heheh I guess the title said it all.. also, I just wanted to mention that I probably wouldn't have posted this if it weren't for youaretheonly and +revolution*star+ , so thank you guys for encouraging me and sticking to this story!! This chapter is for youuu :-) hahah thanks for reading as always guys and sorry again for the long wait. okay, here we go.
“I’m not the one asking questions about drugs like a lunatic. You get him to back off.” He demanded.
“What makes you think I can do that? I haven’t known him for that long so why would he listen to me? Like I said before, he’s not my boyfriend or my anything for that matter, so I’m afraid I can’t help you. And even if I could, I would never do anything to your favor.”
I wanted nothing more than to leave this car and never speak to him again, but when he brought Josh up, it was like I was glued to the seat. Still, I held the car door open.
“You think I would believe that you have no influence on him? He's in our circle of friends now.” He smiled and I looked at him with despise.
“You and I are not friends.” I stated through clenched teeth.
“Even so, you two are. Otherwise he wouldn’t keep looking out for you. You know you can convince him. After all, friends protect friends right? I guess the real question is, will you?”
I heard the wheels scratch against the pavement as I was making my way up to my front porch.
The car ride with Pete gave me unexpected and totally mixed feelings. I wasn’t sure whether or not to take him seriously. I mean, could he really mean all the things he said? Like, Pete…would he really hurt someone? Okay, I knew he was a total jerk and not sorry at all about anything, but this was just too much. How far could he go? Then again, I never really knew him maybe. Last summer when we all hung out, he seemed nice. He was nice. Like I said, I never saw the signs. Until now. Except now it was too late. I couldn’t go back in time, back to the night at the club, back to the beginning of summer and tell myself to not trust him..
Like things weren’t messy enough, he just had to bring Josh into the mix of it all too.. like I hadn’t enough of trouble to worry about. Wait, was I worried about Josh? Why? He could probably handle himself, right? Still, if Pete really meant what he said then, I couldn’t just ignore it and let him go after Josh. After the beach-day I had decided to never have him fight with Pete again, or to just prevent anything like that to ever happen, especially because of me. Even though he himself had contacted Pete for some yet unknown reason..
Like I wasn’t tired of trying to figure things out, I still had to face John and grandma at home. Gosh there were so many things going on, I felt like my head was about to shut down due to an overload of thoughts and events, problems, solutions and mysteries. Okay, so, small steps, take one thing at a time. I tried to breathe out. My feet walked slowly, and even though I wanted to get inside, my body felt too heavy for me to move somehow. It was impossible to ignore Pete in order to focus on my mom. But I had to. At least now. If I knew where Cynthia was, maybe I could take off and never bother Josh or have Pete bothering me again… With me out of the picture, I’d doubt Pete go after Josh. That way, everyone would be satisfied and I would finally find Cynthia! Another face flew at me first though, as I had managed to walk to the porch, and I stopped suddenly, surprised.
“Hayley!! What the hell?? What is going on?” Laura’s squeaky voice reached my ears as she stood up. Her dark-brown hair was just long enough to reach her shoulders as she was wearing a dotted hairband along with a thin, pink tank top and jeans shorts.
I met her worrying gaze and saw her waving in front of me. Right..forgot about Laura. I hoped she wasn’t too angry with me for hanging up on her. Though, the chances for that were very minimal. I tried to sooth my voice as much as possible.
“Laura..hey, what are you doing here?” She walked away from the porch she had been sitting on and down the stairs, past me. Then she swung around so quickly, I didn’t even have time to take a step myself to follow her.
“Uhm, hello! I called you and then you hang up on me for no one else but Pete. I don’t even understand why you bother to do so much as glance at him after what he did. I mean he drugged you! And when someone drugs you, I think that is a sign, a very big, warning sign, to stay away from that person. He’s danger! And you go after him!? Seriously, you’re like a… danger-magnet.” She stated with a tone that was quite harsh and I couldn’t help but to feel aggravated and stupid at the same time. Danger-magnet. Couldn’t have said it better myself huh.
“Well, if I am, then you should probably stay away from me.” I said, sounding as harsh as her. Maybe she was right. All I ever did was get into trouble and now, I was pulling Josh down with me too. All this time.. I’ve done nothing but dragging him down with me. The party, the club, the fight… I needed to put an end to it. For good. Then it hit me. I think I finally figured it out. That was what he meant when he said “you don’t think how this affects anyone else but you.” I blinked and turned around.
“Wait, Hay. I didn’t it mean it like that, okay? I was just worried. I mean, I still feel guilty after what I did to you and I don’t really want to bring it up, but... I don’t get it. What did Pete say or do to make you talk to him?”
I thought about it for a while. I didn’t want to say anything but I knew Laura was not the type to give up.
“It was just a stupid meeting, really.” I said reluctantly.
“Not stupid enough to make you keep talking to me. Come on, Hay, there must be something else.” She continued.
I turned around and looked at her unwillingly.
“He had information..about Josh.”
And then I just started to blurt stuff out.
