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August 28, 2008someone please talk to me i need someoneok i just found out that my cousin kyle is in a coma and dieing... hes had cystic fibrous and i think its finally catching up to him... ok update: he's been put on a ventalator now.. he's sorta concouis but still unable to do anything geuss what guys.. MY COUSIN IS OUT OF HIS COMA!!!!!!! he's going to be ok
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July 22, 2008You Saved My Life
T-shirts displaying painted on words, screennames on the bright monitor screen at night, next to the "I love this band" and "I love that band" avatars, all reading:
"Your music saved my life..." "I wouldn't be here if you weren't!" "You saved my life! I love you!" and other forms of the same sentence. My favorite band saved my life. Music is the new medium of youthful struggle, giving us something to lean on and to depend on, to make us feel better about being different - and we all know we're all different and weird in our own secret ways, no matter now much some will try to disagree... Music has always been a very usable and applicable form of beauty to situations in our lives. Each song had to have been inspired by something. In the past one hundred years we have finally gotten up the courage to say "music gave me something to live for" and not worry about being badly thought of. But in this century, we take the acceptance of that term for granted. It's the latest trend for bands to be life savers. That's the best trend that's ever been, in my opinion, but is it always true? How many times have you talked to someone about a band and they have said "this band saved my life!" or some variation of that sentence? It's become cliche. It's a known fact that this world is getting harder and harder to live in, that more and more sources of comfort and hope - such as music - are needed to keep the naturally weak youth alive and strong. Music saves lives everyday, and will continue to. Though it seems that you're not considered a true fan unless you owe your life to the band of your choice - or several bands. Therefore it's as if everyone is going around saying that music saved their lives when it really didn't, just so they can be considered as true a fan as the one who really does owe their existence to a song. I know I'm guilty of this, and I know others are, too. When I first listened to My Chemical Romance, I saw that they were a life saving band... and I wanted that connection, that love, too. At that time, I did not even know what it meant to be saved by a song, because I hadn't given it much thought. I knew that, at first, listening to them distracted me from my suicidal thoughts - and I figured that was enough. "You sing the words but you don't know what it means to be a joke and look, another line without a hook..." (My Chemical Romance, "I'm Not Okay") It was not until later down the road that I really did owe my hope to them; they helped me save myself. Because of that, I do say that MCR saved my life in more ways than they know, because I can say that with the utmost love and honesty in my heart towards them. I may have said that music saved my life just to fit in with the cliche, but I don't anymore. The reason that I wrote this blog was because of this cliche. I was you to ask yourself with complete honesty and integrity if a band completely saved your life. People seem to think that it's always a competition to see if who's a real fan and who's a poser. Arguing about how many posters you have, how many concerts you've been too, and how much they saved your life or not. I got into one of these arguments once, and I can seriously say it was one of the stupidest debates I've ever had in all of my nearly fifteen years on this planet. So what if a song has given you more hope than the next one? So what if you've been to all the concerts that have come to your town? We're all fans, no matter if music saved us or not. So if it really did save you, if it really did restore your hope and give you something to live for - say that. If you say that it did just to be more of a fan, please stop. Tell the truth. A real fan is proud of the truth of why they love their favorite band, and other fans will think no less of you. :) Until the sand runs out, -Sarah
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June 26, 2008Faith In Humanity
A few days ago, some of my friends were saying things like:
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May 23, 2008ConformityDo you remember who I am? Did you know that I miss you? I know you've been changing because of what people have said to you, about you. Watching you listen to that music you don't even know the words to. Listening to you say those things you and I both know are lies. Just so people would stop spreading rumors about you. you know - i went through that last year. a lot of conformity because of what people would say about how i thought, how i acted. all that. so trust me when i say ive been through what you're going through. and if you're even still reading, i want you to listen to me now. be who you are. not who everyone else thinks you should be. i know it sounds cliche but its true. dont ever let someone tell you you're not good enough because of how you dress, what music you listen to, anything like that. because you are you, and you dont have to be "good enough" for them. because you're good enough for me. I was always there for you. You were happy... why do you think i love you? because you're the amazing person, no matter what. not because you fit in. not because you're just like everyone else. not because you try to act the way that people want you to so they wont spread rumors about you. i love you for the true you.theres nothing that can change that fact. if you try to conform and be like everyone else, then you're just being another cookie cutter product of society. you are a very beautiful person yourself. who you are naturally is the most beautiful you can be. when you're being who you know you really are and not giving a damn what other people think about you. thats true freedom.
in my opinion, a person who can be their own and really and truly NOT care about the negative things people say is the most free and smart person out of us all. theres this pressure, especially on young girls this generation, to be the ideal. to be good at everything and to be pretty and to fit in and get boyfriends, or else we might as well not be women. you know what i say to that? fuck. that. we dont have to be perfect. its better if we're not. because it means we're REAL. example: i listen to mcr everyday and i sing along. i sound really bad when i sing due to an illness i had. i get told "thank god you're not in chorus" a lot and it took me a long time to accept things like that, but now i have gotten the strength to say to them "yea, i know. so fucking what. i sing because i love this song and it makes me happy. yes its a weird song but i like it, so bugger off." and they leave me alone. truly. so the point of this whole long thing is just to be you're own person for YOU, not for anyone else. because i love you because you are you and no one else. -sarah, xoxo If you ever want to talk to me again, you know I'll always be right here. I always was. And even though you have rejected me because they, your new friends, have. I'm not going anywhere. I'm the real you. The person that's hiding under these clothes that don't fit right. Under this over-dieted, over-cometiced skin. I'm the one that you tried to kill because of how people looked at me.
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April 27, 2008i love you for all your flaws
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