Speak Now - 9

A/N: I love you guys. Simply. I love you.

Always and Forever

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The weather in front of her was a down pour of rain, hitting her car windows like she was in the middle of the ocean exploring the depths and wonders of the sea.  Hayley always was fond of this kind of weather. It meant big comfy sweaters and leggings and one thing, seeing her mom.

As Hayley clicked on her headlights as it got darker, she travelled down the fimiliar road and parked in front of the house that was once white but now was grey as to change with the weather. 

Hayley pulled her guitar case from her car and put it over her head careful not to bash it against anything and ran up the sidewalk, a shrill laughter coming from her when she heard two of mom's black labradors bark at her presence.

Hayley had missed this but she missed someone also.

The date with Chad had not gone the way she expected it too, infact, it was better than she'd hope for. Although, she never really understood why Josh followed her and asked her those questions. She would of never played footsies in front of his fiancee! But Josh had pissed her off so much that night, she still was angry.

How the hell could he have not told her he was getting engaged by someone so gorgeous. Although, she was annoying on the side and a bit apprehensive and distraught when it came to Josh conversating with other people.

When the door opened, and the yellow light dazzled the darkness, Hayley grinned at her mom.

"Hey ma." Hayley says and fills her heart get heavy and hugs her tight.

"Sweetpea, come in, come in!"

Usually, Hayley would be eating a big bowl of vegetable stew and watching her favourite movies, the only movies she would watch are the ones, John Cusack holding a boombox outside the window. Hayley wanted her life to be like a righteous 80's movie, a love like Jake from Sixteen Candles waiting outside the church for her. But of course, John Hughes did not direct her life. She did and right now she was doing a horrible job at it.

"How about some stew, hon?" Mom asks as Hayley takes off her coat and hung it on the coatrack and a groan escapes from my mouth from delight.

"Yes, please!" She says and go to the living room where I see McKayla sitting beside the fire. "Eh, kiddo."

"Sup, Hayley?" McKayla giggled as Hayley smiled at her sister and opened her s guitar case and started strumming different chords until it started sounding beautiful and peaceful lullaby.

"What's new, Hayball?" Her mother asks as, Hayley shrugs and digs into the bowl of stew her mom had brought her.

"Nothing really, ma." Hayley says and stuffs her face with another mouthful, "I guess I've just been really busy with work and everything."

"How is Chad?"

Hayley coughed up the third mouthful of stew she had put in her mouth, "What about him?"

Her mother shrugged, "Well, Hayley... It has been awhile since you've brought a boy home."

"That's because I don't have a boyfriend!" Hayley's cheeks flush with either anger or embarrasment but maybe it was a little bit of both.

Her mother sighed, "Hayley, I'm just trying to look out for you. That pretty face won't last long--"

"Mom!" Hayley groaned, "I - I..." Hayley didn't know what to say so she closed her mouth. After a few minutes of awkward silence, McKayla opened her mouth and started talking about high-school.

Thank God.

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Josh furrowed his eyebrows, "Tell me why do we have to get a new house again?"

Jenna simply smiled at her fiancee who was starting to annoy her with all these questions, "I just think it's better. I mean, you've lived in this house for ages. It's old. We want something new."

No, Josh didn't. Josh loved this house and there was nothing wrong with it. Okay, maybe it needed a bit of fixing up but he could manage that. It was big and beautiful and held so many memories.

Josh didn't want a new house.

Josh didn't want anything new. 

"What do you want me to do than, Jenna?" Josh said and crossed his arms and leaned back against the counter, "I like it here."

"Well I don't. My parents already said they would buy the house that we chose, they said it was our wedding gift from them."

Of course! Because her parents are rich fucking snobs. Josh was getting annoyed, "Fine. I'll set up something tomorrow."

"Oh, thank you, Joshie-Woshie." Jenna kissed him hard against his lips and left. Josh sighing, sat in a chair and played with his grilled-cheese Jenna kept making him. Josh was stressed and he didn't want anything to do with anything anymore.

His heart-ached and Jenna was just annoying him with all the last details of the wedding that would be in a few weeks.

Josh just wanted a cold-one and to hang out with some of his buds including, Hayley William's best friend, Jeremy Davis. They had grown to like each other, although they were a little reprehensive at first but they found much in common, quickly.

Where was Hayley Williams?

What was she doing?

Was she smiling?

Josh wondered; could she be with Chad Gilbert again? Or was that a one-time thing? Probably not. Josh's mind wandered again, maybe they were having uncontrollable, hot sex and she was moaning out his name. Josh clenched his free hand that wasn't wrapped in a cast and shoved the chair behind him.

He had to be indifferent about her.

But how could he? It was high-school all over again.

Josh hated it.

Josh wanted Hayley and he wanted her right now. He wanted her lips. He wanted her hands to touch him, to intertwine their fingers together to kiss and love. Josh wanted all of Hayley Williams.

Hayley Williams

Accept | Decline

Josh hit accept and expected to hear her sweet voice, but it was the exact opposite.

"You're a piece of shit, you know that, Farro?" Hayley said and he could hear the rain tattering outside, "You got my mom to design your soon-to-be-wife's dress? How fucking dare you."

"Hayley, hold up--"

"Is this some kind of payback for sleeping with you?"

"I didn't-- no, Hayley."

She sighed into the phone and I could hear her cry out softly and hear her mumble, "I just, I thought... I'm so sorry, Josh. I didn't mean to ruin anything. I don't mean to be so sour towards you."

"Hayley..." Josh's voice softens and he just wants to go there and hug her, "Please, don't--"

"Hayley, come on. The movie is on."

"Chad's there?" Josh asked and went to the basement so Jenna wouldn't over here.

"Y-Yeah.." Hayley says, "Um, he's just trying to be friendly."

"Friendly my ass-- he just wants to get into your pants!" Josh said irritated

"Then why don't you come over and try?" Hayley says, "Wait, you might want to tell your fiancee--"

"Hayley, can we meet?"

Hayley was quiet. What was she going to say? Yes or no? Yes or no? Josh bit his lip. Hayley chewed the inside of her mouth, letting tears escape as she closed her eyes.

"No." With that, she hung up her phone and slid it into her pocket, "You have to go home, Chad."

"I just made popcorn---"

"Please, now!" Hayley said louder than she intended

Chad mumbled something unintelligable and left without saying goodbye and Hayley's world was spinning upside down and Josh stood in the cold, moist basement looking at his phone, not believing it. That Hayley would call him back and they would meet up and they would hug.

But she didn't.

And Josh hated that. He hated her for that.