“Yes. And now everything is even more messed up. I’m not even supposed to be standing here, talking to you, I’m supposed to be grounded and I need to stay away from Pete and I need to convince Josh to stay away from him too and it’s all just such a mess and you know what, I never should have gone out on that walk with Lily in the first place! And I shouldn’t have gone to Josh because I ran in to Pete and now they think I’ve escaped and I need to confront John to find out where Cynthia is and ugh you see how twisted all of this is?!” I breathed after saying it in all one breath. Wow. It was even messier hearing all of it.
Laura looked at me with big eyes and I realized I was taking deep breaths, while panting around.
“Wow. That is a lot going on there for you.. I’ve never seen you so freaked-out before.” She said. She came closer and put a hand on my arm.
“Hey, do you want to talk about it? I had no idea John knew where your mom was.”
I remembered our early days, when we skipped all of this. I never told her about how I really felt about Cynthia leaving. But.. after all that’s happened, we had gotten closer somehow and I was actually glad to have Laura by my side.
“Yeah it’s just.. I overheard him talking with Lily in his office one day. Turns out he’s been hiding it all along. I just need to know where she is. To get some answers maybe. I mean, all of it leads to where I am now. It led me to the mental hospital. I don’t think I can let it go until I see her.”
“Yes, of course. I’m sorry, Hayley. I never realized you felt like that. I just assumed everything was fine.”
“Well, so did I. I guess.”
“Okay, well you need to talk to him then. Call me when it’s over and please, take it easy. Focus on your mom. I’ll handle Pete.” She said with a smug tone.
“Excuse me? You will do no such thing.” I replied, looking at her seriously.
Laura rolled her eyes.
“Fine, we will handle him later..” She added much more sourly. But she didn’t get it.
“No, not we, I will deal with him. On my own.”
“Oh gosh, Hayley. Are you serious? Come on!”
“You don’t even know what’s going on!” I ranted, almost as loud as her.
“Well, no not all of it, it was kinda hard to follow you in between there..but if you tell me the rest I can start up a plan.” She said, suddenly eager to begin.
I couldn’t help but to smile just the tiniest. Not because I had missed her so called plans, which always got us in trouble, but bringing that up brought old times back and even though her plans were funny sometimes, I had to stick to my original plan for once. I tried to go back to normal face.
“No no, not one of your plans, not this time. It’s just for the best that you stay out of this, okay?”
I looked at her and shook my head. She seemed to get even more frustrated.
“Look, it’s time I started dealing with things on my own and not getting EVERYONE involved. It’s my mess, so I need to get it together.”
“And by everyone, you mean Josh?” She said, tilting her head and looking at me from her side.
“No.” I said, obviously.
“And how come you always have to bring him up?” I asked, annoyed.
“You do.” She said after a while, starting to nod her head and smile somehow.
“So what? You’re included too. I’m not dragging someone down with me again. And what is this, a police interrogation?” I said, knowing she’d know what I mean.
“Hey, do not mock me for that! I am not acting like a police investigator, although, CSI is awesome.”
“Then stop arguing with me over this.”
Of course she didn’t though.
“But seriously, you’re not getting us involved! We choose to be so it’s not your fault! I mean, I would just loooove to see Pete go down. Really..”
“We. You said ‘we’.” I thought out loud. Laura stopped talking.
“Who’s ‘we’?” I asked, feeling uncertainty creep inside of me.
“I did? Oh well, I just meant, you know, me and…Josh.”
“Oh so you’re a team now?” I shot back, folding my arms.
“You just don’t understand, you’re not dragging us down or whatever-“
“No, you don’t understand. Look, we need to stop talking to him or something. He can’t be involved in this.”
“He already is involved, Hay. Whether you like it or not.” Laura said, unbelievably calmly.
I shook my head and looked down on the asphalt. There was no point in fighting Laura, but there was no point for her to fight me as well. She was wrong if she thought she could convince me or make me change my mind.
“Look, let’s just end this conversation here. I’m sticking with my original plan which does not involve you or anyone else for that matter.”
“The end!” I said and silenced her. She looked mad and disappointed, like she had just lost a big court case.
“Fine. You win. Now go and talk to your dad but know, that I am not happy on you.”
“I can deal with that.” I said and bumped her shoulder. She glared at me evilly. She then softened.
“Hayley, are you sure? I mean, I’m mad at making plans, I’m actually known for making exceptionally good ones.”
“Right..yeah I’m sure.” I said, small-laughing. I was ready to go inside, but stopped myself.
“Remember, do not say anything about this now to Josh. I’ve already blurted out too much information to you and I don’t want anyone to know I talked to Pete. So no communication between you two, okay?”
Something in Laura’s eyes glistened but she remained calm.
“Laura, I’m serious! Do not call him..”
“I won’t! Gosh.. I can keep a secret you know.” She said, obviously hurt by my comment.
I really hoped she could though.
hm...will she keep it? thanks so much for reading! I will do my best to try and update soon again can't promise anything for now, but hopefully soon!! :)