It's been a year since the last time I saw his face, brown eyes, brown hair, the lip ring that makes him more hot and his smile. After what he did to the band I still missed him every single day. I miss everything about him maybe because he used to be my best friend. He's always there for me whatever the situation is. But everything has changed, everything has fall apart. He decided to quit the band with his brother Zac and not telling us what is the real reason until he posted a blog. The exit estatement makes me feel like the whole life i've spent with him was just all a lie. After he posted that blog he never show us not even talk to me or text me. He hate me so much like hell.
I remember before there is a moment when were fighting because he said that i've been changing and not even care about the band, that all I wanted is fame and money. And that I ruined his life for being like a puppet of me. It hurt me so much cause I know in my self that I care for the band and I care for him more than my self. But the one that hurt me so much is when he said that he regret for falling inlove with me. That's the time I told to my self to move on and let go.
When we are in tour i'm avoiding his eyes and trying my best to be busy with the other member especially Jeremy. He became my super bestfriend after I broke up with Josh. He know's everything. He know's that i'm still inlove with him and the truth that I broke up with him for the sake of the band not for my own sake. And sometimes i'm being busy acting like i'm so inlove with my boyfriend Chad Gilbert when he is with us. I know Josh dont like him because he's a jerk to them but I can't do anything, he's the only one that helps me to move on and forget the past. He cares me so much and he's now starting to be friends with Jeremy who never really care because Jerm doesn't like him since like forever.
"He Hayles! Let's go, show will be start in just a a couple of minutes" Taylor the-tall-thin-afro-guy called me from behind standing at the door of dressing room.That's when my thoughts back into reallity.
"Okay Tay i'll be there" then I got up from the chair infront of a huge mirror. I look to my self first before I got out and then we started the show.