wasn’t i falling for this girl ever since we met ?
- Hayley i’m tired too, i said, can we please make a stop to this ? i whispered.
- How Josh ? she whispered.
- Well ether we’re together ether i’m leaving, she was abou to speak but i cut her off, because you’re killing me, i can’t be arond you anymore it makes me want to be with you even more. She let out a shaky breath before cuping my face in her hands, her crown fell down of her sudden move, i stared down at her.
- Let’s make it end than, she breathed out pressing her lips to mine, at that moment everything ended and started, maybe we would fight again but it would eventually and and it was the begining of us. My arms found their way around her waist. This was incredible, just when i was geeting into this sweet moment she pulled away not to far away though.
- Josh d’you even know what you’re doing ? she breathed.
- I’m, i blushed, you kissed me, i defended, she laughed quietly and shook her head.
- You let me kiss you now it’s to late, she smirked.
- No i didn’t meant that, i let out a soft laugh, you want me to be with you ?i asked probably sounding so nervous, she nodded in agrement before crashing her lips to mine, i knew her answer now. I smiled pulling her a little closer, her hands tangled into my hair an the crown feel on the ground, for the first time in my life i was realizing what i’ve been missing all of this time, i neded her. When we eventually pulled away i smiled letting her wet lips brush mine, she groaned as i pulled away complitely.
- You want it all to fast, i joked eventhough my heart was beating so fast, she shoved my playfully and sighed content, her head rested on my chest, now i was happy, we were both happy. I looked up at the sky seeing a light glow, there was a star among the others and i had never seen her before.
- That must be our star, Hayley whispered as i noticed her staring into the sky as well, she shivered and i smiled grabbing her hand and standing up.
- Let’s get inside, i smiled, she pouted and looked back at the ground.
- Can you stay with me here ? she smiled.
- It’s cold, i pointed out , there’s still the back lounge, i smiled unsure of myself, she grinned and let go of my hand before grabbing the crowns from the floor.
- You let your crown feel king, she smiled settling the crown on my head, she smiled widely placing her own crown on her hand.
- I love you, i smiled kisisng her softly.
- I love you, she mumbled smiling and put her hand on the door knob , i smiled to her as we stepped into the tour bus, warmth hit my skin and i relaxed immediatly, glancing at the guys who didn’t seem to noticed us i followed Hayley who was tugging on my hand impatiently, i chuckled at her golden crown realizing that i had one too.
R*
